My friends all left me alone to die! >.< None of them came today and I was left ALL ALONE. It's amusing in a way, but still really fucked up. I didn't have anyone to talk to until lunch, which was when I bumped into Erica. But even then...ugh. My school was so empty today. And by empty, I mean that there is usually over 2,000 people at my school...today...there was about...100/200 or more of them. Everyone looked so bored...like me. And there's normally over 25 people on my bus...today there was about...eight. And in my first period class there were only five people, third period, seven people, and fifth period...thirteen people. I only had first, third, and fifth today. Two hours long...and because not that many people came to third...we made Mothers Day cards...I felt like I was back in first grade...I used the card to write my mom a little message...about everything that's been going on, and...yeah. I survived today. Alone, but yeah. Not much to talk about really. So, adios.

I do not want to go to school tomorrow...Stacy and Brenda are leaving me all alone...with Rodrigo. I don't even know if Jasmine is coming or not. But I know Rodrigo is. Oh dear god, no. He wouldn't stop bothering me today. >.< And my stomach hurts right now...ugh. But I'm still happy. ^.^

There's still some racial bull going around in my school, and it's really starting to annoy me. When me, Brenda, and Rodrigo went to go play volleyball during gym, some stupid, ignorant bitch(excuse me) asked me and Rodrigo(Brenda was on the other side of the court) if we were going to kill her. That really pissed me off. My exact words-->" First off, he's not Mexican. But I am. And secondly, I have nothing to do with all this stupid crap, alright?" Of course, my first thought, well besides "Stupid bitch," was..."The only weapon that I can possibly get my hands on would have to be a spork. Yes...I am going to spork you to death. I shall spork you...Right.Between.The.Eyes." Oh god...I'll either die, get hurt by some ignorant asshole, or lose whatever was left of my sanity tomorrow.

Anyways...yeah. Somebody save me. I'm going to be all alone tomorrow...I think. Well, maybe. But whatever! There's always that chance that I may be left alone tomorrow. My dad already told me that I could stay home, but I can't. I have art tomorrow. And I really need that current grade of mine to go up. And I need to start studying for algebra. I want to kill that 'D' from hell. Blegh.... I think I'm going to call Sue now...Mr. Weronka said that her internet is kind of messed up, so it'll be a while for her to e-mail me back...so I think I'll call her on her cell today. Unless I chicken out or whatever. I'm not good at talking to people I don't know...ack. Wish me luck. Anyways, I'm thirsty...and stuff. So...I'm going to stop now. Adios!

Oh dear god...my sister got scabies from some person in her class...and I'm really paranoid about being in her room. Oh god, she's been rolling around in my bed while watching tv in my room for the past week! And she just got off the computer a few minutes ago...which is in her room. And I'm sitting in the chair that she was in. Ugh. My mom says we all have to take this medicine thing so we won't get it from her. Itchyness...blegh.

Hrm...what else? Oh yeah. My school is going to be on semi-lockdown the whole week. Because of the whole "Brown Vs. Black" crud that's been going around. In other schools as well. I swear...it's really stupid. Bunch of ignorant ghetto people.-.- And we're not all brown! Look at me! I'm freakin' pale! Along with a few other people in my family...but anyways. Moving on...Hrm. They said that if have a code red, we have to report to our second period teacher. Quickly. Which is why we aren't having any tardy sweeps this week. They don't want anyone outside class for the whole week. And they've tightened security as well. Heh, I heard this girl say that she asked her teacher what a code red was, and he said that it's when every student forms a circle to make sure the teacher doesn't get hurt/killed...or they can just put the teacher and all the smart students in the middle...and the stupid ones can block them. Isn't that nice? Anyways, let's see what'll happen this week...if anything does happen, that is.

Woo...I have algebra tomorrow. I'm currently working on my algebra homework. Well. No. Not really. I'm decieding on whether or not to start on it right now. I'm feeling lazy right now. Well, nothing new there. Heh. >>;;; *blinks*I'm home alone right now...and really bored...and lonely...*sobs*...*blinks again*Oh well. Maybe homework will distract me. So...adios.

My brother bought KH: Chain of Memories today...and I'm tempted to snatch the GameBoy SP from him...Right.Out.Of.His.Hands. >> <<

Anyways! He wants me to help him with his math homework. I think the boy wants to fail on purpose. I suck at math. Nearly everyone kind...XD Especially fractions...I hate fractions. They need to burn. Anyways...again. My bus got into another accident. We were almost home too. Until that white van crashed into us. Well, somewhat. We were stuck on Hoover(street/ave/blvd/something/somewhere) for close to over an hour. I got home at around...five fifteen. And the whole accident occured at...3:40pm. Blegh.

What else? Ah yes. There's this rumor going around that some Mexican gang is going to come to my school on Thursday and kill thirty blacks...or it could be the other way around. And the racial troubles are starting to stir at my school. It's mostly all towards the Mexicans. So...if I'm not on that day(or any day after that) you now know why. Heh. My dad told me that I could stay home...but I declined. Eh. I doubt anything will happen. Well, that's what I'm hoping for, anyways.

Mm...had a test for algebra today. Which really sucked. I probably failed it. I forgot everything. My mind can't store mathamatic information for too long. Uhm...I start testing soon. Dear god, I hate state/district tests. They are EVIL! Like...THE WORK OF THE DEVIL! Ugh. The test for English(if we have another one, seeing as we had one last week) is coming up soon. For some reason...I like those. Because when the results come back...I feel like a freakin' genius. XD Of course, I hate myself when I get the results for the math portion of the test. Then, my genuisness goes buh-bye. Sob. Ah well.

...I can't stop laughing at the moment. I'm listening to Pour Some Sugar On Me...and it's making me laugh. That. And I had to much sugar. C'mon and pour some sugar on me, darlin'. XD Oh dear god. That song is making me giggle! GIGGLE I SAY! O.O I sound odd when I giggle...hell, I sound odd whenever I TALK. I hate my voice. Especially when I have a sore throat...the fuglyness. Anyways. Yeah. I wore my "I'm Special" wristband today. 'Cause I'm special like that. The wristband is just there for proof. Whee! O.o

*hums to Donde Estabas?* I love this song. Ignacio Pena is the buisness right now. Woo! << >> *blinks* I wouldn't leave my chain alone all day today. It was just...there. With it's sexy, shiny self. I couldn't resist. And for once, Rodrigo left me alone. Somewhat. Except he almost made Stacy believe that he was my boyfriend. And he would try touching me while he said that. Which made me hit him and shout out, "DON'T TOUCH ME!" Yeah...I found out something new from Stacy. But it's kind of wrong...even though it's in Spanish. But it made me laugh on the bus ride home. A lot. Me Duele El Pompola.(I think it was pompola...) I swear...I couldn't stop laughing. *snickers*...*coughs*>>;;;

Eh, I guess that's it for now. Nothing much, really. And...I'm feeling kind of tired now and I have to go take my medicine/vitamin thing. Ugh. It tastes nasty. Well, yeah. Ignore whatever spelling mistakes and such that I probably made...I was in a hurry. It's kind of late. So, yeah. Adios people! ^-^

Well, I sure am in a bad mood today...I feel like crying...but then I don't...and I also feel like telling many people about how much shit they've put me through...but...then I don't....So, whatever. I don't fucking care. Meh. I won't be here for most of the day. I have to go to the mall with my family. And I'll probably be forced to get something I don't want to wear, listen to my parents argue over who get's the most custody over my siblings and I, and I'll probably start feeling sick somewhere between that and when I come home. Whenever that is. I'll take my cell though...and call...whomever. *shrugs*Doubt I'll even have to use it. But, eh. Whee...Nine Inch Nails...*hums*...Meh...I don't feel like putting anything else here right now. So, yeah. Adios.

Head hurts...and I'm sore. Yay...school was okay, I guess. Bus broke down in the morning, so we got to the first period of the day a bit late. Not like the last time though...Oh! And my English teacher gave me the number and e-mail from the lady(Sue Song) from UCLA. I'm going to e-mail her later today or sometime during the weekend. So we can plan our first meeting or whatever. Yayness. I just gotta tell my parents. Heh.

Mm, gym was...rather annoying. Rodrigo kept bothering me. So I ended up slapping him around. And I somehow managed to pull on his ear. O.o Brenda got it on video, I think. XD Then he took my folder.-.- But Steven got it back for me! ^-^ Oh, and Shondell and Erica broke up. Lots of drama that I don't want to get into right now.

Hrm...I felt like hell yesterday. I found out something that made me gasp harshly in surprise, my body to feel ice cold...and my heart hurt. It was as if someone...did something to it. God, it hurt so much. I was on the verge of tears when I found out. I'm not going to say much about it. Now I'm just paranoid and greatly pissed off about it. Moving on...I don't want to eat. But they just made me, so...yeah. Adios now...

That bastard didn't come! >.< GAH! HE OWES ME TWO FREAKIN' DOLLARS! -.- I had to pay for the bus pass with my money, when he was the one who lost it. I'm going to kill Rodrigo (and reduce the chance of him reproducing in case I don't) tomorrow if he doesn't pay me back. -.- But, anyways yeah. Had a test for Life Skills...and I have no idea how bad/good I did. Art was okay. Made a new friend or whatever. Her name is Elizabeth. And she's a senior...who thinks freshmen are adorable. O.o But she's cool. She's in my art class. And she started talking to me because she likes The Ramones and saw that I was wearing a Ramones shirt last week and yeah. ^.^;;; She's shorter than me...and likes making friends with 9th graders. And I'm taller than her...and like making friends with seniors. Heh. But, yeah. Science was dull. As always.

And I went to that meeting for my new school yesterday. It was okay. Found out that when you get there, you get to pick an academy of your interest and they're going to give you classes that will reflect that profession in which that academy associates with. Which is freakin' awesome. I'm probably going to pick Academic Prep University Academy. Or whatever it's called. There's going to be another meeting next month. Woo. Stacy went too. Heh. She didn't see me but I saw her. XD Typical. Uhm...algebra, english, and gym tomorrow. Yay. And I have homework to do. Boo. AND WE DIDN'T CRASH TODAY! XD And...bye now. >>;;;

Whee, the bus crashed again. This time into the back of some truck on the way home. XD Again, I was spaced out...so it came as a surprised. Woo...that was freakin' funny. Oh yeah, I want to kill Rodrigo even more than before. He lost my freakin' bus pass. And because of that...I almost kicked him in the crotch about...six times. The best I got was his thigh because he kept covering himself.-.- So...I ended up making fun of him. More than usual, anyways. Lesse...Vin tried to kill himself during gym today. I think it was Chris or Steven's fault. Or so Erica and Shondell said. I don't know. I just saw Vin trying to slash his wrist and then choke himself. And something with tape. Charles stopped him though. And then made sure he got to his bus safetly. Well...I won't be on later today as far as I know. Have a meeting to go too. So, yeah...I better go now. Adios!

Whee...my bus was in an "accident" today. XD In other words, it smashed into some parked car and broke one of it's side windows off. It sounded like someone was shooting at the bus. And of course, because I was spaced out when it happend...I freaked out. I mean, the people in front of me gasped and ducked. So of course, they probably thought the same thing. Stacy jumped. Heh. She was busy doing her homework so we were both oblivous to everything. I mean, if we were in Inglewood, then yeah...shooting would seem very likely. But we were about...three minutes away from the school. And our bus driver had to take down our names, phone number, parent's name, and address. Stacy asked me why. I just shrugged and said, "Witness protection program?" I was being sarcastic...but it was pretty funny. >> <<

So yeah. We were stuck out side of a church from 7:30 until it was almost nine...we missed all of first period. And that's how my day started. The rest of it was okay. My art teacher didn't come. I WAS SAVED! XD For now anyways. I have art for two hours tomorrow.-.- Damnit. Ah well. Uhm...I have English and algebra homework to do. The homework for English is simple...and interesting. Whee. Algebra...I missed the lesson due to me having to check and make sure I did the other homework right. -.- Other than that, yeah. School was rather dull. Except for the whole bus thing. ^.^;;; And Brenda is on Myspace! Yayness! And...I don't feel good now. Ugh. ;-; So...adios now.

Ignore the last entry...I'm feeling a bit better now. I guess it was the movie. o.o;;; But yeah...I'm fine now. Eh, I'm still in a fucked up mood. So I guess I'm not feeling better...and I'm not crying anymore...I'm sobbing, trembling, and whimpering, but hey. It could be worse. So, yeah. Adios. Again....

Parents want me to go watch a movie with them. And I really don't want too. I just want to go to my room and...stay there. I guess I'm not in a very good mood. Heh, it's not like it's too difficult to see, eh? Mm, dad made me go check on my grandpa...and I almost started crying. Hell, the tears are apparent in my eyes right now but I'm trying to fight them back. He's so thin and pale now...god. He looks so...fragile. And now I'm crying...I can't fight it for too long, really. Ehm, it's almost four thirty here...it about...three minutes. I guess I'll leave soon...or whenever they tell me to go watch the movie with them. Unless I can convince them otherwise.

Eh, I have half an hour left...so...I don't know. Argh...I need a hug...or something. And proper sleep. Even though I've been trying to go to sleep early for the past week. Ah well. Oh, yay. I got away from watching the movie. Heh, man I must look really depressed or something...which, I guess I am. Besides my grandpa dying of cancer...I don't know why else I should be depressed about...I'm guessing it's a mood swing...seems like it. Yeah...that's it. A mood swing. Mmhm...

Wow, I really do look depressed...and really freakin' pale. And not my usual paleness either. I look sick. Woo...I'm pouting/frowning, paler than usual and my eyes appear really...sad. Damnit. Mm...I think they're watching the movie now...guess I'll watch a little bit of it. Adios now.

Ugh...I don't feel good. My stomach really freakin' hurts. And so does my head. Blegh. The pain. -.- Ehm...Jasmine brought D.N.Angel for me. I've already finished the first volume. Yayness. And I'm almost done with the second one. Oh, the test for algebra was postponed until Monday. Thank god. But I got a 'C' on the last one. XD Much better change from my past test scores. >>;;; Heh, me and Stacy were the only ones who passed that test. Out of ALL the algebra classes that our teacher has. Wow...But I got out of school early today. Yayness! And, um, I found out which new high school I'm going to. It's a new, state of the art high school here in S.G....with a ghetto sounding name. Sounds like a gang name or something. XD Heh, and it's in the borderline of South Gate and South Central. Woo...ugh...I'd write more, but I'm in too much pain right now. Oh god...what if it's...? Damnit.-.- I'm gonna go now. Adios.

Like, dude...I'm going to go see Robots today. O_O POPCORN! AND CAFFINE! YAY! XD And I think I'll be gone next weekend. My parents said we might be going to San Diego for a day or so. Sea World or Legoland. XD Or maybe Knotts Berry Farm. O.o I don't know. They just told me. Like when they told me that we were going to Robots today. Now I have to start getting ready. Right now we're wondering if we should take Matthew. o.o He can't stay still for too long. Like me. ^.^;;; Anyways, yeah. I got over the bitchyness that I was feeling yesterday. Sorry about that. >.<;;; I'm okie now. :3 A bit tired, but okie. ^-^ Well, I better go now. Adios!

God, today sucked. And my head really hurts right now. I just wanna crawl into the far corner of my room, cry, and pretend like everything is just fine...or whatever. Heh, I got the crying part going already. God fucking damnit...I really hate this place. And I can't wait for the stupid divorce to come. Maybe then some of this frustration and depression will go away. I don't know. I'm just really freakin' tired right now...and I don't feel like being online right now. So I'll either be back later today or sometime tomorrow, I guess. I think I'm gonna go read or something...Adios.

O Romeo, Romeo! Where art thou Romeo? *giggles*WHEE! SUGAR! XD *blinks*>> << I am never going to read outloud with Stacy ever again. XD Especially not Romeo And Juliet. o.o Lookeh! O.o

Me:...I don't wanna be Juliet and her mom.>.<
Stacy: So? I'm the nurse! ^-^
Me:...Can I be the one that kills the nurse, instead?
Stacy:O.o There's no part like that...
Me: We'll find a way. Trust me. We will.
Stacy:O.o...
Me:Great. I get to have intimateness with Romeo. Awesome. o.o

::Few minutes later::
Me: Who's going to be Romeo?
Stacy: You! ^.^
Me: NO! >.< I'm already Juliet. YOU BE THE MAN!
Stacy:O.O...NO!
Me: I already have two parts! >.<
Stacy:-.- Fine. Start here.*points at a passage in her book*
Me: *looks at it**reads:*Romeo!
Stacy: My sweet?
Me and Stacy:...O.O...*glance over at each other*...XD
Me: O Romeo, Romeo! XD
Stacy: XD
Me:...I feel like I'm your bitch because of this.-.-
Stacy:O.o...XD

Yeah...that was freakin' hilarious, dude. O.o...XD *hums*I got a 'B' in Science and an 'A' in Life Skills. WOO! PARTY! ^-^ And Rodrigo didn't bother me today. THANK GOD! >.< Urgh...he scares me.-.- Anyways, yeah. School was decent and...we took this career test thingy for Life Skills. And I scored high on Artistic, Investigative, and Social career...things. And I picked the following careers that were listed for them...

Artistic
Creative Writer
Costume Attendant
Photographer
Poet&Lyricist
Writer&Author
Fashion Stylist/Designer (>>;;; <<;;;)
Set Designer

Investigative
Pediatrician(general)
Psychiatrist
Sociologist
Environmental Science & Protection Technician

Social
Child care worker
Kindergarten teacher
Preschool teacher
Nursing
Medical assistant

And yeah...>> << I have algebra homework to finish. But I'm almost done! ^.^ So, uhm...yeah. Adios now! ^.^;;;;

Gym is so pervy. o.o Charles asked me an odd question, which I might normally answer if a girl had asked me, but whenever a guy asks me that, I start laughing. Size. Big or small. O.O Hrm...I liked Samie's response..."The size of the prize doesn't matter, the motion of the ocean does." I couldn't stop laughing. XD Erica and Samie are perverted though. And so is Rodrigo. o.o But I'm not going to put down what they said. Eh. O_o;;; Oh, and Rodrigo asked me if he could sit on my lap.-.- I told him no. That unless he was a very cute baby/baby animal, or Matt of course, then he'd have a chance. But he isn't. So meh to him. -.-

Anyways, enough of that. >> << My art teacher isn't going to come the whole entire week! Yay! The relief! ^-^ But we still have work to do.-.- Boo. Anyways, yeah. Um...me and Colin got the highest test scores for the test we took for Farenheight 451 for English. Which is sad, really. Everyone else got a sixty or lower. I got an 84 and Colin got a 72...or was it 70? Eh, somewhere along those lines. But yeah. I felt smart for once today. XD How sad...o.o

Oh yeah! I went to Alice's house yesterday! It was great seeing her again. I haven't seen her since June of last year. ;-; She almost choked me though. Like, twice. o.o She's shorter than me, and when she saw that I had already arrived she pounced on me and hugged me tight enough to almost cut off my air supply. @.@ Vanessa did the same. Though not as hard. Thank god. -.- But it was fun, either way. :3 Alice got a puppy from her brother. It's name is Kitty. XD Whee...>> <<

Uhm...what else? Oh, Jade was looking at my folder today...and found Matt's letter. And read it. She kept saying things like, "Oh! You two are so adorable!" Or, "How sweet!" "So cute." "You two are so freakin' cute together." I was just...scared. o.o She scared me. A lot. I didn't know whether to blush or scoot away from her. So I did both. ^.^;;; Heh. And...yeah. >> << Hrm...stomach hurts. And I need to finish checking all 106 messages that I got on deviantART, so yeah. Adios now. ^-^

Just got back from the mall about an hour ago. Hope Alice likes her present. ^.^ It's this green shirt with MEXICANA written on the front. It's so cool. And Vanessa and Stacy are going to her house tomorrow too! Yay! I'll only be gone for about three or four hours. Seeing as I have school and all. -.- Ah well. At least I can see them all again. ^-^ And I'm hungry. So yeah. Adios!

Cold...sleepy...-.- Blegh. I have a feeling that today isn't going to be much of a good day. My siblings woke me up early again. Then again, they always do. I made myself even more tired last night by crying, and the damn wind kept making the lights turn off. Anyways, back to today. Uhm, yeah. It already sucks.-.- Ah well. At least I have a few things to keep me distracted today. The Shining (the book, not the movie), homework (ew...) and the fact that I'm probably going to the mall to buy [cvg54] a birthday present late today, seeing as tomorrow is her birthday and I'm going over to her house for about four hours or so. So I won't be gone that long. Anyways, yeah. Gotta go finish cleaning now. Adios.

There was a job fair thing at school today. I got a free pen. Ooh. Wow. I could've gotten another one, but you had to talk to the person behind the booth first. Or else if you tried getting one of the free things they would make you talk to them and ask them questions about their work or whatever. It was Rodrigo's fault that it happened the first time.-.- But yeah, it was alright. There were make-up artist there too! Some girls were getting manicures and stuff. O.o Plus this guy in my class was getting a..."make over" too. If you think making it look like he has a bruise on his right cheek and this giant, nasty white bump on his forehead a great make-over. It was so cool. XD

And, um, yeah. Art was okay today. And I guess science was alright as well. Nothing interesting, really. Well, except for the bus ride home. Me and Stacy couldn't stop laughing. Whee...I'm hyper. >> << *blinks*And I have homework to do. >.< Better get started on it. So, yeah. Adios now.

Jasmine brought some new manga today. Prétear. It's pretty good, really. ^.^ She's bringing volumes three and four tomorrow. Yay! Heh, she's reading Demon Diary all over again. That's like the only manga in which I have the whole series. XD I can never continue with one exact series because I always end up finding some other manga. >>;;; Eheh. Anyways, I had art for two hours today. It was alright. Spent the first hour shading in my picture. I finished it! Yay! Even though it didn't come out that great. Oh well. *sniffs* TT.TT

Uhm...I spent the second hour reading the first volume of Prétear and most of the second one. I hate Himeno's older step-sister. The stupid, skanky bitch. -.- *blinks*Anyways, yeah! ^.^;;; Um, I guess I had a pretty decent school day by the looks of it. Hopefully tomorrow goes well, too. Heh, school has been pretty decent lately. Almost June...I don't even know if I want it to be summer. That means I have to stay home with my mom all summer. Whee...fighting. Mm, school life is better than all the crap that's going on at home. Still. Blegh. I better go start on my homework now. Adios. ^^

Dear god, talk about a mood-swing. I started off being hyper and in a pretty good mood and now I'm on the verge of tears. Really freakin' wonderful. God, I'm getting tired of this. And now my parents are fighting again. Heh, an excuse for this sudden mood-swing. Mm, I have homework to finish. Hopefully I'll finish it late...I don't want to go to sleep. Not today. I think I'll read The Shining until I can't stay awake any more. Heh. I'm such an ungrateful bitch at times. Well, it feels like it. I think I just make my problems seem bigger than they really are. I guess, anyways. *sighs*Fighting is getting worse...I better get my things ready for school tomorrow. And my homework finished. Adios.