Well, I sure am in a bad mood today...I feel like crying...but then I don't...and I also feel like telling many people about how much shit they've put me through...but...then I don't....So, whatever. I don't fucking care. Meh. I won't be here for most of the day. I have to go to the mall with my family. And I'll probably be forced to get something I don't want to wear, listen to my parents argue over who get's the most custody over my siblings and I, and I'll probably start feeling sick somewhere between that and when I come home. Whenever that is. I'll take my cell though...and call...whomever. *shrugs*Doubt I'll even have to use it. But, eh. Whee...Nine Inch Nails...*hums*...Meh...I don't feel like putting anything else here right now. So, yeah. Adios.

Head hurts...and I'm sore. Yay...school was okay, I guess. Bus broke down in the morning, so we got to the first period of the day a bit late. Not like the last time though...Oh! And my English teacher gave me the number and e-mail from the lady(Sue Song) from UCLA. I'm going to e-mail her later today or sometime during the weekend. So we can plan our first meeting or whatever. Yayness. I just gotta tell my parents. Heh.

Mm, gym was...rather annoying. Rodrigo kept bothering me. So I ended up slapping him around. And I somehow managed to pull on his ear. O.o Brenda got it on video, I think. XD Then he took my folder.-.- But Steven got it back for me! ^-^ Oh, and Shondell and Erica broke up. Lots of drama that I don't want to get into right now.

Hrm...I felt like hell yesterday. I found out something that made me gasp harshly in surprise, my body to feel ice cold...and my heart hurt. It was as if someone...did something to it. God, it hurt so much. I was on the verge of tears when I found out. I'm not going to say much about it. Now I'm just paranoid and greatly pissed off about it. Moving on...I don't want to eat. But they just made me, so...yeah. Adios now...

That bastard didn't come! >.< GAH! HE OWES ME TWO FREAKIN' DOLLARS! -.- I had to pay for the bus pass with my money, when he was the one who lost it. I'm going to kill Rodrigo (and reduce the chance of him reproducing in case I don't) tomorrow if he doesn't pay me back. -.- But, anyways yeah. Had a test for Life Skills...and I have no idea how bad/good I did. Art was okay. Made a new friend or whatever. Her name is Elizabeth. And she's a senior...who thinks freshmen are adorable. O.o But she's cool. She's in my art class. And she started talking to me because she likes The Ramones and saw that I was wearing a Ramones shirt last week and yeah. ^.^;;; She's shorter than me...and likes making friends with 9th graders. And I'm taller than her...and like making friends with seniors. Heh. But, yeah. Science was dull. As always.

And I went to that meeting for my new school yesterday. It was okay. Found out that when you get there, you get to pick an academy of your interest and they're going to give you classes that will reflect that profession in which that academy associates with. Which is freakin' awesome. I'm probably going to pick Academic Prep University Academy. Or whatever it's called. There's going to be another meeting next month. Woo. Stacy went too. Heh. She didn't see me but I saw her. XD Typical. Uhm...algebra, english, and gym tomorrow. Yay. And I have homework to do. Boo. AND WE DIDN'T CRASH TODAY! XD And...bye now. >>;;;

Whee, the bus crashed again. This time into the back of some truck on the way home. XD Again, I was spaced out...so it came as a surprised. Woo...that was freakin' funny. Oh yeah, I want to kill Rodrigo even more than before. He lost my freakin' bus pass. And because of that...I almost kicked him in the crotch about...six times. The best I got was his thigh because he kept covering himself.-.- So...I ended up making fun of him. More than usual, anyways. Lesse...Vin tried to kill himself during gym today. I think it was Chris or Steven's fault. Or so Erica and Shondell said. I don't know. I just saw Vin trying to slash his wrist and then choke himself. And something with tape. Charles stopped him though. And then made sure he got to his bus safetly. Well...I won't be on later today as far as I know. Have a meeting to go too. So, yeah...I better go now. Adios!

Whee...my bus was in an "accident" today. XD In other words, it smashed into some parked car and broke one of it's side windows off. It sounded like someone was shooting at the bus. And of course, because I was spaced out when it happend...I freaked out. I mean, the people in front of me gasped and ducked. So of course, they probably thought the same thing. Stacy jumped. Heh. She was busy doing her homework so we were both oblivous to everything. I mean, if we were in Inglewood, then yeah...shooting would seem very likely. But we were about...three minutes away from the school. And our bus driver had to take down our names, phone number, parent's name, and address. Stacy asked me why. I just shrugged and said, "Witness protection program?" I was being sarcastic...but it was pretty funny. >> <<

So yeah. We were stuck out side of a church from 7:30 until it was almost nine...we missed all of first period. And that's how my day started. The rest of it was okay. My art teacher didn't come. I WAS SAVED! XD For now anyways. I have art for two hours tomorrow.-.- Damnit. Ah well. Uhm...I have English and algebra homework to do. The homework for English is simple...and interesting. Whee. Algebra...I missed the lesson due to me having to check and make sure I did the other homework right. -.- Other than that, yeah. School was rather dull. Except for the whole bus thing. ^.^;;; And Brenda is on Myspace! Yayness! And...I don't feel good now. Ugh. ;-; So...adios now.

Ignore the last entry...I'm feeling a bit better now. I guess it was the movie. o.o;;; But yeah...I'm fine now. Eh, I'm still in a fucked up mood. So I guess I'm not feeling better...and I'm not crying anymore...I'm sobbing, trembling, and whimpering, but hey. It could be worse. So, yeah. Adios. Again....

Parents want me to go watch a movie with them. And I really don't want too. I just want to go to my room and...stay there. I guess I'm not in a very good mood. Heh, it's not like it's too difficult to see, eh? Mm, dad made me go check on my grandpa...and I almost started crying. Hell, the tears are apparent in my eyes right now but I'm trying to fight them back. He's so thin and pale now...god. He looks so...fragile. And now I'm crying...I can't fight it for too long, really. Ehm, it's almost four thirty here...it about...three minutes. I guess I'll leave soon...or whenever they tell me to go watch the movie with them. Unless I can convince them otherwise.

Eh, I have half an hour left...so...I don't know. Argh...I need a hug...or something. And proper sleep. Even though I've been trying to go to sleep early for the past week. Ah well. Oh, yay. I got away from watching the movie. Heh, man I must look really depressed or something...which, I guess I am. Besides my grandpa dying of cancer...I don't know why else I should be depressed about...I'm guessing it's a mood swing...seems like it. Yeah...that's it. A mood swing. Mmhm...

Wow, I really do look depressed...and really freakin' pale. And not my usual paleness either. I look sick. Woo...I'm pouting/frowning, paler than usual and my eyes appear really...sad. Damnit. Mm...I think they're watching the movie now...guess I'll watch a little bit of it. Adios now.

Ugh...I don't feel good. My stomach really freakin' hurts. And so does my head. Blegh. The pain. -.- Ehm...Jasmine brought D.N.Angel for me. I've already finished the first volume. Yayness. And I'm almost done with the second one. Oh, the test for algebra was postponed until Monday. Thank god. But I got a 'C' on the last one. XD Much better change from my past test scores. >>;;; Heh, me and Stacy were the only ones who passed that test. Out of ALL the algebra classes that our teacher has. Wow...But I got out of school early today. Yayness! And, um, I found out which new high school I'm going to. It's a new, state of the art high school here in S.G....with a ghetto sounding name. Sounds like a gang name or something. XD Heh, and it's in the borderline of South Gate and South Central. Woo...ugh...I'd write more, but I'm in too much pain right now. Oh god...what if it's...? Damnit.-.- I'm gonna go now. Adios.

Like, dude...I'm going to go see Robots today. O_O POPCORN! AND CAFFINE! YAY! XD And I think I'll be gone next weekend. My parents said we might be going to San Diego for a day or so. Sea World or Legoland. XD Or maybe Knotts Berry Farm. O.o I don't know. They just told me. Like when they told me that we were going to Robots today. Now I have to start getting ready. Right now we're wondering if we should take Matthew. o.o He can't stay still for too long. Like me. ^.^;;; Anyways, yeah. I got over the bitchyness that I was feeling yesterday. Sorry about that. >.<;;; I'm okie now. :3 A bit tired, but okie. ^-^ Well, I better go now. Adios!

God, today sucked. And my head really hurts right now. I just wanna crawl into the far corner of my room, cry, and pretend like everything is just fine...or whatever. Heh, I got the crying part going already. God fucking damnit...I really hate this place. And I can't wait for the stupid divorce to come. Maybe then some of this frustration and depression will go away. I don't know. I'm just really freakin' tired right now...and I don't feel like being online right now. So I'll either be back later today or sometime tomorrow, I guess. I think I'm gonna go read or something...Adios.

O Romeo, Romeo! Where art thou Romeo? *giggles*WHEE! SUGAR! XD *blinks*>> << I am never going to read outloud with Stacy ever again. XD Especially not Romeo And Juliet. o.o Lookeh! O.o

Me:...I don't wanna be Juliet and her mom.>.<
Stacy: So? I'm the nurse! ^-^
Me:...Can I be the one that kills the nurse, instead?
Stacy:O.o There's no part like that...
Me: We'll find a way. Trust me. We will.
Stacy:O.o...
Me:Great. I get to have intimateness with Romeo. Awesome. o.o

::Few minutes later::
Me: Who's going to be Romeo?
Stacy: You! ^.^
Me: NO! >.< I'm already Juliet. YOU BE THE MAN!
Stacy:O.O...NO!
Me: I already have two parts! >.<
Stacy:-.- Fine. Start here.*points at a passage in her book*
Me: *looks at it**reads:*Romeo!
Stacy: My sweet?
Me and Stacy:...O.O...*glance over at each other*...XD
Me: O Romeo, Romeo! XD
Stacy: XD
Me:...I feel like I'm your bitch because of this.-.-
Stacy:O.o...XD

Yeah...that was freakin' hilarious, dude. O.o...XD *hums*I got a 'B' in Science and an 'A' in Life Skills. WOO! PARTY! ^-^ And Rodrigo didn't bother me today. THANK GOD! >.< Urgh...he scares me.-.- Anyways, yeah. School was decent and...we took this career test thingy for Life Skills. And I scored high on Artistic, Investigative, and Social career...things. And I picked the following careers that were listed for them...

Artistic
Creative Writer
Costume Attendant
Photographer
Poet&Lyricist
Writer&Author
Fashion Stylist/Designer (>>;;; <<;;;)
Set Designer

Investigative
Pediatrician(general)
Psychiatrist
Sociologist
Environmental Science & Protection Technician

Social
Child care worker
Kindergarten teacher
Preschool teacher
Nursing
Medical assistant

And yeah...>> << I have algebra homework to finish. But I'm almost done! ^.^ So, uhm...yeah. Adios now! ^.^;;;;

Gym is so pervy. o.o Charles asked me an odd question, which I might normally answer if a girl had asked me, but whenever a guy asks me that, I start laughing. Size. Big or small. O.O Hrm...I liked Samie's response..."The size of the prize doesn't matter, the motion of the ocean does." I couldn't stop laughing. XD Erica and Samie are perverted though. And so is Rodrigo. o.o But I'm not going to put down what they said. Eh. O_o;;; Oh, and Rodrigo asked me if he could sit on my lap.-.- I told him no. That unless he was a very cute baby/baby animal, or Matt of course, then he'd have a chance. But he isn't. So meh to him. -.-

Anyways, enough of that. >> << My art teacher isn't going to come the whole entire week! Yay! The relief! ^-^ But we still have work to do.-.- Boo. Anyways, yeah. Um...me and Colin got the highest test scores for the test we took for Farenheight 451 for English. Which is sad, really. Everyone else got a sixty or lower. I got an 84 and Colin got a 72...or was it 70? Eh, somewhere along those lines. But yeah. I felt smart for once today. XD How sad...o.o

Oh yeah! I went to Alice's house yesterday! It was great seeing her again. I haven't seen her since June of last year. ;-; She almost choked me though. Like, twice. o.o She's shorter than me, and when she saw that I had already arrived she pounced on me and hugged me tight enough to almost cut off my air supply. @.@ Vanessa did the same. Though not as hard. Thank god. -.- But it was fun, either way. :3 Alice got a puppy from her brother. It's name is Kitty. XD Whee...>> <<

Uhm...what else? Oh, Jade was looking at my folder today...and found Matt's letter. And read it. She kept saying things like, "Oh! You two are so adorable!" Or, "How sweet!" "So cute." "You two are so freakin' cute together." I was just...scared. o.o She scared me. A lot. I didn't know whether to blush or scoot away from her. So I did both. ^.^;;; Heh. And...yeah. >> << Hrm...stomach hurts. And I need to finish checking all 106 messages that I got on deviantART, so yeah. Adios now. ^-^

Just got back from the mall about an hour ago. Hope Alice likes her present. ^.^ It's this green shirt with MEXICANA written on the front. It's so cool. And Vanessa and Stacy are going to her house tomorrow too! Yay! I'll only be gone for about three or four hours. Seeing as I have school and all. -.- Ah well. At least I can see them all again. ^-^ And I'm hungry. So yeah. Adios!

Cold...sleepy...-.- Blegh. I have a feeling that today isn't going to be much of a good day. My siblings woke me up early again. Then again, they always do. I made myself even more tired last night by crying, and the damn wind kept making the lights turn off. Anyways, back to today. Uhm, yeah. It already sucks.-.- Ah well. At least I have a few things to keep me distracted today. The Shining (the book, not the movie), homework (ew...) and the fact that I'm probably going to the mall to buy [cvg54] a birthday present late today, seeing as tomorrow is her birthday and I'm going over to her house for about four hours or so. So I won't be gone that long. Anyways, yeah. Gotta go finish cleaning now. Adios.

There was a job fair thing at school today. I got a free pen. Ooh. Wow. I could've gotten another one, but you had to talk to the person behind the booth first. Or else if you tried getting one of the free things they would make you talk to them and ask them questions about their work or whatever. It was Rodrigo's fault that it happened the first time.-.- But yeah, it was alright. There were make-up artist there too! Some girls were getting manicures and stuff. O.o Plus this guy in my class was getting a..."make over" too. If you think making it look like he has a bruise on his right cheek and this giant, nasty white bump on his forehead a great make-over. It was so cool. XD

And, um, yeah. Art was okay today. And I guess science was alright as well. Nothing interesting, really. Well, except for the bus ride home. Me and Stacy couldn't stop laughing. Whee...I'm hyper. >> << *blinks*And I have homework to do. >.< Better get started on it. So, yeah. Adios now.

Jasmine brought some new manga today. Prétear. It's pretty good, really. ^.^ She's bringing volumes three and four tomorrow. Yay! Heh, she's reading Demon Diary all over again. That's like the only manga in which I have the whole series. XD I can never continue with one exact series because I always end up finding some other manga. >>;;; Eheh. Anyways, I had art for two hours today. It was alright. Spent the first hour shading in my picture. I finished it! Yay! Even though it didn't come out that great. Oh well. *sniffs* TT.TT

Uhm...I spent the second hour reading the first volume of Prétear and most of the second one. I hate Himeno's older step-sister. The stupid, skanky bitch. -.- *blinks*Anyways, yeah! ^.^;;; Um, I guess I had a pretty decent school day by the looks of it. Hopefully tomorrow goes well, too. Heh, school has been pretty decent lately. Almost June...I don't even know if I want it to be summer. That means I have to stay home with my mom all summer. Whee...fighting. Mm, school life is better than all the crap that's going on at home. Still. Blegh. I better go start on my homework now. Adios. ^^

Dear god, talk about a mood-swing. I started off being hyper and in a pretty good mood and now I'm on the verge of tears. Really freakin' wonderful. God, I'm getting tired of this. And now my parents are fighting again. Heh, an excuse for this sudden mood-swing. Mm, I have homework to finish. Hopefully I'll finish it late...I don't want to go to sleep. Not today. I think I'll read The Shining until I can't stay awake any more. Heh. I'm such an ungrateful bitch at times. Well, it feels like it. I think I just make my problems seem bigger than they really are. I guess, anyways. *sighs*Fighting is getting worse...I better get my things ready for school tomorrow. And my homework finished. Adios.

Oh, god I'm tired. They woke me up again.*sobs*TWICE! Well, no...three times really. -.- And by they, I mean family. Whee...my hair is a mess. As it always is once I wake up. ^.^;;; Oh, and I finished reading the manga last night. Yayness. ^-^ Hope Jasmine brings volume seven on Monday. >>;;; I think I fell asleep late though...I was bored last night around ten, so I got my brother's GBA SP...and played Super Mario Bros. 3. I missed that game. XD I played in the dark though. That way nobody would come into my room to bother me. O.o And...yeah.

*yawns*Sleepeh...x.o *blinks*I should finish up on that book for English...but I have to go take care of Matthew, because Peter left him alone. -.- So, yeah. Buh bye now.

MANGA! YAY! ^-^ Jasmine brought Fruits Basket volumes five and six for me. And Stacy finished reading Model volume five, so now I can read it too! ^.^ I didn't get a chance to read much of the manga though. --> Spent second period working on algrebra homework while paying half attention to the lesson going on, which was then followed by a quiz. I think I at least got one question right. XD Fourth period(English) we had to watch the movie version of Farenheight 451. Some of the parts made me wonder if I missed something while I was reading the book. o.o But anyways, yeah. Had to take notes on it and all that "good" stuff. Sixth period was gym, and I didn't get much reading done because Sean(shorter version of his name, oh and that's the guy I met who likes anime) kept going on and on about Love Hina, Peach Girl, and other manga. And I didn't want to be rude, so...yeah. -.- But at least I have something to read over the weekend. Event hough I have to finish that book before Monday for english. >>;;; Luckily, I'm almost done. ^.^

Um, not much else to say except family is being annoying as usual and I have nothing much to do except read. Yayness... Blegh, family problems. Just holding it all in. Keep the pain inside isn't doing much for me. Even though I haven't been that depressed lately. Just a couple of mood-swings here and there I guess. Even though I've been really pissed off at times. Due to family. Dear god, I wish they would all shut up. I feel like hurting someone. *sighs*-.- Ah well, I'm off to read some manga now. Adios.

Mmm...caffine.*pokes glass of coke absently*Hrm, school. Yay...Almost June...YAY!!! o.o *blinks*Oh, my parents know that I have a boyfriend.*nods*My dad said that it's alright...as long as I don't do anything stupid. Which I doubt I ever will. Not until I'm older...and less mental. Heh, he doesn't want me to end up like my cousin's. My cousin Javier got some girl pregnant, and his sister(my cousin Leslie) ran off to Mexico with her boyfriend a few days before Christmas. And she's only a year older than me. So, yeah. My parents don't want me to end up like them, and I understand. And I believe they really are getting a divorce now. Ah well, c'est la vie. Life only sucks because shit happens. To everyone. Wouldn't it be so dull if nothing ever did happen? Heh.

Moving on...school was okay. Algebra was so freakin' boring, and we had a test. Which I know I probably failed. XD We were going over some problems that had to do with the stuff on the test, and I understood everything. I was like, "^-^ I actually get it!" And then I saw the test a few minutes later "...And now I'm lost." Ah well. Um, english was hilarious today. And embarrassing on my part. Hrm, on Monday Mr. Weronka made us do a writting assignment. "Thirteen Ways To Look At My Culture." And mine is Mexican-American. Not Mexican culture...but not American culture either. A mixture of the two. So, I wrote thirteen small and seperate things about how I saw my culture. And today, he read it out loud. Without saying who wrote it, of course. He just said that it was the Mexican-American culture. So, of course, everyone started glancing around trying to see who it was. Until they got to me. Colin turned around and asked me, with this awe-struck look in his face, if I had written it. I just nodded. But everyone still didn't know, so Colin told them. Heh, and Helen turned around and just looked at me in the same look that Colin had before. And then when everyone knew, Mr. Weronka said that it was me who had written and...blah blah blah. @.@ And then Colin and a few other guys in my class kept saying things like, "Dude! That was fresh! You should be like...a poet or something!" And I just started laughing. It was so hard trying to keep myself from blushing. x.x But yeah...it wasn't THAT good. I only had less then twenty minutes to write it...x.o;;;

Hrm, what else? Oh yeah, I met a guy in my gym class that love manga too. I spent the whole period just kicking it with him and talking about anime and manga. It was freakin' hilarious. XD...He just sat too close for comfort. @.@ *shudders* Too much accidental touchy-touchy stuff coming from him. Ugh. -.- But he told me to bring him two volumes of Demon Diary, W Juliet, and...some other manga that I forgot. ^.^;;; But, anyways. He's pretty cool. So gym isn't that boring anymore.

Oh! And I mailed Matt's letter today. Got me some stamps too. ^-^ Whee. *blinks*Oh crap...my art project. I better start working on it. -.- *sighs*...Well, adios! ^-^

Ugh, stomach hurts. Meh, anyways...school. Whee. It was okay, I guess. Got my ten dollars from my Life Skills teacher. Yayness. But my mom picked me up early so I didn't have time to go and buy the stamps. Now I have to wait until I get another chance. Which may be on Friday. Unless Stacy can bring me one before then. Hrm, anyways...Couldn't find any clothes to wear last night, so I ended up wearing my ripped jeans(which I haven't worn in a long time) and the shirt that I wore on Christmas. It's cool...but kind of tight.-.- So, I kept my hoodie on all day. Then again, I always do. Eheh. I was in a good mood a while ago. Mainly because the bus ride home was freakin' hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing. Stacy said that I had this rare look in my face, as if I was a little girl or something. Eh...? Anyways, that didn't last long. Mom told me that my dad is now getting a lawyer to begin the process of a divorce. I guess he's had it with everything. Mainly because he's sick of making our lives miserable and because of what happened today. She left my two brother's alone for over an hour. And, well, the oldest of the two isn't that good at staying home alone for that long, especially if something happens... and...*shrugs*Whatever...there's more...but I don't feel like saying anything about it. So yeah...I'm done. Adios.