[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2004-06-19
Written: (7463 days ago)
Next in thread: 263115

Well...today's the big graduation party for my brother and I. Won't it suck if I don't graduate? heh...ah well...I'll find out on Monday or Tuesday...Hopefully my friends and I all graduate...*crosses her fingers* I hope we do...and we're having the Graduation party early because next Saturday my family and I are moving...I'm gonna miss my friends...I'm even going to miss this crappy ass place called South Central...argh...ah well...I need to go finish cleaning and start getting everything ready.

P.S...I HATE PARTIES!!!! Okay...got that outta my system....O.o

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Written about Friday 2004-06-18
Written: (7464 days ago)
Next in thread: 262225

Borderline by Madonna(Shut up...I like this song...-.-)

Something in the way you love me won't let me be
I don't want to be your prisoner so baby won't you set me free
Stop playing with my heart
Finish what you start
When you make my love come down
If you want me let me know
Baby let it show
Honey don't you fool around

Just try to understand, I've given all I can,
'Cause you got the best of me

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Something in your eyes is makin' such a fool of me
When you hold me in your arms you love me till I just can't see
But then you let me down, when I look around, baby you just can't be found
Stop driving me away, I just wanna stay,
There's something I just got to say

Just try to understand, I've given all I can,
'Cause you got the best of me

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline


Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Keep on pushing me baby
Don't you know you drive me crazy
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Look what your love has done to me
Come on baby set me free
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline
You cause me so much pain, I think I'm going insane
What does it take to make you see?
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

260405  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2004-06-18
Written: (7464 days ago)

Wow...another diary entry by yours truly. What to write...oh I know...today sucked. Once again I had another depressing, annoying and oh so boring day. I got a fuckin cut on my leg and that stupid alcohol is making it sting. Stupid shit...and I just relized something. (Though I already told Alice...hmmm...I tell her lots of things...I guess...) Well as I was saying, I just relized that I hardly smile. I mean, I laugh/giggle a lot...but I never smile. Facinating,no? Pfft...yeah right. I'm already boring myself. *yawns* Bleh...I dunno....the separation amongst my friends sucked. Everything sucks. Life sucks. But what can I do? Continue living this hellhole is one thing....but what else? Eh, I dunno...I always seem to annoy people....in a way...some can't handle what I say. It annoys them. but it's the truth. Whatever negative thing I say about myself and life are MY feelings. Not theirs. They want me to tell them whats wrong. I resist. They continue to ask. I give in. In the end...they either ingore me, yell at me, say whatever, and....well....you get the point. Meh...by doing that they're just helping ALOT. *sighs* But whatever...I'm not important to them. At the moment anyways. Some say otherwise...but.....not many mean it...so I don't know...I'll stop for now before I bore you more than you already are...

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Written about Friday 2004-06-18
Written: (7465 days ago)

God...why do I also fuck up everything...I always do this...no wonder I can never be happy...I'm such an idiot...right now my depression is so overwhelming...what the hell do I do? I don't know...I need help...*shakes head* I need a lot of help...this depression is never going to go away...not with all thats happend...I hate life...why can't i just go to sleep one day and never wake up...what am I saying...I'm being an idiot again...I can't go back to being like that. I may end up doing something stupid...I DON'T WANT THAT! What do I want then?...I know...for everyone that I know to be happy...not to have any problems...but...*sighs* Why do some of them lie? They treat me like shit when I'm depressed...by doing that they just prove a point that I wonder if it's true or not...I'll stop...I'm just rambling...hopefully I'll be on tommorow....like it matters...

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Written about Saturday 2004-06-05
Written: (7477 days ago)

Mirror Mirror by M2M...wow...haven't heard this song in a long time...

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me

Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listened to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see

Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me

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Written about Thursday 2004-06-03
Written: (7479 days ago)
Next in thread: 259968

I'M GOING TO SIX FLAGS TOMMOROW!!!!!!!! *cheers happily* I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *coughs*Ahem...I must come down! *giggles* It's going to be so much fun! I hope! >.< It's going to be a waste of forty dollars if it's not! -.- But I'm going Jose hunting for a friend....Dare I say it? Well...it's going to be a mission impossible but hey! I'm up for it! I have to deliver her phone number to him! Hope I find him! Haven't seen him in like a year or so! So yeah....that's it for me...besides that things might not patch up at school...but oh fuckin well...

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Written about Wednesday 2004-06-02
Written: (7480 days ago)

Hmmm...Haven't written in this in a while...bleh...I FUCKIN HATE LIFE!!!!!! IT'S SO STUPID! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!!!!!! GOD!!! IT JUST KEEPS GETTING EVEN MORE COMPLICATED! I'M ALWAYS GETTING TAKEN FOR A FOOL! I'M SOOOOOOOO FUCKIN EASY TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF! I'M SO FUCKIN WEAK! But you know what...fuck that shit...I can't do much about it except continue to live...maybe as an emotionaless bitch...but I'll still be here...I have no where to go really...

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Written about Saturday 2004-05-29
Written: (7485 days ago)

The Original Latin Kings of Comedy rock!!!!!!!!! Damn...I have to type down a lot of shit for my friend and then translate too...Oh goody...this is gonna take a while...

*~*Cheech Marin*~*
"...Before we were Hispanic's, before we were latinos or Chicano's...we were Mexican-American!!!

*sings* And Mexican-Americans don't like to get up early in the morning, but they have to so they do it real sloooow.

And Mexican-Americans love education, so they go to night school and take Spanish and get a B.

And Mexcian-Americans don't just get into gang fights, they like flowers and music and white girls named Debbie too!

And Mexican-American's are named Chata, and Chela, and Chelma, And Chuy, and have a son-in-law named Jeff!



*~*Joey Medina*~*

1. The best thing, the best thing that I love about Mexico is that you can drink for 5 bucks all fuckin night. Tequilla's a dollar, Corona's fifty cents, nyquills a quarter. You can get loaded. I got loaded the other night, i was like "Oooh! Mexico's number one! Oooooh! Mexico's the bomb! Oooooh! Mexico rocks!" I got so drunk that I passed out and woke up in a Mexican jail talkin about, "I'm an American! I'm an American! *sings* I'm a yankee doodle dandy! I'm a yankee doodle boy!"

2. ...And you don't even need to go to Vegas. if you like gambling, just go to Indian Casinos. They're everywhere. They're here in texas. They're everywhere! And I love American indians and i love what they're doing with the casinos, cuz it wasn't to long ago, we were getting them drunk and taking their shit. Now they're doing it to us. i admire American-Indians so much, they're so proud, they're so proud of their culture. If you insult their culture, they'll sue and they won't give a shit. They'll sue you and everybody in your family. They sued Crayola Crayons cuz crayola crayons has a crayon called 'indian red' And i'm a minority, I don't give a shit if they had 'Lazy brown, unemployed black, can't drive worth shit yellow, trailor trash white' Make your fuckin crayons! As long as I stay within the lines!

3. ...Thats the beauty of this country, that we come in different cultures, different colors and races. Like, I celebrate other peoples cultures. I'm puerto rican, but on Cinco De Mayo I'm Mexican, St. Patricks Day I'm irish, Black History Month I have sex with white girls. And thats a whole month long!


*~*Alex Reymundo*~*

1. You know what scare's me the most? Going to jail. Thats my life style. yours too. You go to jail, guess what? Up the fanny,buddy. They're not even gay, they're just bored. Not me. I Have a plan. if I ever end up in jail, I'm gonna crap my pants every day I'm there. I'm gonna shit my pants and rub it all over my ass. "Ahhhhh! Go away!" I'll be the dirtiest, stinkiest mother fucker in Cell Blonk D. It'll be a chore to fuck me, I'll do you that right now. I will stink but my father will be proud. "Eh, huele feo, but he's a good boy."

2. Men are retarded, aren't we ladies? but your still fuckin us so what does that say about you?

3. You know, people say Mexican's are lazy. Thats bullshit ain't it? My father came to this country with five children, four dollars and three jobs. That ain't lazy, thats fucked.

Me and my brother have a resturaunt called 'La Chosita' Little Mexican resturaunt, and on the the window, on the storefront, we had a guy come in, an artist, paint a little mural,right? A mountain, with a valley a little cactus. I said,"Put a little Mexican right there next to the cactus, sleeping, taking a Siesta."

My dad came in and he goes, "Ay, cabron! Que chinga es eso?"

"Thats La Chosita, dad. A little valley and a Mexicano takin a siesta."

"Siesta? Goddamn, I never took a fuckin siesta! All my life, three jobs! Thats why pendejos(fuckers) think we're lazy! Because of bullshit like that! Quitame ese hijo de la chingada de alli!"

We had to scrape it off. We repainted it. We put him back on there, fuckin' pulling a plow, walking a dog, beeper going off. Bolio's came in, "What the fuck is this?"

"Thats a busy fuckin Mexican, Thats what that is!"


*~*George Lopez*~*

1.Everything that happens to us is so we'll learn.
You get hit, "Ay, cobron!"
"See? That way you'll learn."

2. ... And we're always alright. We're so afraid to make trouble that we're always alright.
You can get hit by a car.."POW!"
"OMG!!! Are you alright?!"
"I'm alright."

3. And what are we always doing?Nothing.
"Eh! What are you doing?"
"Nothing"
We're never doing nothing.
"Hey, what did you do this weekend?"
"Nothing."

4. Latino's are direct opposite's of other people. Some people are happy to see other people, that they wave them over.

"OMG! Look everyone it's Duncan! DUNCAN!!! OMG!!!! We're totally over here. Duncan!" Your nine feet away and they call you on your cell phone. "OMG!!! I'm totally right here!"

Latino's never look happy. We look: "Awww, fuck! Look whose over there, man. Son of bitch..Hide the chair! Hide the chair! Don't look over there! Pretend we're talking. Look at my face, cabron, pretend we're talking! He saw me? Shit..he saw me? Liar, say swear to God. Swear to God?"

6. We need Mexican gretting cards. The ones at the store are to happy. We don't understand that. We need one that says..."Heard about your new job..." You open it up:"Don't fuck it up like the last one."


*~*Paul Rodriguez*~*
1. I love El Paso. People Bitch about the weather. I say it's preparing me for hell.

2. I think Mexican families have a lot of kids, because thats their form of social security. They know one of them might make it and thats who they're gonna live with. Whoever has the most money, thats who they live with. Right now I'm the lucky one.

3. But see thats another thing. Ouur funerals are different. You know why? Because Mexican funerals are catered. It's like a family reunion and Quicenera all rolled up into one.

4. America is a land of immigrants. Where else but in a great country like ours can you find a Mexican girl dating an Irish guy, driving a Japanese car to a Chinese resturant and get arrested by a black cop?
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Written about Wednesday 2004-05-26
Written: (7488 days ago)

One of my favorite song's ever...

The Reason-Hoobastank....

I'm not a perfect person,
As many things I wish I didn't do,
But I continue learning,
I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know.

I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you,
It's something I must live with everyday,
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish that I could take it all away,
And be the one who catches all your tears,
Thats why I need you to hear.

I've found a resaon for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,

and the reason is You [x42....]

I'm not a perfect person,
I never meant to do those things to you,
And so I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know.

I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be,
A reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.

I've found a reason to show,
A side of me you didn't know,
A reason for all that I do,
And the reason is you.

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Written about Monday 2004-04-19
Written: (7524 days ago)

New fave song...

Leave(Get Out)-JoJo

I've been waiting all day for ya babe
So won't cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
Hope you know when it's late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way
(Now that you're here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (boo) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know that truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (boo) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)
I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm say
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (boo) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (boo) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get Out, (leave) right now,
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know about her (boo) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

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Written about Tuesday 2004-03-23
Written: (7551 days ago)

I like this song...alot...

I Don't Wanna Know-Mario Winans feat. P.Diddy

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Oh baby
I think about it when I hold you
When lookin' in your eyes, I can't believe
I don't mean to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

Baby taught you better then me (taught you better then me)
Then why you fall asleep (why you fall asleep)
Shove 'em off and stay, what you used to do to me (do to me baby)
If your better off that way (better off that way)
Baby what I like to say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me
(Stay away from me baby)

I don't wanna know where your whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or when you cruisin
It's been proven, my love you abusin
I can't understand, how a man got you choosin (yeah)
Undecided, I came and provided ma
My undivided, you came and denied it (why?)
Don't even try it, I know when you lyin (I know when you lyin)
Don't even do that, I know why you cryin (stop cryin)
I'm not applyin no pressure, just wanna let you know
That I don't wanna let you go (I don't wanna let you go)
And I don't wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe
Gave you extra cheese (c'mon), put you in the SUV
You wanted ice so I made you freeze
Made you hot like the West Indies (that's right)
Now it's time you invest in me
Cause if not then it's best you leave
Holla, yeah

I don't wanna know
If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know


If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin, please don't let it show
Oh baby, I don't wanna know

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Written about Saturday 2004-03-13
Written: (7561 days ago)
Next in thread: 174709

I have to go to another fuckin party...I hate parties...I just want to stay home...god damn it all....

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