...*dances*>> <<
So anyway! Getting ready to go to the mall with Adriana. And...my brother. Because he wants to go. Blegh. Anyways. I have to go take a shower soon. And I probably won't be back for long later today. Maybe for a little bit during the evening. But I'm going out to eat with my family tonight, so yeah. I'll probably be back in the morning. Seeing as I have anime to watch and two big tests to study for Monday, I doubt I'll manage to get online once I get back home. So, adios mis queridos! <3
Mm, the semester is going to end soon. Sometimes next week. And I believe grades are due tomorrow. Hopefully I'm still doing well in all my classes. Not exactly sure though. Anyways, I told my mom that I didn't want a Sweet Sixteen. It isn't worth it. I'll just stay home or whatever. Too much money and stress for that crap. It doesn't matter. I'm not the most social person ever, so a big party would probably be uncomfortable for me, I guess. Plus I have summer school and other stuff to worry about.*shrugs*
I've fallen in love...with the Horrorpops. Even more so than I already was. They freakin' rock. Just like Tiger Army. w00t. Black Sabbath. Anyways. Back to the Horrorpops. My uncle burned me their newest CD. Yayness. Awesome. <3 Though I want the other album --> Hell Yeah! <-- Really want to listen to Baby Lou Tattoo and Emotional Abuse. But two of my favorite songs from the album that I currently have are the following: Walk Like A Zombie and Hit 'N' Run.
They freakin' rock. Though Freaks in Uniforms is also awesome. Anyways. Meh. Not feeling well. Emotionally and physically. My legs feel bruised even though they aren't. And it hurts to touch them. And I have to study for my biology and geometry tests tomorrow. Fun, fun. Anyways. Guess I better go and study for biology first. I have too many notes for that. So, adios mis queridos. <3
Hm, been a few days since I typed anything in here. So, I guess I probably should post something. Anything. No idea what, but I'm sure I can rant or write random bull crud. Maybe.
Let's see...I've just been getting extremely annoyed by the people at school who all think they're as bad as the movie Gigli. But anyways. That's been pretty normal since I was five. So, whatever. I've currently been finding new bands to lurve over the last couple of days. Most of which are infamous garage bands. But they all rock. Some of the bands that I lurve at the moment are: Go Betty Go, 7Seconds, The Dead Pets, Kill Your Idols, .A Change of Pace, Underminded, Greeley Estates, Children of Bodom, 1 Casting Curses, My American Heart, Los Kung Fu Monkeys, Crossfade, Stiff Little Fingers, Stray Cats, The Prom Kings, Billy Talent, X-Ray Spex, DESTRUCT(band here in S.G. and Los Angeles), Race The Sun, 7 Shot Screamers, and 13 Cats. A mixture of known and unknown bands. If somewhat. Though there are more. Much, much more.
And yes, the only reason I even mentioned them was because I had nothing else to write about. Besides the subject of school. To sum that all up, I've been doing pretty well in my classes. Even though they all bore the hell out of me. And my social life is still pretty small. I'm hardly ever in the mood to talk to other people at school. Besides Stacy. XD Though I am starting to talk to Stephany. This girl in my geometry class. She's pretty cool. Lesse...Stacy also made me get this astrology book thing that deals with romance and reading palms and such. It's pretty cool. By the looks of it, I'm an astrological mutt due to being born near the "dead-line" of the time period for Leo. So I have Leo and Virgo attributes. Awesome. XD
Hrm, gotta go with my dad and siblings to pick up my uncle from the airport soon, so yeah. Gotta finish this and my homework soon. Oh, and now my parents are making me pick between the following, for my 16th birthday that is. I can get a car, a sweet sixteen, or at least a one week trip to Zacatecas, Mexico on the week of my birthday. If I go to Mexico, we'll stay at my great uncle's ranch. Teh awesomeness. Anyways, I have a while to make up my mind. So we'll see. Anyways, better go and finish up at least my history homework so I can work on my biology essay. Adios mis queridos. <3
Funeral was awful. And not awful as in something went wrong, but emotionally awful. But I'll manage. And hopefully so will the rest of my family.
Today:
God, I'm tired. Wanna go take a nap, but I have to go eat and study a bit for my biology test tomorrow. Ugh, hope I pass it. *blinks*Mm, Cold Hard Bitch by Jet is playing on my Launch radio. Pleasant. Anyways, got out of school early today. Yayness. I think Stacy had to stay though. Soccer practice. >> <<
Oh, and that reminds me. I'm still going to be in her Quinceañera. And I'll be able to wear my fishnets with the dress. XD Kick arse. But there's one thing that is really bugging me about that. And that's my hair. I have to make sure that my hair is out of my face. -.- Which means I have to tie it back so everyone can see that pretty face of mine. <--Trying very hard not to laugh. >>;;;
But I've decieded to cut my bangs and fix them so they'll be easy to manage. And somewhat cover one of my eyes. Eh, I'll figure out what else to do with my hair. My mom is gonna help me with that. I might got it though. Don't really like how it looks now. But I have no idea how I want it to look, so it'll stay like this for a bit more.
Hrm, might not be on again later today. I think I have to go to Church at around five. Or was it 6:30? Eh, I can't remember. All I know is that we have to go to Church for nine days after the funeral, and today is the second day. And on Friday, I may not be on. Not only because of Church, but because my freshman buddy Adriana is coming over for a little while. But I may have a new pic up tomorrow. She's bringing batteries for my camera because she wants to put up a new pic on her Myspace page. But we'll see.
On Saturday, church and history homework. Sunday...we're going to the cemetary, possibly church, and then Stacy's Quinceañera practice. Anyways, better go now. Adios mis queridos. <3
...Hey rise and shine
And open up your eyes
To give this world some color
Shine on diamond eyes
Seperate the space
Between love and lies.
It rained today! Like, hardcore. Gawd, it was awesome. Hrm, chance of rain tomorrow, too. Hope it does. Well, only during school. Like today when I was waiting for the bus. We all got drenched. I love the rain. It kept me in a pretty good mood today. Surprise, surprise. Anyways, homework. How...fun. Oh well, just history and geometry homework. I'll have to turn in the biology homework on Thursday, though. Doubt I'll be able to even get much of it done today. Eh, I'll try though.
Anyways, won't be here on Tuesday, as recently stated, and if I am, it won't be for long. Maybe just to check messages before I leave. But I doubt it. On Wednesday, I should be back. Out of it and probably depressed, even more so, because of the funeral, but here nonetheless.
Mm, looks like I'm getting five gifts for Christmas this year. o.o Adriana, my 9th grade friend from school, is probably gonna get me something to. If not for Christmas, for my birthday. Oh god. @.@ People are really trying to make me feel bad. Welll, the one's whom I can't give anything back for Christmas because of our parents.-.- Goddamnit.>.< Ah well. Gotta go and finish up on my homework. Adios mis queridos. <3
Well, just got back from school. Almost an hour ago, I believe. Anyways, I guess school was okay. I was out of it for most of the day, though. Almost fell asleep during geometry. Well, I did. For like ten minutes. Heh, I fell asleep near ten and woke up at 6:40 to get ready for school. Only reason I managed to actually sleep was because I took a sleeping pill. Eh, the one I got when I got the stronger Prozac. I had stopped taking the sleeping pills because it appeared that they didn't work. But I decieded to give it another go because I really needed the sleep. I only got three hours of sleep on Tuesday and around four all together on Wednesday, due to what happend.
Oh, and Stacy and Bernadette are coming over tomorrow in the afternoon, so I'll be gone for a few hours. And I'll be gone on Tuesday due to the Mass service for my grandfather in the evening. Though I will be back on Wednesday. Maybe. I'll probably be a bit out of it, though. Seeing as I think that's the day that my grandpa's funeral is going to be. Sometime in the morning, I believe. I think Stacy's going with us to the Mass, though.
Well, I should probably get an early start on my homework. So, yeah. Adios mis queridos. <3
Took the PSAT today. And goddamnit, I think I did awful on it. XD Couldn't concentrate with only three hours of sleep. And only have half a glass of juice and a Prozac for breakfest.>> << But oh well. There's always next year.
Anyways, found out three of my grades today. I have a B in AP World History, and Ms. Ortiz said that she wasn't giving out any A's until we started working on the more difficult stuff, so the highest grade we could get is a B. Then I have a B+ in Geometry, and an A in Biology. Yayness. Hopefully I can keep all of my grades up this year. Unlike 9th grade. Blegh. Anyways, moving on.
Woo. I'm bored. But no school tomorrow. Yay. But I'll probably spend the day working on homework, so yeah. Lookie what I found on Myspace. Questionair! That has to do with "me"! YAY! XD Do it, do it! o.o
Your name:
Take a stab at my middle name : ______________
Where did we meet? ______________
Do I believe in God? ______________
How long have you known me? ______________
Do I smoke? ______________
What was your first impression of me upon meeting? ____
Color of my eyes: ______________
Do I have any siblings? ______________
What's one of my favorite things to do? ______________
Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?________
What's my favorite type of music? ______________
Am I shy or out going? ______________
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules? ______________
What's your favorite memory of me? ______________
Any special talents: ______________
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?________
Am I the kind of person that would stick up for the underdog, or bully?________
My worst quality? ______________
Do I like Coke or Pepsi? ______________
Am I liberal, or conservative? ______________
Is there an evil twin living in me? ______________
If you could change my FIRST name, what name would you chose for me? ______________
Why do you think I was placed on this earth? ______________
Do I drink alcohol? ______________
Do I have a crush on you?__________
Whats' my fav. feature about myself?_______
What is my favorite article of clothing to wear?_________
Whee. That was so random. And that's it for today. Buh bye mis queridos. <3
Yay. My Launch radio works again. *hums to Hitchin' a ride* Fun, fun. Anyways, lesse. High school's football team has a game against [loony gurl]'s high school today. Wonder who's gonna win. Then again, our football team suxx0rz. But...I am pissed off at a couple of the football players. Didn't manage to get my Gatorade during lunch because of those effers. I get thirsty fast, damnit. Especially during geometry. >> << But anyways! Looks like my cousin Gloria is going to be a dama for Stacy's Quinceañera. Yayness. Another person that I know is going to be in it. Gloria, [daddy's lil gurl] and [GABY!]. <3
I should really start working on my homework now, so I can have enough time to finish my biology project over the weekend. Or in other words, by tomorrow. Due to the fact that I have to go practice for Stacy's Quinceañera on Sunday's. I also have to e-mail my cousin the address for Sunday, too. Now if only I had her e-mail. Well, guess I gotta wait until my uncle gets home so I can not only e-mail her the address and other info, but also so I can print out the typed portion of my biology project. Which I finished yesterday.
But, yeah. Hrm, oh! The damn bus came late today. About half an hour late. And it got pretty damn crowded too. We didn't have to pay though. Why? I have no idea. We just didn't. Anyways, because the a-hole in front of me wouldn't move so the rest of us could get in, even though I politely asked him to move and make some room, the ghetto fuck didn't budge so I shrugged and thought, "Ah, screw it" and just got in. Which resulted in the top of my head smashing against his jaw while he was pigging out on chips. @.@ S'what he gets. Even though it did hurt me too.-.-
Lesse...again. I had a quiz for AP World History today. I think I did pretty well. Seeing as it was a buddy quiz. Which means that we had to work on the quiz with the person next to us and agree on an answer and write it down on the paper. Well, I basically ended up doing nearly everything. I mean, Bernadette is nice and all, but she makes me feel USED. ;-;
...Though she is funny. Such as when we got to the question that asked why men were thought of so highly and such in ancient China and I was about to answer it for her, when she quickly wrote down on her paper, "Because they have the all mighty PENIS!" ...I just stared at her and tried not to laugh.XD Then when we were correcting the quizzes, Ms. Ortiz asked us that question, and Bernadette answered. With what she wrote down. XD Of course, I wrote down the actual answer and not that.>> << But it was still funny. XP
*stretches*I'm gonna join her club once everything gets settled. I believe it's called the G.S.A. She gave me a high five when she found out I was bi.XD Seeing as she asked, I answered, and then she said she was too. But this was all about...three weeks ago, I think. Anyways, me and Stacy are just waiting for more details about it and then I'll probably end up joining. Yup, yup.
But, yeah. Not much else to say/type. Besides the fact that I have a lot of work to do, I'm tired, still sick, in a so-so mood, and really, really bored. >> << Gonna try and work on my homework and/or try and write another poem. So, adios mis queridos. O, mis bean burritos. <3
Mm, feeling drowsy right now. *rubs her eyes* Probably from the pills I took last night for my cold. Looks like they helped due to the fact that I didn't wake up during the night. I would have probably stayed asleep until around eleven or noon if it weren't for my siblings. And because I didn't fall asleep until midnight last night, I probably needed that extra sleep. Stayed up for a bit so I could finish watching the rest of The Phantom of the Opera. Gawd, it was beautiful. I almost started crying during the end. ;-;
...But anyways.>> << Started working on homework at around eleven. Well, I started working on homework for AP World History. And I'm still missing three terms that I couldn't find and lots of notes. And I already have six pages of work done so far for that class. And I still need to start on my geometry homework. And the only reason that I'm even on right now is because of my biology project. Which is due next Tuesday, I think. And I really need to finish getting all the info, print it, and thus work on the damn poster. Blegh. I hope Cynthia manages to print out her part of the project, and the other poster or 3D model she wanted to do for the other half.
Mm, I'm ready to pass out right now. So sleepy. Almost fell asleep while I working on my history homework. And I look like such a damn mess right now. XD I've been in sweats, loose t-shirt, and a baggy sweater all day. And my hair is quite messy right now. And I look a bit more pale than usual, eyes look tired, and my voice is starting to fade a bit. And I'm still coughing and sneezing. And I started getting sick last Friday.-.- Oh well. Time to go and continue working on my biology homework. Adios mis queridos. [<3]
Having serious mood-swnigs. Ignore it.-.- Sorry.
Oh, fucking hell.
This cold is making me fucking miserable.
And the Prozac isn't helping.
Most of the things people have said to me have brought me to the verge of tears today.
And they were stupid little things, too.
Fucking HELL.-.-
God, if I'm not acting like "myself" then just fuck it.
No need to fucking get mad and start throwing things at my face if I don't say anything about it.
JesusfuckingCh
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...
...
On the bright side. I passed my geometry test.
And my history quiz.
Though I'm not sure how I did on my biology test.
And then Stacy and I had our usual stupid conversations today.
Something about me and Matt eloping.
Eh, can't remember.
It was something along those lines.
Oh well.
No school tomorrow.
And I get out early on Thursday.
...
...
...
Still feeling like hell.
And besides what I wrote before,
I honestly don't know why.
And now I feel like a fucking bitch.
I should honestly just shut the fuck up when something is probably bothering me.
And most of the time, I'm trying to figure out what.
I should really stop this.
It's selfish.
What about their problems?
Even though they never tell me much/anything.
And get mad when I do the same.
I can probably understand why.
But they tend to do the same thing I do.
Before I even started doing it.
Meh. Whatever.
I'm giving myself a headache.
Mm, new poem on deviantART.
I'll probably have another one up this week.
Such as the one I wrote for AP World History.
That was pretty funny.
Ms. Ortiz made me feel special.
Oh, and some guy from my biology class kissed me today.
On the forehead, people.
I would have died or killed him if he kissed me on the lips.
*shudders*Ther
Thank god he didn't though.
Hm, almost time for me to go and finish watching the Phantom of the Opera.
w00t w00t.
So, yeah.
Adios mis queridos. [<3]
Working on biology project.
Gawd, this suxx0rz.
Like, hardcore.
As does my cold.
Couldn't sleep because of it.
And because I stayed up until one in the morning...
Working on homework. >>;
And my grandma just told me something.
But I don't know what the hell she just said.
Damn, fast, Spanish talking skillz of hers. -.-
...Then again, she's from Mexico.>> <<
But anyways. Homework.
My dumbass ended up doing the wrong geometry homework.
Which I didn't notice until it was almost one.
So I had to start all over again.
I started working on my homework at around ten.
But because at eleven I ended up watching anime,
I took an hour break, and started again at midnight.
Sorta.
But, geometry homework is done.
As is most of my history homework.
Just need some notes for it, and I'm done.
Then I can study for my biology test tomorrow.
Oh, and plan the death of [J. FizZle!] and [lunar eclipse].
*cackles*
...
I mean...
...Whatever. >>;
Anyways, enough stalling.
Time to go back to my biology project.
Adios mis queridos. <3
I think I'm catching a cold. I've been sneezing and coughing a lot.-.- But on the brightside, I called Kisa today. Mucho fun. Yup yup. Mainly because I was hyper and on meds.>> << And I should probably go soon. Due to the fact that it's already nine. And I have some anime to watch. Oh, and homework to work on. And I have to study too. I have to call Stacy tomorrow, though. I called earlier, but I don't think she was home. I really need to find out if I have to go to her house tomorrow or not. So, she better pick up the phone when I call.-.-
*blinks*Lesse. I went to see The Corpse Bride yesterday. And it PWND. Though the ending did kinda suxx0rz. But oh well. I still loved it. What else? Hrm, still wanting a Gir plushie. XD He's so cute and weird. Mine. TT.TT Oh well. I have a couple of more gifts left to buy, so I won't be able to get it anytime sooner. Yay. It's almost time for me to spoil people with presents. <3
Whee. I pimped out my Myspace page. It looks all purdy now. And kinda colorful too. XD Lookeh: http://blog.my
*blinks*...Alm
I'm like a total fucking mess right now. I've been moody all day, and it was probably because of the prozac. When I got home today, nobody was here. And by that point I was already twitchy. Normally when people make fun of me at school, I don't pay much attention to them. But, due to the fact that I was pretty unstable during biology, the taunts of the little stupid freshmen got to me and I almost started cyring right then and there. And then my grandfather got even worse. And now instead of just getting morphine once a day, he has to get it almost every time he feels extreme pain. Which is a lot. And my parents were fighting again and my mom was just screaming, and that made me even more nervous and depressed, and then my siblings started fighting and yelling at each other and I just couldn't take it anymore that I ended up screaming. Twice. I also ended up scratching my left arm a bit, and now I have two small droplets of blood oozing out. Along with a couple of red marks. And now I feel like I'm about to throw up.
All in all, today sucked.
God, my comp is acting freakin' stupid again.-.- And I have a headahe. Again. Anyways, my A- in geometry went down to B. Damn test. Oh well, I suxx0rz at all forms of math. Eh, somewhat, so it's no big surprise. XD *blinks*Oh yeah. I'm on meds again. I got a slightly stronger dose of Prozac. An adult dose, I think. Well, that's what the lady said. Something about it being 20mg and adult dose and yeah. I'm also on some other medication for my sleeping problems. Something called Desyrel. Oh my fucking god, I am going to fucking kill this computer.>.<
...Anyways. Back to the meds. It's actually a drug called Trazodone. But it's under the brand name Desyrel. But, moving on. Just found out what some of the...more less serious side affects are. And this isn't counting the ones for Prozac.
*Dizziness or drowsiness;
*Headache;
*Insomnia or vivid dreams;
*Dry mouth, upset stomach, nausea, or vomiting;
*Diarrhea or constipation;
*Tremors (shaking); or
*Blurred vision.
And I think that's it. I think I have to take that about half an hour (or an hour) before it's time for me to go to asleep. Let's see if it works out or not. *blinks*Heh, that lady said that I might end up getting diabetes if I don't take care of myself. And she suggested I see a nutritionist. Due to the fact that I gained ten pounds. She was calling me fat. XD ...Then again, I am.>> <<
Oh! And I started writing a poem during biology today. It's currently written down on the journal that Matt gave me. Damn freshmen in that class wanted me to show him what I had written down so far. Ha. Like I'm gonna show him. Even though I haven't written down much. Just phone numbers, birthdays, a few notes to myself, poetry bits, and random stuff. And doodles. XD *hugs journal*Mine.>> <<
...Eh. Better go and finish homework. Adios mis queridos. <3
God, my comp is acting freakin' stupid again.-.- And I have a headahe. Again. Anyways, my A- in geometry went down to B. Damn test. Oh well, I suxx0rz at all forms of math. Eh, somewhat, so it's no big surprise. XD *blinks*Oh yeah. I'm on meds again. I got a slightly stronger dose of Prozac. An adult dose, I think. Well, that's what the lady said. Something about it being 20mg and adult dose and yeah. I'm also on some other medication for my sleeping problems. Something called Desyrel. Oh my fucking god, I am going to fucking kill this computer.>.<
...Anyways. Back to the meds. It's actually a drug called Trazodone. But it's under the brand named Desyrel. But, moving on. Just found out what some of the...more less serious side affects are. And this isn't counting the ones for Prozac.
*Dizziness or drowsiness;
*Headache;
*Insomnia or vivid dreams;
*Dry mouth, upset stomach, nausea, or vomiting;
*Diarrhea or constipation;
*Tremors (shaking); or
*Blurred vision.
And I think that's it. I think I have to take that about half an hour (or an hour) before it's time for me to go to asleep. Let's see if it works out or not. *blinks*Heh, that lady said that I might end up getting diabetes if I don't take care of myself. And she suggested I see a nutritionist. Due to the fact that I gained ten pounds. She was calling me fat. XD ...Then again, I am.>> <<
Oh! And I started writing a poem during biology today. It's currently written down on the journal that Matt gave me. Damn freshmen in that class wanted me to show him what I had written down so far. Ha. Like I'm gonna show him. Even though I haven't written down much. Just phone numbers, birthdays, a few notes to myself, poetry bits, and random stuff. And doodles. XD *hugs journal*Mine.>> <<
...Eh. Better go and finish homework
Let.Me.Bitch.
Don't feel good.
Lots of physical pain right now.
Homework is getting on my nerves.
More crap with my parents.
Siblings, all of them, are making me frustrated.
To the point of tears.
I'm exhausted.
Stressed.
My grandfather has gotten even more sick.
And I'm feeling emotionally [W.A.S.T.E.D.].
Don't want to get bothered by people's problems right now.
I don't pity.
Nor do I need my own self pity.
Or anger from anyone else.
Whomever they may be.
I need a nap.
But I'm not gonna take one.
Too much homework.
And I don't fall asleep easily.
I feel like crying.
And I think I'm turning even more [E.M.O.]
Anyways...
Have.A.Good.Da
More crap with my parents. Woo. Family problems. Going over to Stacy's house for a bit. If I'm not back later it's probably because of the following:
1.) Got back after seven.
2.) Parents fighting got worse/other family problems.
Well, adios.