for once NA wasnt anal....then again, the snow isnt even sticking...i love how on days where busses are swirving and the weather is awful we dont even get a delay, but on a day where the snow isnt even sticking, the roads are clear, we're cancelled, oh well...im enjoying the monday off

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive


i dont want to say goodbye
i dont want the year to end
in 6months it'll be over
...6 months isnt enough time to say "i love you" and to say..."goodbye"

so fish fry last night got to seen ANNE! my love, and lauren my other love and alyssa, adam, rj, etc etc, damn i have alot of loves...anywho then afterwards saw jared at target and then rj at dollar store, exciting, so yeah, not much going on today


later

schools beat....just another bad bad bad day

wow been awhile...yeah, weekend was interesting if you're dying to know go to

http://www.xanga.com/revolution_of_ducks

thats only for the people who care about me though lol

yeah later LOSERS!

^_^

warren sucked...all i have to say about that one

but valentines day was amazing, adam got me 2 stuffed duckies and 2 hearts filled with chocolate and a dozen roses...mmm ^_^ happy britt lol...yeah so...mass and breakfast tomorrow at 6 am woohoo!

bad day all together, all started 9th period with Madame being a total bitch, then it progressed with adam doing the usual "lets ignore the girlfriend because my best friend is in the car" routine, and then his usual sarcasm with the friends around, and wondering why i dont want him near me...so then the asshole-smart-ass routine rubbed off on bill, and he was worse than adam, and then RJ..well, we all know RJ is always like that, so i didnt get tooooo mad until well....we'll let that go since he is the ONLY one to appologize for treating me like shit..so yeah....off to something now?? warren tomorrow..whoop-di-fricken-do!

adam never got me more than one flower at a time...


id like some romance in return once in awhile

-_-

bad day...schools beat


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA!! even though you cant read this yeah so....yeah


11months...just keeps going, im not happy anymore

what do you do when you are so close to breaking it off...and he tells you that when he's done with college, and we're still talking that he wants to marry you and spend the rest of his life with you...what the hell do you do

so i was bored so i wrote a little rap ^_^ hehehe lmao it is amazing


when ya see me commin in muh sharp dressed feet
and thumpin down the street
with that hard core beat
i drop them rhymes
like my scent drop flies
i can't rap
and i know why
IM WHITE
what what what?
yeah bitch im white
werd
yo so muh benzo be pimpin yo
and when i dip...i dip real low
and when i grind i grind real close
and when i do the macarana...dont be actin like a hata
i can't rap
and i know why
IM WHITE
what what what?
yeah bitch im white
when ya see me...not on the MTV you'll know
that i aint a hoe
cuz no britney christina prostitute can get me
to take off muh clothes,
i aint got competetion
cuz i aint be bitchin for the numba one vid. on the count down
and i can't rap
and i know why
IM WHITE
what what what?
yeah bitch im white
so im standin here watchin the clock
this is me immitatin jim hawk
but i aint no redneck and i admit im white
better be careful so he dont rape me tonight

30hour famine was....interesting, but excersizing with no food or sleep..is bad, but then rj adam and i ate alot of food and now im sick...and sad...and tired

goodnights sleepy heads

so i get home yesterday from school...and my mom has a ring on her left ring finger

how does this make me feeeel?


....oh well..he wont be my step dad if the court has anything to say about who im living with

BOOYAH!

tomorrow...11months...wowo....so yeah, bored, really bored, at my moms aka LIVING HELL......just like na
and now some Christine quotes to recap the last semester with:

-"Mr. Meyer, uhm, are magic carpets real?"
-"Mr. Meyer, uhm, you know African Americans? Well, uhm, are they called African American in Africa?"
-"Mr. Meyer, what does adultrey mean? Is it something with adults?"
-"Why don't they want a democracy? They can be like the U.S., why don't they want to be like us?"
-Mr Meyer:"When you think of Africa, you think of animals right away, correct?"
Christine: "no..i think of BLACK PEOPLE!"
-Mr Meyer "lions and tigers and bears..."
CHristine "there are bears in Africa?!"
-Mr Meyer "When Queen Victoria reigned..."
Christine "reigned?"
Mr Meyer "...ruled..."
Christine "OH!"
-"Do Africans have to worry about elephant..uhm, what are those things called when alot of animals like run and stomp on things...stampeders??..."
-"Mr. Meyer uhm, i have a question...well uhm, can you fly over the sahara desert, like not fly as in a person flies, but like in a plain?"


there are PLENTY more...i just have to remember them...this will be changed

Here's the scoop....my dad called the lawyer today
he's meeting with the lawyer thursday
then we'll meet together at one point
and i may be living with my dad as in he'll have full custody

WOOT WOOT WOOOT!!!

been awhile, so friday was adam's big 18th birthday we went out to dinner then saw a movie afterwards we hung out at my place....so yeah the saturday was living hell, my cousin alec's first bday party, basically with my family birthday partys are octoberfest! so yeah, wasnt fun, and weird people, and that night i spent the night at my grandmas with a bipolar drunk(my mom) a happy drunk(my grandma) and an angry drunk(my grandpa) so yeah...bored bored bored bored bored at the library

17

i really hate 6th period anymore.....i miss my girls!!!!!!!!!

do do do....i dont know?.....so no idea where my mother is...she decided to not come home until late tonight..woohoo, fine by me, this means less time to spend with her hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!! wooohoo lol anyways, today school started second semester too! which means no more 'role playing' in drawing and painting with jocie liz and maz....i think i shall recap on random events since im bored

*Maz "jeff said he wants my booty"
Jocie "you only have one?"
Maz "you have two?"
Jocie "BOOTY! i thought you said boobie"

*Jocie trying to figure out our made up family
Jocie "Liz wait, so Mr. Dileo is Britt's dad?"
Liz "no Jocie, I never said that"
(as mr dileo is standing there staring at jocie)
Jocie "yeah you did...you said he was britt's dad!"

*Maz running every morning to get the ruler with printed words on it that said "Dick Lick" and this was the brand of the ruler....

*our villiage
Me: town poll dancer, drunk and pyro
Jocie: town whore
Liz: town prostitute
Maz: town idiotTim: town rogue, satan
Kathrine: travelling town merchant

*our family tree....hard to explain
Liz has maz
maz has me
I have Jocie
and jocie has
....Liz?

*Maz walking around bldinfolded not only to embarass herself in front of Mr Dileo

*Liz's random rants about random things, Lance Armstrong, Alias characters

*Liz has man parts!

there were many more....just cant think right now!

so i've forgiven him....and i feel better and stronger, but i still should have been at the funeral....i needed to look him in the face, alive or not

im so depressed i dont know what to do anymore

im so depressed i dont know what to do anymore