Is it love that tears people apart? Or is it people that claim to love, but have actually lost all interest.
Someone once told me "We are real people, we have feelings"
I completely understand this statment now. I have been made to kill a relationship, with someone Ive grown to not know at all.
I ,at one time, would claim to know this person more than anybody else. I was lead to believe this, I was nieve. I was a fool to believe that forgiveness can be shared by two "friends".
Mabye it is I who ,for lack of a better term, is the asshole.
Mabye I was just a lost soul who believed love could conquer all obsticles. Love connot conquer "anything". Love will put a man to death. Ive said it before and I will say it again. Love is for suckers.
I have felt pain, from a childhood spend on the streets, from a father who would beat me for trying to hug him, from a mother who would sit and watch as my father would throw me out on the streets for weeks upon weeks.
Pain was, at one time, my only friend. I learned what a friend was through pain. All I had one the street was pain. A 10 year old child grows up fast when subjected to living in a gutter.
from that, I am now me. A spent most my childhood living in trash, and now ive become just that....trash.
disregard the past two entries. i was stupid to think that. im sorry all, i think i still better leave as i prolly dont have many friends now
well i went for a walk and got home to find my "lover" having sex with my "friend" mark, also my bassist. so i sent her out of the room and beat mark to a bloody pulp. i had to control myself. I wanted so badly to go all the way and finish his life, but i had to stop. She was gone by the time i had finished. after i called an ambulance for mark and he was gone, i found a note on my dresser that read: "dear NewBlood, i can't love you anymore, i have found another." Ive said it before, and i'll say it again for the last time. Love is for suckers!
well confession time. last tueday i was diagnosed with lung cancer. i told some people that it ws in my leg, i didnt want people to feel bad for me. but it was still a lie and thats not fair. so yeah. there it is
Ive come to a scary conclusion,the
Ive come to a scary conclusion,the
man these freakin pills im on are crazy. the lable says i cant drink alcohal after takin them but i did and i cant feel my arms.