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Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Schizoid |||||||||||||| 54%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 70%
Borderline |||||||||||||||| 70%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Narcissistic |||||||||| 34%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70%
Dependent |||||||||||||| 58%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 54%

that can't be good ^

lola...la la la la lola

tomorrow is Fr Matt's last mass....I can't believe he's leaving us..........it's just not fair...oh well, maybe this 'neff' guy won't be too bad....-_-i hope not...anywho.....bored day today....adam and i went to brunch, lol, well more like lunch at 10am lol....worked last night, drama drama drama, got ambushed by lauren and carly squirting me with whipped cream! BAD BAD BAD!

ttyl

e-mailed bill...oh boyaboyaboya...dont even ask...too depressing, it's in my xanga though

http://www.xanga.com/revolution_of_ducks

if you want to read the long dramatic emo letter lol

anyways...people SUCK!

oh i told adam about greg...wasnt too happy, but i think things are ok

wow so...,prom was fun, bill was an ass, amy was pretty bitchy too, way to glare at kim and me all night, after prom was awesome...sunday went to warren, grandma seems chipper, but im just so worried....she didnt look too good -_-hum, came home monday hung out with greg, then adam...am i a horrible person? besides the fact that now im going out with greg, and i just dont know how to tell adam...im really scared to hurt him....damnit...oh well...ill figure something out....


-later cats
-B-rizzle

i cant stand NA anymore

FUCK ALL OF YOU

I'm sittin' on a citadel
Contemplating life
Making a point to waste my time
I'm walking on clouds
Of white

What if I fall
What if I don't
What if I never make it home
What if I bleed
What if I break
And I find that I can't take
The city below the citadel
Holding my own hand?
Sittin' alone

I'm breakin' on the balcony
Breakin' window panes
Killing the pain of broken hearts
I'm walkin' on clouds
I'm walkin' on stars

What if I fall
What if I don't
What if I never make it home
What if I bleed
What if I break
And I find that I can't take
The city below the citadel
Holding my own hand?
Sittin' alone

Holdin' on to something
That's keepin'me from jumpin'
So afraid to go in alone
Holdin up this fortress
With imaginary forces
Longing for a life down below

wowo last night went to katie's thenn

wildwoodhiglands and did in this order:
go carts
pizza
games
golf
go carts
katie rode go carts by herself
more games
her house
movie
sleep
cake
movie
then i came back home then went downtown to almost be a model until i realized everyone else there had experience
now workin tonight then hangin out with mentant and the old rio roho crew

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[ What they call love is a risk,
cause you will always get hit
out of nowhere by some wave
and end up on your own. ]

emo mood...not good not good

So father matt, one of the coolest guys ever is leaving us!...Fr Matt really reached out to the teens and he was like the reason i joined lifeteen...so screw lifeteen masses im goin to Fr Matt's masses!!

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ps school and semi sucked

Raping Goat


i have a problem
i must confess
i rape goats
cause its the best
there are so soft
they are so kind
i just love
the smell of their behinds
i have a situation
it is getting very seroius
i rape goats
and farmers get ferouis
i cant control it
it just happens
i just love the baaa
when i stick it in thier lap
i rape goats
yes its true
if you were a goat
ide rape you



^this is what i found when looking for poems for english

So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
[ Wasting words on lower cases and capitals ]



go to elfpack the same username and read my diary to find the raping goat ^_^

ended up goin to mass...and elftown's back up...i was startin to get used to elfpack too lol...uhm yeah nothin really else to say

YAY!......uhm...bye kids

work at 7-11 then tomorrow it's bright n early for warren pa...damnit, then after warren sunday it's bright n early again for a trip back to PGH and then mothers day with the Zwick's aka mom's side and that means no lifenight mass...damnit, and no anne or rj or mike or lauren or stacey or tom w or fr matt or kathrine or lisa or anyone fun! damnit...anywho....later kids

warren here i come -_-

Im so sorry Mrs Pavely...you're family is in my prayers....thats AWFUL..-_-


interesting week glad it's over tomorrow, but i have to work....BBBLLLAAAHHH!!!! anywho...call the cell someone tomorrow please! bye bye

yeah so that was my 'food for thought' of the day...maybe someone will quote me on it??....sweet ass mother fucker

so yeah....greg -_-...he's tourturing me!

you really never know what the right words are...like if you love someone and you aren't sure if they love you back, if you have an old friend that you've grown apart from, if you need to tell someone that loves you that you don't love them, to tell a parent how you really feel without them saying "it's just teen problems" no one can ever find the right words, it's the most confusing part of life when you just sit there and wonder "what am I going to say? How do I tell her/him how I feel? Do I tell them I love them straight forward? Do I tell them I miss hanging out everyday and acting like fools and laughing? Do I tell him I need space? Do I tell my dad/mom that I need love, that I need them to back off, that I AM stressed?" all these thoughs in life...and you never know what the right words are...it's always "I'm too scared" or "she'll get mad at me" or "he'll beat my ass"...it's always something that holds you back from saying how you feel. And what happens when you do express your true feelings? Do you things change or is going to be that feared notorious akward silence...no one will ever know...I guess we'll keep our mouths shut and sit and wonder...."what if?"
-oh yeah thats goin in the description

i love lauren gates and her spoon analogies with men

lmao

why are guys so complicated?