I'm keeping a journal! Whee...-.- I'm just so bored during my classes that I need to do something. Espicially if I'm in a bad mood and shit. And writing usually helps. So, I'm probably going to rant a bit in the notebook and whatnot. Or doodle. Doesn't matter as long as I'm doing something that won't cause me to fall asleep in class. So far so good. I got the idea from my English teacher. Who I think, KICKS ASS. He's so damn funny. Though I still get sleepy in his class. Same with riding the bus. And speaking about the goddamn bus...that bus driver lady was a BITCH today. She wouldn't take off until everyone in the damn bus got quiet and settled down. Yeah, like that's going to happen any time sooner. But who could blame her? Half the kids on the bus are loud and annoying idiots. Well, Stacy and I sorta got on the bus a bit late. Not as late as a few other people though. But late enough to be forced to sit with some other people, and not with each other. We both had to sit with guys that we didn't know. And the guy next to me fell asleep! >.< Thank god he didn't fall asleep on me. Ugh, I hate sitting next to guys that I don't know. I mean, if they're my friend and stuff then I wouldn't mind to much. As long as he didn't fall asleep next to me. I hate it when they do that. Bleh, enough of that. Um...I have Algebra homework. Yay...though it's due on Friday because I don't have Algebra tommorow. I had 2nd, 4th, and 6th period today. And I had 1st, 3rd, and 5th yesturday. A bit confusing but I'll get use to it. I also have homework for my Culture Awareness class. Also due on Friday. But I'm not going to school on Friday because I have to go to the doctor. And I don't have school on Thursday. Finally! A day to get proper sleep. But I get four days. Woo! But it's fucked up that I have to leave Stacy to ride the bus alone with all those idiots. But she'll probably make a friend or something. Oh, and we hung out with Jade again today. And Jose got to meet her. So now we'll probably sit together during lunch and so on and so forth. Hm...she know's that I have a boyfriend. *nods*I told her. I only told her because she had asked me if I had seen or met any guys that I might like and I told her no. Then she asked not even one, to which I responded "I have a boyfriend." and you get the picture. That was before she read my palm. Anyways, I got my locker today. Seeing as my backpack is already getting super heavy. And I have no idea what else to write so I'll end it here. Adios. (And sorry for any bad spelling and grammer...my writing and typing skills suck at the moment)
                

I've so bored that I've decieded to write part of the conversation that I had with Jade...I can't remember all of it so some of the things will be a bit different. Damn my bad memory...

Jade:*talking to me and Stacy*So you guys don't,um...*makes drinking/smoking gesture*
Me:No.
Stacy:*shakes head*No.
Me:Some people that I know make fun of me because I have never taken a sip of alcohol in my entire life...-.- Same with weed. *thinking*They must want me to end up even more stupid...o.O
Jade:Ah. You two don't...cut yourselves right? Let me see your wrist.
Me:*blinks and holds up my hand**pulls bracelets and watch down*
Jade:*looks at my wrist*Good,good. *does the same to Stacy*
Me:*blinks again*Eheh..
Jade:Hey! Can I read your hand? *grabs my hand*
Me:Um..okay? ^-^;;;
Jade:Hm...*stares at it*Huh...are you in love?
Me:*Blinks*Um...*manages not to blush*Yes.
Jade:Yeah....I could easily tell.Hmm...well it says that your very loveable.
Me:Eh...?
Jade:I mean, loving. Your very loving. Sorry about that.
Me:Um, it's okay.
Jade:*tells me that I'm going to have a very successful life and that it looks like I've had people come and go in my life*
Me:o.o;;;*nods the whole time*
Jade:Has anything bad ever happend to you in the past?
Me:Eh...yeah.
Jade:Ah..(She told me some other things but I can't remember...something about two loves...? Or was that Stacy? I can't remember. Probably both of us. Also said something about one of them not working out or something like that)

Well, today sucked. Somewhat. I was forced to wait for the stupid bus for a whole fuckin hour in the damn hot sun.I just got fed up that I called home and luckily for me my dad was near the school so he picked me up. I met my science teacher today. He's alright. But two things suck about the class. All the people talking to damn loud and having to do a bunch of group work. And because I don't know anyone there...I was forced to be in a group of three guys. And I knew what that meant...me doing all the work while they chatted away. Fun,no? What gentlemen...Meh, that always happens to me. Hm, I made a new friend. This girl named Jade. She's a tenth grader and really cool. She's the first person to make me talk alot. Well, more than my usual one word replies. Plus she likes Linkin Park and Aerosmith. So of course I'm going to like her. But she freaked me out by reading my palm. I can't stop thinking about it. Nearly all of it is true. Or sounds like something that would happen to me. Though I don't know about the successful life thing. Hm, maybe I'm just letting it get to my head. *shrugs*Whatever. Well...I don't know what else to write at the moment so I guess I'll end it here. Until I get bored(which you know will be very soon)...Ciao.

This is what? The third entry of the day?Hrm, I think I've ranted so much in here that I can't help it. Damn do I feel sorry for whoever reads my bull. *shakes head and prods reader*o.O;; Anyways...I'm feeling kind pissed off right now. Not sure why...well maybe I do. And one of those reasons is because once again I am stuck in the middle of another fight between a good friend of mine...and another good friend of mine. Not sure if that made any sense. Oh well. Deal with it. The other reasons? I'm not telling. Why? Well, for starters...I hardly know all the facts as to why I'm feeling angry. Aren't I the bright one? *blinks*Well...I'm not sure if I'll be on later...or tommorow...or the day after tommorow and so on and so forth. Don't ask why...Umm...I know for sure that I won't be on in like..two weeks. Only. for a day though. Damn, I have to go now. Ciao.

God! I am so sick and tired of people asking me to cyber with them! *twitches*They think because I have "big breasted" as my body shape that I'm some kind of whore. I should just change it to plump. You know what? I think I will. One moment please...

Okay! I got that out of the way! Thank god...I did the same thing for my other username. Stupid pervs. Even girls are starting to ask me. I'm not safe! >.< *clings to plushie and sniffles*Ugh...it's so hot. I hate living in California. So full of tourists and...gah! I just hate it. Hm...I'm going to go take a shower now. Soooo...buh bye.

Okay well...I just got out of the shower and am currently making lunch for my annoying brother and sister. And now my dad wants me off. So I have no clue if I'll be back because...around 6:00pm I have to go and visit my grandfather in the hospital. So yeah...Bye...again...

One of my new favorite songs...*points below*

Such Great Heights by The Postal Service

I was thinking it's a sign that the freckles
in our eyes are mirror images and when
we kiss they're perfectly aligned
and I have to speculate that god himself
did make us into corresponding shapes like
puzzle pieces from the clay
and true, it may seem like a stretch, but
its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
head when you're away when I am missing
you to death
when you are out there on the road for
several weeks of shows and when you scan
the radio, I hope this song will guide you
home...

They will see us waving from such great
heights, "come down now," they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away,
"come down now," but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
machine but the persistant beat it sounded
thin upon listening
and that frankly will not fly. you will hear
the shrillest highs and lowest lows with
the windows down when this is guiding
you home
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
Well that's enough to argue.

I need sleep. Wonderful way to start off this diary entry,no? Hrm...well I woke up at eight this morning...but fell asleep late again. Plus I might have to go to the hospital again today. I hate hospitals...they scare me. *shudders*Lots of things scare me. Hard to explain...so I won't. I'll give you and myself a headache if I try. Um, I have to go to the doctor on Friday. Fun,no? My uncle said that they should do something that I know will really hurt. *winces*Ew,pain. Well...right now I'm feeling a bit sick and the stupid limp in my left leg won't go away and it still hurts. Plus it's really hot. Which sucks. Alot. School tommorow...yay...bus ride...more yay...no sleep...bleh.-.-
I'm hungry...and thirsty....and...feeling a tinge of depression. So, run. Run far away. No one likes to talk to me when I'm depressed. Hell, I don't. I don't like it when I feel that way because I get people all...mad, annoyed, and...stuff. They should know that I'll get better. I always do. I know how to make myself feel good again. But...when they do that they make me feel even worse. And I have no clue why I even wrote that. Well...I almost fell off my chair right now. >.< I'm so clumsy...yes I am. Hm, my parents are already planning my Quincenera and yeah...that's all that I'm going to put for now. Ciao.

I'm bored again, which means that I shall write in here again. Yay...well I just got back from the hospital and I'm still tired. Even more so than I was before. But it's around 97 right now so it's going to be pretty hard to go and try and take a nap. Plus my fan just blows hot air. Bleh, well...my grandfather is doing alright. Got out of surgery about an hour ago. I just relized something.....everytime that it is my turn to go and see someone in the hospital....they either start crying or look like they are going to cry. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...but it has happend before. Well....don't know what else to put, so...Adios.

Okay...seeing as I didn't come on yesturday...I'm going to write about how school was...*pauses*...Let me try to remember first...I have a bad memory and I'm really tired...so yeah...Um...*looks at the classes that she has*This might help...^-^;;; Guess I'll put down the classes that I got first...

1st Period: Health
2nd Period:Algebra(Yes, I'm taking it again...I need help...lots of help...>.<)
3rd Period:Gym
4th Period:English
5th Period:Science
6th period:Culture Awareness(something like that anyways...that's my history class by the way...o.O)


Now that I have that done I can move on now...Oh! Before I do...they gave nearly everyone a map. That school is friggin' big! O.O....Okies...onto my teacher's...so far I like them.Espicially my English teacher, Mr. Weronka. He's pretty funny. My Algebra teacher Ms.Smith is pretty cool too. Though she sorta talks to the class as if we were little kids...well it's better than her yelling at us. Though I could've used the wake up call. *yawns* Oh boy...anyways...I haven't met my science teacher yet. Or my homeroom teacher. So I have nothing to say about them. Health teacher...cool and dull at the same time. Wierd. Moving on, Gym teacher seems alright for now. We're starting basketball on Monday. YES! I wuvs basketball. Except now. Because I have a bit of a limp on my left leg. Ugh...

Culture Awareness...the class is pretty cool. Except for one little thing...everyone has to talk. It's part of the grade. I am so going to fail that class. I hate talking in front of people. Makes me really nervous. But oh well...I have to deal with it one way or another. Bad thing is...I only have Stacy with me for only one of my classes. And that's Algebra. And I only have Jose in my homeroom class. But we all planned on meeting at this blue soda machine...*nods*Seeing as it's the only blue one there. Pretty easy to find. Let's see...I almost fell asleep in all my classes. @.@ I hate waking up at five every morning....I need sleep. And I feel sick now so I better hurry up and finish this. Um....I wasn't on yesturday because my grandfather was in the hospital awaiting his surgery so I had to go visit him(and I will again today) and then my family and I went out to eat and once I got home Stacy and Gaby called me and then we called Adri and Jose and I don't think I'll be on much today. Or if I'll be home for long. Ugh...well that's all that I can type for now...too tired at the moment...Soooo...Ciao person who may be reading this...O.o

I'm bored....so I'm going to do a second diary entry for the day. Based upon what just happend. What happend? Well...Matthew(my baby brother) somehow managed to get a knife, a very big one at that, and started stabbing my paper...o.O;;; I'm surprised that he didn't hurt himself. Though he killed my paper...O.o;;;

Well, today was my first day of high school. And damn am I tired. I woke up around 5:00am. I didn't eat all day. Except the piece of bread that Stacy gave me. Eheh, well it was pretty boring. Due to the fact that the damn school didn't have anyone's information on the computer. And there was alot of people that had to be transferred to that school being the other school(that is much closer to where I live) was over crowded and the new High School is still being built. Anyways, because of that everyone was forced to stay in the libary. Though we did spend quite sometime outside. Standing up. For about...two hours. Ugh, it was so boring and I was so tired. But one good thing did happen. I saw J.LO!!!!!!! And no, not Jennifer Lopez. J.LO is one of my friend's nicknames. A friend in which I haven't seen since 7th grade. And my friend just so happens to be a guy. His name is Jose Lopez. Hopefully you can understand why I called him J.LO. That was his nickname that many people had for him in 7th grade. It was really great seeing him again. Still funny as hell. Plus I got his number. Which is cool. Alice has it too. Seeing as she and Jose were friends in 7th grade. Just sharing the joy. I'm tired now...sooooo...ciao.

Going to the mall today. School shopping...that's it. Nothing else. Gonna buy me a MADE sweater though...hopefully...*shrugs*That's all that I'm going to put. Ciao.

If That's Love by Laura Pausini

If you're gonna break my heart and leave
Make promises you don't intend to keep
If that's love then I want no part.

But if you think that love should last for life
If you believe it's more than just one night
If that's love then you've got my heart.

And if you'd rather hold on to your pride
Than wipe away the tears you made me cry
If that's love then I want no part.
But if you're gonna be there when I need
Someone to just hold me tenderly
If that's love then you've got my heart.

If the kinda love that you bring
Comes with no demands and no strings
If in your eyes I see for sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
I'll give my heart, my soul, my everything.

If I have to let go of my dreams
Become someone I never ever thought I'd be
If that's love then I want no part.

But if you're gonna be the kinda man
Who's willing just to take me as I am
If that's love then you've got my heart.

Tell me in your arms I'll be safe
Where loneliness and fear have no place
The only thing you have to do
The only thing I ask of you
Is give your heart, your soul, and your faith.

And if you cannot give these things to me
Then I just have to tell you honestly
If that's love then I want no part.

But if you say you've finally found in me
The only place that you could ever be
If that's love then you've got my heart
If that's love then you've got my heart
If that's love, if that's love
If that's love baby you, baby you you've got my heart.

I am soooo friggin bored! GAH! *twitches*I need something to do before I go insane...>< *listens to Sweet Emotion by Aerosmith*Relaxing...x.o Mm...my parents are in Vegas until Sunday. Woo! o.o And I forgot when we're going to Disneyland...o.O God...I lost the track of time...it's confusing me...*shakes head and growls softly*BAH! *blinks*Since when was I a sheep? Oooh...am I cute sheep! ^-^...o.o;;; Anyways! <<;;; >>;;; I have no idea what else to write at the moment so I'll stop now. Ciao.

*twirls around in her chair*Bored...so bored. So, I'm going to type to my hearts content. Mwuah. Fear Me. Lesse...what to write-eh I mean...type. Hm, well...there's lots of family drama going on. Nothing new about that. Um, I miss my friends. As usual. My siblings are getting out of school soon. Which sucks. >< I have no idea when I start school. Feh, either later this month or early September. And yes I am serious about not knowing. Meh. What else? Oh yeah....I LOVE THE SONG CONCRETE ANGEL! *sniffs*Makes me wanna cry...;-;
Ahem...before I fully slip into depression I'll just...type random shit. o.O;;; Oooh...you wanna see the usual car conversations that my parents and I have? I know you don't but too bad! <<;;; >>;;;

Dad:-.- Fuckin' Mexicans can drive worth shit.
Me:*blinks*O.o *thinking*Aren't we Mexican...?
Mom:*glances at him*o.o
Dad:Stupid fuckers. Damn Mexicans!
Me:o.O;;;Eh...dad?
Dad:What?
Me:...Aren't we Mexican?
Dad:...Since when were you Mexican?
Me:>< Aren't you Mexican?Meh, and aren't I Mexican-American?
Dad:Hell no.
Me:Ohhhh...so we're white? o.O
Dad:-.-;;;NO.
Me:Hm...black?
Dad:-.-
Me:...Puerto Rican?
Dad:*twitches*Shut up.
Me:WHY? XD
Dad:Go listen to your music. -.-
Mom:*rolls her eyes**reaches over and changes the station** some Britney spears song is on and she leaves it there*
Me and my Dad:O.O CHANGE IT!!!!
Mom:Why? ><
Me:It's evil...o.o
Dad:She's a whore.
Me:An Evil whore...o.O
Mom:-.- *changes it to KROQ*
Me:Thats better! ^.^
Dad:Feh! *changes it to some station that plays Corridos*
Me:HA! I knew you were Mexican! o.O

Yes...something along those lines always happens..o.o

*smiles happily*Hehe! It's August fourth! ^-^ Which means that I've been together with my boyfriend for eight months! Can you believe it?! Eight wonderful months! ^-^ I'm all warm and happy inside...Such a rare feeling. ^-^ I'm gonna go enjoy it now. See'ya!

"Brown Eyes"
     Destiny's Child


Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the true meaning of love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul