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so that's the answer
at least it isn't tongue cancer.
i firmly believe that it has to do with psoriasis.

Sept. 18, 2000 -- That's a good question -- so good, in fact, that we in the medical profession are still asking it ourselves. Unfortunately, we still don't know what causes geographic tongue (aka "migratory glossitis") or whether children like your daughter will outgrow it.

Geographic tongue gets its name from these strange blotches that appear on children's tongues, looking a bit like continents on a world map. The spots, which can be a few millimeters to a few centimeters in diameter, are usually red with a white border.

Geographic tongue normally comes and goes. The blotches heal without scarring, and if new lesions do pop up, they usually appear in different areas -- hence the term "migratory" in the medical name. Rarely, they can affect the gums, lips, palate, and other parts of the mouth.

Some experts believe this condition, which appears to affect about 1% of American children, is a congenital problem, while others consider allergic inflammation to be the culprit. Although researchers aren't sure of its cause, geographic tongue has been linked to psoriasis, anemia, allergies, and psychological problems.

Children with this condition don't usually experience much pain or discomfort, although from time to time they may complain that the lesions burn. If that happens to your child, talk to your pediatrician or dentist to make sure that geographic tongue is actually what's causing the problem. In the meantime, have your child avoid foods and drinks that are hot and spicy or extremely acidic. Your child can also try over- the-counter numbing medicines that are sometimes used by teething children. They can provide a little relief, but should be considered only as a short-term solution.

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another snow day
i want to call kj
but i'm too lame
so instead i'm watching pi
i've been high since like 10 oh clock
my dad started smoking again
that asshole
uh....i'm still pretty high

top news in the world:

he makes my heart go like mad.
i want to be his number one fa sho like p diddy
like when you're sitting there going my my i'm depressed then you see someone and everything's not that bad.
that.
like one of those thingies that balding professors have on their desks. where one ball hits the other three, then the one on the other end goes, and so on and so on like the energizer bunny keeps going and going and going and going
that way you're never sad for very long.
if i could be that, then it wouldn't matter what happened.

and...
so i've been thinking about the fact that i'm not passionate about anything. how i don't really have a hobby and i don't really do anything useful. nobody has a useful hobby, so i don't really need one. all a person needs is something that keeps them going when times are being hard on them. my brother has art. thats expensive. he needs good paint, good lighting, a good eisal, good materials. i just like thinking and writing words. i like making the new ways to say things. to say something completely marvelous, and on accident. i love that. and i'm passionate about that. so if you ever again say you're not passionate about anything, you're a stupid lying girl.

here's a special feature story on prom:
roxxy wants me to go to prom. she said she would put it in a contract, if i go to prom then she'll buy me anything. she even mentioned coricidin.
i bet it would be a kick to go to prom on coricidin.
then rebel numero uno pops up from the nowhere lands in my head saying No FUCKING Way is Cecilia Rose Anne Berry going to prom. fuck prom, says rebel numero uno.
she says "prom is a stupid tradition, just like senior portraits, just like senior trip, just like the whole jostens sha-bam, just another good fight in the gender war. a stupid distraction where girls have to be pretty and boys have to be handsome. where you have to prepare months in advance: buy the dress, make sure its not the same as betty monroes or you'll never hear the end of it."
and i say "oh you silly girl, it's not like the stupid movies if you don't want it to be! you make your own memories! you don't have to focus on all that bullshit."
then rebel numero uno owns up. "i just don't want to go."
and there's nothing more out of rebel numero uno.
and there's no explanation: nothing.
and i'm left very puzzled.

in book news,
so i'm reading this book Think! and it's about how people are kind of diminished in their critical thinking capabilities. How people (americans, mostly) would rather pay others to do the thinking for them than trust their own minds. which is probably fine since they're so used to relying on others they hardly have an individual thought anyway.
tis a scary thing.

and now the weather.
so it snowed.
and i'm kind of thinking woah, it snowed 3 times in fuckin march and february like WHAT IS WITH THIS WEATHER!!!
and the only time it ever snowed before was like 5 or 6 years ago. so suddenly it's like christmas up in herr. and i'm singing all the christmas carols that focus on winter like frosty the snowman, and let it snow, and white christmas, and that walkin in a winterwonderland song.
except those are all the songs that no one really knows all the lyrics too unless they're crazy christmas fanatics, so i'm mostly humming them to myself.

and it seems that i have a C in art ed with dr wescombe. i don't think i've turned in many assignments actually, which is funny. also, i haven't read as much cuckoos nest as i was have supposed to by now. chorus is a drag, same as always, except now i'm not even getting participation points because i'm shy let my crackily voice out into the world so i just sit there. Then there's babcocks class. (shudders visibly) i still haven't done the marijuana thing. i mean, i've smoked marijuana but i haven't done the debate on why pot is bad.

in other news, i started smoking pot again.

in yet other news, it may be possibly that cecilia rosanne is yet again addicted to coricidin. this news anchor asks, is it possible that she never actually quit taking cough medicine? was she serious when she said it was bad and that she was done with it? obviously not. she has betrayed herself, me and her friends and family and that stupid teacher, and has retreated to the bottle of pills. this isn't actually news. it's like when bush says something dumb, the only reaction listeners have is "duh."

i've given up hope of getting a job because even if i were active enough to go out and get applications, i wouldn't fill them out. this was proved when i went out and got applications but didn't fill them out. eventually they were written on by my mom while she was on the phone, doodled on by me, and thrown out.

i don't have much of a future because i like to let rebel numero uno be the voice that takes charge. she who refuses to fill out applications, be it for jobs, financial aide, or a credit card. i don't want to try for college because a college diploma doesn't mean anything to me. i think that's mainly because of all those commercials where it's like You Can Do It Too! and it shows some lame ass who says i'm an idiot but i still got a degree and look at me now! it kind of devalues the idea of having a degree. i could benefit from a creative writing class, but i'm not into the idea of driving down the canyon all the time, especially when rebel numero uno has prohibited me from getting a license. plus i have this thing where i'm horribly terrified of the thought that i'm not ready for the rejection that's to come out of a creative writing class.
the red-stamp-across-the-paper REJECTED kind of thing.
rebel numero uno claims that's bound to happen and i'm ready for it. but i say if i were ready for it i'd be brave and actually BE boistrous and at least TRY. and Get rejected if that's what's bound to happen.
i remember at one point i said that there's a part of me that is afraid to get out there and try, because when you're an old fart you could always say I COULD HAVE BEEN SOMETHING IF I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICES. but if you made the right choices and you fucked up anyway then there's no excuse. then you're just an old fart and you couldn't have made it if you tried.
and i say, oh rebel haven't you heard that song? we can make it if we try just the two of us.
and rebel numero uno complains about how that song is whack. and she starts juggling. and the bottles are blue and red and yellow and white and green and they're spinning and spinning six and seven and eight of them. pretty soon it's just a whirl. and rebel numero uno juggles. and i'm mesmerized. and i watch. and i try to remember what i was talking about.
oh yeah, college. so rebel numero uno says it's a stupid idea. and i don't bother contradicting.

so i've taken to singing.
sometimes i'll wander around my property and sing. singing was what got me in trouble that day when the fat man approached. if i would have stayed in the bathroom and hid, i wouldn't have been noticed. but i wanted to be myself. i wanted to swing and i wanted to sing and i wanted to be happy. and the fat man, the authority man, the man, he came up and he say who are you? and i say who i am. and if that's life, and that is why i was upset. unless you hide (yourself) you're going to get caught. and then it's up to them. So i'll walk around the property going nowhere in particular and making up words to the best song in the world. the same song the birds sing. that now kind of song that comes straight out of your heart and into the air even if it's a little wavering and sometimes off key. the real songs.
of course i've tried to write one down. i thought maybe i could capture it and put some music to it, but every time i try it's...fleeting. it's like a storm and it's all happening at once and how are you supposed to write down a storm if your paper's getting wet?

the fat man day was an important part of my life, especially if it ends up i get psoriasis on my arm, where i was scratching myself. same as that day i was drunk, when i wanted to see blood so i cut my arm. if that had healed i probably would have forgotten about it. but since it turned into psoriasis i'll never forget it. so every time i put on ointment, every time my skin flakes off and stands out against the table like a sore thumb, i remember breaking the miller bottle. and the most important part of the memory is the leaves. they were on the ground because it was fall. i was sitting on a rock, in the sheep pen. the leaves were all around. i sliced into my arm pretty bad because i was drunk and couldn't really tell how deep it was. then there was blood droplets on the leaves. and it was like snow white, when the mother pricks her finger with a needle and the blood is so red.
if i get psoriasis on my arm from the fat man day too i'll never forget how... i was swinging and singing about how i'm completely free and nobody can drag me down. then there was this white truck. and right when i saw it i knew it was for me. and i decided not to light up another cigarette. and it was a good decision. and every time i see it, i'll want to slap myself in the face. because i think sometimes that psoriasis is good grounds to kill myself. you know...before it gets worse, because i know it will. but that's the same as coricidin, if i'm the one making the cuts in the first place.

so lately i've been kind of down. sometimes i can't really stand it but today it's kind of just a thing that happens. like how some things are supposed to be a great big deal, your sixteenth birthday, losing your virginity, getting drunk. once it's over it's just a thing that happened. just a memory in your cache.
but lately i've been kind of down, that stands.

in more news,
yesterday i was talking to kj and he said we've been dating for 8 months. and i felt bad about not meetng his parents yet. and maybe i'm just afraid of putting that in my cache as something bad that happened. like when i was singing that stupid song in front of all those people and i couldn't even start because i was deer-in-headlights petrified. then when i did get the notes out they were all wavery and off-sounding. And he said it's been fuckin great, i love you. and it was the greatest thing i've ever heard in my life because he said it feels like it's just been two weeks. and i agree completely.
so lately i've been trying to remember flapjack. that ficticious guy i was so hung up on meeting, on knowing and loving and laying next to on a hotel bed limbs entertwined.
and i'm so fucking happy i have this particular guy. KJ. the way he looks, the way he walks, his shoulder blades, his fuckin elbows even!
it's better than flapjack.
and it's time to leave now.
so i go.

I am the sun and moon mixed up to make silver sugar.
I am this and that all mixed up
I am tired of writing the wonders and then having them deleted by the feed
I’m sick of the feed
I’m waiting for Roxxy
it’s bad when you don’t remember what you were talking about and you know that if you had only gone about it a different way then maybe you’d know what you were saying. if you hadn’t pushed submit, if you hadn’t gone on to talk about a movie or a book that wasn’t very good to begin with.
you kids want the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth?
null?
the truth is that the chairs are bleeding
the furniture is bleeding
the television is bleeding and we are feeding!!
then the next thing you know you’re dazed and confused going there’s no blood here. and I say to myself, stupid I was speaking in metaphor and jim carrey says that’s as bad as speaking in rhyme. and I laugh because none of it is as bad as the fact that this is the truth
like chief
maybe it didn’t happen but it’s still true, that sort of thing
I want to run on an island in the sun
but we don’t want lesions
remember I goed we do if it costs too much
we stick our tongues out
we twiddle our thumbs
that’s no way to go franco unamerican
the feed is already there who even cares! its like when you go to the mall and you walk past a shitload of guys and they say ew.
it’s like when you use words like fetch
and then I say well golly gee gosh and wowie it seems like everyone is a stuck up wannabe I think I’ll take some cough medicine for the sickness
but really I don’t ever call anyone a stuck up or a wannabe no matter how high I am because that’s mean especially when it’s true.
but then that makes EVERYONE stuck up or a wannabe because we like to label eachother get it?
which is what we like to do
I’m hip I’m with it
I’m important
I’m not insignificant
which is a heap
but that’s okay because we’re an army of One and you must embrace your INDIVIDUALITY yeah right we’re all the same there is nothing here nothing
now I feel like I’m going in mal
and I wish my feed could turn off.

let it snow let it snow let it snow!
i'm going to make myself be cheerful
by singing and dancing and acting generally retarded.
it should help, i think.
it's like that body language book
i was happy when i read that
i finished watership down
dea ex machina
and i'm fuckin amazed.
well the weather outside is doo doodoo let it snow let it snow
oh fuck i want to do the netflix deedly
yes yes yes


i luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
shit

uhhhhhhhhh
i wish i were an oscar meyer weiner!!
i used to go to meyer school.
my boyfriend kicks my ass when i try to kick my ass.
and that is awesome.
cuz i get happy again.
and then i go cecilia you don't deserve it
and you dont deserve him
and you dont deserve shit
then i go jeez why don't i just fuck the contradiction and kill myself by overdosing on coricidin
then i cry
then i feel stupid about complaining
then i complain about complaining
and its a vicious cycle until
kj says i fucking love you
and then i have a present with a heart going thump thump
and i'm like happy
without coricidin
so then i don't want to overdose anymore
but i still want the nine dollars to fuck me up a bit
that's the story we like to call CECILIA YOUR BREAKIN MY HEART YOUR SHAKIN MY CONFIDENCE DAILY!!! CECILIA IM DOWN ON MY KNEES IM BEGGIN YOU PLEASE TO COME HOME!!
that song sucks
and i love carla
and kj
and ro
and vico
and jared
and jared gets a kick out of prank phone calls
and i get a kick out of blazing saddles
and i feel like a fish out of water
and i'm drowning right?
then i go hahahah!! i can swim duh i'm a fish!!
and it's all great
except that my fucking MARIJUANA INFORMATION isn't printing out THAT DICK KICK SLICK RICK!!!
then i'm goin fishin in lake michigan bub

today is bad.
THE ONGOING WOW IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW
i'm sick of quoting shit
i wish i didn't exist.
i'm not a fuck up, i'm just a fuck up
do you see?
i wish i would shut
up

It doesn’t matter what happened before that.
But it’s like….i’m cecilia berry
That’s what I was talking about before the fat man came.
That’s what I was singing about. I was sitting on the swing. And I was having the time of my life. And I was saying that. I made my decisions. I felt like I had the world.
Then their world goes crashing down on me.
And that’s what’s got me sad. It’s the fact that no matter what I do, it’s always up to them. And I have no say whatsoever. And money isn’t the half of it.
And so I want 9 dollars to ensure my freedom. To ensure my happiness.
That’s what happens to real people I guess
They get too real
And they just come to a decision.
I have three dollars.
Then I just need a ride to target or something.
Albertsons
Whatever.
Remember when you got fucked up for the first time?
Remember new years when Carla’s boots kept her safe?
Remember new years when everyone was crying because the shit was down so hard.
And every time we got up the next morning.
And every Day I wake up the next morning.
Well maybe I’m sick of mornings.
And I can say it’s just because of coricidin BULLSHIT
It’s because of everything that makes the world everything.
You can’t hang out with your boyfriend in your room kind of thing
Minds changing kind of thing
Crying at school kind of thing
And maybe it’s hard because of the coricidin
But it’s always like that Always.
It’s just the strength to bring it out
The strength to shut me up with nine dollars.
For good.
FUCK
You can’t do that Cecilia you can’t waste it like that.
Sure you can. Time is wasted all the time.
What’s 17 years difference
What the fuck could I POSSIBLY do but experience pain? Why not just get it over with.
And all the peoples lives I touched.
And all the fucking shit
Making it another statistic
But I don’t even care.
Not like it’s more severe.
It’s the same.
But I know for a fact that this would all go away if …

Fact 1: We have made significant progress in fighting drug use and drug trafficking in America. Now is not the time to abandon our efforts.

The Legalization Lobby claims that the fight against drugs cannot be won. However, overall drug use is down by more than a third in the last twenty years, while cocaine use has dropped by an astounding 70 percent. Ninety-five percent of Americans do not use drugs. This is success by any standards.

Fact 2: A balanced approach of prevention, enforcement, and treatment is the key in the fight against drugs.

A successful drug policy must apply a balanced approach of prevention, enforcement and treatment. All three aspects are crucial. For those who end up hooked on drugs, there are innovative programs, like Drug Treatment Courts, that offer non-violent users the option of seeking treatment. Drug Treatment Courts provide court supervision, unlike voluntary treatment centers.

Fact 3: Illegal drugs are illegal because they are harmful.

There is a growing misconception that some illegal drugs can be taken safely. For example, savvy drug dealers have learned how to market drugs like Ecstasy to youth. Some in the Legalization Lobby even claim such drugs have medical value, despite the lack of conclusive scientific evidence.

Fact 4: Smoked marijuana is not scientifically approved medicine. Marinol, the legal version of medical marijuana, is approved by science.

According to the Institute of Medicine, there is no future in smoked marijuana as medicine. However, the prescription drug Marinol—a legal and safe version of medical marijuana which isolates the active ingredient of THC—has been studied and approved by the Food & Drug Administration as safe medicine. The difference is that you have to get a prescription for Marinol from a licensed physician. You can’t buy it on a street corner, and you don’t smoke it.

Fact 5: Drug control spending is a minor portion of the U.S. budget. Compared to the social costs of drug abuse and addiction, government spending on drug control is minimal.

The Legalization Lobby claims that the United States has wasted billions of dollars in its anti-drug efforts. But for those kids saved from drug addiction, this is hardly wasted dollars. Moreover, our fight against drug abuse and addiction is an ongoing struggle that should be treated like any other social problem. Would we give up on education or poverty simply because we haven’t eliminated all problems? Compared to the social costs of drug abuse and addiction—whether in taxpayer dollars or in pain and suffering—government spending on drug control is minimal.

Fact 6: Legalization of drugs will lead to increased use and increased levels of addiction. Legalization has been tried before, and failed miserably.

Legalization has been tried before—and failed miserably. Alaska’s experiment with Legalization in the 1970s led to the state’s teens using marijuana at more than twice the rate of other youths nationally. This led Alaska’s residents to vote to re-criminalize marijuana in 1990.

Fact 7: Crime, violence, and drug use go hand-in-hand.

Crime, violence and drug use go hand in hand. Six times as many homicides are committed by people under the influence of drugs, as by those who are looking for money to buy drugs. Most drug crimes aren’t committed by people trying to pay for drugs; they’re committed by people on drugs.

Fact 8: Alcohol has caused significant health, social, and crime problems in this country, and legalized drugs would only make the situation worse.

The Legalization Lobby claims drugs are no more dangerous than alcohol. But drunk driving is one of the primary killers of Americans. Do we want our bus drivers, nurses, and airline pilots to be able to take drugs one evening, and operate freely at work the next day? Do we want to add to the destruction by making drugged driving another primary killer?

Fact 9: Europe’s more liberal drug policies are not the right model for America.

The Legalization Lobby claims that the “European Model” of the drug problem is successful. However, since legalization of marijuana in Holland, heroin addiction levels have tripled. And Needle Park seems like a poor model for America.

Fact 10: Most non-violent drug users get treatment, not jail time.

The Legalization Lobby claims that America’s prisons are filling up with users. Truth is, only about 5 percent of inmates in federal prison are there because of simple possession. Most drug criminals are in jail—even on possession charges—because they have plea-bargained down from major trafficking offences or more violent drug crimes.

Based on the Many Health Risks Involved

   Marijuana works in many complicated ways and is comprised of many different chemicals. Marijuana is made up of more than 420 different chemicals, 61 of which are unique to marijuana called cannabinoids. Marijuana is a much more complicated drug than it seems. The chemical that prompts the drugs action, THC, is the mind-altering cannabinoid that starts the process of the drug entering the bloodstream. The THC can remain in the bloodstream from 3 to 5 days to weeks at a time. When the THC stays in the body for that period of time they buildup, and this is when the most long-term risks take their form. This is why regular use of drugs is so much more dangerous.


   The regular use of marijuana can cause birth defects in new-born children. Even though it does not cause full-blown birth defects, marijuana is proven to cause unnecessary problems for a growing fetus, which include miscarriage and stillbirth. This is due mainly to the fact that the THC metabolites freely cross the placenta, in which they come in contact with developing body systems. The possible results involve decreased birth weight, delayed learning, and nervous system changes. Basically if one would like to have a baby and they do not know risks involved, they are too real to disregard and too important for learning.


   Not only does smoking marijuana do damage to an individual's health, but it can also be harmful to the appearance of an individual's health. Health is perhaps an individual's largest goal or facet of life that they would like to focus above all other things. When that health is at risk it is of utmost importance to take care of the problem to solve it to ensure that the person is stable and able to function. If one's health appears to be in grave danger, whether it be physical or mental health, it is very important that it is taken care of before it gets worse. Marijuana is something that leads people to believe that their health is in danger because it makes one seem to have some kind of problems coping with something in their life or they have a physical health problem that leads them to believe that marijuana will help. Marijuana is definitely not the answer for any type of health problems, and it can only cause more troubles.


   The facts are there to show that marijuana is at the root of several types of health problems, and will not improve one's quality of life in any manner. This drug can do health damage to many parts of the human body, and it can even lead to cancer. It is a wise decision to just pass on marijuana all together to be sure that one is not at risk for any health damage. Marijuana has nothing but negative effects on an individual's life, which is why there would be no reason for anyone to ever need to get high again.

Arguments Against Medical Marijuana Legalization

Medicines today are expected to be of known composition and quality
Lack of conclusive clinical trials on effects of Marijuana
The “inert” plant matter is a carcinogen
Potential for abuse
Is it fulfilling a need not already met?

As a medical doctor and board-certified pathologist, I am
often asked about cannabis ("marijuana", "hashish"). It is my
judgement as a physician that Lambda Chi Alphas should not use
cannabis, and should let our brothers know that we will not
tolerate its use.

   Taking cannabis produces a mild euphoria, often enhances the
appetite and libido, and causes the user to focus on simple things,
long and attentively, one at a time. Specific receptors for the
active component are widespread in the brain, and are named
"cannabinoid receptors".

   The national debate over drugs is highly politicized, with
much rhetoric and few facts. I am not writing this to argue for or
against legalization of marijuana or any other psychoactive drugs.
I am not interested in defending the old draconian laws against
cannabis, or the false claims of past decades. I will not review
the case for cannabis in treating glaucoma, AIDS wasting syndrome,
or the side-effects of cancer chemotherapy. I am not going to make
comparisons with alcohol.

   What I will do is present what I think is a convincing case
against its use by members of our fraternity.

SMOKING MARIJUANA IS UNHEALTHY

   The current medical literature lacks credible, non-partisan
reviews of marijuana's effects on physical and mental health (Aust.
Fam. Phys. 24: 1237, 1995). However, there is reason to be
concerned about the long-term effects on the brain.

   Users frequently report problems with short-term memory, both
while using and between uses. Short-term memory is the most
fragile brain function, and this spontaneous observation tells me
that something real is happening. The mental aftereffects of a pot
high are measurable, and are commensurate with the aftereffects of
a drunken debauch (Psychopharmacology 115: 340, 1994).

   The active component of cannabis (tetrahydrocannabinol), when
administered for five days or more, is now known to greatly
increase the numbers of cannabinoid receptors, and to alter their
chemical binding characteristics (Pharm. Bioch. Behav. 51: 731,
1995). We don't know what this means yet, except that it's clear
that using cannabis does alter the molecular structure of the
brain. Although we don't know what the cannabinoid receptors do
for us in health, they must be there for a reason. And smoking
cannabis alters them.

   A marijuana smoker's performance on tests of thinking and
coordination is impaired while on the drug (J. Exp. Anal. Behav.
62: 73, 1994; Psych. Res. 51: 115, 1994). Contrary to what you may
have heard, it's clear that marijuana smoking does impair a user's
ability to drive a car safely (NEJM 332: 892, 1995).

   The effects of marijuana smoking on the unborn child are
unknown. A group of scientists in Madrid has found long-term
behavioral damage in rats exposed in the womb to cannabis (Pharm.
Bioch. Behav. 47: 47, 1994). This is in keeping with the idea of
real damage, albeit milder, in adult users.

   In the 1960's, it was generally considered, by my college
friends, that heavy marijuana smokers exhibited changes that were
different from, but as obvious as, the changes seen in
deteriorating alcoholics. The primary changes were loss of
motivation and interest in what most of us like best (i.e., other
people, sports, learning, exchanging ideas). "It makes you lazy
and kind of stupid" was a common description. Of course, it's
impossible to do a prospective study demonstrating cause-and-
effect. But reflect that it's only been in the past few years that
anyone has demonstrated anatomic damage to individual brain cells
in old alcoholics whose cognition is obviously deranged. And the
receptor studies cited above are as impressive as anything I've
found in a recent review of alcohol's medium-term effects on brain
tissue.

   In summary, there is serious reason to be concerned that long-
term use of marijuana causes brain damage. We do not know whether
this is reversible on cessation of use.

SMOKING MARIJUANA IS UN-BROTHERLY

   You know the lawful penalties for using marijuana while you
are a fraternity member. For me, though, it's about ZAX.

   Right or wrong, wise or foolish, cannabis is illegal. In a
democracy, most people disapprove of most lawbreaking, and those
who associate with lawbreakers. Smoking cannabis can damage the
reputation of your fraternity and your brothers.
  
   Marijuana is associated with the "I don't give a damn, I'm
lazy and the world owes me a living" attitude of its most visible
users. This was true in the past (the "tune in, turn on, drop out"
hippies of the 1960's) and present. A marijuana smoker is using a
substance that has become a symbol for the culture of crybabies and
losers.

   Some people who are depressed use marijuana as a short-term
medicine to feel better. But it's a poor long-term strategy, and
makes the problems worse tomorrow. Depression is often a
physiological, programmed illness, and is almost always treatable
by conventional medicine. If a brother is suffering in this way,
we have a duty to recognize it and get the appropriate help.

   Cannabis promotes single-minded focusing of attention, and
this is seldom on other people. A user may become pleasantly
engrossed in a candle flame, but will not make a real friend or
practice a skill. The drug makes its users markedly less sociable
when they are high. Now, there's a time for introversion and
introspection, but a marijuana high is not meditation or serious
reflection. The people whom you select as friends tend to be those
who share common activities, and a marijuana smoker is likely to
end up with a circle of friends who are less interested in
interacting with one another. This is antithetical to the Greek
spirit, at least as we treasure it. Now, if I were in a fraternity
based on hazing, I'd probably prefer being around my "brothers"
when they're stoned, passive, and self-absorbed. But if you
actually like your brothers, it's stupid to choose a drug that will
make you withdraw from each other into fantasy.

   On a campus, different fraternities define themselves and thus
fill different niches. The fraternity I know attracts the men who
want to receive and give real friendship. "We don't haze" says it
up front. "There's a lot of love over there" says, and
perpetuates, who we are, and it's this reputation that attracts the
new members. If people said that "They do drugs" instead, the
character of the brotherhood will change dramatically. And in a
few years, we would no longer have a home on that campus.

   Brothers. Vir quisque vir. Anybody can smoke cannabis. Not
everybody can be a Lambda Chi. Anybody can know what it feels like
to have a pot high. Most men go through life without ever knowing
what ZAX is all about. And many men have even sought death, and
found it, just for lack of brotherly love.

   Please do not use marijuana or hashish, and please do not
tolerate its use among us.

Question: Why is marijuana illegal?

Answer: Something is illegal when laws are passed prohibiting it. Marijuana is against the law because there are specific laws which make it illegal.

To understand why certain things are illegal, we should understand two basic principles: (1) where laws come from; (2) why one thing, rather than another, may have a law against it.

Laws are rules which are enforced by a controlling authority or Government. In the United States, we have a Constitution, which is considered the highest body of law, or rules, in the land. The US Constitution creates three areas of government: 1. a President to oversee the country; 2. a Legislature to enact and create rules of law; and 3. a Court system to test and enforce the rules and laws enacted by the legislature.

Laws are usually made with the idea of protecting people or things. For instance, laws against driving too fast are safety-oriented and are intended to protect people. Laws against chopping down native cactuses are intended to protect the desert plants, rather than protecting people.

Before a law on anything is created, people must agree that a law is necessary. For some things, most people agree there is no need for a rule or law to control it. On the other hand, when enough people agree that a law is needed, then one may be created by the legislature. Legislatures are made up of representatives elected by people.

If something is determined to be dangerous, and people are doing it in spite of its dangers, then the legislature may create a law to prevent people from doing it and the court system may punish people who break the law.

So, marijuana, like most things which are illegal, has been determined to be a danger to the people, and because some people use it, sell it or possess it in spite of its dangers, laws were created by the legislature to prevent people from using, selling or possessing it and to punish people who violate the law.

i just wrote something really long.
then i pushed submit
and the page locked up and i pushed back
and it was gone
and now i'm like bummed out.

Five Lynnwood High School freshmen were taken to local hospitals yesterday after they apparently overdosed on an over-the-counter cold medication.
The students were being observed at Stevens Hospital in Edmonds and Providence Everett Medical Center and were expected to recover, an Edmonds School District spokesman said.

Yesterday morning, a teacher noticed that several students appeared ill. When questioned, they admitted they'd swallowed large amounts of Coricidin Cough & Cold medicine.

The medication contains dextromethorphan, sometimes used recreationally as a psychedelic, though another ingredient in the drug — acetaminophen — can cause liver toxicity when taken in large amounts. Emergency services were called and the students transported to the hospitals.
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THIS IS COMPLETE BULLSHIT BECAUSE CORICIDIN DOESN'T FUCKING HAVE ACETAMINOPHEN IN IT!!!




so i'm looking up deaths as a result of DXM abuse. No such case is available. all the deaths are from people who mixed the drug with something stupid like morphine
or alcohol. actually alcohol and dxm make a nice combination.

i want to rip something apart i want drugs so bad.
i wish i knew math so i could make sense of this:
dexalone 30 gelcaps 30 mg ------600 mg for 13.59
coricidin 16 tablets at 30 mg-----480 mg for 6.59
generic caps 20 pills at 15 mg----300 mg for 3.49
i want to know which is the best buy for the most pills. for some reason i figure it to be the generic but...maybe that's only because i'm cheap.

i just did a doo-doo-doo-do-doo-doo song aloud
it was rad
and roxanne is blowing up heads and stuff
the end

ugh
i put food in the stomach
bad move.

snow day + snow day = snow snow snow snow snow
yesterday my stomache was in the worst of conditions. i figure that's because it was like, regrowing its stomach lining, probably. I can't explain it.
i love coricidin. i figured out that it's not that it gives me any greater understanding. it's not that i like the way it makes me feel. i mean, you feel stoned and it's like a blurred reality. and you can go into your head which is cool.
i think i like the fact that it makes your body nonexistant. you're just in your head. and you know that even if your body did give out on you, it's just a shell. and the real you wasn't ever part of that psoriasis asthma ridden body anyway.
yet when you are throwing up, and you can't breathe and you have the shakes and you have the chills you're going God please don't let me die please don't let me die i'm not dead yet. then you wake up the next day with a new appreciation of your limbs. and you're running and leaping. but there's a price to pay, that is your stomache hurts because it needs time to attempt to heal itself. not that it does, of course.
then there's the other problem that comes up. your emotions start to get out of whack for a while. but these side effects can be easily avoided if you just keep taking the pills. which is why i never just buy enough to fuck me up once. i have to have enough for several days. otherwise it would just be pointless. you have to keep taking them you know? otherwise you're just in for a world of hurt not worth the hell. i fucking love the hell.
i can't possibly explain it.
i'll take some of those funky robittussin tablet things later.
then i can be in that world of hurt that world of hell.
where i'm dead.
exhausted
in my head.
and i can try to record it but it won't work
yesterday, when i took 9, i was fucking laying on my floor without being able to move.
it was like the ultimate retirement.
oh yeah, we went to the snow.
that was fun.
we made snow angels.
i bet they're covered up now becuase look out the window.

Music is bad. Music made by another pseron is someone telling you what to do, who do to, and what to buy. we can't have that. i'll make up my own song going like this:

This is a nation of consumers who
Get lost in doo-doo-dee-doo-dee-doo
Play a game and
Buy a scarf and
Buy a bra
And take it off
Forget about the bloodshed
Forget about the bullshit. America is number one.
American! Number one in millionaires.
American! We’re number one in billionaires.
American! We’re number one in votes don’t count
American! We’re number last in vote turnout.
American! We can’t do eighth grade math
We waste a lot of gas.
We like T.V. and stay in bed.
We hate to go to school and use our head.
We like the questions easiest to solve.
and useually we don't try at all, but
We like to throw our hands up scream American!
We love our fucking president American!
We’d love to fucking fuck you up, American!
We ca't see the truth that's why we're American!
We've become unguarded, see American!
We don't know a thing that's why we're American!
We Hate All other countries
We Hate All other countires
We are number one
assholes.