Well, I'm back. Really sore and tired, but back nonetheless. ^.^

Let's see...Knotts Berry farm was freakin' awesome. Even though only me and my dad were the only one's who wanted to go on the much bigger rides. -.- We only managed three. Seeing as the lines were too damn long.

The rest of our time consisted of waiting for my mom and siblings to come back from some smaller ride(sometimes we had to watch over Matthew) or we'd all go with them. Well, only if Matthew could. Like on the log ride...Matthew is such the little dare devil. o.o

But yeah, I was pretty damn bored when we were stuck waiting for them. Lasted about an hour for one.-.- I felt like calling someone on my cell...but decieded against it. Didn't feel like bothering anyone. That, and you can hardly hear much due to the noise. So, yeah...

The frozen lemonade there tasted odd. I think they spiked mine. The bottom looked like beer. O.o So, I gave it to my dad. Eheh.

I got sunburned too...thankfully, not alot. -.-

Mm, me and dad went on Ghostrider, La Revolución, and Supreme Scream. God, they were awesome. <3

But Supreme Scream...dear god that scared the hell out of me. I literally started hyperventilating while the ride was moving up. XD

...Can you blame me though? O.O We were 250(I think that's what they said, damnit it was high either way) feet up in the air, they left you up for a few moments, and then...you're falling back down. Quite fast too. *shudders* My dad made me look down too. That just made my condition to result in whimpering and gasping....and laughing. O.o Too much screaming on my part though. *sniffs*...I'm scared of heights, damnit. -.- BUT IT WAS SO AWESOME! Even though if it had gone any higher I would have seen Jesus and Satan themselves. XD Oh! And my hands kept shaking after I got off. Lasted about...15 minutes. And I kept giggling a lot too. O.o

But yeah, the rest of the day was mostly kiddy rides and funnel cake. Nummeh. Getting the funnel cake on the way out took an hour though.-.- I had to guard the bench for me and my family. XD I kept recording myself on my cell out of boredom. My siblings did the same. ^.^;;;

...My dad wants to take me and my cousins Gloria and Jesus too Six Flags on my birthday. Or during the week before my birthday. Yay! Fast rides! I like 'em fast... XD

My dad's going to go buy an ice cream cake! Yay! And I think that's enough for now. Adios! ^-^

Oh...and one more thing...

I won't be on tomorrow. All day. I'm going to Knotts Berry Farm with my family. Fun. <3

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...But if I do manage to get online, it'll probably be very early in the morning. Like around seven or eight in the morning my time. And I'll probably be easier to talk to on AIM than here on elftown.

...Much faster, really.

Unless...my siblings get online before I do or kick me off. And both are possible.

But, I guess I'll see you all on Sunday. If I don't sleep until noon, that is. I'll either wake up really freakin' early for some unknown reason, or really freakin' late. Both are likely in my case.

But yeah, Adios people.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/18524010/ <-- Couldn't resist. Hehe! He's so cute. <3

Anyways...I still feel like hell. I wasn't until I got home. Heh. Dear god, I need help.

Moving on, eh, school was okay I guess. Even though I now have marks on my hand. Let me explain, Rodrigo was acting like an idiot again. A very annoying, stupid, bastard really. And of course, he kept bothering me. Asking me stupid and perverted questions, and saying that he was going to fuck/rape/violate/hurt/kill me. That, and he kept touching me and getting to close. So, I hit/pinched him and tried pushing him away. And that resulted in him grabbing my hand and saying that he could pinch me too.

...

And he started doing that to my right hand...if I hadn't slapped him with my free hand, any more of his nails digging into my hand(and the fact that he kept twisting the flesh of my hand) would've broken the skin and caused me to bleed. So now, I'm stuck with a couple of marks on the top of my right hand. He also tried doing the same to my left hand, but I only have two marks on that one.

Heh, of course, he twisted my arm again, bit me(sort of) and hit me in the middle of my chest. And yet, I have yet to snap and attack him. Though, I was almost close today. Almost.

...Well, other than that, everything else was okay. I guess. Eheh, besides home and my depression problem, (and the fact that I forgot my medicine for my anemia again), there isn't much to say. So, yeah. That's enough from me...adios.

It's my brother's 12th birthday today...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BINA!

I don't feel so good right now. Stomach hurts. And I'm still feeling realy tired. Blegh.

Hrm, Gaby's visit yesterday actually made me feel much better. It was great to see her again. And quite amusing, really. Lots of fun. Lots of talking and jokes, really. Mostly from me, but eh. And they weren't really jokes....just mild implied perversion and sarcasm. The usual. Eheh. But she kept making fun of me too. About...stuff. Like, mariage...and...big things. Eh, we couldn't stop laughing either way.

Mm, school was okay today, I guess. Thankfully, no testing. But we start it again next Tuesday, though. Damnit. Oh well, that'll be the last time though. And then...Finals! Yay. -.- Well, at least finals mean's that we're almost out of school. Almost. Kinda. Sorta. Maybe. Not really... >.<

Eh...I was almost on the verge of tears again not to long ago. Went to go see my grandpa. He's really sick now. I can't stand to see him and everyone else in so much pain. My visit made him start crying. He missed me...*sighs* I don't know what to do...so much stress and sorrow right now. The stress that I'm getting from school, along with the sorrow and stress of family life. It's kind of hard to deal with...I don't know...eh, I better go start on my homework...*sighs again*...

...I'm getting really sick of all this...

Well, Gaby's coming over soon. Or so she said. So, I guess I probably won't be on that much today. Woo...

Finished a second day of state testing today. Eh, I spent three hours in my algebra class today. Two hours due to testing and another hour for the normal class. And, yeah.

Head hurts again. And I feel really tired. I can't wait until school is over. Blegh, I hope Saturday will make things better. At least half better due to my parents. Eheh...

Still not feeling that great. I'm rather out of it...god, I hope my little...depression problem doesn't show when Gaby comes. If she does, anyway.

Well, that's enough...Adios.

Mm, head hurts...and my eyes are stinging badly. I've been struggling with depression again for the past month. So far, I've just been going through a lot of mood-swings.

Heh, I'm crying now. Wow...

Meh, for some reason I've been feeling extrememly heart broken for the past month. And there has only been one time that I have ever felt that way. Heh, it's really hurting me right now. Just like the last time. But I don't know which one is worse....

Oh well. I'll get over it. Right now I'm just trying to get my emotions under control. Headache got worse, but eh. Whatever. Doesn't matter. And I have homework to work on, so meh. Fuck this stupid feeling. Happens all the time so I don't know why I'm getting so worked up about it. And I have testing tomorrow(again) so...*shrugs*Onto homework. Adios.

(favorite song at the moment)
Swing Life Away by Rise Against

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away...

Just got back from the Renaissance Fair, I mean, faire. Well, I got back about an hour ago. It's almost 9:30pm. And I am hyper. And slowly getting tired. I only drank a liter of water at the faire. Eh, that's what it said on the bottle. Damn, that place was expensive. I went in with close to $50...came out with about less than twenty.

Eh, I did pay for the parking(nobody had change), and this delicious yet really expensive shaved ice thing...and then the one litter bottle of water. But, Stacy's dad paid for my admission and my snack. Everytime I was about to take out my money, he was already paying. And he wouldn't accept it afterwards. I still feel bad.-.- Heh, imagine me on a date...oh dear god. XD

...Anyways. It was pretty good. Too bad it was also freakin' hot as hell. I hope I don't wake up with a sunburn. Ugh. I would've been back at around..six. But they all changed their mind and we ended up staying until the whole place closed. Which was at six. But me and Stacy had split up away from them for about three or four hours. So, of course. We had to wait for them when it was time to leave. That took about fifteen minutes. I was on the phone with Nicole at that time. I was bored, I had my cell, and yeah.

I may have been back at seven, if it weren't for the fact that it took nearly an hour to get out of the parking lot. It was PACKED. And the line was moving so slow. Blegh...I would have called Matt, but I haven't saved his number on my cell yet. Which is what I'm going to do once I get off line. That, and the fact that I'm still not sure about the whole long distance minute(s)...thing. My dad has yet to confirm a yes or a no. So...-.-

Anyways, back to the whole faire thing. The costume's were freakin' awesome. ^.^ Though, most of the women there...made me think(and mutter to Stacy) something along the lines of..."Oh my fuckin' god...put those things back in! Tuck 'em under your shirt, woman! There's children around! O.O" ...No wonder it was called the Renassiance Pleasure Faire. *shudders* o.o;;;

...I saw this leather whip thing too. I couldn't stop laughing. So kinky. XD Stacy didn't get it...until I told her. She thought they were for horses. Which, by the looks of it, I doubted as much.*snickers* >> << And they also had this lady in some odd looking thing...and I think they were tying her up. Very bondage like. BDSM, I guess. Ew...o.o I swear, I don't think they let her get out. Me and Stacy stopped to look and see what they were doing, and we didn't get it. Which caused me to make some stupid and implied perverted remarks. Well, sort of. I was mostly confused. And really thirsty at the time. So I was sort of quiet. Erm, besides my occasional complait of how thirsty I was. Anyways, that was when we barely started our walk. About an hour or so later, she was still there. With more ropes on her. Still tied up. Laying down, in a way...And...yeah. They were so kinky back then. Eheh... XD *blinks*I mean, really. When me and Stacy first saw that lady, she was being led around by some guy. And by that I mean that he had her wrists chained up. O.o

Then there was this guy who at first looked as if he didn't have anything on. From the waist down. That really scared me. I really did think that was his...arse. Oh god, I couldn't stop laughing. Came out more like a VERY girly giggle. But anyways. When we were leaving, Stacy pointed him out to me. This time, his front side was facing us. I didn't want to look. But Stacy made me.-.- He had a bunch of feathers down there...O.o He was wearing tights. But...it still freaked me out.

Well, on the way back Stacy's mom started asking me about Matt. And I tried to say as less as possible. Eh, I guess I managed. God, people enjoy making fun of me.-.- That only lasted about ten minutes though. Hrm, when I got home I took a shower, ate, watched tv for a little bit, and then came back online. As you can see. Eheh.

*blinks*Oh yeah, my dad said that someone called while I was gone. He said it was a guy. And I can only think of one person. He told me this when it was almost nine. And gave me the phone...in case he called again. But I told him that I doubted it. It was already late. And it is. Ten minutes away from ten. So, I better go now. But, yeah. That was just a bit of my day at the Renaissance Faire. That I can remember, anyways. Damn my bad memory.-.- Anyways! Adios everyone! ^-^

So freakin' tired...it's too early to be awake...but I have to work on my essay, seeing as I might not have enough time when I get home. Eh, I'm going to some Renaissance Fair with Stacy ([Mistress of Darkness]) and her family. Should be fun. Well, I'm hoping it will be.

Plus, I still need to finish my algebra homework. I was working on it yesterday while I was on the phone...but once I got off the phone, it fell from my hand and I ended up falling asleep. Yeah, like three minutes once I got off the phone. So, basically, I took a twenty minute nap.

I woke up when I turned over and thus felt something poking my wrist. My stupid pencil.-.- So, I woke up. And then remembered that I had to call Stacy and tell her that my parents said that I could go with her. Called her about...three times. She didn't pick up until the third time.-.-

She told me to start getting ready by 8:30am. And right now...it's 8:15. So, I'm going to start on my essay and officially get ready at around 10:30am. I honestly don't take that long to dress and brush my hair. I don't wear make-up, so nyah. Saves me a lot of time. So, yeah. Adios now.

I'm going to the theatre tomorrow with Sue, so I'll be gone for a few hours. I think. Just posting this in case I don't come on tomorrow morning. So, yeah. Adios.

It's getting hot here in good 'ol California again. Yay.-.- I wonder if we'll get more forest fires...hope not. *blinks*...I forgot my medicine again. Which means that I have to go and take it soon. Oh, yay. >.<

Hrm, school was okay today. Even though I found out that we had to type our essay's and that they're due Monday. I don't even know if my printer has any ink left. Damnit. -.-;;;

Algebra was okay, I guess. And gym was...blegh. God, now I fully know why I hate most of humanity. Well, the ignorant part of humanity, anyways. Especially the ignorant, vain, evil, whorish, shit talking, cant' shut up idiots that are around my age group. God, I hate them all. Blegh. Anyways...Rodrigo kept bothering me during gym today. Again. Which resulted in me hitting him a lot. Again. Though maybe I should stop...especially after what happened today...-.-

Rodrigo:*pokes my thigh*
Me:-.- Stop it.
Rodrigo: *strokes the side with his fingertip* XD
Me: STOP IT YOU IDIOT!
Brenda: O.o...
Rodrigo: *continues*
Me: >.< *grabs his hand and tries to slam it into his crotch*
Rodrigo: O.O *grabs my hand with his free one**somehow falls into my lap*
Me:O.O*looks at where my hand is*...EW!*tries to yank it away*
Rodrigo: O.o...*looks down*...*smirks and tightens hold on my hand**moves it around slightly*
Me: O.O...*shrieking*(Yes, shrieking...-.-) IT'S TOO CLOSE!!! GET MY HAND AWAY! RODRIGO YOU BASTARD, STOP IT!
Rodrigo: NO!
Me: EWWWW! I FELT SOMETHING! LET GO! LET GO! GODAMNIT, LET MY HAND FUCKING GO!!! IT'S TOO FUCKING CLOSE TO IT!!! EWWW!
Rodrigo: XD *holds on tighter*
Me: *roughly starts slapping him around with my free hand* LET GO, FUCKER!
Rodrigo: O.O OW! >.< *lets go*
Me:*shudders* -.-...Oww...you messed up my finger, pendejo.
Rodrigo: *rubs the back of his head*Ow...
Brenda: XD
Me: *punches him hard on the arm*>.<
Rodrigo:*blinks*
Me:...Proof that you like that violent shit...
Rodrigo: O.O *blushes greatly*SHUT UP!
Me and Brenda: XD

...Yeah....So...anyways. My medicine! Yeah...I should go now. Uhm...Adios! >> <<

Stacy wants me to go to some Renaissance fair with her. I'm thinking of inviting Sue with us. Stacy said it was alright. I don't know. It all depends on what our parents say. And by our parents, I mean my parents and Stacy's parents, of course. Ooh, Pts.Of.Athrty...Linkin Park. Awesomeness.

Rodrigo didn't come today. Thank god. Brenda said that he probably went to go get his braces taken off. Oh wow. Anyways, I have an essay to write for English. And I also have algebra homework to work on. But, I have to go take my medicine first, seeing as I forgot to take it earlier today. So yeah....

School was okay today. Had a test for life skills, and then we watched 'The Incredibles" afterwards. Heh. Art was okay. Finished my project. Eh, came out like crud in my opinion, but eh. And during science, I got a summons from my counselor. It was only to discuss my classes for 10th grade...but there was confusion involved about it. Seeing as I'm going to another school and she doesn't know what classes they're going to offer. She told me to look into it. Yay...oh, and I also got the paper for summer school. Which means I won't be on for most of the day during summer. Oh well.

Huh...yeah. That's it. Time to take my medcine/vitamin and then start on my homework. Adios.

I'm so tired right now and I don't even know why.-.- And my head hurts too. Ugh, I need to start on that essay for English. Which I probably won't until tomorrow. Eheh. I'm probably going to panic as well. -.- Which is pretty normal considering it's me. Uhm, not much to write about really. Though I think Blaise is my dad now...and kitty...god, I'm lost. XD But yeah. Anyways...um...Rodrigo took my things again though.-.- But that happens all the time, so eh...Again, not much to say. So, adios.

Well, I just got back from celebrating the Mexican Mother's Day with my mom, brother, sister, aunt, uncle and two cousins. We went to this Thai and Chinese restaurant. Ugh, my aunt ordered a bunch of sea food dishes. And only one non-sea food dish. Which is what I ate. Besides the rice, anyway. Seeing as I don't like sea food. My dad went to go get some pizza for us. Because I'm really freakin' hungry at the moment. As are my siblings. But, yeah. That's why I wasn't on most of the day. And they told me that we were going to a Mexican restaurant...-.-

Eh, I don't have much time left. And thank god that I don't have any homework due tomorrow. Though maybe I should start working on that essay due for English. Blegh, I'll start on it tomorrow. Mr. Weronka isn't coming tomorrow, anyway. *blinks*...Too many messages on deviantART. Damnit. >.<

Hrm, school was okay today. Nothing interesting happened...unless you count the fact that my Life Skills teacher told the class that he and his wife are trying to have another baby. And that's when his ghetto side kicked in. He started to rock his hips back and forth for...better understanding as to how they're going to make that possible. Thank god, Lorena's head was blocking that from view. Though, by the way his chest moved, I could tell what he was doing. That, and everyone's laughter. O.o

Oh yeah! And before I forget, my mom and my aunt Maria are planning on going on a cruise either this August or next August. Most likely around or on my birthday. Which means, I may be gone for about three days. But it all depends on what my dad say's and if they go on with their "plans." So, I'm not sure. But, yeah. Anyways, I better go now. Adios everyone!

Okay, so I may not be on tomorrow. And if I am, it won't be for long. I'm going out somewhere. I don't know where, so yeah. I was the last one to be informed of this. -.- Ugh, so...see you all whenever I get back. Adios. Again.

Yay! Elftown's back!..And, yeah. o.o

I went to the UCLA campus with Sue on Saturday. We just talked and got to know one another. After a while, we went to go see Lotus Steps. God, it was beautiful. They way they danced...and the clothing. It was wonderful. I really enjoyed it. Even though we only got to see the first act. But either way, I loved it. She also got me some cookies. Sugar cookies, actually. And chinese food...with a large lemonade. Yummy. ^-^

And on Sunday, my family and I went to this Mexican festival thing on Olvera Street. Which is right next to the Union Station. It was cool. My dad bought be this black shirt that has this red and white design on the front with the words, "True Roots" written on the bottom of it. It's awesome. I also bought myself this cool necklace. It's pretty. And blue. And shiny. And, yeah...

School was alright today. It rained for a while. Not as long as I would have liked it too, though. But I managed to finish and send Matt's letter once I got off the bus. So, yeah. And I have no algebra homework! Seeing as we spent a whole hour working on this district math test during algebra. And today we only had one hour classes(in other words, I had all my classes today), so we didn't have time to go over the new lesson...unless we're supposed to do it on our own. In that case, I'm screwed. But oh well.

Eh, yeah. That's enough for today. Adios everyone! :3

Well, I'm going to be on and off for most of the day today. So, in other words, I won't be on until Sunday. I'm going to spend most of the day today cleaning and getting ready for when Sue comes to pick me up at around three. And she's taking me to this Chinese culteral event, which is at seven in the evening, so as you can see, I'll probably be home late. Depending on when it ends anyway. So, yeah. I might be on today...maybe not that much. Depends on how long my siblings use the comp. *shrugs* Doesn't matter anyways. But, eh.

So yeah, if I'm not on much today you won't see me until tomorrow. Maybe. I'm not sure yet. Anyways, adios.

Stupid fuckin' shit, god I hate this, son of a bitch, good for nothing asshole...god, I'm so pissed off right now. And depressed. And dear god, just fuck it all. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Damnit...damnit it all to fucking hell.

(And this isn't directed at anybody...I'm just...meh...forget it. Sorry for the language. And whatever.)

My friends all left me alone to die! >.< None of them came today and I was left ALL ALONE. It's amusing in a way, but still really fucked up. I didn't have anyone to talk to until lunch, which was when I bumped into Erica. But even then...ugh. My school was so empty today. And by empty, I mean that there is usually over 2,000 people at my school...today...there was about...100/200 or more of them. Everyone looked so bored...like me. And there's normally over 25 people on my bus...today there was about...eight. And in my first period class there were only five people, third period, seven people, and fifth period...thirteen people. I only had first, third, and fifth today. Two hours long...and because not that many people came to third...we made Mothers Day cards...I felt like I was back in first grade...I used the card to write my mom a little message...about everything that's been going on, and...yeah. I survived today. Alone, but yeah. Not much to talk about really. So, adios.

I do not want to go to school tomorrow...Stacy and Brenda are leaving me all alone...with Rodrigo. I don't even know if Jasmine is coming or not. But I know Rodrigo is. Oh dear god, no. He wouldn't stop bothering me today. >.< And my stomach hurts right now...ugh. But I'm still happy. ^.^

There's still some racial bull going around in my school, and it's really starting to annoy me. When me, Brenda, and Rodrigo went to go play volleyball during gym, some stupid, ignorant bitch(excuse me) asked me and Rodrigo(Brenda was on the other side of the court) if we were going to kill her. That really pissed me off. My exact words-->" First off, he's not Mexican. But I am. And secondly, I have nothing to do with all this stupid crap, alright?" Of course, my first thought, well besides "Stupid bitch," was..."The only weapon that I can possibly get my hands on would have to be a spork. Yes...I am going to spork you to death. I shall spork you...Right.Between.The.Eyes." Oh god...I'll either die, get hurt by some ignorant asshole, or lose whatever was left of my sanity tomorrow.

Anyways...yeah. Somebody save me. I'm going to be all alone tomorrow...I think. Well, maybe. But whatever! There's always that chance that I may be left alone tomorrow. My dad already told me that I could stay home, but I can't. I have art tomorrow. And I really need that current grade of mine to go up. And I need to start studying for algebra. I want to kill that 'D' from hell. Blegh.... I think I'm going to call Sue now...Mr. Weronka said that her internet is kind of messed up, so it'll be a while for her to e-mail me back...so I think I'll call her on her cell today. Unless I chicken out or whatever. I'm not good at talking to people I don't know...ack. Wish me luck. Anyways, I'm thirsty...and stuff. So...I'm going to stop now. Adios!

Oh dear god...my sister got scabies from some person in her class...and I'm really paranoid about being in her room. Oh god, she's been rolling around in my bed while watching tv in my room for the past week! And she just got off the computer a few minutes ago...which is in her room. And I'm sitting in the chair that she was in. Ugh. My mom says we all have to take this medicine thing so we won't get it from her. Itchyness...blegh.

Hrm...what else? Oh yeah. My school is going to be on semi-lockdown the whole week. Because of the whole "Brown Vs. Black" crud that's been going around. In other schools as well. I swear...it's really stupid. Bunch of ignorant ghetto people.-.- And we're not all brown! Look at me! I'm freakin' pale! Along with a few other people in my family...but anyways. Moving on...Hrm. They said that if have a code red, we have to report to our second period teacher. Quickly. Which is why we aren't having any tardy sweeps this week. They don't want anyone outside class for the whole week. And they've tightened security as well. Heh, I heard this girl say that she asked her teacher what a code red was, and he said that it's when every student forms a circle to make sure the teacher doesn't get hurt/killed...or they can just put the teacher and all the smart students in the middle...and the stupid ones can block them. Isn't that nice? Anyways, let's see what'll happen this week...if anything does happen, that is.

Woo...I have algebra tomorrow. I'm currently working on my algebra homework. Well. No. Not really. I'm decieding on whether or not to start on it right now. I'm feeling lazy right now. Well, nothing new there. Heh. >>;;; *blinks*I'm home alone right now...and really bored...and lonely...*sobs*...*blinks again*Oh well. Maybe homework will distract me. So...adios.