2004-08-21 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: why r u argueing over whos evil laff is better!?

2004-08-21 [sexy step 15]: cuz im not he sweet rapture is

2004-08-21 [Shards of Glass]: sweet isn;t evil... that or my antonyms are all mixed up.

2004-08-21 [sexy step 15]: right

2004-08-21 [Shards of Glass]: whats right?

2004-08-21 [the loved wolf]: hi all

2004-08-21 [sexy step 15]: that sweet rapture's name is a double negative

2004-08-21 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: riiiite...

2004-08-21 [Shards of Glass]: lol

2004-08-21 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: too confusing for me!

2004-08-22 [sexy step 15]: yeah

2004-08-22 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: good..at least im not the onli one!

2004-08-22 [Shards of Glass]: ha ha!

2004-08-22 [Reject]: lol

2004-08-22 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: has anybody here ever caused their own heart to break...obviously because of love??

2004-08-23 [sexy step 15]: Yes!

2004-08-23 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: really sucks dont you think??

2004-08-23 [sexy step 15]: yep

2004-08-23 [Shards of Glass]: how did u make ur own heart break?

2004-08-23 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: yes unfortunately...and yes it does suck!

2004-08-23 [the loved wolf]: how is everybody??

2004-08-23 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: me good...i guess...and urself?

2004-08-23 [the loved wolf]: i'm good

2004-08-23 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i broke my own heart by performing acts that made the guy that I love hate me so if i wouldnt have done that then my heart never would have been broken....therefore I broke my own heart

2004-08-23 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: aww....*huggles*

2004-08-23 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: thanks

2004-08-24 [sexy step 15]: Well I asked him out he said maybe then I got asked out by someone else I said yes then he said i was cheaaating even though he neveer said yes to me so that kinda hurt

2004-08-24 [Shards of Glass]: oooh *huggles* thats horrible! but u know, even i fu are asked out, but ur trying on someone else, u probably shouldn;t go...

2004-08-24 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: very true!

2004-08-24 [Reject]: i think i may found the right one

2004-08-24 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i already know who the right one is but he doesnt want to be with me right now

2004-08-24 [spyco_lover]: (sorry to but in but...) yea i know how that is sexydevil....

2004-08-24 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: yea same here...but if you believe that he is the one for you, just hang in there. Love is patient!

2004-08-25 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i know it is so im waiting and I hope we work things out when i move back

2004-08-25 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: i hope so too! ^.^

2004-08-25 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: thanks

2004-08-25 [Shards of Glass]: lol. my friend is returning froma trip, hes telling is gf to jsut be patient till he gtes thre lol ^^ those 2 are really cut together tho..

2004-08-25 [spyco_lover]: lol thats cute... i dont believe in love but i do believe in soulmates... does that make sence?... but yea i believe completely that he is my soulmate

2004-08-25 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: thats really kool

2004-08-25 [spyco_lover]: which? i'm guessing it made sence then?

2004-08-25 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah it made sence and i think its kool that you found your soulmate

2004-08-25 [spyco_lover]: it'd be cooler if he felt the same lol

2004-08-25 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: just give him time to come around..its takes a while longer for guys! No offence...

2004-08-25 [spyco_lover]: yea... i hope that he'll come around lol... i dunno, i think part of it is cuz we're best friends and he tells me everything... but who knows.... god i wish he'd come aroun

2004-08-25 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: Grrr...i had the same prob with a guy i like too. Didnt know if i should tell him i liked him cuz we were such good friends i was scared of ruining it all. I told him and thank god nothing changed! we still pals!

2004-08-25 [spyco_lover]: lol yea, this guy knows i like him too which i think is a good thing

2004-08-25 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: it is a good thing,

2004-08-25 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah its usually better that they know

2004-08-25 [spyco_lover]: well then good lol for once i didnt screw up... lol i'm kinda happy now :p i called him and he got all excited to talk to me... sad isnt it

2004-08-25 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: no not at all. its usually the itty bitty lil things he does that make me happy and gitty. A look he gives, something he says, just the small things! ^.^

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: oh god.... i know that well... i got bad news today and so i called him and he cheered me up really quickly :)

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: awww..too cute! ^.^

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: yea i miss him though.... i'm hundreds of miles away cuz i'm visiting my cousin..

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: im a couple thousand miles away from the guy i love and i cant go back for another 10 months

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: that sucks so bad... i couldnt imagine doing that... i'mjust gone for 3 weeks

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i was forced to move to this shitty ass place and ive already been here for 8 months so i have 10 left and then i am moving back and hoping that me and him can work things out

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: well its good that you are gonna work things out

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: were going to try i dont know if we will

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: well its always worth trying

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah i know it is...i really love him but i guess i will have to wait

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: yea... i dont know if i believe in love or not... but who knows!

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i believe in it but i also believe that it is the worst thing that could happen to a person

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: see thats why i dont believe in it

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: like it says after my sign up thingy if what i went through was love... how can it be real?

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: it sneaks up on you and rips you apart piece by piece

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: i never wanna go through that again... but see i didnt love the guy, he said he loved me and yea... bad things happend

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah i know how that goes

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: mmm sux

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah tell me about it

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: ug... damn i'm smoking way too much right now... geez thats how much i just wanna talk to this guy... daaaamn

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: call him or something...cant hurt

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: cant... long distance

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: ohh thats my situation too but id call anyway....call collect or something

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: hmm i'll try it now

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: koolkool

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: hes talking to me like i'm crazy

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: what did he say??

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: he said 'your crazy'

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: well ok why did he say that??

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: cuz i called him long distance

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: tell him hes crazy for thinkin that you could go that long without talking to him

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: lol... i would but i'm laughing too hard

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: laughing at what??

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: him lol

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: koolkool

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: lol well i feel a little better now

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: thats good

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: awwww...its good to hear his voice isnt it?

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: too bad the rest of us cant be as fortunate

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: awww...y?

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: yea... life sux monkey

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: awwww.....dont say that...

2004-08-26 [VorpalBlade910]: .........

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: well i think it does

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: y do u think so?

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: experience has led me to that conclusion

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah i agree

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: good... i'm not the only one that thinks that

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: well of course not because its true

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: awww...would u guys actually consider hurting urself because a guy doesnt like you?

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: well when its your fault that they dont like you then i would be forced to say...yes

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: not because he doesnt like me... but if he betrayed me (this also cuz hes my best friend and i trust him completely... one of the very few ppl i do) on top of all the other bad shit thats been going on right now... yea

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: i dont understand why people think that commiting suicide is the only way out of a tough situation. Theres always other options...i dont know why commiting suicide it always the way people choose to go

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: i wouldnt kill myslef over any guy but suicide is always there when a person has no hope

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i would never commit suicide because i could still fix my life...not that i havent ever thought about it though

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: a while back i tried a couple times... but i met someone that gave me hope and has kept giving me hope to this day\

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: i have thought about it before too...actually thought about going thru with it once so i have a few scars from it here and there. But after i thought about it, it just seemed stupid to me. A person always has hope and im a firm believer in that. Theres always another option.

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: i dunno bout that...

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i donno about that either

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: Seriously, there is. You can live through it and become a stronger person. Just hang on tighter even when things get a lil rough, because theres always a calm after the storm, so things will get better.

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: ok if you say so

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: i just hate seeing people depressed and feeling like dieing is the onli way out.

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: dying isnt the only way out for some ppl but for others they dont know of anything better

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: thats why they need guidence and support from friends and family to help them thru it.

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: maybe they dont have any of that

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: they may think that no one cares and that they dont have any friends, but they do.

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: how do you know..they could simply be the only person in their life

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: they always have someone to confide in..even if its simply a school guidance councelor. Ur never the onli person in your life. I really dont think the world works that way.

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: ok but not all ppl that commit suicide are in school and all that so they really might not have any one else

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: plus did you kwno that if a person expresses feelings to harm themselves to a guidance councillor they have to tell the parents... a lot of kids dont want that

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: thats true, but i like to think positive, so shoot me for seeing the glass half full!!!

2004-08-26 [spyco_lover]: lol

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: well nobody is giving you crap for seeing the glass half full its just that not all people see things the same way that you do....maybe they dont have a better way out

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: plus if they ever say that they tried to kill themselves and didnt succeed or whatever to an official like a counselor or a cop or anything....suicide is illegal to attempt in many places

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: is it..that i didnt know...im dumb...

2004-08-26 [the loved wolf]: hi all

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: youre not dumb but they do say that "this is illegal to attempt but if you succeed then you got away with it" or some stupid shit like that

2004-08-26 [the loved wolf]: what???

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: what are you asking what about??

2004-08-26 [the loved wolf]: what you just said

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: we were talking about suicide and stuff...and she said it was illegal in some places

2004-08-26 [the loved wolf]: it is illegal here in Michigan

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: wow

2004-08-26 [the loved wolf]: yeah

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: see told ya

2004-08-26 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: well thats a good thing then..maybe some ppl will stop doing it

2004-08-26 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah hopefully

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: i think thats a stupid law... but thats just my opinion... there is this song its called suicide it kinda explain how i see this law but yea

2004-08-27 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i think its a stupid law too but we didnt get to decide whether it bacame one or anything

2004-08-27 [the loved wolf]: i think its a stupid law too

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: meh..i dont...but thats just my opinion...everyones entitled to one

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: yup of course

2004-08-27 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i mean i dont approve of suicide but i think that if somebody tries because times get tough then they shouldnt turn around and be thrown in jail...thats stupid. I think that they should be able to do whatever they want to with their life.

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: I dont think they should be thrown in jail for it. If they were miserable before, putting them in jail wont make them any happier. It will only make them feel worse. They should come up with a different alternative.

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: where i live, they dont get thrown in jail, they have to go to the psychiatric ward at the hospital til the docters are sure that they feel better or something... it really sucks

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: how did we ever manage to get onto this topic...lol

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: who knows lol its a weird topic yes

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: yea its so sad...i hate sad topics...

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: i dont mind them, but yea... they get a little depressing after a while

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: yea so lets the change the topic...k?

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: agreed

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: but what to talk about

2004-08-27 [spyco_lover]: i g2g bye all

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: buhbye!

2004-08-27 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: well we got on the topic by talking about how some of us have caused our own hearts to break and you asked if we would hurt our selves because of it.....just letting you know. so what do you guys want to talk about

2004-08-27 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: oh yea..i remember now. I just didnt feel like going back and searching few the last couple pages to find out. Me so lazy!

2004-08-27 [Pheonix Ryder]: ......................................

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: lol

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: i realized that after i left lol

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: lol

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: wow... i think my brain is completely fried today lol i missed my mouth when i was trying to take a sip of my five alive it went down my shirt... very sticky

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: ive done that before

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: i do it a lot

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: haha ive stopped doing that recently but it used to happen all the time in front of my XBF

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: lol

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: lol...ive done that before..sometimes i miss my mouth when im eating too!

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah ive done that too

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: i am the messiest eater i know, i dont actually eat very much, over half of it lands up on my clothing somehow

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: haha

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: yea i know eh its quite amusing :p

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: lmao! i hate getting dirty at skewl..cuz then you have to walk around with a stain on ur shirt

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: thats the worst

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: well i'm the ghetto one at my school, so most of my clothes are ripped or stained with numerous things, but its all good...it helps that i dont usually have time to eat at school

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: well we have uniforms in our skewl, so if you get anything dirrty it sticks out like a sore thumb!! its crazy!

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: i couldnt go to a school that wears uniforms..no offense. But i like being an individual...if you knew me you would know how i dress and all that and thats why i couldnt wear a uniform

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: i almost was going to a school with uniforms... as soon as i heard that they were getting them i signed myself up to a new school

2004-08-28 [Pheonix Ryder]: SHAGANABANOOSHA!!!^ ^

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: lol nice randomness rapture

2004-08-28 [Pheonix Ryder]: ^ ^ tankies!!!gloober!

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: lol...i cant stand uniforms tho either. Theyre not so bad (as in theyre comfortable) but wearing the same thing every day gets dull. But it doesnt really bother me as much. SOme of the teachers are really picky tho and make sure u have ur shirt tucked in and a proper belt and shoes. Some teachers just dont care tho..

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: that would drive me crazy

2004-08-28 [Pheonix Ryder]: i have to wear a uniform too....it sucks...

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: i would go berzerk

2004-08-28 [Pheonix Ryder]: yup....but we have a "non-uniform" oncve a month...

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: well that must be a nice change eh

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: yeah seriously

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: at my old school we had to wear skirts and we had a choice of 3 uniform shirts and then we got 'pants day' i hated it lol

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: oh..we have a billion shirts to chose from and its up to us whether we want to wear a skirt or pants. In summer we have shorts. And we get a non uniform day once a month. Unfortunately, this year our skewl lost the non uniform days for a couple months cuz apparently we were dressing like skanks!

2004-08-28 [Pheonix Ryder]: OO wow...we can wear anykind of kakhi botoms and a choice of 3 color shirts, burgendy, forest green, or white.and on fridays and mondays we can wear our team shirts,or sprit shirts

2004-08-28 [Cause of death *broken heart*]: that would suck

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: yea we get some days when we can wear spirit shirts. Cheerleaders usually wear their outfit and people on skewl teams wear their game uniform.

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: that woulda been nicer than what we had to wear lol

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: why...what did u have to wear?

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: a dark skirt that went below the knees and one of the 3 uniform shirts, one was maroon with lime green and navy blue, the other was navy blue with pink writing, and the last one was a offwhite golf shirt

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: ewww below the knee!!!??? we roll our kilts!!

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: lucky, if we got caught with a skirt that isnt below the knee we had to wear the office skirts *shudders* i swear they washed them once a month

2004-08-28 [Pheonix Ryder]: eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..................

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: ewwwwww....we can onli roll ours so high but u wont find a girl with her kilt past her knees. Unless shes a nerd or something!

2004-08-28 [spyco_lover]: yea i know... that wasnt even the worst part of that school... god it was hell on earth

2004-08-28 [6 crazy-beautiful 9]: meh i dont mind it all that much. Its the work that i hate!