Mm, feeling drowsy right now. *rubs her eyes* Probably from the pills I took last night for my cold. Looks like they helped due to the fact that I didn't wake up during the night. I would have probably stayed asleep until around eleven or noon if it weren't for my siblings. And because I didn't fall asleep until midnight last night, I probably needed that extra sleep. Stayed up for a bit so I could finish watching the rest of The Phantom of the Opera. Gawd, it was beautiful. I almost started crying during the end. ;-;
...But anyways.>> << Started working on homework at around eleven. Well, I started working on homework for AP World History. And I'm still missing three terms that I couldn't find and lots of notes. And I already have six pages of work done so far for that class. And I still need to start on my geometry homework. And the only reason that I'm even on right now is because of my biology project. Which is due next Tuesday, I think. And I really need to finish getting all the info, print it, and thus work on the damn poster. Blegh. I hope Cynthia manages to print out her part of the project, and the other poster or 3D model she wanted to do for the other half.
Mm, I'm ready to pass out right now. So sleepy. Almost fell asleep while I working on my history homework. And I look like such a damn mess right now. XD I've been in sweats, loose t-shirt, and a baggy sweater all day. And my hair is quite messy right now. And I look a bit more pale than usual, eyes look tired, and my voice is starting to fade a bit. And I'm still coughing and sneezing. And I started getting sick last Friday.-.- Oh well. Time to go and continue working on my biology homework. Adios mis queridos. [<3]
Having serious mood-swnigs. Ignore it.-.- Sorry.
Oh, fucking hell.
This cold is making me fucking miserable.
And the Prozac isn't helping.
Most of the things people have said to me have brought me to the verge of tears today.
And they were stupid little things, too.
Fucking HELL.-.-
God, if I'm not acting like "myself" then just fuck it.
No need to fucking get mad and start throwing things at my face if I don't say anything about it.
JesusfuckingCh
...
...
...
On the bright side. I passed my geometry test.
And my history quiz.
Though I'm not sure how I did on my biology test.
And then Stacy and I had our usual stupid conversations today.
Something about me and Matt eloping.
Eh, can't remember.
It was something along those lines.
Oh well.
No school tomorrow.
And I get out early on Thursday.
...
...
...
Still feeling like hell.
And besides what I wrote before,
I honestly don't know why.
And now I feel like a fucking bitch.
I should honestly just shut the fuck up when something is probably bothering me.
And most of the time, I'm trying to figure out what.
I should really stop this.
It's selfish.
What about their problems?
Even though they never tell me much/anything.
And get mad when I do the same.
I can probably understand why.
But they tend to do the same thing I do.
Before I even started doing it.
Meh. Whatever.
I'm giving myself a headache.
Mm, new poem on deviantART.
I'll probably have another one up this week.
Such as the one I wrote for AP World History.
That was pretty funny.
Ms. Ortiz made me feel special.
Oh, and some guy from my biology class kissed me today.
On the forehead, people.
I would have died or killed him if he kissed me on the lips.
*shudders*Ther
Thank god he didn't though.
Hm, almost time for me to go and finish watching the Phantom of the Opera.
w00t w00t.
So, yeah.
Adios mis queridos. [<3]
Working on biology project.
Gawd, this suxx0rz.
Like, hardcore.
As does my cold.
Couldn't sleep because of it.
And because I stayed up until one in the morning...
Working on homework. >>;
And my grandma just told me something.
But I don't know what the hell she just said.
Damn, fast, Spanish talking skillz of hers. -.-
...Then again, she's from Mexico.>> <<
But anyways. Homework.
My dumbass ended up doing the wrong geometry homework.
Which I didn't notice until it was almost one.
So I had to start all over again.
I started working on my homework at around ten.
But because at eleven I ended up watching anime,
I took an hour break, and started again at midnight.
Sorta.
But, geometry homework is done.
As is most of my history homework.
Just need some notes for it, and I'm done.
Then I can study for my biology test tomorrow.
Oh, and plan the death of [J. FizZle!] and [lunar eclipse].
*cackles*
...
I mean...
...Whatever. >>;
Anyways, enough stalling.
Time to go back to my biology project.
Adios mis queridos. <3
I think I'm catching a cold. I've been sneezing and coughing a lot.-.- But on the brightside, I called Kisa today. Mucho fun. Yup yup. Mainly because I was hyper and on meds.>> << And I should probably go soon. Due to the fact that it's already nine. And I have some anime to watch. Oh, and homework to work on. And I have to study too. I have to call Stacy tomorrow, though. I called earlier, but I don't think she was home. I really need to find out if I have to go to her house tomorrow or not. So, she better pick up the phone when I call.-.-
*blinks*Lesse. I went to see The Corpse Bride yesterday. And it PWND. Though the ending did kinda suxx0rz. But oh well. I still loved it. What else? Hrm, still wanting a Gir plushie. XD He's so cute and weird. Mine. TT.TT Oh well. I have a couple of more gifts left to buy, so I won't be able to get it anytime sooner. Yay. It's almost time for me to spoil people with presents. <3
Whee. I pimped out my Myspace page. It looks all purdy now. And kinda colorful too. XD Lookeh: http://blog.my
*blinks*...Alm
I'm like a total fucking mess right now. I've been moody all day, and it was probably because of the prozac. When I got home today, nobody was here. And by that point I was already twitchy. Normally when people make fun of me at school, I don't pay much attention to them. But, due to the fact that I was pretty unstable during biology, the taunts of the little stupid freshmen got to me and I almost started cyring right then and there. And then my grandfather got even worse. And now instead of just getting morphine once a day, he has to get it almost every time he feels extreme pain. Which is a lot. And my parents were fighting again and my mom was just screaming, and that made me even more nervous and depressed, and then my siblings started fighting and yelling at each other and I just couldn't take it anymore that I ended up screaming. Twice. I also ended up scratching my left arm a bit, and now I have two small droplets of blood oozing out. Along with a couple of red marks. And now I feel like I'm about to throw up.
All in all, today sucked.
God, my comp is acting freakin' stupid again.-.- And I have a headahe. Again. Anyways, my A- in geometry went down to B. Damn test. Oh well, I suxx0rz at all forms of math. Eh, somewhat, so it's no big surprise. XD *blinks*Oh yeah. I'm on meds again. I got a slightly stronger dose of Prozac. An adult dose, I think. Well, that's what the lady said. Something about it being 20mg and adult dose and yeah. I'm also on some other medication for my sleeping problems. Something called Desyrel. Oh my fucking god, I am going to fucking kill this computer.>.<
...Anyways. Back to the meds. It's actually a drug called Trazodone. But it's under the brand name Desyrel. But, moving on. Just found out what some of the...more less serious side affects are. And this isn't counting the ones for Prozac.
*Dizziness or drowsiness;
*Headache;
*Insomnia or vivid dreams;
*Dry mouth, upset stomach, nausea, or vomiting;
*Diarrhea or constipation;
*Tremors (shaking); or
*Blurred vision.
And I think that's it. I think I have to take that about half an hour (or an hour) before it's time for me to go to asleep. Let's see if it works out or not. *blinks*Heh, that lady said that I might end up getting diabetes if I don't take care of myself. And she suggested I see a nutritionist. Due to the fact that I gained ten pounds. She was calling me fat. XD ...Then again, I am.>> <<
Oh! And I started writing a poem during biology today. It's currently written down on the journal that Matt gave me. Damn freshmen in that class wanted me to show him what I had written down so far. Ha. Like I'm gonna show him. Even though I haven't written down much. Just phone numbers, birthdays, a few notes to myself, poetry bits, and random stuff. And doodles. XD *hugs journal*Mine.>> <<
...Eh. Better go and finish homework. Adios mis queridos. <3
God, my comp is acting freakin' stupid again.-.- And I have a headahe. Again. Anyways, my A- in geometry went down to B. Damn test. Oh well, I suxx0rz at all forms of math. Eh, somewhat, so it's no big surprise. XD *blinks*Oh yeah. I'm on meds again. I got a slightly stronger dose of Prozac. An adult dose, I think. Well, that's what the lady said. Something about it being 20mg and adult dose and yeah. I'm also on some other medication for my sleeping problems. Something called Desyrel. Oh my fucking god, I am going to fucking kill this computer.>.<
...Anyways. Back to the meds. It's actually a drug called Trazodone. But it's under the brand named Desyrel. But, moving on. Just found out what some of the...more less serious side affects are. And this isn't counting the ones for Prozac.
*Dizziness or drowsiness;
*Headache;
*Insomnia or vivid dreams;
*Dry mouth, upset stomach, nausea, or vomiting;
*Diarrhea or constipation;
*Tremors (shaking); or
*Blurred vision.
And I think that's it. I think I have to take that about half an hour (or an hour) before it's time for me to go to asleep. Let's see if it works out or not. *blinks*Heh, that lady said that I might end up getting diabetes if I don't take care of myself. And she suggested I see a nutritionist. Due to the fact that I gained ten pounds. She was calling me fat. XD ...Then again, I am.>> <<
Oh! And I started writing a poem during biology today. It's currently written down on the journal that Matt gave me. Damn freshmen in that class wanted me to show him what I had written down so far. Ha. Like I'm gonna show him. Even though I haven't written down much. Just phone numbers, birthdays, a few notes to myself, poetry bits, and random stuff. And doodles. XD *hugs journal*Mine.>> <<
...Eh. Better go and finish homework
Let.Me.Bitch.
Don't feel good.
Lots of physical pain right now.
Homework is getting on my nerves.
More crap with my parents.
Siblings, all of them, are making me frustrated.
To the point of tears.
I'm exhausted.
Stressed.
My grandfather has gotten even more sick.
And I'm feeling emotionally [W.A.S.T.E.D.].
Don't want to get bothered by people's problems right now.
I don't pity.
Nor do I need my own self pity.
Or anger from anyone else.
Whomever they may be.
I need a nap.
But I'm not gonna take one.
Too much homework.
And I don't fall asleep easily.
I feel like crying.
And I think I'm turning even more [E.M.O.]
Anyways...
Have.A.Good.Da
More crap with my parents. Woo. Family problems. Going over to Stacy's house for a bit. If I'm not back later it's probably because of the following:
1.) Got back after seven.
2.) Parents fighting got worse/other family problems.
Well, adios.
Yay! I actually got more than four hours of sleep last night. I got about...seven, I think. Six or seven. Can't remember. All I know is that I got a nose bleed around three in the morning. Well, almost got one. XD
*blinks*Just found out that my high school has a swimming pool. I didn't know that. O.o Then again, I don't know where the hell all the restrooms are, either.>> << Anyways, this is what I just read:
This new high school will open for students on September 6, 2005 on a traditional calendar and will provide 2,700 new high school seats. The high school relieves severe overcrowding at South Gate, Huntington Park and Bell high schools. Campus features include a library, student store, health office, food service, cafeteria, auditorium, gymnasium, swimming pool, sports fields and administration offices. This new campus allows South Gate High School, built in 1932, to return to a traditional calendar after more than two decades of year-round operations because of severe overcrowding.
..We're also adjacent to a middle school! ^-^ ...Damn midgets are gonna get hit by a car one of these days.-.- Oh, yay. Pictures!
http://eteamz.
Moving on. *blinks* Heh, I felt like crying a few minutes ago. No idea why. But now I'm better. Still kind of...meh. Oh well. Mm, had a test for Geometry today. It was easy. Somewhat. Still probably screwed up on it, though. XD And I also had a quiz for AP World History. No idea how I did in that. But I'm hoping for the best. I have a test for that class on Tuesday.
Oh, before I forget. I won't be on much tomorrow. And I'll be gone after five o'clock on Sunday. On Saturday I'm going to my cousin Gloria's Quinceañera. And because my brother is going to be a part of it, we have to go to the Mass at some church at around one in the afternoon. And after that, my brother and all the other people that are going to be in her Quinceañera have to go take pictures and probably ride around in the limo for a bit before the party begins. And on Sunday, I have to go over to Stacy's house for Quinceañera related reasons too. Not like it'll matter to anyone, but I thought it would be nice of me to mention it. >>;;; *yawns*Mm, sleepy.-.-
Whee...I have Biology, Geometry, and AP World History this weekedn. Thankfully, they're all easy. And my brother and sister are gonna be gone for a while today! Though I doubt anyone will be on today. So I get to hang out with Matthew and watch cartoons today. w00t w00t. And I think I'm either depressed or stressed at the moment. No idea. O.o So, meh. Parents are fighting again. *sighs* So I'm gone. Peace out, bean burritos. [♥]
Woo. I have homework for AP World History, Geometry, and Biology this weekend. And because I don't want to forget and do it all on Sunday, I'm going to work on it tonight. And study for my history test during the weekend instead. Then again, I have a history test on Monday's, Tuesday's and Wednesday's. Oh, yay. *shrugs*Eh, doesn't matter. I'll live. Somehow. Not sure about my brain, but ah well.
I am currently greatly exhausted and pretty damn moody. Not like that's anything new. Parents are fighting again. Oh, happy happy joy joy. And I didn't get to see my grandpa since Monday or Tuesday, I think.*sighs* Oh well. C'est la vie. Shit happens. <--Basically, the same thing I say to myself whenever something bad happens or whatver. That, and a few other things. But that's usually the main one. And I'm not making any sense at the moment. I'll just blame it on my sleepy self. And it's only...eight o'clock!
Too tired and stressed out with family to really type much right now. Currently hoping to get my classes changed soon and also hoping that I'll survive AP World History. Well, time to eat, work on homework, and then pass out. I mean, sleep. >> << So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
Well, just got back from my first day of high school as a sophmore. And I guess it was okay. Even though I am going to try and change my biology class as soon as I can. Damn loud and stupid freshmen. Not many sophmores are in that class. And it's part of the Visual And Performance Arts Academy. Which I don't have. I have the Academic Prep Academy. Anyways, here are my classes for this semester.
Period One:
AP World History
Period Two:
Gym
Period Three:
Geometry
Period Four:
Biology
Yup. I only have four classes this year. And all of them are an hour and a half long. And, one semester of a class counts as one whole year of it. Unless you're taking an AP class and such, then it's a full year. And Stacy and I only have AP World History together. ;-; Her other classes are Geometry, Spanish, and Chemistery for some reason. Ah well. Now we can only see each other during first period and lunch. Seeing as she has gemoetry during second period. Which is when I have gym. -.-
Well, I met this girl who is in my biology class, who is also going to try and change for the same reasons as me. I believe her name is Karla. She's just like me in class. Quiet and shy. >> << But she's nice. ^-^ Anyways, I won't get English until next semester. Damnit. I didn't want Gym this semester either.
And Stacy and I were pretty much loners during lunch. Just as we thought. XD God, that school was crowded. -.- I didn't get lost looking for my classes, just trying to get out of the building. I went through the first exit I saw, and ended up on the other side of the school. XD Oh well. At least none of my classes are in the third floor. x.x
Oh! And another thing. There was like, a bunch of people from different news stations at the school this morning when I got their. I might be on tv. Or, I might have been. Whatever. XD They were filming interviews with random students. Seeing as it was a new school and today was our first day their. Took a while to even get inside.-.- But anyways, they were filming us when we were making our way inside. XD
Mm, I was going to try and take another picture today, but for some reason my camera isn't working right. Stupid thing. -.- Anyways, guess that's it for today. Adios mis queridos. <333
...Oh my god, my entire body feels like hell. I can hardly walk, my shoulders are sunburned, I'm exhausted...bu
But anyways. Had fun at Six Flags yesterday. Even though I didn't get on Goliath. Sorry Nicole, but it scared me badly. o.o These are the rides that Gloria, Stacy, my brother(well, half of them) and me went on:
Batman The Ride:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Colossus: (all of us, four times)--> http://www.six
Ninja:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Psyclone:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Revolution:(all of us)--> http://www.six
Scream:(me, Stacy, and Gloria)--> http://www.six
Riddler's Revenge:(me, Stacy, and Gloria)--> http://www.six
The only rides we had left to go on where X, Viper, Deja Vu, and Goliath. Well, there are a bit more, but those were closed down.-.- But anyways, going on all those rides took between eleven am until about two pm. Seeing as it was a Sunday, it wasn't exactly that full. The first two rides we went on where Revolution and Roaring Rapids. Which is where we got soaked. I mean, really soaked. My jeans were just...blegh. XD It was hilarious.>> <<
We spent the rest of the day with my family. Which was when we took my parents to Colossus. My dad loves thrill rides, so he wasn't affected much on it. But my mom on the other hand, was screaming. A lot. XD I only screamed on the first two times we went on it. Just not much.>>;;; By the fourth time, I was pretty much quiet. Just trying to ignore the odd feelings in my stomach that the ride gave me. And Ninja was pretty much a bore. That long, tiring walk for nothing. Just a freakin' headache.>.< And that's another thing, due to not eating much and all those rides, I had a headache for a while. A bad one.-.- But ah well, I wasn't hungry. Just thirsty.^.^;;;
Oh! And I got a birthday present from Stacy yesterday. This Edgar Allan Poe book and a kick ass watch. Hopefully it fits, though. XD Well, I had a pretty good birthday. And I'm too tired to type anything more. Seeing as I have to reply to thirty messages right now. So...adios mis queridos! <333
Oh, and before I forget. I want to thank all the people who wished me a happy birthday yesterday. It really did complete my day.
I LURVE YOU ALL! <3
Just got back from shopping. Everything was going pretty food until we got to the mall. Parents started fighting again. Good mood ruined. Nothing new. *shrugs*Always happens. Especially the day before my birthday. At least I'll be away from them tomorrow.*shru
Exhausted. Once again, I fell asleep late last night. There was too much on my mind for me to fall asleep. Those thoughts have yet to go away, so I'm a bit out of it today. Just tired and stressed out. Not depressed, just slightly stressed out. Only reasons I have to be depressed now have gone down. Though they still can upset me pretty badly. Such as my grandfather getting sick. But that's life, I guess. Shit happens and we have to deal with it one way or another and continue living. Somehow. >.<
Eh, I spent most of the day watching tv with Matthew in my room. But him being two, you can just imagine the shows we watched. Dora The Explorer, Blues Clues, Baby Loony Tunes, Lazy Town, The Koala Brothers, Higgleytown Heroes, Danny Phantom, Lilo And Stich, Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends, and...a Hot Hot Heat special on MTV. >> <<
Yes, this is how I spent my summer. Watching little kid shows with my baby brother out of boredom.-.- Even though yesterday he gave me a cut on my bottom lip while he was jumping ontop of the bed and landing on me, while I was resting on his bed and watching my other brother play some video game on the PS2. His elbow slammed against my mouth and somehow mangaed to give me a cut on my bottom lip.>.< He's an abusive little boy. ;-; ...And I think my spelling is getting worse now. xD
*blinks*Oh, before I forget. I didn't get my classes yesterday. THEY LIED TO US! ...AGAIN! The only thing I got was my P.E. clothes and my homeroom number. Eh, the P.E. shirt fits fine. In other words, it's like passed my hips. w00t. XL.>> << But the shorts SUCK. I knew I should have gotten them in XXL. XD I'm short, but not short enough for the shorts that I got. That sounded odd. Anyways. The damn thing is like right at my knees. And I wanted them passed my knees. Seeing as I hate "showing off" my legs. They are fugleh. FUGLEH I SAY! And kind of thick.-.- Now to mention that damn scar on my right leg. Blegh.
...Moving on.-.- My homeroom is in building B room 206. And Stacy's is in building A room 204. We're a building apart! *sobs* Now I'm just hoping we get the same academy and the same classes, or else we're gonna be loners until lunch.;-; Even though I saw Martha yesterday. She's still shorter than me. And she still has braces. And she's still nice, I suppose. Then again, we didn't get to talk much. Not like we were really friends back in 8th grade, but we knew each other. Woo, 8th grade drama. Which I still haven't forgotten. *sighs and shudders*Death
...AND I TOOK MY PROZAC! So now I don't have to take it my mistake later on. Blegh. I think my breathing problems are getting worse. I should probably tell my parents before I die in my sleep or something.-.- Ah well. Birthday is this Sunday! Yay! And I might get my camera this Saturday! ^.^ Well, that's if my parents stop fighting. Oh well. I might get a new plushie on Friday. Whee! Plushie! ^-^
That also reminds me, my brother's friend called yesterday and invited him to his birthday party this Saturday. Which was when my parents where gonna take me out to dinner. And also the day when Brenda is having her Quinceañera. I gave up going to Brenda's party for spending time with my family, and now my brother is probably going to go to some party. That really got me a bit annoyed. Which also reminds me, I've been getting annoyed a lot faster lately. o.o Damnit.
Ehm, I found out that my cousin Gloria is a bit like me when it comes to extreme rides. Poor Stacy, she has to try and drag us into many rides now. XD Oh well, we'll see what happens on Sunday. >> << Hrm, sister is going to be home soon from school, so I better go now and let my brother get back on again. So I can go and lock myself in my room to get away from my grandmother's bitching. Which is really starting to piss me off.-.- See. Told you. Anyways, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <333
...Took my Prozac already. So there is no need for me to end up taking it again later today by mistake. w00t. Anyways, Ugly by The Exies appears to be stuck in my head. Which would explain my mood(s). Turn a blind eye, why do I deny? Medicate me, so I die happy. A strain of cancer chokes the answers. Are you like me? A liar like me? *blinks*...God
But moving on! I get my schedule tomorrow. And in about two weeks or so, I go back to school. And I'm already starting to feel sick to my stomach. Ah well, at least I'll be sick to my stomach for a different reason on Sunday. Six Flags! Yay! Which means Stacy and my cousin Gloria are going to drag me off to the extreme rides that make me twitch. Or like what happened on Supreme Scream, I'll start hyperventilati
Hrm, I think I have to call my cousin before Sunday. To ask if she's still going with us to Six Flags. Eh, maybe I'll make my dad call instead. Gloria and I don't talk as much as we used to when we were younger, but we're still close, if somewhat. Anyways, I may start shopping for school this Saturday, so now there's a chance that I may actually be gone for this entire weekend. Eh, we'll see.
Well, guess that's it for now. Family is starting to annoy me, so I better go.-.- Adios mis queridos. <333
Ugly by The Exies
Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don’t know
Money it’s no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
I don’t care, you don’t care
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, like me
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Are you Ugly?
Well, I had to delete the entry that I had here, due to the fact that I somehow made the comp work. O.o So, yeah. But, never know when it'll get messed up again.-.- But, eh. It works now. ^-^ So, not much to say. Adios mis queridos. <333
Oh, and one more thing...