Some idiots lit another trash can on fire today during lunch. Yeah, I think it's the third one. Well, that I can remember anyways.

Yay, reggaeton. Dear god, I can't stop listening to this station. XD *blinks*Well, I can. Like, when they play hip hop or whatever. But other than that, I basically listen to that reggeaton station and whatever other rock stations I can find. Which is only like...three. Two classic rock stations and one...maintstreamish rock/punkish station. S'why I need more CD's...

Ah, I have another song stuck in my head. Don't know what it's called, I know who the artist is, and the chorus but that's it. I've given you my everything, loved you endlessly, but when it comes to me...you don't even notice me.

Eh, something like that. Good song, good song.

...I seem to be listening to a lot of depressing love songs too.-.- Meh.

Blegh, head hurts right now. And I'm having another mood-swing. I need something to hug now. Heh.

Some girl in my science girl petted me as she walked past me. Odd. I was spaced out at the moment, so I got a bit freaked out when I felt that. Fun.

Oh! And before I forget, I have to go to the doctor on Friday. Yay. I wonder if they need another blood sample. If they do, I wonder what I'm going to have this time.-.-

Eh, that's it for today. Adios now.

Some idiots lit another trash can on fire today during lunch. Yeah, I think it's the third one. Well, that I can remember anyways.

Yay, reggaeton. Dear god, I can't stop listening to this station. XD *blinks*Well, I can. Like, when they play hip hop or whatever. But other than that, I basically listen to that reggeaton station and whatever other rock stations I can find. Which is only like...three. Two classic rock stations and one...maintstreamish rock/punkish station. S'why I need more CD's...anyways....

Ah, I have another song stuck in my head. Don't know what it's called, I know who the artist is, and the chorus but that's it. I've given you my everything, loved you endlessly, but when it comes to me...you don't even notice me.

Eh, something like that. Good song, good song.

...I seem to be listening to a lot of depressing love songs too.-.- Meh.

Blegh, head hurts right now. And I'm having another mood-swing. I need something to hug now. Heh.

Huh, some girl in my science girl petted me as she walked past me. Odd. I was spaced out at the moment, so I got a bit freaked out when I felt that. Fun.

Oh! And before I forget, I have to go to the doctor on Friday. Yay. I wonder if they need another blood sample. If they do, I wonder what I'm going to have this time.-.-

Eh, that's it for today. Adios now.

This cold is driving me mad. Well, it's driving my nose mad.-.- But whatever. Anyways, I have to breathe in through my mouth at times. XD

Uhm, yeah. Matthew woke me up. S'almost eight right now. And...my voice sounds funny.-.- Well, more than usual.

*sniffs*I'm tired. And cold. And sniffling. >.<

...I wonder how the world will be when we're all old. Listening to heavy metal, punk rock, rap, reggaeton(whatever)...in wheelchairs. XD Well, unless the planet is destroyed in a mass invasion by them aliens, then yeah. Yes. Them aliens. >> << And no, not meh family. -.-

Curse you stuffy nose. CURSE YOU! >.<

Eh, I wish my siblings would go away....-.-

Mm, my grandpa couldn't remember anyone yesterday. It's the medication he's taking. Makes him see things to...S'a little added stress and worry there...but, C'est la vie.

I guess I'm going to start writing the play later today. And then work on my art project...thing. With the stippling. And the pen. And then...stippling. o.o

*yawns*Gah...I'm getting a headache.-.- Boo....

Mm, guess that's it for now. ~.~ Adios.

Blegh, I'm catching a cold.-.- I kept sneezing and sniffling today. It's probably the constant change of weather. S'what my uncle Celso thinks. As well as there might be an earthquake. I have no idea, but yeah. I'm getting sick. -.- Woo. All hail Jebus.

...I should really stop biting my bottom lip. THE PAIN! >.<

Hrm...I think I'm going insane. I just yelled out, "LOOK AT TEH PORN!" (Yes, teh.) and started giggling. Must've been that thing that they had on the news about safety from porn and violent websites. *blinks* Violent porn. Ew. o.o

Anyways! Guess what? I have to write a play.-.- For English. And it's due next week. I'm under pressure! Nyo! >.< ...I love that song. >> << Back to the play, nyo nyo nyo...>.<

*sniffs*I just sneezed. Again. Freak. >.<

POPOLA! It's not pompola. 'Tis P-O-P-O-L-A. God, that song is hilarious. Te duele la popola? XD Oh god...>> <<

I think that ice cream I had earlier was drugged. I'm acting weird...er...than normal. For one, I couldn't shut up today. And I was still paranoid about the shooting. Passing cars with them ghetto loco's scared the hell out of me. Even the ones with old people in 'em. I mean, c'mon! They might have guns and they just wanna pop some youngin' in the arse. Old school cholos. What up, ese? Vato loco...yo. XD ...Yup. I've been drugged.

Another sneeze. JESUS CHRISTO! >.< Por que Dios?! POR QUE?! *blinks*...-.-

...Lets see, lets see. NO MORE ALGEBRA HOMEWORK! YAY! And I don't have to act in the play anymore! ^-^...I just have to write it.-.- Ugh, which sucks because my writing skills are...taking a long nap at the moment. I haven't written a story in such a long time, just poetry. But even that...gah. >.<

I might start working next year! Yay! If not, I'm thinking of taking summer school again next year. Maybe. I'm not sure.

...So, yeah. Not much more to say. Except that candy is good and so is...other...good stuff. Anyways, yeah. Adios now.

Oh god...today was just...ugh.

First of all, my mom started up with all her loud drama again. Woke me up too goddamn early. And oh god, I was pissed off. Eh, it was almost time for me to get up. "Almost." So, I got out of my room and got my things to start getting ready for school. This was around five in the morning. Anyways, my mom was making a lot of damn noise and when she stormed right passed me, she just kept on talking her shit. So, I told her to shut up. Well, that caused her to whirl around and start to advance towards. Saying, quite loudly really, that I should be "fucking telling her to shut up." My dad stormed over to us and told my mom, "Leave her the fuck alone, you idiot."

...That didn't quite help much. Seeing as both my brothers were awake by then. *shrugs*Eh, she beat my sister yesterday...I wasn't going to say anything to my dad...but I did. This morning. And now my dad might not let us see her during the weekends once the divorce is final. Oh, this has the makings of fucked up children...

Moving on. School. And what happened that really scared the hell out of me.

Well, I have to take the school bus home all the time, so I managed to get to where my bus usually is early. I saw everyone outside waiting for our bus to come. And Stacy was with them. So, I went over to where she was and blah blah, we started talking.

Mm, about three minutes after I got there, we all heard about six gunshots. Well, sick popping sounds not to far from where we were all standing. That caused us all to become silent. A few moments later, we saw a bunch of people running and cars speeding past us with frightened looking people in them.

Two of them(by them, I mean cars) pulled up to where we were, and told some of the people that go on my bus that some gang was shooting out in front. So, they got into the car with them and drove away. Thus, causing all of us to panic. Well, as soon as those two cars left, some green car was speeding backwards to make a u-turn, which only made him crash into some senior's car. He didn't stop to make sure everything was alright, he just sped up. Of course, he was a gang member.

Right after that, a bunch of cars drove right in front of us, and the green car was one of them. Huh. Anyways, some guy that was in the green car appeared to have been trying to get out, but he just managed to open his door and shout out, "Fuck all you beaners!" And then they all drove away. (Yup. It's the Black Vs. Brown shit again) That caused me to cringe. Normally, I would've said something. But...I couldn't gotten killed, so eh. And it wouldn't have just been us Hispanics getting hurt. But the other people in our bus too. For being friends with us....

Stacy was clinging to me at that time, and I wasn't the only one who looked horror stricken and was breathing abnormally. Well, some school official came over to where we were and a couple of people from our group demanded to know when our bus was going to arrive. Seeing as we were the only people out. He said it would be arriving soon.

At the mean time, we all ended up looking around nervously and staying close to each other. A few minutes later, our bus came. But, our bus driver had stopped to talk to some other bus driver. That made us frustrated and nearly EVERYONE started yelling at her to hurry up and get us home. Heh, we all rushed into the bus once she did.

God...I felt so scared at those moments, that I needed a hug. -.-

...Mm, I have an essay to write and algebra homework to do...so, yeah. Guess that's it. Adios everyone.

Ugh, throat hurts. -.- And I'm tired, though thankfully not as much as yesterday. I think I at least got eight hours of sleep this time. Woo.

...English...dear god...I have a play to work on. And it's not an individual assignment, either. Yup. That's right. GROUP WORK. Oh the unspeakable HORROR! Eh, at least I got to be in a group with people I like and get along with. Irene, Helen, Nancy and Diana. Woo. Our play has to be based on aspects of Romeo And Juliet. God, did we have fun trying to think of a plot idea. XD

I kept saying that I could write it, but no...they want me to a be a part of it.-.- My voice isn't loud enough for that, Jesus Christ. >.< So, we ended up with not having the two characters fall in love...but for them to be friends. And girls. With the whole family-hate thing going on. I think I'm supposed to kill Nancy's character. I can't remember. >>;;; We're going to start writing on Friday, though. It has to be ready by next week.-.- And we have to act it out in front of the class. Gah... TT_TT

...Blegh. Art tomorrow. Ah well. Almost out of school. And then summer school. And then school again. Yay...-.-

...Hungry. Must get something to eat. So, yeah. Adios now.

I can't believe I survived school with less than five hours of sleep. I think it was three and a half hours to around four. Can't remember. All I know is that it was less than five.

Eh, parents were fighting again. Mom just appologized for the way she acted and because I didn't get much sleep. *shrugs slightly*Same old, same old.

Meh, woke up late today too. My dad woke me up though. It's usually the other way around, sometimes. Heh. I had the door to my room locked. If I remember correctly, I think it was because I got so fed up with all the fighting and yelling(that my mom was doing) that I got out of bed at around midnight, yanked my door opened and did some of my own yelling. Such as-->"GODDAMNIT! SHUT THE HELL UP! SHUT UP! SHUT! SHUT UP!!!"

...But, of course, I had been crying(sobbing) in frustration, that my voice shook slightly. Eheh...after that little outburst, I slammed my door shut. Now I feel bad, because my siblings may have woken up or may have been awake at that time. God...

Blegh, I almost fainted too. Jesus Christ...-.-

Anyways...moving on. School was okay, I suppose. A bit dull and annoying during first period because of Rodrigo. Though thank God, that he had to leave early. Uhm, art...alright, I guess.

Woo. Almost out of school. Can't wait. I get a few days to relax before I go to summer school. Yay...>.<

*blinks*That reminds me, I almost broke out laughing during art. >> << Okay, well, my art teacher was demonstrating something that we had to work on for our project, which meant that we all had to get up from our seats and stand close to her to see what she was doing. So, this senior in my classes named Ryan was standing behind her...with a piece of tape.

And...I can't really explain, but he was doing so many things that nearly the whole class(who were glancing over at him, like I was) and I snickered at the same time when he did something that we found freakin' hilarious. Ms. Sass(art teacher) heard us and asked us what was funny. Some guy in the back says that we just thought she could draw very well which thus caused as all to burst out laughing. I swear, this happened more than once. XD I had to bite the inside of my cheek to keep from laughing. I laugh easily...-.-

But, yeah. That's it for today. Adios.

OH MY FREAKIN' GOD!!! >.< GARETTE CAME BACK!

I just want to slap myself for coming back online so late. I MISSES HIM! >.< I just wanna grab 'em by the shoulders and shake him. And just ask him where the freak he's been! GOD! >.< FIVE FREAKIN' MINUTES! FIVE! Jesus Christ!

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...I think I almost started hyperventilating again when I saw that he was on. Gah, I hope Shi-Chan was able to talk to him. I know that she's missed him more than I have. >.< Gah, meh old kitteh is back! :3

Hrm, I hope he has my new number, damnit. That way he can call and I can smother him with questions and random outburts of, "WTF?! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!" ...Yes, that's how I show my love towards people who I haven't seen in a long time. >>;;; Back off, biznitch. I got a spork and I'm not afraid to use. Mmhm. That's write. A spork. With all it's mighty sporkyness. >> <<

...Oh God. This is just a pure and utter random entry. But c'mon! TEH GARE IS BACK! >> <<

...Okay. Almost eight. Buh bye now. ^.^;;;

So tired...and dear God, my AIM is getting on my nerves. Always giving me problems. I think I'm going to just stay on MSN and yahoo from now on.-.-

...I must resist the urge to kill my computer. Jesus Christ...damn mofo.>.< Blegh...

Anyways. School was okay, I guess. Even though I kept getting headaches, I felt exhausted, and I couldn't concentrate on any of my classes. Oh god...two hours of art tomorrow. The horror. -.-

Mm...found my cell phone last night. It was lost all weekend. Found it in my hoodie...even though I swore that Matthew had it on Friday. I remember giving him the phone, damnit.>.<

...Text message from Stacy. Better reply to it, I suppose. Uhm, yeah...not much else to say. Adios now.

Tired, tired, tired...fell asleep at midnight and woke up at around six...fell asleep again and woke up a few minutes before eight. And then I didn't get out of bed until now.

Eh, I couldn't sleep either way. I was crying uncontrollably for about two hours. Sobbing really. Wasn't my fault. Mom pissed me off...hell, my family just pissed me off. And the stress got to me again. I actually wanted to cut myself. But, I didn't. I know I can be an idiot at times, but I'm not that big of an idiot.

God, it was so bad...my breathing was awful. Which resulted in me gasping a lot. And whimpering. Heh, I almost fainted on my bed due to exhaustion. Awful headache, too. Ugh.

Mm, I never felt such pure hatred towards myself until last night. Staring at the mirror and just hating what I saw. Ugly. All fuckin' ugly. Everything. Complexion, figure, eyes, nose, lips, hair...everything...ugly. I used to think my eyes and hair were the most beautiful aspects about my appearance. But now my eyes look dull. Nothing special about them. And my hair...it isn't long, thick and lustrous as it was about two years ago. Just thin and ugly. Nothing pretty about it anymore.

And my figure...god, the thing I hate about myself the most. My goddamn figure. S'why my daily attire is always jeans and a baggy sweater over a shirt a size to big to flatter much. Heh, if any. I don't think I'm slender enough to go and show off anything. Eh, I wouldn't even if I was. But I wouldn't be so covered up. I've actually been tempted to do what I did less then a few months ago. Just eat one small meal a day and drink lots of fluids. Mainly juice and water and no soda. But, eh.*shrugs* It wasn't because I wanted to starve myself...I just didn't want to eat. I was craving mostly fluids and eating more than at least twice a day just made me feel sick to my stomach. And the crankyness and exhaustion that came from that, I didn't even notice. Seeing as I'm usually always like thay. Heh...

...My mom and siblings are going with my aunt to some lake. She asked me to go with them, I said no. I'll just stay home with my dad and Matthew. I have homework to work on, so...*shrugs again*

Well, that's enough of my bitching for one day. Adios now.

Ah, tired. And I just cracked my neck again. Ugh.

Anyways, went to the doctor today. I have to go back again next month. Eh, that's what they said. Had another blood test, too. I think it was to see if I'm getting enough iron now. Can't remember. But yeah, that. Mm, Matthew gave me one hell of a headache while we were over there. Ehm, I still have it. Seems to have gotten worse, but I get headaches all the time, so eh.

I'm hoping that Sue doesn't call today. I really don't want to go out tomorrow. I just want to stay home while my family goes. But, I know that they're going to drag me along to the fair either way.

Oh my god...I wish they would stop playing that damn Baby Bash song. It's getting on my fuckin' nerves. Jesus Christ.

...I've been feeling hyper since we left earlier. When my mom and my sister went to get my brother out of school, I was stuck in the van with Matthew. So, I turned on the radio and Beverley Hills by Weezer was playing. Which thus caused me to start singing and head banging...while Matthew stared. XD Then I changed the station, and Pretty Girl by NB Ridaz started playing. So I sang it to him and danced in my seat. >> << Oh God, I love that song. The first time I heard it, I shivered. Heh.


Well, guess there isn't much to write about. Besides that I took off my god forsaken picture, again. Eh, that's it I suppose. Adios.

Pretty Girl by NB Ridaz
Oooh... can I run away with you
I wanna get lost in love... baby
To all those pretty girls (pretty girls)
This one's for you (this one's for you)

Check this out...

Something about you baby (something about you) drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl (something about you girl) blows my mind (blows my mind baby)
Something about you baby (eres todo) drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl blows my mind (come on come on)

Si tu supieras lo que siento
Cada vez que me pongo a pensar en todos los momentos
All the good times we had me and you, you and I
Hot summer nights makin love in July
The only girl that didn't give it on the first night
Una mujer incomparable I'm in love for life
Me captivaste with your ways and all the things you do
My pretty girl I gotta make it work with you
Tell the world tell your girls and your family
Con este anillo te prometa you're my everything
Cuz nobody's ever made me feel the way you do
I just dropped you off already miss you
Chica bonita sonrisa sincera
I wanna be with you hasta que me muera (forever)
Let's make a pact and always be together (always, always)
With you by my side girl I'm down for whatever

Something about you baby (something about you) drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl blows my mind (blows my mind)
Something about you baby (yea) drives me crazy
(I usually don't believe in love at first sight, but this girl had it all)
Something about this pretty girl blows my mind

You stood out from the group from across the room
I had to keep my attention on you (hello)
Somethin about that pretty face that pretty smile
You couldn't help but to get lost in those pretty eyes
Yea this girl she had it all (yea)
The type of woman that you take to mother
Sayin "Look what I found, love and companionship"
Someone to talk through these rough times (yea) who ain't afraid to handle it (you know)
And understands that my life is different
And accepts it, this isn't what I expected
Yea she's beautiful, inside and out
Something hard to find in the world these days (in the world today)
Even on my worst day (laughs)
She's got me happy like a kid wakin' up on his birthday
This love was different it was based on friendship
I'm lettin you know (come on) I'm ready to ride out (with you)

Something about you baby (something about you) drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl (you're so beautiful to me) blows my mind (blows my mind)
Something about you baby drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl blows my mind

What's up lil' shorty can we talk for a minute
I've been havin dreams and you bein all up in 'em
I know you don't know me I seen you around
You're the hottest lookin' honey that I've seen in this town
Come on, lets conversate take a walk get together
Just wanna know you a lil' bit better
Beauty uncomparable eyes drove me crazy
She that type I wanna have for my lady
Something about you don't know what it is
I know we just met but can I give you a kiss?
Grabbed her hand and she hugged me actin kinda shy
Dimples on your face got you lookin' pretty fly
Baby this is real talk I wanna be with you
Little did I know you were diggin' me too
Now I'm down on my knees, got you sayin' "I do"
So I had to write a song dedicated to you (to you to you)

Something about you baby (something about you) drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl blows my mind (blows my mind)
Something about you baby drives me crazy
Something about this pretty girl blows my mind

I don't feel good right now.-.- And by that, I mean my stomach is hurting. Ugh. Eh, emotionally, I'm pretty mellow at the moment. Yup yup...

Anyways, school, school, school..was okay. Had an assembly, which I thought was freakin AWESOME. The dances...Ah! Merengue, cumbia, salsa, punta, reggaeton and tradiational dances of Mexico and other countries in Latino America. Beautiful. Even though...the more modern dances were like..."Whoa, people. Keep your bodies to yourself. Jesus Christ."...Even though I know how to dance like that. XD

And they played this song about oral sex and...actual sex. I should know. I heard it last night, and translated it to myself and I was like..."...O.O..." But that song just makes me wanna get up and dance. >> <<

...Uhm...not much to say other than that, really. I'll be here tomorrow and the fair is starting to get underway. Looks pretty cool. Anyways, yeah. Not much to say(again). So...adios!

Yeah, yeah. Too many entries today, but oh well.

Eh, I guess I'm feeling a little bit better. Emotionally, anyways. Seeing as I almost broke down about three times. -.-

I did cry, but not enough to say that I broke down or whatever. I still feel exhausted though. And I still feel the pain in my neck...and close to my throat. Ugh.

But, anyways. Heh...talking to Jessica(girl that I know from school) made me feel better. Somewhat, anyways. She's pretty cool.

Anyways...feeling really tired. So, yeah...buh bye.

Really fuckin' great.

I think the grip that Rodrigo had on my neck left a bruise on the left side.

It fuckin' hurts to touch it, and it just started to hurt even more. God damnit.

Great, now I'm in a bad mood. Stupid, whiny bitch. God. Fuck it. Fuck it. FUCK IT.

Damn it all to fucking hell. Damnit.

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Enough complaining. I do too much of that already. Adios. Again.

School was odd today...for one, something odd happened between Samie and some stupid girl. And another, Rodrigo tried to kill me. Heh.

I can't really explain the thing with Samie, mainly because I'm still not sure has to what happened. But the thing with Rodrigo, I can.

Well, after lunch ended, me, Brenda, and Rodrigo started making out way to gym. And Rodrigo being the annoying bastard that he is, ran from behind me and jumped on my back. Which really hurt my shoulders. And when he hurried to get in front of me, he hit his elbow against my chest. So, I got mad and tried to grab him from the back of his shirt but ended up leaving a long scratch on the back of his neck. Eh, it was deep enough for some blood to ooze out.

Anyways, ten minutes into 6th period, he started messing with me again. And then tried to get my backpack. Again. And by then, I wasn't in a good mood due to him. So, I reached out and tried yanking it back, while trying to push his hands away. I guess I almost scratched him again. He got pissed off and before I knew it, he had his hands around my neck.

So, while he was using his thumbs to apply pressure against my throat, I reached up and basically dug my nails into his arms and forced them down. Which caused him to yelp in pain and let go of his old on my neck. Ugh, my neck was hurting throughout the whole class period. And it still hurts a bit now.

Meh...but other than that, school was okay. Going to the doctor on Friday, and to some fair on Saturday. So, I may not be on that much on Saturday. Friday, I probably will. Seeing as I'm not going to school. But, yeah. That's it for today. Adios everyone.

Woo! I found the website to mi padrino's(my godfather's) cafe! ^-^ Cafe Kasmir. It's so awesome. I love the layout of the site. >> <<

http://www.cafekashmir.com/index.html

Yeah...he has some awesome artwork in his cafe. Love going there whenever I get the chance. But, yeah. That's it. Adios. ^-^

So tired...but I woke at eight today. Wow. *blinks*Well, I think it was eight. I couldn't see the time very well. >> <<

...Ick, I think my arm just cracked while I was stretching. Yup, I heard that.-.- Eh, 'least my back isn't hurting anymore. Thank God.

Boo, I have homework to work on today.-.- Algebra and art. Yeah, I should've worked on it during the weekend, but I wasn't home that much. Yes, that is my excuse. Eheh. I'll work on it when I'm more awake. Or whatever. ~.~

*hums to Just A Girl*...Ooh, great. Now it's stuck in my head. Along with countless other songs. Evilness. At least I like this song. -.-

Feeling slightly amused right now. Something off of Nicole's(mi mamita hermosa. ^.^) diary. -->

August
(B=true, I=possibly, left the same=HELL NO.)
Loves to joke.
Attractive.
Suave and caring.
Brave and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities.
Knows how to console others.
Too generous and egotistic
Takes high pride of oneself.
Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit.
Easily angered.
Angry when provoked.
Easily jealous.
Observant.
Careful and cautious.
Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts.
Loves to lead and to be led. (I don't even want to ponder over this...o.o)
Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense.
Sensitive but not petty.
Poor resistance against illnesses.
Learns to relax.
Hasty and trusty.
Romantic.
Loving and caring.
Loves to make friends.

...Yum. Chorizo. And time for medicine, seeing as I've forgotten to take it the entire weekend.-.- Crud. So, yeah. Buh bye now.

Yay! Donut! So good. XD

Woo...I'm tired.*yawns and rubs eyes*Blegh. Close to eight hours of sleep this time, though! ^^

Ooh, I found a reggaeton radio station last night. I was so happy. I just wanted to nuzzle by CD player. XD

*hums to herself*...Only one awake at the moment. So, I guess I'll start writing now. >>;;;

Wonder where the phone is...and my cell phone. God, I hope I left it on my dresser. ~.~

Anyways, not much going on right now. So, yeah. Bye now. ^-^

Well, I just got back from spending some time with Sue. Library plans were cancelled. We ended up going to see Madagascar instead. I don't feel like explaining why. Eh, it was alright. Wasn't hilarious. But I guess some parts of the movie were funny. Loved the penguins. Heh. Though they didn't appear in the movie that much. Just from time to time really.

Eh, right now I'm not feeling that well. I need a hug. Heh. Whatever. Well, I'm going to go and write my reply to Matt's letter. Which I got today. Seeing as I'm going to be home alone with nothing to do. And who know's? Probably nobody to talk to either. Meh, whatever. I'm tired right now. I need a nap.

Eh, that's it. Adios now.

Going out with Sue today. I don't really want to go, but eh. Going to the library. To study, I guess. I shouldn't be there for too long. Three or four hours maybe. Depends on her.

Eh, I'm just not in the right condition to go out today. I'm exhausted, in pain, sickish, moody and not that very social right now. That, and I'm still kind of Woooo...from lack of sleep. Due to watching Mulan late at night. ~.~ Commercials were EVIL. -.- Damn you Disney channel. >> <<

...Goddamnit. Mom keeps logging me off. Yeah, and they say I use the phone too much.-.- It's only on weekends. And even then it's not a lot. Blegh.

Ugh, I'm so out of it right now. Six hours of sleep. Possibly less. I don't know. Eh, I'm feeling really pissed off right now. Which leads to depression most of the time. Maybe I should stay home. I guess it's too late though.

Heh, I feel like crying for some reason. I'll just blame the pain in my side. And...back. I need a nap. Sob. My bed....my comfortable, warm bed...

Mm, odd dream last night. Can't remember it much. Just the pictures of two guys. Creepy. Can't remember exactly how they looked, except that one of them had curly hair. Black and white pictures, too. Gah. I hate dreaming. So freakin' confusing and realistic. For me, anyways. It creeps out even more because if I do dream, I don't remember anything when I wake up. Eh, I don't know...

Heh, had a conversation with myself before I went to sleep though. Same as the one I always have with myself. About me, my emotions, the people I care for, my paranoia that they may be doing something behind my back. Or trying to hurt me emotionally. If they haven't done so already. Deep conversation. That I can't have with anyone else because I already know how they're going to react. So, it's just...me. Heh, I also talked to myself about the fact that I'm not physically attracted to anyone, except one person and that it's not just lust either. Yeah, lust was another topic that came into my..."conversation." Ah, I'm odd. I know.

*sighs and shrugs*I'm gonna go get my things ready. Almost time to go. So, yeah. Be back later. Adios.

No school on Monday. Yay.


Mm, good mood went away pretty fast. Now, I feel like hell. Again. Sister just annoyed the hell out of me, so now I have a headache. And my grandpa...got worse. Now I'm stressed out and depressed again. Damnit...

*sighs*...School was okay today. I guess anyways. Took the test for Algebra today, and the homework isn't due until Wednesday. And we ended up watching The Mummy Returns during English. Eh, gym was pretty boring. And annoying. I was trying to get Rodrigo off of me and ended up digging my nail into the flesh of my knouckle(on my left hand) and scratching it. Hard enough to to break the skin, really. So, now I have two more marks thanks to him.

...I'm thinking about what kind of job I may what to get, if not this year, next year. I might end up working for my godfather in his cafe. Cafe Kashmire. Hey, he has rock bands coming to play every Saturday night, so why not? Heh, but he really did look like an Italian mobster in one of the pictures that I have from my baptism. Anyways, if not there, Waldenbooks. So I can read manga while I'm there. Eheh.

Mm, I think I know what I want to do when I'm older. I want to be a nurse. Keep your perverted and/or mean comments to yourself. In other words, shut the fuck up. I'm actually being serious. I want to be a nurse. Well, for the premature ward if possible. I forgot what they're called. Damnit. But, yeah. I want to take care of babies. Seeing as I probably won't have any of my own, I'd rather do that. Well, that. And I probably wouldn't make much of a good mother. Maybe an aunt. But not a mom. Heh.

Eh, feeling really tired now, so that's it for today. Adios.

Number of days left until Summer vacation:21(not including weekends)