[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2004-03-23
Written: (7551 days ago)

I like this song...alot...

I Don't Wanna Know-Mario Winans feat. P.Diddy

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin' in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't mean to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Baby taught you better then me (taught you better then me)
Then why you fall asleep (why you fall asleep)
Shove 'em off and stay, what you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided ma
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, yeah

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know


If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

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Written about Saturday 2004-03-13
Written: (7561 days ago)
Next in thread: 174709

I have to go to another fuckin party...I hate parties...I just want to stay home...god damn it all....

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Written about Friday 2004-03-12
Written: (7562 days ago)


Here without You-Three Doors Down

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

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Written about Wednesday 2004-03-10
Written: (7564 days ago)

Kick ass song right here-> One Step Closer-Linkin Park

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway
Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I found bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up
Shut up, I'm about to break!

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

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Written about Saturday 2004-03-06
Written: (7568 days ago)

Shorty Doowop-Baby Bash feat. Frankie J. (my new favorite song...Oo;;;)


Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you

I bet you aint never seen a shorty so fly
Pushin catty plaint with the chrome choppin by
Throwin up player wave to my riders on the block
They all show love to my shorty doowop
In a juicy fruit jeans love that 315s
Livin every fantasy and ghetto girl dreams
Watchin swinging bang and she in another corner
Lookin way cool comin through with the doshure
Now after two honey bunts I discovered the buzz
I'm call her shorty she gonna call me love
And through the thick of it all
She excepted collect calls
When the daddy got caught up by the law

Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you

For real though, for real though, for real though
She the girl in the movie and I'm the hero
Stuck with me with the vibe legged pero
And came up when she started with zero
Baby Bash Latino Robert Denero
She got with me cuz her hubby was a weird-o
And yes sir she lookin so mighty mighty
Love me cuz I'm fresh and clean and so tighty
And theres a piece to the puzzle, the grind, the hustle
Respect when I'm good and love me when I'm in trouble
And yes sir, oh no, and yes sir she lookin so throw

Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you 

I can't wait to be alone with you
Cuz you the only boo who do the freaky things you do
You keep me fellin high you keep my drama low
Yea I'm your shorty boy, but you already know

Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
Yea that's my shorty doowop
And I can't wait to be alone with you

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Written about Friday 2004-03-05
Written: (7569 days ago)

Ummm...it's my sister's 8th birthday and...Uh...she's sick and I feel a bit hyper...Oo;;;

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-28
Written: (7575 days ago)
Next in thread: 158564

Damn...I have to go to my cousin Julie's birthday party...-.-;;; I hate parties...I don't care if it's mine I'm still not going...And my siblings won't leave me the hell alone...-.-;

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Written about Friday 2004-02-27
Written: (7576 days ago)

I have a new favorite Song...or Songs...^^;;;


She Will Be Loved-Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls



Shiver-Maroon 5

You build me up
You knock me down
Provoke a smile
And make me frown
You are the queen of runaround
You know it's true

You chew me up
And spit me out
Enjoy the taste
I leave in your mouth
You look at me
I look at you
Neither of us know what to do

There may not
Be another way to your heart
So I guess I'd better find a new way in
I shiver when I hear your name
Think about you but it's not the same
I won't be satisfied I'm under your skin

Immobilized by the thought of you
Paralyzed by the sight of you
Hypnotized by the words you say
Not true but I believe anyway

So come to bed It's getting late
There's no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race


Somewhere I Belong-Linkin Park

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

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Written about Tuesday 2004-02-24
Written: (7579 days ago)
Next in thread: 151488, 151596

*bangs head against her desk* Gah...I've just come up with a very good idea for a story...but I don't know how to start it! It's always the same fucking problem!!!! And now that I have a good first sentence...(after nearly twenty minutes of thinking about it) I don't know how else to continue it...I haven't written much up until now...and damn...I've become a tad bit rusty...*frowns* But I really miss writting down useless crap!...Heh...No not really...I just really miss writting...I think it's about time that I come back from my long vacation of not writting anything aside from school assignments and get back to my very muched loved creative writting...But where has all my creativity gone?!?!?!?!?! Am I losing my imagination?! Oh the horror!!! Woe is me!!!! Okay...talk about being overly dramatic...Hehe...I'll come up with something...even if it means getting really bad headaches...such as the one I have now...I think I'll just practice with a little fanfiction and work my way up to my own Original work...I think I'll do a little yaoi fanfiction this time...^.~

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Written about Monday 2004-02-23
Written: (7581 days ago)

I went school shopping today and my parents were fighting ...fun...-.-;;; But I did get some new manga! ^-^ I got Demon Diary Volumes 4 and 5 and I also got Gravitation volume 1! ^.^ *goes off to read her new manga*

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-21
Written: (7583 days ago)

The Science of Selling Yourself Short-Less Than Jake

I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,


I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 
I'm my own worst enemy 

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Written about Thursday 2004-02-19
Written: (7585 days ago)

Woot! My Godmother's baby girl esta muy linda! *huggles her baby cousin Natalie* I wonder is thats how you spell it...^^;;; Heh...she's so cute! Wheeeeeeee! My family is having a lot of babies now! My baby brother, my uncle's 1 year old baby girl, and now Natalie! ^^ *giggles* Cute!

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-14
Written: (7590 days ago)

.....*on the verge of tears* Why did they leave?....

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Written about Thursday 2004-02-12
Written: (7591 days ago)
Next in thread: 147915

Woohoo! Tommorrow is Friday The 13th! Heh...but what sucks is that Valentines Day is on Saturday...*curses* -.-;;; I hate Valentines Day...Meh....



everybody's fool
by Evanescence

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that


never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled


look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she


never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled


without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie

i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore

it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool
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Written about Wednesday 2004-02-11
Written: (7592 days ago)

Just got back from the hospital...I'm so tired...*sighs* Not to mention cold...Meh...

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-07
Written: (7597 days ago)

Meh...I'm so confused...my head hurts...I need more sleep...

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