[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2004-10-07
Written: (7353 days ago)

I'll make this short and sweet...

My mom is a whore.Parents should get a divorce.Been sleep deprived.More emtional than normal.And really tired.The end.
                 

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Written about Monday 2004-10-04
Written: (7356 days ago)

Well, I didn't go to school today. I am in way too much pain to even lay down. Let alone walk. So I'm basically forcing myself to walk/sit/lay down/etc. And it's causing me alot of pain. I don't know what's wrong really. I was fine until yesturday. I have no idea what I did to have caused this pain in my upper back. But during the night it spread to my left side. So of course I got no sleep. I didn't tell my parents until I started sobbing from all the pain. So they told me to stay home and wait and see what happens. If it doesn't go away, then I might have to go to the doctor or the hospital, or whatever. It's funny though, I'm in so much pain and yet I'm in a good mood. Not because I didn't go to school, but it's just something simple. Today's date. October 4th,2004. Wow...ten months...Well, not many of you may know what the hell I'm talking about for those who do...Wow.*giggles* Yeah...I'm a bit of an idiot right now so don't mind me! ^-^;;; I better get offline now because sitting here is making me freeze my ass off. Not literally! o.O Geez...well, I'll be gone most of the day due to not being able to sit here in front of the comp without wincing and whimpering in pain. So I'll be back around the afternoon. Well, bye! ^.^

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Written about Sunday 2004-10-03
Written: (7357 days ago)

Woo! My siblings got in trouble! XD And I didn't! Even though I sort of cursed in Spanish in front of my grandmother.*coughs* But it wasn't my fault! Yesturday my siblings kept fighting and wouldn't stop OR shut the hell up. And my grandmother asked me why they were fighting, and I was so pissed that I told her that they were fighting because of the damn PS2. Of course I said it in Spanish. Duh. And I think she thought that I was on the verge of tears because my voice sounded shaky. But that wasn't the case. I was just really pissed off. So my parents didn't yell at me or anything. They just made fun of me for being so angry. -.- But they also said that it wasn't my fault because they also know how my brother and sister get. So yeah! Um, That song "So Fly" by NB Rydaz won't get out of my head. >.< Such a dirty song. *snickers*Well, dirtyish. Anyways...here's the damn song. *points down* <.< >.>

So Fly by NB Rydaz

Oh woo oh (you so fly lady)

You look so fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
So fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride

[_Zig-Zag_]
Yea, you ready to ride baby?
If you think you're lonely now just wait until tonight... girl
I know I've been on the road and away from home
But I've been feelin for you, dreamin of you
And what I'm gonna do when I have you alone
You heard the message on your cell phone
Me sayin "Daddy's home"
I'm about to put it down
Got you runnin around half-naked around the house
And this isn't just fast sex
We makin love until we both climax
I know you miss me, I can tell by the way you kiss me
There's no other place you rather be but here in ecstasy with me
I'm that someone who's gonna love you right even if I'm home for just one night
You know it's alright
It's me and you, Zig-Zag and Mary Jane
Your lovin's got me never wanting to leave again
You look so fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride

So fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
The way you move that body (uh), twist those hips (yeah)
I just want to know can I tell you this...

[ magic: ]
That you're the typa girl I wanna roll with tonight
I'm at the Double Tree
I got an early flight but nothin
Could be better than to kick it with you
I'm talking about more than a one-night rendezvous
You can call it what you want, but I'ma treat you right
It's like a fantasy, girl close your eyes
Take my time when I touch that body
Get you so hot you wanna talk naughty
Ooh suga suga how'd you get so fly?
I'm down for yours if you're down for mine (uh)
Mamacita, chula, sexy chica meet me in the room, I'm in 602
Cuz all I wanna do is have a party for two
Baby girl tonight it's me and you (woo)

The way you're movin that body and twistin those hips
Workin those eyes and lickin those lips... oh my (oh my baby)
So fly (you're so fly lady)
The way you're movin that body and twistin those hips
Workin those eyes and lickin those lips... oh my (oh my baby)
So fly (you're so fly lady)

[_doshue_]
T-t-tell me something girl, something girl
T-t-tell me something girl.. you down to make it hot?
It's that freaky deaky rider sexin you non-stop
Love the way I touch you, I'm breakin you down
You say you shouldn't do this, you still goin down
Now we on the floor
You moan and groan, holdin me so tight
Tellin me you want more
I see you feelin freaky we're on another level
Got me serving you now on a dinner table
How do you want it, how does it feel?
The way you lick your lips girl you know I'm diggin this
Your body keeps callin, no temperatures fallin
The heat keeps risin, got you mesmerizin
Tonight's the night we'll remember forever
If I'm eva in your spot I know you're down for whatever

You look so fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride
So fly, so cool
Tell me girl can I talk to you
I'm only in town for one night
Let me know if you're down to ride

Yeah...I think that's enough of that. o.O Well, I don't want to write anymore so...ciao!(And sorry for any spelling mistakes and such...I'm still only half-awake)

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Written about Friday 2004-10-01
Written: (7358 days ago)

Bleh, I'm tired and pissed off. Due to something that happend about a day or so at school. Anyways, this is what happend. Stacy and I were walking to our bus and there was a bunch of people in front of us so we couldn't pass through even if we wanted too. Plus there were some more people in back of us. And well...this is what happend...

Stacy and I:*tries to get passed everyone else*
Girl:*shoves people forward*Fuckin Mexicans. You can ran across the fucking border but you can't hurry the fuck up?
Me:*overhears**chews on bottom lip angrily*Stacy?
Stacy:Hm?
Me:Since when did we ever cross the border?
Stacy:*blinks*What?
Me:*tells her ALL the things that the girls behind us were saying*
Stacy: Que?! >.<
Me:*nods*Meh...I could've sworn that I was born here...
Stacy:Me too...

There was more to the conversation...but it contains to much cursing and violant talking to be posted. Anyways, the only reason that I even rememberd that was because of some lyrics from this Molotov song that I was listening to.Their songs are kind of...explict, so I won't put up the whole song. Just the lyrics that made this memory come back*points down*

"...Now I wish I had a dime
for every single time
I've gotten stared down
For being in the wrong side of town.

And a rich man I'd be
if I had that kind of chips
lately I wanna smack the mouths
of these racists.

Podrás imaginarte desde afuera,
ser un Mexicano cruzando la frontera,
pensando en tu familia mientras que pasas,
dejando todo lo que conoces atrás.

Si tuvieras tú que esquivar las balas
de unos cuantos gringos rancheros
Las seguirás diciendo good for nothing wetback?
si tuvieras tú que empezar de cero.

Now why don't you look down
to where your feet is planted
That U.S. soil that makes you take shit for granted
If not for Santa Ana, just to let you know
That where your feet are planted would be Mexico
Correcto!"


...Anyways! Look! The Molotov website..--> www.molotov.com.mx

Well, I don't know what else to write so I'm going to stop. My head hurts and I'm tired. Buh bye now.

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Written about Friday 2004-10-01
Written: (7358 days ago)

I'm feeling rather moody at the moment. So I suggest that nobody talks to me. I don't want to make you angry or anything.Well...I'm not going to go on and on about life being unfair. Even though it usually seems like it is. But...I'm starting to feel used again. Which really sucks. Seeing as I have been used constantly. And I still am. I really hate it when my friends and other loved ones use me. It really hurts and depresses me. They may not be using me, but their actions make me feel as if they are. And that I'm not important and stuff. But hey! C'est la vie! What can ya do about it? Well..I have an Algebra test on Monday. And Algebra homework to do. As far as I can tell that's the only homework that I have. Well, I'm just listening to music and pushing whatever loneliness I'm feeling at the moment aside and replacing it with...nothingness. Well...I am rather tired and cold. Though my sweater is making me feel all snuggly and warm. ^-^ And sleepy too...-.- So I'll stop now. Ciao.

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Written about Thursday 2004-09-30
Written: (7360 days ago)

Now I know what to write. Sort of. And because I'm too lazy to just add this to the last entry...I'll just put it here. Um,yesturday while I was in my Culteral Awareness class, my teacher gave us all this worksheet. And we had to answer all the questions that were on it. Well, there was this question that asked, "On a scale of one to ten...how American do you feel at school?" Well, I thought about it...and I came up with...five. It's less really, but anyways. I NEVER feel American at school. I just...don't. And even though I was born here...people make me feel as if I wasn't. Bleh, I don't want to get into my stupid problems that deal with racism. So let's move on. Um, I'm feeling kind of numb right now. I thought I was feeling depressed but that's not the case. I'm just out of it today. But..I feel like crying but I don't know why. Stupid of me I know. Anyways...what else? Oh, I just got off the phone with my mom and she told me that she's already looking for some Quincenera dresses. Which is sorta cool I guess. Hm, I don't want to write anymore so I'm going to stop with this again.

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Written about Thursday 2004-09-30
Written: (7360 days ago)

Bleh, I don't feel so good...Well, today was an alright day I suppose. Kind of dull and really cold though. And even though I was with my friends for a few times today, I was basically alone the entire time. Didn't really talk much because they were to busy with themselves. So I daydreamed the day away. From first period until now. Plus it was freezing cold today. Not even my baggy-ish sweater kept me warm. Not much anyways. Finished my Algebra homework so I just have to do my Culteral Awareness homework. Lets see...what was something good that happend today? Oh yeah, I saw Nancy again. Which was cool. Wonder if she'll be there tommorow. Hope she is. I have no idea what else to put here. My mind is...full of tangled up thoughts so it's kinda hard thinking of someting to write. In that case, I'll just stop already. Well, adios

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Written about Wednesday 2004-09-29
Written: (7361 days ago)

That shower was refreashing...
Anyways! Today...was alright I suppose. Mainly because I saw Nancy again! WOO! I missed her! That seriously made my day! *smiles happily*Moving on...I only have Algebra and Culteral Awareness homework at the moment. But both are due on Friday. So, I'll do them tommorow or whatever. Well, Tamera and Alex are really confusing me. First, they say that both of them are going out with each other...and then they say they are just friends. They really need to make up thier mind. But I guess they are together if they keep using me to send each other messages.Ugh. Couldn't I atleast get paid for my services?!Blehness, Tamera is mean. She is the main one using me. One of these days all her shoving is going to give me a bruise. >.<

Oh! And Alex scared me during English today. Well, he didn't scare me really...just...freaked me out a bit.He's a confusing person...*points down*

Alex:So, do you have a boyfriend?
Me:Yeah..
Alex:Really? Where does he live?
Me:...*has to explain most of the situation to him*
Alex:I see.
Me:*nods slightly*
Alex:...Does he know that you're cute?
Me:*blinks*O.o What?
Alex:Nevermind.*looks away sheepishly*
Me:Right...
-Short Pause-
Alex:So...does he call you or anything?
Me:Yeah,sometimes.
Alex:Does he tell you that you have a hot voice?
Me:*blinks again**thinks:What the fuck...?* Que...?
Alex:*shakes head*...Give this to Tam. *stuffs a note into my pocket*
Me:...O...kay...o.o

Yeah...he's wierd...really wierd...Well, don't know what else to write so I'm going to end it here. Ciao.

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Written about Tuesday 2004-09-28
Written: (7362 days ago)

I am currently having trouble with my Algebra homework...
And no, not the problems. I'm having trouble trying to figure out which problems I'm suppose to do. o.O My teacher confused me with her instructions. Is this part of the homework assignment? Trying to decipher the instructions to see which problems we're suppose to be working on AND turning in tommorow?!?! I'm doomed. And this is the only assignment that I have. I think...

Oh well, sucks for me.*stuffs textbook back into her drawer*Um, school was...somewhat eventful.First, there was a fight/food fight today.Yeah,that was funny.*giggles*My friends and I noticed and heard a crowd of people and we all jumped up from where we were sitting to see what was going on. We saw some students getting ready to fight. And that's where it began. Some guy through this carton of juice over to where some girls were sitting and basically soaked one or two of them. Tons of people moved out of the way, and I thought that was it. But then a few moments later, some food went flying and that caused a bigger stir than before. Some people shrieked and ran. While my friends and I went rushing out of there. For one, if we didn't we would've gotten hurt due to the other people running passed us, and secondly...we didn't want to get hit by the food. Well, Tamera shoved me forward which caused me to shove other people forward so we could get out of there. The gate leading out only had one of it's doors open so it was quite chaotic. But Tamera's shoving hurt. That was the second time she did that to me today. Both times she did it roughly, but the first time she almost caused me to fall backwards while she tried shoving me through the wet concrete. Well, back to the whole food fight thing...my friends and I all managed to get out and we ended up laughing at ourselves for running as if the world was ending and whatnot. We lost this girl named Cathy and her friend Rodrigo through the mob though. Anyways, we found out that Jose and Jade only ran because they thought someone was going to start blasting in there.(shooting that is) Which caused the rest of us to laugh even more. I think those private Catholic schools got to them. Eheh...

Oh! And back to Rodrigo! He is wierd...o.o *points down*

Rodrigo:*is currently teasing and being teased by Beatrice*
Me:*listens to them in mild-interest*
Rodrigo:*turns to me*Beatrice is mean,huh?
Me:..o.O*shrugs*
Rodrigo:*leans close against me*Friend..
Me:O.o*thinking:What the fuck...?*
-A few moments later-
Rodrigo:*offers Cathy some of his nachos*
Cathy:*shakes head*
Rodrigo:*offers me some*Want some?
Me:*blinks*Um, no thanks.
Rodrigo:Sure?
Me:Uh huh...*notices that he didn't ask anyone else but me and his friend*...o.o

(Plus, he started talking to me while I was walking to my homeroom class. I don't know why. He just did. o.O) Well, I have no idea what else to write and I'm sorry for any bad spelling and so on and so forth. Well, gonna stop with this entry. Sooooo...! Adios!

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Written about Monday 2004-09-27
Written: (7362 days ago)

That new Eminem song is...wierd...o.O Anyways, I have a Simple Plan song stuck in my head. I love it though...<.< >.> Call it "teenage angst" or whatever the hell you want....I still love it either way.

Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
but no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

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Written about Monday 2004-09-27
Written: (7363 days ago)

Well...I think Tamera and Alex are a couple now. Due to them saying "I love you" to each other and their constant flirting today during Gym made it pretty clear. Though I found out that Alex's friends are saying things about Tammy because she's black and that Alex shoudn't date her. That's bullshit. Those stupid pig fucking,cock sucking, sons of bitches better shut the fuck up. (Sorry for the language*coughs*) But it's cute that Alex got all over-protected when he told me. Sweetness! Though sadly, I'll be forced to deal with all the mushyness between them for quite sometime...Oh goodie. Anyways, what else? Oh yeah! I got an A in my Culteral Awareness homework! Woo! *huggles Nicole and Marcus*Thankies you two! I wuvs you muchly! And you too Stacy! ^-^;;; Um, in Algebra this guy named Jose and I were the only ones that turned in the homework COMPLETE. *huggles Nicole again*Again, thankies. @.@ Um, my parents and I were talking about my Quincenera again. And my mom and I think that the dresses for the dama's should be black and scarlet/crimson/dark red, or midnight blue/royal blue, OR a dark(royalish) purple. My dress of course...will be white. Yay...but the guys shall wear black tuxido's(sp). And my dad said that he could PROBABLY hire a spanish rock band to play for like...two hours. And that he said that my uncle Danny told him that he could get me some Low Riders for my friends and I to ride in. Cool,huh? ^-^ But I want a limo too...Ugh, this is hard. Well, I don't know what else to write except these Enchiladas that I'm eating are gooooooood! *coughs*Ahem, Adios for now.

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Written about Sunday 2004-09-26
Written: (7364 days ago)

Okay, let's see. Yesturday I went to my aunt's house for a Carne Asada as some of you know. It wasn't that bad actually. My baby cousin's were there. Rachel, Natalie and cuddly two and a half week old Michael. ^-^ Along with Jerry and his sister and my cousin Anthony.I have two cousin's named Anthony, each from both sides of my family. Jerry's taller than me damnit. I remember when I was taller than him. >.< Oh yeah, and he goes to the High School that I might be transferred to next year. Cool I suppose. Oh, and I also got new manga. Descendants of Darkness:Yami no Matsuei volume one and Saiyuki volume two. I love them both! Though because I'm doing homework at the moment I'm going to stop writing. Ciao.

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Written about Saturday 2004-09-25
Written: (7365 days ago)

Looks like my parents are fighting. Again. Oh well...nothing I can do. At the moment I'm trying to do some of my homework. I basically gave up on my homework assignment for my Culteral Awareness class. I'll try to do it again later. Maybe on Monday. I'll ask Jasmine, Tamera and Stacy for help. But other than that...I'm not going to do it. Though I'm doing Algebra and English homework right now. Algebra...whee...-.- Well, I found out that I probably won't be on ALL day. Carne Asada at some relative's house. An aunt of mine if I'm not mistaken. *listens to the new Eminem song*..o.O I have nothing else to say. So, bye.

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Written about Saturday 2004-09-25
Written: (7365 days ago)

I'm not sure if I'll be on later today. I have to go shopping and then to my aunt's house. And...I think something might happen today. Nothing bad I think. Just bad enough to make my day suck. I don't know. Maybe I'm being paranoid again? Well...I thought I'd be home more today to work on my homework...but oh well. I have to much to do on just one day. And one involves having to interview people. Which was what I was going to do today. But eh! What can I do? Hm...I'll try working on my Algebra homework and my poem for my English class. Well, I have to go take a shower now so I'll see'ya once I get out. Unless I can't get back on. Bleh, Adios.

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Written about Thursday 2004-09-23
Written: (7366 days ago)

*stares at all her baby pictures*...Wow! My hair was black back then! O.o And always in pigtails by the looks of it...*blushes faintly*I was such a cute baby. << >> *wonders what the hell happend*Anyways, I found another picture with my parents in it. But I'm still in it too. >.< It's a picture from my baptism...*blinks*And the cake that they had too. My dad's holding me and my mom is holding my cousin Gloria. *nods*...I guess I have to use the one with me in the red dress. *sulks*Now my class is going to see what I looked liked as a baby. >.< And I have to go passed the alley-like place again to get my lunch for tommorow...Oh, and I'm not going to San Diego on Saturday after all. Though I will be gone most of the day because I'm being forced to go shopping...Fun...-.-;;; Well, gotta go now. Ciao.

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Written about Thursday 2004-09-23
Written: (7367 days ago)

Note To Self:Bring manga for Stacy and I to read tommorow.

Um, don't know what to put down. Hrm...at the moment I'm lingering between depression, hyperness, and okayness. Yeah, doesn't make any sense at all. I think. Well, I have tons of homework to do. One involves me having to write a poem for English. And it's due tommorow. Damnit. It has to be about my parents too. Which makes it even more difficult. I have to find a picture that has them in it. Like from back in the day. And make a poem about it, like how they were back then, how their lives changed and how they are now. I can't think of anything. Plus that picture I found for the poem has me in it. When I was about...7 months(or older). I'm wearing a red dress.*pouts*But that was the day that my parents and Gloria's parents took seperate pictures on the same day at the old house that my parents and I use to live in. I got the red dress and Gloria got the pink one. *snickers**coughs*Moving on...Tamera made me tell Alex that she likes him. But I forgot to tell him that she needed to talk to him on Monday. I'll tell him tommorow during Homeroom.If I remember. *stares at her other homework*I don't think I'll be able to finish this all today...*sighs*Bleh, I fell asleep early yesturday. I didn't want to stay awake, thinking about everything that happend that day. So i made up my mind and went to bed. Oh yeah...7 1/2-8 hours of sleep. More than what I usually get. Well, since school started anyway.*lets head fall against the desk*Evil homework...*sighs again*Better keep working on it...Well, see'ya.

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Written about Wednesday 2004-09-22
Written: (7367 days ago)

Bleh...ignore my last entry of utter stupidity. Having a bad day. Scratch that. I'm having a HORRIBLE day. It went from bad to worse so fast. Then again, I should've known. It always happens. Meh...I'm so pissed off and depressed right now. Don't ask me why and don't even try to help. I'll get over it. I always do. Takes a while but eh! *shrugs*My homework has tear stains on it...-.- Oh, I need to go get my lunch for tommorow...great, I have to go through that alley-like place at this time of day. Shit...it's so dark out and there's all these...men out there. Tons of them. Why me...? Seriously...why me? *sighs*Mm....school tommorow...another sleepless night...sounds really fun, no?Pfft....I'm an idiot. -.-;;;
*points down* More song lyrics....the first song has it's English translation. A rough translation but eh...*shrugs*Song crept into my head...so I decieded to put it up....well...I need to go get my lunch...passed the dark alley-like place...*shudders faintly*Oh goodie....



La Llamada by Selena
No me vuelvas a llamar,
Tratando de explicar,
Que lo que vi no era cierto.
Verguenza debes tener,
Si me quieres convencer,
Que eres fiel y eres sincero.
Oh, te vi con ella no puedes negar,
Que eran tus labios los que la besaban, Canalla!
No te sirvio de nada, el disimular,
Que solo, charlaban, no mientas mas!

Si me vuelves a llamar,
Yo te vuelvo a colgar,
Ya me canse de escuchar,
Oh escusas, y mas mentiras.
No me vuelves a llamar,
No te voy a perdonar,
Otra oportunidad,
No te la doy,
No vales la pena.

Vergüenza debes tener
Si me quieres convencer
Que eres fiel y eres sincero
Oh, te ví con ella y no puedes negar
Que eran tus labios los que la besaban
Canalla!
No te sirvió de nada
El disimular
Que sólo charlaban
No mientas más.

Si me vuelves a llamar,
Yo te vuelvo a colgar,
Ya me canse de escuchar,
Oh escusas, y mas mentiras.
No me vuelves a llamar,
No te voy a perdonar,
Otra oportunidad,
No te la doy,
No vales la pena.

te vi con ella no puedes negar,
Que eran tus labios los que la besaban, Canalla!
No te sirvio de nada, el disimular,
Que solo, charlaban, no mientas mas!

Si me vuelves a llamar,
Yo te vuelvo a colgar,
Ya me canse de escuchar,
Oh escusas, y mas mentiras.
No me vuelves a llamar,
No te voy a perdonar,
Otra oportunidad,
No te la doy,
No vales la pena.


(English Translation)
Don't call me again, trying to explain
that what I saw wasn't true
You should be ashamed of yourself
for trying to convince me
that you're faithful and sincere
I saw you with her, you can't deny
that those were your lips that were kissing her
It didn't do you any good trying to pretend
that you were only chatting,
don't lie anymore

If you call me again, I'll hang up again
I'm already tired of hearing more excuses and lies
Don't call me again, I'm not going to forgive you
Another chance, I won't give you
You're not worth it

You should be ashamed of yourself
for trying to convince me
that you're faithful and sincere
I saw you with her, you can't deny
that those were your lips that were kissing her
It didn't do you any good trying to pretend
that you were only chatting,
don't lie anymore

If you call me again, I'll hang up again
I'm already tired of hearing more excuses and lies
Don't call me again, I'm not going to forgive you
Another chance, I won't give you
You're not worth it

I saw you with her, you can't deny
that those were your lips that were kissing her
It didn't do you any good trying to pretend
that you were only chatting,
don't lie anymore

If you call me again, I'll hang up again
I'm already tired of hearing more excuses and lies
Don't call me again, I'm not going to forgive you
Another chance, I won't give you
You're not worth it
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Written about Wednesday 2004-09-22
Written: (7368 days ago)

Stacy and I missed our bus. XD
Eheh...that's why I came on so late....I just got out of the shower...I took a very quick shower by the way. And now I'm doing my science homework. Fun,fun. Well...I'm feeling kinda..paranoid. And more than usual. And....kinda depressed. *shrugs*Bleh. Mood-swings. Oh, and I just got back from [Mistress of Darkness]'s(Stacy's) house. Seeing as we missed our bus...we took the public bus to her house. I called my dad and my grandpa came to pick me up...um....I think there's some cheating going on in my family. Again. Heh...more cheating in my life. Nice...Heh, there's been lots of cheating going on this year. Six that I know of. Ugh, I don't feel good...I better stop typing this. I need to do my homework now so...yeah...*hums to Fool by Shakira**coughs*Song is stuck in my head...Anyways, ciao.

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Written about Tuesday 2004-09-21
Written: (7369 days ago)

I am so friggin' tired.
For some reason I'm feeling kinda sore. I have yet another limp in my left leg. That really hurts. And Matthew drank all of my coke. Well, what was left of it anyways. So now I have to get something else to drink.Blehness. Well, seeing as I have homework to do, I won't put much. I also need to go take a shower in a few minutes. Um, nothing new happend today. Not that I can remember anyways. Eh, I have a bad memory so who knows? *shrugs*Oh...I know there was like one or two fights today. And one was between a guy and a girl. I have no clue who won. Though many people are saying that it was the girl. Finally...violence. Oh how I remember my middle school days...so many fights and insults flying in every direction. Fun,no? Well...the weather sucked today. It was too damn hot. My head hurts...And...I really should wish Gloria a late happy birthday. I feel like a such a bitch because of it. She is now fourteen. Like moi. We're about a month and a day apart. If I haven't mentioned it or whatever, she's my cousin. From my dad's side. Yeah...I need to go for a bit. So, Adios.



I like this song...<.< >.>

Bitch by Meredith Brooks

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
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Written about Monday 2004-09-20
Written: (7370 days ago)

Today...was kind of boring and kind of alright I suppose. I have homework though. For my Culteral Awareness class along with Science and English. Eh, pretty simple really. But I don't want to do the first one. Oh well, one missed assignment. Um, today's my cousin's fourteenth birthday. Yay...didn't go to the Carne Asada though. Seeing as my parents were fighting and stuff. Anyways, I guess I made another friend. His name is Alex. And this is how I found out that we were friends...

Tamera:Do you have any friends?
Alex:Yeah..o.O Alot. Heh, nah. I'm kidding. But I do have friends.
Tamera:So, are you friends with her?*points to me*
Me:*blinks*
Alex:Yeah.
Me:*blinks again*Eh?*Thinking:Why am I always the last one to find out these things?*

Um...yeah. That's how I found out. I guess he said that because we have nearly all but one class together and we are usually always sitting next to one another. And we sorta talk. Not much though. But I guess he's my friend now. Can't be rude now can I?Oh, and Tamera's friend, Beatrice, proclaimed herself my new best friend. Why? Well...because I gave her my hot cheetoes. She's kind of..crazy. But she seems cool. And I met one of Stacy's new friends. She seems cool as well. Her name is Jasmine. Pretty name. Just like Jade and Tamera. And Beatrice. Oh yeah...during English we had to do this thing called Echo Poetry or whatever, and I had to go up in front of the class. To read my poem. Which really sucked. But here's the deal, Mr. Weronka told us to write the first line of the poem we were going to make. So we did. Then he said that with every line of this poem that he read, we had to write down the first thing that came to mind and whatnot, under the first line of our poem. Which nearly everyone did. And while I was busy doodling in my notebook. I was his first victim to go up and read. I did. Quite reluctant I might add. And I read the first line of my poem, then he read the first(or was it second?) line of the poem that he had read to the class. And it went on like that. It actually came out sounding pretty good. Well, I'm going to end this entry here. You know what that means...See'ya.

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Written about Sunday 2004-09-19
Written: (7371 days ago)

And this will be the last entry of the day...Yes, aren't you happy? Anyways the following is something that just happend...o.O;;;

Dad:*tries to set the time on the new phone*
Matthew and I:*both watch*
Dad:*Curses wildly at it*
Me: *snickers*
Dad:...-.- *hands Matthew this glass thing*
Matthew:*looks at it*
Dad:Matthew, throw it at Stephanie. Maybe you'll kill her ass.
Me:...O.O....
Matthew:*looks at it and then at me**smiles*
Me:..o.o;;;...
Dad:*takes it away from him*Heh.
Me:...That woudn't have been the first time he threw something at me...

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