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[SILENCE HURTS]

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If you want, you can make a banner for this Wiki I would greatly appreciate it.

This is a wiki for those who REALLY want help.

If you have any stories or poems that express how you feel... feel free to add them to this page... or any pics you like that FIT TO THE CIRCUMSTANCES of this wiki. If you have a problem or a situation you want to share please add a comment or for private chats...message me at [SILENCE HURTS].

Hey fellow elftowners.

This is a confessional page...it is completely annonymous... if you just need someone to talk to.

[I'm always here to help, just message me. I'm free to talk about emotional distress, pain, memories, cutting, suicide, drugs, alcohol, anything you may need to confess or talk about, I'm here to help you, and to help you make decisions, whatever I may suggest, you have no obligation to do, in your heart, you need to do whats right.]

Talk to me.
I can help Y.O.U through tough times and I try to help with anything I can, the skys the limit... I really just want to help people and try to make the world a better place.

[I won't ever judge you.]

So if you need to confess something...just get it off your chest...or if your just bored and need someone to chat with...message me. Im here for you.

I just want to take a second to thank everyone again who sends me messages saying how much they appreciate this wiki and all of the people who took my poll, thank you all :)

im glad people are using the chat down at the bottom, but i retain from typing there because i think that should be a place where you can talk amongst yourselves

You dont need to be a member of this wiki...come and go as you please...take what you want.

"When you get what you want
in your struggle for self
and the world makes you king for a day
just go to the mirror and look at yourself
and see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your father or mother or wife,
whose judgment upon you must pass
The fellow whose verdict count most in your life
is the one staring back from the glass.

Some people may think you a straight shootin' chum
and call you a wonderful guy.
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum
if you can't look him straight in the eye.

He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
for he's with you clear up to the end,
and you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test
if the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of life
and get pats on the back as you go,
But your final reward will be heartaches and tears
if you've cheated the man in the glass"

CoMfOrT
by [Dhom]

I was once told...

DON'T cry for what could have been
DON'T grieve for what has passed
And DON'T be weak and fall. Be strong for those around you.

To you I say...

CRY for what could have been.
GRIEVE for what has passed
And don't be afraid to FALL, because in weakness of heart, companionship and consolation is often found.

Remember...

Through WEAKNESS comes STRENGTH.
Through GRIEF comes PEACE
And through CRYING, comes the day when you can finally look upon the world and SMILE.

For those loved and lost never really leave you, but watch from the stars above.

ReMeMbEr To BrEaThE
by Dashboard Confessionals
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[BinaryPhoenix]

Don't kill yourself, there's no hurry
You should not make a decision out of sadness and fury
Life is not as horrible as it seems;
Don't end it all and give up on your dreams
You must realize you have your whole life ahead
You surely cant enjoy it, if you are dead
Before you know it, it will be your time to pass
Life is precious, and it goes by too fast
Lots of people can be cruel, that is definately true
But open your self-centered mind and
Realize that others have it worse than you
Suicide is selfish, it destroys the ones who care
You aren't the only victim, you should be aware
Instead of being pessimistic, you shoiuld think positive
There are so many reasons you are meant to live

by Natalie Luber
The National Library of Poetry - The Voice Within page 43

C.o.m.e W.a.t.c.h M.e B.l.e.e.d

Come, watch me bleed
Watch my broken heart cry
Watch my eyes shed red tears
As my head wonders why
Watch my fingers weave spells
Of malice and shame
See the cruelty bordered
With a twisted gold frame
Watch life's simple pleasures
Destroyed by wild greed
Watch my lips speak these words
'Oh come, watch me bleed'
[Izzles]

You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out. Fine -- but before you kill yourself, consider these facts:

[!!Suicide is not usually successful!!]

You know a guaranteed way? Ask the 25yr old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But, both of his arms are gone.
What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humour. That was before he lept from a building. Now, he's brain damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he knows he used to be normal.
What about pills? Ask the 12yr old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go.
What about a gun? Ask the 24yd old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide.

You might too. But .. who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse the job -- but someone has to do it. Who will cut you down from where you hung yourself, or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your sister or brother? The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will never completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.

Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. You do have other choices. There are people you can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you there's hope. Maybe in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.
You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left.

If you are reading this, steal it and put it in your site too. If you're seriously considering this permanent solution to a temporary problem, please find help. This isn't the way to go, you may think that everyone would just be better off without you, but have you ever seen a family who has lost a loved one to suicide? They're messed up, the parents usually get divorced, the siblings never talk to each other. This not only ends your life, it changes the lives of others around you, but not in a good way. There are people who love you, and people who have been through the same things as you, even though it may not seem like it at times. So please, seek help.

I hope you have realized that Suicide's not the way out. there are so many other safer ways of dealing with your problems. Maybe you think it's easier to just die. But think of what you are giving up. you're leaving your family, friends, and all the people who care about you and love you. And maybe you're not even that old yet, you have to experience life, find true love, that kind of stuff. Killing yourself isn't going to help. That's just running away from your problems, it's not solving anything, it's not making it better.

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This is a mirror of my elfpack page, it goes by the same name on elfpack

2005-10-21 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: not sure who this is...but they really help...

2005-10-22 [Dhom]: I think this site is a really good idea... it helps...

2005-10-22 [GTO500]: I think Silence Hurts is true, being silent doesn't help no matter what anyone tells you. i know from experance, you being silent just cutts you deep,, making you cry out in frustration. After so long you kinda forget to talk or to open up. To start to speak, no longer being silent is really hard. What you are doing right now, is a very very nice thang

2005-10-22 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: |p|o|e|t|r|y| is my anti-silence

2005-10-25 [Kairu]: I think this is a nice thing too. Supressing all of your anger does cause pain. I know. I've did it for 8 years now. Been teased all through Middle and High School. It sucks...I still get picked on and teased. :(

2005-10-27 [Dhom]: Yeah I've had that experience. But I gave up trying to be something I'm not. I've finally found friends that like me for who I am. Once you find people as weird as yourself, things get better. I now look at the people who tormant others and pitty them. I mean. Think about it. If they need to make others feel worse off, what the hell is wrong with them?

2005-10-28 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: people are mean...everyones mean to someone once in a while...im glad i found people as weird as me :) hey kyle lol...i know whats wrong with the people who torment others...they really deep down are hurting inside

2005-10-30 [Soul Assassin]: i agree with gto500 up there...after being silent it's aweful hard to speak. it's just a weird feeling...

2005-10-30 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: yeah i know what u mean....keeping things cooped up inside kills ya slowly

2005-11-03 [.://mEiNeS kLeInEs eIn\\:.]: My cousin should find this! He is a suicide preventionist! Keep at this please!

2005-11-04 [~AzureSkyy.-]: Please ... Export this page?

2005-11-04 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: what does export page mean?

2005-11-04 [~AzureSkyy.-]: Export ... So that the page can be seen by non-elftowners. With a URL link.

2005-11-04 [†Drusilla†]: I think this page is a brilliant idea, I shall make sure I recommend it to people! ^_^

2005-11-05 [IzzyKSK]: Who ever came up with this wiki, is great.. More people need to stop beinmg silent about their difficulties. But I know there will always be people who won't sya anything at all, so posting the stuff here for them to read could be help as well.. This is a great wiki, and keep it up.

2005-11-06 [Famous Last Words]: Yes, people need to talk, I learned that the hard way and some of my friends are still learning, or refusing to learn. I just wish they would talk, and be more like me, who just can't keep her mouth shut now that she's opened up.

2005-11-06 [fear and love]: i'v been order to talk on here

2005-11-11 [~AzureSkyy.-]: ... You have to want to talk for anything to work. Do you?

2005-11-11 [fear and love]: yeah i tell most ppl half of my probelms at the least

2005-11-12 [Dhom]: Well do you want us to know?

2005-11-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: no one can make you change the person you are inside....and no one can make you talk about your problems... i agree with azure

2005-11-12 [fear and love]: well basicly im 17 going oon 40 and the only 1 keep sum of my friend alive (so they say), and i have to must preser and dont how now to release it in a way that ppl do wont mine

2005-11-12 [SILENCE HURTS]: sometimes taking a walk or drawing can help you release pressure...or writing something, you could take a vacation or just a weekend to forget all the pressure. You can maybe release your pressure by talking to your friends...the ones that put pressure on you, tell them how you feel and maybe that will help some.

2005-11-12 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: tell your friends to chill out tell them that u need to solve ur own problems b4 theirs

2005-11-12 [fear and love]: they're suidal

2005-11-21 [searching for the light]: This wiki is such a wonderful idea...This is so awesome! I wish I had known of it when I was feeling bad about myself! (I think I'm going to make a banner!) You guys are so wonderful for helping out!

2005-11-21 [choke_on_dreams]: Please help me. my boyfriend broke up with me. and i cant breathe

2005-11-21 [fear and love]: wot happen

2005-11-22 [SILENCE HURTS]: choke on dreams.....just take deep breaths, and concentrate on your friends that love you and will get you thru this. Everyone has their sole-mate and a true love out there somewhere, just around the corner, so just take a breath...because its not the end of the world, you will be OK without him, you can do it i know you can!!!

2005-11-22 [Soul Assassin]: i think it's "soul-mate" i don't think we all have just one perfect match. think about it. we have like what, six BILLION people in the world. there has to be more then one perfect match out there. sooo....i agree it's not the end of the world and you are strong enough to e withough him

2005-11-22 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i think ur right

2005-11-22 [SILENCE HURTS]: i think thats VERY right too...sorry i am not the best speller lol...but really soul assassin you are right in all means

2005-11-22 [Soul Assassin]: on thats "be" *points up* not e. *shrugs* there's a lot of people that disagree it just doesn't seem like it'd be possible to only have one match for each person when there's that many people. it's a lot like dominoes. just with all our emotions...maybe a bit more complicated

2005-11-23 [searching for the light]: I agree with you though! I'm sure there's like...100 soul-mates in this world for each and every one of us! *throws fist into the air*

2005-11-23 [Soul Assassin]: *applauds* totally that's the the spirit.

2005-11-23 [searching for the light]: :D I try...^_^ What can I say?

2005-11-23 [Soul Assassin]: trying is a good start. "shoot for the moon. if you miss you'll hit a star" or maybe a black hole.....

2005-11-23 [searching for the light]: XD What's that supposed to mean? That if I try too hard, I'll diiie? ;__;

2005-11-23 [Soul Assassin]: die of trying too hard?! never heard of that happening. a friend and i were discussing that saying. shoot for the moon and maybe you'll hit a star. then we were like well there;s a lot of space before a star comes around so........maybe if you don't hit a star you'll hit a blackhole....it was just a random and not particularly logical thought process

2005-11-23 [SILENCE HURTS]: Shoot for the moon and maybe you will hit a star...or maybe a black hole....i think maybe there should be another ending on that.....like...Shoot for the moon and maybe you will hit a star...or maybe a black hole..but eventually you will find your moon....or something...because when you get in a black hole you just gotta pick yourself back up dust off your knees and try again...

2005-11-23 [silent_voice]: very interesting point there

2005-11-23 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: black holes suck

2005-11-23 [fear and love]: i found a plant !!!! kinda

2005-11-23 [How To Break A Piano]: I like what I see here, to all those who created this wiki, and those who are here actually confessing that they hurt, keep it up. This is probably the most moving piece of web material for suicide prevention I have ever seen.

2005-11-24 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: a plant?

2005-11-24 [silent_voice]: wow [How To Break A Piano] is so....insightfull

2005-11-26 [*Eternity*]: This wiki is a great idea

2005-11-27 [Dhom]: I've had an epiphany... I've been hiking in NZ for the past week and quite depressed. So I'm trekking up this mountain... I'm thinking, rationally "I could end it now" I'm walking and with just two steps side ways I'd fall 1000+ metres. They told me that if I fell from the top of the mountain it would be a twelve second drop. So I was thinking "just twelve seconds till its over. Just twelve seconds". I got to the top of this mountain. The whole way up I'd been looking at my feet and the distance between the edge, how easy... I looked up.

2005-11-27 [Dhom]: I've never felt like this before. Between the feeling of freedom and the feeling of oppression at the same time. All I could see was mountains, valleys, sky joining with the earth. So much was stretched out in front of me. So much to take in. So much more than me…

2005-11-27 [Dhom]: I knew I wouldn’t jump. Not at that moment. Not at this moment. Hopefully not ever. It wasn’t through fear but through realisation that I decided against it. I’m driven by pride. It would be one of the bravest things to do but the most cowardly way to go and I don’t want that.

2005-11-27 [Dhom]: Only after I’ve taken and endured whatever this world throws at me can I jump.

2005-11-27 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: "It would be one of the bravest things to do but the most cowardly way to go" thats really touching

2005-11-28 [Soul Assassin]: that is true. i also came to that conclusion at a glacier camp this summer

2005-11-30 [Soul Assassin]: if anyone knows of a national suicide hotline or of a suicide site that they found helpful perhaps they could post it up here....

2005-11-30 [Dhom]: I think that's a grand idea.

2005-11-30 [Dhom]: ..Just breathe..

2005-11-30 [Soul Assassin]: just breathe?

2005-12-01 [Dhom]: sorry...ummm. I'm having a bit of a hard time at the moment, well at that time. Just a reminder, mostly for myself. Small steps to get through today, tomorrow... through life.

2005-12-01 [Soul Assassin]: life sucks when you can't look forward and you can't look back....you have only now, and whatever tomorrow may bring. nasty stuff.

2005-12-02 [Dhom]: You can always look back... that's usually the problem. Things that can't be changed. Things that no matter how much you wish to forget never leave you. Things that play over and over and over. Things that no matter how old or relevent, hurt just as deep if not more with time. The past consumes today and tomorrow...Hence, my predicament

2005-12-02 [Soul Assassin]: living today through yesterday. looking forward through a window of the past. it creates a very frustrating situation....hate it, but it's life. all the things we wish we could change all the past/s we wish we could forget, they shape us into what we are now....

2005-12-03 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: god do i know what the fuck thats like....i dwell on memories....lost memories that dont go away....im drawn to think of them and it has shaped me into the person i really truely hate right now

2005-12-03 [Dhom]: That's the other side of things. When instead of learning what not to do from our mistakes, we decide to put up our defenses so we never have to. making sense?

2005-12-04 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: that makes perfect sense

2005-12-04 [Soul Assassin]: too much sense yes.

2005-12-04 [Dhom]: good to know I'm not the only one who understands it. But I guess that's what this wiki's all about. *sharing* thoughts, even if I still feel the need to lace them in criptic and metaphorical wording. Such is my defence

2005-12-04 [Soul Assassin]: words and the way you can twist them, make it worth writing things down. the way you can string them in a line just to satisfy this thought or that.

2005-12-04 [Dhom]: Well said. I either say something so simple it's complicated or write with half truths, half meanings, in which one can pick up numerous versions and feelings conveyed. My security. To keep half if not more of what I’m meant to say.

2005-12-04 [Dhom]: It's interesting though... How one can feel so much more at ease when they don't need to face someone each day. You would think it'd have the opposite effect. the "I don't know you, thus I need tell you nothing" but I contradict. The fact that I dont know and will probably never meet you few helps my tongue slip from behind my teeth and proceed to say things that my family/friends would never hear, let alone understand.

2005-12-04 [x.shattered hope.Xx]: i totally get you... i think its easier to talk on the internet.....like one of my best friends is on the internet...i can tell him ANYTHING and he just talks to me and its allot easier then saying things in person.... and he will probably never meet me and be able to judge me....i tell all my secrets to a perfect stranger