I have to go to another fuckin party...I hate parties...I just want to stay home...god damn it all....

Here without You-Three Doors Down

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Kick ass song right here-> One Step Closer-Linkin Park

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up, I'm about to break!

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shorty Doowop-Baby Bash feat. Frankie J. (my new favorite song...Oo;;;)


Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you

I bet you aint never seen a shorty so fly
Pushin catty plaint with the chrome choppin by
Throwin up player wave to my riders on the block
They all show love to my shorty doowop
In a juicy fruit jeans love that 315s
Livin every fantasy and ghetto girl dreams
Watchin swinging bang and she in another corner
Lookin way cool comin through with the doshure
Now after two honey bunts I discovered the buzz
I'm call her shorty she gonna call me love
And through the thick of it all
She excepted collect calls
When the daddy got caught up by the law

Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you

For real though, for real though, for real though
She the girl in the movie and I'm the hero
Stuck with me with the vibe legged pero
And came up when she started with zero
Baby Bash Latino Robert Denero
She got with me cuz her hubby was a weird-o
And yes sir she lookin so mighty mighty
Love me cuz I'm fresh and clean and so tighty
And theres a piece to the puzzle, the grind, the hustle
Respect when I'm good and love me when I'm in trouble
And yes sir, oh no, and yes sir she lookin so throw

Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you 

I can't wait to be alone with you
Cuz you the only boo who do the freaky things you do
You keep me fellin high you keep my drama low
Yea I'm your shorty boy, but you already know

Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you

Ummm...it's my sister's 8th birthday and...Uh...she's sick and I feel a bit hyper...Oo;;;

Damn...I have to go to my cousin Julie's birthday party...-.-;;; I hate parties...I don't care if it's mine I'm still not going...And my siblings won't leave me the hell alone...-.-;

I have a new favorite Song...or Songs...^^;;;


She Will Be Loved-Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

*bangs head against her desk* Gah...I've just come up with a very good idea for a story...but I don't know how to start it! It's always the same fucking problem!!!! And now that I have a good first sentence...(after nearly twenty minutes of thinking about it) I don't know how else to continue it...I haven't written much up until now...and damn...I've become a tad bit rusty...*frowns* But I really miss writting down useless crap!...Heh...No not really...I just really miss writting...I think it's about time that I come back from my long vacation of not writting anything aside from school assignments and get back to my very muched loved creative writting...But where has all my creativity gone?!?!?!?!?! Am I losing my imagination?! Oh the horror!!! Woe is me!!!! Okay...talk about being overly dramatic...Hehe...I'll come up with something...even if it means getting really bad headaches...such as the one I have now...I think I'll just practice with a little fanfiction and work my way up to my own Original work...I think I'll do a little yaoi fanfiction this time...^.~

I went school shopping today and my parents were fighting ...fun...-.-;;; But I did get some new manga! ^-^ I got Demon Diary Volumes 4 and 5 and I also got Gravitation volume 1! ^.^ *goes off to read her new manga*

The Science of Selling Yourself Short-Less Than Jake

I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,


I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 

Woot! My Godmother's baby girl esta muy linda! *huggles her baby cousin Natalie* I wonder is thats how you spell it...^^;;; Heh...she's so cute! Wheeeeeeee! My family is having a lot of babies now! My baby brother, my uncle's 1 year old baby girl, and now Natalie! ^^ *giggles* Cute!

.....*on the verge of tears* Why did they leave?....

Woohoo! Tommorrow is Friday The 13th! Heh...but what sucks is that Valentines Day is on Saturday...*curses* -.-;;; I hate Valentines Day...Meh....

Just got back from the hospital...I'm so tired...*sighs* Not to mention cold...Meh...

Meh...I'm so confused...my head hurts...I need more sleep...

R.I.P

Hating life with a passion....

My baby brother's birthday went well...Yeah...thats it...