Woo. I have homework for AP World History, Geometry, and Biology this weekend. And because I don't want to forget and do it all on Sunday, I'm going to work on it tonight. And study for my history test during the weekend instead. Then again, I have a history test on Monday's, Tuesday's and Wednesday's. Oh, yay. *shrugs*Eh, doesn't matter. I'll live. Somehow. Not sure about my brain, but ah well.
I am currently greatly exhausted and pretty damn moody. Not like that's anything new. Parents are fighting again. Oh, happy happy joy joy. And I didn't get to see my grandpa since Monday or Tuesday, I think.*sighs* Oh well. C'est la vie. Shit happens. <--Basically, the same thing I say to myself whenever something bad happens or whatver. That, and a few other things. But that's usually the main one. And I'm not making any sense at the moment. I'll just blame it on my sleepy self. And it's only...eight o'clock!
Too tired and stressed out with family to really type much right now. Currently hoping to get my classes changed soon and also hoping that I'll survive AP World History. Well, time to eat, work on homework, and then pass out. I mean, sleep. >> << So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
Well, just got back from my first day of high school as a sophmore. And I guess it was okay. Even though I am going to try and change my biology class as soon as I can. Damn loud and stupid freshmen. Not many sophmores are in that class. And it's part of the Visual And Performance Arts Academy. Which I don't have. I have the Academic Prep Academy. Anyways, here are my classes for this semester.
Period One:
AP World History
Period Two:
Gym
Period Three:
Geometry
Period Four:
Biology
Yup. I only have four classes this year. And all of them are an hour and a half long. And, one semester of a class counts as one whole year of it. Unless you're taking an AP class and such, then it's a full year. And Stacy and I only have AP World History together. ;-; Her other classes are Geometry, Spanish, and Chemistery for some reason. Ah well. Now we can only see each other during first period and lunch. Seeing as she has gemoetry during second period. Which is when I have gym. -.-
Well, I met this girl who is in my biology class, who is also going to try and change for the same reasons as me. I believe her name is Karla. She's just like me in class. Quiet and shy. >> << But she's nice. ^-^ Anyways, I won't get English until next semester. Damnit. I didn't want Gym this semester either.
And Stacy and I were pretty much loners during lunch. Just as we thought. XD God, that school was crowded. -.- I didn't get lost looking for my classes, just trying to get out of the building. I went through the first exit I saw, and ended up on the other side of the school. XD Oh well. At least none of my classes are in the third floor. x.x
Oh! And another thing. There was like, a bunch of people from different news stations at the school this morning when I got their. I might be on tv. Or, I might have been. Whatever. XD They were filming interviews with random students. Seeing as it was a new school and today was our first day their. Took a while to even get inside.-.- But anyways, they were filming us when we were making our way inside. XD
Mm, I was going to try and take another picture today, but for some reason my camera isn't working right. Stupid thing. -.- Anyways, guess that's it for today. Adios mis queridos. <333
...Oh my god, my entire body feels like hell. I can hardly walk, my shoulders are sunburned, I'm exhausted...bu
But anyways. Had fun at Six Flags yesterday. Even though I didn't get on Goliath. Sorry Nicole, but it scared me badly. o.o These are the rides that Gloria, Stacy, my brother(well, half of them) and me went on:
Batman The Ride:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Colossus: (all of us, four times)--> http://www.six
Ninja:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Psyclone:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Revolution:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Scream:(me, Stacy, and Gloria)--> http://www.six
Riddler's Revenge:(me, Stacy, and Gloria)--> http://www.six
The only rides we had left to go on where X, Viper, Deja Vu, and Goliath. Well, there are a bit more, but those were closed down.-.- But anyways, going on all those rides took between eleven am until about two pm. Seeing as it was a Sunday, it wasn't exactly that full. The first two rides we went on where Revolution and Roaring Rapids. Which is where we got soaked. I mean, really soaked. My jeans were just...blegh. XD It was hilarious.>> <<
We spent the rest of the day with my family. Which was when we took my parents to Colossus. My dad loves thrill rides, so he wasn't affected much on it. But my mom on the other hand, was screaming. A lot. XD I only screamed on the first two times we went on it. Just not much.>>;;; By the fourth time, I was pretty much quiet. Just trying to ignore the odd feelings in my stomach that the ride gave me. And Ninja was pretty much a bore. That long, tiring walk for nothing. Just a freakin' headache.>.< And that's another thing, due to not eating much and all those rides, I had a headache for a while. A bad one.-.- But ah well, I wasn't hungry. Just thirsty.^.^;;;
Oh! And I got a birthday present from Stacy yesterday. This Edgar Allan Poe book and a kick ass watch. Hopefully it fits, though. XD Well, I had a pretty good birthday. And I'm too tired to type anything more. Seeing as I have to reply to thirty messages right now. So...adios mis queridos! <333
Oh, and before I forget. I want to thank all the people who wished me a happy birthday yesterday. It really did complete my day.
I LURVE YOU ALL! <3
Just got back from shopping. Everything was going pretty food until we got to the mall. Parents started fighting again. Good mood ruined. Nothing new. *shrugs*Always happens. Especially the day before my birthday. At least I'll be away from them tomorrow.*shru
Exhausted. Once again, I fell asleep late last night. There was too much on my mind for me to fall asleep. Those thoughts have yet to go away, so I'm a bit out of it today. Just tired and stressed out. Not depressed, just slightly stressed out. Only reasons I have to be depressed now have gone down. Though they still can upset me pretty badly. Such as my grandfather getting sick. But that's life, I guess. Shit happens and we have to deal with it one way or another and continue living. Somehow. >.<
Eh, I spent most of the day watching tv with Matthew in my room. But him being two, you can just imagine the shows we watched. Dora The Explorer, Blues Clues, Baby Loony Tunes, Lazy Town, The Koala Brothers, Higgleytown Heroes, Danny Phantom, Lilo And Stich, Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends, and...a Hot Hot Heat special on MTV. >> <<
Yes, this is how I spent my summer. Watching little kid shows with my baby brother out of boredom.-.- Even though yesterday he gave me a cut on my bottom lip while he was jumping ontop of the bed and landing on me, while I was resting on his bed and watching my other brother play some video game on the PS2. His elbow slammed against my mouth and somehow mangaed to give me a cut on my bottom lip.>.< He's an abusive little boy. ;-; ...And I think my spelling is getting worse now. xD
*blinks*Oh, before I forget. I didn't get my classes yesterday. THEY LIED TO US! ...AGAIN! The only thing I got was my P.E. clothes and my homeroom number. Eh, the P.E. shirt fits fine. In other words, it's like passed my hips. w00t. XL.>> << But the shorts SUCK. I knew I should have gotten them in XXL. XD I'm short, but not short enough for the shorts that I got. That sounded odd. Anyways. The damn thing is like right at my knees. And I wanted them passed my knees. Seeing as I hate "showing off" my legs. They are fugleh. FUGLEH I SAY! And kind of thick.-.- Now to mention that damn scar on my right leg. Blegh.
...Moving on.-.- My homeroom is in building B room 206. And Stacy's is in building A room 204. We're a building apart! *sobs* Now I'm just hoping we get the same academy and the same classes, or else we're gonna be loners until lunch.;-; Even though I saw Martha yesterday. She's still shorter than me. And she still has braces. And she's still nice, I suppose. Then again, we didn't get to talk much. Not like we were really friends back in 8th grade, but we knew each other. Woo, 8th grade drama. Which I still haven't forgotten. *sighs and shudders*Death
...AND I TOOK MY PROZAC! So now I don't have to take it my mistake later on. Blegh. I think my breathing problems are getting worse. I should probably tell my parents before I die in my sleep or something.-.- Ah well. Birthday is this Sunday! Yay! And I might get my camera this Saturday! ^.^ Well, that's if my parents stop fighting. Oh well. I might get a new plushie on Friday. Whee! Plushie! ^-^
That also reminds me, my brother's friend called yesterday and invited him to his birthday party this Saturday. Which was when my parents where gonna take me out to dinner. And also the day when Brenda is having her Quinceañera. I gave up going to Brenda's party for spending time with my family, and now my brother is probably going to go to some party. That really got me a bit annoyed. Which also reminds me, I've been getting annoyed a lot faster lately. o.o Damnit.
Ehm, I found out that my cousin Gloria is a bit like me when it comes to extreme rides. Poor Stacy, she has to try and drag us into many rides now. XD Oh well, we'll see what happens on Sunday. >> << Hrm, sister is going to be home soon from school, so I better go now and let my brother get back on again. So I can go and lock myself in my room to get away from my grandmother's bitching. Which is really starting to piss me off.-.- See. Told you. Anyways, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
...Took my Prozac already. So there is no need for me to end up taking it again later today by mistake. w00t. Anyways, Ugly by The Exies appears to be stuck in my head. Which would explain my mood(s). Turn a blind eye, why do I deny? Medicate me, so I die happy. A strain of cancer chokes the answers. Are you like me? A liar like me? *blinks*...God
But moving on! I get my schedule tomorrow. And in about two weeks or so, I go back to school. And I'm already starting to feel sick to my stomach. Ah well, at least I'll be sick to my stomach for a different reason on Sunday. Six Flags! Yay! Which means Stacy and my cousin Gloria are going to drag me off to the extreme rides that make me twitch. Or like what happened on Supreme Scream, I'll start hyperventilati
Hrm, I think I have to call my cousin before Sunday. To ask if she's still going with us to Six Flags. Eh, maybe I'll make my dad call instead. Gloria and I don't talk as much as we used to when we were younger, but we're still close, if somewhat. Anyways, I may start shopping for school this Saturday, so now there's a chance that I may actually be gone for this entire weekend. Eh, we'll see.
Well, guess that's it for now. Family is starting to annoy me, so I better go.-.- Adios mis queridos. <333
Ugly by The Exies
Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don’t know
Money it’s no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
I don’t care, you don’t care
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, like me
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Well, I had to delete the entry that I had here, due to the fact that I somehow made the comp work. O.o So, yeah. But, never know when it'll get messed up again.-.- But, eh. It works now. ^-^ So, not much to say. Adios mis queridos. <333
Oh, and one more thing...
Well, I think I might be going to Brenda's Quinceañera next Saturday. Seeing as Stacy said that she and her family were going to go. And my mom did tell me that if Stacy's family went, then I wouldn't be left alone for a few hours. But that also means that I need to get Brenda a birthday present and I don't know what she'd like. Maybe something for her drums? Eh, I dunno. What I do know is that she's a fan of Social Distortion, MANA, and The Distellers. I think I'm going to go to Hot Topic for the Social D. and Distellers stuff. Seeing as MANA is a Spanish rock band that tends to have a lot of romantic songs and stuff. >> << That, and I don't know where to get MANA merchandise.-.
That also means that I have to dress up for it too. Blegh. Too much dressing up this year. Well, just three times. And Christmas. What fun. Stacy, Brenda, and my cousin Gloria are all having Quinceañeras. For Brenda's thing, I'm just gonna wear my black and white pinstripe pants, my vans, and my black long sleeved...swea
Anyways, my dad is going to Vegas for some kind of buisness trip tonight and probably won't be home until sometime during the weekend. And then next week I have to go get my classes, then I have to go to therapy, followed by Brenda's party, and then my trip to Six Flags. The following week, I have to go school shopping, which then leaves me a few days to fret over school and start feeling sick to my stomach until the first day of school finally arrives. Yay.
Oh, I also found out that I'm probably going to have a Sweet Sixteen next year. Along with the week long trip. My parents said that the party will be a bit small and it'll probably be before the trip. So, I'm guessing around late July. My mom was thinking of having some kind of Nightmare Before Christmas theme for it. Seeing as she saw it in some wedding. xD That would straight out PWN. But she said I couldn't have a black dress for it. Maybe some kind of red, purple, or blue...but no black. Damnit.-.- Ah well, they're just trying to make it up for already screwing up two of my birthdays. Last year when they ened up making me cry in public and ruining the rest of the day, and this year when I decieded to not have a Quinceañera because of them. Well, their fighting and financial problems. So, I'll see what we'll do for next year.
Eh, I think I'm gonna go take a shower right now. Seeing as it's almost five. And...once again my dumbass forgot to take the Prozac. Shit. Eh, guess I'll go take it now. Though I'm only suppose to take it in the morning. *blinks*Actual
Mm, don't know if I'll be on later today. Mom has to go to the doctor today at around four and after that we're going to go visit my grandfather. Blegh, I like saying grandfather in Spanish rather than in English. But anyways. I'll probably be back at around six or seven. Not exactly sure.
Anyways, had some kind of a dream last night. But of course, I can't remember what it was about. Not much anyway. Just that Stacy was in there and that it had something to do with school. If Stacy's in any of my dreams, it either has something to do with school or it's just entirely insane. xD But that's all that I can remember. Maybe I was predicting something in my dreams? Like I usually do. My parents said that when I was younger I would predict car crashes that would usually actually occur. Not my fault. It seemed most logical due to where our old and ghetto house was located. XD Mm, and some of the people I know are really predictable to me by now, so I tend to know what they're gonna say before they actually do. -.- But I'm Mexican and my family is weird, so you never know. They're either into witchcraft like stuff or they're just religious hypocrits. Or they're like me, they have their own personal beliefs and tend to ignore everyone else. ^-^ ...And that's saying it lightly without swearing.>>;;;
God damnit, I'm getting bitched at again. And this time, not by family.-.- Last night was even worse. Now I'm feeling depressed. Fun. *blinks*Neck hurts. And I just noticed that today is the 10th. o-o Which means eleven more days until my birthday. Which also reminds me, I got an invitation from Brenda for her Quinceañera. Which is going to be on the 20th. My parents said that I could go. But that they were gonna leave me alone. With people that I don't even know. ;-; I mean, I know Brenda and one of the guys that's going to be a part of it, but they're gonna be busy. And I don't even know if Stacy is going, either. I should call her tomorrow. But anyways. That's the day that my parents were gonna take me out to dinner. So, by the looks of it, I won't be on much during the weekend of my birthday.
...And next week I get my classes! w00t! I'm gonna make my parents help me look for my classrooms while we're there. Which I'll probably forget where they are once I start school on September 6th.-.- *blinks*Eh, that's it for today. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <33
...Oh, one more thing.
Well, I just got a packet from my new high school. Dear God, that's a lot of crud to read. And fill out. But that's my parents job. All I have to do is go during pre-registrati
Anyways, they just sent us two packets, a form for my Medical history, and some other form for lunch tickets. Because we're dirt poor at the moment. >> << And this check-off list of things we're suppose to go when I get my classes and suchs. w00t.
Mm, my brother got something similar too. But nothing like mine. Just that we both start school on the 6th of September. And we're probably going to get out early that day.
Though I doubt I'm going to get the academy that I want. Due to my awful grades.-.- Ah well. C'est la vie. I'll see when the time comes, I guess. Hrm, almost five thirty. I better go take a quick shower before my dad gets home. In case we have to go visit my grandpa. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
Well, lets see. I was almost hospitalized yesterday. Why? Heh, parents were fighting again. Just like before. Which resulted in me blurting out that my therapist wanted to take me to the hospital the day I went to see her because she wanted to make sure I didn't do anything to myself and a few other things. So, my dad freaked and said he was going to take me to the hospital. And this all happened at ten at night when we were driving back home. Well, by then I was already sobbing and whimpering and begging him not to take me to the hospital. Eh, it really wasn't begging. It was just me shaking my head, whimpering and saying, "No, no, no.." over and over again. Sometimes adding, "I don't want to go." If I could. I can't really talk well when I'm crying.-.-
Mom told him not to take me and asked me if I was going to hurt myself. I started crying harder and shook my head. While of course, still saying the stated things above. But, then we got home, my mom had to help me to my room. Not only because it was dark, but because I couldn't walk and I was shaking too much. Dad told me that I should go sleep, but that I had to leave my bedroom door open. Too make sure I didn't do anything, of course. Which I wasn't. No matter what. Of course, I couldn't say any of that because by then, I couldn't talk. Even if I wanted too, I couldn't.
About half in hour later, while I was still in bed crying, my parents came in to talk to me. But that's even more personal than what I have written down so far, so I'm not going to mention it much. Just that they told me not to do anything because that would just kill whatever will power they have left in them. If you didn't know, both of my parents are suicidal.*sigh
Though my siblings came in to ask me if I was still going to watch Inuyasha with them. Heh, they actually looked worried for me. Now I hate myself for crying in front of Matthew again. *sighs again*But, anyways. I somehow managed to say yes, so at 11:30pm, we watched Samurai Champloo and then Inuyasha. And then they went to bed. Eh, there's so much else left to say, but right now I'm really out of it. Parents aren't fighting right now. Yay.
Though I don't know if I'll be here much today. Unless my sister can't walk much. Seeing as something happened to her foot. But, if she can, we might go somewhere. Though I don't feel the same anymore. I feel emotionally drained. More than I have ever felt. Eh, I'm just out of it. Maybe it'll go away in a day or so. But, if anyone even bothered to read this, I'm sorry. I'm especially sorry if I act like a moody bitch today or tomorrow. You can ignore me if you want. I'll understand. But, eh. I'm just sorry if I act even more moody and withdrawn than before. But no worries, I'll be fine. So, adios mis queridos. <333
Dude! My new school has elevators! ...And clean restrooms! o.o The classrooms were awesome. Damnit, they were new. Eh, probably won't last very long though. All the people around me and my dad were all taking bets to see how long the school would last. It's probably going to have trash all over the place on the first day.XD
Me and my dad got there kind of late. Seeing as we had to drop my mom off at work and my siblings over at my aunt's house. Anyways, so we got there at around 10:30am. Well, a bit after that seeing as we couldn't find parking. Some stupid slutty looking girls were in their car, but they didn't leave. Dad wanted me to beat them with metal pipe>> << Eh, he wanted me to choke a bitch.XD That was funny.o.o But we ended up parking about two blocks away from the school. Dumb sluts didn't even park their car right.-.-
The lockers are tiny though. And they're outside. What if it rains?! >.< Blegh. There weren't that many for all the students that I saw. So, the rest of them are probably hiding. Somewhere. Maybe. I don't know. But anyways. It looked pretty nice, really. When we got there, they were playing Mexican music through the speakers. That was hilarious.>> << ...They have boulders too.XD
Eh, I'm going to try and take my camera the first day of school. And walk around with Stacy taking pictures of random things. If I can. And of my mini locker.XD Stupid thing. I'm gonna make it look pretty. Damn straight.>>;;; *blinks*I should probably call Stacy. Didn't see her over at the school. Then again, there were a lot of people.-.- But if she did go, I probably can't call her until later today. Damnit. I have like three or four phone calls to make today. x.x All of which tend to last over an hour. Eh, I'll probably forget about calling Stacy. And just get about two phone calls.XD ...But I need to call her about Six Flags and her Quinceañera. And that my cousin is inviting her(Stacy) to her Quinceañera too. -.-
*blinks*The school is having a trip to Europe next year. London and Paris for about nine days. The total is like close to two thousand dollars. I think the lady said that it was going to be during our Easter break. Though because that won't be for that long, I think we'd only miss one or two days of school. I'd like to go. But I'm already going to Florida that year. >> << Unless something happens. x-x
...I'm hungry now. Gonna go see if we have anything to eat.>> << So, adios mis queridos. <333
Well, I have therapy today. So I probably won't be on until later. I should probably tell my therapist about the now more constant depression and suicidal thoughts I've been having. Dear god, the meds are getting to me. DAMN THEM TO FUCKING HELL! >.<
...And then then last night I broke down. Completely broke down into a sobbing, whimpering mess on my bed. Whee. -.- This began about a few minutes after I got offline. Took about half an hour to calm down.-.- Must've been a mood-swing, I guess. A bad one. Right after I calmed down, I felt mellow and then a bit better after I watched Family Guy for an hour. Fell asleep at around one, though. Fun.
Anyways, better go and finish getting ready. My aunt is gonna come and pick me up in about twenty minutes and I have to finish brushing my hair. And because of the shower, it's even more tangled up right now. Stupid thing. >.< So, yeah. I'll probably be on at around three or four my time. And right now it's almost 1:30pm, and I have to be there before two. So, I better get off before my brother gets even more pissed off. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos.
Whee. Got my cell phone back from my dad. It's currently somewhere in my room. Eh, hope I don't lose it again. Mm, talked to Brenda yesterday. First time since...June. Which was on my last day of school. Of course, I didn't talk to her on the phone or irl. Nope, I talked to her on AIM. Miracle that she was on. She said something about having her invitations for her Quinceañera being ready but just that she needed to buy stamps to mail them. If I remember correctly, she said she was going to send me one. But she also said that it was going to be on the 20th. And I don't know if I'm going to Six Flags on the 20th or on the 21st.
Then there's another thing. Stacy told me that Gaby had called her and told her about me and her celebrating our birthdays together. Seeing as me and Gaby were both born on the 21st of August. Though I'm probably just a few hours older than her. But, anyways. Because Gaby know's that I may not be home on the weekend of my birthday, I was told that she wants to go to Universal Studios Hollywood on the 27th. I don't know if my parents will let me go, not only that, we're broke. So...*shrugs*
Heh, we also decieded to drop the whole birthday dinner thing as well. Instead, I'm going to Six Flags, getting a digital camera, and $200 from my parents. Half is going to go on clothes and the other half is for me to spend as I wish. Along with whatever else I get from random relatives. Which probably won't be that many. We only get a lot of gifts if we're having a party. Which means free beer and food for them. Woo.
So, yeah. I can still pick between a Sweet Sixteen or a week long trip to wherever I want. And by the way things are starting to look as if they're going back to how they were before, I really don't want anything anymore. I don't want anything for this year or next. In other words, today sucked. A lot. And I'm in a lot of physical pain right now. Blegh.
Which also reminds me, I found an inch long cut on my right leg and I don't know how I got it. My dad thinks Matthew must've given it to me. But I don't know. Maybe I ended up hurting myself while I was asleep? I am under the influence of drugs right now, so...heh. I don't even see much of a change since I started taking the Prozac. I mean, the now constant depression, frustration, anxiety, and mood-swings could be a sign of it taking affect. But, I've been like that since before I started taking the meds.-.- And because of something else, my moodyness is probably going to get worse for a few days. Oh, fun.
Mm, my sister starts going to therapy today too. I was supposed to go today, but my therapist wanted to see my sister today instead. So I'm going to go on Friday. And Saturday, I'm going to some five or six hour long thing for my new school. And on Sunday, if things get better here, I'm going to some lake with the family. Which is when I'm going to sit down and watch them swim out of boredom. Because I'm not getting in. Such great fun. Ah well. At least I might be able to see Stacy this Saturday while over there for the school thing. If I go, anyway.
Hm, wonder when Jade is going to go on MSN again. And I wonder when Nancy is going to get her ass online and/or call me. She still has my yearbook and I'm worried about her ADHD arse. >.< ...I had a dream about her last night. And no, not a perverted one.-.- Took place in S.G.H.S. For some reason she looked preppy. And that was scary enough. I know how she dresses. And acts. She's a hyper punk rocker. And by the looks of that dream, it was the first day of school. I don't even know why I dreamt that. Guess I miss her a lot. o.x
Eh, time to go eat. So, yeah. That's it. Adios mis queridos. <333
...w00t. In twenty days I'll be a woman and no longer a little girl. XD Well, no. I'll just be fifteen more years closer to thirty.-.- But, anyways. Yush, twenty more days until my fifteenth birthday. It would have been celebrated in a grand party...if we had the money and I had said yes. I actually had said yes to the whole thing, but then shit happens, so...yeah. And I was going to have a 10,000 dollar(and more) Sweet Sixteen thing next year, but, nah. Quinceañera would have been better for me, but that's too much money to spend on me. So, a week long trip it is. My parents would actually take me to Japan if I told them I wanted to go. XD
But, I picked Florida. Not just for me, but a place for my family to enjoy it as much as I will...In other words, a place where my siblings won't bitch as much. Can't let my parents know that, or else I'll end up somewhere in Europe or some other state here in the US for a week. o.o
Ah well, I've always thought like that. I've always made sure that everyone else is happy and not give much of a thought about myself. My parents said I was always special like that. ^-^...*coughs*
Heh, they also said I used to be a bit more girly when I was younger too. Always liked to wear dresses and boots...cowgir
Anyways, moving away from boring times. My dad is giving me my cell phone back. Woo! That also reminds me, I called Kisa yesterday. Fun, fun. ^-^ Almost made it to two hours, until my phone decieded to die on me. -.- Ebil thing.
...I wasn't on most of the day because I was watching cartoons with Matthew. In other words, Winnie The Pooh. Which was thus followed by Piglets Big Movie. I was all: "Aww." and crud. >>;;; I haven't watched that show in years, damnit. And I missed Tigger and Eeyore. XD
I remembered to take my meds today.*nods*Yu
...I think there was something I was supposed to do today. But I can't remember. Ah well, it happens. *blinks*Heh, I fell asleep after one in the morning due to watching a two hour long show about a family whose house was haunted. Dude, that freaked me out a lot. Normally, I don't react to those type of things that badly. Until last night, and I'm not even sure why. After the first hour of watching it, I started to feel panicked and paranoid. Really paranoid. I got so scared that I actually started whimpering. XD I'm such an idiot.-.- Ah well, I somehow managed to fall asleep when it was over. Miracle.
Blegh. Anyways. Too lazy to type much more. And I'm also too lazy to check for all the errors that I know I made in this, but eh. Too freakin' bad. So, yeah, I guess that's it for today. Adios mis queridos. <333
Mm, sleepy. -.- S'what I get for going to sleep after midnight. Wasn't exactly my fault, seeing as we got home at 11:30 pm last night. I ended up watching Mad TV for half an hour while waiting for Inuyasha to come on. Watched that and thus tried falling asleep. Took about an hour and half. I think. Eh, can't remember.
Anyways, dad changed his mind, Santa Barbara is too far for us too drive to. So, we're going to Griffith Park. Woo. Though, because everyone went to sleep late, I may be here for a bit longer. Yay.
Blegh, too tired, so this will just be a really short entry. So, adios mis queridos. <333
Well, I probably won't be on tomorrow. If I am, it may not be for long. But you never know, plans could change. Anyways. My parents want to go out for the day. So we'll either be in Santa Barbara or Santa Clarita for most of the day. We'll probably end up leaving a bit late like when we went to San Diego. But, anyways. My dad gave me the job to look for places where we could visit while we are there. Didn't really look that hard for Santa Clarita. Mainly because of Nojoqui Falls, in Santa Barbara. It sounds freakin' awesome. So, maybe we could go there. But I also have to find more places there. I doubt we're going to stay in a park all day. I'd die of boredom. Most likely after my cell phone dies. But the whole Nojoqui Falls thing makes me which I had my camera already.-.-
...Oh god. Salad Fingers is freakin' disturbing. o_o ( http://www.fat
Mmm...The Middle by Jimmy Eat World is playing. Love this song. Makes me feel...good. And not depressed. >> << *hums along*Whee...o
...Can't find anything else in Santa Barbara. Hrm. Though I think I saw another type of park. I just gotta look for it in the website again, seeing as I forgot what it's called. -.- *blinks*Neverm
Woo. Love songs with a perverted edge are now playing on my Launch radio. What fun. O.o *blinks*Mm, almost five. Which means my dad should be back with my siblings soon. And then we're going to visit my grandpa once they get here. And then my mom may get off work by then, so we're all off to eat. Most likely to T.G.I.F's or Chili's. But they're both about an hour away. So, if my mom gets out a bit late, we're just gonna go eat at some Mexican place. >> << Most likely at the place where I might have my birthday dinner. XD
I should probably fix my hair. It's a tangled mess right now. *blinks*Wow. I'm wearing non-boy-like clothes right now. Well, somewhat. Shirt isn't as baggy as most of my other ones. Which are all black and not girly. ^.^;;; I'm wearing my green 'I Need A Hug' baby Eeyore shirt with some somewhat baggy jeans. I swear. If I have my back turned to someone while wearing my baggy black hoodie, and not talking, someone might think I'm a boy with long hair. XD ...Think it's happened before too. Yeah. It did. While Brenda was talking to me during gym and I had my hoodie on...some dumb fuck of a girl was listening in on us. Well, Brenda, really. Because I wasn't talking. Just nodding and stuff. And most of my hair was tucked behind my hoodie by mistake. *snickers*
...Anyways.>>;;; Should probably keep getting ready. So, adios mis queridos. <333
A bad headache, depression and nausea don't go well together. Blegh. I'm depressed and I feel like crying. And I don't even know fucking why. Eh, I'm just gonna blame it on the meds. Yup. S'what I'm gonna do. Blame it all the meds. *blinks*...Stu
I seem to be lacking a lot of enthusiasm at the moment. And I'm not hungry, either. Don't wanna eat. Then again, as I told Kisa, I was eating like a rabid, pregnant woman about an hour ago. Well, not eating as much. Just wanting to eat. A lot. All I had was a pizza pocket and some oreos afterwards. Eh, I think I just screwed up my left arm with scratch marks. Damnit.-.- Felt like something was crawling under my skin.
Meh. Anyways, on Wednesday I got three tubes of blood taken out. Yup. Once again they're checking on my anemia and some other things too. Oh, happy happy joy joy. God, that show was disturbing to watch when I was younger. Anyways...
Matthew seems to have become fond of all my stuffed animals and such. Especially my Nemo plushie and Baby, my giraffe. Nemo is his 'Fishie' and Baby is...Baby. But he also likes my Rabbit and Dog plushies too. *sniffs* He takes them away from me when he goes into my room. Not nice. ;-;
Mm, might be going to some lake either this weekend or next. And if not, we're going to church this weekend. Yup yup. Who knows? My fading faith may return to me once more. It could happen. Sooner or later. Just not at the moment, due to my grandparents forcing religion onto me. Makes me get annoyed. I know it's important to them, but I wish they wouldn't do that.
And I also wish people would fucking answer once you pick up the god forsaken fucking phone. I just wanna smack somebody. And then beat them senseless with a fucking bat. >.< One of these days, I swear to God I'm going to throw the phone against the wall so it DIES AND GOES TO HELL! >.< ...Speaking of phones, my dad has my cell phone. Why? Because his cell phone died and went to hell. I mean, it got broken when he was working. So he has my phone for now. My minutes!!! >.< ...That I don't even use!
...I wanna cuddle. *sobs*I wanna cuddle sooo much right now. ;-;
Oh, I have a panda. Named Sakari. And she rocks. And I got her on Elf12. Where I got the link from someone here and now I can bother my siblings just like they do here. Mmm...sweet revenge. So tasty.
Did I forget to mention that my mom got hit on by a 16/17 year old guy at work? Yeah. She did. Scary thought. I mean, it's not like my mom is ugly. Hell no. She's pretty. Which means I obviously did not get her looks. Just her "big, bubble eyes" as my dad calls them. My eyes were the same shape as hers when I was younger. But now they aren't. They're just the same shade of dark brown as my dad's and not the lighter brown color that my mom has. But anyways, having a teenage dumb fuck hitting on my mom...is weird. Dad should have kicked his arse. >> <<
Oh, that also reminds me...my parents are back together. I've only mentioned this to one person and this has been going on for about two weeks or more.XD Don't wanna explain. It'll take to long. And I'll just confuse everyone. So, yeah. We're all living in the same house again. Driving each other to the brink of insanity. w00t.
Eh, I think I'm feeling slightly better now. Just lonely and wanting affection. *sniffs*Ah well. That's it for today. Adios.
Eh, I'm quite embarrassed right now. S'all my mom's fault. >> << Some song was playing on the radio a while ago and she came into the room and told me that when I was a baby she would always sing that song to me. And she also told me that now everytime that she hears it, it reminds her of me. I'm her first born, so of course I'm special. XD
Well, I looked up the lyrics to the song. And...I like it. It's pretty. >> << I'll post them at the end of this entry.
Anyways.^.^;;; Gonna go see my therapist today. And probably get another blood test today, too. Ooh. Yay. Fun, fun. That reminds me, they didn't call back with the results of my last blood test. >.<
Eheh, I just read the lyrics to the song again, and I'm blushing. @.@ *blinks*That reminds me. I couldn't stop laughing last night. XD Mainly because I Want Your Sex by George Michael started playing on the radio. And, that was basically the first time that I heard the entire song. Sex is natural - sex is fun. Sex is best when it's...one on one. >>;;; I think I was also giggling. A lot. Oh god. XD
Anyways. Better go start getting my things ready. And my meds. Can't forget that. Damnit. *sulks*So, I better go take them now. Adios mis queridos. <333
(Not exactly sure if this song is called Baby, Baby or Heart in Motion. All I know is that it's by Amy Grant. So, yeah. Here it is.)
Baby, baby
I'm taken with the notion
To love you with the sweetest of devotion.
Baby, baby
My tender love will flow from
The bluest sky to the deepest ocean.
Stop for a minute
Baby, I'm so glad you're mine, yeah
You're mine.
Baby, baby
The stars are shining for you
And just like me I'm sure that they adore you.
Baby, baby
Go walking through the forest
The birds above a' singing you a chorus.
Stop for a minute
Baby, they're so glad you're mine, oh yeah
And ever since the day you put my heart in motion
Baby I realize that there's just no getting over you.
Baby, baby
In any kind of weather
I'm here for you always and forever.
Baby, baby
No muscle man could sever
My love for you is true and it will never
Stop for a minute
Baby, I'm so glad you're mine
And ever since the day you put my heart in motion
Baby I realize that there's just no getting over you.
And ever since the day you put my heart in motion
Baby I realize that there's just no getting over you.
Over you.
Baby, baby
Always and forever
Baby I'm so glad that
Here for you baby
So glad you're mine
Baby I'm so glad that
When I think about you it makes me smile
Baby, baby be mine
Baby I'm so glad that
Don't stop giving love
Don't stop, no
Baby I'm so glad that you're mine
Baby I'm so glad
Baby I'm so glad that
When I think about you it makes me smile.