I don't ever wanna listen to any songs or poetry thats about love!!! Not until I'm deaf and don;t give a fuck! @.@ There's to much of it!

Tourniquet
by Evanescence

I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more.
(So much more)
I lay dying,
And I'm pouring
crimson regret, and betrayal.

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

Do you remember me;
Lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

(Return to me salvation)
(I want to DIE!)

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

My wounds cry for the grave.
My soul cries for deliverance.
Will I be denied?
Christ! Tourniquet! My suicide.

(Return to us salvation)
(Return to us salvation...)

I miss some of my friends from 5th grade!!!! ;.;

My Immortal-Evanessence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me


You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Why are so many of my friends depressed? ;.;

Once again....I want to leave elftown...

I hope they both rot in hell for everything they have done to me...at least i don't have a guy's name unlike that fuckin' whore....this song also remind of what happend...and how I feel.....

Pink
Hell Wit Ya

What is this?
I heard that you've got a new miss
Just broke up so you know that I'm pissed
They say your faithful
I don't believe that shh, oh no, oh no

Oh I've tried
To act like I don't care
But it doesn't seem fair
You're so good to her
And I've tried
To pretend I don't see
All those things that you do
You couldn't do for me

I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Now you gotta another girl in your life
Giving her love all day, all night
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right

So I hear
I've met the winch before
(Yeah I remember that time we went to Pizza Hut)
(And you told me she was your cousin)
I hear you learned to open doors
(When did you become such a damn gentleman?)

Oh I've tried
To act like I don't care
But it doesn't seem fair
You're so good to her
And I've tried
To pretend I don't see
All those things that you do
You couldn't do for me

I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Now you gotta another girl in your life
Giving her love all day, all night
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right

What does she do to you?
To make you give her everything
Like you never did for me
Call it jealousy that it's giving me
Cause all the time that you were mine
You didn't treat me right
No you didn't treat me right, no, no
Whoa

I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Now you gotta another girl in your life
Giving her love all day, all night
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right

I was in love wit ya
I, I was in love
Love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
You didn't want to treat me right
All day, all night
Love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Didn't wanna treat me right

My hopes went up again....now they are back down...

baby shower goin' on at my house....too many drunks....DAMN THOSE FUCKIN' WINOS!!!!!!! >.< The only good thing is that i can stay on longer than normal days....

>.<

The happiest day of my life will be the day that I die...

It's rainig fuckin' hard out....COOL! Well seeing as the lights might go off...I better go...*cries* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I feel fuckin' depressed again...I hate it when people get my hopes up....I hate my fucked up life...

Thinking....Leave me alone...

*sighs* I have to do a lot of homework...yay... :(

Alone, empty, and cold....

Trust is soooooo overrated...you can't trust anyone. Not your friends, family, or lover. You can't even trust yourself....

I'm more wierd than ever thought...O.O;;;

Way Away
by Yellowcard

I think I'm breaking out
I'm gonna leave you now
There's nothing for me here
It's all the same
And even though I knew
That everything might go
Go downhill from here
I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
Feels to be alone and not believe, anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here
I'm on my own
I made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say
I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe(Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe, anything

Letting out the noise inside of me(letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering(every window pane is shattering)
Cutting up my words before I speak(cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe

Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting up my words before I speak (Cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

The feeling is back...I feel like leaving Elftown again....

;.; I knew it...I should've known! Everything I kept thinking of was true! EVERYTHING! *cries* Why does this always happen to me? Why do I bother falling in love when it always ends in heartbreak?! WHY?!?!?!