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[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2004-08-04
Written: (7417 days ago)

*smiles happily*Hehe! It's August fourth! ^-^ Which means that I've been together with my boyfriend for eight months! Can you believe it?! Eight wonderful months! ^-^ I'm all warm and happy inside...Such a rare feeling. ^-^ I'm gonna go enjoy it now. See'ya!

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Written about Monday 2004-08-02
Written: (7419 days ago)

"Brown Eyes"
Destiny's Child

Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the true meaning of love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul

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Written about Wednesday 2004-07-28
Written: (7424 days ago)

Favorite Website Links:
(I've decided to put ALL of my favorite website links right here. Why? Well besides the fact that I'm bored...I dunno...)

http://boymeetsboy.keenspot.com/

Ehehe...this webcomic is soooo funny! You should really take a look see. Well, only if your not homophobic and stuff.

http://aido.furvect.com/fallen.htm
(Another cool webcomic!)

http://www.jojowright.com/
Hehehe...I love listening to JoJo on the radio at 102.7KIIS FM (here's the link to their site...-> http://www.kiisfm.com/main.html )

http://www.evanescence.com/
God, I love this band! They rock!!! And thank you Stacy for getting my the CD for Christmas!!! I love it!!!!

http://www.juanes.net/
I love his Music!!!! And I can't thank Alicia enough for burning his CD for me!!!! ^.^

http://www.fanfiction.net/
The one place where I go to read some fanfiction...mainly Yaoi. XP

(Cool Fanfiction.net stories
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1683484/1/
(Gravitation fanfiction)

http://www.1x2x1.org/index1.htm
A great Gundam Wing Yaoi website...hehe...

http://zerotwofan.com/rapture/intro.html
Another great GW Yaoi site...mostly Heero and Duo though. =P

302329 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2004-07-28
Written: (7424 days ago)

Second Part Of My favorite Links:

http://www.power106.fm/
Best Rap and Hip Hop station in Los Angeles...and I love the Latin Rap that they play.

http://home.comcast.net/~roseclaw/links.html
Has more links to other websites...XD

http://www.thedollpalace.com/
Just another place where I go when I'm bored...<< >>

http://www.goodcharlotte.com/
The official GC website...I luvies them too! ^^

http://www.projektrevolution.com/splash.php?artist=linkinpark
Hell yeah!!! Linkin Park totally kicks ass!!!

http://www.cypressonline.com/
Another Latin Rap group that my dad got me hooked on.

http://www.pinkspage.com/news/index.html
Yeah Yeah...I like Pink too...Y que?

http://www.gurl.com/connect/frontpage.html
'Tis another website that I go to when I'm bored... =D

http://harrypotter.warnerbros.com/home.html
I am a semi-hardcore Harry Potter fan...I have all five books, seen the first two movies...and Damn! Daniel Radcliffe and Tom Felton are soooooooo hot! XP

http://tokyopop.com/
The place where I go to find out more about my favorite manga...^-^

http://www.shounen-ai.org/dream/main.html
Shounen-ai...*drools* So cute....

http://www.eamonmusic.com/
I usually go here to hear (fuck it)Don't Want yoU back...<.< >.>

http://www.thebeatla.com/Content/Main.aspx?pageId=29
Another great Hip Hop and R&B station here in L.A...

http://www.kroq.com/kroqnow/kroqnow.html
Home Of The World Famous KROQ...so cool. They play kick ass rock music here! -> 106.7 =P

http://www.jokes.com/
Another "When I'm Bored" website...XD

http://bored.com/
Need I say more?

http://neopets.com/
I forgot my accounts password...x.x

http://www.quizilla.com/
As you can guess...another website that eases my boredom away...a little bit...@.@

http://www.maroon5.com/main_site/main.html
I'm starting to become a bit fond of this band...Oh well they rock too!!!! =P

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Written about Saturday 2004-07-17
Written: (7435 days ago)

I'm bored. Again. Nothing new about that,huh? *yawns* Um...hm...not sure what to write today. Um...I'm going to my grandmother's house later today. (From my mom's side) Um...yeah...guess that's the only thing going up today. It's so hot out. I hate summer. I'm hungry. And thirsty. And bored. Oh! Have you noticed that there's a couple of...um...pervy...songs on the radio. With perverted videos to match? XD Yesh...anyways...<< >> I like that song by Ashlee Simpson...Pieces of Me...Don't give me that look! >.< I find the song romantic!!! Along with that Alicia Keys song....Oooh, I love that song! *swoons* Beautiful....romantic....dreamy...*sighs dreamily* Ah well, stuff like that ain't about to happen to me thats for sure! XD As we were...um...where were we? I can't remember. The heat has melted my brain. It's all mushy now. @.@ So I'll stop now! And I will leave you with that Alicia Keys song that I love so much...<< >> Toodles! ^.^

"If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And I been there before but that's life's a bore, so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what, what would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

If aint got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby.

289456 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2004-07-16
Written: (7436 days ago)

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I'm so tired. My head hurts. I'm bored. I want to hurt Frank. And I'm hyper. Nice mix,eh? Ehehe...I still believe someone drugged my drink. XD *giggles*Woo...I'm bored. --;;; There's nothing to do! Nada. Zip. Zero. Negative-Fun Time. *growls* My knuckles are bruised. *whimpers* Thats what I get for taking out my anger so hard. *Note To Self:Never hit the shower wall again.* << >> Yes, well...Ugh, some men can be idiots...Not gonna say who...Oh to hell with it! FRANK is an idiot. Along with every other cheating bastard or evil immature and heartless guy who uses his girlfriend. *growls again* Moving on....>> << Did I forget to mention how bored I am? I mean, I can only count how many posters I have in my room for so many times! Wait...I'm in my sister's room so can I do that?! x.o *shakes head* Anyways...these are the following posters that I have!

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Three Linkin Park posters
Three Good Charlotte posters
Two Simple Plan Posters
One No Doubt poster
One of Amy Lee*coughshottcoughs* << >>
And one of Baby Bash! Sexyness...I mean...yeah...thats it...O.o Ehehe...there's more to come! ^_^

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*yawns and stretches* I almost fell out of my chair again. *nods*Yush...I did earlier. My ass hurted like hell. Eek, too much information. x-X *cries* I'm sooooooooo bored! *sniffles* I've been anime and manga deprived for too long! *tugs at her hair* I need some manga! And CD's! Like...some Chayanne, Sin Bandera, or Selena too listen to! And some Amanda Perez too! I have the money to buy them! But noooooooo....I have to waste them on school stuffies because I might start school soon. *sulks*Wonderful. I have to go to school in the summer!!! *pouts*Whyyyyy?! *stops* Okie...I'll stop acting like a bitchy bitch. XD Anyways...<< >> I want to go to the movies. See a comedy...or HP 3...>.< I haven't seen it yet! Parents said I have to wait until it comes out on DVD...Ugh! *blinks* I'm hungry too! I need food! And coke! And ice cream!

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*blinks*Ooooh! Lookie! A spider! Hello Mr. Spider! How are you?! *blinks again*Jeez, fine be that way. Just keep ingorning me Mr. Spider! *steps on it*AHA! Oops. O.O;;; *hides it* My bad....<.< >.> Food! It's here! Time to eat! WHEEEEE! *coughs*I need to shut up now. o.O;;; So I will...Ahem...thats it for today. Buh-bye! ^.^

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Written about Wednesday 2004-07-14
Written: (7438 days ago)

I feel like ranting aagin. Sorry. Well...today just sucked. I had another break down. Too many emotions just surfaced and made me feel like shit. I have no one to comfort me really...everyone tries I guess. But what good will it do? It never helps...which is why I don't want to bother anyone with my stupid problems because I know that they just can't help. I'm tired, depressed, and hateful towards life. Plus I have to start school already. And I don't want to. I don't want to be in school during summer break. It's not fair. The weather is too hot and being in school will suck so much. Plus I'm starting school late so I'm going to be behind all my classes and I'm going to be the only idiot getting lost in the school. Argh...why me?

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Written about Wednesday 2004-06-30
Written: (7452 days ago)

My day already sucks and it hasn't even started. Goes to show I am a lost cause. A heartbroken lost cause...Wheee....Why am I heartbroken? Simple...got my heart broken into microscopic pieces a few months ago...and everytime it starts to repair...something or someone always fucks it up...I get my feelings hurt EVERYDAY by EVERYONE. Though I get them hurt in different ways that even I don't know what they are...all I know is that I do either way. I'm not heartbroken due to love, though it is part of it...Hmm....I'm mostly heartbroken because of life...and everything that happens in it...Wow, I'm ranting too much...I'll be quiet now.

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Written about Saturday 2004-06-19
Written: (7463 days ago)

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Well...today's the big graduation party for my brother and I. Won't it suck if I don't graduate? heh...ah well...I'll find out on Monday or Tuesday...Hopefully my friends and I all graduate...*crosses her fingers* I hope we do...and we're having the Graduation party early because next Saturday my family and I are moving...I'm gonna miss my friends...I'm even going to miss this crappy ass place called South Central...argh...ah well...I need to go finish cleaning and start getting everything ready.

P.S...I HATE PARTIES!!!! Okay...got that outta my system....O.o

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Written about Friday 2004-06-18
Written: (7464 days ago)

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Borderline by Madonna(Shut up...I like this song...-.-)

Something in the way you love me won't let me be
I don't want to be your prisoner so baby won't you set me free
Stop playing with my heart
Finish what you start
When you make my love come down
If you want me let me know
Baby let it show
Honey don't you fool around

Just try to understand, I've given all I can,
'Cause you got the best of me

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Something in your eyes is makin' such a fool of me
When you hold me in your arms you love me till I just can't see
But then you let me down, when I look around, baby you just can't be found
Stop driving me away, I just wanna stay,
There's something I just got to say

Just try to understand, I've given all I can,
'Cause you got the best of me

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Borderline feels like I'm going to lose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Keep on pushing me baby
Don't you know you drive me crazy
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Look what your love has done to me
Come on baby set me free
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline
You cause me so much pain, I think I'm going insane
What does it take to make you see?
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

260405 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2004-06-18
Written: (7464 days ago)

Wow...another diary entry by yours truly. What to write...oh I know...today sucked. Once again I had another depressing, annoying and oh so boring day. I got a fuckin cut on my leg and that stupid alcohol is making it sting. Stupid shit...and I just relized something. (Though I already told Alice...hmmm...I tell her lots of things...I guess...) Well as I was saying, I just relized that I hardly smile. I mean, I laugh/giggle a lot...but I never smile. Facinating,no? Pfft...yeah right. I'm already boring myself. *yawns* Bleh...I dunno....the separation amongst my friends sucked. Everything sucks. Life sucks. But what can I do? Continue living this hellhole is one thing....but what else? Eh, I dunno...I always seem to annoy people....in a way...some can't handle what I say. It annoys them. but it's the truth. Whatever negative thing I say about myself and life are MY feelings. Not theirs. They want me to tell them whats wrong. I resist. They continue to ask. I give in. In the end...they either ingore me, yell at me, say whatever, and....well....you get the point. Meh...by doing that they're just helping ALOT. *sighs* But whatever...I'm not important to them. At the moment anyways. Some say otherwise...but.....not many mean it...so I don't know...I'll stop for now before I bore you more than you already are...

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Written about Friday 2004-06-18
Written: (7465 days ago)

God...why do I also fuck up everything...I always do this...no wonder I can never be happy...I'm such an idiot...right now my depression is so overwhelming...what the hell do I do? I don't know...I need help...*shakes head* I need a lot of help...this depression is never going to go away...not with all thats happend...I hate life...why can't i just go to sleep one day and never wake up...what am I saying...I'm being an idiot again...I can't go back to being like that. I may end up doing something stupid...I DON'T WANT THAT! What do I want then?...I know...for everyone that I know to be happy...not to have any problems...but...*sighs* Why do some of them lie? They treat me like shit when I'm depressed...by doing that they just prove a point that I wonder if it's true or not...I'll stop...I'm just rambling...hopefully I'll be on tommorow....like it matters...

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Written about Saturday 2004-06-05
Written: (7477 days ago)

Mirror Mirror by M2M...wow...haven't heard this song in a long time...

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me

Why don't I like the girl I see
The one who's standing right in front of me
Why don't I think before I speak
I should have listened to that voice inside me
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
To say the kind of things I said last night

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see

Why did I let you walk away
When all I had to do was say I'm sorry
I let my pride get in the way
And in the heat of the moment I was to blame
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind
Now in the cold light of the day I realize

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

If only wishes could be dreams
And know my dreams could come true
There would be two us standing here in front of you
If you could show me that someone that I used to be
Bring back my baby, my baby to me

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror hanging on the wall
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all
Mirror mirror I wish you could lie to me
And bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me

Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me
Mirror mirror lie to me
Show me what I wanna see
Mirror mirror lie to me

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Written about Thursday 2004-06-03
Written: (7479 days ago)

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I'M GOING TO SIX FLAGS TOMMOROW!!!!!!!! *cheers happily* I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *coughs*Ahem...I must come down! *giggles* It's going to be so much fun! I hope! >.< It's going to be a waste of forty dollars if it's not! -.- But I'm going Jose hunting for a friend....Dare I say it? Well...it's going to be a mission impossible but hey! I'm up for it! I have to deliver her phone number to him! Hope I find him! Haven't seen him in like a year or so! So yeah....that's it for me...besides that things might not patch up at school...but oh fuckin well...

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Written about Wednesday 2004-06-02
Written: (7480 days ago)

Hmmm...Haven't written in this in a while...bleh...I FUCKIN HATE LIFE!!!!!! IT'S SO STUPID! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!!!!!! GOD!!! IT JUST KEEPS GETTING EVEN MORE COMPLICATED! I'M ALWAYS GETTING TAKEN FOR A FOOL! I'M SOOOOOOOO FUCKIN EASY TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF! I'M SO FUCKIN WEAK! But you know what...fuck that shit...I can't do much about it except continue to live...maybe as an emotionaless bitch...but I'll still be here...I have no where to go really...

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Written about Saturday 2004-05-29
Written: (7485 days ago)

The Original Latin Kings of Comedy rock!!!!!!!!! Damn...I have to type down a lot of shit for my friend and then translate too...Oh goody...this is gonna take a while...

*~*Cheech Marin*~*
"...Before we were Hispanic's, before we were latinos or Chicano's...we were Mexican-American!!!

*sings* And Mexican-Americans don't like to get up early in the morning, but they have to so they do it real sloooow.

And Mexican-Americans love education, so they go to night school and take Spanish and get a B.

And Mexcian-Americans don't just get into gang fights, they like flowers and music and white girls named Debbie too!

And Mexican-American's are named Chata, and Chela, and Chelma, And Chuy, and have a son-in-law named Jeff!

*~*Joey Medina*~*

1. The best thing, the best thing that I love about Mexico is that you can drink for 5 bucks all fuckin night. Tequilla's a dollar, Corona's fifty cents, nyquills a quarter. You can get loaded. I got loaded the other night, i was like "Oooh! Mexico's number one! Oooooh! Mexico's the bomb! Oooooh! Mexico rocks!" I got so drunk that I passed out and woke up in a Mexican jail talkin about, "I'm an American! I'm an American! *sings* I'm a yankee doodle dandy! I'm a yankee doodle boy!"

2. ...And you don't even need to go to Vegas. if you like gambling, just go to Indian Casinos. They're everywhere. They're here in texas. They're everywhere! And I love American indians and i love what they're doing with the casinos, cuz it wasn't to long ago, we were getting them drunk and taking their shit. Now they're doing it to us. i admire American-Indians so much, they're so proud, they're so proud of their culture. If you insult their culture, they'll sue and they won't give a shit. They'll sue you and everybody in your family. They sued Crayola Crayons cuz crayola crayons has a crayon called 'indian red' And i'm a minority, I don't give a shit if they had 'Lazy brown, unemployed black, can't drive worth shit yellow, trailor trash white' Make your fuckin crayons! As long as I stay within the lines!

3. ...Thats the beauty of this country, that we come in different cultures, different colors and races. Like, I celebrate other peoples cultures. I'm puerto rican, but on Cinco De Mayo I'm Mexican, St. Patricks Day I'm irish, Black History Month I have sex with white girls. And thats a whole month long!

*~*Alex Reymundo*~*

1. You know what scare's me the most? Going to jail. Thats my life style. yours too. You go to jail, guess what? Up the fanny,buddy. They're not even gay, they're just bored. Not me. I Have a plan. if I ever end up in jail, I'm gonna crap my pants every day I'm there. I'm gonna shit my pants and rub it all over my ass. "Ahhhhh! Go away!" I'll be the dirtiest, stinkiest mother fucker in Cell Blonk D. It'll be a chore to fuck me, I'll do you that right now. I will stink but my father will be proud. "Eh, huele feo, but he's a good boy."

2. Men are retarded, aren't we ladies? but your still fuckin us so what does that say about you?

3. You know, people say Mexican's are lazy. Thats bullshit ain't it? My father came to this country with five children, four dollars and three jobs. That ain't lazy, thats fucked.

Me and my brother have a resturaunt called 'La Chosita' Little Mexican resturaunt, and on the the window, on the storefront, we had a guy come in, an artist, paint a little mural,right? A mountain, with a valley a little cactus. I said,"Put a little Mexican right there next to the cactus, sleeping, taking a Siesta."

My dad came in and he goes, "Ay, cabron! Que chinga es eso?"

"Thats La Chosita, dad. A little valley and a Mexicano takin a siesta."

"Siesta? Goddamn, I never took a fuckin siesta! All my life, three jobs! Thats why pendejos(fuckers) think we're lazy! Because of bullshit like that! Quitame ese hijo de la chingada de alli!"

We had to scrape it off. We repainted it. We put him back on there, fuckin' pulling a plow, walking a dog, beeper going off. Bolio's came in, "What the fuck is this?"

"Thats a busy fuckin Mexican, Thats what that is!"

*~*George Lopez*~*

1.Everything that happens to us is so we'll learn.
You get hit, "Ay, cobron!"
"See? That way you'll learn."

2. ... And we're always alright. We're so afraid to make trouble that we're always alright.
You can get hit by a car.."POW!"
"OMG!!! Are you alright?!"
"I'm alright."

3. And what are we always doing?Nothing.
"Eh! What are you doing?"
"Nothing"
We're never doing nothing.
"Hey, what did you do this weekend?"
"Nothing."

4. Latino's are direct opposite's of other people. Some people are happy to see other people, that they wave them over.

"OMG! Look everyone it's Duncan! DUNCAN!!! OMG!!!! We're totally over here. Duncan!" Your nine feet away and they call you on your cell phone. "OMG!!! I'm totally right here!"

Latino's never look happy. We look: "Awww, fuck! Look whose over there, man. Son of bitch..Hide the chair! Hide the chair! Don't look over there! Pretend we're talking. Look at my face, cabron, pretend we're talking! He saw me? Shit..he saw me? Liar, say swear to God. Swear to God?"

6. We need Mexican gretting cards. The ones at the store are to happy. We don't understand that. We need one that says..."Heard about your new job..." You open it up:"Don't fuck it up like the last one."

*~*Paul Rodriguez*~*
1. I love El Paso. People Bitch about the weather. I say it's preparing me for hell.

2. I think Mexican families have a lot of kids, because thats their form of social security. They know one of them might make it and thats who they're gonna live with. Whoever has the most money, thats who they live with. Right now I'm the lucky one.

3. But see thats another thing. Ouur funerals are different. You know why? Because Mexican funerals are catered. It's like a family reunion and Quicenera all rolled up into one.

4. America is a land of immigrants. Where else but in a great country like ours can you find a Mexican girl dating an Irish guy, driving a Japanese car to a Chinese resturant and get arrested by a black cop?

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