XStrangerInside: i love you becasue i can always talk to, your easy to talk to, i can tell you anything, i feel totaly comfotable around you. i have nothing to hide. you make me smile no matter what mood im in. your beautiful no matter what you may think. and there is always the undescrible feeling i get when i think about you. words cant describe it but its there. :-)


just when i think the burden's gone..i get this....DAMNIT!!!!! ;_;

it's funnt cause/...i dont really care?.....like, im actually kidna happy, i feel like a burden was lifted off my shoulders, probablu because i was a horrible girlfriend to him anyways....i did well...cheat on the man..

ahh damnit


*smacks head*

wow i probably have alot of bruises from that :p

anyways

uuuhhhmmmmmmmmmm

bye losers

Roger D the duck: hey
XStrangerInside: hey, whats up
Roger D the duck: nothin
Roger D the duck: is everything ok between us?
XStrangerInside: yeah, you asked me last night and i told you that it was
Roger D the duck: but it still feels weird
Roger D the duck: i dont know, i feel like
Roger D the duck: well i guess we'll talk one ofwe're so far apart right now
XStrangerInside: i think its just casue we havnt been able to talk for so long
Roger D the duck: but why
XStrangerInside: i have been doing work around the house all week and been really tired these days
XStrangerInside: we will soon, i promise baby, i really am sorry
Roger D the duck: dont be
Roger D the duck: it's just ive had this empty feeling inside me lately
XStrangerInside: i know what you mean
Roger D the duck: :-\i dunno, it doesnt even feel like you're my boyfriend the way we havent been talking and i hate it
XStrangerInside: well i hope im still your boyfriend
Roger D the duck: i hope so too
Roger D the duck: but i dont know how much of this i can take
Roger D the duck: of us not talking or anything
XStrangerInside: yeah, i know what you mean
Roger D the duck: i dunno
Roger D the duck: what do you want to do?
XStrangerInside: i dont know
Roger D the duck: :-\
Roger D the duck: *sigh* i love you so much and i dont want us to go through something bad
XStrangerInside: all relationships go through tuff times
Roger D the duck: i know
Roger D the duck: but not all relationships have a situation where the couple doesnt talk nor see eachother for 6months
XStrangerInside: what do you want to do
Roger D the duck: i want to move to butler and you to get better so you can drive
Roger D the duck: but thats not gonna happen anytime soon
XStrangerInside: so what do you want to do
Roger D the duck: thats the thing i dont know
XStrangerInside: im sorry, i wish i could do sothing to make this all better

Auto response from Roger D the duck: i need a good cry right about now...

brb

Roger D the duck: me too
Roger D the duck: it isnt your fault
Roger D the duck: it's just timing
XStrangerInside: yeah
Roger D the duck: i dunno, and i guess i get so scared thinking about you going into the military
Roger D the duck: even if you cant go to war
Roger D the duck: ...it still scares me
XStrangerInside: i dont know what to say
Roger D the duck: dont worry about it
Roger D the duck: ...i dont know maybe im just being retarded
XStrangerInside: no, i understand where your coming from
Roger D the duck: :-(what are we gonna do baby
XStrangerInside: i dont know
Roger D the duck: hooray for teenlove
XStrangerInside: yeah, start the parade
Roger D the duck: :-(
Roger D the duck: what if like
Roger D the duck: i dunno
XStrangerInside: just say it
Roger D the duck: tell me what you think and we dont have to if you dont want to
Roger D the duck: but like, we wait until you can drive again or i get my license and we can start seeing eachother
Roger D the duck: like actually hanging out and stuff
Roger D the duck: if you dont want to do that we wont
Roger D the duck: but it feels like this is only hurting us now
XStrangerInside: no, that fine.
Roger D the duck: are you sure?
XStrangerInside: yea
Roger D the duck: like we can still talk all the time right?
XStrangerInside: sure
Roger D the duck: are you sure you want to do this
XStrangerInside: you want to do this, i dont want to hold you back from anything. i understand. everythings fine
Roger D the duck: i dont necissarily want to do this, i want to be with you
Roger D the duck: but i dont know about you, but us being apart has been killing me
Roger D the duck: i mean...i stil want to tell you i love you and everything
XStrangerInside: i dont know
Roger D the duck: about what
XStrangerInside: everything
XStrangerInside: i cant even think right now
Roger D the duck: :-\
Roger D the duck: ahh im sorry
Roger D the duck: im such a bad person i kno
XStrangerInside: dont be
Roger D the duck: w
XStrangerInside: your not a bad person
Roger D the duck: i feel like shit
XStrangerInside: dont,
Roger D the duck: are you mad at me?
XStrangerInside: no,
Roger D the duck: ,...
XStrangerInside: i didnt mean the ","
Roger D the duck: ehh im just so paranoid right now
XStrangerInside: why
Roger D the duck: i dunno
Roger D the duck: im afraid that you'll never talk to me again
XStrangerInside: dont worrie about that

thats really all you need to read

greg and i=kaput

 >.<   *smacks head*


aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!! stop liking him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>>>>.<<<<<<

10 reasons why i hate republicans

10. They think liberals are the devil because we have different beliefs

9. Everytime I get into a heated argument and ask one why they think Bush is a good president...they say over and over again "because he is" without valid reasons

8. They use the bible too much in their defense, seperation between church and state!!!

7. They always seem to be rednecks or crazy ass NA people

6. They make things up about democrats like the whole socialism thing..BS!

5. They're loud mouthed like that stupid lady in the Barber shop complaining about liberals...way to keep business flowing

4. They flip out when you say something against good ole georgie..ok so i can't have my own opinion about the president...you say you have "american" pride...FREEDOM OF SPEECH BIATCH!

3. They call the U.S. america when really there's a North and South America...so really when saying "proud to be an american" you're saying "proud to be canadian, US.ian?, mexican, brazillian, etc etc etc"

2. Chip Kirk....

1. GET OVER YOUR DAMNED SELVES AND LET PEOPLE HAVE THEIR FREEDOM!!! if two guys love eachother let them get married, if a woman is pregnant because she was raped and cant afford having a chil, let her decide what she wants to do, IF ANOTHER COUNTRY DOESNT HAVE THE SAME BELIEFS AS US IN POLITICAL STANCE DON'T FORCE THEM TO HAVE IT BY USING WAR!!

im unemployed...and damn happy
uhm
chillin with bill tomorrow
today just at home

leave a comment??

UUUGGHHH!!

it's all here

http://www.xanga.com/acid_queen_1975

so my dad and i are walkin through DC
and we see a cop with his horse's butt facing us
dad "look, it's a statue of bush!"

me "wow, there's alot of homeless people here"
dad "it's because bush banned gay marriage"

we're putting our luggage in a locker area to walk around
man "so what all did you see while you were here?"
dad "oh we caught a ball game, viewd some monuments"
man "didn't come to see the president?"
dad "are you kidding? my breakfast was good this morning, can't spoil it!"

not to mention lorraine and ron-glad i met ya guys, fun train ride!

http://www.stanford.edu/~atd10/quizes/fgquiz.html

im peter -_-

001: Name: Brittany
002: Nickname: B, britt, Italy, Roger, B-pap
003: country of living: United fucking sucks States
004: Birth date: 10/14/88
006: Eye color: blue/green/silver
007: Shoe size: 10-11
008: School/work: school
009: You smoke: occasionally
010: Hobby's: art, lifeteen, friends, amusing drunks
011: Brothers/Sisters: nope
012: Relation: single
013: Piercing(s): Ears
014: Tattoo: none
015: Vacationland: who knows
016: Are there people you wont reply to: nope
017: Nicest person you met this year: probably sammak or mark
018: Person you rather not have met this year: kim
019: Who would you like to meet: roger daltrey...duh
020: Who is it that you admire: andy from church, anne, PJP II
021: Most sexy person met on Elfwood: not on elfwood
022: Favorite Pajama: ducky boxers ducky boxers
023: Favorite Car: ford taurus
024: Favorite Movie(s): Casablanca, Tommy, Finding Neverland, My Girl and Field of Dreams
025: Favorite Bands/Singers: The Who, Anna Nalik, Jesus Music, papa roach, pink floyd, etc etc etc
026: Favorite City: Indiana, PA (its really a town)
027: Favorite Plush: all the ducks
028: Favorite Cologne: hmm...axe, but im going to be different than normal girls and say old spice
029: Favorite Magazine: rolling stone
030: Favorite sound: guitar
032: Favorite Writer: shakespear
033: Favorite Nickname: 'B'
034: What is on your mouse pad: ducks
035: What all is under your bed: nothing, my bed hits the ground
036: Favorite colour combo: black and blue
037: Favorite Song ever: Free Falling-Tom Petty
038: Favorite song at this moment: Amazing grace and Hungry
039: Favorite food: chinese and italian
040: Favorite class at school: math and art
041: Favorite drink: pepsi
042: Lucky number: 14
043: What do you think that is greatest about yourself: my ability to care about people?
045: Favorite shoes: my vans..def my vans
046: What time do you go to bed on workdays: in between the sunset and sunrise
047: What word do you use most: Nixon
048: Most romantic moment in your life: Kissing an ex in the snow
049: Most ashamed moment of your life: meeting glenn -_-
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: in bed
051: What do you do in the weekends: stuff
052: What class in school do/did you dislike most: bio
053: Your Breakfast: cheerrriiiooosss!
054: What do you really really dislike to eat: that really bad chicken my dad makes sometimes
055: Pets: no -_-
056: Laugh or dream: laugh at your dreams
057: Serious or funny: funny
058: Fast or slow: slow...life goes by too quickly already
059: You prefer being alone or have relation: both
060: Simple or Complicated: simple--i get confused easily and often
061: Cremate or Buried when dead: buried
062: Sex or alcohol: sex..it doesnt kill you
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: stay up
064: Light or dark?: dark
065: Speak or Silence: speak...speak for the revolutioN!
066: tall or small men: Tall
067: News paper: sports
068: Hug or kiss: hug
069: Happy or Sad: happy
070: Life or Death: life
071: Gig or Disco: dIsCo
072: Left or Right: left...rights for those damned conservatives
071: Sausages on top, or on the side: on top
074: Dark/ red/ Blonde: dark
075: What would you ask god if you could ask him 1 single question: why did you pick steph...besides the obvious
076: you believe in reincarnation: yes
077: you believe in Aliens: of course..
078: When you die, what will be your last word: Forgive me Lord
079: Does true love exist?: yes
080: How many kids would you like to have?: 2 or 4
081: What is the thing you can't stand: liars
082: Best feeling: to cry your eyes out until you're clear
083: Worst feeling in the world: to gold everything back
084: What are you afraid of: death
085: Are you an emotional person: sometimes
086: You cry while watching a movie?: yeah
087: Your goal in life: to not become my mother
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve: i dont promise anything
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: a duck..or some other type of bird
091: What is the most beautiful part on the male body: the inner child
092: Most original place to ask your lover to marry you: duck pond
093:What do you think of elftown?: i loveart..so i lvoe elftown
095: Where did you get this question list?: august [blackninja69]
095: Besides elftown, what do you do on your computer?: top secret stuff -_o
096:Favorite element: does fire count?
097:Name one turn on you find in a guy: comfort
098:Name one turn off you find in a guy: sexist
099:What religion are you?: Catholic
0100:Do you believe in hell?: yes
0101:your comment on life: "oh yeah, life goes on, long after the thrill of living is gone" -john melloncamp
0102:sexiest person(s):. [cappodocia] and [blackninja69]
0103:Previous name here at ElfTown?: AcidQueen 1975

Jesus camp..
*andy blasting thriller
*me losing my cell
*so our group goes to an open field and we're talking about the prayer stuff and such...and then we realize that theres a truck empting the outhouses behind us...good job andy
*andy getting splashed with water by the other youth group kids
*chinese foooddd!!!
*little boy "roar! scary monster!"..."roar! scary bear!"...."ROAR!!........" dad "what are you now?!" boy "scary cow!"
*brian using 'we' instead of 'you' when talking to the girls
*did i mention chinese?
*rj and i and our little water/beating eachother fights
*hitting on barrabas
*adam flashing page's car driving by..
and adoration was amazing...[ I really miss you steph, God took you young, but he needed a young smiling face in heaven, and you had the most beautiful smile through everything ]

and soo many more...damn, for jesus camp, it was awesome

Tom Petty= [ God ]

i just can't stop thinking about him..but how do you tell him this?....it wouldnt work out....too good of friends with others...damnit

oh and ps

TOM PETTY TOMORROW BITCHES!!!!!!

so yeah...been awhile hmm

failed again
graduation friday night
saturday night pirate game...18-2 we kick ass!
sunday-adams grad party, mucho fun! <3 i love you anne
today.,.nothin then work...w00t? i need outa that shit hole


to just put it simply...i need someone to hold..


and i mean [ you ]...

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Schizoid |||||||||||||| 54%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 70%
Borderline |||||||||||||||| 70%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Narcissistic |||||||||| 34%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70%
Dependent |||||||||||||| 58%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 54%

that can't be good ^

lola...la la la la lola

tomorrow is Fr Matt's last mass....I can't believe he's leaving us..........it's just not fair...oh well, maybe this 'neff' guy won't be too bad....-_-i hope not...anywho.....bored day today....adam and i went to brunch, lol, well more like lunch at 10am lol....worked last night, drama drama drama, got ambushed by lauren and carly squirting me with whipped cream! BAD BAD BAD!

ttyl

e-mailed bill...oh boyaboyaboya...dont even ask...too depressing, it's in my xanga though

http://www.xanga.com/revolution_of_ducks

if you want to read the long dramatic emo letter lol

anyways...people SUCK!

oh i told adam about greg...wasnt too happy, but i think things are ok

wow so...,prom was fun, bill was an ass, amy was pretty bitchy too, way to glare at kim and me all night, after prom was awesome...sunday went to warren, grandma seems chipper, but im just so worried....she didnt look too good -_-hum, came home monday hung out with greg, then adam...am i a horrible person? besides the fact that now im going out with greg, and i just dont know how to tell adam...im really scared to hurt him....damnit...oh well...ill figure something out....


-later cats
-B-rizzle

i cant stand NA anymore

FUCK ALL OF YOU

I'm sittin' on a citadel
Contemplating life
Making a point to waste my time
I'm walking on clouds
Of white

What if I fall
What if I don't
What if I never make it home
What if I bleed
What if I break
And I find that I can't take
The city below the citadel
Holding my own hand?
Sittin' alone

I'm breakin' on the balcony
Breakin' window panes
Killing the pain of broken hearts
I'm walkin' on clouds
I'm walkin' on stars

What if I fall
What if I don't
What if I never make it home
What if I bleed
What if I break
And I find that I can't take
The city below the citadel
Holding my own hand?
Sittin' alone

Holdin' on to something
That's keepin'me from jumpin'
So afraid to go in alone
Holdin up this fortress
With imaginary forces
Longing for a life down below

wowo last night went to katie's thenn

wildwoodhiglands and did in this order:
go carts
pizza
games
golf
go carts
katie rode go carts by herself
more games
her house
movie
sleep
cake
movie
then i came back home then went downtown to almost be a model until i realized everyone else there had experience
now workin tonight then hangin out with mentant and the old rio roho crew