Sometimes...gah I don't know. I'm having probs with my friend Markayla from Church, and today I had to have a "nice little meeting" with her, her parents, my parents, our youth minister, and the LTC leader Pete. It was SO aggravating. My dad kept on talking...and talking...and talking. FINALLY Robert (youth minister) interrupted him. *Thank the Lord* It was so dumb though. I'm having mixed feelings for Joel though. I'm just so jealous of Markayla. She's a little overweight, and not that pretty, and she STILL get's the cheerleading thing, the best friends, the perfect boyfriends, and everything else her little heart desires...I hate it.

Sometimes I want to hurt people...really. Especially guys. I hate school, and Valentine's Day, and Riley Trotter, and Cherish Payne, and everybody else who tries to screw with my life. *smashes everything into a pulp, then sends it down the garbage disposal.* Logan Etter is really cool...really, but sometimes he just freaks me out.

I'm so lonesome at church. My friends have deserted me, except for Izzy and Kayla. Bethany *sob* hasn't been able to come back yet. Markayla is all over Joel, all of the time, so I never get to have our special "walk and talks" anymore. *sigh* I hate females. I mean, ever since I first met Joel, I think I loved him. You know, most people say "you can't truly love someone when you're that young." But I really think I love Joel Bell. He's been my best friend since fifth grade, and we do EVERYTHING together.

Yay! Now I can really play the guitar...an A, E, and D chord, and I can go all the way up the scale...:D