since you've been gone...I can [ breath for the first time ]

so yeah, the whole single thing is weird...i like it but i dont...like, im kinda glad to have the freedom again...but i feel like something is missing...damn im so fucking selfish and retarded lol...so yeah jared told me he hated me well yeah, we'll get into that later...bye

and a song to fit the new brittany ^_^

I don't know where I'm going
But, I sure know where I've been
Hanging on the promises
In songs of yesterday
An' I've made up my mind,
I ain't wasting no more time
But, here I go again
Here I go again

Tho' I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I'm looking for
Oh Lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

I'm just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on love's sweet charity
An' I'm gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
[ Goin' down the only road I've ever known ]
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go...

An' I've made up my mind,
I ain't wasting no more time

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
'Cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

An' here I go again on my own
Goin' down the only road I've ever known,
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone
An' I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time...

But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go,
Here I go again..

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Brittany Papalia
-- Nickname: b, knee, britt, loser, bitch, sexy :p
-- Sweet Friends Call Me: lesbian lover
-- Birth date: 10/14/1988
-- Birthplace: pittsburgh, pennsylvania
-- Current location: pittsburgh, pennsylvania
-- Eye color: blue        
--Hair color: brownish
-- Height:5'6"
-- Righty or lefty: Righty



LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: italian baby
-- Your weakness: anne, chocolate and massages
-- Your fears: SPIDERS
-- Your perfect pizza: plain
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: my dad gets full custody



LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: aww and i love you
--Your thoughts first waking up: need more sleep
-- Your best physical feature: most people say my eyes
-- Your bedtime: whenever i want
-- Your most missed memory: greg..but shh ^x^


LAYER FOUR
-- Soda: code red mt dew
-- Fast food joint: mcdonalds..mm mcchiken
-- Single or group dates: both are fun
-- Adidas or Nike: nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: both



LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: cigarets-sometimes
-- Cuss: haha yeah
-- Sing: sometimes.
-- Take a shower every day: yeah             
--Have a crush(es): yes
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes
-- Want to go to college: yes
-- Like high school: sometimes
-- Want to get married: of course
-- Believe in yourself: eh, sometimes
-- Get motion sickness: no
-- Think you're attractive: i dont but yesterday nick told me i was very pretty ^_^ (my bf doesnt even tell me that)
-- Think you're a health freak: god no
-- Get along with your parents: my dad...sometimes
-- Like thunderstorms: no
-- Play an instrument: nope



LAYER SIX
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: Yes
-- Done a drug: no
-- Had sex:no  -_-
--Made out: it's me we're talking about, im too horny not too :p
-- Gone on a date: yes
-- Gone to the mall: yeah
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no, but almost
-- Eaten sushi: no way jose
-- Been on stage: yes
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
--Gone skinny-dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: no


LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: not TRASHED               -- Been caught doing something: depends on what we were doing
-- Been called a tease: heh...yeah
-- Gotten beaten up: a few times
-- Shoplifted: like twice and they were MINOR things -.0
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nope



LAYER EIGHT
In a guy/girl...
-- Best eye color: blue      
---Best hair color: brown
-- Short or long hair: short, but doesnt really matter
-- Height: atleast 5'5
-- Best weight: doesnt matter to me
-- Best articles of clothing: pants
-- Best first date location: mt washington in pgh
-- Best first kiss location: snow



LAYER NINE
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: None
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 6
-- Number of CDs : alot..like ALOT
-- Number of piercing : 2  
-- Number of tattoos: None
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: once
-- Number of scars on my body:alot
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: alot

4 o'clock toddaaayy 4 o clock todaaayyyy ^_^ 4 o'clock todaaayyyyy 4 o'clock todaaAAAAYYY!!! whose excited?? Miss brittany lyn is, soo yeah got to see stacey after school!! blah, school is soo beat, i definately FAILED meyer's test today considerring i know i answered 2 questions correctly, the rest i failed misserably....Je deteste un examine....damned school

im pretty sure he forgot about our 1 year...considerring he said NOTHING about it....... damn men

thanks anne ^_^ you always know how to make me smile

so my mom comes home so smashed today that she like stubled down the stairs fell onto the couch and fell right asleep....she can barely talk, and when my dad called she started flipping out about him calling the house?? UGH whatever,...april 14 ill be able to get out, but friday i really hope the lawyer has a FAST solution for full custody for my dad

im in an entry mood today lol

so i was talking to justin today....no not lauren's justin...my friend justin, he's a junior from north hills, ive known him since we were like 3, and he was telling me how he liked this stuck up cheerleader from my school, and like we've dated so many times since i was in 7th grade, and i guess i got upset about it...which makes me wonder...i DONT want to like him because im so in love with adam....but im afraid of the second thoughts...AGAIN

i want to get married...anyone up for it?

for once NA wasnt anal....then again, the snow isnt even sticking...i love how on days where busses are swirving and the weather is awful we dont even get a delay, but on a day where the snow isnt even sticking, the roads are clear, we're cancelled, oh well...im enjoying the monday off

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive


i dont want to say goodbye
i dont want the year to end
in 6months it'll be over
...6 months isnt enough time to say "i love you" and to say..."goodbye"

so fish fry last night got to seen ANNE! my love, and lauren my other love and alyssa, adam, rj, etc etc, damn i have alot of loves...anywho then afterwards saw jared at target and then rj at dollar store, exciting, so yeah, not much going on today


later

schools beat....just another bad bad bad day

wow been awhile...yeah, weekend was interesting if you're dying to know go to

http://www.xanga.com/revolution_of_ducks

thats only for the people who care about me though lol

yeah later LOSERS!

^_^

warren sucked...all i have to say about that one

but valentines day was amazing, adam got me 2 stuffed duckies and 2 hearts filled with chocolate and a dozen roses...mmm ^_^ happy britt lol...yeah so...mass and breakfast tomorrow at 6 am woohoo!

bad day all together, all started 9th period with Madame being a total bitch, then it progressed with adam doing the usual "lets ignore the girlfriend because my best friend is in the car" routine, and then his usual sarcasm with the friends around, and wondering why i dont want him near me...so then the asshole-smart-ass routine rubbed off on bill, and he was worse than adam, and then RJ..well, we all know RJ is always like that, so i didnt get tooooo mad until well....we'll let that go since he is the ONLY one to appologize for treating me like shit..so yeah....off to something now?? warren tomorrow..whoop-di-fricken-do!

adam never got me more than one flower at a time...


id like some romance in return once in awhile

-_-

bad day...schools beat


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA!! even though you cant read this yeah so....yeah


11months...just keeps going, im not happy anymore

what do you do when you are so close to breaking it off...and he tells you that when he's done with college, and we're still talking that he wants to marry you and spend the rest of his life with you...what the hell do you do

so i was bored so i wrote a little rap ^_^ hehehe lmao it is amazing


when ya see me commin in muh sharp dressed feet
and thumpin down the street
with that hard core beat
i drop them rhymes
like my scent drop flies
i can't rap
and i know why
IM WHITE
what what what?
yeah bitch im white
werd
yo so muh benzo be pimpin yo
and when i dip...i dip real low
and when i grind i grind real close
and when i do the macarana...dont be actin like a hata
i can't rap
and i know why
IM WHITE
what what what?
yeah bitch im white
when ya see me...not on the MTV you'll know
that i aint a hoe
cuz no britney christina prostitute can get me
to take off muh clothes,
i aint got competetion
cuz i aint be bitchin for the numba one vid. on the count down
and i can't rap
and i know why
IM WHITE
what what what?
yeah bitch im white
so im standin here watchin the clock
this is me immitatin jim hawk
but i aint no redneck and i admit im white
better be careful so he dont rape me tonight

30hour famine was....interesting, but excersizing with no food or sleep..is bad, but then rj adam and i ate alot of food and now im sick...and sad...and tired

goodnights sleepy heads