Whee...my bus was in an "accident" today. XD In other words, it smashed into some parked car and broke one of it's side windows off. It sounded like someone was shooting at the bus. And of course, because I was spaced out when it happend...I freaked out. I mean, the people in front of me gasped and ducked. So of course, they probably thought the same thing. Stacy jumped. Heh. She was busy doing her homework so we were both oblivous to everything. I mean, if we were in Inglewood, then yeah...shooting would seem very likely. But we were about...three minutes away from the school. And our bus driver had to take down our names, phone number, parent's name, and address. Stacy asked me why. I just shrugged and said, "Witness protection program?" I was being sarcastic...but it was pretty funny. >> <<

So yeah. We were stuck out side of a church from 7:30 until it was almost nine...we missed all of first period. And that's how my day started. The rest of it was okay. My art teacher didn't come. I WAS SAVED! XD For now anyways. I have art for two hours tomorrow.-.- Damnit. Ah well. Uhm...I have English and algebra homework to do. The homework for English is simple...and interesting. Whee. Algebra...I missed the lesson due to me having to check and make sure I did the other homework right. -.- Other than that, yeah. School was rather dull. Except for the whole bus thing. ^.^;;; And Brenda is on Myspace! Yayness! And...I don't feel good now. Ugh. ;-; So...adios now.

Ignore the last entry...I'm feeling a bit better now. I guess it was the movie. o.o;;; But yeah...I'm fine now. Eh, I'm still in a fucked up mood. So I guess I'm not feeling better...and I'm not crying anymore...I'm sobbing, trembling, and whimpering, but hey. It could be worse. So, yeah. Adios. Again....

Parents want me to go watch a movie with them. And I really don't want too. I just want to go to my room and...stay there. I guess I'm not in a very good mood. Heh, it's not like it's too difficult to see, eh? Mm, dad made me go check on my grandpa...and I almost started crying. Hell, the tears are apparent in my eyes right now but I'm trying to fight them back. He's so thin and pale now...god. He looks so...fragile. And now I'm crying...I can't fight it for too long, really. Ehm, it's almost four thirty here...it about...three minutes. I guess I'll leave soon...or whenever they tell me to go watch the movie with them. Unless I can convince them otherwise.

Eh, I have half an hour left...so...I don't know. Argh...I need a hug...or something. And proper sleep. Even though I've been trying to go to sleep early for the past week. Ah well. Oh, yay. I got away from watching the movie. Heh, man I must look really depressed or something...which, I guess I am. Besides my grandpa dying of cancer...I don't know why else I should be depressed about...I'm guessing it's a mood swing...seems like it. Yeah...that's it. A mood swing. Mmhm...

Wow, I really do look depressed...and really freakin' pale. And not my usual paleness either. I look sick. Woo...I'm pouting/frowning, paler than usual and my eyes appear really...sad. Damnit. Mm...I think they're watching the movie now...guess I'll watch a little bit of it. Adios now.

Ugh...I don't feel good. My stomach really freakin' hurts. And so does my head. Blegh. The pain. -.- Ehm...Jasmine brought D.N.Angel for me. I've already finished the first volume. Yayness. And I'm almost done with the second one. Oh, the test for algebra was postponed until Monday. Thank god. But I got a 'C' on the last one. XD Much better change from my past test scores. >>;;; Heh, me and Stacy were the only ones who passed that test. Out of ALL the algebra classes that our teacher has. Wow...But I got out of school early today. Yayness! And, um, I found out which new high school I'm going to. It's a new, state of the art high school here in S.G....with a ghetto sounding name. Sounds like a gang name or something. XD Heh, and it's in the borderline of South Gate and South Central. Woo...ugh...I'd write more, but I'm in too much pain right now. Oh god...what if it's...? Damnit.-.- I'm gonna go now. Adios.

Like, dude...I'm going to go see Robots today. O_O POPCORN! AND CAFFINE! YAY! XD And I think I'll be gone next weekend. My parents said we might be going to San Diego for a day or so. Sea World or Legoland. XD Or maybe Knotts Berry Farm. O.o I don't know. They just told me. Like when they told me that we were going to Robots today. Now I have to start getting ready. Right now we're wondering if we should take Matthew. o.o He can't stay still for too long. Like me. ^.^;;; Anyways, yeah. I got over the bitchyness that I was feeling yesterday. Sorry about that. >.<;;; I'm okie now. :3 A bit tired, but okie. ^-^ Well, I better go now. Adios!

God, today sucked. And my head really hurts right now. I just wanna crawl into the far corner of my room, cry, and pretend like everything is just fine...or whatever. Heh, I got the crying part going already. God fucking damnit...I really hate this place. And I can't wait for the stupid divorce to come. Maybe then some of this frustration and depression will go away. I don't know. I'm just really freakin' tired right now...and I don't feel like being online right now. So I'll either be back later today or sometime tomorrow, I guess. I think I'm gonna go read or something...Adios.

O Romeo, Romeo! Where art thou Romeo? *giggles*WHEE! SUGAR! XD *blinks*>> << I am never going to read outloud with Stacy ever again. XD Especially not Romeo And Juliet. o.o Lookeh! O.o

Me:...I don't wanna be Juliet and her mom.>.<
Stacy: So? I'm the nurse! ^-^
Me:...Can I be the one that kills the nurse, instead?
Stacy:O.o There's no part like that...
Me: We'll find a way. Trust me. We will.
Stacy:O.o...
Me:Great. I get to have intimateness with Romeo. Awesome. o.o

::Few minutes later::
Me: Who's going to be Romeo?
Stacy: You! ^.^
Me: NO! >.< I'm already Juliet. YOU BE THE MAN!
Stacy:O.O...NO!
Me: I already have two parts! >.<
Stacy:-.- Fine. Start here.*points at a passage in her book*
Me: *looks at it**reads:*Romeo!
Stacy: My sweet?
Me and Stacy:...O.O...*glance over at each other*...XD
Me: O Romeo, Romeo! XD
Stacy: XD
Me:...I feel like I'm your bitch because of this.-.-
Stacy:O.o...XD

Yeah...that was freakin' hilarious, dude. O.o...XD *hums*I got a 'B' in Science and an 'A' in Life Skills. WOO! PARTY! ^-^ And Rodrigo didn't bother me today. THANK GOD! >.< Urgh...he scares me.-.- Anyways, yeah. School was decent and...we took this career test thingy for Life Skills. And I scored high on Artistic, Investigative, and Social career...things. And I picked the following careers that were listed for them...

Artistic
Creative Writer
Costume Attendant
Photographer
Poet&Lyricist
Writer&Author
Fashion Stylist/Designer (>>;;; <<;;;)
Set Designer

Investigative
Pediatrician(general)
Psychiatrist
Sociologist
Environmental Science & Protection Technician

Social
Child care worker
Kindergarten teacher
Preschool teacher
Nursing
Medical assistant

And yeah...>> << I have algebra homework to finish. But I'm almost done! ^.^ So, uhm...yeah. Adios now! ^.^;;;;

Gym is so pervy. o.o Charles asked me an odd question, which I might normally answer if a girl had asked me, but whenever a guy asks me that, I start laughing. Size. Big or small. O.O Hrm...I liked Samie's response..."The size of the prize doesn't matter, the motion of the ocean does." I couldn't stop laughing. XD Erica and Samie are perverted though. And so is Rodrigo. o.o But I'm not going to put down what they said. Eh. O_o;;; Oh, and Rodrigo asked me if he could sit on my lap.-.- I told him no. That unless he was a very cute baby/baby animal, or Matt of course, then he'd have a chance. But he isn't. So meh to him. -.-

Anyways, enough of that. >> << My art teacher isn't going to come the whole entire week! Yay! The relief! ^-^ But we still have work to do.-.- Boo. Anyways, yeah. Um...me and Colin got the highest test scores for the test we took for Farenheight 451 for English. Which is sad, really. Everyone else got a sixty or lower. I got an 84 and Colin got a 72...or was it 70? Eh, somewhere along those lines. But yeah. I felt smart for once today. XD How sad...o.o

Oh yeah! I went to Alice's house yesterday! It was great seeing her again. I haven't seen her since June of last year. ;-; She almost choked me though. Like, twice. o.o She's shorter than me, and when she saw that I had already arrived she pounced on me and hugged me tight enough to almost cut off my air supply. @.@ Vanessa did the same. Though not as hard. Thank god. -.- But it was fun, either way. :3 Alice got a puppy from her brother. It's name is Kitty. XD Whee...>> <<

Uhm...what else? Oh, Jade was looking at my folder today...and found Matt's letter. And read it. She kept saying things like, "Oh! You two are so adorable!" Or, "How sweet!" "So cute." "You two are so freakin' cute together." I was just...scared. o.o She scared me. A lot. I didn't know whether to blush or scoot away from her. So I did both. ^.^;;; Heh. And...yeah. >> << Hrm...stomach hurts. And I need to finish checking all 106 messages that I got on deviantART, so yeah. Adios now. ^-^

Just got back from the mall about an hour ago. Hope Alice likes her present. ^.^ It's this green shirt with MEXICANA written on the front. It's so cool. And Vanessa and Stacy are going to her house tomorrow too! Yay! I'll only be gone for about three or four hours. Seeing as I have school and all. -.- Ah well. At least I can see them all again. ^-^ And I'm hungry. So yeah. Adios!

Cold...sleepy...-.- Blegh. I have a feeling that today isn't going to be much of a good day. My siblings woke me up early again. Then again, they always do. I made myself even more tired last night by crying, and the damn wind kept making the lights turn off. Anyways, back to today. Uhm, yeah. It already sucks.-.- Ah well. At least I have a few things to keep me distracted today. The Shining (the book, not the movie), homework (ew...) and the fact that I'm probably going to the mall to buy [cvg54] a birthday present late today, seeing as tomorrow is her birthday and I'm going over to her house for about four hours or so. So I won't be gone that long. Anyways, yeah. Gotta go finish cleaning now. Adios.

There was a job fair thing at school today. I got a free pen. Ooh. Wow. I could've gotten another one, but you had to talk to the person behind the booth first. Or else if you tried getting one of the free things they would make you talk to them and ask them questions about their work or whatever. It was Rodrigo's fault that it happened the first time.-.- But yeah, it was alright. There were make-up artist there too! Some girls were getting manicures and stuff. O.o Plus this guy in my class was getting a..."make over" too. If you think making it look like he has a bruise on his right cheek and this giant, nasty white bump on his forehead a great make-over. It was so cool. XD

And, um, yeah. Art was okay today. And I guess science was alright as well. Nothing interesting, really. Well, except for the bus ride home. Me and Stacy couldn't stop laughing. Whee...I'm hyper. >> << *blinks*And I have homework to do. >.< Better get started on it. So, yeah. Adios now.

Jasmine brought some new manga today. Prétear. It's pretty good, really. ^.^ She's bringing volumes three and four tomorrow. Yay! Heh, she's reading Demon Diary all over again. That's like the only manga in which I have the whole series. XD I can never continue with one exact series because I always end up finding some other manga. >>;;; Eheh. Anyways, I had art for two hours today. It was alright. Spent the first hour shading in my picture. I finished it! Yay! Even though it didn't come out that great. Oh well. *sniffs* TT.TT

Uhm...I spent the second hour reading the first volume of Prétear and most of the second one. I hate Himeno's older step-sister. The stupid, skanky bitch. -.- *blinks*Anyways, yeah! ^.^;;; Um, I guess I had a pretty decent school day by the looks of it. Hopefully tomorrow goes well, too. Heh, school has been pretty decent lately. Almost June...I don't even know if I want it to be summer. That means I have to stay home with my mom all summer. Whee...fighting. Mm, school life is better than all the crap that's going on at home. Still. Blegh. I better go start on my homework now. Adios. ^^

Dear god, talk about a mood-swing. I started off being hyper and in a pretty good mood and now I'm on the verge of tears. Really freakin' wonderful. God, I'm getting tired of this. And now my parents are fighting again. Heh, an excuse for this sudden mood-swing. Mm, I have homework to finish. Hopefully I'll finish it late...I don't want to go to sleep. Not today. I think I'll read The Shining until I can't stay awake any more. Heh. I'm such an ungrateful bitch at times. Well, it feels like it. I think I just make my problems seem bigger than they really are. I guess, anyways. *sighs*Fighting is getting worse...I better get my things ready for school tomorrow. And my homework finished. Adios.

Oh, god I'm tired. They woke me up again.*sobs*TWICE! Well, no...three times really. -.- And by they, I mean family. Whee...my hair is a mess. As it always is once I wake up. ^.^;;; Oh, and I finished reading the manga last night. Yayness. ^-^ Hope Jasmine brings volume seven on Monday. >>;;; I think I fell asleep late though...I was bored last night around ten, so I got my brother's GBA SP...and played Super Mario Bros. 3. I missed that game. XD I played in the dark though. That way nobody would come into my room to bother me. O.o And...yeah.

*yawns*Sleepeh...x.o *blinks*I should finish up on that book for English...but I have to go take care of Matthew, because Peter left him alone. -.- So, yeah. Buh bye now.

MANGA! YAY! ^-^ Jasmine brought Fruits Basket volumes five and six for me. And Stacy finished reading Model volume five, so now I can read it too! ^.^ I didn't get a chance to read much of the manga though. --> Spent second period working on algrebra homework while paying half attention to the lesson going on, which was then followed by a quiz. I think I at least got one question right. XD Fourth period(English) we had to watch the movie version of Farenheight 451. Some of the parts made me wonder if I missed something while I was reading the book. o.o But anyways, yeah. Had to take notes on it and all that "good" stuff. Sixth period was gym, and I didn't get much reading done because Sean(shorter version of his name, oh and that's the guy I met who likes anime) kept going on and on about Love Hina, Peach Girl, and other manga. And I didn't want to be rude, so...yeah. -.- But at least I have something to read over the weekend. Event hough I have to finish that book before Monday for english. >>;;; Luckily, I'm almost done. ^.^

Um, not much else to say except family is being annoying as usual and I have nothing much to do except read. Yayness... Blegh, family problems. Just holding it all in. Keep the pain inside isn't doing much for me. Even though I haven't been that depressed lately. Just a couple of mood-swings here and there I guess. Even though I've been really pissed off at times. Due to family. Dear god, I wish they would all shut up. I feel like hurting someone. *sighs*-.- Ah well, I'm off to read some manga now. Adios.

Mmm...caffine.*pokes glass of coke absently*Hrm, school. Yay...Almost June...YAY!!! o.o *blinks*Oh, my parents know that I have a boyfriend.*nods*My dad said that it's alright...as long as I don't do anything stupid. Which I doubt I ever will. Not until I'm older...and less mental. Heh, he doesn't want me to end up like my cousin's. My cousin Javier got some girl pregnant, and his sister(my cousin Leslie) ran off to Mexico with her boyfriend a few days before Christmas. And she's only a year older than me. So, yeah. My parents don't want me to end up like them, and I understand. And I believe they really are getting a divorce now. Ah well, c'est la vie. Life only sucks because shit happens. To everyone. Wouldn't it be so dull if nothing ever did happen? Heh.

Moving on...school was okay. Algebra was so freakin' boring, and we had a test. Which I know I probably failed. XD We were going over some problems that had to do with the stuff on the test, and I understood everything. I was like, "^-^ I actually get it!" And then I saw the test a few minutes later "...And now I'm lost." Ah well. Um, english was hilarious today. And embarrassing on my part. Hrm, on Monday Mr. Weronka made us do a writting assignment. "Thirteen Ways To Look At My Culture." And mine is Mexican-American. Not Mexican culture...but not American culture either. A mixture of the two. So, I wrote thirteen small and seperate things about how I saw my culture. And today, he read it out loud. Without saying who wrote it, of course. He just said that it was the Mexican-American culture. So, of course, everyone started glancing around trying to see who it was. Until they got to me. Colin turned around and asked me, with this awe-struck look in his face, if I had written it. I just nodded. But everyone still didn't know, so Colin told them. Heh, and Helen turned around and just looked at me in the same look that Colin had before. And then when everyone knew, Mr. Weronka said that it was me who had written and...blah blah blah. @.@ And then Colin and a few other guys in my class kept saying things like, "Dude! That was fresh! You should be like...a poet or something!" And I just started laughing. It was so hard trying to keep myself from blushing. x.x But yeah...it wasn't THAT good. I only had less then twenty minutes to write it...x.o;;;

Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, I met a guy in my gym class that love manga too. I spent the whole period just kicking it with him and talking about anime and manga. It was freakin' hilarious. XD...He just sat too close for comfort. @.@ *shudders* Too much accidental touchy-touchy stuff coming from him. Ugh. -.- But he told me to bring him two volumes of Demon Diary, W Juliet, and...some other manga that I forgot. ^.^;;; But, anyways. He's pretty cool. So gym isn't that boring anymore.

Oh! And I mailed Matt's letter today. Got me some stamps too. ^-^ Whee. *blinks*Oh crap...my art project. I better start working on it. -.- *sighs*...Well, adios! ^-^

Ugh, stomach hurts. Meh, anyways...school. Whee. It was okay, I guess. Got my ten dollars from my Life Skills teacher. Yayness. But my mom picked me up early so I didn't have time to go and buy the stamps. Now I have to wait until I get another chance. Which may be on Friday. Unless Stacy can bring me one before then. Hrm, anyways...Couldn't find any clothes to wear last night, so I ended up wearing my ripped jeans(which I haven't worn in a long time) and the shirt that I wore on Christmas. It's cool...but kind of tight.-.- So, I kept my hoodie on all day. Then again, I always do. Eheh. I was in a good mood a while ago. Mainly because the bus ride home was freakin' hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing. Stacy said that I had this rare look in my face, as if I was a little girl or something. Eh...? Anyways, that didn't last long. Mom told me that my dad is now getting a lawyer to begin the process of a divorce. I guess he's had it with everything. Mainly because he's sick of making our lives miserable and because of what happened today. She left my two brother's alone for over an hour. And, well, the oldest of the two isn't that good at staying home alone for that long, especially if something happens... and...*shrugs*Whatever...there's more...but I don't feel like saying anything about it. So yeah...I'm done. Adios.

And back to school I go...*yawns*Blegh, I'm tired. I didn't even sleep last night. It was more like, countless naps. I actually fell asleep around one thirty in the morning. Because of my parents. Well, I had been asleep before that. I had actually gone to sleep around ten something...and woke up again around midnight. Which sucks, because I actually found a comfy spot in my bed....which I lost once I woke up. So, I ended up tossing and turning all night, falling asleep, waking up, then falling asleep again, and so on and so forth. Ugh...so tired. -.-...*stares at 84 messages in deviantART*...*sobs* The horror...;-;

...Anyways, what else? Um, I found out that my algebra teacher had changed the assignment, so I had to basically do all the problems in today's homework during class. She had added problems #69 through #103...and I had only done #71 through #93.(After I did the main problems...nineteen through...something something.) Well, I skipped a few, but yeah. Well, I finished everything about...ten minutes before the class was over. Which means I missed the lesson on the homework which is due on Wednesday. So yeah, I'm screwed. As always. -.-

Art was once again somewhat bearable today. And I hope it stays that way. English was alright, science was a bore, and gym was...windy. Really freakin' windy. My hair was such a mess. -.- Oh! And I'm going to get ten dollars from my Life Skills teacher. Because I'm the first and only one to have brought back a reply from a college. ^-^ Yay! Free money! FOR ME! >> <<

Um, yeah. Tired...and kind of cold. So...adios now!

What a way to start off easter. My grandfather is in the hospital again. He was rushed there a few minutes ago. Well, around 11:00am, that is. Mm, c'est la vie I guess...well, I better start getting ready. I have to finish cleaning and then I have to iron my clothes so I can go take a shower. My dad is taking me to get a few things once he gets back from the hospital. I'll probably only be gone for two hours or so. But that's only for the mall thing. I don't know what else may occur later. But I still have homework to do. Heh. Simple homework...I just need to stop getting so distracted. I'll do the one for Algebra first and then work on the one for English. Mmhm...

But, at least I did something good today. I helped make [Shishiru] happy again. ^-^ Yayness. I feel special again. And...I have a Selena song stuck in my head, which also features David Byrne. Eheh. It's...God's Child(Baila Conmigo). Canción del vampiro, gloria de amor...song of the vampire, glory of love. Whee, I love that part of the song. Well, there's more to it. But I like that part the most. Here's the whole thing...

Canción del vampiro
Gloria de amor
Es nuestro reino
Pero vean lo que hemos hecho...

Song of the vampire
Glory of love
It is our kingdom
But they see what we have done...

Eheh...yeah. Well, I better go...finish whatever I'm supposed to do. So, yeah...happy easter, I guess. Adios.

Mental stress...not good.-.- Broke down more than once today. Everything is so tense right now. Blegh. I'm exhausted too. And I just noticed that I had algebra homework to do during break. Eh, I'll do it tonight. Not like I have anything to do. And my English homework too. Eheh...I'm so lazy...

Got a hair cut today...it's alright, I guess. Though my hair is shorter...*sighs* But it's still in layers. And I decieded not to dye it or whatever. I'm going to wait until it gets a little longer and my anemia isn't as bad.*shrugs* Hrm...yeah. Still haven't gotten the medicine. I think we're going to try and get it tomorrow. And two new shirts for me. Maybe. I'm going to try and get Alice's present too. I should have enough money...but I still need stamps. God damnit.-.- I'll see what I can afford tomorrow...What else? Um...I'm tired right now. Crying does that to me.-.- But I'm mellow now, so it's all cool...sorta.

Oh, and I managed to get a hold of Kathy. Yayness. But I can only talk to her through e-mail for now. Even though she gave me her house number. And her cell number. I need to know when's the best time to call. Plus I gotta tell Stacy and Jasmine. I'm sure they're going to be happy. Thank god I remembered her e-mail. ^-^...Well, I better get started on those 53 messages that I have on deviantART. Ugh...so, yeah. Adios.

Fifth and last day of spring break:

Spring break has ended. In my mind anyways. The next two days will be filled of me doing homework that I should've done this week. I've been practicing my procrastination skills. Mmhm...>>;;; Oh lazyness, how I loath you so. Anyways! Yeah...I cleaned my dresser today. Even though I was suppose to do that on Monday. Well, I almost finished. It's still a bit of a mess, so yeah...

Um...I made a new "discovery" while talking to Alex*glomps [ArkyLarky]*>> << I cannot be a girly girl. Yet I know that I can be a very girly guy. Seeing as most of my clothing tend to be baggy.(Except those los-rise jeans that I cover with my hoodie...O.o) If not for the...curves and most of my facial features, I could pass as one. No matter my..."longish" hair. O.o

Moving on...I may get a hair cut this weekend. If I feel like it. I'm having second thoughts now. Help me. ~.~ I do need a trim...especially help with my split ends. Which hate me. A lot. So, yeah. Probably on Sunday. I don't know for sure yet. But, maybe.

So, yeah. Today was rather dull. And cold. Even though everyone kept saying it was hot. I think I'll go listen to music now. Mwuah! Adios.