I'll make this short and sweet...
My mom is a whore.Parents should get a divorce.Been sleep deprived.More emtional than normal.And really tired.The end.
Well, I didn't go to school today. I am in way too much pain to even lay down. Let alone walk. So I'm basically forcing myself to walk/sit/lay down/etc. And it's causing me alot of pain. I don't know what's wrong really. I was fine until yesturday. I have no idea what I did to have caused this pain in my upper back. But during the night it spread to my left side. So of course I got no sleep. I didn't tell my parents until I started sobbing from all the pain. So they told me to stay home and wait and see what happens. If it doesn't go away, then I might have to go to the doctor or the hospital, or whatever. It's funny though, I'm in so much pain and yet I'm in a good mood. Not because I didn't go to school, but it's just something simple. Today's date. October 4th,2004. Wow...ten months...Well, not many of you may know what the hell I'm talking about for those who do...Wow.*gigg
Woo! My siblings got in trouble! XD And I didn't! Even though I sort of cursed in Spanish in front of my grandmother.*c
So Fly by NB Rydaz
Oh woo oh (you so fly lady)
You look so fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
So fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
[_Zig-Zag_]
Yea, you ready to ride baby?
If you think you're lonely now just wait until tonight... girl
I know I've been on the road and away from home
But I've been feelin for you, dreamin of you
And what I'm gonna do when I have you alone
You heard the message on your cell phone
Me sayin "Daddy's home"
I'm about to put it down
Got you runnin around half-naked around the house
And this isn't just fast sex
We makin love until we both climax
I know you miss me, I can tell by the way you kiss me
There's no other place you rather be but here in ecstasy with me
I'm that someone who's gonna love you right even if I'm home for just one night
You know it's alright
It's me and you, Zig-Zag and Mary Jane
Your lovin's got me never wanting to leave again
You look so fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
So fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
The way you move that body (uh), twist those hips (yeah)
I just want to know can I tell you this...
[ magic: ]
That you're the typa girl I wanna roll with tonight
I'm at the Double Tree
I got an early flight but nothin
Could be better than to kick it with you
I'm talking about more than a one-night rendezvous
You can call it what you want, but I'ma treat you right
It's like a fantasy, girl close your eyes
Take my time when I touch that body
Get you so hot you wanna talk naughty
Ooh suga suga how'd you get so fly?
I'm down for yours if you're down for mine (uh)
Mamacita, chula, sexy chica meet me in the room, I'm in 602
Cuz all I wanna do is have a party for two
Baby girl tonight it's me and you (woo)
The way you're movin that body and twistin those hips
Workin those eyes and lickin those lips... oh my (oh my baby)
So fly (you're so fly lady)
The way you're movin that body and twistin those hips
Workin those eyes and lickin those lips... oh my (oh my baby)
So fly (you're so fly lady)
[_doshue_]
T-t-tell me something girl, something girl
T-t-tell me something girl.. you down to make it hot?
It's that freaky deaky rider sexin you non-stop
Love the way I touch you, I'm breakin you down
You say you shouldn't do this, you still goin down
Now we on the floor
You moan and groan, holdin me so tight
Tellin me you want more
I see you feelin freaky we're on another level
Got me serving you now on a dinner table
How do you want it, how does it feel?
The way you lick your lips girl you know I'm diggin this
Your body keeps callin, no temperatures fallin
The heat keeps risin, got you mesmerizin
Tonight's the night we'll remember forever
If I'm eva in your spot I know you're down for whatever
You look so fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
So fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
Yeah...I think that's enough of that. o.O Well, I don't want to write anymore so...ciao!(And sorry for any spelling mistakes and such...I'm still only half-awake)
Bleh, I'm tired and pissed off. Due to something that happend about a day or so at school. Anyways, this is what happend. Stacy and I were walking to our bus and there was a bunch of people in front of us so we couldn't pass through even if we wanted too. Plus there were some more people in back of us. And well...this is what happend...
Stacy and I:*tries to get passed everyone else*
Girl:*shoves people forward*Fuckin Mexicans. You can ran across the fucking border but you can't hurry the fuck up?
Me:*overhears*
Stacy:Hm?
Me:Since when did we ever cross the border?
Stacy:*blinks*
Me:*tells her ALL the things that the girls behind us were saying*
Stacy: Que?! >.<
Me:*nods*Meh..
Stacy:Me too...
There was more to the conversation..
"...Now I wish I had a dime
for every single time
I've gotten stared down
For being in the wrong side of town.
And a rich man I'd be
if I had that kind of chips
lately I wanna smack the mouths
of these racists.
Podrás imaginarte desde afuera,
ser un Mexicano cruzando la frontera,
pensando en tu familia mientras que pasas,
dejando todo lo que conoces atrás.
Si tuvieras tú que esquivar las balas
de unos cuantos gringos rancheros
Las seguirás diciendo good for nothing wetback?
si tuvieras tú que empezar de cero.
Now why don't you look down
to where your feet is planted
That U.S. soil that makes you take shit for granted
If not for Santa Ana, just to let you know
That where your feet are planted would be Mexico
Correcto!"
...Anyways! Look! The Molotov website..--> www.molotov.co
Well, I don't know what else to write so I'm going to stop. My head hurts and I'm tired. Buh bye now.
I'm feeling rather moody at the moment. So I suggest that nobody talks to me. I don't want to make you angry or anything.Well.
Now I know what to write. Sort of. And because I'm too lazy to just add this to the last entry...I'll just put it here. Um,yesturday while I was in my Culteral Awareness class, my teacher gave us all this worksheet. And we had to answer all the questions that were on it. Well, there was this question that asked, "On a scale of one to ten...how American do you feel at school?" Well, I thought about it...and I came up with...five. It's less really, but anyways. I NEVER feel American at school. I just...don't. And even though I was born here...people make me feel as if I wasn't. Bleh, I don't want to get into my stupid problems that deal with racism. So let's move on. Um, I'm feeling kind of numb right now. I thought I was feeling depressed but that's not the case. I'm just out of it today. But..I feel like crying but I don't know why. Stupid of me I know. Anyways...what else? Oh, I just got off the phone with my mom and she told me that she's already looking for some Quincenera dresses. Which is sorta cool I guess. Hm, I don't want to write anymore so I'm going to stop with this again.
Bleh, I don't feel so good...Well, today was an alright day I suppose. Kind of dull and really cold though. And even though I was with my friends for a few times today, I was basically alone the entire time. Didn't really talk much because they were to busy with themselves. So I daydreamed the day away. From first period until now. Plus it was freezing cold today. Not even my baggy-ish sweater kept me warm. Not much anyways. Finished my Algebra homework so I just have to do my Culteral Awareness homework. Lets see...what was something good that happend today? Oh yeah, I saw Nancy again. Which was cool. Wonder if she'll be there tommorow. Hope she is. I have no idea what else to put here. My mind is...full of tangled up thoughts so it's kinda hard thinking of someting to write. In that case, I'll just stop already. Well, adios
That shower was refreashing...
Anyways! Today...was alright I suppose. Mainly because I saw Nancy again! WOO! I missed her! That seriously made my day! *smiles happily*Moving on...I only have Algebra and Culteral Awareness homework at the moment. But both are due on Friday. So, I'll do them tommorow or whatever. Well, Tamera and Alex are really confusing me. First, they say that both of them are going out with each other...and then they say they are just friends. They really need to make up thier mind. But I guess they are together if they keep using me to send each other messages.Ugh. Couldn't I atleast get paid for my services?!Bleh
Oh! And Alex scared me during English today. Well, he didn't scare me really...just.
Alex:So, do you have a boyfriend?
Me:Yeah..
Alex:Really? Where does he live?
Me:...*has to explain most of the situation to him*
Alex:I see.
Me:*nods slightly*
Alex:...Does he know that you're cute?
Me:*blinks*O.o What?
Alex:Nevermind
Me:Right...
-Short Pause-
Alex:So...does he call you or anything?
Me:Yeah,someti
Alex:Does he tell you that you have a hot voice?
Me:*blinks again**thinks:
Alex:*shakes head*...Give this to Tam. *stuffs a note into my pocket*
Me:...O...kay.
Yeah...he's wierd...really wierd...Well, don't know what else to write so I'm going to end it here. Ciao.
I am currently having trouble with my Algebra homework...
And no, not the problems. I'm having trouble trying to figure out which problems I'm suppose to do. o.O My teacher confused me with her instructions. Is this part of the homework assignment? Trying to decipher the instructions to see which problems we're suppose to be working on AND turning in tommorow?!?! I'm doomed. And this is the only assignment that I have. I think...
Oh well, sucks for me.*stuffs textbook back into her drawer*Um, school was...somewhat eventful.First
Oh! And back to Rodrigo! He is wierd...o.o *points down*
Rodrigo:*is currently teasing and being teased by Beatrice*
Me:*listens to them in mild-interest*
Rodrigo:*turns to me*Beatrice is mean,huh?
Me:..o.O*shrug
Rodrigo:*leans close against me*Friend..
Me:O.o*thinkin
-A few moments later-
Rodrigo:*offer
Cathy:*shakes head*
Rodrigo:*offer
Me:*blinks*Um, no thanks.
Rodrigo:Sure?
Me:Uh huh...*notices that he didn't ask anyone else but me and his friend*...o.o
(Plus, he started talking to me while I was walking to my homeroom class. I don't know why. He just did. o.O) Well, I have no idea what else to write and I'm sorry for any bad spelling and so on and so forth. Well, gonna stop with this entry. Sooooo...! Adios!
That new Eminem song is...wierd...o
Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
but no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Well...I think Tamera and Alex are a couple now. Due to them saying "I love you" to each other and their constant flirting today during Gym made it pretty clear. Though I found out that Alex's friends are saying things about Tammy because she's black and that Alex shoudn't date her. That's bullshit. Those stupid pig fucking,cock sucking, sons of bitches better shut the fuck up. (Sorry for the language*cough
Okay, let's see. Yesturday I went to my aunt's house for a Carne Asada as some of you know. It wasn't that bad actually. My baby cousin's were there. Rachel, Natalie and cuddly two and a half week old Michael. ^-^ Along with Jerry and his sister and my cousin Anthony.I have two cousin's named Anthony, each from both sides of my family. Jerry's taller than me damnit. I remember when I was taller than him. >.< Oh yeah, and he goes to the High School that I might be transferred to next year. Cool I suppose. Oh, and I also got new manga. Descendants of Darkness:Yami no Matsuei volume one and Saiyuki volume two. I love them both! Though because I'm doing homework at the moment I'm going to stop writing. Ciao.
Looks like my parents are fighting. Again. Oh well...nothing I can do. At the moment I'm trying to do some of my homework. I basically gave up on my homework assignment for my Culteral Awareness class. I'll try to do it again later. Maybe on Monday. I'll ask Jasmine, Tamera and Stacy for help. But other than that...I'm not going to do it. Though I'm doing Algebra and English homework right now. Algebra...whee
I'm not sure if I'll be on later today. I have to go shopping and then to my aunt's house. And...I think something might happen today. Nothing bad I think. Just bad enough to make my day suck. I don't know. Maybe I'm being paranoid again? Well...I thought I'd be home more today to work on my homework...but oh well. I have to much to do on just one day. And one involves having to interview people. Which was what I was going to do today. But eh! What can I do? Hm...I'll try working on my Algebra homework and my poem for my English class. Well, I have to go take a shower now so I'll see'ya once I get out. Unless I can't get back on. Bleh, Adios.
*stares at all her baby pictures*...Wo
Note To Self:Bring manga for Stacy and I to read tommorow.
Um, don't know what to put down. Hrm...at the moment I'm lingering between depression, hyperness, and okayness. Yeah, doesn't make any sense at all. I think. Well, I have tons of homework to do. One involves me having to write a poem for English. And it's due tommorow. Damnit. It has to be about my parents too. Which makes it even more difficult. I have to find a picture that has them in it. Like from back in the day. And make a poem about it, like how they were back then, how their lives changed and how they are now. I can't think of anything. Plus that picture I found for the poem has me in it. When I was about...7 months(or older). I'm wearing a red dress.*pouts*B
Bleh...ignore my last entry of utter stupidity. Having a bad day. Scratch that. I'm having a HORRIBLE day. It went from bad to worse so fast. Then again, I should've known. It always happens. Meh...I'm so pissed off and depressed right now. Don't ask me why and don't even try to help. I'll get over it. I always do. Takes a while but eh! *shrugs*My homework has tear stains on it...-.- Oh, I need to go get my lunch for tommorow...gre
*points down* More song lyrics....the first song has it's English translation. A rough translation but eh...*shrugs*S
La Llamada by Selena
No me vuelvas a llamar,
Tratando de explicar,
Que lo que vi no era cierto.
Verguenza debes tener,
Si me quieres convencer,
Que eres fiel y eres sincero.
Oh, te vi con ella no puedes negar,
Que eran tus labios los que la besaban, Canalla!
No te sirvio de nada, el disimular,
Que solo, charlaban, no mientas mas!
Si me vuelves a llamar,
Yo te vuelvo a colgar,
Ya me canse de escuchar,
Oh escusas, y mas mentiras.
No me vuelves a llamar,
No te voy a perdonar,
Otra oportunidad,
No te la doy,
No vales la pena.
Vergüenza debes tener
Si me quieres convencer
Que eres fiel y eres sincero
Oh, te ví con ella y no puedes negar
Que eran tus labios los que la besaban
Canalla!
No te sirvió de nada
El disimular
Que sólo charlaban
No mientas más.
Si me vuelves a llamar,
Yo te vuelvo a colgar,
Ya me canse de escuchar,
Oh escusas, y mas mentiras.
No me vuelves a llamar,
No te voy a perdonar,
Otra oportunidad,
No te la doy,
No vales la pena.
te vi con ella no puedes negar,
Que eran tus labios los que la besaban, Canalla!
No te sirvio de nada, el disimular,
Que solo, charlaban, no mientas mas!
Si me vuelves a llamar,
Yo te vuelvo a colgar,
Ya me canse de escuchar,
Oh escusas, y mas mentiras.
No me vuelves a llamar,
No te voy a perdonar,
Otra oportunidad,
No te la doy,
No vales la pena.
(English Translation)
Don't call me again, trying to explain
that what I saw wasn't true
You should be ashamed of yourself
for trying to convince me
that you're faithful and sincere
I saw you with her, you can't deny
that those were your lips that were kissing her
It didn't do you any good trying to pretend
that you were only chatting,
don't lie anymore
If you call me again, I'll hang up again
I'm already tired of hearing more excuses and lies
Don't call me again, I'm not going to forgive you
Another chance, I won't give you
You're not worth it
You should be ashamed of yourself
for trying to convince me
that you're faithful and sincere
I saw you with her, you can't deny
that those were your lips that were kissing her
It didn't do you any good trying to pretend
that you were only chatting,
don't lie anymore
If you call me again, I'll hang up again
I'm already tired of hearing more excuses and lies
Don't call me again, I'm not going to forgive you
Another chance, I won't give you
You're not worth it
I saw you with her, you can't deny
that those were your lips that were kissing her
It didn't do you any good trying to pretend
that you were only chatting,
don't lie anymore
If you call me again, I'll hang up again
I'm already tired of hearing more excuses and lies
Don't call me again, I'm not going to forgive you
Another chance, I won't give you
You're not worth it
Stacy and I missed our bus. XD
Eheh...that's why I came on so late....I just got out of the shower...I took a very quick shower by the way. And now I'm doing my science homework. Fun,fun. Well...I'm feeling kinda..paranoi
I am so friggin' tired.
For some reason I'm feeling kinda sore. I have yet another limp in my left leg. That really hurts. And Matthew drank all of my coke. Well, what was left of it anyways. So now I have to get something else to drink.Blehness
I like this song...<.< >.>
Bitch by Meredith Brooks
I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
Today...was kind of boring and kind of alright I suppose. I have homework though. For my Culteral Awareness class along with Science and English. Eh, pretty simple really. But I don't want to do the first one. Oh well, one missed assignment. Um, today's my cousin's fourteenth birthday. Yay...didn't go to the Carne Asada though. Seeing as my parents were fighting and stuff. Anyways, I guess I made another friend. His name is Alex. And this is how I found out that we were friends...
Tamera:Do you have any friends?
Alex:Yeah..o.O Alot. Heh, nah. I'm kidding. But I do have friends.
Tamera:So, are you friends with her?*points to me*
Me:*blinks*
Alex:Yeah.
Me:*blinks again*Eh?*Thin
Um...yeah. That's how I found out. I guess he said that because we have nearly all but one class together and we are usually always sitting next to one another. And we sorta talk. Not much though. But I guess he's my friend now. Can't be rude now can I?Oh, and Tamera's friend, Beatrice, proclaimed herself my new best friend. Why? Well...because I gave her my hot cheetoes. She's kind of..crazy. But she seems cool. And I met one of Stacy's new friends. She seems cool as well. Her name is Jasmine. Pretty name. Just like Jade and Tamera. And Beatrice. Oh yeah...during English we had to do this thing called Echo Poetry or whatever, and I had to go up in front of the class. To read my poem. Which really sucked. But here's the deal, Mr. Weronka told us to write the first line of the poem we were going to make. So we did. Then he said that with every line of this poem that he read, we had to write down the first thing that came to mind and whatnot, under the first line of our poem. Which nearly everyone did. And while I was busy doodling in my notebook. I was his first victim to go up and read. I did. Quite reluctant I might add. And I read the first line of my poem, then he read the first(or was it second?) line of the poem that he had read to the class. And it went on like that. It actually came out sounding pretty good. Well, I'm going to end this entry here. You know what that means...See'ya
And this will be the last entry of the day...Yes, aren't you happy? Anyways the following is something that just happend...o.O;
Dad:*tries to set the time on the new phone*
Matthew and I:*both watch*
Dad:*Curses wildly at it*
Me: *snickers*
Dad:...-.- *hands Matthew this glass thing*
Matthew:*looks at it*
Dad:Matthew, throw it at Stephanie. Maybe you'll kill her ass.
Me:...O.O....
Matthew:*looks at it and then at me**smiles*
Me:..o.o;;;...
Dad:*takes it away from him*Heh.
Me:...That woudn't have been the first time he threw something at me...