So yeah,I might be gone most of the day.Going to the doctor with la familia for my kid brother.And then after that we're going out to eat.Probably somewhere in Ontario,California.Duh.And the drive all the way there takes about 45minutes to an hour.So I don't know how long we'll be gone.And on Monday I don't go to school because I need to stay home and take care of Matthew due to the fact that both my grandparents need to go to the doctor/hospital and my parents can't take him with them.So I guess I'll be home alone with him for a while.Hope he likes cereal because I can't cook for shit.Microwave something,yes. Other than that...maybe a boiled egg and a piece of toast? o.O Or maybe a tortilla.I can do that. Or un taco de queso? Yeah, I can so do that.Eheh...<<;;; >>;;; Oh well, I'll see what happens. -.- Though I'll probably be chasing him around the house, slacking off with him on the sofa watching...Nick Jr with him. >.< Only thing that keeps him still for a while.Then again, he likes Ed,Edd,and Eddy. And The Rugrats...Lilo&Stitch is his favorite...so yeah.I'm willing to watch that instead.*blinks innocently**coughs*I need to go now...I think.^-^;;;

Luffs you all,
      Stephanie.

*hums to Saw Red by Sublime*Man, I want to go to KROQ's Almost Acoustic Christmas concert.... I don't care which day either.>.< It would be so friggin' cool...^.^
-The Following Bands are going to be performing at the concert(s)-
(Oh, and the ones with -->*<-- next to them...are some of my favorite bands..*sighs*I wanna go...)
December 11th
*Franz Ferdinand
Interpol
*Jimmy Eat World
*Keane
*The Killers
*Modest Mouse
*Muse
*The Music
The Shins
*Snow Patrol
*Taking Back Sunday

December 12th
*Chevelle
*Good Charlotte
*Green Day
*Hoobastank
*Incubus
*My Chemical Romance
Papa Roach
*Social Distortion
*Sum 41
*The Used
Velvet Revolver

So yeah,wish I could go.Seems pretty obvious,no?v.v Eheh,I keep looking at KROQ's website. ( http://www.kroq.com/kroqnow/kroqnow.html )Anyways,today's Thanksgiving...oh,happy joy joy.Meh.Whatever.Huh...I think I have to go to my grandmother's house later today.Mom's side of the family I mean.I hope they have Tamales..or some pozole.I hate turkey.>< My head hurts...and The Donor by Frank M. Robinson is starting to get interesting...so I'll just go off to read now.

Happy Turkey Day,
         Stephanie.

Heh, my vision is blurry, my hands are shaking, my head hurts...and I feel as if I'm about to pass out.Wonderful,no? Yeah well...life got fucked up again last night. Parents started fighting again...and I didn't get enough sleep or much to eat.*sighs*Meh...whatever...it's not important...I'll survive I guess....

*stares at last entry*Heh...I'm still hyper! Oh! And I got my grades today! ^-^ And not one is under a C! I feel so smart. XD Anyways, this is what I got.(Keep in mind that an E stands for Excellent and an S stands for Satisfactory)

Health: B E E
Algebra: A S E
Gym: B S S
English: B S S
Science: A E E
Culteral Awareness: B E E

My parents aren't going to kill me now! Because I got good grades. Yay! Well, what else? Um, I have to go to a Quincenerea tommorow. -.- Unless my mom changes her mind or something. But yeah...I have to go to a party.Fun...oh, and if I do go I'll be gone from 5:00pm my time until...later.Way later.*sighs*Hm...my head hurts. And I'm hyper. ^-^ And I feel like singing. And I'm thirsty too.*pouts**blinks*I can't wait for Christmas! I'm gonna be wearing a skirt!Oooh,the world is going to end. O.O That reminds me, I might have my pic up by next week. That's if Stacy let's me borrow her digi cam like she said she would. Anyways, back to the Christmas thing. Should I take a pic of me before I put on the make up or after? Because I'm planning on drawing these lines that come from the side of my eyes to the higher part of my cheeks. And lots of eye liner too. But I don't want to a wear a dress anymore. I'd rather wear a black skirt with fishnets, my black and white high top converse, some kind of band t-shirt and a long sleeved fishnet top under that. But that's just me. Well, I just want to get up and dance right now. I am listening to Reggae, Cumbia, Merengue, and Spanish Pop songs after all. ^-^ Well...I don't know what else to write so, adios!

Peace out(*giggles*),
           Stephanie.

Um...I'm bored...and...this song is on...and I feel like singing along to it...<< >>
K-i-s-s- me...
Uh, and I just wanna make...
Love, love, love ...
Ya, I love it when you say...
K-i-s-s me...
Uh, and I just wanna make...
Love, love, love...

*coughs*<<;;; >>;;; It's called U Make Me Wanna by Jadakiss feat. Mariah Carey. And I really love that song. ^.^;;; And...hrm...awkward...o.O...Er...LOOKIE!! MONKEY! O.O;;;*blinks*No, I'm not on crack...I'm on sugar! Woo! Sugar rush! *twirls*...*blinks and stops*...Stop starring at me! O.O;;; Eh...let's just continue with the rest of this...entry thing. ^-^;;;

Anyways,I almost passed out during science today. v.v And before anyone yells at me or anything...YES I DID GET SOME SLEEP AND I HAVE BEEN EATING!!! -.-I even fell asleep early too! And yet I'm super tired! T.T I've been forcing myself to stay awake, but then my mind begins to wander and I lose concentration on the lesson at hand. Which isn't good. I really need to pay attention in class. Well, maybe only in Science and Algebra. Health,English and Culteral Awareness are simple classes to pass. And not pay much attention. And yes, I am failing gym. So my parents are no doubt going to kill me. I'm just not that interested in gym. I'd rather much be doing something else. Plus, I don't dress. Every goddamn day that I have gym, I'm always in a bad mood and in a weak state of mind. Along with the fact that I'm in a zombie like state at that time. Tamera and Alex always leave me alone. And they don't even say bye. I have very good friends, don't I?I do hope you could tell that I was being sarcastic...o.o Yeah, well...what else? Oh yeah, I have to write another story for English. I'm currently thinking of some kind of plot, so to speak. I have to use the following words in the story though....

-Bliss
-Blithe
-Buoyant
-Complacent
-Convivial
-Delectable
-Ecstasy
-Elated
-Frolicsome
-gala
-Jocund
-Jubilation

Sadly, I know what all those words mean. I need a challenge goddamnit! Though no doubt if I get a challange I'll be wishing that I didn't. But that's me. Man, I better start on that story before it gets even more late. And I'm on the verge of placing my arms on the desk and laying my head on them and falling asleep. But alas, I cannot. I need to do Algebra homework as well and then take a shower.*blinks*Shit! I just rememberd! I have an Algebra test tommorow! And that damn class is going to be TWO FRIGGIN' HOURS LONG! >.< *sighs*Ah well...I better stop now. Hm, Adios! Mucho hugs y mucho kisses! XD *giggles*I'm so hyper!^-^...And lonely....*sniffles*;-;...So buh bye now.*waves*

Lurve you all xoxoxoxo,
     Stephanie.
a.k.a. (this might take a while)Steph, Stephy, Sol, Sunny, Sunflower, Sun child, Lady Sunshine(Don't ask for I do not know) Sunchips(given to me during lunch sometime in 8th grade, go figure.Someone was hungry)Sunshine, Steppy and some others that I can't remember...muchas gracias [cvg54] for all but one of those nicknames. And thank you Alex:[Ramirez] for Stephy...It's so cute...^-^

P.S. The last bit was written/typed out of pure and utter randomness...as was the beginning. << >>

I should really consider getting more than four hours of sleep a night. -.- I swear, in all my classes I feel really drowsy and it's so damn hard to try and keep my eyes open. Espicially when it's a block day and I have to be in a certain class for TWO.DAMN.HOURS. So you can imagine how much that sucks when I'm in a very boring class. That also means more chances of the class getting tests. Alot of them. And I can't fall asleep on the bus because, well, it's not safe.*nods*Nor is it a smart thing to do. Espicially if I'm sitting next to Stacy([Mistress of Darkness]). Which I always am mind you. And Kathy([Chickiss]) is always across or in front of us. That way we can all talk to each other. ^-^ But even then I tend to space out or get drowsy. I do not have hearing problems, I just choose to not pay attention. I had a hearing test...thing...today. And I passed. ^-^ Eheh, it got me out of Algebra so I didn't care. Though I thought the summons meant that I was in trouble or something. Why? I have no clue. Eh, I'm too tired right now to put anything else, so yeah...buh bye now.

Let's see...my siblings woke me up around seven or six this morning. After having gone to sleep around two. It took a while for me to go to sleep. As usual. So right now I'm feeling bitchy. Thanks to my siblings. Who are still fighting like idiots. And Matthew isn't helping either. Maybe he needs a nap or something.Ugh.My head hurts.Which in other words means that I'm feeling sick.Plus I'm really effing cold right now. And for some reason,I'm on the verge of tears. Oh for crying out loud!Meh, no pun intended.*sighs*Fuck this. I'm off. Bye.

Man,I'm so tired. And hungry. I've been having many cravings for different foods all week for god know's why. Even when I'm not hungry! And no, Jennifer. I'm not pregnant!*whaps with pillow*-.- Anyways, I have to type an essay for English. Not sure when it's due but Mr. Weronka(reminds me of Willie Wonka...*blinks*Now I want candy! Goddamnit!) informed us that he had to type the final drafts of our essays. During the weekend I'm going to collect more information to perfect my essay. I want to raise that B into an A. I don't want anything less than an A when it comes to English. My utter most favorite subject ever. Even though I will admit that that class tends to lull me to sleep. Well, close to going to sleep. I somehow manage to stay awake during most of my classes. Moving on, I had a somewhat bad day. Rather not talk about it. Though English and Culteral Awareness were cool today. Espicially when we got to watch Mi Familia during Culteral Awareness. That movies kicks ass! It's funny and sad. Almost made me cry. More than once too. @.@ Hm, right now I'm feeling kinda hyper. And in a singing mood. So I'll end this here. Adios.

So, um yeah...hrm...Oh! Hoy es cumpleanos de mi amor. *nods*I love him very much. Well, what else happend today? Oh yeah, Tamera and Alex actually kissed in front of me today during gym. That was not pretty. It was odd seeing them kiss. But I didn't mean too! They were sitting right next to me!*pouts*That's what I get for looking up from the book that I was reading. Even if I hadn't seen them I still would've heard them. It's sad that I'm stuck with them for two whole hours.I have no idea how I manage. I get so bored. @.@ Plus after gym we had lunch. And Tamera was all happy and stuff about what had happend. So, while I was eating she kept saying that his lips were soft and stuff. And I told her to shut up before I got sick. She laughed and kept going. So, I had a banana, yes? It was kinda big. I'm sure you can guess what's coming next. I peeled the banana. Lalala...broke off a small piece and ate it. Tamera noticed and started making really perverted comments. Which nearly caused me to choke on whatever piece I may have been eating at the time. Well, while I was drinking this juice that I had bought she continues with her comments. And, ew. They were so gross. Then she went back to talking about her boyfriend's lips. Yeah, that got annoying and weird really fast. Kathy asked me what Tamera kept telling me and I told her. In Spanish of course. Tamera still understood. So Stacy came in and said that I hadn't told Kathy by saying that I have a boyfriend too so I could've been talking about him.Though I have no idea if I would tell my friends if his lips were soft and stuff. o.O That really isn't their buisness,right? And why the hell would I even tell them anything like that in the first place?! O.o Oooh, for some reason I'm confusing myself. @.@ But yeah...that was it. I have no idea what else to put except that I'm hyper! ^-^ So...buh bye now!

Lots of "interesting" *coughsstupidcoughs* conversations today! ^-^ Espicially this morning. XD Wow...that convo was stupid...*points down*

Kathy:*telling me and Stacy about this show that she's watching*Okay, well in the show there's a guy who is all into the whole Alien type of thing and Alien abduction and stuff, and there's also this guy who was actually abducted by aliens who put this thing in his forehead or something-
Me:*interupts*In South Park they put it up his ass. *nods and blinks innocently*
Kathy:*tries not to laugh*O..kay. But we're not talking about South Park.
Me:I know.*rocks back and forth on my heels absently**stares at the bushes*
Kathy:o.O...Anyways, and there's also this lady who actually had intercourse with an alien...
Stacy:O.O...
Me:*looks up* HOLD UP! O.o How can she do freaky things with an alien? Oh my god...did it have a dic-*stops as people start to look at us*o.o....
Kathy:*starts laughing*N-no. The alien can turn into anything that it wants to.
Me:Ohhh...*blinks*
Kathy:Well, the lady had a baby and it-
Me:*interupts her again*It? Don't you know if it's a he or a she?
Kathy:-.- It's a he. But...ugh! Moving on!
Me:*smirks slightly at her annoyance*Uh huh...?
Kathy:Well the baby has special powers.
Me:Hm, it can turn into a cow, or a chicken, or a pig...?*trails off*
Kathy:No.He can control people.(I think that's what she said...o.O)
Me:Oh....*pauses*...It can turn into a cow and a chicken...*mutters to self*
Kathy:O.o....*starts laughing again*XD
Stacy:Eheh...XD
Kathy:You're crazy.
Me:...I know! ^-^ *hugs self*

Today at Lunch
Me:*singing random songs to myself**somewhat oblivious to the others*
Kathy:Ooh! Stephanie! Look!*shoves manga looking book about an inch or so from my face*
Me:*blinks and scans through the page**blinks again*What is she doing down there? And why are they...nekkid? And...what's that in her mou-O.O Ohhh...
Kathy:XD
Me:EW! PORNO!
Kathy:O.O Shh!
Me:Ew!Ew!Ew!
Everyone at our table:*stares at us*O.o
-Five minutes later-
Kathy:*shoves the book to my face again*(Why? I have no clue. -.-)Look!
Me:*stares at it*Oh my god...they have the "typical" dialogue when people do...the freaky thing! XD
Stacy:...? o.O
Kathy:*snickers*
Me:Huh...they have the sighs and the...whoa...they have the harder and faster thing too! O.O
Kathy:*snickers again*
Me:*yells out loud*Ah! Kathy! Stop showing me porno!!!
(And at the moment, half of the people in the lunch area turned around and gave us funny looks)
Kathy:O.O Stephanie! SHUT UP!
Me:EW! She has porno! XD
Kathy:*sinks down into her seat*Ugh...o.o
Me:*covers mouth and tries hard not to laugh*Pfft. XD
Tamera:You're mean. O.o
Me:Fuck yeah!*blinks*Hence the graphicness of the book of course. *smirks*
Tamera:And insane...-.-
Me:Whee! I know! Isn't it AWESOME?! *giggles*

I think some of my friends might say the term "evil" would fit best. But I'm not evil! I'm a good girl! << >>*coughsliescoughs* But yeah...I can't stop laughing. That's like....the fifth time I've done that to Kathy. XD Well, other than that today was a so-so type of day. Even though my parents are, yet again, fighting. Meh. Nothing new...*sighs and blinks*I don't have school on Thursday! It's, Veterans Day or something of the sort. But I do have Algebra homework to turn in tommorow so I'll stop now. Adios!

Mm...*stares at last diary entry*Forget that...forget all that bullshit...I need to talk to Alice...I need to get things cleared out...yeah, that's what I'll do. *nods and blinks blankly and listens to Hotel California* I'm tired...and my head hurts a bit. I should go to sleep soon. Oh, and I'm not going to the mall tommorow. I'm going on Sunday. Or whatever. Sometime then....and Kathy told me to get her the 7th Demon Diary. Which I am. With her money of course. I think I look a bit...less pale. Well, not much but it's something! >.< And I wonder if I should cut my hair...my long, soft and pretty brown(multi-brown...) hair...*twitches slightly*NO! NEVER! *hugs self*O.O My hair! My beautiful hair!*blinks*...That's the only beautiful thing about me anyways...o.O And maybe my eyes, but my hair I know for sure! It's so...prettyful...and soft...and...petable? O.o...Yes...my silky softness...XD...That sounds wrong...Oh my...I'm hyper.*blinks again*Yeah,that happens when I get depressed. I drink lots of soda and eat lots of candy. The opposite of getting drunk and doing drugs. << >>....Whee! Sugar!!!!!!!!!!!!*yawns and falls over**snuggles under blanket*...Shoo! x.x *falls asleep*

I need a hug...I really need a fuckin hug right now. Why do bad things have to happen? Why? Why does Alice say that she has cancer? Why? Can you tell me that? I so want to believe that it's a lie...but I don't know what to think anymore...and judging by the conversation/arguement that I'm having with Stacy...I am oblivious to Emotional pain and the death of a loved one....yeah...well how did I fuckin feel when dear friends of mine commited suicide?! Huh?! TELL ME!!! Yeah...I feel no pain. Nope. Nothing...I feel nothing...I cry for no fuckin reason...mmhmm...that's it...I shed tears for no reason...And for that...I'll wipe them away myself...

Whee...I'm so happy.*sighs dreamily*Yup,you guessed it...today's the fourth.Well, if you know me very well that you would know If not, then you don't know what the hell I'm talking about. Hm, I'll make it a little bit more clear. Today marks the day in which my absolutely wonderful boyfriend and I have been together for eleven months.Yes,almost a year. ^-^ So, as you can see...I'm very happy right now.And giddy.Ehehe...^.^ Mm, I love him so much...

Hrm...ignore my last entry. I wasn't...eh...feeling good. Well, I'm still not feeling good but yeah! Um...it might be a somewhat tolerable Halloween this year. I mean, my dad and I are going to tear some of my baby brother's pants, spike up his hair and so on and so forth. Woo! "Rocker" baby!*giggles slightly*Matthew is going to look so adorable. Just like that little boy at the mall! Oh my god, he was so cute with his wavy brown hair down the nape of his neck(almost around his shoulders), big brown eyes, black shirt, black shorts and black converse(high tops...like mine! Though smaller...^-^) on! He looked like he was three or four. Eek! He was sooo adorable! If only my mom would let me do that to my baby brother...*pouts*Hm, I think the..."rocker" thing comes from my dad's side of the family.*points to her uncle's and her dad*Though my aunt was a cheerleader...o.o And I guess my mom's side was the "preppy" and "gangster" side...Yes, I know that I'm using stupid labels. Sucks,huh? Well, yeah....my dad's part of the family is more noticeable in me while my mom's side is more noticeable in my brother and sister. Not sure about my baby brother...though everytime he's with me I'm listening to a wide variety of music. So who know's! Well, it's really cold right now and all I wanna do is snuggle under my blankets...Didn't get much sleep last night. I was plagued with nightmares most of the night. That's what I get for watching that thing about that real life exorcism on the Discovery channel...o.O That was creepy...there was some other type of nightmare that I have...but I'm too terrified by it to even talk about it...So yeah...I'm done...Hm...adios! Oh and Happy Steal Candy from your Siblings Day! I mean...Happy Halloween! <<;;; >>;;;

Just something that I saw on this website thing...<< >>
I'm trick or treating
A.K.A. eating
My little sibling’s candy
Tastes really dandy
This being older thing really comes in handy
This is so fun
Having my lil sibling do the work
Being older sure is a perk
Have fun trick or treating
While I sit here eating!

Halloween tommorow. Oh,goodie. God, I hate Halloween. It's just another day of the year for me. Another day in which my parents ruin. I mean, they fight all the time. They've fought during Christmas. Someone's birthday. And on my birthday of this year. Not sure if I even told anyone about that. But yeah, they fought. They ruined yet another one of my birthday's. Heh, they made me cry in frustration in front of a ton of people. And then just threw it all in my face. What makes tommorow any different? My brother and sister will just be hyper all day and even more annoying then ever. Not to mention the fact that my sister is already being extremely bitchy today. I can just imagine tommorow.. Goddamnit...kill me now, will ya? Or atleast cause me to get sick so I can stay in my room all day. Alone. While watching tv and listening to music. Like I do everyother day. Well, hope everyone else has a Happy Halloween. Just, don't go into detail about it with me. Just say that it went well or something. I'm going to be in one hell of a sour mood tommorow thanks to some people who won't leave me the hell alone. I'm tired...I wonder if I can sleep all day today up until Monday morning...Doubt it. I also have homework to do. Oooh! I know! I won't do any of my homework today so I can have something to distract me tommorow! That's what I'll do! Well, I'm leaving now..so..whatever. Bye.

Woo! The pizza's here! All five boxes of it! To make things a little more clear, today is my grandfather's birthday so my parents, aunts and uncles are going to make him a small party. So yeah...lots of soda and junk food. Oh! And chocolate cake! Eh, this makes up for tommorow and I guess Halloween. I don't do anything anymore so...well, yeah. Um, I made my group in Culteral Awareness get an 'A' today. I was the leader for today. I only became the leader because I was the youngest. The teacher decieded who the leader is by saying, "The person with the biggest hands is the leader" and so on and so forth.Hrm, I kept getting compliments by this Junior so I feel a bit flatered. ^-^ *hugs self* I feel smart! And my teacher kept telling me that I did a wonderful job. Today's assignment dealt with places with Spanish names, Latin Holidays, Latin actors and such. Plus we had to know what the names meant. For the places and holidays. And he told me, "You're Mexican-American so you should be able to finish this in a snap." And my group felt the same way. -.- But they all said that I did a great job plus we were the only group to finish the whole assignment and get an A on it. ^.^ Oh yeah! And today everyone was allowed to wear their costumes to school. Some guys actually came to school wearing skirts and other girl clothes too! And wigs and make up as well! Oh god, it was hilarious! And some other guy actually went as Michael Jackson. O.O...That was freaky...*snuggles under blanket*It's still cold right now so I'm gonna go and try to get warm now. Sooo...adios! ^-^

I feel really pissed off and worried right now. No, nothing happend to me. It's just something that happend while I was waiting for the school bus to come. I was with Cathy and Jose at the moment. Stacy had yet to arrive. Well, Jose had been talking to me and Cathy when he suddently walked away from us. Cathy and I looked over to where he was going and noticed this mob of people all in a circle. And in the middle of it all was that whore who was flirting with Alex and this other short girl. It looked like they were having some sort of arguement. And due to the fact that the mob was extremely close to where Cathy and I were standing, we didn't have to get near or anything to see and hear what was going on. Well, this is what happend. But first...let's see...I think that whore's name is Carla...I'm not sure...but eh! I don't care.

Carla:Man, you stupid whore stop crying. I haven't even hit you yet!
Girl:Shut the fuck up and leave me alone!
Carla:Hoe, I'ma fuckin kill you.
Bryan:*starts singing some stupid song about friendship*
Me:*glances coldly at him and tries to keep out of the girls buisness*
Cathy:*seems to be in the same predicament as me*
Girl:Shoot me! I don't care!
Carla:Oh, fuck you!*shoves her and starts walking away*
Girl:*takes off her backpack and tosses it to the ground*You stupid bitch!
Carla:*whirls around*Don't you dare call me a bitch,hoe. I don't fuckin look like one!
Me:*thinking:Oh, yes you do you damn godforsaken whore*
Girl:You do look like a bitch!
Carla:Yo Momma!(creative,no?)
Girl:Don't talk shit about my momma!(You know how it goes...-.-)
Carla:I just did!*says something else but I can't remember what*
Girl:Fuck you! These aren't my friends! I have no friends! They're your friends and that's the only reason why they hang around me. Everyone always says 'Oh there goes the hoe with the high heels and they don't even fuckin know my name! They don't know me! You don't even know what it feels like! So fuck you!
Carla:*shoves her again**continues talking her crap to her*
Girl:Man! Fuck this! I'm leaving!*grabs her things and walks away crying*
Me:*bites down on my bottom lip and watches her go**sighs and wishes I had done something to help*
Cathy:*looks down and sighs also*

Yeah...and you know what's fucked up? A bunch of people kept joking and saying that she was going to kill herself because she was depressed. I swear...I had to control myself. My hands were near to shaking and tears of anger and frustration filled my eyes. I wanted to hurt that whore for what she did. I really hate people like her. You are NEVER to crack jokes about someone who is depressed! Nor should you ignore them or brush them off! Espicially if your their friend! It isn't right! You aren't helping that person in any way! All your doing is making the problem even worse! I should know. I know how it feels. And I don't want her or other people to feel as if they have no one to turn to when they're feeling down. It's not right. Ugh...I'm skaking in anger right now. I need to stop. Adios...

Let's see, today this very smart senior named David asked for my help in this damn assignment that our class had to do. Keep in mind that he's the only senior in this class. It's an elective by the way. So yeah. Everyone else was like, "Oooh, David." and some other bull that I didn't take much notice. I agreed and that's what it. Oh, and I got my group yet another A. No big surprise there.*blinks*Oh my god, it's so cold!*hugs self tightly*I need warmth. I need a blanket. I need a hug. o.O But seriously, my arms,hands,neck,throat, and so on and so forth are cold. Well, to the touch. And to me! >.< *sniffles* And I still have to go take a shower. It's too cold. All I wanna do now is snuggle under my blankets and cuddle. With something. Or whatever. Like my plushie! Anything! *pouts* Not to mention sleep. I really need to catch up on that.*nods*Oh, and I got another A on another Algebra quix today. ^-^ And I was the first one to finish all the work. And to actually get it all right. And Colin didn't! That's a miracle. Poor guy*coughsyeahrightcoughs* was practically having a heart attack when he kept getting it wrong. Oh, and I'm also a bit amused...sorta. *points down*

Jasmine:Hey, can I see your folder?
Me:Hm?Oh, yeah. Go ahead.
Jasmine:Who is that? *points to a picture in my folder*
Stacy:It's Matt! ^.^
Jasmine:Your...? O.o
Me:Huh?*glances at it*Oh, it's this ex-friend of mine. I was suppose to give it to a friend of mine because she wanted it but she didn't come. I don't want it. Ugh.
Stacy:It's still Matt.
Me:Yes, but a different one. -.-
Stacy:So...?
Me:-.-
Jasmine:*points to this list of phone numbers that I have in it**giggles*So his number is first,eh? Your boyfriend that is.
Me:*looks at it*:Yeah, then it's Nicole and Stacy. Hey wait, why is Stacy third? It was suppose to be Garrett not her!
Stacy:*blinks*Hey! That's just mean.
Me:I know.
Stacy:...It's still Matt.
Me:Yes! I know! But it's a different one!
Jasmine:Are you sure?
Me:*takes the picture out, balls it up and puts it in Tamera's empty plate of Nancho's**grabs a piece of paper and uses it to press the picture into the cheese*(Ew) That answer your question?
Jasmine:*nods silently*O.O
Stacy:o.o....
Me:Good! ^-^

Yeah...I really didn't want that picture. I wanted it out my folder as quick as possible. He is an asshole. Ugh. *shakes head* Anyways,I have a lot of homework to do, so I'll stop. Well, adios! ^^

I'm actually in a good mood.Sorta. Funny, seeing as I had a bad day. -.- Must be the weather. Yeah, that's it. And the large coke that I bought.*coughs*Anyways! Um, I know that a ton of people hate me now! ^-^ For god know's why seeing as I've never done anything to those little non-virgin whores. See?! They're my goddamn age and they've already had sex! Whores, I tell you! Fuckin sluts...Espicially that little bitch who keeps flirting with Tamera's boyfriend. But Alex, the stupid fuck, goes along with it. IN FRONT OF TAMERA! I swear, I felt like beating the crap out of those two. And then Tamera and Alex got into some kind of arguement, made up and basically left me alone to deal with the herd of whores, who for some strange reason decieded to park their godforsaken asses right next to where we were sitting. And yeah, I knew that they were talking shit about me. Because, to them, I'm a "rocker." And those wannabe cholas no likey rockers. We scare them or something. Hm, I'll be glad to scare them even more when I kick the short whore's ass.(The one who was flirting with Alex. She was the main one talking about me.) Heh, I don't care about their petty comments. They don't know me. They don't know one goddamn thing about me. So I don't care. Though...I was pissed because they're always starring at me and Tamera. As though we've done something to them. Which we haven't!*pauses*Yet...

They maddog us or something. Feh. Doesn't scare me. Nope. It annoys the hell out of me, that's what it does. But, I know that I'm better than them. Way better. I mean, I'm not sleeping with around with a bunch of random male whores and putting myself at risk for rape or an STD. I'm perfecttly happy with what I got. And by that I mean my friends and boyfriend. And I'm also happy that I don't have to prove myself for anyone like they do. *hugs self*I love me.Well, when it comes to certain situations, yes. But other than that...not really. o.O But yeah...I feel like yelling at Alex for being such a bastard in front of Tamera. I should...Well, moving on. It might rain tommorow! A lot! ^.^ Well, here in South Gate. But it might not rain to where my school is located. Which really sucks major ass.Hrm, sorry for the language. >.< Can't help it. Eh, that's it for today. Buh bye now.

So...um...yeah...I had some of my dad's Margarita last night.*coughs* O.O In other words, I broke my promise to never touch any form of alcohol until I was old enough.I didn't mean to! >.<...I was just joking...o.o*points down*

Waiter:*brings everyone's Pepsi's and my dad's Margarita*
Mom:Let me taste it.
Dad:*passes it to her*
Mom:*takes a drink**cringes*Ugh.
Dad:*snickers and takes it back*
Me:Hey, what about me?*says jokingly*
Dad:*looks at me and that at his drink*
Mom:Eh,let her have some.
Me:o.o....
Dad:*shrugs and passes the glass to me*
Me:Um...
Dad:...?
Me:Um...*grabs my straw and puts it in the glass*...*takes a somewhat long drink and shudders*Ew...that tasted funny.
Dad:*snickers again*
Me:*takes the straw out and gives it back to him*
Dad:*takes a drink*You wussies. This isn't even strong.
Mom:Yes it is.
Me:....Can I have another drink?^-^
Mom&Dad:*stare at me*O.O
Me:I'm kidding. -.-

Um...yeah...that's it...And...um...what else?Oh! I almost accepted my parents offer. And by that I mean that I was going to tell them that I do need some type of help. I had the chance today...but I chickend out. As always. *sighs*...Hrm...I'm hyper...ish...hyperish! ^.^;;; Well I don't know what else to put so I guess that's it for today. Love you! Buh bye! ^-^ *sound familiar?Ehehe...*

I am officially depressed.Again...
No doubt many of you are sick of this by now. But, it just happens.And it's not all my fault. There's a good chance that many of those who are close to me have done something to harm me. Whether it be now or a while ago.*shrugs*Either way, I'm still depressed. If another bad thing happens, I am going to take my dads offer. And by that I mean that I'm going to agree on getting "help" and no doubt being put on some type of medication.Whee...I might be taking meds in the near future. Fun,no? I bet you're getting annoyed just reading this...too bad...yeah...a priest is coming to my house. Gonna bless it or something. Grandpa is really sick with cancer..so...yeah...*sighs and shrugs lightly*Don't worry if I'm gone for more than one day. Something...might've happend and I'm too lost in my self-pity and depression to do much. If you have my number....*shrugs again*Whatever. Not like I get phone calls often. If it's not because of my grandpa that I'm not on. It might be because of the following...

-I got in trouble.
-I'm in the hospital(either visiting or...just for me. And don't worry. I won't harm myself on purpose. It usually happens by accident. -.-)
-I somehow...die or whatever.(I mean, you don't know when it's your time to go..so...)
-Family Emergency
-Other(*shrugs*)

Yeah...there we go...well...next Saturday I'm gonna get some new clothes. So my dad said. And...guess that's it...bye now...