I need sleep. Wonderful way to start off this diary entry,no? Hrm...well I woke up at eight this morning...but fell asleep late again. Plus I might have to go to the hospital again today. I hate hospitals...they scare me. *shudders*Lots of things scare me. Hard to explain...so I won't. I'll give you and myself a headache if I try. Um, I have to go to the doctor on Friday. Fun,no? My uncle said that they should do something that I know will really hurt. *winces*Ew,pain. Well...right now I'm feeling a bit sick and the stupid limp in my left leg won't go away and it still hurts. Plus it's really hot. Which sucks. Alot. School tommorow...yay...bus ride...more yay...no sleep...bleh.-.-
I'm hungry...and thirsty....and...feeling a tinge of depression. So, run. Run far away. No one likes to talk to me when I'm depressed. Hell, I don't. I don't like it when I feel that way because I get people all...mad, annoyed, and...stuff. They should know that I'll get better. I always do. I know how to make myself feel good again. But...when they do that they make me feel even worse. And I have no clue why I even wrote that. Well...I almost fell off my chair right now. >.< I'm so clumsy...yes I am. Hm, my parents are already planning my Quincenera and yeah...that's all that I'm going to put for now. Ciao.

I'm bored again, which means that I shall write in here again. Yay...well I just got back from the hospital and I'm still tired. Even more so than I was before. But it's around 97 right now so it's going to be pretty hard to go and try and take a nap. Plus my fan just blows hot air. Bleh, well...my grandfather is doing alright. Got out of surgery about an hour ago. I just relized something.....everytime that it is my turn to go and see someone in the hospital....they either start crying or look like they are going to cry. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...but it has happend before. Well....don't know what else to put, so...Adios.

Okay...seeing as I didn't come on yesturday...I'm going to write about how school was...*pauses*...Let me try to remember first...I have a bad memory and I'm really tired...so yeah...Um...*looks at the classes that she has*This might help...^-^;;; Guess I'll put down the classes that I got first...

1st Period: Health
2nd Period:Algebra(Yes, I'm taking it again...I need help...lots of help...>.<)
3rd Period:Gym
4th Period:English
5th Period:Science
6th period:Culture Awareness(something like that anyways...that's my history class by the way...o.O)


Now that I have that done I can move on now...Oh! Before I do...they gave nearly everyone a map. That school is friggin' big! O.O....Okies...onto my teacher's...so far I like them.Espicially my English teacher, Mr. Weronka. He's pretty funny. My Algebra teacher Ms.Smith is pretty cool too. Though she sorta talks to the class as if we were little kids...well it's better than her yelling at us. Though I could've used the wake up call. *yawns* Oh boy...anyways...I haven't met my science teacher yet. Or my homeroom teacher. So I have nothing to say about them. Health teacher...cool and dull at the same time. Wierd. Moving on, Gym teacher seems alright for now. We're starting basketball on Monday. YES! I wuvs basketball. Except now. Because I have a bit of a limp on my left leg. Ugh...

Culture Awareness...the class is pretty cool. Except for one little thing...everyone has to talk. It's part of the grade. I am so going to fail that class. I hate talking in front of people. Makes me really nervous. But oh well...I have to deal with it one way or another. Bad thing is...I only have Stacy with me for only one of my classes. And that's Algebra. And I only have Jose in my homeroom class. But we all planned on meeting at this blue soda machine...*nods*Seeing as it's the only blue one there. Pretty easy to find. Let's see...I almost fell asleep in all my classes. @.@ I hate waking up at five every morning....I need sleep. And I feel sick now so I better hurry up and finish this. Um....I wasn't on yesturday because my grandfather was in the hospital awaiting his surgery so I had to go visit him(and I will again today) and then my family and I went out to eat and once I got home Stacy and Gaby called me and then we called Adri and Jose and I don't think I'll be on much today. Or if I'll be home for long. Ugh...well that's all that I can type for now...too tired at the moment...Soooo...Ciao person who may be reading this...O.o

I'm bored....so I'm going to do a second diary entry for the day. Based upon what just happend. What happend? Well...Matthew(my baby brother) somehow managed to get a knife, a very big one at that, and started stabbing my paper...o.O;;; I'm surprised that he didn't hurt himself. Though he killed my paper...O.o;;;

Well, today was my first day of high school. And damn am I tired. I woke up around 5:00am. I didn't eat all day. Except the piece of bread that Stacy gave me. Eheh, well it was pretty boring. Due to the fact that the damn school didn't have anyone's information on the computer. And there was alot of people that had to be transferred to that school being the other school(that is much closer to where I live) was over crowded and the new High School is still being built. Anyways, because of that everyone was forced to stay in the libary. Though we did spend quite sometime outside. Standing up. For about...two hours. Ugh, it was so boring and I was so tired. But one good thing did happen. I saw J.LO!!!!!!! And no, not Jennifer Lopez. J.LO is one of my friend's nicknames. A friend in which I haven't seen since 7th grade. And my friend just so happens to be a guy. His name is Jose Lopez. Hopefully you can understand why I called him J.LO. That was his nickname that many people had for him in 7th grade. It was really great seeing him again. Still funny as hell. Plus I got his number. Which is cool. Alice has it too. Seeing as she and Jose were friends in 7th grade. Just sharing the joy. I'm tired now...sooooo...ciao.

Going to the mall today. School shopping...that's it. Nothing else. Gonna buy me a MADE sweater though...hopefully...*shrugs*That's all that I'm going to put. Ciao.

If That's Love by Laura Pausini

If you're gonna break my heart and leave
Make promises you don't intend to keep
If that's love then I want no part.

But if you think that love should last for life
If you believe it's more than just one night
If that's love then you've got my heart.

And if you'd rather hold on to your pride
Than wipe away the tears you made me cry
If that's love then I want no part.
But if you're gonna be there when I need
Someone to just hold me tenderly
If that's love then you've got my heart.

If the kinda love that you bring
Comes with no demands and no strings
If in your eyes I see for sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
I'll give my heart, my soul, my everything.

If I have to let go of my dreams
Become someone I never ever thought I'd be
If that's love then I want no part.

But if you're gonna be the kinda man
Who's willing just to take me as I am
If that's love then you've got my heart.

Tell me in your arms I'll be safe
Where loneliness and fear have no place
The only thing you have to do
The only thing I ask of you
Is give your heart, your soul, and your faith.

And if you cannot give these things to me
Then I just have to tell you honestly
If that's love then I want no part.

But if you say you've finally found in me
The only place that you could ever be
If that's love then you've got my heart
If that's love then you've got my heart
If that's love, if that's love
If that's love baby you, baby you you've got my heart.

I am soooo friggin bored! GAH! *twitches*I need something to do before I go insane...>< *listens to Sweet Emotion by Aerosmith*Relaxing...x.o Mm...my parents are in Vegas until Sunday. Woo! o.o And I forgot when we're going to Disneyland...o.O God...I lost the track of time...it's confusing me...*shakes head and growls softly*BAH! *blinks*Since when was I a sheep? Oooh...am I cute sheep! ^-^...o.o;;; Anyways! <<;;; >>;;; I have no idea what else to write at the moment so I'll stop now. Ciao.

*twirls around in her chair*Bored...so bored. So, I'm going to type to my hearts content. Mwuah. Fear Me. Lesse...what to write-eh I mean...type. Hm, well...there's lots of family drama going on. Nothing new about that. Um, I miss my friends. As usual. My siblings are getting out of school soon. Which sucks. >< I have no idea when I start school. Feh, either later this month or early September. And yes I am serious about not knowing. Meh. What else? Oh yeah....I LOVE THE SONG CONCRETE ANGEL! *sniffs*Makes me wanna cry...;-;
Ahem...before I fully slip into depression I'll just...type random shit. o.O;;; Oooh...you wanna see the usual car conversations that my parents and I have? I know you don't but too bad! <<;;; >>;;;

Dad:-.- Fuckin' Mexicans can drive worth shit.
Me:*blinks*O.o *thinking*Aren't we Mexican...?
Mom:*glances at him*o.o
Dad:Stupid fuckers. Damn Mexicans!
Me:o.O;;;Eh...dad?
Dad:What?
Me:...Aren't we Mexican?
Dad:...Since when were you Mexican?
Me:>< Aren't you Mexican?Meh, and aren't I Mexican-American?
Dad:Hell no.
Me:Ohhhh...so we're white? o.O
Dad:-.-;;;NO.
Me:Hm...black?
Dad:-.-
Me:...Puerto Rican?
Dad:*twitches*Shut up.
Me:WHY? XD
Dad:Go listen to your music. -.-
Mom:*rolls her eyes**reaches over and changes the station** some Britney spears song is on and she leaves it there*
Me and my Dad:O.O CHANGE IT!!!!
Mom:Why? ><
Me:It's evil...o.o
Dad:She's a whore.
Me:An Evil whore...o.O
Mom:-.- *changes it to KROQ*
Me:Thats better! ^.^
Dad:Feh! *changes it to some station that plays Corridos*
Me:HA! I knew you were Mexican! o.O

Yes...something along those lines always happens..o.o

*smiles happily*Hehe! It's August fourth! ^-^ Which means that I've been together with my boyfriend for eight months! Can you believe it?! Eight wonderful months! ^-^ I'm all warm and happy inside...Such a rare feeling. ^-^ I'm gonna go enjoy it now. See'ya!

"Brown Eyes"
     Destiny's Child


Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the true meaning of love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul

Favorite Website Links:
(I've decided to put ALL of my favorite website links right here. Why? Well besides the fact that I'm bored...I dunno...)


http://boymeetsboy.keenspot.com/

Ehehe...this webcomic is soooo funny! You should really take a look see. Well, only if your not homophobic and stuff.

Second Part Of My favorite Links:

I'm bored. Again. Nothing new about that,huh? *yawns* Um...hm...not sure what to write today. Um...I'm going to my grandmother's house later today. (From my mom's side) Um...yeah...guess that's the only thing going up today. It's so hot out. I hate summer. I'm hungry. And thirsty. And bored. Oh! Have you noticed that there's a couple of...um...pervy...songs on the radio. With perverted videos to match? XD Yesh...anyways...<< >> I like that song by Ashlee Simpson...Pieces of Me...Don't give me that look! >.< I find the song romantic!!! Along with that Alicia Keys song....Oooh, I love that song! *swoons* Beautiful....romantic....dreamy...*sighs dreamily* Ah well, stuff like that ain't about to happen to me thats for sure! XD As we were...um...where were we? I can't remember. The heat has melted my brain. It's all mushy now. @.@ So I'll stop now! And I will leave you with that Alicia Keys song that I love so much...<< >> Toodles! ^.^

"If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And I been there before but that's life's a bore, so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what, what would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

If aint got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby.