More crap with my parents. Woo. Family problems. Going over to Stacy's house for a bit. If I'm not back later it's probably because of the following:
1.) Got back after seven.
2.) Parents fighting got worse/other family problems.
Well, adios.
Yay! I actually got more than four hours of sleep last night. I got about...seven, I think. Six or seven. Can't remember. All I know is that I got a nose bleed around three in the morning. Well, almost got one. XD
*blinks*Just found out that my high school has a swimming pool. I didn't know that. O.o Then again, I don't know where the hell all the restrooms are, either.>> << Anyways, this is what I just read:
This new high school will open for students on September 6, 2005 on a traditional calendar and will provide 2,700 new high school seats. The high school relieves severe overcrowding at South Gate, Huntington Park and Bell high schools. Campus features include a library, student store, health office, food service, cafeteria, auditorium, gymnasium, swimming pool, sports fields and administration offices. This new campus allows South Gate High School, built in 1932, to return to a traditional calendar after more than two decades of year-round operations because of severe overcrowding.
..We're also adjacent to a middle school! ^-^ ...Damn midgets are gonna get hit by a car one of these days.-.- Oh, yay. Pictures!
http://eteamz.
Moving on. *blinks* Heh, I felt like crying a few minutes ago. No idea why. But now I'm better. Still kind of...meh. Oh well. Mm, had a test for Geometry today. It was easy. Somewhat. Still probably screwed up on it, though. XD And I also had a quiz for AP World History. No idea how I did in that. But I'm hoping for the best. I have a test for that class on Tuesday.
Oh, before I forget. I won't be on much tomorrow. And I'll be gone after five o'clock on Sunday. On Saturday I'm going to my cousin Gloria's Quinceañera. And because my brother is going to be a part of it, we have to go to the Mass at some church at around one in the afternoon. And after that, my brother and all the other people that are going to be in her Quinceañera have to go take pictures and probably ride around in the limo for a bit before the party begins. And on Sunday, I have to go over to Stacy's house for Quinceañera related reasons too. Not like it'll matter to anyone, but I thought it would be nice of me to mention it. >>;;; *yawns*Mm, sleepy.-.-
Whee...I have Biology, Geometry, and AP World History this weekedn. Thankfully, they're all easy. And my brother and sister are gonna be gone for a while today! Though I doubt anyone will be on today. So I get to hang out with Matthew and watch cartoons today. w00t w00t. And I think I'm either depressed or stressed at the moment. No idea. O.o So, meh. Parents are fighting again. *sighs* So I'm gone. Peace out, bean burritos. [♥]
Woo. I have homework for AP World History, Geometry, and Biology this weekend. And because I don't want to forget and do it all on Sunday, I'm going to work on it tonight. And study for my history test during the weekend instead. Then again, I have a history test on Monday's, Tuesday's and Wednesday's. Oh, yay. *shrugs*Eh, doesn't matter. I'll live. Somehow. Not sure about my brain, but ah well.
I am currently greatly exhausted and pretty damn moody. Not like that's anything new. Parents are fighting again. Oh, happy happy joy joy. And I didn't get to see my grandpa since Monday or Tuesday, I think.*sighs* Oh well. C'est la vie. Shit happens. <--Basically, the same thing I say to myself whenever something bad happens or whatver. That, and a few other things. But that's usually the main one. And I'm not making any sense at the moment. I'll just blame it on my sleepy self. And it's only...eight o'clock!
Too tired and stressed out with family to really type much right now. Currently hoping to get my classes changed soon and also hoping that I'll survive AP World History. Well, time to eat, work on homework, and then pass out. I mean, sleep. >> << So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
Well, just got back from my first day of high school as a sophmore. And I guess it was okay. Even though I am going to try and change my biology class as soon as I can. Damn loud and stupid freshmen. Not many sophmores are in that class. And it's part of the Visual And Performance Arts Academy. Which I don't have. I have the Academic Prep Academy. Anyways, here are my classes for this semester.
Period One:
AP World History
Period Two:
Gym
Period Three:
Geometry
Period Four:
Biology
Yup. I only have four classes this year. And all of them are an hour and a half long. And, one semester of a class counts as one whole year of it. Unless you're taking an AP class and such, then it's a full year. And Stacy and I only have AP World History together. ;-; Her other classes are Geometry, Spanish, and Chemistery for some reason. Ah well. Now we can only see each other during first period and lunch. Seeing as she has gemoetry during second period. Which is when I have gym. -.-
Well, I met this girl who is in my biology class, who is also going to try and change for the same reasons as me. I believe her name is Karla. She's just like me in class. Quiet and shy. >> << But she's nice. ^-^ Anyways, I won't get English until next semester. Damnit. I didn't want Gym this semester either.
And Stacy and I were pretty much loners during lunch. Just as we thought. XD God, that school was crowded. -.- I didn't get lost looking for my classes, just trying to get out of the building. I went through the first exit I saw, and ended up on the other side of the school. XD Oh well. At least none of my classes are in the third floor. x.x
Oh! And another thing. There was like, a bunch of people from different news stations at the school this morning when I got their. I might be on tv. Or, I might have been. Whatever. XD They were filming interviews with random students. Seeing as it was a new school and today was our first day their. Took a while to even get inside.-.- But anyways, they were filming us when we were making our way inside. XD
Mm, I was going to try and take another picture today, but for some reason my camera isn't working right. Stupid thing. -.- Anyways, guess that's it for today. Adios mis queridos. <333
...Oh my god, my entire body feels like hell. I can hardly walk, my shoulders are sunburned, I'm exhausted...bu
But anyways. Had fun at Six Flags yesterday. Even though I didn't get on Goliath. Sorry Nicole, but it scared me badly. o.o These are the rides that Gloria, Stacy, my brother(well, half of them) and me went on:
Batman The Ride:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Colossus: (all of us, four times)--> http://www.six
Ninja:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Psyclone:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Revolution:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Scream:(me, Stacy, and Gloria)--> http://www.six
Riddler's Revenge:(me, Stacy, and Gloria)--> http://www.six
The only rides we had left to go on where X, Viper, Deja Vu, and Goliath. Well, there are a bit more, but those were closed down.-.- But anyways, going on all those rides took between eleven am until about two pm. Seeing as it was a Sunday, it wasn't exactly that full. The first two rides we went on where Revolution and Roaring Rapids. Which is where we got soaked. I mean, really soaked. My jeans were just...blegh. XD It was hilarious.>> <<
We spent the rest of the day with my family. Which was when we took my parents to Colossus. My dad loves thrill rides, so he wasn't affected much on it. But my mom on the other hand, was screaming. A lot. XD I only screamed on the first two times we went on it. Just not much.>>;;; By the fourth time, I was pretty much quiet. Just trying to ignore the odd feelings in my stomach that the ride gave me. And Ninja was pretty much a bore. That long, tiring walk for nothing. Just a freakin' headache.>.< And that's another thing, due to not eating much and all those rides, I had a headache for a while. A bad one.-.- But ah well, I wasn't hungry. Just thirsty.^.^;;;
Oh! And I got a birthday present from Stacy yesterday. This Edgar Allan Poe book and a kick ass watch. Hopefully it fits, though. XD Well, I had a pretty good birthday. And I'm too tired to type anything more. Seeing as I have to reply to thirty messages right now. So...adios mis queridos! <333
Oh, and before I forget. I want to thank all the people who wished me a happy birthday yesterday. It really did complete my day.
I LURVE YOU ALL! <3
Just got back from shopping. Everything was going pretty food until we got to the mall. Parents started fighting again. Good mood ruined. Nothing new. *shrugs*Always happens. Especially the day before my birthday. At least I'll be away from them tomorrow.*shru
Exhausted. Once again, I fell asleep late last night. There was too much on my mind for me to fall asleep. Those thoughts have yet to go away, so I'm a bit out of it today. Just tired and stressed out. Not depressed, just slightly stressed out. Only reasons I have to be depressed now have gone down. Though they still can upset me pretty badly. Such as my grandfather getting sick. But that's life, I guess. Shit happens and we have to deal with it one way or another and continue living. Somehow. >.<
Eh, I spent most of the day watching tv with Matthew in my room. But him being two, you can just imagine the shows we watched. Dora The Explorer, Blues Clues, Baby Loony Tunes, Lazy Town, The Koala Brothers, Higgleytown Heroes, Danny Phantom, Lilo And Stich, Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends, and...a Hot Hot Heat special on MTV. >> <<
Yes, this is how I spent my summer. Watching little kid shows with my baby brother out of boredom.-.- Even though yesterday he gave me a cut on my bottom lip while he was jumping ontop of the bed and landing on me, while I was resting on his bed and watching my other brother play some video game on the PS2. His elbow slammed against my mouth and somehow mangaed to give me a cut on my bottom lip.>.< He's an abusive little boy. ;-; ...And I think my spelling is getting worse now. xD
*blinks*Oh, before I forget. I didn't get my classes yesterday. THEY LIED TO US! ...AGAIN! The only thing I got was my P.E. clothes and my homeroom number. Eh, the P.E. shirt fits fine. In other words, it's like passed my hips. w00t. XL.>> << But the shorts SUCK. I knew I should have gotten them in XXL. XD I'm short, but not short enough for the shorts that I got. That sounded odd. Anyways. The damn thing is like right at my knees. And I wanted them passed my knees. Seeing as I hate "showing off" my legs. They are fugleh. FUGLEH I SAY! And kind of thick.-.- Now to mention that damn scar on my right leg. Blegh.
...Moving on.-.- My homeroom is in building B room 206. And Stacy's is in building A room 204. We're a building apart! *sobs* Now I'm just hoping we get the same academy and the same classes, or else we're gonna be loners until lunch.;-; Even though I saw Martha yesterday. She's still shorter than me. And she still has braces. And she's still nice, I suppose. Then again, we didn't get to talk much. Not like we were really friends back in 8th grade, but we knew each other. Woo, 8th grade drama. Which I still haven't forgotten. *sighs and shudders*Death
...AND I TOOK MY PROZAC! So now I don't have to take it my mistake later on. Blegh. I think my breathing problems are getting worse. I should probably tell my parents before I die in my sleep or something.-.- Ah well. Birthday is this Sunday! Yay! And I might get my camera this Saturday! ^.^ Well, that's if my parents stop fighting. Oh well. I might get a new plushie on Friday. Whee! Plushie! ^-^
That also reminds me, my brother's friend called yesterday and invited him to his birthday party this Saturday. Which was when my parents where gonna take me out to dinner. And also the day when Brenda is having her Quinceañera. I gave up going to Brenda's party for spending time with my family, and now my brother is probably going to go to some party. That really got me a bit annoyed. Which also reminds me, I've been getting annoyed a lot faster lately. o.o Damnit.
Ehm, I found out that my cousin Gloria is a bit like me when it comes to extreme rides. Poor Stacy, she has to try and drag us into many rides now. XD Oh well, we'll see what happens on Sunday. >> << Hrm, sister is going to be home soon from school, so I better go now and let my brother get back on again. So I can go and lock myself in my room to get away from my grandmother's bitching. Which is really starting to piss me off.-.- See. Told you. Anyways, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
...Took my Prozac already. So there is no need for me to end up taking it again later today by mistake. w00t. Anyways, Ugly by The Exies appears to be stuck in my head. Which would explain my mood(s). Turn a blind eye, why do I deny? Medicate me, so I die happy. A strain of cancer chokes the answers. Are you like me? A liar like me? *blinks*...God
But moving on! I get my schedule tomorrow. And in about two weeks or so, I go back to school. And I'm already starting to feel sick to my stomach. Ah well, at least I'll be sick to my stomach for a different reason on Sunday. Six Flags! Yay! Which means Stacy and my cousin Gloria are going to drag me off to the extreme rides that make me twitch. Or like what happened on Supreme Scream, I'll start hyperventilati
Hrm, I think I have to call my cousin before Sunday. To ask if she's still going with us to Six Flags. Eh, maybe I'll make my dad call instead. Gloria and I don't talk as much as we used to when we were younger, but we're still close, if somewhat. Anyways, I may start shopping for school this Saturday, so now there's a chance that I may actually be gone for this entire weekend. Eh, we'll see.
Well, guess that's it for now. Family is starting to annoy me, so I better go.-.- Adios mis queridos. <333
Ugly by The Exies
Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don’t know
Money it’s no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
I don’t care, you don’t care
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, like me
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Well, I had to delete the entry that I had here, due to the fact that I somehow made the comp work. O.o So, yeah. But, never know when it'll get messed up again.-.- But, eh. It works now. ^-^ So, not much to say. Adios mis queridos. <333
Oh, and one more thing...
Well, I think I might be going to Brenda's Quinceañera next Saturday. Seeing as Stacy said that she and her family were going to go. And my mom did tell me that if Stacy's family went, then I wouldn't be left alone for a few hours. But that also means that I need to get Brenda a birthday present and I don't know what she'd like. Maybe something for her drums? Eh, I dunno. What I do know is that she's a fan of Social Distortion, MANA, and The Distellers. I think I'm going to go to Hot Topic for the Social D. and Distellers stuff. Seeing as MANA is a Spanish rock band that tends to have a lot of romantic songs and stuff. >> << That, and I don't know where to get MANA merchandise.-.
That also means that I have to dress up for it too. Blegh. Too much dressing up this year. Well, just three times. And Christmas. What fun. Stacy, Brenda, and my cousin Gloria are all having Quinceañeras. For Brenda's thing, I'm just gonna wear my black and white pinstripe pants, my vans, and my black long sleeved...swea
Anyways, my dad is going to Vegas for some kind of buisness trip tonight and probably won't be home until sometime during the weekend. And then next week I have to go get my classes, then I have to go to therapy, followed by Brenda's party, and then my trip to Six Flags. The following week, I have to go school shopping, which then leaves me a few days to fret over school and start feeling sick to my stomach until the first day of school finally arrives. Yay.
Oh, I also found out that I'm probably going to have a Sweet Sixteen next year. Along with the week long trip. My parents said that the party will be a bit small and it'll probably be before the trip. So, I'm guessing around late July. My mom was thinking of having some kind of Nightmare Before Christmas theme for it. Seeing as she saw it in some wedding. xD That would straight out PWN. But she said I couldn't have a black dress for it. Maybe some kind of red, purple, or blue...but no black. Damnit.-.- Ah well, they're just trying to make it up for already screwing up two of my birthdays. Last year when they ened up making me cry in public and ruining the rest of the day, and this year when I decieded to not have a Quinceañera because of them. Well, their fighting and financial problems. So, I'll see what we'll do for next year.
Eh, I think I'm gonna go take a shower right now. Seeing as it's almost five. And...once again my dumbass forgot to take the Prozac. Shit. Eh, guess I'll go take it now. Though I'm only suppose to take it in the morning. *blinks*Actual
Mm, don't know if I'll be on later today. Mom has to go to the doctor today at around four and after that we're going to go visit my grandfather. Blegh, I like saying grandfather in Spanish rather than in English. But anyways. I'll probably be back at around six or seven. Not exactly sure.
Anyways, had some kind of a dream last night. But of course, I can't remember what it was about. Not much anyway. Just that Stacy was in there and that it had something to do with school. If Stacy's in any of my dreams, it either has something to do with school or it's just entirely insane. xD But that's all that I can remember. Maybe I was predicting something in my dreams? Like I usually do. My parents said that when I was younger I would predict car crashes that would usually actually occur. Not my fault. It seemed most logical due to where our old and ghetto house was located. XD Mm, and some of the people I know are really predictable to me by now, so I tend to know what they're gonna say before they actually do. -.- But I'm Mexican and my family is weird, so you never know. They're either into witchcraft like stuff or they're just religious hypocrits. Or they're like me, they have their own personal beliefs and tend to ignore everyone else. ^-^ ...And that's saying it lightly without swearing.>>;;;
God damnit, I'm getting bitched at again. And this time, not by family.-.- Last night was even worse. Now I'm feeling depressed. Fun. *blinks*Neck hurts. And I just noticed that today is the 10th. o-o Which means eleven more days until my birthday. Which also reminds me, I got an invitation from Brenda for her Quinceañera. Which is going to be on the 20th. My parents said that I could go. But that they were gonna leave me alone. With people that I don't even know. ;-; I mean, I know Brenda and one of the guys that's going to be a part of it, but they're gonna be busy. And I don't even know if Stacy is going, either. I should call her tomorrow. But anyways. That's the day that my parents were gonna take me out to dinner. So, by the looks of it, I won't be on much during the weekend of my birthday.
...And next week I get my classes! w00t! I'm gonna make my parents help me look for my classrooms while we're there. Which I'll probably forget where they are once I start school on September 6th.-.- *blinks*Eh, that's it for today. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <33
...Oh, one more thing.
Well, I just got a packet from my new high school. Dear God, that's a lot of crud to read. And fill out. But that's my parents job. All I have to do is go during pre-registrati
Anyways, they just sent us two packets, a form for my Medical history, and some other form for lunch tickets. Because we're dirt poor at the moment. >> << And this check-off list of things we're suppose to go when I get my classes and suchs. w00t.
Mm, my brother got something similar too. But nothing like mine. Just that we both start school on the 6th of September. And we're probably going to get out early that day.
Though I doubt I'm going to get the academy that I want. Due to my awful grades.-.- Ah well. C'est la vie. I'll see when the time comes, I guess. Hrm, almost five thirty. I better go take a quick shower before my dad gets home. In case we have to go visit my grandpa. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
Well, lets see. I was almost hospitalized yesterday. Why? Heh, parents were fighting again. Just like before. Which resulted in me blurting out that my therapist wanted to take me to the hospital the day I went to see her because she wanted to make sure I didn't do anything to myself and a few other things. So, my dad freaked and said he was going to take me to the hospital. And this all happened at ten at night when we were driving back home. Well, by then I was already sobbing and whimpering and begging him not to take me to the hospital. Eh, it really wasn't begging. It was just me shaking my head, whimpering and saying, "No, no, no.." over and over again. Sometimes adding, "I don't want to go." If I could. I can't really talk well when I'm crying.-.-
Mom told him not to take me and asked me if I was going to hurt myself. I started crying harder and shook my head. While of course, still saying the stated things above. But, then we got home, my mom had to help me to my room. Not only because it was dark, but because I couldn't walk and I was shaking too much. Dad told me that I should go sleep, but that I had to leave my bedroom door open. Too make sure I didn't do anything, of course. Which I wasn't. No matter what. Of course, I couldn't say any of that because by then, I couldn't talk. Even if I wanted too, I couldn't.
About half in hour later, while I was still in bed crying, my parents came in to talk to me. But that's even more personal than what I have written down so far, so I'm not going to mention it much. Just that they told me not to do anything because that would just kill whatever will power they have left in them. If you didn't know, both of my parents are suicidal.*sigh
Though my siblings came in to ask me if I was still going to watch Inuyasha with them. Heh, they actually looked worried for me. Now I hate myself for crying in front of Matthew again. *sighs again*But, anyways. I somehow managed to say yes, so at 11:30pm, we watched Samurai Champloo and then Inuyasha. And then they went to bed. Eh, there's so much else left to say, but right now I'm really out of it. Parents aren't fighting right now. Yay.
Though I don't know if I'll be here much today. Unless my sister can't walk much. Seeing as something happened to her foot. But, if she can, we might go somewhere. Though I don't feel the same anymore. I feel emotionally drained. More than I have ever felt. Eh, I'm just out of it. Maybe it'll go away in a day or so. But, if anyone even bothered to read this, I'm sorry. I'm especially sorry if I act like a moody bitch today or tomorrow. You can ignore me if you want. I'll understand. But, eh. I'm just sorry if I act even more moody and withdrawn than before. But no worries, I'll be fine. So, adios mis queridos. <333
Dude! My new school has elevators! ...And clean restrooms! o.o The classrooms were awesome. Damnit, they were new. Eh, probably won't last very long though. All the people around me and my dad were all taking bets to see how long the school would last. It's probably going to have trash all over the place on the first day.XD
Me and my dad got there kind of late. Seeing as we had to drop my mom off at work and my siblings over at my aunt's house. Anyways, so we got there at around 10:30am. Well, a bit after that seeing as we couldn't find parking. Some stupid slutty looking girls were in their car, but they didn't leave. Dad wanted me to beat them with metal pipe>> << Eh, he wanted me to choke a bitch.XD That was funny.o.o But we ended up parking about two blocks away from the school. Dumb sluts didn't even park their car right.-.-
The lockers are tiny though. And they're outside. What if it rains?! >.< Blegh. There weren't that many for all the students that I saw. So, the rest of them are probably hiding. Somewhere. Maybe. I don't know. But anyways. It looked pretty nice, really. When we got there, they were playing Mexican music through the speakers. That was hilarious.>> << ...They have boulders too.XD
Eh, I'm going to try and take my camera the first day of school. And walk around with Stacy taking pictures of random things. If I can. And of my mini locker.XD Stupid thing. I'm gonna make it look pretty. Damn straight.>>;;; *blinks*I should probably call Stacy. Didn't see her over at the school. Then again, there were a lot of people.-.- But if she did go, I probably can't call her until later today. Damnit. I have like three or four phone calls to make today. x.x All of which tend to last over an hour. Eh, I'll probably forget about calling Stacy. And just get about two phone calls.XD ...But I need to call her about Six Flags and her Quinceañera. And that my cousin is inviting her(Stacy) to her Quinceañera too. -.-
*blinks*The school is having a trip to Europe next year. London and Paris for about nine days. The total is like close to two thousand dollars. I think the lady said that it was going to be during our Easter break. Though because that won't be for that long, I think we'd only miss one or two days of school. I'd like to go. But I'm already going to Florida that year. >> << Unless something happens. x-x
...I'm hungry now. Gonna go see if we have anything to eat.>> << So, adios mis queridos. <333
Well, I have therapy today. So I probably won't be on until later. I should probably tell my therapist about the now more constant depression and suicidal thoughts I've been having. Dear god, the meds are getting to me. DAMN THEM TO FUCKING HELL! >.<
...And then then last night I broke down. Completely broke down into a sobbing, whimpering mess on my bed. Whee. -.- This began about a few minutes after I got offline. Took about half an hour to calm down.-.- Must've been a mood-swing, I guess. A bad one. Right after I calmed down, I felt mellow and then a bit better after I watched Family Guy for an hour. Fell asleep at around one, though. Fun.
Anyways, better go and finish getting ready. My aunt is gonna come and pick me up in about twenty minutes and I have to finish brushing my hair. And because of the shower, it's even more tangled up right now. Stupid thing. >.< So, yeah. I'll probably be on at around three or four my time. And right now it's almost 1:30pm, and I have to be there before two. So, I better get off before my brother gets even more pissed off. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos.
Whee. Got my cell phone back from my dad. It's currently somewhere in my room. Eh, hope I don't lose it again. Mm, talked to Brenda yesterday. First time since...June. Which was on my last day of school. Of course, I didn't talk to her on the phone or irl. Nope, I talked to her on AIM. Miracle that she was on. She said something about having her invitations for her Quinceañera being ready but just that she needed to buy stamps to mail them. If I remember correctly, she said she was going to send me one. But she also said that it was going to be on the 20th. And I don't know if I'm going to Six Flags on the 20th or on the 21st.
Then there's another thing. Stacy told me that Gaby had called her and told her about me and her celebrating our birthdays together. Seeing as me and Gaby were both born on the 21st of August. Though I'm probably just a few hours older than her. But, anyways. Because Gaby know's that I may not be home on the weekend of my birthday, I was told that she wants to go to Universal Studios Hollywood on the 27th. I don't know if my parents will let me go, not only that, we're broke. So...*shrugs*
Heh, we also decieded to drop the whole birthday dinner thing as well. Instead, I'm going to Six Flags, getting a digital camera, and $200 from my parents. Half is going to go on clothes and the other half is for me to spend as I wish. Along with whatever else I get from random relatives. Which probably won't be that many. We only get a lot of gifts if we're having a party. Which means free beer and food for them. Woo.
So, yeah. I can still pick between a Sweet Sixteen or a week long trip to wherever I want. And by the way things are starting to look as if they're going back to how they were before, I really don't want anything anymore. I don't want anything for this year or next. In other words, today sucked. A lot. And I'm in a lot of physical pain right now. Blegh.
Which also reminds me, I found an inch long cut on my right leg and I don't know how I got it. My dad thinks Matthew must've given it to me. But I don't know. Maybe I ended up hurting myself while I was asleep? I am under the influence of drugs right now, so...heh. I don't even see much of a change since I started taking the Prozac. I mean, the now constant depression, frustration, anxiety, and mood-swings could be a sign of it taking affect. But, I've been like that since before I started taking the meds.-.- And because of something else, my moodyness is probably going to get worse for a few days. Oh, fun.
Mm, my sister starts going to therapy today too. I was supposed to go today, but my therapist wanted to see my sister today instead. So I'm going to go on Friday. And Saturday, I'm going to some five or six hour long thing for my new school. And on Sunday, if things get better here, I'm going to some lake with the family. Which is when I'm going to sit down and watch them swim out of boredom. Because I'm not getting in. Such great fun. Ah well. At least I might be able to see Stacy this Saturday while over there for the school thing. If I go, anyway.
Hm, wonder when Jade is going to go on MSN again. And I wonder when Nancy is going to get her ass online and/or call me. She still has my yearbook and I'm worried about her ADHD arse. >.< ...I had a dream about her last night. And no, not a perverted one.-.- Took place in S.G.H.S. For some reason she looked preppy. And that was scary enough. I know how she dresses. And acts. She's a hyper punk rocker. And by the looks of that dream, it was the first day of school. I don't even know why I dreamt that. Guess I miss her a lot. o.x
Eh, time to go eat. So, yeah. That's it. Adios mis queridos. <333
...w00t. In twenty days I'll be a woman and no longer a little girl. XD Well, no. I'll just be fifteen more years closer to thirty.-.- But, anyways. Yush, twenty more days until my fifteenth birthday. It would have been celebrated in a grand party...if we had the money and I had said yes. I actually had said yes to the whole thing, but then shit happens, so...yeah. And I was going to have a 10,000 dollar(and more) Sweet Sixteen thing next year, but, nah. Quinceañera would have been better for me, but that's too much money to spend on me. So, a week long trip it is. My parents would actually take me to Japan if I told them I wanted to go. XD
But, I picked Florida. Not just for me, but a place for my family to enjoy it as much as I will...In other words, a place where my siblings won't bitch as much. Can't let my parents know that, or else I'll end up somewhere in Europe or some other state here in the US for a week. o.o
Ah well, I've always thought like that. I've always made sure that everyone else is happy and not give much of a thought about myself. My parents said I was always special like that. ^-^...*coughs*
Heh, they also said I used to be a bit more girly when I was younger too. Always liked to wear dresses and boots...cowgir
Anyways, moving away from boring times. My dad is giving me my cell phone back. Woo! That also reminds me, I called Kisa yesterday. Fun, fun. ^-^ Almost made it to two hours, until my phone decieded to die on me. -.- Ebil thing.
...I wasn't on most of the day because I was watching cartoons with Matthew. In other words, Winnie The Pooh. Which was thus followed by Piglets Big Movie. I was all: "Aww." and crud. >>;;; I haven't watched that show in years, damnit. And I missed Tigger and Eeyore. XD
I remembered to take my meds today.*nods*Yu
...I think there was something I was supposed to do today. But I can't remember. Ah well, it happens. *blinks*Heh, I fell asleep after one in the morning due to watching a two hour long show about a family whose house was haunted. Dude, that freaked me out a lot. Normally, I don't react to those type of things that badly. Until last night, and I'm not even sure why. After the first hour of watching it, I started to feel panicked and paranoid. Really paranoid. I got so scared that I actually started whimpering. XD I'm such an idiot.-.- Ah well, I somehow managed to fall asleep when it was over. Miracle.
Blegh. Anyways. Too lazy to type much more. And I'm also too lazy to check for all the errors that I know I made in this, but eh. Too freakin' bad. So, yeah, I guess that's it for today. Adios mis queridos. <333