you really never know what the right words are...like if you love someone and you aren't sure if they love you back, if you have an old friend that you've grown apart from, if you need to tell someone that loves you that you don't love them, to tell a parent how you really feel without them saying "it's just teen problems" no one can ever find the right words, it's the most confusing part of life when you just sit there and wonder "what am I going to say? How do I tell her/him how I feel? Do I tell them I love them straight forward? Do I tell them I miss hanging out everyday and acting like fools and laughing? Do I tell him I need space? Do I tell my dad/mom that I need love, that I need them to back off, that I AM stressed?" all these thoughs in life...and you never know what the right words are...it's always "I'm too scared" or "she'll get mad at me" or "he'll beat my ass"...it's always something that holds you back from saying how you feel. And what happens when you do express your true feelings? Do you things change or is going to be that feared notorious akward silence...no one will ever know...I guess we'll keep our mouths shut and sit and wonder...."what if?"
-oh yeah thats goin in the description

i love lauren gates and her spoon analogies with men

lmao

why are guys so complicated?

[I don't know, no good come ons, and I don't no no cool lines]

It's alright, hold tight,
I don't even know if I'm doin this right
Well alright, hold tight
we could stay out all day,
we could run around all night
It's time to go home and I ain't even done with the night

humm...so i think im asking him out after semi...GOD HELP ME!

as John Melloncamp so nicely? puts it...::

[I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy]
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway

Well I've been walkin' the streets up and down
Racing through the human jungles at night
I'm so confused, my mind is indifferent
Hey I'm so weak, won't somebody shut off that light

Electricity runs through the video
And I watch it from this hole I call home
All the stony's are dancin' to the radio
And I got the world calling me up here
Tonight on the phone

I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl to thrill me and then go away
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway

Well I'm not wiped out by this poolroom life I'm living
I'm gonna quit this job, go to school, or head back home
And I'm not askin' to be loved or be forgiven
I just can't face shakin' in this bedroom
One more night alone

I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway

I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl to thrill me and then go away
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway


yeah but replace girl, woman, any femal title with male titles lol


later idiots

i had a really shitty week
let's re-cap shall we?
monday: mom and i fight, i walk out
tuesday: adam and ian go off on their own and ignore me like usual and work is slow and i hurt my eye with the broom
wednesday: andy and all the guys at pulse except for RJ and mike...are sexist
thursday: burn my toe...and get pissed off by miss hissy fit
friday: hasnt come yet but im SURE it will suck indeed

damnit...i love it when a fucking 16 year old starts throwing the SAME exact fit that my fucking 4 year old cousin throws when she doesnt get what she wants

PMS is NOT an excuse...bad day due to Miss Collaterol

wow....im feeling pretty deep


i need to stop falling for like...every guy i talk to in school
lets see...current crushes..
dan the man
smitty
tom
*****(no one at all knows this one except for bill)
and someone else that is unspoken...later kids

LinknPrkRoxx07: remember...wen we were at romp n roll bakc in the dj boothe and me and mike were makin out and u and ray were maikn out and then ray was like "geez youguy think you can take a breath?"

i miss romp n roll

we can take our backpacks to school again!! wooohoo!!

on other news...anne is definately not going *cries*
im so pissed....arg

but yeah asked tyler today so...but he will NEVER EVER EVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVER replace anne


i love her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

we can take our backpacks to school again!! wooohoo!!

on other news...anne is definately not going *cries*
im so pissed....arg

but yeah asked tyler today so...but he will NEVER EVER EVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVEREVER replace anne


i love her soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

lets see...annes not comming to tom petty ;_;..i wont survive without her, hung out with glenn last night...interesting, went to see Sahara, then went to the dollar store for a good hour to chill with RJ...he wasnt doing anything lol...and yeah so pretty fun night, then glenn and i hung out back at my house and danced to the spice girls ~_0 oh yeah baby oh yeah lol....so yeah...nothing else goin on today....so yeah talk to you kids later


breakdown come on.give it to me
breakdown...take me through the night

i didnt die today ^_^ lol

not going to die tomorrow

cause im not goin to school bitches!

this is how dumb i am
TF asks if i can work tonight "no im really busy and have alot of stuff to do"

adam and i walk up to tastee freez....FUCKING MORON

marty and natalie "are you done with everything?"

first excuse i could think of as i "call my mom to as what she wanted"

"uhm..he's tutoring me in bio, and we took a break to get my mom some ice cream...but i have alot of crap to do still.."

nice save by me..i feel like an ass

so anyways.,..who has sex with dogs? not erica and me ~_-

i hate our school....ALOT...


assholes

im going to die tomorrow

And Tommy doesn't know what day it is.
Doesn't know who Jesus was or what praying is.
How can he be saved?
From the eternal grave.

Surrounded by his friends he sits so silently,
And unaware of everything.
Playing poxy pin ball
picks his nose and smiles and
Pokes his tongue at everything.
I believe in love
but how can men who've never seen
Light be enlightened.
Only if he's cured
will his spirits future level ever heighten.

And Tommy doesn't know what day it is.
Doesn't know who Jesus was or what praying is.
How can he be saved?
From the eternal grave.
Tommy can you hear me?
Tommy can you hear me?
Tommy can you hear me?
How can he be saved?

[Tommy:]

See me, feel me
Touch me, heal me.
See me, feel me
Touch me, heal me!

Tommy can you hear me?
Tommy can you hear me?
Tommy can you hear me?
How can he be saved?


yeah...stuck in my head all day thanks to andy last night saying

"father can you hear me"

yeah....uhm....wooohooo!

left my paychack at work *smacks head on computer* idiot....anyways....why do guys lead me on so much? thats 2 in like...a week and a half....damn men...so yeah my sob story...went to tahj mahal today with sammak, adam and mark...fun times...i love those kids....but yeah...screw life?

hahahaha im emo? haha...anyways...DAMNIT MEN YOUFUCKING SUCK!!!!!!!!!!


on other news, SEMI MIGHT BE CANCELLED!!! FUCK YES!

i really dont want to go, one dance with adam is enough...ugh...bye kids

on the sad part my heart was just ripped into millions of pieces

lal3060: well tell him we r not going out
Roger D the duck: i did! like 50times
lal3060: tell him we dont plan to either
Roger D the duck: i do
lal3060: ok
lal3060: well then let me ask you something
Roger D the duck: yeah
lal3060: why did like 3 people tell me today that u like me
lal3060: its really anoying
lal3060: so keep it in the dl

i feel like crying....i need to stop falling so fast ;_;


and what cheered me up:

kIndOfObscEnE: still doing the whole i have a vagina thing?
Roger D the duck: lol what
kIndOfObscEnE: ya know
kIndOfObscEnE: being a girl?
kIndOfObscEnE: still into that?
Roger D the duck: yeah...
kIndOfObscEnE: the werewolf thing?
Roger D the duck: ?
kIndOfObscEnE: uh uh uh uh
kIndOfObscEnE: i think you're pretty?
Roger D the duck: really?
kIndOfObscEnE: beautiful
kIndOfObscEnE: but that's only opinion

it made me smile...but im still upset about lathom...i liked him so much...damnit damnit damnit i hate men!!!

so NA tried to kill us today!

i got to watch the sunrise with him ^_^ it was romantic....


i need to stop...maybe ill just ask him out?

*mr brightside plays in the backround*
(i hold my tied up broken bracelet out)
"will you marry me?...I LOVE THIS SONG!"
"yes I'd love to, and this can be our wedding song"
^_^ he wants to maaarrrryy meeee


i think im a little obsessed