Bleh, I don't feel so good...Well, today was an alright day I suppose. Kind of dull and really cold though. And even though I was with my friends for a few times today, I was basically alone the entire time. Didn't really talk much because they were to busy with themselves. So I daydreamed the day away. From first period until now. Plus it was freezing cold today. Not even my baggy-ish sweater kept me warm. Not much anyways. Finished my Algebra homework so I just have to do my Culteral Awareness homework. Lets see...what was something good that happend today? Oh yeah, I saw Nancy again. Which was cool. Wonder if she'll be there tommorow. Hope she is. I have no idea what else to put here. My mind is...full of tangled up thoughts so it's kinda hard thinking of someting to write. In that case, I'll just stop already. Well, adios

That shower was refreashing...
Anyways! Today...was alright I suppose. Mainly because I saw Nancy again! WOO! I missed her! That seriously made my day! *smiles happily*Moving on...I only have Algebra and Culteral Awareness homework at the moment. But both are due on Friday. So, I'll do them tommorow or whatever. Well, Tamera and Alex are really confusing me. First, they say that both of them are going out with each other...and then they say they are just friends. They really need to make up thier mind. But I guess they are together if they keep using me to send each other messages.Ugh. Couldn't I atleast get paid for my services?!Blehness, Tamera is mean. She is the main one using me. One of these days all her shoving is going to give me a bruise. >.<

Oh! And Alex scared me during English today. Well, he didn't scare me really...just...freaked me out a bit.He's a confusing person...*points down*

Alex:So, do you have a boyfriend?
Me:Yeah..
Alex:Really? Where does he live?
Me:...*has to explain most of the situation to him*
Alex:I see.
Me:*nods slightly*
Alex:...Does he know that you're cute?
Me:*blinks*O.o What?
Alex:Nevermind.*looks away sheepishly*
Me:Right...
-Short Pause-
Alex:So...does he call you or anything?
Me:Yeah,sometimes.
Alex:Does he tell you that you have a hot voice?
Me:*blinks again**thinks:What the fuck...?* Que...?
Alex:*shakes head*...Give this to Tam. *stuffs a note into my pocket*
Me:...O...kay...o.o

Yeah...he's wierd...really wierd...Well, don't know what else to write so I'm going to end it here. Ciao.

I am currently having trouble with my Algebra homework...
And no, not the problems. I'm having trouble trying to figure out which problems I'm suppose to do. o.O My teacher confused me with her instructions. Is this part of the homework assignment? Trying to decipher the instructions to see which problems we're suppose to be working on AND turning in tommorow?!?! I'm doomed. And this is the only assignment that I have. I think...

Oh well, sucks for me.*stuffs textbook back into her drawer*Um, school was...somewhat eventful.First, there was a fight/food fight today.Yeah,that was funny.*giggles*My friends and I noticed and heard a crowd of people and we all jumped up from where we were sitting to see what was going on. We saw some students getting ready to fight. And that's where it began. Some guy through this carton of juice over to where some girls were sitting and basically soaked one or two of them. Tons of people moved out of the way, and I thought that was it. But then a few moments later, some food went flying and that caused a bigger stir than before. Some people shrieked and ran. While my friends and I went rushing out of there. For one, if we didn't we would've gotten hurt due to the other people running passed us, and secondly...we didn't want to get hit by the food. Well, Tamera shoved me forward which caused me to shove other people forward so we could get out of there. The gate leading out only had one of it's doors open so it was quite chaotic. But Tamera's shoving hurt. That was the second time she did that to me today. Both times she did it roughly, but the first time she almost caused me to fall backwards while she tried shoving me through the wet concrete. Well, back to the whole food fight thing...my friends and I all managed to get out and we ended up laughing at ourselves for running as if the world was ending and whatnot. We lost this girl named Cathy and her friend Rodrigo through the mob though. Anyways, we found out that Jose and Jade only ran because they thought someone was going to start blasting in there.(shooting that is) Which caused the rest of us to laugh even more. I think those private Catholic schools got to them. Eheh...

Oh! And back to Rodrigo! He is wierd...o.o *points down*

Rodrigo:*is currently teasing and being teased by Beatrice*
Me:*listens to them in mild-interest*
Rodrigo:*turns to me*Beatrice is mean,huh?
Me:..o.O*shrugs*
Rodrigo:*leans close against me*Friend..
Me:O.o*thinking:What the fuck...?*
-A few moments later-
Rodrigo:*offers Cathy some of his nachos*
Cathy:*shakes head*
Rodrigo:*offers me some*Want some?
Me:*blinks*Um, no thanks.
Rodrigo:Sure?
Me:Uh huh...*notices that he didn't ask anyone else but me and his friend*...o.o

(Plus, he started talking to me while I was walking to my homeroom class. I don't know why. He just did. o.O) Well, I have no idea what else to write and I'm sorry for any bad spelling and so on and so forth. Well, gonna stop with this entry. Sooooo...! Adios!

That new Eminem song is...wierd...o.O Anyways, I have a Simple Plan song stuck in my head. I love it though...<.< >.> Call it "teenage angst" or whatever the hell you want....I still love it either way.

Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
but no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Well...I think Tamera and Alex are a couple now. Due to them saying "I love you" to each other and their constant flirting today during Gym made it pretty clear. Though I found out that Alex's friends are saying things about Tammy because she's black and that Alex shoudn't date her. That's bullshit. Those stupid pig fucking,cock sucking, sons of bitches better shut the fuck up. (Sorry for the language*coughs*) But it's cute that Alex got all over-protected when he told me. Sweetness! Though sadly, I'll be forced to deal with all the mushyness between them for quite sometime...Oh goodie. Anyways, what else? Oh yeah! I got an A in my Culteral Awareness homework! Woo! *huggles Nicole and Marcus*Thankies you two! I wuvs you muchly! And you too Stacy! ^-^;;; Um, in Algebra this guy named Jose and I were the only ones that turned in the homework COMPLETE. *huggles Nicole again*Again, thankies. @.@ Um, my parents and I were talking about my Quincenera again. And my mom and I think that the dresses for the dama's should be black and scarlet/crimson/dark red, or midnight blue/royal blue, OR a dark(royalish) purple. My dress of course...will be white. Yay...but the guys shall wear black tuxido's(sp). And my dad said that he could PROBABLY hire a spanish rock band to play for like...two hours. And that he said that my uncle Danny told him that he could get me some Low Riders for my friends and I to ride in. Cool,huh? ^-^ But I want a limo too...Ugh, this is hard. Well, I don't know what else to write except these Enchiladas that I'm eating are gooooooood! *coughs*Ahem, Adios for now.

Okay, let's see. Yesturday I went to my aunt's house for a Carne Asada as some of you know. It wasn't that bad actually. My baby cousin's were there. Rachel, Natalie and cuddly two and a half week old Michael. ^-^ Along with Jerry and his sister and my cousin Anthony.I have two cousin's named Anthony, each from both sides of my family. Jerry's taller than me damnit. I remember when I was taller than him. >.< Oh yeah, and he goes to the High School that I might be transferred to next year. Cool I suppose. Oh, and I also got new manga. Descendants of Darkness:Yami no Matsuei volume one and Saiyuki volume two. I love them both! Though because I'm doing homework at the moment I'm going to stop writing. Ciao.

Looks like my parents are fighting. Again. Oh well...nothing I can do. At the moment I'm trying to do some of my homework. I basically gave up on my homework assignment for my Culteral Awareness class. I'll try to do it again later. Maybe on Monday. I'll ask Jasmine, Tamera and Stacy for help. But other than that...I'm not going to do it. Though I'm doing Algebra and English homework right now. Algebra...whee...-.- Well, I found out that I probably won't be on ALL day. Carne Asada at some relative's house. An aunt of mine if I'm not mistaken. *listens to the new Eminem song*..o.O I have nothing else to say. So, bye.

I'm not sure if I'll be on later today. I have to go shopping and then to my aunt's house. And...I think something might happen today. Nothing bad I think. Just bad enough to make my day suck. I don't know. Maybe I'm being paranoid again? Well...I thought I'd be home more today to work on my homework...but oh well. I have to much to do on just one day. And one involves having to interview people. Which was what I was going to do today. But eh! What can I do? Hm...I'll try working on my Algebra homework and my poem for my English class. Well, I have to go take a shower now so I'll see'ya once I get out. Unless I can't get back on. Bleh, Adios.

*stares at all her baby pictures*...Wow! My hair was black back then! O.o And always in pigtails by the looks of it...*blushes faintly*I was such a cute baby. << >> *wonders what the hell happend*Anyways, I found another picture with my parents in it. But I'm still in it too. >.< It's a picture from my baptism...*blinks*And the cake that they had too. My dad's holding me and my mom is holding my cousin Gloria. *nods*...I guess I have to use the one with me in the red dress. *sulks*Now my class is going to see what I looked liked as a baby. >.< And I have to go passed the alley-like place again to get my lunch for tommorow...Oh, and I'm not going to San Diego on Saturday after all. Though I will be gone most of the day because I'm being forced to go shopping...Fun...-.-;;; Well, gotta go now. Ciao.

Note To Self:Bring manga for Stacy and I to read tommorow.

Um, don't know what to put down. Hrm...at the moment I'm lingering between depression, hyperness, and okayness. Yeah, doesn't make any sense at all. I think. Well, I have tons of homework to do. One involves me having to write a poem for English. And it's due tommorow. Damnit. It has to be about my parents too. Which makes it even more difficult. I have to find a picture that has them in it. Like from back in the day. And make a poem about it, like how they were back then, how their lives changed and how they are now. I can't think of anything. Plus that picture I found for the poem has me in it. When I was about...7 months(or older). I'm wearing a red dress.*pouts*But that was the day that my parents and Gloria's parents took seperate pictures on the same day at the old house that my parents and I use to live in. I got the red dress and Gloria got the pink one. *snickers**coughs*Moving on...Tamera made me tell Alex that she likes him. But I forgot to tell him that she needed to talk to him on Monday. I'll tell him tommorow during Homeroom.If I remember. *stares at her other homework*I don't think I'll be able to finish this all today...*sighs*Bleh, I fell asleep early yesturday. I didn't want to stay awake, thinking about everything that happend that day. So i made up my mind and went to bed. Oh yeah...7 1/2-8 hours of sleep. More than what I usually get. Well, since school started anyway.*lets head fall against the desk*Evil homework...*sighs again*Better keep working on it...Well, see'ya.

Bleh...ignore my last entry of utter stupidity. Having a bad day. Scratch that. I'm having a HORRIBLE day. It went from bad to worse so fast. Then again, I should've known. It always happens. Meh...I'm so pissed off and depressed right now. Don't ask me why and don't even try to help. I'll get over it. I always do. Takes a while but eh! *shrugs*My homework has tear stains on it...-.- Oh, I need to go get my lunch for tommorow...great, I have to go through that alley-like place at this time of day. Shit...it's so dark out and there's all these...men out there. Tons of them. Why me...? Seriously...why me? *sighs*Mm....school tommorow...another sleepless night...sounds really fun, no?Pfft....I'm an idiot. -.-;;;
*points down* More song lyrics....the first song has it's English translation. A rough translation but eh...*shrugs*Song crept into my head...so I decieded to put it up....well...I need to go get my lunch...passed the dark alley-like place...*shudders faintly*Oh goodie....

Stacy and I missed our bus. XD
Eheh...that's why I came on so late....I just got out of the shower...I took a very quick shower by the way. And now I'm doing my science homework. Fun,fun. Well...I'm feeling kinda..paranoid. And more than usual. And....kinda depressed. *shrugs*Bleh. Mood-swings. Oh, and I just got back from [Mistress of Darkness]'s(Stacy's) house. Seeing as we missed our bus...we took the public bus to her house. I called my dad and my grandpa came to pick me up...um....I think there's some cheating going on in my family. Again. Heh...more cheating in my life. Nice...Heh, there's been lots of cheating going on this year. Six that I know of. Ugh, I don't feel good...I better stop typing this. I need to do my homework now so...yeah...*hums to Fool by Shakira**coughs*Song is stuck in my head...Anyways, ciao.

I am so friggin' tired.
For some reason I'm feeling kinda sore. I have yet another limp in my left leg. That really hurts. And Matthew drank all of my coke. Well, what was left of it anyways. So now I have to get something else to drink.Blehness. Well, seeing as I have homework to do, I won't put much. I also need to go take a shower in a few minutes. Um, nothing new happend today. Not that I can remember anyways. Eh, I have a bad memory so who knows? *shrugs*Oh...I know there was like one or two fights today. And one was between a guy and a girl. I have no clue who won. Though many people are saying that it was the girl. Finally...violence. Oh how I remember my middle school days...so many fights and insults flying in every direction. Fun,no? Well...the weather sucked today. It was too damn hot. My head hurts...And...I really should wish Gloria a late happy birthday. I feel like a such a bitch because of it. She is now fourteen. Like moi. We're about a month and a day apart. If I haven't mentioned it or whatever, she's my cousin. From my dad's side. Yeah...I need to go for a bit. So, Adios.

Today...was kind of boring and kind of alright I suppose. I have homework though. For my Culteral Awareness class along with Science and English. Eh, pretty simple really. But I don't want to do the first one. Oh well, one missed assignment. Um, today's my cousin's fourteenth birthday. Yay...didn't go to the Carne Asada though. Seeing as my parents were fighting and stuff. Anyways, I guess I made another friend. His name is Alex. And this is how I found out that we were friends...

Tamera:Do you have any friends?
Alex:Yeah..o.O Alot. Heh, nah. I'm kidding. But I do have friends.
Tamera:So, are you friends with her?*points to me*
Me:*blinks*
Alex:Yeah.
Me:*blinks again*Eh?*Thinking:Why am I always the last one to find out these things?*

Um...yeah. That's how I found out. I guess he said that because we have nearly all but one class together and we are usually always sitting next to one another. And we sorta talk. Not much though. But I guess he's my friend now. Can't be rude now can I?Oh, and Tamera's friend, Beatrice, proclaimed herself my new best friend. Why? Well...because I gave her my hot cheetoes. She's kind of..crazy. But she seems cool. And I met one of Stacy's new friends. She seems cool as well. Her name is Jasmine. Pretty name. Just like Jade and Tamera. And Beatrice. Oh yeah...during English we had to do this thing called Echo Poetry or whatever, and I had to go up in front of the class. To read my poem. Which really sucked. But here's the deal, Mr. Weronka told us to write the first line of the poem we were going to make. So we did. Then he said that with every line of this poem that he read, we had to write down the first thing that came to mind and whatnot, under the first line of our poem. Which nearly everyone did. And while I was busy doodling in my notebook. I was his first victim to go up and read. I did. Quite reluctant I might add. And I read the first line of my poem, then he read the first(or was it second?) line of the poem that he had read to the class. And it went on like that. It actually came out sounding pretty good. Well, I'm going to end this entry here. You know what that means...See'ya.

And this will be the last entry of the day...Yes, aren't you happy? Anyways the following is something that just happend...o.O;;;

Dad:*tries to set the time on the new phone*
Matthew and I:*both watch*
Dad:*Curses wildly at it*
Me: *snickers*
Dad:...-.- *hands Matthew this glass thing*
Matthew:*looks at it*
Dad:Matthew, throw it at Stephanie. Maybe you'll kill her ass.
Me:...O.O....
Matthew:*looks at it and then at me**smiles*
Me:..o.o;;;...
Dad:*takes it away from him*Heh.
Me:...That woudn't have been the first time he threw something at me...

**Warning:Entry Was Written Due To Hyperness and Lack Of Sleep**

Amazing how a shower can ease the stress and depression away. Mm, but now I'm feeling cold again. Luckily I have my new black sweater to keep me warm. It's so pretty and cuddly and mine....*hugs self* ^-^ Better now. *blinks and huggles Eeyore plushie against her*Much better. *hums to Pretty Girl(The Way) by Sugarcult*Wuv this song...*blinks*Ugh, school tommorow. And I just rememberd that I had Algebra homework to turn in...and Culture Awareness homework too. Bet the teachers are going to get on my case by saying I could've turned it in on Monday. -.- Well fucks for them. I curse to much. And I love it. If you don't like it then that's too fuckin bad. Moving on...I bit my tongue again goddamnit! >.< Owie...*sniffles*...Oh yeah...I have the picture of all my guy friends from 8th grade stored in the computer in some file...I could put it up and say that those are my bitches! XD I mean, Adan did keep calling me a female P.I.M.P, or pimpette, during school. o.O And if I am...I need some bitches damnit. I also have a lot of my female friends from school...I wonder...*snickers*Oh god...I'm hyper. Either that, or just insane. Could be both. You never know. And I wish Jade would stop asking me if I find any of the guys at my school cute or if I'm interested in any of them. The answer is NO. Most of them are sex crazed morons who I'll only get to know as friends if I feel like it. Anyways, are looks really that imorptant? I've told many people that when I'm with someone and whatnot, they'll be the hottest person in this whole fuckin planet in my mind. *nods*And I wouldn't care what anyone else has to say. Unless they want me to hurt them for being so damn annoying...Oooh! Los Lonely Boys! I lurve them! *listens to Dime Mi Amor*Whee...I love this song. I want the CD. Anyways, where was I? Oh yeah...the whole relationship thing right? Yes, looks don't matter. Though Jennifer did ask me some questions about how the perfect guy would look like. For me anyways. Um...I don't know really. It doesn't matter. But I like black hair. *nods* And brown or hazel eyes. Maybe green to, but I like the eyes any shade of brown or hazel. Teddy bear! *coughs*Anyways, because I'm so damn pale...he should be a bit pale too. And I like 'em slim or plump. But it doesn't matter. I love personality the best. Okay Jen, you can leave me alone with that now. I bet I have a lot of mistakes in this damn entry. I'm to tired to fix it. And I'm to tired to continue with this so I'll see'ya.

My parents suck. All their yelling and cursing has left me tramatized. I get all nervous and such whenever they start fighting. I can't help it. It just terrifies me. They've fought since the day I was born. And even before that too. I've seen them fight. And I've also seen some violence here and there as well. Must be why I hate getting yelled at. I start feeling tense, scared, anxious, angry, and depressed when I'm yelled at. Which happens alot mind you. I don't care if they're yelling at me in real life or here on ET. I still feel like that. And I hate it. I feel like some stupid and scared little kid. And only reason I'm even writing this is because, that's right, my parents are fighting again. Meh, why can't they stop fighting for at least ONE FUCKIN DAY?! *shakes head and sighs*Whatever. Doesn't matter. More bullshit in my life. Gotta learn to ignore it and keep my thoughts set on the future. That's important,right? Eh, I don't know...but I also need to stop looking back at the past. Or I'll get all depressed and shit. *pouts*Ah, fuck it. I know I have people who care about me. Might not be alot but as long as I have them, I can forget about all the crap that's happend or will happen....

I swear...if they yell any louder I'm going to become deaf. And who the hell does my grandfather think he is? He can't boss me around after what he did. Cheating bastard!!God, can't they just shut the fuck up already?!?! I am not a sorry excuse for a human being! I've seen worse!Ugh...I just bit my tongue. Ow...*blinks*Once again, someone else thought I was fifteen or older. Sorry,hun. But I'm fourteen. Oh, and I just rememberd that I still have that $20 gift care for Waldenbooks that Stacy gave me for my birthday. Hopefully next time I go to the mall I'll be able to get me some new books. I seriously need new reading material. *yawns*...*blinks*Holy shit! Gloria's turning fourteen in two days! I forgot! That means I might not be on the day she has that Carne Asada for her birthday. Which might be tommorow. Why must we be related?! >.< Oh well, at least she's cool. Sorta. Then again, I get along much better with my cousins from my dad's side. All of whom love basketball and violent video games. And perverted jokes. Oh wait, that's only Gloria, Jesus and Anthony. Though Anthony whines to much for an eleven year old. Moving on...Um, like two days ago this guy called Jo Jo that comes on this radio station asked the listeners what was the biggest thing they have ever swallowed...and this guy called in and said a five inch banana...*snickers*That sounded wrong. *stares at her half-eaten banana*...I'm not hungry anymore... *blinks*I'll stop now. Buh bye.

Okies, because I wasn't on for long yesturday I'll write about what happend when I went to the doctor. Um..not much to say really. Just the usual. Got a bitchy doctor, ended up feeling violated and got medicine. Yup. That's it. Oh, and my mom got us lost like...three times. What a day. Anyways, right now I am pretty pissed off. Thanks to my family. My brother and sister are such a pain in the ass. They are always fighting. Everyone is always yelling and giving me a fuckin headache. And last night my grandmother(from my mom's side) keeps calling me "rockera." And because my mom's side LOVES gossip, the fact that I'm a "rocker" now is going to be known throughout that side of the family. Yay...*blinks*Think I'll scare them on Christmas. My dad doesn't care about what I wear as long as it isn't slutty. Soooo...if my parents get us new clothes to wear for Christmas this year...I know what I want. ^-^.*coughs*.. I'm bored now, so I'll stop with this. Ciao.


Pretty Girl(The Way) by Sugarcult

Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love

She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love

Pretty girl, pretty girl

Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you cry
It's the way
That he in your mind
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love

Guess what? I have yet another "friend" who doesn't give a fuck about me. Damn, I have alot of those. And even when I know that they could care less about what happens to me...I still care about them. Does that mean that I'm weak or something? I don't know...All I know is that I don't want this to bring me down. Kind of hard though. I just don't want to be depressed. I hate being depressed. It fuckin sucks. And I know it sucks for those who do care. Goddamnit. Ugh...my head is killing me...I'll stop ranting now....

If I should Die by RPM

I breathe in
I breathe out
You’re my life
You’re my death
You’re all I have left

I cry soft
I cry loud
You’re my touch
You’re my sound
You are my air now

If only I could crawl out of my skin
Do you think that you, that you
Could breathe me in?

IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I leave to you
My soul to take
Let me not wake you up
Or disturb your sleep
I leave to you
My soul to keep
IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I pray that your
Heart won’t break
But I won’t wake you up
Won’t disturb your sleep
I leave to you my soul to keep

I bleed deep
I bleed dry
You’re the sun
You’re the sky
You are my god now

I run fast
I fall down
You’re the wind
You’re the ground
You are my earth now

If only I could crawl out of my skin
Do you think that you, that you
Could breathe me in?

IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I leave to you
My soul to take
Let me not wake you up
Or disturb your sleep
I leave to you
My soul to keep
IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I pray that your
Heart won’t break
But I won’t wake you up
Won’t disturb your sleep
I leave to you my soul to keep

If I die please don’t cry
Breathe me in and let me live again
If I die please don’t cry
Hold my spirit in your hand
‘Cause the walls are closing in
So I pray that you are listening

IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I leave to you
My soul to take
Let me not wake you up
Or disturb your sleep
I leave to you
My soul to keep
IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I pray that your
Heart won’t break
But I won’t wake you up
Won’t disturb your sleep
I leave to you my soul to keep

IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I leave to you
My soul to take
Let me not wake you up
Or disturb your sleep
I leave to you
My soul to keep
IF I SHOULD DIE
Before I wake
I pray that your
Heart won’t break
But I won’t wake you up
Won’t disturb your sleep
I leave to you my soul to keep

My head hurts.Alot. It's hurting in the same place where I hit myself yesturday. It won't go away. And my sister woke me up from my nap. *sulks*Only reason I'm even on and awake.Well, I go to the doctor tommorow. Yayness...Ugh, Matthew's being such a crybaby today. Damn siblings...all their noise is making the pounding in my head even more painful. *cuddles plushie*I need sleep..and something to drink. Hrm....today's Mexican Independence Day and whatnot right? Can't remember...haven't been watching tv or anything...and I don't pay much attention when people talk to me at times so I don't know...If it is...WOO! PARTY! Sadly, I am in no condition to have fun. Though I am in a condition to take a nap or fall asleep next to someone by accident. I can't go back to sleep. Too hard now. >.< Soooo...I'm going to distract myself. Somehow. @.@ Buh bye now. Oh, and sorry for any mistakes and stuff. -.-;;;