[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2004-01-12
Written: (7623 days ago)

Depressed....confused...tired...



Shakira
Fool

Tell me lies
slap me on the face
just improvise
do something
really clever
that'll make me hate
your name forever

You might swear
you'd never
touch a lady
well, let me say
you're not too far
from maybe
every day you find
new ways to hurt me

But I can't help it
if I'm just a fool
always having my heart
set on you
'til the time
you start changig
the rules
I'll keep chasing
the soles
of your shoes

Fool

Got resigned from
hearing my own story
every night I'm paying
hell for glory
I'm embarrassed but
I'm much more sorry

All this pain begins
to feel like pleasure
with more tears
you'd make a sea
of desert
salt my wounds
and i'll keep
saying thank you

But I can't help it
if I'm just a fool
always having my heart
set on you
'til the time
you start changig
the rules
I'll keep chasing
the soles
of your shoes

Fool

But I can't help it
if I'm just a fool
always having my heart
set on you
'til the time
you start changing
the rules
I'll keep chasing
the soles
of your shoes

Fool
I can't help it baby
fool
I can't help it baby
fool
I can't help it baby
fool
I can't help it baby

Fool
I'm a fool
I'm a fool
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Written about Friday 2004-01-09
Written: (7626 days ago)

My Last Breath-Evanesence


Hold on to me love.
You know I can't stay long.
All I wanted to say was I love you,
And I'm not afraid (Ahhh)
Can you hear me ?
Can you feel me in your arms ?

(chorus)
Holding my last breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

I'll miss the winter.
A world of fragile things.
Look for me in the white forest,
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me.
I can taste it in your tears.

(chorus)
Holding my last breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

Closing your eyes to disappear.
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there!

Say goodnight
Don't be afraid.
Calling me,
Calling me,
As you fade to black.

(chorus)
Holding my last breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

Holding My Last Breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

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Written about Thursday 2004-01-08
Written: (7627 days ago)

I CAN'T BELIEVE HER!!!!!!! HOW COULD SHE?! *sobs* I can't believe she became friends with him! She promiced! I warned her too...*sighs* But then again...why do I even bother...? No one ever listens to me...

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Written about Saturday 2004-01-03
Written: (7631 days ago)

Hmmmmm...well...I finally took of those baby pics...Thank God...well...whats do I say? I'm friggin' bored and worried...happy too...and sad as well...O.o;; Odd...

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Written about Thursday 2004-01-01
Written: (7633 days ago)

Heh...I sorta like this song....

Mya-"Fallen"

Verse 1

You complete me
Like air & water boy I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free, fallen
My head's up in the clouds
In love, I'm proud to say it loud
Like an accident it happened
Outta nowhere it just happened
And I ain't mad at all because...

Chorus (2x)

I've fallen...head over heels
I've fallen....in love with you
I've fallen... and I can't get up
Don't wanna get up because of love

Verse 2

Baby to let you get away is crazy
So I'm doin' what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see, 'cause I'm trying to be your lady
Forever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I've fallen

Repeat Chorus (2x)

I've fallen...head over heels
I've fallen....in love with you
I've fallen... and I can't get up
Don't wanna get up because of love

Bridge

You compliment me, not an accessory
You're necessary
Whenever this big bad world scares me
You're there with me yeah
Security, are you here with me
You're my happiness, my joy
I smile because of you boy
I look forward to the time I spend with you
Whatever it is we do
'Cause I've fallen for you boy
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you boy
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
In love, for you

Touch me, touch me
Hold me, hold me
Love me, love me
Kiss me, in love with you
Talk to me, talk to me
Caress me, lay with me
Don't want to get up, explore me
You're my everything

Repeat Chorus (6x)

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Written about Wednesday 2003-12-31
Written: (7634 days ago)

I really hate New Years Eve.....ugh.....it sucks.....I always feel alone...





Pink
Lonely Girl

I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize

Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?

Lyin' awake watchin' the sunlight
How the birds will sing as I count the rings
around my eyes
Constantly pushing the world I know aside
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to
try

I'm lookin' for a way to become
The person that I dreamt of when I was sixteen
Oh, nothin' is ever enough
Ooh, baby, it ain't enough for what it may seem

Do you even know who you are?
I'm still tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Everybody wants to be
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No

Sorry girl, tell a tale for me
Cuz I'm wondering how you really feel
I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you
Cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come
true

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, yeah, yeah
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Oh, I wanted to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell, I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
I guess not, oh I guess not

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, I'm tryin' to find
A rising dream or a superstar?
Oh, I have a all these dreams
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No, no
Do you even know what you are?
A rising dream or a fallen star?
Is life good to you or is it bad?


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Written about Thursday 2003-12-25
Written: (7640 days ago)

Merry Christmas!!!


Ehehehehe...I have this song stuck in my head...<.< >.>


Destiny's Child
8 Days Of Christmas

[Speaking:]
You know Christmas
Was made for the children
Destiny's Child
2G Christmas
Destiny's Child
Ah-ah
Ah

[Verse 1:]
On the 8th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a pair of cloey shades & a diamond belly ring
On the 7th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a nice back rub and he massaged my feet
On the 6th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a crotch jacket with dirty denim jeans
On the 5th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a poem that he wrote for me

[Bridge:]
The the feelin' that I feel is so good
He makes me feel so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
If he only knew what he does to me
My man, my man, my baby
Oh he makes me feel so lovely, so sexy
I'm so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
How I love him for his generousity
My man, my man, my baby

[Chorus:]
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas(wooooooooaaaaaaahhhh)
Yes it feels like Christmas
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (the spirit of x-mas)
Yes it feels like Christmas

[Verse 2:]
On the 4th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a candlelit dinner just me & my honey
On the 3rd day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a gift certificate to get my favorite CD's
On the 2nd day of Christmas my baby gave to me
the keys to a CLK Mercedes
On the 1st day of x-mas my baby gave to me
quality T-I-V

[Repeat Bridge]
[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge 2:]
If it feels like Christmas
Yes it's Christmas
Bro's Christmas
Mom's Christmas
Dad's Christmas
Bro's Christmas
Feels like Christmas
Feels like Christmas

Farrah's Christmas
Beyonce's Christmas
Kelly's Christmas
mom's Christmas
dad's Christmas
bro's Christmas
Feels like Christmas
Feels like Christmas

[Repeat Chorus twice]
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Written about Wednesday 2003-12-17
Written: (7649 days ago)

R.I.P. Henry Rodriguez

Born on December 5, 1988 and died on December 14, 2003.

You'll be greatly missed Henry...even by me, whom never knew you. Though I do know that you'll be in a better place and watching over your friends, family and girlfriend...who is a good friend of mine as well...
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Written about Saturday 2003-12-13
Written: (7653 days ago)

Runnin'(Dyin' To Live)- Tupac feat. The Notorious B.I.G

you know I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead...
why am I fighting to live when I'm just living to fight,
why am I trying to see when I there ain't nothing in sight,
why am I trying to give when noone gives me a try,
why am I dying to live when I'm just living to die.

Biggie verse:
Check it
I grew up a fucking scew up
got introduced to the game
got an ounce and blew up
choppin rocks overnight
the nigga Biggie Smalls trying to turn into the young Frank White
We had to grow dreas tp change our description
two cops on the milk box missing
show they toes you know they got stpped on
a fist full of bullets a chest full of teflon
Run from the police, picture that
I'm too fat, fuck around and catch an asthma attack
that's why I bust back, It don't phase me
when he drop take his glock and I'm swayze
summer break my escape bought some weight
Lay back I got some money to make
...motherfucker

you know I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead...
why am I fighting to live when I'm just living to fight,
why am I trying to see when I there ain't nothing in sight,
why am I trying to give when noone gives me a try,
why am I dying to live when I'm just living to die.

tupac verse:

It's on me
And still I'm having memories of high speed when the cops crash,
as I laughed pushing the gas, while my glock blast
we was young and we were dumb but we had heart
In the dark will we survive through the bad parts
Many dreams is what we had
and plenty wishes
no hesitations in extermination of the snitches
and these bitches they still continue to persue me
a couple of movies
now the whole worlds trying to screw me
even the cops trying to sue me
so what can I do, but stay true
sippin twenty twos of brew
and how the media asking questions
trying to stress me, misery is all i see
that's my mind state
my history with the police it shakes the crime rates
my main man had two strikes slip
got arrested and flipped
he screamed Thug Life and emptied a clip
got that runnin from the police

you know I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead...
why am I fighting to live when I'm just living to fight,
why am I trying to see when I there ain't nothing in sight,
why am I trying to give when noone gives me a try,
why am I dying to live when I'm just living to die.

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Written about Thursday 2003-12-04
Written: (7662 days ago)

^_^ I'm so happy!

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Written about Wednesday 2003-12-03
Written: (7663 days ago)

I don't ever wanna listen to any songs or poetry thats about love!!! Not until I'm deaf and don;t give a fuck! @.@ There's to much of it!

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Written about Saturday 2003-11-29
Written: (7666 days ago)

Tourniquet
by Evanescence

I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more.
(So much more)
I lay dying,
And I'm pouring
crimson regret, and betrayal.

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

Do you remember me;
Lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

(Return to me salvation)
(I want to DIE!)

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

My wounds cry for the grave.
My soul cries for deliverance.
Will I be denied?
Christ! Tourniquet! My suicide.

(Return to us salvation)
(Return to us salvation...)

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Written about Thursday 2003-11-27
Written: (7668 days ago)

I miss some of my friends from 5th grade!!!! ;.;

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Written about Thursday 2003-11-27
Written: (7669 days ago)

My Immortal-Evanessence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me


You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

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Written about Tuesday 2003-11-25
Written: (7671 days ago)

Why are so many of my friends depressed? ;.;

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Written about Monday 2003-11-24
Written: (7672 days ago)

Once again....I want to leave elftown...

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Written about Saturday 2003-11-22
Written: (7673 days ago)

I hope they both rot in hell for everything they have done to me...at least i don't have a guy's name unlike that fuckin' whore....this song also remind of what happend...and how I feel.....

Pink
Hell Wit Ya

What is this?
I heard that you've got a new miss
Just broke up so you know that I'm pissed
They say your faithful
I don't believe that shh, oh no, oh no

Oh I've tried
To act like I don't care
But it doesn't seem fair
You're so good to her
And I've tried
To pretend I don't see
All those things that you do
You couldn't do for me

I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Now you gotta another girl in your life
Giving her love all day, all night
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right

So I hear
I've met the winch before
(Yeah I remember that time we went to Pizza Hut)
(And you told me she was your cousin)
I hear you learned to open doors
(When did you become such a damn gentleman?)

Oh I've tried
To act like I don't care
But it doesn't seem fair
You're so good to her
And I've tried
To pretend I don't see
All those things that you do
You couldn't do for me

I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Now you gotta another girl in your life
Giving her love all day, all night
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right

What does she do to you?
To make you give her everything
Like you never did for me
Call it jealousy that it's giving me
Cause all the time that you were mine
You didn't treat me right
No you didn't treat me right, no, no
Whoa

I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Now you gotta another girl in your life
Giving her love all day, all night
I was in love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right

I was in love wit ya
I, I was in love
Love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
You didn't want to treat me right
All day, all night
Love wit ya
But to hell wit ya
Cause you didn't wanna treat me right
Didn't wanna treat me right



~Though...he did treat me right...this song still shows how I feel....
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Written about Friday 2003-11-21
Written: (7675 days ago)

My hopes went up again....now they are back down...

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Written about Monday 2003-11-17
Written: (7679 days ago)

baby shower goin' on at my house....too many drunks....DAMN THOSE FUCKIN' WINOS!!!!!!! >.< The only good thing is that i can stay on longer than normal days....

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Written about Saturday 2003-11-15
Written: (7680 days ago)

>.<

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Written about Saturday 2003-11-15
Written: (7681 days ago)

The happiest day of my life will be the day that I die...

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