i cant stand NA anymore

FUCK ALL OF YOU

I'm sittin' on a citadel
Contemplating life
Making a point to waste my time
I'm walking on clouds
Of white

What if I fall
What if I don't
What if I never make it home
What if I bleed
What if I break
And I find that I can't take
The city below the citadel
Holding my own hand?
Sittin' alone

I'm breakin' on the balcony
Breakin' window panes
Killing the pain of broken hearts
I'm walkin' on clouds
I'm walkin' on stars

What if I fall
What if I don't
What if I never make it home
What if I bleed
What if I break
And I find that I can't take
The city below the citadel
Holding my own hand?
Sittin' alone

Holdin' on to something
That's keepin'me from jumpin'
So afraid to go in alone
Holdin up this fortress
With imaginary forces
Longing for a life down below

wowo last night went to katie's thenn

wildwoodhiglands and did in this order:
go carts
pizza
games
golf
go carts
katie rode go carts by herself
more games
her house
movie
sleep
cake
movie
then i came back home then went downtown to almost be a model until i realized everyone else there had experience
now workin tonight then hangin out with mentant and the old rio roho crew

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[ What they call love is a risk,
cause you will always get hit
out of nowhere by some wave
and end up on your own. ]

emo mood...not good not good

So father matt, one of the coolest guys ever is leaving us!...Fr Matt really reached out to the teens and he was like the reason i joined lifeteen...so screw lifeteen masses im goin to Fr Matt's masses!!

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ps school and semi sucked

Raping Goat


i have a problem
i must confess
i rape goats
cause its the best
there are so soft
they are so kind
i just love
the smell of their behinds
i have a situation
it is getting very seroius
i rape goats
and farmers get ferouis
i cant control it
it just happens
i just love the baaa
when i stick it in thier lap
i rape goats
yes its true
if you were a goat
ide rape you



^this is what i found when looking for poems for english

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
[ Wasting words on lower cases and capitals ]



go to elfpack the same username and read my diary to find the raping goat ^_^

ended up goin to mass...and elftown's back up...i was startin to get used to elfpack too lol...uhm yeah nothin really else to say

YAY!......uhm...bye kids

work at 7-11 then tomorrow it's bright n early for warren pa...damnit, then after warren sunday it's bright n early again for a trip back to PGH and then mothers day with the Zwick's aka mom's side and that means no lifenight mass...damnit, and no anne or rj or mike or lauren or stacey or tom w or fr matt or kathrine or lisa or anyone fun! damnit...anywho....later kids

warren here i come -_-

Im so sorry Mrs Pavely...you're family is in my prayers....thats AWFUL..-_-


interesting week glad it's over tomorrow, but i have to work....BBBLLLAAAHHH!!!! anywho...call the cell someone tomorrow please! bye bye

yeah so that was my 'food for thought' of the day...maybe someone will quote me on it??....sweet ass mother fucker

so yeah....greg -_-...he's tourturing me!

you really never know what the right words are...like if you love someone and you aren't sure if they love you back, if you have an old friend that you've grown apart from, if you need to tell someone that loves you that you don't love them, to tell a parent how you really feel without them saying "it's just teen problems" no one can ever find the right words, it's the most confusing part of life when you just sit there and wonder "what am I going to say? How do I tell her/him how I feel? Do I tell them I love them straight forward? Do I tell them I miss hanging out everyday and acting like fools and laughing? Do I tell him I need space? Do I tell my dad/mom that I need love, that I need them to back off, that I AM stressed?" all these thoughs in life...and you never know what the right words are...it's always "I'm too scared" or "she'll get mad at me" or "he'll beat my ass"...it's always something that holds you back from saying how you feel. And what happens when you do express your true feelings? Do you things change or is going to be that feared notorious akward silence...no one will ever know...I guess we'll keep our mouths shut and sit and wonder...."what if?"
-oh yeah thats goin in the description

i love lauren gates and her spoon analogies with men

lmao

why are guys so complicated?

[I don't know, no good come ons, and I don't no no cool lines]

It's alright, hold tight,
I don't even know if I'm doin this right
Well alright, hold tight
we could stay out all day,
we could run around all night
It's time to go home and I ain't even done with the night

humm...so i think im asking him out after semi...GOD HELP ME!

as John Melloncamp so nicely? puts it...::

[I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy]
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway

Well I've been walkin' the streets up and down
Racing through the human jungles at night
I'm so confused, my mind is indifferent
Hey I'm so weak, won't somebody shut off that light

Electricity runs through the video
And I watch it from this hole I call home
All the stony's are dancin' to the radio
And I got the world calling me up here
Tonight on the phone

I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl to thrill me and then go away
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway

Well I'm not wiped out by this poolroom life I'm living
I'm gonna quit this job, go to school, or head back home
And I'm not askin' to be loved or be forgiven
I just can't face shakin' in this bedroom
One more night alone

I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway

I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl to thrill me and then go away
I need a lover that won't drive me crazy
Some girl that knows the meaning of a
Hey hit the highway


yeah but replace girl, woman, any femal title with male titles lol


later idiots

i had a really shitty week
let's re-cap shall we?
monday: mom and i fight, i walk out
tuesday: adam and ian go off on their own and ignore me like usual and work is slow and i hurt my eye with the broom
wednesday: andy and all the guys at pulse except for RJ and mike...are sexist
thursday: burn my toe...and get pissed off by miss hissy fit
friday: hasnt come yet but im SURE it will suck indeed

damnit...i love it when a fucking 16 year old starts throwing the SAME exact fit that my fucking 4 year old cousin throws when she doesnt get what she wants

PMS is NOT an excuse...bad day due to Miss Collaterol

wow....im feeling pretty deep


i need to stop falling for like...every guy i talk to in school
lets see...current crushes..
dan the man
smitty
tom
*****(no one at all knows this one except for bill)
and someone else that is unspoken...later kids