Surprise, surprise. I found out what's wrong with me. It's some illness or whatever. Lack of iron and all that junk...I honestly don't really care. Not today anyways...I mean, I'm just going to be taking some medication or whatever for three months...and..
And I just noticed how hard is for me to fight back tears. It's extremely difficult. Heh, they're falling already after...three minutes of me trying hard not to cry. Eh, family troubles again...depres
Well, besides that I had a decent day at school. Art was actually okay for once. And Life Skills was simple. As always. Though I have an essay due for that class. And science...was alright. Heh, I actually wrote down "Remember to bring Farenheight 451 tomorrow." on my left palm. I keep forgetting to bring it. Mainly because I have to look for it. But I'm happy that mi amor got my letter. Even though my writing sucks.-.-
Had an ineresting conversation with Stacy today. I won't go into detail because, well, I just can't. Heh, mainly, it was about how we both are. And how I look into the depth of everything I see that appears in my personal writing, and how she's the type of person that lingers in bewteen, yet not able to grasp anything deeper than what she's used to. Eh, I'm not making much sense. So yeah, bye now.
There was a health fair at school today. Woo! We got to learn about STD's, drugs, and acting stupid when you're still a teen. Again. Oh, and condoms too. They were giving out free condoms. Oh! And lube as well. O.o They went out quickly though. XD Eheh, if I had gotten one...I would've probably opened it and stretched it out as far as it could go. I'm amused easily. >>;;; Rodrigo asked me what lube is and what it's used for. Yeah...I hate explaining things like that. -.-
And Stacy surprised me today. She actually said two perverted things that I would have never thought of. She's starting to scare me. A lot. o.o
Um, back to the health fair thing. I had to go twice. Different classes though. Life Skills and science. Yeah...I got a lot of stuff there. And I found this paper that shows how to use a condom. It has pictures...*bl
Heh, but seriously. The whole sex thing can wait. If not until marriage, at least until I'm twenty-one and older. When I'm fully legal! WOO! O.o...Anyways, as I've heard so many times before, "Better to be safe than sorry." And why the hell am I still going on about this? Moving on...
Um, yeah. Spring break starts next week for me. It's a good thing because I get a break from school, but it's also a bad thing because I'm stuck at home. Alone(well, nobody to talk to anyways). With my parents fighting and Matthew waking me up at seven in the morning. Ah well...-.- But! I haven't been depressed lately! ^-^ Well, maybe just a twinge of sadness here and there, but nothing more! I've been pretty mellow lately. Be proud. And happy. DAMNIT! DO AS I SAY!...Biznitc
Hrm, I guess that's enough for today. >> <<...I have nothing to do right now...*sniffs*
O.o... Oh my god. Yesterday, meh cousins came over to visit my grandpa. And, well...they gave me quite a shocker. They don't like rap anymore. Which is kind of creepy...I'm so used to them making fun of me for the type of music that I like... o.o They told me that they're into rock now. Especially classic rock. They like Aerosmith! ^-^ And the Ramones. Woo! >> << I noticed this by the band shirts they were wearing. Heh, we were all matching yesterday. O.o The three of us each had on a black band tee, jeans, and Vans. Friggin' awesome.
Anyways, we got bored of staying outside(plus it was nine o'clock at night and there were mosquitos...o.
Um, what else? Hrm, parents are fighting again. Big surprise there. And I didn't get enough sleep last night. I was watching this wedding special on the Food Network...and, um, I didn't stop watching it until midnight. *coughs*So cute...>>;;; Hrm, so I went to sleep around 12:30...and woke up at one in the morning because of my parents. And that didn't stop until four...and I woke up again around six, fell asleep once more, and woke up at 8:30 in the morning. Which was when I gave up on trying to go back to sleep.
Damn, I haven't written a poem in such a long time. I guess I've been too mellow these past few days. Not good, but not bad either. I would rather stay "mellow" than depressed. But eh, family problems might change that soon. Help...-.- *sighs*And they weren't that thrilled about the whole UCLA thing. Heh. Can't please everyone, I guess.
My head hurts now. >.< And...I'm really tired. So, yeah...bye bye now.
Oh dear god, I AM SO FRIGGIN HAPPY! O.O...It has been a very long time since I've been this happy. I mean, yeah good things happen that make me happy a couple of times a month, but not enough to make me cry from joy and start laughing for no reason. o.o
Okay, here's the deal. Today during English, I forgot the book that we were supposed to bring and everyone in my class was like, "Oh my god! The best student didn't bring her book! WOW!"...Stupid fucks. But I'm the one that's almost done with it while most of them still haven't even finished the first part of the book. Which was supposed to be done by Monday. But Mr. Weronka knew that I was almost done, so yeah. Anyways, while everyone was doing their work, he called me up to his desk. I thought I was in trouble and I was so damn nervous. But then he told me about the last assignment that we had done. Which was a paragraph in which we had to write down "What we saw when we looked in the mirror." He asked me if I knew that I had talent. I shook my head, confused. And he said that I do. A lot of it. And he's not the only one saying so. He has this friend/student who is a senior in UCLA(the university that I REALLY want to attend) and she said that I write better than her. And that I have a lot of talent. Ooh, freakeh...O.o I'm like, still a freshman(WOMAN! XD) in high school...o.o;;
She asked my teacher to ask me if it would be alright if we were both to meet. She said that she wants to hang out and get to know me and act like a "big sister" to me if possible.Like, she would mentor me. And help me with stuff. So, she gave my teacher her cell number and told him to call her with my answer. I said yes, but that I have to ask my parents. Even though I know that they'll agree. Hey, if it gets me into college, whatever. And I found out that she's training to become a doctor. And I want to become a pediatrition. Which is awesome.(my spelling is off, and my teacher knows it too. XD) Anyways, he's going to tell me on Monday how everything went. Plus he said that the whole book thing could slide and that I didn't have to do the punishment work that he handed out to those who didn't bring their books. He then allowed me to read some poems by William Carlos Williams. I think that was the name. I can't remember. Anyways, I loved the poems. And right now, I am so excited. I can't wait to tell my dad. Maybe he'll be more thrilled than my mom. Eheh. ^.^;;;
Oh! And I also found out that I managed to maintain my 'C' in algebra. THANK GOD! @.@ But I still might take summer school though. Mmhm. >> << So yeah, I basically had a good day today. Except when those fuckers in gym started bothering me.-.- I just ignored them. I really don't want to waste my time with stupid, weed smoking, sex obsessed, can't read for shit, might end up being a hobo on the street, low life scum. Whee, my algebra teacher says that a lot. Besides "shut up" that is. Hehe, low life scum...>>;;;
So, um, yeah. Sorry if I bored you. ME SO SOWWY! O.o;; And...PIZZA TIME! So yeah, bye bye now! ^-^
I wuv you all,
Stephanie.
Had two tests today. @.@ One for Algebra and one for English. The one for English was simple. And a district test. Now the one for Algebra, hell no. I didn't understand crap. -.- Ah well, bye bye 'C' hello summer school.(Not like I have much to do during the summer, really.)
And I was going to write Matt's letter during English, but we had the test. Even though I finished it before the class was even over. And that's two hours long. I ended up reading the manga that Jasmine let me borrow. Oh god, it was so good! @.@ I can't wait for the rest! I think it's called Imadoki. Can't remember. >>;;; But I saw Nancy this morning! Whee! *twirls* << >>
Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, had two hours of gym today. Gah. So dull. Oh! And I saw many things on the way home. Besides the usual horny couple making out that is. -.- Um, in the morning I saw lots of cops in front of this store with guns out. O.o And on the way home I saw a car that had been split in two because it had crashed into a street sign, and I saw some people getting arrested soon after that, which was then followed by some more cops in front of this...car place. Not sure about that one, but yeah.
Anyways, that's enough for today. I have a letter to write(finished Nicole's ^-^), so bye bye now.
My mom is sneaky.-.- She just took a picture of me. EW! >.< The fuglyness! *blinks and pokes bruise on her arm*...Chibi bruise. o.o *shudders* Ew...-.-
Um, school was actually bearable today. O.o My Life Skills teacher didn't come and neither did my art teacher. XD YAY! NO WORK! We watched Holes in Life skills though. Stacy thought I had said "Ho's" *giggles*The look on her face...XD *rolls eyes*Oh yeah, we were watching a porno parody of 'Holes.' Fun, no? Yucky...*blink
But..! I did have work to do in Science though. Heh, I finished all of it. Before the class even ended. I am so badass. *giggles again* And the manga W Juliet is hilarious. >>;;; Stacy loves it. Even though when we were talking about it, we found it quite difficult. Eh, I don't feel like explaining right now. I'm lazy... >> << Whee...and we almost didn't make it to homeroom. Stacy had said something about getting blood taken out, and I found it funny, then I start laughing which made her laugh, and we basically were laughing until our stomachs started hurting. Laughing hard while trying to walk is dangerous. O.o
Eh, I have algebra homework to do(and I'm hyper. Like, a lot), so yeah...^.^;;; Bye now.
Well, I didn't go to school today. I'm sick with a cold and I have to go to the doctor. I tried calling Stacy yesterday to tell her, but she didn't pick up, so she's probably going to call me later once she gets home from school. Unless she didn't go either. Ah well, I'll find out later. Maybe.
I feel like ranting. Mainly because I'm tired of all these changes that don't seem like any form of change. If that makes any sense. Yeah, I'm tired of false hopes. I've been getting a lot of those lately. I'm sick of it too. And I blame my depression on mental issues...>>;;; And...girl stuff. XD *coughs*And also the things people say and do to me on a daily basis. And really, if you want me to shut up about it, just...tell me. Gently. -.- I'm a fragile person. And don't make me feel worse. PLEASE!!! *sniff*...*whi
Whee...I'm hyper. I shouldn't have sugar cookies for breakfest. And I shouldn't have washed that down with the juice that makes me really hyper. It's a no-no. And my nose is stuffy.-.- I can't stop sneezing. And I'm in pain. And I need to stop whining. >.<
I have a baby! XD ....Named Baby. O.o It's a baby giraffe plushie and I wuvs it so. ^-^ Even though Matthew thinks it's a squishy thing that needs to be squished. -.- MY BABY! >.< Um, yeah...with my voice, I would probably sound very odd saying this. X3
*yawns*Ugh...I
Amazing how fast a good mood comes and goes. Ah well, it happens. Hrm, went to the mall today. Got some new things. New pair of shoes. ^-^ Black and white Vans. Because my other ones are starting to get worn out. That and they were the only pair of shoes that I had. O.o
Oh! And I got Nicole's prezzie today. God I hope it fits and god I hope it doesn't break when I mail it.-.- I still need stamps though. I'm going to ask Stacy if she can buy them for me. Seeing as my mom is now home all the time, and I can't really go anywhere without her being nosey. I'll just give Stacy the money to buy them. Or I'll ask her if she has any. But the prezzie is pretty. And green. And pretty. Just like the person who I'm going to give it too. ^-^
Oh! And I also got two new mangas. W Juliet Vol. 1 and Aquarian Age: Juvenile Orion Vol. 2. And I still have some money left over. Yay!
Well, I'm feeling a bit tired right now. And I think I'm catching a cold...*sniffl
I don't feel so good right now. My stomach hurts, my head hurts, and I'm tired. Oh, and because there will be a chance of rain, and because my sister has Saturday school, we aren't going to Six Flags or whatever. I think we're going to the mall and then we're going to take her out to eat. And, yeah...
Oh, and before I forget...
Had a science test today. I believe I did pretty good on it. Even though I couldn't remember crap. Plus, I forgot the homework that I had to do for my Life Skills class. -.- I can still turn it in on Monday, but my grade may go down. I think I left it in my Algebra book. I need to go check. Ick, Algebra homework and a test tomorrow. The horror.-.- There goes my 'C.'
My legs are still sore from yesterday. I am so out of shape. XD My mom said that she and I may start going to the gym. I think she's trying to tell me something. O.o But, she then asked if I wanted ice cream. o.o Oh yeah, we are so gonna make it through that. XD
Ooh! Tomorrow's the fourth. ^-^ And then on Saturday, it's my sister's birthday. So, I may not be on that day. She wants to go to Six Flags, so yeah. We're not sure yet.
Now I have to go work on my homework, so bye bye now.
So, yeah. I think I have the first part of my Life Skills homework done. And that's the whole high school plan...thingeh
10th Grade: Fall
English 10A
World History: 1A
H. Geometry 1A
H. Biology 1A
P.E 1A.
Spanish 1A
::Spring::
English 10B
World History: 1B
H. Geometry 1B
H. Biology 1B
P.E 1B
Spanish 1B
11th Grade: Fall
American Lit.
U.S History 1A
Algebra II 1A
Chemistry(Or Physics, whichever) 1A
Photography 1A
Spanish 2A
::Spring::
Cont. Comp (too lazy to write the actual thing...)
U.S. History 1B
Algebra II 1B
Chemistry( " " ")
Photography 1B
Spanish 2B
12th Grade: Fall
AP English 1A
Princ. of Am. Democracy
Calculus 1A
Calligraphy
Internet Publish 1B
Work Experience
::Spring::
AP English 1B
Economics
Calculus 1B
Digital Imaging
Internet Publish 1B
College Class
That's it at the moment. It's bound to change later on, of course. But this what I want for now. I'm hoping for some honors or AP classes as well. I already know what I want to do once I graduate from high school. Two years of community college where I'll hopefully transfer to a university. Hopefully. Many of the classes that I wanted, I couldn't put for now. Seeing as we have to take a computer course now. I wanted Auto Mechanics, in case my car broke down(What car though? O.o) and I didn't have a cell or anything. XD But eh, I can learn later. I also wanted Home Ec and creative writing...and.
Anyways, what else? Oh yeah, the seniors who came to school every day last semester got an ipod during an assembly held during the first hour of third period today. -.- I had no idea my school could afford 19 ipods... O.o *blinks*Damn..
Hrm, what else? Oh yeah...
Happy 15th Birthday Nancy!
Yeah, I'm done now. ^-^ Adios.
*sniffs* My head hurts...;-; And I'm tired.-.- I only got like five hours of sleep last night. Drama, my friends, lots and lots of drama. But anyways, I guess I'm a bit better now. Woo! >> <<
Hm, I'm already thinking of what classes I want to take in the 10th, 11th, and 12th grade(s). Mainly because that's what I have to turn in for my Life Skills homework. >>;;; But yeah, I know I want to take an English AP class. And I know I want to take four years of math. At least up to Calculas(I can't spell...XD). I'm not sure yet. Oh! And Photography as well. *nods* Yup yup. And I've heard of this Intro To Psychology class, so...yeah. ^.^;;; Oh! And three years of Spanish for Spanish speakers. If I can that is.
I'm not sure about the rest, but...heh. Hrm, I can't wait for June 27th. The last day of school for me. YAY! SUMMER! ^-^ (Even though I sorta hate summer because it gets so hot here in Southern California...-
Ah, crap. I have homework to do. Two for Life Skills, one for Algebra...and I forgot the rest. Wow, aren't I smart? >.< Eh, I'm bored now...so I'm gonna stop with the typingness. Adios.
I know you're going to read this Jen. I know you stalk me here on Elftown(whenever you stop using your brothers username and go on yours)...XD STOP WITH THE TOUCHY TOUCHY! O.o You ebil child molester! ;-; When I say I want to be held, that doesn't mean that I want to be groped! O.O *sniffs*I feel so violated sometimes...-.
Damn, did I wake up annoyed...Heh, ah well...I'll comfort myself out of it. Doubt anyone really wants to help. I don't think I shoudl've came on. I should've just stayed in my room and finished up on my homework. Blegh...mental stress is a pain. Everything is annoying me now. Not everyone. Everything. And now I feel like crying...meh..
My god, I am such a fucking idiot. Casey...I'm really sorry if I worried you last night. I really am...you know me...
I'm so tired right now. I didn't get much sleep last night. I hardly do anymore. I can't believe I thought that everything would be alright. All lies as always. Like everything would be alright here. Yeah right...I should've known. But whatever...I can always leave once I turn eighteen. Though I might be faced with a different kind of pain. You never know...
I can't believe I wanted to end it all last night. Well, yes I can. But anyways, so close yet what good would that have done? If I killed myself that would've been a very selfish, stupid, and cowardly thing to do. It would've just caused pain to those who do care about me. That's it. I'm telling my parents once my dad comes home that I need to get special help. I need someone to talk to. Hell, a stranger might work because they won't know crap about me and they won't cause me emotional pain because we don't know each other. That might work. I just need to let everything out before I reach the breaking point. So close yet so far...And god do I hate crying. I cried so much yesterday and this morning. Blegh...And my left arm still hurts. I practically tore into it yesterday with my nails...ugh...
I guess I'll work on my homework soon. I need something to pass the time. Well, sorry for those who actually read this. I'm not a very happy and smart person at the moment. Hardly ever am unless something good happened or I'm hyper. Or someone drugged my drink/food. Whichever. Anywho. I better go now. Gotta finish cleaning...
The fork is your master! XD *giggles*
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Anyways! Um, yeah...>> << Too much Pepsi. XD Caffine! MEH FWEIND! XD *yawns*O.o...Y
*yawns again*-.- I had no idea that I had English homework that was due today until my English teacher told me. But I had been, eh, crying so he said I could turn it on Monday. I'll work on it tomorrow. It shouldn't be that hard.
Lets see, what else? Oh yeah, I spent all of Gym with Brenda, Rodrigo, Chris, Steven and some other guys. Basically, me and Brenda were the only girls. And I'm quite used that really. Since I was a tomboy in elementry and most of middle school(still am, but eheh...) most of my friends were guys. ^.^;;; I'm used to their stupid talk, but that still doesn't stop me from calling them sex crazed pigs. >> <<
Anyways! Steven and...the other guys like anime and manga. And video games. And...making fun of each other. O.o I felt sorry for Steven. But he's pretty cool. Most of them are...odd. But that's even more cool. Strange people rock. Eheh. >> <<
Hrm, me and Stacy talked to Colin a bit during Algebra. He spent most of the conversation telling us that he knew two langauges. And he said they were English and redneck English. O.o Then he started using some examples and yeah.... o.O And then me and Stacy started telling him that he could probably fit in if he went to Mexico. Well, if he went to the parts were there were a lot of blondes that is. As long he kept his mouth shut, he could fit in. We all laughed at that. >>;;;
But other than that, school was pretty dull. Not much went on. Oh yeah! Stacy burned me some new CD's. One, well two, of which were Young Lust: The Aerosmith Anthology. MINE! *huggles it* >> <<
So yeah...I'm pretty bored right now and I have no idea what else to put. Besides the fact that I need to get some stamps and an envelope for the letter that I'm writing to Nicole. Meh sexeh mommeh babeh. XD I'm still looking for a gift that'll fit inside though.-.- And I want more Pepsi...so...b
Just another bad day....
Didn't get much sleep last night. Once again. Damnit. I'm really tired. Trying to stay awake in class today was hard. I just wanted to lay my head down and sleep for an hour or so. Eh, thankfully I finished half of my Algebra homework during class. I really hope I don't mess up on the test. The material is simple, but my mind just goes blank during a test. Oh, and some English homework too. Simple stuff.
Gym for two hours. Ugh. I hate Gym. But at least I have someone to talk to. Brenda. She's cool. But, Rodrigo is there too. Ah well, it's not important. He's not that annoying, I guess. Heh, but there was a bee on my arm during gym. That was amusing....
Rodrigo:There'
Brenda:*looks at both of her arms*
Rodrigo:Not you. Stephanie.
Me:*blinks and glances at my left arm*Oh, it's a bee...
Brenda and Rodrigo: O.O *both jump up and back away slightly*
Me:*flicks it off absently*There
Brenda:O.O...I hate bees. >.<
Me:Same. ^-^
Brenda:O.o...
Heh, yeah...Oh! And Jasmine brought a Fruits Backet DVD to let me borrow. I'm going to watch it later. An hour or so before I go to "sleep." Eheh...
I don't feel like talking about my day. I'm not in a bad mood anyways. Even though I had a bad day. Well, not yet I suppose. We'll see. Hrm, I feel like writing a new poem. So, yeah. That's enough for today.
Fino A Piu successivament
Stephanie.
Oh my god, I am so cold. It's been raining like crazy. I think we got a total of two years worth of rain here in Southern California. Or so I heard. And when I got to school, it was pouring. People barely stepped out of the bus and they got drenched. @.@ Flood watch...tornad
Anyways, I have tamales! Nummy! I'm eating my fourth one...>> << I didn't eat anything today so I'm starving. I mean, they aren't that big. *coughs*
Ugh, I have to finish algebra and English homework. Boo...-.- I hate homework. It's the work of the devil I tell you! >.< Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, I can't wait for the pic that Bina is going to draw for me. I'm so excited! CHIBI! XD
Blegh, I think five tamales is enough for one day. @.@ I'm stuffed! That reminds me, this guy named Jesus who rides the same bus with me to school was selling tamales on the ride home. It was fularious. >>;;; I don't feel like explaining why though. So don't ask. >> <<
Heh, I better start on my homework now. Adios.
-.-I think I have to go to the clinic today. At first I thought it was only for my brother, but my mom said that she appointment for me too. I didn't even know that I'm sick too. O.o *yawns*God, I'm tired. My sister woke me up too early today. Hellish brat. -.- *hums to Lifeless...Lif
Oh yeah! I saw Inuyasha:The Movie II two nights ago. It was so cool. XD I feel like watching it again. *blinks*Oh damn...I need to return my library books.-.- I think they're overdue now. Damnit. v.v
And I still have homework to do. I finished math. But I still have to finish my homework for Art and English. I have art tomorrow, but thankfully, I have English on Wednesday. But no school today! Woo! I would've had all my classes if there was school today.-.- But I only have three of my classes tomorrow. Two hours each though. Damn...science is so boring. I know it can be interesting...
*yawns again*Eh, I need to go and start getting ready in case I really do have to go to the doctor or whatever. *sniffs* And it's almost noon...and it's so cold. Ah well...let's see how long the rain shall last. Well, bye now. ^.^;;;
Human beings are the only creatures on earth that allow their children to come back home.
- Bill Cosby