[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2005-01-25
Written: (7242 days ago)
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Myah...I'm tired. And I have a bit of a sore throat. ;-; I've been bothered by this since Sunday I believe.
Um, what else? Eh, school's been so-so. Except for what happened during gym on Monday. -.-

Well, here's the deal. Some moron sat next to me and started leaning against my shoulder while I was reading IT during gym. I jerked my shoulder away and tried moving away, but there wasn't much room so I had to stay where I was. Then he stretched and wrapped his arm around my shoulders.-. -I shoved him off and then he reached over and started stroking my arm and he tried to hold my hand in the process.>.< GAH! I wasn't even bothering anyone! What did I do to deserve the creepy harassment?! ;-; Jebus Christo...I am going to take [jaderii]'s advice though. If it happens again that is.*coughs*Don't ask. >> <<

I just noticed something yesterday while I was talking to [jaderii](who is friggin' awesome) on Elfpack yesterday. Well, I'm beginning to say "Jebus Christo, Myah, and Pyah..." a lot. Not sure why. O.o I think those are the only words. Can't remember. Um, yeah.

I think I should ask Erica(Not sure if she spells it Erica or Erika) if I can listen to some of her rock CD's on the bus. It's so dull there. >.< But I took my CD player and two rock CD's of mine today. So it wasn't that boring. Plus I spent the whole gym peridod reading IT and listening to Green Day and whatever came on on the radio. Though I couldn't hear much of the songs because of all the loud noise coming from the people sitting next to me.-.-

Mm, I have Algebra homework to do. And a poem to start working on for Matt. @.@ And...I need to finish the project for my Cultural Awareness class. And...a bunch of other stuff! Though I got one of the highest scores for the Algebra test that we took on Monday. ^.^ I think I'm the second or only person to have passed the quiz. I rock! XD

Oh yeah! Sunday was the day we finally had Matthew's second birthday party! ^-^ And [Mistress of Darkness](Stacy), [GABY!](Gabriela; Gaby), and [lasunshine](Adriana; Adri) came too! ^.^ It was so cool! And the cake was good too. XD We snuck a pizza box, some Pepsi, and grabbed a slice of cake and some ice cream each and went straight to my room. Adri told us(Well, me and Stacy, seeing s Gaby didn't want to hear) a scary story of hers. Which, I believe she said was real. But yeah, all in all, it was a good day. :3

Okay, I better stop with this now and start on my homework. @.@ So, adios!

Hasta Luego,
      Stephanie.

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Written about Friday 2005-01-21
Written: (7246 days ago)

*yawns*Ignore last entry...didn't make any sense at all. I know. Wasn't feeling good. Yeah, I was crying. Thinking about things that have been said and done tend to that to me. And yeah, I miss the people who I knew and cared for. May they rest in peace....

*rubs the back of her neck*Mm, side still hurts though. As stated in last entry. And I think the reason why as well. Well, not much anyways. And family is really starting to anger me. A lot. Then again, the girl thing has been making me really bitchy. More than usual. And sensitive too. Though, the reasons as to why I cried in the first place don't really have much to do with the mood-swings. Just, annoyance and depression as to what people tell me even after all the pain that they've put me through.*yawns again*Goddamnit.-.- I'm tired...

*hums to Pure Morning by Placebo*Love this song. Don't know why. I just do. Hum...lots of fucktards bothered me again today. All wanted to insult me. As always. Not sure why. I don't do anything to them.-.- And unless they can read minds, then they don't have a reason to be abusing me like that. Stupid fucks. I do that to myself enough, thank you very much. But that annoys me. A lot. *stabs bad habit*-.-Leave me alone. You cause nothing but trouble. And by that, I'm talking about my odd and low self-esteem...thing.

Yeah, yeah...I'm probably not making much sense. I miss Nancy...and my yearbook. Which she still has. But still, I MISS MY "HEAVILY MEDICATED" FRIEND! Who is scared of clowns. Except IT. Because she told me so. *nods* In the 8th grade. I even miss her clinging to me when normal and preppy people scared her. o.o

Hrm, I know what I want to do for my, what's it called again, Sweet Sixteen? Yeah, that. I want it to be...original. If possible. ^.^;;; Though I wish that a few of my friends here and Matt could go. That would be the greatest birthday present. EVER. Especially since I don't like getting expensive gifts. I like, simple and if possible, homemade gifts. But yeah...food is here. I need to go.

Until whenever my pretties,
         Steph.

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Written about Friday 2005-01-21
Written: (7246 days ago)

Eh, random thoughs that are going through my mind. It scares me...Monkies are cool though...Penguins are better...cuddle...>>;;;

Whee...
I need serious mental help...
My parents said so...
Countless times...-.-
Medication...?
And they want me to stay a virgin..
Forever and ever and ever...
I can promise until I get married(Heh! Funny! Me? Get married! How amusing! Well, not to me...)
If I get married...
Everyone will pity the groom...
I mean, I know people who pity Matt for being with me...
Which isn't funny at all...
Makes me feel bad...
Like, I don't deserve to be with him or something...
Because they think I'm no good...
For anyone...
Ha...
Sadistic idiots...
I am good for someone...
Hopefully him...
I pray I am...
Though I have my faults...
Which annoy me...
To no end...
But I know everyone has them too...
But...I don't think they're right...
Are they...?
I mean...they don't know me much at all...
I may be a bitch at times but...
I am loving...
Too much at times...
And I love him...
So then what...?
Bitches...
Nosey, that's what they are...
Telling me their b.s....
I need to stop thinking about that...
And other stuff...that...bother me...
Hm...
I should put my ideas for what I want...
For my "Sweet Sixteen" thingeh...
I know what I want...
Need Matt to go...
That would be fun...
And romantic in a way...
I'm such a hopeless romantic...
Now I'm moody again....
Which I wasn't before...
Surprised,eh...?
Mm...
Which the physical pain would leave...
Crying...can't stop crying. Damnit...
This week hasn't been very good...It's been hell...
And now I have tear-stained cheeks, an awful headache and a bruise on my side to prove it...
Heh...bastard...he didn't have to hit me so hard...
Need some poetic release...the poem that I just worked on didn't help much...
Maybe I should go to sleep...
I've been sleep deprived too long...
Awful things come to mind...
Bad thoughts...
Bad memories...
I wonder if they made it to heaven...
Are they looking down on us?
Showing pity...maybe? Concern? What...
Kevin...?
Wow...it's been a while since I've said your name...
I'm happy you had Stacy to make you happy...
It was so complicated, wasn't it Kevin?
The whole...you...Stacy and Henry thing I mean...
Wish you could tell me how it's like...after death...
I wonder if Kevin is with Henry, Tommy, and Jason now...?
The four best friends from what I learned from Stacy...
I'm huanted...
Very much so...
It's...scary...
And depressing...
Them...
Lying underground...lifeless...
Four free spirits now...
The best of friends...
All together...
Even after death...
Sorry for whatever mean things I said about you...
Byron...
Rest in peace...
Murder...so brutal...
Didn't deserve it...
Head hurts...
"Bittersweet migraine in my head..." as the song goes...
Green Day kicks ass...
Random song lyrics of theirs continue to come to mind...
Wonder why...
Wow...
This entry makes no sense...
And my side still hurts...
Though it's now turning into a numb sort of pain...
If possible...
Can't explain...
Mm...so tired...
I'll stop...
Adios....

"Waiting, for your modern messiah, to take away all the hatred, That darkens the light in your eye..." (Liberate by Disturbed)

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Written about Friday 2005-01-21
Written: (7247 days ago)

*hums*I'm tired. Really tired. Hm, I feel like writing another poem for Valentines Day. Even though I HATE the holiday. But what will I do with the poem? Hrm...I'll give it to mi amor then.^-^ If I write it that is. But if I do that, then I'll have to write some kind of poem for all my friends. Ooh, another challenge. ^.^

OMFG! XD I just finished listening to Addictive by Truth Hurts feat. Rakim, and dear god...I can't believe I used to sing along to this song so much. I mean, yeah I could understand some of what the lyrics meant, but...now...ha! I can't stop laughing. Okay, I was reading a Stephen King book when it came on. I would've been reading Carrie, Insomnia, Christine, etc etc but I couldn't make up my mind in the library, so I had to close my eyes and, well...pick. I landed on It(The only clown that Nancy, my "heavily medicated for your protection" friend, isn't scared of. >> <<) and yeah. I'm currently reading that book. It's good. I just haven't had much time today to read much. Anyways...what was I saying? O.o Oh, yeah...the song. Um....yeah, it doesn't sound right in my mind.Whee...<<;;; Well, look. o.o

{Verse 1: Truth Hurts}
He breaks, me down, he builds, me up
He fills, my cup, I like, it rough
We fuss, we brawl, we rise, we fall
He comes, in late, but it's, ok
He do, I do, he knows, the rules
He takes care of home, though he's not alone
I'm on, his knee, he keeps, me clean
And gives, me things, he makes, me scream

{Chorus: Truth Hurts}
He's so contagious, returns my pages
He's got me anxious, he's what I waited for
He keeps me guessin, spontaneous
He's so persuasive, and I'm his lady

{Verse 2: Truth Hurts}
Oh! Tonight he's waitin, and I ain't complainin
I'm entertainin, my number one fan
My back is achin, from our love makin
Oh yes I'm takin, ain't no use in fakin
My ups, my downs, my high and my lows
From head to toe, he makes me glow
He hits the spot, he makes me hot
I'm all that he's got, and he's all that I got

Eh, yeah.-.- Now it won't get out of my head. Nooo...! *sulks**blinks*My dad has a new memory card for the digi cam...I wonder if he'll put the program up now...>> And if not, too bad! I AM NOT putting back my first pick up.-.- I lookeh fugleh. Anyways, what else? Oh yeah, on Sunday we're having Matthew's birthday! And he can say "Love You" now! ^-^ Here is the list of all the words he can say now:
-Mine
-Bye
-Hi
-Mommy
-Papa
-Cookie
-Love You (Which tends to sound like "Lub You" and "Bab ou" *giggles*)
-Comida(Said by him as 'mida)
-Baby
-Aw, man
-All Right(Said "Aw righ'," yes, righ')
-Matt
-Matthew(somewhat)
-Gracias(again, somewhat)
-Niña
-Niño
-Peter(my kid brother's name)
-Car

And a bunch of other things that I can't remember right now...I ♥ Matthew! And no worries, I ♥ you all as well. (alt codes)^-^ Though mi amor, in a much different sense. ^.~ Whee! *blinks*Ahem...

*yawns*So tired...I should go now. Well, adios!

Con tutto l'mio amore(Italian for: With All My Love),
                      Stephanie.

P.S. You by Allen Anthony is a PERVETED song. O.O(With some of the things said in the lyrics that is.) Dear god...wow...um...o.o Jebus...( http://www.char-star.com/rb/y/you_aa.html )

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Written about Wednesday 2005-01-19
Written: (7248 days ago)

Warning:Really negative diary entry ahead. Proceed with caution. Oh, and apathy.



Life has been awful lately. It's been a major bitch on my part. Causing me more heartache, heh, more like heart break. It hurts. So much...that everytime I cry...I wish that my tears will be able to drown my sorrows...and this anguish that I feel. I've lost hope on being able to open up fully and having someone who will hold me and wipe away my tears. Without showing me too much pity. Or just pretending to care....and then being a total asshole. Eh, whatever. LIFE CAN FUCK ITSELF IN THE ASS WITH IT'S DICKSHIT CRUELTY FOR ALL I FUCKING CARE! Meh, sorry. I just want to yell right now. Scream away my pain. I can't do nothing about it. Maybe PMSing is making it worse. Though I don't think anyone wanted to hear it. Heh. Too bad. There's tons of things that people tell me that I don't want to hear, but you don't hear me complaining. Eh, life at home hasn't been pretty. Woo! Verbal abuse! And I don't think I want to go to Mexico anymore. I don't want to be away from you all. Though I know you want to be away from me! At least half of you. Ha. Meh, I wrote a new poem. A bit of a continuation to Demon Lover. Ehm, it's long. Lookeh...

Hurt Me
   by Stephanie Solis
   
Oh, my sweet heavenly torture
Give me pain
More and more
Rape the remaining innocence
Of my now battered soul
I'm your doll
To be used and abused
Come, my sweet, sweet misery
My heart's apocolypse...
That's how it feels
When all hope that I once had
Has left,
Leaving behind this scar...
So bloody and yet...
So full of pleasure....

Hello again...
My demon lover...
Here to break my heart again?
Or do you just want to pretend,
That everything is fine once more?
Before you inflict more pain,
And thus begin your sweet torture?
Oh, my love...
My sorrow...
So bittersweet...

I need the pain
Oh, how I crave it so
Being that it is
The only feeling that I know.
Where is the love
That everyone says they give me?
Where is the kindness
That they say they show?
How ludicrous.
Why can't they see...
That I have yet to receive it?
Or, maybe they don't know...
That it was never there to begin with.

My sighs of anguish
Shall fill this empty room
Found deep inside my heart and mind
The place that hides my secrets
And only I can find.
Demon lover!
Remember my words?
Of hate?
Of you?
Of everything that you and I do?
Let me feel your bittersweet kiss
Once again pressed against my lips
Maybe then my hate
My fears...
My pain...
My sorrows...
And all of the tears...
That I've cried...
For you...
And me...
Hell...for everything...
May pass onto you...
Once you feel my pain,
What will you do?

Slash your wrist,
Watch the red liquid flow
And maybe then
You will finally know
As my heart
And my soul
Wash away in this pleasurable pain..
Of my ending,
And your sweet suicide...
Until we meet again
My demon lover...

Yeah, it's an odd, stupid poem that makes no sense. I find it amusing actually. Mm...I don't know what else I should put. I bet some of you are pissed off at my negative emotions. Well, too effing bad. Deal with it. It's a part of me. And it won't ever go away. Unless you want to make it go. Heh, heal me? Or...break me even more?*shrugs*Ignore that. I'm tired. I haven't gotten much sleep in a long time. And I need to go. So, adios.

"Even though with all I've said and done...know that I'll always love you all. More than you may think,"
      Stephanie. 
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Written about Sunday 2005-01-16
Written: (7252 days ago)

I wrote a new love poem! ^-^ Still needs a bit more work though. It's a bit choppy.-.- Anyways, it's on deviantART now.( http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/14167114/ ) It's funny, I wasn't even listening to any love songs. O.o The idea just popped into my head. Well, here ya go. My newest love poem...thingeh.

Standing Still

With three little words
You swept me far away
Into this land of fantasy
Of love's beginning and misery's decay.

Whenever in your arms
I feel as if,
Time is standing still.
Whenever your lips brush against mine
I lose my nerve,
My sanity,
My will.

Time stands still
Every time I'm with you
Your soul and mine
Whisper soft words to our mind
'I love you.'
They say
Making our love,
Last another day.

Never again will we be lost,
From each other
For our love will last forever
Whatever the cost....
Sweet and innocent is what it is
Just like your lips against mine
In such a gentle kiss.

Time is standing still again
Our love has yet to reach it's end
So standing still in time
We say our vows of love
And smile...
For we know
That when time stands still
There is no time to cry,
For our love...shall never die.
Copyright©2005 Stephanie Solis

So...what do you think? >> << No need to tell me, I just got bored. Well, I'm sleepy so I'm off to bed. Nighty night my pretties! Or...whatever time it is. O.o

With lots of love,
          Steph. 

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Written about Saturday 2005-01-15
Written: (7252 days ago)

God only know's how many times I've cried. And today, he can just add another day. Yes, I cried. I cried a lot. And I don't want anyone bitching to me about it anymore. I'm sick and tired of it. Just like you're all sick and tired of me doing this bullshit over and over again. I don't care what happens to me anymore. That doesn't mean that I want to die or just end it. No, that would be selfish of me. You all know that sooner or later I'll be alright again. That's just how it is. But I really don't care about myself anymore. The only thing left that I'll ever care about are those who are close to me. Hopefully, they all know who they are. I don't know what the point in writing this is. I'm not going to even put down what probably caused me to write this. I can't express myself much besides with this usual crap. So I'll stop now.

Love you all,
       Stephanie.

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Written about Saturday 2005-01-15
Written: (7253 days ago)

Whee! Today is my baby brother's second birthday. ^-^ Happy Birthday Matthew! Though I'm not sure when the party is going to be. And I'm also not sure if I really want anything for my birthday now. If I go to Mexico, my parents will still fight. But this time, I won't be in the comforts of my home. And if we have my Quinceneara...the same thing will occur. Except, I'll be with my friends and family...and...blegh. I'd rather not have that happen in front of them. Well, I don't know what I'm going to pick. Possibly Mexico. Even though I'll be gone for two or more weeks. Don't miss me too much! Please note that I'm being sarcastic.-.- Anyways, enough of that. Hm...ah yes.

Happy Birthday Matthew!



I wuv my baby brother. ^.^

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Written about Saturday 2005-01-15
Written: (7253 days ago)

Let's see...I got to school at around nine today.*nods*My bus didn't come. XD Me, Stacy, and a bunch of other people who ride the bus had to wait from 6:45am until 8:20am to get a ride from another bus to get to school. It was hilarious! Well, for me.*shrugs* Hm, what else? Hrm, I had an alright day I guess. Though I'm still a bit stressed about all the work that I have to do. Oh, and I guess I'm not having a Quinceneara after all. I don't want to have one. Well, I do in a way. But..*shrugs again* I don't know. My parents and I talked about it. If somewhat. And we have decieded(for now) to go to Mexico for my birthday. Either that, or Orlando, Florida. Basically somewhere in the states. And I wanted to go to Italy or somewhere in Europe...;-; *shakes head*As I was saying, Mexico seems a bit better because my parents haven't been there since they were, a bit older than me really. And they miss home. Even though they came from Mexico when they were fairly young. SO THEY KNOW ENGLISH! -.- They taught me how to curse. <<;;; >>;;; Well, besides t.v and such. >> << But, the thing is that I might be gone for a while. Not as if anyone will really miss me much. XD *blinks*Ahem...what else? Oh yeah, I'm tired, and um, yeah. I have work to do. But I'll be here Monday! Whee! But then I go back on Tuesday...-.- I miss staying home for two months during the winter. Sorta. Except for the not having anyone to talk to because they're all at school part. >.< *yawns*...-.- I'm bored now, so I'll end this entry thingeh here...

Adeus(Portuguese for good bye...I think),
                   Stephanie.

P.S. I don't feel like checking for spelling errors. So nyah. Leave me alone. >>;;;

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Written about Tuesday 2005-01-11
Written: (7256 days ago)

Well, today I officially started school again. Even though I should've started yesterday. But my parents were stuck in Vegas and my uncle had to take my grandfather for his radiation thing. All in all, I had no ride to school. And plus, it was raining. Hard. Thus making it impossible to get to school. So yeah, my first day back. I can't remember much really. I didn't get much sleep so I was pretty much a walking zombie at school. @.@ But...NO HOMEWORK! And we got out early today. XD But it was so windy. My hair kept getting messy at school. >.< But this pretty nice "rocker" like girl talked to me. We talked about...Chobits. She's a bit hyper, that one. ^.^;;; But she seems nice enough. I still hate gym though. And Kathy isn't going back anymore. ;-; *sighs* Ah well..that's life. Um, what else? Ah yes, I don't feel well. I'm really tired and I felt a bit dizzy earlier. Blegh. Hm, that's enough for now. So, adios.

Hasta mas adelante(until later),
               Stephanie.

P.S. I don't feel like checking for any spelling errors and stuff right now, so deal with it. >>;;;

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Written about Friday 2005-01-07
Written: (7261 days ago)

*mutters darkly*I'm so cold... in so much anguish... yet... whatever. Ho hum... I wrote a new poem. A new twisted as hell poem which I have titled Demon Lover. And no, it has nothing to do on loving demons. ._.;;; Just... see for yourself. IT'S SO CREEPEH! *laughs ebilly*...I mean...evilly...or whatever. >>;;; *dives under blanket and hides*SHOO! <<;;;

Here's the link thingeh--> http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/13873121/

*reads poem over again*...Yeah, it's odd. O_O;;;.... -.- I don't know what's wrong with me. And don't worry! I'll be fine! Please don't get mad at me and make me feel worse about myself. *twitches slightly* Forget I said anything. Gah, my hands are freezing. I need to go...*blinks* DONUT!!!! Maybe my mood will improve...DONUTS! Mmm...donut. >>;;; Now I'm in any angsty hyperactive mood. Creepeh...O.o But yeah, I gotta go now...Oh, and [_Shadow_] I know you're reading this...LEAVE ME ALONE! You don't scare me. And there's no way in hell that I would allow the things that you said to me to take over my mind. So nyah! You stupid fucktard. *twitches again* Ignore that too. So...nyah! I am soooo out of it. Damn n00bs bug me to much. <<;;; Hm...DONUT! *huggles it*MY DONUT! MINEMINEMINE! It's so...donutty damnit! Heh...nutty...I said nut...*coughs and blushes greatly*Stop looking at me!!!! >>;;;...Bye now.

Until next time my pretties,
              Stephanie.

P.S. NICOLE IS MY SEXEH BIZNITCH! >>;;; AND VICE VERSA! XD

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Written about Thursday 2005-01-06
Written: (7261 days ago)

Ozomatli is soooo cool! ^-^ And I was looking around their website and...*sighs quietly* I can listen to some of their songs!!!! Though I don't think I can listen to Love and Hope. >.< Which is one of my favorite songs. T.T But I can listen to Believe, Saturday Night, Street Signs and Te Estoy Buscando. ( http://search.yahoo.com/bin/search?p=Ozomatli )

And I found the lyrics for Love and Hope. ^-^ Well, part of it anyways. >>;;;

Verse 1
A child looks up into my eyes nothing to say
An open hand with scars can't hide the pain away
What I can do is not enough to help him grow.
How can I fulfill his needs? Embrace his soul!
The hope deep in his eyes are dreams he must let fly.
So sing this song with me, a hopeful melody.

Chorus:
Just raise your head up and stand up no fear in your eyes
Tell me, "Love and hope never die!"
So raise your head up and stand up no reason to cry
'cuz your heart and soul will survive.

Verse 2:
The child struggled to survive know he's a man,
With children of his own he does the best one can.
Tries to live with love and not let sorrow grow,
Even though he barely reaps all that he sows.
The hope deep in his eyes are dreams he must let fly.
So sing this song with me, a hopeful melody.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yeah...I love Ozomatli. They're so cool. :3 And I want all of their CD's. >.< (Ozomatli, Embrace The Chaos, Coming Up, and Stree Signs.) Oooh! And the lyrics for Sturday Night are pretty cool too. To me anyways. <<;;;

Chorus: Dip, dive, socialize, get ready for the Saturday nite

Verse 1
Imagine wakin up solidarity is evident
Harmony rules time is irrelevant
People to places the message basic from raised fist to sit in resist to change shit
Peep this scenario to the future bro
2020 and some number of year ago
People rose up governments froze up
World wide block party everybody shows up
Up on rooftops, ghettos and hotspots
People celebrate no more souls rot
No more bloodshed over false deficit
Even hip hop gets a fuckin face lift
The latest fashion, stock markets crash in
It’s Saturday time to get the party crackin
If the time and the day is right
The revolution will begin this Saturday nite

Chorus: dip, dive, socialize, get ready for the Saturday nite


Verse 2
Futuristic I'm killin em with every synonym
Sending em back with syllable venom up in em
Too terrific epitome of a pendulum
Digital rap got animal stamina in him
Son your soul and back bone where the clap come from
Action jackson matter of fact we...
Move you from the front to the back see
Plug us up and then bump this new fat beat
When this drops stores out of stock on me
Shop til you drop homie that's not me
Rush and attack from the back on 3
Stop on beat, shout world peace
Live from the block love peace oh please
We don't need bouncers or police
It’s Saturday night its nothing better
Spread the word that we coming together so come and help me now!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ah well...um...I have nothing to say about today so far so, um...bye.

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Written about Saturday 2005-01-01
Written: (7266 days ago)

Whee...I'm so happy right now. I got a tamale. =3 It was so good. ^^

And of course, Matt and Nicole called today. Yayness. ^-^ It was so cool. I got to talk to my love and my mommeh babeh. Nicole sounds pretty! And she is! ^-^ That made my day. ^.^ And I gave Casey a new nickname; Kappu-san. ^.~

Though I got two messages with some jerkoff's asking me if I wanted to cyber once I came back online. -.- Gah! Stupid fucktards. >.< And on elfpack...THREE people asked me that. Two guys and one "girl." Who no doubt is probably some deperate guy pretending to be a girl. As always. But I must say my Elfpack house is quite nice. Makes me seem smart. XD

Uhm...what else? I don't know. *shrugs* I'm tired and cold. And I don't have much time left on. Ugh. Oh yeah, I think I have two stalkers now. XD Not exactly, but they know where I live now. Cool. ^.~ *giggles* XD Kind of odd really. Yet amusing for some reason. o.O

Anyways, I need to go now. Soooo...adios!

Feliz Año Nuevo,
      Stephanie

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Written about Thursday 2004-12-30
Written: (7268 days ago)
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:: And now another diary entry from yours truly...Whee! X3 ::


I HATE DIETS! ESPICIALLY IF YOU THINK A DIET IS WHEN YOU STARVE YOURSELF! God! ._.;;;
Anyways...I had an okie day. =3
(How's that for a fast mood-swing,eh?)
Uhm, Casey gave me my gift yesterday. ^.^ It's so pretty! Thank you again, Kappu Kappu! X3 She's the greatest. She's...my guardian angel. MWUAH! ^-^...Kwee! XD

<< >> Let's see, what else? Ah yes! I seem to enjoy calling Nicole Mommeh Babeh now. XD And only I can because I'm her baby girl, so nyah. X3 (Wuv you mommeh babeh!)

*hums to self* I found lots of new web comics today! ^.^ Yay! And I saw Shaun of the Dead yesturday....THEY ATE HIS GUTS! O.O And I'll stop saying that because it's so icky and I probably won't get much sleep again. XD

Um, I have no idea what else to write...so...hugs and kisses to mi amor and all my fwiends. I LOVE YOU ALL THIS MUCH! *opens arms wide* XD AND MUCH MORE TOO! ^.~

Adios now! Hugs, kisses, and many glomps, huggles and cuddles,
                 Stephanie.

P.S. We are so silly and naughty Kappu...Señorita Correa...XD (inside joke)

P.S. #2 Pilz-E KICKS ASS! XD And no...I haven't been drinking, doing drugs or poppin pills like my favorite squirrel...O.o...Wierd-o's.

P.S. # 3 ....I WUV MY KITTY! Mineminemine! X3 *snuggles Blaise*

P.S # 4....Has anyone seen my Sharpie? ;-;

P.S # 5 *shrugs* Me nono...I'm just hyper...Woo...eth! XD (Casey know's what I mean...eth. Lol.)
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Written about Saturday 2004-12-25
Written: (7273 days ago)

Feliz Navidad!

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And Happy Holidays.


Yeah, Merry effing Christmas. Eh, sorry about that. I'm cranky right now. Fell asleep super late and was forced to wake up super early. Oh, and Christmas has been lingering between awful and okie since yesturday. I spent half of the evening watching Foamy the Squirrel videos. Whee! Squirrelly wrath! XD (For those who don't know what I'm talking about...--> http://www.illwillpress.com/vault.html )Um, yeah...I saw a war movie with my uncle and cousin Gloria(who is a month younger than I). And it was not pretty. I don't know how watching two guys get parts of their limbs blown off counts as celebrating Jebuses Birthday. And my cousins Anthony and Jesus were off shooting with their BB guns. I AM RELATED TO JESUS! FEAR ME! *blinks*No...not Jesus Christ. Jesus Robles Jr. That's who. o.O And he's Gloria's twelve year old brother. Who is also perverted. Then again, it's genetic. Seeing as whenever an adult would open their present...someone would shout out, "IT'S A THONG!" (or g-string )o.O Yeah, that caused an uproar of hysteric laughter.O.o Anyways, my parents took pity on the younger kids and opened the presents at around eleven. Well, there was lots of food, junk food, soda, alcohol, and family. Only a small portion of my big, crazy, Mexican family though. Well, I'm bored. And I did enjoy all the presents that I got. Espicially the poems from Matt and Nicole. ^-^ And I'm sure I'll enjoy Casey's prezzie too. *snuggles them all* ^.^ Well, this is what I got:

From my Relatives: $130 in total
-Misc gifts from them:
*A Nightmare Before Christmas Glass clock from my aunt Lupe and my cousins
*Christmas cards (that had the money in them)
*A cool bag with body lotion and a shower gel(thing) from Victoria's Secret...o.o from my aunt Maria
*A small black stereo from my Uncle Tony(he gives the best gifts EVER ^-^)
*A KROQ Calender that came with a CD from my Uncle Joel (who also gave me money)
*A Black bag from my great aunt. ^-^

From my Parents: $20 that they are going to give me later on.
*Some cool faded jeans
* A The Used band tee
*And these cool Happy Bunny slipper socks that say Cruel but cute so I'm worth it on them. XD

Other Special Gifts:
*A poem from Nicole. *glomps*My mommy...^.^
*A a surprise prezzie from Casey. *snuggles*Hehe..my guardian angel! Woo! ^^
*And this cute little poem like thing from Blaise. *cuddles*Mah kitty! =^.^=

My sister got a Gameboy SP...O.O WITH TWO FRIGGIN GAMES!!! Eheh, me and my cousin Gloria kept saying that we never got any Gameboy's when we were little. And when we actually got ONE(each), we had to share and they ended up broken or lost. -.- Anyways, just found out that my grandma had tamales. SHE WAS HOLDING OUT ON US! >.< Anywho, I need to go clean now. Adios! ^-^

With love and best wishes,
              Stephanie.

P.S(to Nicole):I'd mail you some tamales but they would spoil. @.@

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453057  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-12-22
Written: (7276 days ago)

Eh, I'm so tired right now. And bored. Oh, and slightly cold too. I should really start on that essay for English that's due on the first day that I go back to school. But I don't want to right now. After Christmas. Maybe. Um, yeah. After Christmas. That's if I don't forget. Which I probably will. Hm, I think I'm going to go play GTA:San Andreas on my PS2 now. Poor negleted PS2...think I'll go and pay it a visit. Though I really wish I had a Mortal Combat game to play(Like Mortal Combat:Desception...oooh). I mean, shooting the heads off of hookers on GTA:San Andreas can only be amusing for so long! *coughs*<<;;; >>;;;; Yeah, I don't really do the missions unless I'm really bored. Like now. Hm, I want to play Soul Calliber II or some Final Fantasy game right now though. Passed Kingdom Hearts way too many times to amuse myself by playing it. *sighs* God, I hope my brother gets some good games this year.-.- Hm, well I need to go now. Buh bye!

Peace, love, and whatever comes after that,
                     Stephanie.

442470  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-12-12
Written: (7286 days ago)

There's gonna be a parade by my house today. ^-^ Which means that I'll be gone for a while. Parents are making me go. And after that we're going to the mall do finish up with our Christmas shopping. So, I don't know if I'll be on later today.>.< But Friday is my last day of school. ^-^ Anyways,yeah, I'm leaving soon. I think. Nevermind. I do have to go now.*sighs*Well, buh bye now.

Love you all,
        Stephanie.

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Written about Saturday 2004-12-11
Written: (7287 days ago)
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I FINISHED WRITING MY LOVE POEM! ^-^ I want to show it to mi amor, but he probably doesn't want to talk to me right now, and I want to show it to Alice...but I think she hates me for god know's why...so...eh...here you go...my first love poem ever....which can also be found on deviantART...and..yeah...

Love Me

Say that you love me
And seal it with a kiss
Wrap me in your arms
Put me in total bliss
Whisper sweet words
And tell me I'm yours
Close yours eyes
As I close mine
We'll be together
Until the end of time
Forget all the fights
The words and the tears
We'll have each other
To push away all our fears
Just say that you love me
Again and again
And I'll say the same
Again and again
Hold me close
Lock your hands in mine
Because baby I told you
We'll be together
Until the end of time

There you go. A love poem by yours truely. I actually like it. ^-^

441625  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2004-12-11
Written: (7287 days ago)

Writing a love poem...*blinks*DON'T GIVE ME THAT LOOK! o.O << >> Okay okay, I'm trying to write a love poem. Better?*sulks* Along with another random poem. Oh, the randomness. Whee! I'm hyper! XD *giggles*...*coughs*Ahem...yes...I'll go now...<<;;; >>;;; *goes back to writing*

441507  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2004-12-11
Written: (7287 days ago)

You know...I should write a poem or a story on how just big of an idiot that I am. I never know when to close my mouth from talking to much or when to open it when I must talk. I should go back to being mute. That way no one would get annoyed, angry, or hurt by me. And vice versa. It worked well before. So it might work now. I don't know...Meh...whatever...I'm just an idiot who can't shut up at times and can't talk at other times. And one who cries and get moody easily. Except now. I'm mostly numb. So...whatever...I'm going now...

439868  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-12-09
Written: (7289 days ago)

Wow...Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson is a goddamn good book. I can nearly relate to the main character, Melinda. Except for the whole getting raped by a senior thing.*shudders* But it is a cool book. Made me laugh and feel depressed at the same time. Heh, I sorta feel like crying right now. But not because of the book.*shrugs lightly*I'm also really tired right now...and I actually dressed for gym today. Miracle. But I don't have homework so yay!...Though watching Kathy cry didn't make me feel any better. Seems as though we have more in common than I thought. Except for a few things. Such as...no, I'm not going to say anything. I'll just put myself in an awful mood which is something that I don't want right now. Hm...my grandpa is still in the hospital.And I don't know what else to put except that I'm starting to feel a bit hyper...and I have a popsicle! ^-^ It's starting to get a little hotter here in South Gate(and no doubt other places too)...*sniffles*;-;...Well, that's enough of that...<< >> Buh bye now...

Lots of wuv,
      Stephanie.
     

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