Well, I didn't go to school today. I'm sick with a cold and I have to go to the doctor. I tried calling Stacy yesterday to tell her, but she didn't pick up, so she's probably going to call me later once she gets home from school. Unless she didn't go either. Ah well, I'll find out later. Maybe.

I feel like ranting. Mainly because I'm tired of all these changes that don't seem like any form of change. If that makes any sense. Yeah, I'm tired of false hopes. I've been getting a lot of those lately. I'm sick of it too. And I blame my depression on mental issues...>>;;; And...girl stuff. XD *coughs*And also the things people say and do to me on a daily basis. And really, if you want me to shut up about it, just...tell me. Gently. -.- I'm a fragile person. And don't make me feel worse. PLEASE!!! *sniff*...*whimper*<< >> Anyways, yeah, all of them together make...bad things? O.o And...I have no idea what I'm saying anymore...Um, NO SCHOOL FOR ME! WOO!...But I'm lonely...;-;

Whee...I'm hyper. I shouldn't have sugar cookies for breakfest. And I shouldn't have washed that down with the juice that makes me really hyper. It's a no-no. And my nose is stuffy.-.- I can't stop sneezing. And I'm in pain. And I need to stop whining. >.<

I have a baby! XD ....Named Baby. O.o It's a baby giraffe plushie and I wuvs it so. ^-^ Even though Matthew thinks it's a squishy thing that needs to be squished. -.- MY BABY! >.< Um, yeah...with my voice, I would probably sound very odd saying this. X3

*yawns*Ugh...I'm thirsty now.-.- And...I'm tired. And I'm complaining again. o.o Ah well, I should go now. >> << Adios!

Amazing how fast a good mood comes and goes. Ah well, it happens. Hrm, went to the mall today. Got some new things. New pair of shoes. ^-^ Black and white Vans. Because my other ones are starting to get worn out. That and they were the only pair of shoes that I had. O.o

Oh! And I got Nicole's prezzie today. God I hope it fits and god I hope it doesn't break when I mail it.-.- I still need stamps though. I'm going to ask Stacy if she can buy them for me. Seeing as my mom is now home all the time, and I can't really go anywhere without her being nosey. I'll just give Stacy the money to buy them. Or I'll ask her if she has any. But the prezzie is pretty. And green. And pretty. Just like the person who I'm going to give it too. ^-^


Oh! And I also got two new mangas. W Juliet Vol. 1 and Aquarian Age: Juvenile Orion Vol. 2. And I still have some money left over. Yay!

Well, I'm feeling a bit tired right now. And I think I'm catching a cold...*sniffles*...;-;...So yeah...Adios.

I don't feel so good right now. My stomach hurts, my head hurts, and I'm tired. Oh, and because there will be a chance of rain, and because my sister has Saturday school, we aren't going to Six Flags or whatever. I think we're going to the mall and then we're going to take her out to eat. And, yeah...

Oh, and before I forget...

Happy Birthday Vanessa!

Had a science test today. I believe I did pretty good on it. Even though I couldn't remember crap. Plus, I forgot the homework that I had to do for my Life Skills class. -.- I can still turn it in on Monday, but my grade may go down. I think I left it in my Algebra book. I need to go check. Ick, Algebra homework and a test tomorrow. The horror.-.- There goes my 'C.'

My legs are still sore from yesterday. I am so out of shape. XD My mom said that she and I may start going to the gym. I think she's trying to tell me something. O.o But, she then asked if I wanted ice cream. o.o Oh yeah, we are so gonna make it through that. XD

Ooh! Tomorrow's the fourth. ^-^ And then on Saturday, it's my sister's birthday. So, I may not be on that day. She wants to go to Six Flags, so yeah. We're not sure yet.

Now I have to go work on my homework, so bye bye now.

So, yeah. I think I have the first part of my Life Skills homework done. And that's the whole high school plan...thingeh. This what I've chosen for now.

10th Grade: Fall
English 10A
World History: 1A
H. Geometry 1A
H. Biology 1A
P.E 1A.
Spanish 1A

::Spring::
English 10B
World History: 1B
H. Geometry 1B
H. Biology 1B
P.E 1B
Spanish 1B

11th Grade: Fall
American Lit.
U.S History 1A
Algebra II 1A
Chemistry(Or Physics, whichever) 1A
Photography 1A
Spanish 2A

::Spring::
Cont. Comp (too lazy to write the actual thing...)
U.S. History 1B
Algebra II 1B
Chemistry( " " ")
Photography 1B
Spanish 2B

12th Grade: Fall
AP English 1A
Princ. of Am. Democracy
Calculus 1A
Calligraphy
Internet Publish 1B
Work Experience

::Spring::
AP English 1B
Economics
Calculus 1B
Digital Imaging
Internet Publish 1B
College Class

That's it at the moment. It's bound to change later on, of course. But this what I want for now. I'm hoping for some honors or AP classes as well. I already know what I want to do once I graduate from high school. Two years of community college where I'll hopefully transfer to a university. Hopefully. Many of the classes that I wanted, I couldn't put for now. Seeing as we have to take a computer course now. I wanted Auto Mechanics, in case my car broke down(What car though? O.o) and I didn't have a cell or anything. XD But eh, I can learn later. I also wanted Home Ec and creative writing...and...I'll shut up now. >>;;;

Anyways, what else? Oh yeah, the seniors who came to school every day last semester got an ipod during an assembly held during the first hour of third period today. -.- I had no idea my school could afford 19 ipods... O.o *blinks*Damn...59 messages on deviantArt...>.<

Hrm, what else? Oh yeah...

Happy 15th Birthday Nancy!

*sniffs* My head hurts...;-; And I'm tired.-.- I only got like five hours of sleep last night. Drama, my friends, lots and lots of drama. But anyways, I guess I'm a bit better now. Woo! >> <<

Hm, I'm already thinking of what classes I want to take in the 10th, 11th, and 12th grade(s). Mainly because that's what I have to turn in for my Life Skills homework. >>;;; But yeah, I know I want to take an English AP class. And I know I want to take four years of math. At least up to Calculas(I can't spell...XD). I'm not sure yet. Oh! And Photography as well. *nods* Yup yup. And I've heard of this Intro To Psychology class, so...yeah. ^.^;;; Oh! And three years of Spanish for Spanish speakers. If I can that is.

I'm not sure about the rest, but...heh. Hrm, I can't wait for June 27th. The last day of school for me. YAY! SUMMER! ^-^ (Even though I sorta hate summer because it gets so hot here in Southern California...-.-)

Ah, crap. I have homework to do. Two for Life Skills, one for Algebra...and I forgot the rest. Wow, aren't I smart? >.< Eh, I'm bored now...so I'm gonna stop with the typingness. Adios.

I know you're going to read this Jen. I know you stalk me here on Elftown(whenever you stop using your brothers username and go on yours)...XD STOP WITH THE TOUCHY TOUCHY! O.o You ebil child molester! ;-; When I say I want to be held, that doesn't mean that I want to be groped! O.O *sniffs*I feel so violated sometimes...-.- No wonder you can't keep a boyfriend. Or girlfriend. Or...both. *coughsskankcoughs* >> << But, yeah...making fun of you is fun. But anyways, this is what you get for saying all the crap....and acting like a child molester...>>;;; And no, I don't want you to be my bitch. Or vice versa! o.o;;; Anyways...bye bye now. >> <<

Damn, did I wake up annoyed...Heh, ah well...I'll comfort myself out of it. Doubt anyone really wants to help. I don't think I shoudl've came on. I should've just stayed in my room and finished up on my homework. Blegh...mental stress is a pain. Everything is annoying me now. Not everyone. Everything. And now I feel like crying...meh...whatever...I'll just go...

My god, I am such a fucking idiot. Casey...I'm really sorry if I worried you last night. I really am...you know me...

I'm so tired right now. I didn't get much sleep last night. I hardly do anymore. I can't believe I thought that everything would be alright. All lies as always. Like everything would be alright here. Yeah right...I should've known. But whatever...I can always leave once I turn eighteen. Though I might be faced with a different kind of pain. You never know...

I can't believe I wanted to end it all last night. Well, yes I can. But anyways, so close yet what good would that have done? If I killed myself that would've been a very selfish, stupid, and cowardly thing to do. It would've just caused pain to those who do care about me. That's it. I'm telling my parents once my dad comes home that I need to get special help. I need someone to talk to. Hell, a stranger might work because they won't know crap about me and they won't cause me emotional pain because we don't know each other. That might work. I just need to let everything out before I reach the breaking point. So close yet so far...And god do I hate crying. I cried so much yesterday and this morning. Blegh...And my left arm still hurts. I practically tore into it yesterday with my nails...ugh...

I guess I'll work on my homework soon. I need something to pass the time. Well, sorry for those who actually read this. I'm not a very happy and smart person at the moment. Hardly ever am unless something good happened or I'm hyper. Or someone drugged my drink/food. Whichever. Anywho. I better go now. Gotta finish cleaning...

The fork is your master! XD *giggles*
http://www.deviantart.com/view/15528495/

Anyways! Um, yeah...>> << Too much Pepsi. XD Caffine! MEH FWEIND! XD *yawns*O.o...Yeah...school was boring. *nods*Had a test for Algebra today. *nods again*I probably messed up on it. *sniffs* -.- Ebilness...

*yawns again*-.- I had no idea that I had English homework that was due today until my English teacher told me. But I had been, eh, crying so he said I could turn it on Monday. I'll work on it tomorrow. It shouldn't be that hard.

Lets see, what else? Oh yeah, I spent all of Gym with Brenda, Rodrigo, Chris, Steven and some other guys. Basically, me and Brenda were the only girls. And I'm quite used that really. Since I was a tomboy in elementry and most of middle school(still am, but eheh...) most of my friends were guys. ^.^;;; I'm used to their stupid talk, but that still doesn't stop me from calling them sex crazed pigs. >> <<

Anyways! Steven and...the other guys like anime and manga. And video games. And...making fun of each other. O.o I felt sorry for Steven. But he's pretty cool. Most of them are...odd. But that's even more cool. Strange people rock. Eheh. >> <<

Hrm, me and Stacy talked to Colin a bit during Algebra. He spent most of the conversation telling us that he knew two langauges. And he said they were English and redneck English. O.o Then he started using some examples and yeah.... o.O And then me and Stacy started telling him that he could probably fit in if he went to Mexico. Well, if he went to the parts were there were a lot of blondes that is. As long he kept his mouth shut, he could fit in. We all laughed at that. >>;;;

But other than that, school was pretty dull. Not much went on. Oh yeah! Stacy burned me some new CD's. One, well two, of which were Young Lust: The Aerosmith Anthology. MINE! *huggles it* >> <<

So yeah...I'm pretty bored right now and I have no idea what else to put. Besides the fact that I need to get some stamps and an envelope for the letter that I'm writing to Nicole. Meh sexeh mommeh babeh. XD I'm still looking for a gift that'll fit inside though.-.- And I want more Pepsi...so...bye now! ^-^;;;

Just another bad day....

Didn't get much sleep last night. Once again. Damnit. I'm really tired. Trying to stay awake in class today was hard. I just wanted to lay my head down and sleep for an hour or so. Eh, thankfully I finished half of my Algebra homework during class. I really hope I don't mess up on the test. The material is simple, but my mind just goes blank during a test. Oh, and some English homework too. Simple stuff.

Gym for two hours. Ugh. I hate Gym. But at least I have someone to talk to. Brenda. She's cool. But, Rodrigo is there too. Ah well, it's not important. He's not that annoying, I guess. Heh, but there was a bee on my arm during gym. That was amusing....

Rodrigo:There's something on your arm.
Brenda:*looks at both of her arms*
Rodrigo:Not you. Stephanie.
Me:*blinks and glances at my left arm*Oh, it's a bee...
Brenda and Rodrigo: O.O *both jump up and back away slightly*
Me:*flicks it off absently*There. It's gone. I guess I shouldn't have worn that rose perfume today.
Brenda:O.O...I hate bees. >.<
Me:Same. ^-^
Brenda:O.o...

Heh, yeah...Oh! And Jasmine brought a Fruits Backet DVD to let me borrow. I'm going to watch it later. An hour or so before I go to "sleep." Eheh...

I don't feel like talking about my day. I'm not in a bad mood anyways. Even though I had a bad day. Well, not yet I suppose. We'll see. Hrm, I feel like writing a new poem. So, yeah. That's enough for today.

Fino A Piu successivamente(Italian for Until Later, or so I believe.),
Stephanie.

Oh my god, I am so cold. It's been raining like crazy. I think we got a total of two years worth of rain here in Southern California. Or so I heard. And when I got to school, it was pouring. People barely stepped out of the bus and they got drenched. @.@ Flood watch...tornado watch? Eh?! O.o

Anyways, I have tamales! Nummy! I'm eating my fourth one...>> << I didn't eat anything today so I'm starving. I mean, they aren't that big. *coughs*

Ugh, I have to finish algebra and English homework. Boo...-.- I hate homework. It's the work of the devil I tell you! >.< Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, I can't wait for the pic that Bina is going to draw for me. I'm so excited! CHIBI! XD

Blegh, I think five tamales is enough for one day. @.@ I'm stuffed! That reminds me, this guy named Jesus who rides the same bus with me to school was selling tamales on the ride home. It was fularious. >>;;; I don't feel like explaining why though. So don't ask. >> <<

Heh, I better start on my homework now. Adios.

-.-I think I have to go to the clinic today. At first I thought it was only for my brother, but my mom said that she appointment for me too. I didn't even know that I'm sick too. O.o *yawns*God, I'm tired. My sister woke me up too early today. Hellish brat. -.- *hums to Lifeless...Life by Ill Niño* I love this band. >> << I think many of them come from Brazil. I can't remember. I need to go check again.

Oh yeah! I saw Inuyasha:The Movie II two nights ago. It was so cool. XD I feel like watching it again. *blinks*Oh damn...I need to return my library books.-.- I think they're overdue now. Damnit. v.v

And I still have homework to do. I finished math. But I still have to finish my homework for Art and English. I have art tomorrow, but thankfully, I have English on Wednesday. But no school today! Woo! I would've had all my classes if there was school today.-.- But I only have three of my classes tomorrow. Two hours each though. Damn...science is so boring. I know it can be interesting...but my science class SUCKS. *sulks*

*yawns again*Eh, I need to go and start getting ready in case I really do have to go to the doctor or whatever. *sniffs* And it's almost noon...and it's so cold. Ah well...let's see how long the rain shall last. Well, bye now. ^.^;;;

Human beings are the only creatures on earth that allow their children to come back home.
- Bill Cosby

Yay! I finished the poem that a new friend of mine from deviantART requested me to write for her. Turned out pretty good. ^-^ Lookie! http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/15124461/

*yawns*I'm tired. ^.^;;; And I'm probably leaving soon to get my art supplies for school. Which I need by tomorrow. Or was it Tuesday? I can't remember. O.o I'm thirsty too...@.@ And really bored. Oh, and no going to the moutains today. *sniffs* ;-; Ah well.

Blegh, tomorrow is Valentines Day. What horrors shall I encounter on this god forsaken day? Hm? O.o Ignore me...^-^;;; Eh, I don't feel like writing, er, typing, anymore. Well, here anyways. So yeah...Adios! ^.^

Bush gave an interview and he said people will vote for him because 'They've seen me weep, they’ve seen me laugh, and they’ve seen me hug.' These are the same qualifications for a Tickle Me Elmo.
-Bill Maher

I got new manga today. Angel Sancturary and Crescent Moon. Though, one of them shall belong to Jasmine. But I'm going to read them both and let her pick which one she wants when I take them to school on Monday. >>;;; It's a very late Christmas gift. ^.^;;; Or a very early Christmas/birthday gift. Whatever. O.o

Huh...I'm not feeling well. I was feeling quite happy until just a few minutes ago. Yay...*yawns* Now I'm tired too. @.@ Sleep...bed...pillow...x.x

I got a new shirt today. A black one with 'Anime Junkie' written in red at the front. Heh. Well, I'm going to go soon. So, adios.

It's funny the way most people love the dead. Once you're dead, you're made for life.
-Jimi Hendrix

Let's see, I found out yesterday that I might be going to Vegas in early March. I might be gone for three days. Don't miss me too much! Heh!

Um, so far family problems have decreased for the time being. Which is a relief. *hums to Tainted Love* God, I love this song. ^.^ "Sometimes I feel I got to runaway, I got to get away from the pain that you drive into the heart of me..."*hums the rest*>>;;; Take my tears and that's not nearly all! >> << So I lied...XD *yawns*Hum...I'm bored.-.-

Oh! I don't know if I'll be on much today. I'm going out with ze familia in a little bit. It's going to be noon soon, and we're leaving around two. And I need to go take a shower and my brother wants to use the comp, so I might not be on until later if not at all.

*hums to Here I am by The Explosion*I'm so musical right now.O.o There was something else that I was gonna put, but I forgot. Oh yeah...I broke a dish this morning. Or, so they said.-.-

Me:*washes dishes boredly**sets one on the counter*
Dad:Be happy I'm not making you wash the pots, 'cause I "like" you too much.
Me:Heh.*sets one of Matthew's plastic plates ontop of the other*...*hears the plates crash onto the floor*...o.o
Dad:*turns around*-.-Nevermind. I hate you now.
Me:O.O...But I didn't do anything! >.<
Dad:Whatever...idiot.-.-
Me:-.-....

Aren't we a loving family? O.o Yeah...-.- Oh! I found some really nice photography on deviantArt, but I'm too lazy to get the links for all of them.-.- I believe they're in my favorites. Somewhere. I don't feel like looking.^.^;;;

http://angel-de-amor.deviantart.com/favourites/

There...*blinks*Oooh! Chibi Marauder pic! O.O...*clings to chibi Remus*MINE! >> << *coughs*Anyways...^-^;;; Buh bye now...>> <<

An intellectual is someone who has found something more interesting than sex.
- Edgar Wallace

*coughs*Heh...>> <<

I need a hug...*sniffles*And a nap...

Anywho, yeah...I thought the family problems may have vanished, but I was wrong. I'm so confused right now. It appears like one of my parents may have had an affair. I don't know...I'm lost. But there's more. But, I'm not going to share right now.

It rained today...
That was nice. I love the rain...dangerous yet beautiful. Depressing and joyous. Right now, it's all of them to me. I can't keep my eyes opened my right now. I'm so tired...and I have homework to do. And I need to fix that thing that I have to turn in for Art. I ripped the paper by accident, so I need to get some more and finish it. Yeah, I can be a clumsy idiot at times.-.-

What else? Oh yeah, I started crying for a while during fourth period. Which is English, by the way. I guess Mr. Weronka knew I wasn't feeling okay. No, I wasn't depressed. I was just in a lot of pain. Anyways, I had my head down and resting against my arms, just like everyone else. But, he didn't tell me anything. To the others, he did. And, I didn't even know I was crying at first. I had my eyes closed. Well, I didn't know until I felt a tear fall against my bottom lip. Yeah...>.<

Um...there were two games today. A soccer game and a basketball game. I think it was JV that was playing at school. Girls for both games. During the practice basketball game, W.H.S was kicking ass. Oh yeah. XD

Eheh, I'm so tired right now...@.@ Someone hold me...pwease? ;-; *coughs*Heh...>>;;; Eh, I'm going to stop now. So...buh bye.

Hasta Luego,
     Stephanie.

Blegh...I don't feel good. And my head hurts too. And I'm tired beyond belief. @.@ Walking home was a bitch too. El dolor...ugh. Um, anyways. What else? I don't know. I can't think straight right now. No pun intended. Heh. >> << *blinks*Oh! Some relatives of mine from Mexico are here today. Old relatives though. ^.^;;;

*yawns and stretches*I think I'm gonna ask my dad for a digital camera for my birthday. I love photography! ^-^ Maybe an ipod too. >>;;; Hey, I'm not having that huge party so why not? And I doubt that I'm still going to Mexico by the look of things. So...? C'mon. If I get a camera, you get a new pic of me! XD I'm so fugly. @.@ Eheh. Anywho...

Oh god, I'm feeling hyper for no reason. I hope I don't start feeling moody once it fades. x.x Jesus Christ...And a small part of an Ozomatli song is stuck in my head. *points down*

Cada-cada día yo veo la destruccion,
Cada-cada día yo veo la maldicion...
(Translation: "Each day I see the destruction, each day I see the malice-damnation")

Yeah...o.o...Ooh! *blinks*I have no idea...Um, I don't really know what else to put. I'm too tired to think. x.x Bye now!

P.S. Someone tell Michael to stop running his fingers through my hair everytime he passes by me in Algebra. It feels nice...But...EW! *blinks*Oh wait...you don't know him. I'm doomeded. -.- Yes...doomeded. O.o

I'm so damn tired. *falls over*x.x Didn't get much sleep last night. Blegh. And I think my mom left. I don't know for sure. But I heard her leave last night. Heh. C'est la vie.

Anyways, today was alright. I was, and still am as you can see, too tired to really pay much attention in any of my classes. And I think I start on my first art "project" thing tomorrow. I'm not sure. I can't remember that well. Hm, there were some funny moments at school today. As always. Far too many for me to remember though. Typical.

What else? Oh, yeah. I finished the poem that I said I was going to write for Matt. Turned out pretty good really. Though I think it still needs to be fixed up a bit more. I'm never fully satisfied with any of my poems. It's a shame really. Heh.

Speaking of poems, I also wrote another poem apart from that one. Angsty in a way. Wasn't in a good mood. My head was hurting and there was, well still is, too much going on at home. Bleh. *yawns and rubs her eyes*I need a nap. *hugs plushie and pouts*So tired...

Ugh, I don't feel like putting anything else at the moment. @.@ So, buh bye now.

Vedali piu successivamente,
                 Stephanie.

P.S. That was "See you later" in Italian.