[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2005-03-30
Written: (7178 days ago)

Mmm...caffine.*pokes glass of coke absently*Hrm, school. Yay...Almost June...YAY!!! o.o *blinks*Oh, my parents know that I have a boyfriend.*nods*My dad said that it's alright...as long as I don't do anything stupid. Which I doubt I ever will. Not until I'm older...and less mental. Heh, he doesn't want me to end up like my cousin's. My cousin Javier got some girl pregnant, and his sister(my cousin Leslie) ran off to Mexico with her boyfriend a few days before Christmas. And she's only a year older than me. So, yeah. My parents don't want me to end up like them, and I understand. And I believe they really are getting a divorce now. Ah well, c'est la vie. Life only sucks because shit happens. To everyone. Wouldn't it be so dull if nothing ever did happen? Heh.

Moving on...school was okay. Algebra was so freakin' boring, and we had a test. Which I know I probably failed. XD We were going over some problems that had to do with the stuff on the test, and I understood everything. I was like, "^-^ I actually get it!" And then I saw the test a few minutes later "...And now I'm lost." Ah well. Um, english was hilarious today. And embarrassing on my part. Hrm, on Monday Mr. Weronka made us do a writting assignment. "Thirteen Ways To Look At My Culture." And mine is Mexican-American. Not Mexican culture...but not American culture either. A mixture of the two. So, I wrote thirteen small and seperate things about how I saw my culture. And today, he read it out loud. Without saying who wrote it, of course. He just said that it was the Mexican-American culture. So, of course, everyone started glancing around trying to see who it was. Until they got to me. Colin turned around and asked me, with this awe-struck look in his face, if I had written it. I just nodded. But everyone still didn't know, so Colin told them. Heh, and Helen turned around and just looked at me in the same look that Colin had before. And then when everyone knew, Mr. Weronka said that it was me who had written and...blah blah blah. @.@ And then Colin and a few other guys in my class kept saying things like, "Dude! That was fresh! You should be like...a poet or something!" And I just started laughing. It was so hard trying to keep myself from blushing. x.x But yeah...it wasn't THAT good. I only had less then twenty minutes to write it...x.o;;;

Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, I met a guy in my gym class that love manga too. I spent the whole period just kicking it with him and talking about anime and manga. It was freakin' hilarious. XD...He just sat too close for comfort. @.@ *shudders* Too much accidental touchy-touchy stuff coming from him. Ugh. -.- But he told me to bring him two volumes of Demon Diary, W Juliet, and...some other manga that I forgot. ^.^;;; But, anyways. He's pretty cool. So gym isn't that boring anymore.

Oh! And I mailed Matt's letter today. Got me some stamps too. ^-^ Whee. *blinks*Oh crap...my art project. I better start working on it. -.- *sighs*...Well, adios! ^-^

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Written about Tuesday 2005-03-29
Written: (7179 days ago)

Ugh, stomach hurts. Meh, anyways...school. Whee. It was okay, I guess. Got my ten dollars from my Life Skills teacher. Yayness. But my mom picked me up early so I didn't have time to go and buy the stamps. Now I have to wait until I get another chance. Which may be on Friday. Unless Stacy can bring me one before then. Hrm, anyways...Couldn't find any clothes to wear last night, so I ended up wearing my ripped jeans(which I haven't worn in a long time) and the shirt that I wore on Christmas. It's cool...but kind of tight.-.- So, I kept my hoodie on all day. Then again, I always do. Eheh. I was in a good mood a while ago. Mainly because the bus ride home was freakin' hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing. Stacy said that I had this rare look in my face, as if I was a little girl or something. Eh...? Anyways, that didn't last long. Mom told me that my dad is now getting a lawyer to begin the process of a divorce. I guess he's had it with everything. Mainly because he's sick of making our lives miserable and because of what happened today. She left my two brother's alone for over an hour. And, well, the oldest of the two isn't that good at staying home alone for that long, especially if something happens... and...*shrugs*Whatever...there's more...but I don't feel like saying anything about it. So yeah...I'm done. Adios.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-03-29
Written: (7180 days ago)

And back to school I go...*yawns*Blegh, I'm tired. I didn't even sleep last night. It was more like, countless naps. I actually fell asleep around one thirty in the morning. Because of my parents. Well, I had been asleep before that. I had actually gone to sleep around ten something...and woke up again around midnight. Which sucks, because I actually found a comfy spot in my bed....which I lost once I woke up. So, I ended up tossing and turning all night, falling asleep, waking up, then falling asleep again, and so on and so forth. Ugh...so tired. -.-...*stares at 84 messages in deviantART*...*sobs* The horror...;-;

...Anyways, what else? Um, I found out that my algebra teacher had changed the assignment, so I had to basically do all the problems in today's homework during class. She had added problems #69 through #103...and I had only done #71 through #93.(After I did the main problems...nineteen through...something something.) Well, I skipped a few, but yeah. Well, I finished everything about...ten minutes before the class was over. Which means I missed the lesson on the homework which is due on Wednesday. So yeah, I'm screwed. As always. -.-

Art was once again somewhat bearable today. And I hope it stays that way. English was alright, science was a bore, and gym was...windy. Really freakin' windy. My hair was such a mess. -.- Oh! And I'm going to get ten dollars from my Life Skills teacher. Because I'm the first and only one to have brought back a reply from a college. ^-^ Yay! Free money! FOR ME! >> <<

Um, yeah. Tired...and kind of cold. So...adios now!

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Written about Sunday 2005-03-27
Written: (7181 days ago)

What a way to start off easter. My grandfather is in the hospital again. He was rushed there a few minutes ago. Well, around 11:00am, that is. Mm, c'est la vie I guess...well, I better start getting ready. I have to finish cleaning and then I have to iron my clothes so I can go take a shower. My dad is taking me to get a few things once he gets back from the hospital. I'll probably only be gone for two hours or so. But that's only for the mall thing. I don't know what else may occur later. But I still have homework to do. Heh. Simple homework...I just need to stop getting so distracted. I'll do the one for Algebra first and then work on the one for English. Mmhm...

But, at least I did something good today. I helped make [Shishiru] happy again. ^-^ Yayness. I feel special again. And...I have a Selena song stuck in my head, which also features David Byrne. Eheh. It's...God's Child(Baila Conmigo). Canción del vampiro, gloria de amor...song of the vampire, glory of love. Whee, I love that part of the song. Well, there's more to it. But I like that part the most. Here's the whole thing...

Canción del vampiro
Gloria de amor
Es nuestro reino
Pero vean lo que hemos hecho...


Song of the vampire
Glory of love
It is our kingdom
But they see what we have done...


Eheh...yeah. Well, I better go...finish whatever I'm supposed to do. So, yeah...happy easter, I guess. Adios.

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Written about Saturday 2005-03-26
Written: (7182 days ago)

Mental stress...not good.-.- Broke down more than once today. Everything is so tense right now. Blegh. I'm exhausted too. And I just noticed that I had algebra homework to do during break. Eh, I'll do it tonight. Not like I have anything to do. And my English homework too. Eheh...I'm so lazy...

Got a hair cut today...it's alright, I guess. Though my hair is shorter...*sighs* But it's still in layers. And I decieded not to dye it or whatever. I'm going to wait until it gets a little longer and my anemia isn't as bad.*shrugs* Hrm...yeah. Still haven't gotten the medicine. I think we're going to try and get it tomorrow. And two new shirts for me. Maybe. I'm going to try and get Alice's present too. I should have enough money...but I still need stamps. God damnit.-.- I'll see what I can afford tomorrow...What else? Um...I'm tired right now. Crying does that to me.-.- But I'm mellow now, so it's all cool...sorta.

Oh, and I managed to get a hold of Kathy. Yayness. But I can only talk to her through e-mail for now. Even though she gave me her house number. And her cell number. I need to know when's the best time to call. Plus I gotta tell Stacy and Jasmine. I'm sure they're going to be happy. Thank god I remembered her e-mail. ^-^...Well, I better get started on those 53 messages that I have on deviantART. Ugh...so, yeah. Adios.

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Written about Friday 2005-03-25
Written: (7183 days ago)

Fifth and last day of spring break:

Spring break has ended. In my mind anyways. The next two days will be filled of me doing homework that I should've done this week. I've been practicing my procrastination skills. Mmhm...>>;;; Oh lazyness, how I loath you so. Anyways! Yeah...I cleaned my dresser today. Even though I was suppose to do that on Monday. Well, I almost finished. It's still a bit of a mess, so yeah...

Um...I made a new "discovery" while talking to Alex*glomps [ArkyLarky]*>> << I cannot be a girly girl. Yet I know that I can be a very girly guy. Seeing as most of my clothing tend to be baggy.(Except those los-rise jeans that I cover with my hoodie...O.o) If not for the...curves and most of my facial features, I could pass as one. No matter my..."longish" hair. O.o

Moving on...I may get a hair cut this weekend. If I feel like it. I'm having second thoughts now. Help me. ~.~ I do need a trim...especially help with my split ends. Which hate me. A lot. So, yeah. Probably on Sunday. I don't know for sure yet. But, maybe.

So, yeah. Today was rather dull. And cold. Even though everyone kept saying it was hot. I think I'll go listen to music now. Mwuah! Adios.

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Written about Thursday 2005-03-24
Written: (7184 days ago)

Fourth day of spring break:

Sleepeh...so freakin' sleepy.*cuddles pillow*No more staying up late watching South Park for me. Even though it was only ten. But I remember watching some other shows too. Forgot which ones. But, eh. I'm cold right now too. And lonely.*sniffs*Ah well. Oh, I finished Matt's letter today. At last. Though I forgot how many pages it was. More than five, I believe. Eheh. >>;;;

My sister is another reason as to why I am tired. Besides the fact that I usually always am. Anyways, she couldn't find this blue notebook of hers that she "needed" for school, so she decieded to throw a fit early in the morning. Which resulted in me waking up(well, sort of. I was only half-awake) and my grandma coming into my room, talking too loud, which woke me up completely. Yeah, I was annoyed. I'm trying to get enough sleep before I go back to school, but eh. Three more months and then...SUMMER! Annoying hot weather and too many tourists flooding the streets of Southern California more than usual AND making it even more of an annoyance to go anywhere for my birthday, but hey! No school! That's a good thing, right? RIGHT?! Dear god, somebody save me. -.-

....Ahem.>> << My brother decieded to come back to elftown again. Changed his name though. He is now [Raikyu.]. Seeing as he though the name of the actual band was freakin' cool. --> Ill Niño.<-- And...my sister joined too. Even though I told her that she was too young to join. Just look at all this stupid fucks on elftown. -.- Most of the population here are all...eh, forget it. Anyways, yeah. [Lil'dork]. That's her. Sadly. Though I doubt the both of them will be on much. They're just doing it to annoy me.

*blinks and listens to 'Let's get it On.'*...The hell? Anyways. I think I'm gonna go read or take a short nap. Though I'll probably be back in about an hour or so. I just need the lonelyness to fade away for a while. Oh, that and I just want to crawl into bed, under the covers/blankets, and get some warmth. So cold...will somebody hold me? *blinks*Nevermind. I only allow like...two people to hold me...and...yeah...Adios now!

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Written about Thursday 2005-03-24
Written: (7185 days ago)

Part two of third day...?

Just got back from the mall. It was pretty good. Though Stacy got hyper on the way back.*giggles slightly*She bought this...thing at Starbucks. Pretty amusing, really. But I didn't buy anything. We spent a long time trying to find something for Jasmine. That Stacy was going to give her that is. After about an hour or so, she decieded(with my help) that she was going to give her a manga and some romance novel. I had to give Stacy many choices for the manga. Seeing as those romance novels are not the kind of books that would catch my interest. Now manga and books of the comedy and/or horror genre, I'm pretty good with that. Heh, the only romance based things that I read are just...manga. Yeah, mostly manga.

While we were at the "Romance" section of the book store, I started scanning through the bookshelves...only to come upon romantic and erotic novels...yeah, I showed them to Stacy and we started laughing. A lot. Which made people stare at us funny. We laughed even harder when I started skimming through the books. Which was when I landed on a, uh, certain page. Immature in some ways, but hey! We needed a good laugh. Finding good presents is a stressful time! >>;;;

Once we got through with that, we just started walking through the mall. Stopping at video game stores, Toon World, Hot Topic, and other stores. We were trying to get ideas as to what to give our friends for their birthdays, and the person that is having a birthday soon is [cvg54]. Which happens to be next month. So yeah, we really need to know what we're going to get her. So, we decieded to go to the "Latino Factory" and miracle! We started to get a "present inspiration." They had so many cool shirts and jewelry that she might like. Especially the shirts. Witty yet showing Mexican pride. Heh, I may end up buying one, one of these days. They are so freakin' cool.

But yeah, after that we decieded to go. Seeing as it was already a bit passed four o'clock pm by then. And we had to take the bus home. And waiting for it takes a while, which was when she was starting to get hyper. Well, I got off in front of S.G. High School, and then went to the post office. Because I am in desperate need of stamps. Blegh, if only I had been there twelve minutes earlier, the damn thing closed at five. Ah well, now I have to wait until next week to get them. Hopefully.

Whee, I'm feeling lonely right now. I guess I'll just head to my room soon and read. Or just had more to Matt's letter. Which is why I need the stamps. I'll go ask my uncle and see if he has any stamps yet. God, I hope he does. Anyways, Nicole got my present? Yayness. ^-^

Hrm, I'm getting some poetic inspiration right now. My good mood has gone back to mellow at the moment. Well, more or less that is. Maybe it's because my grandpa is in the hospital again. And the fact that my parents are still fighting. I feel tragic events are bound to arise soon. Hopefully not too soon. *sighs*Oh well, c'est la vie.

My mom gave me a letter yesterday. Almost made me cry. Along with freaking me out. Heh, she said that she believes that I either like someone or have a boyfriend. I'm not ready to tell her, but, it's still an odd thought. Parents, especially mom's, can be freaky some times. Eheh...

Well, I'm feeling a bit tired and cold right now. Besides lonely, heh. So, yeah. Adios now.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-03-23
Written: (7185 days ago)

"Third" Day of Spring Break:

Stacy called about five minutes before nine. In the morning that is. We're going to the mall. And it's almost ten and she's going to be here around eleven. And I'm still not dressed. I barely got out of the shower and had breakfest. Ugh. I hate taking showers so early in the morning. I'm freezing right now. But I am happy that we're going to the mall. Even though we have no money. Eheh. I must've sounded...odd on the phone. Not asleep yet not fully awake. I had to drag myself out of bed. Though, thankfully, my mom ironed my clothes while I took a shower. Now I just have to put them on. But I have clothes on at the moment! O.o Sweats and a baggy shirt...freakin' pervs. XD Anyways, yeah. I better start getting ready now. Adios.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-03-22
Written: (7186 days ago)

"Second" Day of Spring Break:

My stomach hurts...@.@ And...I'm bored. Not much there to do today. Besides cleaning, taking care of Matthew, cleaning, and...using the comp when there isn't much to do after that. I just have to call Stacy again today. If she doesn't call by five o'clock pm today that is.

Mom made me and my brother go and by some food for us to eat. Which resulted in me running back home to get some of MY money to pay for the food because she didn't give us enough. -.-

Hrm, there's not much on tv either. Blegh. I'm tired. ~.~ But I feel like reading now...though I haven't the time to even do that. Too much crap going on right now. Heh, I miss school even more...how pathetic.-.- Even there, I hate it. But eh, as long as I can get away from this b.s. Anyways, I'm feeling tired right now, so yeah...Adios.

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O.o.....

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Written about Monday 2005-03-21
Written: (7187 days ago)

"First" Day Of Spring Break:

WOO! I GOT ONE OF THE COLLEGE LETTERS BACK! XD I am so badass. XD It's from UC Berkeley. YAY! My mom told me to wait until she came back from a meeting with my sister's school to open it though. -.- Boo. I WANNA SEE! >.< But at least I got a reply for my letter. Whee! ^-^

But anyways, yeah. Besides that, I'm bored. But I wrote the fourth page of the letter that I'm writing too Matt. Yes, it is long. o.o Oh, and I also moved the two drawings from Kappu and [blackphoenix] to one of my wiki page things. Safe keeping, I guess.

Um, what else? Oh yeah, I think I got at least eight hours of sleep for once.O.o Wow. And I need to call Stacy soon. Yup yup. Hope she's home. Either that or whenever she gets online. Whichever comes first.

Anyways, I'm not going to wait for my mom to come back, so I'm gonna go open the package now. >>;;; SHHH!

Whee, I might be the first to have gotten a reply back. I just have to wait until I go back to school to find out. hrm, and I still need to finish that thing for English. I should start on it now before I forget and end up not doing it. And maybe I should finish the book as well. But, not after I finished Desperation. I haven't gotten much of a chance to read it.

Blegh, damn parents. I'm getting really tired of this stupid fighting. Another reason as to why I hate spring break. Besides not having that many people to talk too. Ah well. I think I'll go read now. Adios.

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Written about Sunday 2005-03-20
Written: (7188 days ago)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!



Mwuah. Lurve you. ^-^


Anyways, yeah...Spring Break. Awesome. Well, not really but yeah. I don't have homework. Well, just this paper that I have to write for English. But I'm almost done.

And I'm bored. I need to call Stacy tomorrow and tell her that my parents said that I could go to the mall. Now I have to see if she can.

Um...I have a David Bisbal song stuck in my head. I love it though. Mwuah...

Lloraré Las Penas

Lloraré hay lloraré
Lloraré
Lloraré las penas.

Lloraré ay lloraré
Lloraré
Lloraré las penas.

Mi corazón esta en tus manos
Porque todo te lo he dado
Y entre tanto sufrimiento
Creo que se me ha maltratado
Estoy muriéndome
Por tus caricias y tus besos
Desnudándome la piel.

Mi corazón esta en tus manos
Y no puedo rescatarlo
No se como se libera
Un corazón enamorado
Esclavo de tu amor
Vagabundo que agoniza de dolor.

Veo pasar las noches en mi cruda soledad
Y en la luz del alma se que tu me extrañaras.

Lloraré las penas de mi corazón enamorado
Sufriré el lamento de este corazón ilusionado.

Pero no te voy a perdonar
Yo se que no volveré a pecar
Estas viejas trampas no funcionaran.

Lloraré las penas de mi corazón enamorado
Sufriré el lamento de este corazón ilusionado.

Se que tu calor voy a extrañar
Pero el tiempo es sabio y sanara
Esta herida anclada en mi corazón enamorado.

Mi corazón esta en tus manos
Y no puedo rescatarlo
No se como se libera
Un corazón enamorado
Esclavo de tu amor
Vagabundo que agoniza de dolor.

Veo pasar las noches en mi cruda soledad
Y en la luz del alma se que tu me extrañaras.

Lloraré las penas de mi corazón enamorado
Sufriré el lamento de este corazón ilusionado.

Pero no te voy a perdonar
Yo se que no volveré a pecar
Estas viejas trampas no funcionaran.

Lloraré las penas de mi corazón enamorado
Sufriré el lamento de este corazón ilusionado.

Se que tu calor voy a extrañar
Pero el tiempo es sabio y sanara
Esta herida anclada en mi corazón enamorado.

Veo pasar las noches en mi cruda soledad
Y que en la luz del alma se que tu me extrañaras.

Lloraré las penas de mi corazón enamorado
Sufriré el lamento de este corazón ilusionado.

Pero no te voy a perdonar
Yo se que no volveré a pecar
Estas viejas trampas no funcionaran.

Lloraré hay lloraré
Lloraré
Lloraré las penas.

Lloraré ay lloraré
Lloraré
Lloraré las penas.

Lloraré las penas de mi corazón enamorado
Sufriré el lamento de este corazón ilusionado.

Lloraré
Mi corazón enamorado
Lloraré las penas.


So, yeah...I'm feeling a bit tired right now, adios...WUV YOU NICOLE! ^-^
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Written about Friday 2005-03-18
Written: (7190 days ago)

It is officially spring break for me. No school until the week after next. Though I'll probably be alone most of the week. Well, until me and Stacy go to the mall that is. We're probably not going to buy anything though. We're going window shopping! XD Eheh, we're going because...

1.)We're going to be bored as fuck during break.
2.)We need something to do.
And...
3.)We need to get ideas as to what we're going to give our friends for their birthday's.

Yeah...I can't wait. Even though we might not even buy anything. Oh! And it's raining! ^-^ Started raining during gym though. While I was outside. So, I was basically siting in the rain for a while with Brenda and Rodrigo until it started raining harder. Which was when we decieded to move.

Oh yeah, Jasmine brought some manga today. ^-^ Model Vol. 1, Imadoki Vol. 5 and SOS. AND I READ THEM ALL! ^-^...The second story in SOS almost made me cry though...it was so sad. ;-;

And I think my science teacher is either on crack or the voices in his head had some sort of rebellion.-.- He gave everyone a D or an F. And I got a freakin' D! >.< My A went down to a D! And I've been doing all my work! The only work that I haven't done are the assignments that I missed during the TWO days(in total) that I've missed since the last grading period began! Damnit...-.-

Hrm, not sure what else to say. Except for the fact that I might get my hair done sometime during the week, and yeah. Well, buh bye now.

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Written about Friday 2005-03-18
Written: (7191 days ago)

Yay, I didn't get pinched today! O.o Seeing as I wore some green. Woo. Oh, and school was decent today. Except for science. Stupid fucks can't do anything on their own...no, they just have to copy my work. -.- Blegh, anyways. My art teacher didn't come! ^-^ But we had a substitute. We didn't really do much though. Besides the fact that we had to draw this picture on a blank piece of paper. Without tracing. Yeah...the first one came out deformed for many people. Well, more than he was on the original picture, anyways. O.o Some girl said that her version looked like ET. XD And it actually did. Creepeh. o.o

But other than that, I spent most of the class time reading, Desperation. About a hundred or so pages left! ^-^ And Jasmine is bringing me some manga tomorrow too. If she comes and doesn't forget that is. Eheh. ~.~

*blinks*...I just remembered that I still have Algebra homework to finish. Thank god that I only need a few more problems for one of them. I don't know if I want to do the other though, I don't get it.-.- But I'll try. Later. After I finish eating.

Well, I guess that's it for today. Buh bye now.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-03-16
Written: (7192 days ago)

-.-...Clinical depression. Stacy thinks I have clinical depression. Eh, she may be right. I don't know. But...I had a decent school day. Not going so good at home, but eh. C'est la vie. Dear god, I can't wait until I finish 9th grade and go to another high school. I hate most of the people at my school. Well, I don't hate them. It's just that most of those fuckers, excuse my French, really annoy the hell out of me.

Like today...ugh. It's like those bitches thought I didn't know English or what? Jesus Christ, I was standing right next to them. I'm going blind not deaf....stupid skanks. Or more like wannabe skanks. They aren't "sexy" in the freaky/scary/penny whore way either. They could at least wear clothes that keep the gut inside and not out. Oh yeah, real sexy, ladies. Real friggin sexy.

Blegh, I don't know what I'm doing on anyways. -.- I'm like the only one on at the moment. Maybe I should go...read or something. I'm almost done with Desperation. Just less than three hundred pages to go. Woo! Go me.

Lalala...I'm so bored right now. I have nothing to do and nobody to talk too. Besides family that is. But I don't want to talk to them. -.-

Oh yeah! I think I have to go to the dentist on Friday. My brother went today. The poor child...they pulled two of his teeth out. But I think they made them a little whiter than how they were before. O.o But I thought they were going to tell him that he needs braces. C'mon, look at him!(Well, his teeth...O.o) HE DOES! o.o I just need a new tooth brush because someone left mine on the floor to get dirty. -.- And I didn't notice it until a few days ago.

Hrm, my dad can't find that medicine that I have to take for the anemia thing. I think he said that he's going to try looking for it on Saturday. I can't remember.

And my sister just said that there's going to be a party on Saturday at my aunt's house. I hate parties...they are EBIL! EBIL I TELL YOU! Though my sister said that I don't have to go...YAYNESS! Too bad I'll be all alone...sob. ~.~

Ick, 60 messages on deviantArt. -.- Oh, and I have to wear green tomorrow. >.< Eh, thank god I have that green Eeyore shirt. I wuv Eeryore. He's so damn sexeh. XD Riiight...O.o

Ugh, two hours of art tomorrow. I hope it's okay like on Tuesday. Oh! And I have a test for life skills tomorrow too. Damnit.

Ah well...I don't know what else to put. And I have to get my things ready for school, so yeah. Bye now.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-03-16
Written: (7193 days ago)

Now I remember the name of the...thing that I have. It's anemia. Whee...I'm anemic. And, yeah...

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Written about Tuesday 2005-03-15
Written: (7193 days ago)

Surprise, surprise. I found out what's wrong with me. It's some illness or whatever. Lack of iron and all that junk...I honestly don't really care. Not today anyways...I mean, I'm just going to be taking some medication or whatever for three months...and...*shrugs*Whatever else comes with that. Plus I still haven't been getting enough sleep. I try, but I just feel so tired and worn out...and I'm getting all these headaches and I find it hard to concentrate on school(nothing new there)*sighs*Eh, I don't want to worry about that right now, too much crap at home for me to worry much about my health...heh, my mental health is already getting fucked up. -.-

And I just noticed how hard is for me to fight back tears. It's extremely difficult. Heh, they're falling already after...three minutes of me trying hard not to cry. Eh, family troubles again...depressing...eh, nothing new...

Well, besides that I had a decent day at school. Art was actually okay for once. And Life Skills was simple. As always. Though I have an essay due for that class. And science...was alright. Heh, I actually wrote down "Remember to bring Farenheight 451 tomorrow." on my left palm. I keep forgetting to bring it. Mainly because I have to look for it. But I'm happy that mi amor got my letter. Even though my writing sucks.-.-

Had an ineresting conversation with Stacy today. I won't go into detail because, well, I just can't. Heh, mainly, it was about how we both are. And how I look into the depth of everything I see that appears in my personal writing, and how she's the type of person that lingers in bewteen, yet not able to grasp anything deeper than what she's used to. Eh, I'm not making much sense. So yeah, bye now.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-03-15
Written: (7194 days ago)

There was a health fair at school today. Woo! We got to learn about STD's, drugs, and acting stupid when you're still a teen. Again. Oh, and condoms too. They were giving out free condoms. Oh! And lube as well. O.o They went out quickly though. XD Eheh, if I had gotten one...I would've probably opened it and stretched it out as far as it could go. I'm amused easily. >>;;; Rodrigo asked me what lube is and what it's used for. Yeah...I hate explaining things like that. -.-

And Stacy surprised me today. She actually said two perverted things that I would have never thought of. She's starting to scare me. A lot. o.o

Um, back to the health fair thing. I had to go twice. Different classes though. Life Skills and science. Yeah...I got a lot of stuff there. And I found this paper that shows how to use a condom. It has pictures...*blinks*I wonder what my mom would say if she found all those papers and such that tell about STD's, safe sex, why you shouldn't have sex, doing drugs, and so on and so forth. She might freak out and think I have problems or something. XD

Heh, but seriously. The whole sex thing can wait. If not until marriage, at least until I'm twenty-one and older. When I'm fully legal! WOO! O.o...Anyways, as I've heard so many times before, "Better to be safe than sorry." And why the hell am I still going on about this? Moving on...

Um, yeah. Spring break starts next week for me. It's a good thing because I get a break from school, but it's also a bad thing because I'm stuck at home. Alone(well, nobody to talk to anyways). With my parents fighting and Matthew waking me up at seven in the morning. Ah well...-.- But! I haven't been depressed lately! ^-^ Well, maybe just a twinge of sadness here and there, but nothing more! I've been pretty mellow lately. Be proud. And happy. DAMNIT! DO AS I SAY!...Biznitches...o.o;;;

Hrm, I guess that's enough for today. >> <<...I have nothing to do right now...*sniffs*...And I have two hours of art tomorrow. Oh happy joy joy...Well! I'm starting to become hyper, so yeah. Buh bye now.

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Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7195 days ago)

O.o... Oh my god. Yesterday, meh cousins came over to visit my grandpa. And, well...they gave me quite a shocker. They don't like rap anymore. Which is kind of creepy...I'm so used to them making fun of me for the type of music that I like... o.o They told me that they're into rock now. Especially classic rock. They like Aerosmith! ^-^ And the Ramones. Woo! >> << I noticed this by the band shirts they were wearing. Heh, we were all matching yesterday. O.o The three of us each had on a black band tee, jeans, and Vans. Friggin' awesome.

Anyways, we got bored of staying outside(plus it was nine o'clock at night and there were mosquitos...o.o), so we went to my uncle Joel's "house." (AKA: the garage) And we ended up watching some music videos by the Ramones. Lets see, what else? Oh! My uncle asked us if we wanted to go to this Tiger Army concert with him. We said yes, of course. So, if he can fix his car by then, he's going to take us. He already has the tickets! ^.^ I can't wait.

Um, what else? Hrm, parents are fighting again. Big surprise there. And I didn't get enough sleep last night. I was watching this wedding special on the Food Network...and, um, I didn't stop watching it until midnight. *coughs*So cute...>>;;; Hrm, so I went to sleep around 12:30...and woke up at one in the morning because of my parents. And that didn't stop until four...and I woke up again around six, fell asleep once more, and woke up at 8:30 in the morning. Which was when I gave up on trying to go back to sleep.

Damn, I haven't written a poem in such a long time. I guess I've been too mellow these past few days. Not good, but not bad either. I would rather stay "mellow" than depressed. But eh, family problems might change that soon. Help...-.- *sighs*And they weren't that thrilled about the whole UCLA thing. Heh. Can't please everyone, I guess.

My head hurts now. >.< And...I'm really tired. So, yeah...bye bye now.

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Written about Saturday 2005-03-12
Written: (7197 days ago)

Oh dear god, I AM SO FRIGGIN HAPPY! O.O...It has been a very long time since I've been this happy. I mean, yeah good things happen that make me happy a couple of times a month, but not enough to make me cry from joy and start laughing for no reason. o.o

Okay, here's the deal. Today during English, I forgot the book that we were supposed to bring and everyone in my class was like, "Oh my god! The best student didn't bring her book! WOW!"...Stupid fucks. But I'm the one that's almost done with it while most of them still haven't even finished the first part of the book. Which was supposed to be done by Monday. But Mr. Weronka knew that I was almost done, so yeah. Anyways, while everyone was doing their work, he called me up to his desk. I thought I was in trouble and I was so damn nervous. But then he told me about the last assignment that we had done. Which was a paragraph in which we had to write down "What we saw when we looked in the mirror." He asked me if I knew that I had talent. I shook my head, confused. And he said that I do. A lot of it. And he's not the only one saying so. He has this friend/student who is a senior in UCLA(the university that I REALLY want to attend) and she said that I write better than her. And that I have a lot of talent. Ooh, freakeh...O.o I'm like, still a freshman(WOMAN! XD) in high school...o.o;;; Odd.

She asked my teacher to ask me if it would be alright if we were both to meet. She said that she wants to hang out and get to know me and act like a "big sister" to me if possible.Like, she would mentor me. And help me with stuff. So, she gave my teacher her cell number and told him to call her with my answer. I said yes, but that I have to ask my parents. Even though I know that they'll agree. Hey, if it gets me into college, whatever. And I found out that she's training to become a doctor. And I want to become a pediatrition. Which is awesome.(my spelling is off, and my teacher knows it too. XD) Anyways, he's going to tell me on Monday how everything went. Plus he said that the whole book thing could slide and that I didn't have to do the punishment work that he handed out to those who didn't bring their books. He then allowed me to read some poems by William Carlos Williams. I think that was the name. I can't remember. Anyways, I loved the poems. And right now, I am so excited. I can't wait to tell my dad. Maybe he'll be more thrilled than my mom. Eheh. ^.^;;;

Oh! And I also found out that I managed to maintain my 'C' in algebra. THANK GOD! @.@ But I still might take summer school though. Mmhm. >> << So yeah, I basically had a good day today. Except when those fuckers in gym started bothering me.-.- I just ignored them. I really don't want to waste my time with stupid, weed smoking, sex obsessed, can't read for shit, might end up being a hobo on the street, low life scum. Whee, my algebra teacher says that a lot. Besides "shut up" that is. Hehe, low life scum...>>;;;

So, um, yeah. Sorry if I bored you. ME SO SOWWY! O.o;; And...PIZZA TIME! So yeah, bye bye now! ^-^

I wuv you all,
      Stephanie.

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Written about Thursday 2005-03-10
Written: (7199 days ago)

Had two tests today. @.@ One for Algebra and one for English. The one for English was simple. And a district test. Now the one for Algebra, hell no. I didn't understand crap. -.- Ah well, bye bye 'C' hello summer school.(Not like I have much to do during the summer, really.)

And I was going to write Matt's letter during English, but we had the test. Even though I finished it before the class was even over. And that's two hours long. I ended up reading the manga that Jasmine let me borrow. Oh god, it was so good! @.@ I can't wait for the rest! I think it's called Imadoki. Can't remember. >>;;; But I saw Nancy this morning! Whee! *twirls* << >>

Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, had two hours of gym today. Gah. So dull. Oh! And I saw many things on the way home. Besides the usual horny couple making out that is. -.- Um, in the morning I saw lots of cops in front of this store with guns out. O.o And on the way home I saw a car that had been split in two because it had crashed into a street sign, and I saw some people getting arrested soon after that, which was then followed by some more cops in front of this...car place. Not sure about that one, but yeah.

Anyways, that's enough for today. I have a letter to write(finished Nicole's ^-^), so bye bye now.

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