The secrets one hides deep within their heart, no one know but the person. Very rarely are these secrets ever told. Luckily your stumbled upon a collection of my writings. A small view of what I hide deep within. Not all of them will be happy. So, if you want happy poetry, I suggest looking else where. But if you enjoy reading about heartache, lies, and torture, I guess you can stay...

will write more, when I get the inspiraration.



~My Cowboy~
Promises are made, and promises are broken.
You came into my life unexpectly, and stole my heart.
I thought you were perfect, I didnt care what others said.
You held my heart, so gently, I never thought it would fall.
Then one day, out of the blue, you dropped my heart.
And laughed when it shattered.
I thought you were different, I thought you were perfect.
Now I see, your just like every one else.....

Note From The Author: This poem is not about [Ikari]

~These Feelings~
These feelings for you, I keep deep within my heart.
Ive tried tolet go, I've tried to move on.
The harder I try, the deeper in love I fall.
When your near, everything seems right.
At night, I wish you were near, to hold me tight.
I look for you when I'm awake, and dream about you when I sleep.
Your always on my mind. Everything makes me think of you.

Note From Author: If you think its about you, your wrong.

~End of my rope~
I'm all out of options, with everything to lose.
I've lost what meant the most.
I've lost my life, my heart, my soul.
I want to slit my wrist, to end the pain.
But I know that won't make you proud.
I'm so confused, and heart broken.
Hanging by the end of my rope, with nothing left to lose.
All I can do is, let go, and rot in this hell, I call a life.

Note From Author: Yes its about sucicide. No I wasn't planning anything

~I Lost Everything~
You were my world, my best mate, my twin.
I loved you with everything I am,
I held nothing back.
You said we'd be friends forever,
But forever didn't seem to last very long.
You said I was numbe 1, your top priority,
But all that changed, over night.
Over the next few days, you slowly slipped away.
I'd call, and you were busy.
I'd write you, and get no responce.
I'd visit, you wouldn't be home.
I lost everything, the day I lost my best friend.

Note From Author: The Poem can be found on A Simple Letter

~Puppet Strings~
You jerk my strings right, I move to the right.
You jerk my strings left, I move left.
I'm nothing more than a mere puppet to you.
Master, if you would open your eyes, and look at me,
you would see I'm a human not a puppet.
Those strings your jerking around,
are my feelings, my heart.
I want you to cut my strings, stop suffercating me,
and let me live!
Master, thats all I ask....

Note From Author: For the first time...there isnt one

~This Moment~
In this moment, I hate you more, than I've ever hated anyone!
You are a lying, cheating, piece of shit!
You stole my heart, and gave it back in pieces.
I was nothing more, then a pawn, in a evil game you play.
You told me things, you knew I needed to hear,
but you never once had any feelings behind those words.

Note From Author: Dont even ask. I wont talk about it!

~Your Words~
You tell me you hate me, then you say you love me.
I'm confused, on how you feel. I dont know what to think.
Your words cut me deeply, and then they fix everything.
No matter what, I keep going back ot the pain, the happiness....everything
I'm your puppet, can you not see that?
You abuse me, and I keep coming back!

Note From Author: Again, there isnt one

~One Of The Guys~
I hang out with 3 incredible guys.
Though being the only girl, I tend to feel like the odd ball.
It makes me remember being back home.
I want to be one of the guys, but I'm a girl.
I dont play foot ball, or fart in public.
And I'm embarrssed about burping.
I dont check out other females, like the guys do
I want to be one of the guys, but sadly, I'm just a girl,
In a guys world...

Note From The Author: This is for the guys in my life, Raymond {Ray}, Danny, Luke

~Deaths Loving Embrace~
I'm at the end of my rope, no more options.
I've already put the knife in my chest.
As quickly as things go cold, they get warm.
Death picks my limp body up, and holds me close.
"Your safe now, my dear" he says calmly. "we've been waiting for you"
His touch feels so welcoming, his embrace so loving.
I cant help but wonder how I ever went on without him.
I long awaited the moment, when Death would hold me.
And now that the times come, I don't ever want to leave.

Note From Author: Its self explanitory

~One Final Request~
My time here, has come to an end.
I dont leave from force, but choice.
I watched you grow into what you are today.
I taught you all I knew.
I showed you how to love and accept.
I taught you to have an open mind,
and a dream in your heart.
As my time nears an end,
I want you to remember my lessons.
Teach others as I have taught you.
And remember, no dream is to big or to small to come true.

Note From Author: For any parent who had to let their child spread their wings, and grow up.
And [Ikari], becuase of the fact we're falling apart.

~The Final Moments~
She woke the next morning, to find a note, where he used to lay.
"I guess it wasn't meant to be, you and me" are the words he wrote.
She sat there, and fought back the tears, hoping his words were a joke.
She wiped her eyes, and looked all around the little beach house.
She couldn't find him anywhere.
All his clothes were gone.
All she had left of him, were his final words.

Note From Author: Only one will truly understand the meaning.

~What's Forever For?~
You promised forever, and we lasted a few short months.
You said, you'd always be at my side, and now your no where around.
I loved you, and you promised to love me.
That promise was broke, when you left.
I told you I was afraid, you said everything would be ok.
How is everything ok now?
You left after promising forever.
You took my life away, when you walked out the door.
You thought everything was more important, though
you never knew, you were my life. You were my world.
Now, your nothing but a faded memory....

Note From Author: For an old friend of mine.

~Vampire Eyes~
You called me your empath, and
I called you my vampire.
You got my attention with your vampire eyes.
And then you stole my heart.
You held me in your arms so tight,
never wanting to let go.
Without notice, everything changed, and I lost my vampire.
I love you. And your always in my thoughts.
I keep counting down the days until I see your vampire eyes agian.
Promise me, when we meet again, you'll kiss me softly,
and hold me tightly.
And promise, to never let go again.

Note From Author: The drawing, that goes along with this poem, can be found at Michelle's New Drawing Wiki Thingy

~Unspoken Desires~
I lay in bed at night wishing to feel
your arms wrapped about me
Wishing to feel your lips pressed
up to mine
But you just sit there, clueless as to
what I want
You know how I feel yet nothing is done

~Hauntingly Romantic~
I can't get you out of my mind
Your all I think about
Every time I see you, time stands still
and every thing moves in slow motion.
In my dreams I see you and I can feel you near
You hold me close and whipser swet nothings in my ear
Its hauntingly romantic how much I need you here.
A passion that burns deep in my heart.
A firey torch that won't go out.
Thoughts of you race rapidly in my mind
Your image burned in my mind
Your words forever imprinted on my heart
The times we share locked away in my memory



Now carfully tread back to [Angelic nightmares] or The Sea Witch for my dreams lie on the floor