Some idiots lit another trash can on fire today during lunch. Yeah, I think it's the third one. Well, that I can remember anyways.

Yay, reggaeton. Dear god, I can't stop listening to this station. XD *blinks*Well, I can. Like, when they play hip hop or whatever. But other than that, I basically listen to that reggeaton station and whatever other rock stations I can find. Which is only like...three. Two classic rock stations and one...maintstreamish rock/punkish station. S'why I need more CD's...

Ah, I have another song stuck in my head. Don't know what it's called, I know who the artist is, and the chorus but that's it. I've given you my everything, loved you endlessly, but when it comes to me...you don't even notice me.

Eh, something like that. Good song, good song.

...I seem to be listening to a lot of depressing love songs too.-.- Meh.

Blegh, head hurts right now. And I'm having another mood-swing. I need something to hug now. Heh.

Some girl in my science girl petted me as she walked past me. Odd. I was spaced out at the moment, so I got a bit freaked out when I felt that. Fun.

Oh! And before I forget, I have to go to the doctor on Friday. Yay. I wonder if they need another blood sample. If they do, I wonder what I'm going to have this time.-.-

Eh, that's it for today. Adios now.

Some idiots lit another trash can on fire today during lunch. Yeah, I think it's the third one. Well, that I can remember anyways.

Yay, reggaeton. Dear god, I can't stop listening to this station. XD *blinks*Well, I can. Like, when they play hip hop or whatever. But other than that, I basically listen to that reggeaton station and whatever other rock stations I can find. Which is only like...three. Two classic rock stations and one...maintstreamish rock/punkish station. S'why I need more CD's...anyways....

Ah, I have another song stuck in my head. Don't know what it's called, I know who the artist is, and the chorus but that's it. I've given you my everything, loved you endlessly, but when it comes to me...you don't even notice me.

Eh, something like that. Good song, good song.

...I seem to be listening to a lot of depressing love songs too.-.- Meh.

Blegh, head hurts right now. And I'm having another mood-swing. I need something to hug now. Heh.

Huh, some girl in my science girl petted me as she walked past me. Odd. I was spaced out at the moment, so I got a bit freaked out when I felt that. Fun.

Oh! And before I forget, I have to go to the doctor on Friday. Yay. I wonder if they need another blood sample. If they do, I wonder what I'm going to have this time.-.-

Eh, that's it for today. Adios now.

I don't feel good right now.-.- And by that, I mean my stomach is hurting. Ugh. Eh, emotionally, I'm pretty mellow at the moment. Yup yup...

Anyways, school, school, school..was okay. Had an assembly, which I thought was freakin AWESOME. The dances...Ah! Merengue, cumbia, salsa, punta, reggaeton and tradiational dances of Mexico and other countries in Latino America. Beautiful. Even though...the more modern dances were like..."Whoa, people. Keep your bodies to yourself. Jesus Christ."...Even though I know how to dance like that. XD

And they played this song about oral sex and...actual sex. I should know. I heard it last night, and translated it to myself and I was like..."...O.O..." But that song just makes me wanna get up and dance. >> <<

...Uhm...not much to say other than that, really. I'll be here tomorrow and the fair is starting to get underway. Looks pretty cool. Anyways, yeah. Not much to say(again). So...adios!

Yeah, yeah. Too many entries today, but oh well.

Eh, I guess I'm feeling a little bit better. Emotionally, anyways. Seeing as I almost broke down about three times. -.-

I did cry, but not enough to say that I broke down or whatever. I still feel exhausted though. And I still feel the pain in my neck...and close to my throat. Ugh.

But, anyways. Heh...talking to Jessica(girl that I know from school) made me feel better. Somewhat, anyways. She's pretty cool.

Anyways...feeling really tired. So, yeah...buh bye.

Really fuckin' great.

I think the grip that Rodrigo had on my neck left a bruise on the left side.

It fuckin' hurts to touch it, and it just started to hurt even more. God damnit.

Great, now I'm in a bad mood. Stupid, whiny bitch. God. Fuck it. Fuck it. FUCK IT.

Damn it all to fucking hell. Damnit.

...

Enough complaining. I do too much of that already. Adios. Again.

School was odd today...for one, something odd happened between Samie and some stupid girl. And another, Rodrigo tried to kill me. Heh.

I can't really explain the thing with Samie, mainly because I'm still not sure has to what happened. But the thing with Rodrigo, I can.

Well, after lunch ended, me, Brenda, and Rodrigo started making out way to gym. And Rodrigo being the annoying bastard that he is, ran from behind me and jumped on my back. Which really hurt my shoulders. And when he hurried to get in front of me, he hit his elbow against my chest. So, I got mad and tried to grab him from the back of his shirt but ended up leaving a long scratch on the back of his neck. Eh, it was deep enough for some blood to ooze out.

Anyways, ten minutes into 6th period, he started messing with me again. And then tried to get my backpack. Again. And by then, I wasn't in a good mood due to him. So, I reached out and tried yanking it back, while trying to push his hands away. I guess I almost scratched him again. He got pissed off and before I knew it, he had his hands around my neck.

So, while he was using his thumbs to apply pressure against my throat, I reached up and basically dug my nails into his arms and forced them down. Which caused him to yelp in pain and let go of his old on my neck. Ugh, my neck was hurting throughout the whole class period. And it still hurts a bit now.

Meh...but other than that, school was okay. Going to the doctor on Friday, and to some fair on Saturday. So, I may not be on that much on Saturday. Friday, I probably will. Seeing as I'm not going to school. But, yeah. That's it for today. Adios everyone.

Woo! I found the website to mi padrino's(my godfather's) cafe! ^-^ Cafe Kasmir. It's so awesome. I love the layout of the site. >> <<

http://www.cafekashmir.com/index.html

Yeah...he has some awesome artwork in his cafe. Love going there whenever I get the chance. But, yeah. That's it. Adios. ^-^

So tired...but I woke at eight today. Wow. *blinks*Well, I think it was eight. I couldn't see the time very well. >> <<

...Ick, I think my arm just cracked while I was stretching. Yup, I heard that.-.- Eh, 'least my back isn't hurting anymore. Thank God.

Boo, I have homework to work on today.-.- Algebra and art. Yeah, I should've worked on it during the weekend, but I wasn't home that much. Yes, that is my excuse. Eheh. I'll work on it when I'm more awake. Or whatever. ~.~

*hums to Just A Girl*...Ooh, great. Now it's stuck in my head. Along with countless other songs. Evilness. At least I like this song. -.-

Feeling slightly amused right now. Something off of Nicole's(mi mamita hermosa. ^.^) diary. -->

August
(B=true, I=possibly, left the same=HELL NO.)
Loves to joke.
Attractive.
Suave and caring.
Brave and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities.
Knows how to console others.
Too generous and egotistic
Takes high pride of oneself.
Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit.
Easily angered.
Angry when provoked.
Easily jealous.
Observant.
Careful and cautious.
Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts.
Loves to lead and to be led. (I don't even want to ponder over this...o.o)
Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense.
Sensitive but not petty.
Poor resistance against illnesses.
Learns to relax.
Hasty and trusty.
Romantic.
Loving and caring.
Loves to make friends.

...Yum. Chorizo. And time for medicine, seeing as I've forgotten to take it the entire weekend.-.- Crud. So, yeah. Buh bye now.

Yay! Donut! So good. XD

Woo...I'm tired.*yawns and rubs eyes*Blegh. Close to eight hours of sleep this time, though! ^^

Ooh, I found a reggaeton radio station last night. I was so happy. I just wanted to nuzzle by CD player. XD

*hums to herself*...Only one awake at the moment. So, I guess I'll start writing now. >>;;;

Wonder where the phone is...and my cell phone. God, I hope I left it on my dresser. ~.~

Anyways, not much going on right now. So, yeah. Bye now. ^-^

Well, I just got back from spending some time with Sue. Library plans were cancelled. We ended up going to see Madagascar instead. I don't feel like explaining why. Eh, it was alright. Wasn't hilarious. But I guess some parts of the movie were funny. Loved the penguins. Heh. Though they didn't appear in the movie that much. Just from time to time really.

Eh, right now I'm not feeling that well. I need a hug. Heh. Whatever. Well, I'm going to go and write my reply to Matt's letter. Which I got today. Seeing as I'm going to be home alone with nothing to do. And who know's? Probably nobody to talk to either. Meh, whatever. I'm tired right now. I need a nap.

Eh, that's it. Adios now.

Going out with Sue today. I don't really want to go, but eh. Going to the library. To study, I guess. I shouldn't be there for too long. Three or four hours maybe. Depends on her.

Eh, I'm just not in the right condition to go out today. I'm exhausted, in pain, sickish, moody and not that very social right now. That, and I'm still kind of Woooo...from lack of sleep. Due to watching Mulan late at night. ~.~ Commercials were EVIL. -.- Damn you Disney channel. >> <<

...Goddamnit. Mom keeps logging me off. Yeah, and they say I use the phone too much.-.- It's only on weekends. And even then it's not a lot. Blegh.

Ugh, I'm so out of it right now. Six hours of sleep. Possibly less. I don't know. Eh, I'm feeling really pissed off right now. Which leads to depression most of the time. Maybe I should stay home. I guess it's too late though.

Heh, I feel like crying for some reason. I'll just blame the pain in my side. And...back. I need a nap. Sob. My bed....my comfortable, warm bed...

Mm, odd dream last night. Can't remember it much. Just the pictures of two guys. Creepy. Can't remember exactly how they looked, except that one of them had curly hair. Black and white pictures, too. Gah. I hate dreaming. So freakin' confusing and realistic. For me, anyways. It creeps out even more because if I do dream, I don't remember anything when I wake up. Eh, I don't know...

Heh, had a conversation with myself before I went to sleep though. Same as the one I always have with myself. About me, my emotions, the people I care for, my paranoia that they may be doing something behind my back. Or trying to hurt me emotionally. If they haven't done so already. Deep conversation. That I can't have with anyone else because I already know how they're going to react. So, it's just...me. Heh, I also talked to myself about the fact that I'm not physically attracted to anyone, except one person and that it's not just lust either. Yeah, lust was another topic that came into my..."conversation." Ah, I'm odd. I know.

*sighs and shrugs*I'm gonna go get my things ready. Almost time to go. So, yeah. Be back later. Adios.

No school on Monday. Yay.


Mm, good mood went away pretty fast. Now, I feel like hell. Again. Sister just annoyed the hell out of me, so now I have a headache. And my grandpa...got worse. Now I'm stressed out and depressed again. Damnit...

*sighs*...School was okay today. I guess anyways. Took the test for Algebra today, and the homework isn't due until Wednesday. And we ended up watching The Mummy Returns during English. Eh, gym was pretty boring. And annoying. I was trying to get Rodrigo off of me and ended up digging my nail into the flesh of my knouckle(on my left hand) and scratching it. Hard enough to to break the skin, really. So, now I have two more marks thanks to him.

...I'm thinking about what kind of job I may what to get, if not this year, next year. I might end up working for my godfather in his cafe. Cafe Kashmire. Hey, he has rock bands coming to play every Saturday night, so why not? Heh, but he really did look like an Italian mobster in one of the pictures that I have from my baptism. Anyways, if not there, Waldenbooks. So I can read manga while I'm there. Eheh.

Mm, I think I know what I want to do when I'm older. I want to be a nurse. Keep your perverted and/or mean comments to yourself. In other words, shut the fuck up. I'm actually being serious. I want to be a nurse. Well, for the premature ward if possible. I forgot what they're called. Damnit. But, yeah. I want to take care of babies. Seeing as I probably won't have any of my own, I'd rather do that. Well, that. And I probably wouldn't make much of a good mother. Maybe an aunt. But not a mom. Heh.

Eh, feeling really tired now, so that's it for today. Adios.

Number of days left until Summer vacation:21(not including weekends)

So tired...

I need to start getting more sleep. Which, I guess I hardly get. Even though I fall asleep around ten. Heh, though I have to wake up at six now. Which is when I always wake up nowadays. Habit, I guess.

Anyways, school.

Pretty boring today, really. Even though I did have the urge to beat the hell out of Rodrigo. He got me so mad today. And it was over a small thing, too. He flipped me off. Normally, I don't care. Seeing as he's done worse. And by that I've been he's groped me, scratched/punched/pinched me, and taken my things from me. Such as my bus pass. Which I had to pay for.

Eh, I guess I'm getting sick of all his little "games." And of just bothering him with my verbal abuse. Which he does to me all the time. Even when I'm not doing that to him. I don't even hit him that hard when he does make me angry enough. God, I shouldn't have slapped him when he dug his nails into my hand and left some ugly marks on it. I should've punched him. Hard. Jesus Christ, he annoys me.

Moving on...algebra homework. Blegh. Hate it. And I have a test tomorrow as well. Great. I am so going to get stuck in summer school this year. First time for me if I do go. My past grades saved me from it. But now, eh. Not anymore.

Meh, I can't afford to mess up in my new school. Seeing as one semester of English is like a whole year over there. Unless it's an AP course. Then you get the full school year due to the fact that it's more advanced and such. I'm hoping to get at least four honors classes. Though I did sign up for the Academic Prep University Academy. Mm, if I don't get that, I'm hoping for the Visual and Performing Arts University Academy. Seems very interesting, really. Can't wait...

Ah, finals soon. And then, summer break. Thank god.

Oh, crap. Tomorrow's Friday. I have to call Sue. I promised her that we would go out this Saturday. Ugh. I'm too exhausted to do much. I've been like this all week. But, eh. A promise is a promise.

Hm, maybe we should go to the library in Downtown L.A. Los Angeles Public Library. God, I loved it the first time I saw it. Which was when I was ten and on a field trip. Anyways, I want to go so she can tutor me. I'm finally giving in....

Heh...let's see if getting totured will help me with algebra. I need to get that D to at least a C. But I don't have much time to do that. Damnit. Eh, I can easily adapt to other subjects, such as science. But I always have trouble with math. Since I was little, really. Blegh. Hate it so much.

Oh man, I feel so sore for some reason. I need a massage. XD

I just remembered that I need to go to the library and pay back whatever money I owe. -.- Great.

Ooh...it's almost my birthday(sort of). August 21st. Whee...I'm not sure if I should be excited or not. Ah well, I'll see when the day arrives. I just wish it wasn't on a Sunday.-.-

Well, I have homework to work on. So, I better go now. Adios.

Number of days left until Summer vacation:22(not including weekends/no school Monday.)

We belong together...

...Dear god, that song is stuck in my head.-.- I can't stop singing along to it. Hell, that and a bunch of other love songs.-.- Dreaming of You by Selena, Angel by Aerosmith, The One by Shakira, I Could Fall In Love by Selena, Man In My Life by Mya...And many more.>.<

...Yay! Sublime!

Anyways, school...Rodrigo didn't go today. YAY! But I have Life Skills for two hours with him, tomorrow. Damnit.

Heh, he said that my voice sounds more squeaky when I read out loud. Though normally, I sound older than I really am. Or so I've been told. But that's news from yesterday.

Mm, school was okay today. Not much went on. Well, except for some more racial crap, but eh. My uncle said that if anything happened to me, that he wants me to tell them that I have, "...a crazy uncle who would kick their damn asses if they touched me." I couldn't help but laugh. XD

TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF TESTING!

Oh thank god. I hate testing. I really do. And I hate the guy that sits in front of me. He seems to enjoy bothering me. A lot. I just want to punch that smug face of his. Gah. And I'm not the only one. Lorena, Colin, and Jose also want to do the same. Of course, I told Lorena what I felt like doing to him in Spanish. Seeing as he is one of those racist bastards who doesn't know Spanish but enjoys mocking it. Heh, she started laughing. And then agreed with me. Yeah, she also finds Rodrigo annoying and weird too.

Nothing interesting happened during English or gym. So, yeah...I have sour Starburts! ^-^ Yay!

...Anyways, yup. That's enough for today. Adios gente.


Number of days left until Summer vacation:23(not including weekends.)

Well, I'm back. Really sore and tired, but back nonetheless. ^.^

Let's see...Knotts Berry farm was freakin' awesome. Even though only me and my dad were the only one's who wanted to go on the much bigger rides. -.- We only managed three. Seeing as the lines were too damn long.

The rest of our time consisted of waiting for my mom and siblings to come back from some smaller ride(sometimes we had to watch over Matthew) or we'd all go with them. Well, only if Matthew could. Like on the log ride...Matthew is such the little dare devil. o.o

But yeah, I was pretty damn bored when we were stuck waiting for them. Lasted about an hour for one.-.- I felt like calling someone on my cell...but decieded against it. Didn't feel like bothering anyone. That, and you can hardly hear much due to the noise. So, yeah...

The frozen lemonade there tasted odd. I think they spiked mine. The bottom looked like beer. O.o So, I gave it to my dad. Eheh.

I got sunburned too...thankfully, not alot. -.-

Mm, me and dad went on Ghostrider, La Revolución, and Supreme Scream. God, they were awesome. <3

But Supreme Scream...dear god that scared the hell out of me. I literally started hyperventilating while the ride was moving up. XD

...Can you blame me though? O.O We were 250(I think that's what they said, damnit it was high either way) feet up in the air, they left you up for a few moments, and then...you're falling back down. Quite fast too. *shudders* My dad made me look down too. That just made my condition to result in whimpering and gasping....and laughing. O.o Too much screaming on my part though. *sniffs*...I'm scared of heights, damnit. -.- BUT IT WAS SO AWESOME! Even though if it had gone any higher I would have seen Jesus and Satan themselves. XD Oh! And my hands kept shaking after I got off. Lasted about...15 minutes. And I kept giggling a lot too. O.o

But yeah, the rest of the day was mostly kiddy rides and funnel cake. Nummeh. Getting the funnel cake on the way out took an hour though.-.- I had to guard the bench for me and my family. XD I kept recording myself on my cell out of boredom. My siblings did the same. ^.^;;;

...My dad wants to take me and my cousins Gloria and Jesus too Six Flags on my birthday. Or during the week before my birthday. Yay! Fast rides! I like 'em fast... XD

My dad's going to go buy an ice cream cake! Yay! And I think that's enough for now. Adios! ^-^

Oh...and one more thing...

I won't be on tomorrow. All day. I'm going to Knotts Berry Farm with my family. Fun. <3

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...But if I do manage to get online, it'll probably be very early in the morning. Like around seven or eight in the morning my time. And I'll probably be easier to talk to on AIM than here on elftown.

...Much faster, really.

Unless...my siblings get online before I do or kick me off. And both are possible.

But, I guess I'll see you all on Sunday. If I don't sleep until noon, that is. I'll either wake up really freakin' early for some unknown reason, or really freakin' late. Both are likely in my case.

But yeah, Adios people.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/18524010/ <-- Couldn't resist. Hehe! He's so cute. <3

Anyways...I still feel like hell. I wasn't until I got home. Heh. Dear god, I need help.

Moving on, eh, school was okay I guess. Even though I now have marks on my hand. Let me explain, Rodrigo was acting like an idiot again. A very annoying, stupid, bastard really. And of course, he kept bothering me. Asking me stupid and perverted questions, and saying that he was going to fuck/rape/violate/hurt/kill me. That, and he kept touching me and getting to close. So, I hit/pinched him and tried pushing him away. And that resulted in him grabbing my hand and saying that he could pinch me too.

...

And he started doing that to my right hand...if I hadn't slapped him with my free hand, any more of his nails digging into my hand(and the fact that he kept twisting the flesh of my hand) would've broken the skin and caused me to bleed. So now, I'm stuck with a couple of marks on the top of my right hand. He also tried doing the same to my left hand, but I only have two marks on that one.

Heh, of course, he twisted my arm again, bit me(sort of) and hit me in the middle of my chest. And yet, I have yet to snap and attack him. Though, I was almost close today. Almost.

...Well, other than that, everything else was okay. I guess. Eheh, besides home and my depression problem, (and the fact that I forgot my medicine for my anemia again), there isn't much to say. So, yeah. That's enough from me...adios.

It's my brother's 12th birthday today...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BINA!

I don't feel so good right now. Stomach hurts. And I'm still feeling realy tired. Blegh.

Hrm, Gaby's visit yesterday actually made me feel much better. It was great to see her again. And quite amusing, really. Lots of fun. Lots of talking and jokes, really. Mostly from me, but eh. And they weren't really jokes....just mild implied perversion and sarcasm. The usual. Eheh. But she kept making fun of me too. About...stuff. Like, mariage...and...big things. Eh, we couldn't stop laughing either way.

Mm, school was okay today, I guess. Thankfully, no testing. But we start it again next Tuesday, though. Damnit. Oh well, that'll be the last time though. And then...Finals! Yay. -.- Well, at least finals mean's that we're almost out of school. Almost. Kinda. Sorta. Maybe. Not really... >.<

Eh...I was almost on the verge of tears again not to long ago. Went to go see my grandpa. He's really sick now. I can't stand to see him and everyone else in so much pain. My visit made him start crying. He missed me...*sighs* I don't know what to do...so much stress and sorrow right now. The stress that I'm getting from school, along with the sorrow and stress of family life. It's kind of hard to deal with...I don't know...eh, I better go start on my homework...*sighs again*...

...I'm getting really sick of all this...

Well, Gaby's coming over soon. Or so she said. So, I guess I probably won't be on that much today. Woo...

Finished a second day of state testing today. Eh, I spent three hours in my algebra class today. Two hours due to testing and another hour for the normal class. And, yeah.

Head hurts again. And I feel really tired. I can't wait until school is over. Blegh, I hope Saturday will make things better. At least half better due to my parents. Eheh...

Still not feeling that great. I'm rather out of it...god, I hope my little...depression problem doesn't show when Gaby comes. If she does, anyway.

Well, that's enough...Adios.

Mm, head hurts...and my eyes are stinging badly. I've been struggling with depression again for the past month. So far, I've just been going through a lot of mood-swings.

Heh, I'm crying now. Wow...

Meh, for some reason I've been feeling extrememly heart broken for the past month. And there has only been one time that I have ever felt that way. Heh, it's really hurting me right now. Just like the last time. But I don't know which one is worse....

Oh well. I'll get over it. Right now I'm just trying to get my emotions under control. Headache got worse, but eh. Whatever. Doesn't matter. And I have homework to work on, so meh. Fuck this stupid feeling. Happens all the time so I don't know why I'm getting so worked up about it. And I have testing tomorrow(again) so...*shrugs*Onto homework. Adios.

(favorite song at the moment)
Swing Life Away by Rise Against

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away...