[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-21
Written: (7583 days ago)

The Science of Selling Yourself Short-Less Than Jake

I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,


I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 

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Written about Thursday 2004-02-19
Written: (7585 days ago)

Woot! My Godmother's baby girl esta muy linda! *huggles her baby cousin Natalie* I wonder is thats how you spell it...^^;;; Heh...she's so cute! Wheeeeeeee! My family is having a lot of babies now! My baby brother, my uncle's 1 year old baby girl, and now Natalie! ^^ *giggles* Cute!

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-14
Written: (7590 days ago)

.....*on the verge of tears* Why did they leave?....

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Written about Thursday 2004-02-12
Written: (7591 days ago)
Next in thread: 147915

Woohoo! Tommorrow is Friday The 13th! Heh...but what sucks is that Valentines Day is on Saturday...*curses* -.-;;; I hate Valentines Day...Meh....



everybody's fool
by Evanescence

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that


never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled


look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she


never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled


without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie

i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore

it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool
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Written about Wednesday 2004-02-11
Written: (7592 days ago)

Just got back from the hospital...I'm so tired...*sighs* Not to mention cold...Meh...

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-07
Written: (7597 days ago)

Meh...I'm so confused...my head hurts...I need more sleep...

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Written about Thursday 2004-02-05
Written: (7599 days ago)

R.I.P


[*Fallen_Angel*] I'll always remeber you...R.I.P...I lylas.

[Tuquah]I can tell that you were a great person, though I never knew you...


Ruben Garcia Jr.-From what Gaby has told me...you were a great person...You'll be missed...


Henry Rodriquez-I almost had a chance to meet you...before your life was taken away...you and Stacy made a great couple...I'm glad that you made my friend so happy...
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Written about Friday 2004-01-30
Written: (7604 days ago)
Next in thread: 161199

Hating life with a passion....

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Written about Monday 2004-01-19
Written: (7615 days ago)

My baby brother's birthday went well...Yeah...thats it...

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Written about Sunday 2004-01-18
Written: (7617 days ago)

R.I.P.[Tuquah]

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Written about Saturday 2004-01-17
Written: (7617 days ago)

I'm thinking of getting my ears pierced again and also getting a haircut...something must be wrong with me...*laughs*



Pink
God Is A DJ

[VERSE 1:]
I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high
Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes
Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore
Like Mommy I love you
Daddy I hate you
Brother I need you
Lover, hey "f*** you"
I can see everything here with my third eye
Like the blue in the sky

[CHORUS:]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

[Verse 2:]
I've been the girl- middle finger in the air
Unaffected by rumors, the truth: I don't care
So open your mouth and stick out your tongue
You might as well let go, you can't take back what you've done
So find a new lifestyle
A new reason to smile
Look for Nirvana
Under the strobe lights
Sequins and sex dreams
You whisper to me
There's no reason to cry

[CHORUS:]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

[BRIDGE:]
You take what you get and you get what you give
I say don't run from yourself, man, that's no way to live
I've got a record in my bag you should give it a spin
Lift your hands in the air so that life can begin

If God Is a DJ... If God
If God is a DJ (life is a dance floor)
Get your ass on the dance floor

[CHORUS (2X):]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it
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Written about Thursday 2004-01-15
Written: (7619 days ago)

Today is my baby brother's first birthday! He is now a year old!!! ^-^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW!!!

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Written about Monday 2004-01-12
Written: (7623 days ago)

Depressed....confused...tired...



Shakira
Fool

Tell me lies
slap me on the face
just improvise
do something
really clever
that'll make me hate
your name forever

You might swear
you'd never
touch a lady
well, let me say
you're not too far
from maybe
every day you find
new ways to hurt me

But I can't help it
if I'm just a fool
always having my heart
set on you
'til the time
you start changig
the rules
I'll keep chasing
the soles
of your shoes

Fool

Got resigned from
hearing my own story
every night I'm paying
hell for glory
I'm embarrassed but
I'm much more sorry

All this pain begins
to feel like pleasure
with more tears
you'd make a sea
of desert
salt my wounds
and i'll keep
saying thank you

But I can't help it
if I'm just a fool
always having my heart
set on you
'til the time
you start changig
the rules
I'll keep chasing
the soles
of your shoes

Fool

But I can't help it
if I'm just a fool
always having my heart
set on you
'til the time
you start changing
the rules
I'll keep chasing
the soles
of your shoes

Fool
I can't help it baby
fool
I can't help it baby
fool
I can't help it baby
fool
I can't help it baby

Fool
I'm a fool
I'm a fool
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Written about Friday 2004-01-09
Written: (7626 days ago)

My Last Breath-Evanesence


Hold on to me love.
You know I can't stay long.
All I wanted to say was I love you,
And I'm not afraid (Ahhh)
Can you hear me ?
Can you feel me in your arms ?

(chorus)
Holding my last breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

I'll miss the winter.
A world of fragile things.
Look for me in the white forest,
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me.
I can taste it in your tears.

(chorus)
Holding my last breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

Closing your eyes to disappear.
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there!

Say goodnight
Don't be afraid.
Calling me,
Calling me,
As you fade to black.

(chorus)
Holding my last breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

Holding My Last Breath.
Safe inside myself.
Are all my thoughts of you ?
Sweet raptured light,
It ends here tonight.

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Written about Thursday 2004-01-08
Written: (7627 days ago)

I CAN'T BELIEVE HER!!!!!!! HOW COULD SHE?! *sobs* I can't believe she became friends with him! She promiced! I warned her too...*sighs* But then again...why do I even bother...? No one ever listens to me...

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Written about Saturday 2004-01-03
Written: (7631 days ago)

Hmmmmm...well...I finally took of those baby pics...Thank God...well...whats do I say? I'm friggin' bored and worried...happy too...and sad as well...O.o;; Odd...

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Written about Thursday 2004-01-01
Written: (7633 days ago)

Heh...I sorta like this song....

Mya-"Fallen"

Verse 1

You complete me
Like air & water boy I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free, fallen
My head's up in the clouds
In love, I'm proud to say it loud
Like an accident it happened
Outta nowhere it just happened
And I ain't mad at all because...

Chorus (2x)

I've fallen...head over heels
I've fallen....in love with you
I've fallen... and I can't get up
Don't wanna get up because of love

Verse 2

Baby to let you get away is crazy
So I'm doin' what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see, 'cause I'm trying to be your lady
Forever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I've fallen

Repeat Chorus (2x)

I've fallen...head over heels
I've fallen....in love with you
I've fallen... and I can't get up
Don't wanna get up because of love

Bridge

You compliment me, not an accessory
You're necessary
Whenever this big bad world scares me
You're there with me yeah
Security, are you here with me
You're my happiness, my joy
I smile because of you boy
I look forward to the time I spend with you
Whatever it is we do
'Cause I've fallen for you boy
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you boy
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
In love, for you

Touch me, touch me
Hold me, hold me
Love me, love me
Kiss me, in love with you
Talk to me, talk to me
Caress me, lay with me
Don't want to get up, explore me
You're my everything

Repeat Chorus (6x)

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Written about Wednesday 2003-12-31
Written: (7634 days ago)

I really hate New Years Eve.....ugh.....it sucks.....I always feel alone...





Pink
Lonely Girl

I can remember the very first time I cried
How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside
All of my memories - good and bad - that's past
Didn't even take the time to realize

Starin' at the cracks in the walls
Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end
Still I curl up right under the bed
Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

Do you even know who you are?
I guess I'm tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
I want to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?

Lyin' awake watchin' the sunlight
How the birds will sing as I count the rings
around my eyes
Constantly pushing the world I know aside
I don't even feel the pain, I don't even want to
try

I'm lookin' for a way to become
The person that I dreamt of when I was sixteen
Oh, nothin' is ever enough
Ooh, baby, it ain't enough for what it may seem

Do you even know who you are?
I'm still tryin' to find
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Everybody wants to be
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No

Sorry girl, tell a tale for me
Cuz I'm wondering how you really feel
I'm a lonely girl, I'll tell a tale for you
Cuz I'm just tryin' to make all my dreams come
true

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, yeah, yeah
A borrowed dream or a superstar?
Oh, I wanted to be a star
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell, I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
I guess not, oh I guess not

Do you even know who you are?
Oh, I'm tryin' to find
A rising dream or a superstar?
Oh, I have a all these dreams
Is life good to you or is it bad?
I can't tell anymore
Do you even know what you have?
No, no
Do you even know what you are?
A rising dream or a fallen star?
Is life good to you or is it bad?


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Written about Thursday 2003-12-25
Written: (7640 days ago)

Merry Christmas!!!


Ehehehehe...I have this song stuck in my head...<.< >.>


Destiny's Child
8 Days Of Christmas

[Speaking:]
You know Christmas
Was made for the children
Destiny's Child
2G Christmas
Destiny's Child
Ah-ah
Ah

[Verse 1:]
On the 8th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a pair of cloey shades & a diamond belly ring
On the 7th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a nice back rub and he massaged my feet
On the 6th day of x-mas my baby gave to me
a crotch jacket with dirty denim jeans
On the 5th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a poem that he wrote for me

[Bridge:]
The the feelin' that I feel is so good
He makes me feel so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
If he only knew what he does to me
My man, my man, my baby
Oh he makes me feel so lovely, so sexy
I'm so in lo-lo-lo-lo-love
How I love him for his generousity
My man, my man, my baby

[Chorus:]
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas(wooooooooaaaaaaahhhh)
Yes it feels like Christmas
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (it feels so lovely)
Doesn't it feel like Christmas (the spirit of x-mas)
Yes it feels like Christmas

[Verse 2:]
On the 4th day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a candlelit dinner just me & my honey
On the 3rd day of Christmas my baby gave to me
a gift certificate to get my favorite CD's
On the 2nd day of Christmas my baby gave to me
the keys to a CLK Mercedes
On the 1st day of x-mas my baby gave to me
quality T-I-V

[Repeat Bridge]
[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge 2:]
If it feels like Christmas
Yes it's Christmas
Bro's Christmas
Mom's Christmas
Dad's Christmas
Bro's Christmas
Feels like Christmas
Feels like Christmas

Farrah's Christmas
Beyonce's Christmas
Kelly's Christmas
mom's Christmas
dad's Christmas
bro's Christmas
Feels like Christmas
Feels like Christmas

[Repeat Chorus twice]
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Written about Wednesday 2003-12-17
Written: (7649 days ago)

R.I.P. Henry Rodriguez

Born on December 5, 1988 and died on December 14, 2003.

You'll be greatly missed Henry...even by me, whom never knew you. Though I do know that you'll be in a better place and watching over your friends, family and girlfriend...who is a good friend of mine as well...
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