...because Kisa([Kisa_sama]) said so.>> << Even though you can all just stop reading this now, if you'd like. XD

Part of a survey thingy that me and Kisa did for each other. Why? Boredom. And because we love each other in a non-lesbian way too. <3 Oh, and if you decied to do it...I guess I'll do it for you too.@.@ 'Cept Kisa's first. Because I love her. X3 *blinks*Survey first and then Kisa's answers.>> <<

What would you do if...
The Bad
I got sick:
I started cutting:
I started smoking:
I started drinking:
I got hospitalized:
I commited suicide:
I was victim to a homocide:
Got raped:


The Good
Kissed you:
Hugged you:
Told you I loved you:
Got married:
Asked you to marry me:
Had a child:
Told you I loved someone


What would you do if...

The Bad
I got sick:litterally Go and get you or something like that.
I started cutting: Cut too, because A we promised, and B cut because you cut because I was uber sad and scared for you. ><
I started smoking: Snap your death by shit in half.
I started drinking: Stare at you weird, wonder if I should let you get waisted, then make sure you didn't get raped by Matt or Eric. >< And not let you become an alcoholic.
I got hospitalized: Reverts back to number one. Cept flowers and candy involved. >> <<
I commited suicide: Bring your sorry ass back to life so I could kill you for leaving me all alone. ;.; Then probably die too.
I was victim to a homocide: >< Kill that sorry bastard over and over and over and over and over again. ><
Got raped: ..To Matt? I might make Stacy give protection..To anyone else. I'd be there before it started with a shotgun and shovel. and cover up story.

The Good
Kissed you: o.o Non lesbian kissy kisses are fine? >> << *coughs*
Hugged you: Hug back XD And be happy.
Told you I loved you: Say the same and totally win the battle over Matt. o.o 1/10000000 chances but HEy >> << Whatever.
Got married: Be there taking pictures. >> <<
Asked you to marry me: o-o Say yes!!! XD >> <<Bout damn time. X3 Matt's not stopping us now. >> <<
Had a child: ..is it American most wanted? o.o *eyes gleam*
Told you I loved someone: Make sure they were worthy of you or they would be dead and I said they left a note saying: "Went on vacation with parents, be back soon?"

Another Christmas ruined! <3
Not like I didn't see that coming.
Parents are fighting again.*shrugs*Whatever.
I'll be gone for a while. Be back whenever. Adios. <3

...Itchy feeling and being alone brought this. That, and a bad headache. I should probably go and write Kisa's letter now. o.o *shakes head* <3 Stupid poem. If that's what it even is. >.<;

Sooner or later,
These eyes will close forever
And a gentle calm will thus wash over
And a new love will take me away
The shinning light and the man in black,
Will lead me far away from this world
He's a king at seduction,
Who hosts many lovers behind his cloak.
Sometimes he teases,
And leaves a person breathless and shaken.
Sometimes he makes a catch, and you can't escape.
Can't escape that abyss of dark calm.
This king of Seduction,
Will get you hooked.
He'll make you whisper his name,
Once you're in his cold embrace.
Your eyes will slide shut,
Thus is the spell of the Grim Reaper.

For someone I truely hate. For reasons only known between me and one other. God, how I hate you. <3


A million hearts
Sweetly fell into your arms
You took it all
And worked your charms
You charmed her friends,
Some not all
But those you did,
Hate you now.
This knife lays still,
Silently waiting for you.
To end your heart breaking ways,
Which I might have to do.
Away from others,
Is all I want.
To keep your pain far from them.
Especially from the one I hold dear.
I'll keep her away from you,
And others that reflect all you were.
The heavens high above,
Will punish all the crimes you've commited.
The hearts you captured will soon rebel.
All I'll wait with the sweetest smile,
The knife of ending held tightly in my blood stained hand...
While the other holds her close and away from your harm.

...I'm too angry to write anything better. These are all scattered thoughts of hate. I'm sorry. And I'm here for you, hun. Always and forever. Remember, I love you. And you know we'll both hurt that little jerk off. <3 Mwuah.

A poem for the one who wants to marry me. XD Teh Kisa! <3

Roses are red,
That's what she said.
The one who shall marry me.
She's got everything I could ask for.
Lovely as can be,
That girl who said she'd marry me.
We'll travel the world,
And stop at an isle meant for only us
And I do believe she mentioned something,
About fuzzy pink handcuffs.
This girl is wonderful,
Lovely as can be.
My beautiful one and only,
That goes by the name of Shelby. <3

There you go, Kisa. XD

I love this icon. <3

EMO RANT!

...Even with my tearless rant of emotion, don't forget that...

I'm still listening to Call Me by Blondie. <3

I'm almost done with The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale. Pretty good book. Though I'll probably start on the work for winter break tomorrow. Once I get a new notebook, seeing as I don't have any paper. I have to read a whole chapter for AP World History, take notes and all that, because we're going to have a test the Tuesday of the week we go back to school. We'll spend Monday going over the whole chapter. For biology, have to read the newspaper and write about whatever we find on genetics. Five of them. And we also have a term paper due. Fun.

But I got my Christmas Holiday shopping done. Well, half of it. I'm giving Bird and Adriana their gifts once we go back to school. I only have Stacy's and Matt's gifts all done. <3 All I have to do next is mail Matt his gift, and drop off Stacy's at her house. Probably on Thursday when my mom doesn't have to go to work. <3

Well, guess that's it for now. Too lazy to type more. Adios mis queridos. <3

But I did! I'm a good girl. <3

Cover me with kisses, baby. Cover me with love.

Yay! Blondie. I love her. <3 She's uber awesome.
Anyways, it's always most Christmas. And what a sad Christmas it will be this year. Ah well.
*blinks*Bernadette is my Uber Goober now. She's known as Bird to other people, but Uber Goober to me. w00t! XD *shakes head*I'm exhausted right now, so yeah. It's almost ten and I'm gonna go to bed soon. Probably right after I finish this. Changed my house a bit. As well as my Myspace profile. But other than that, today was pretty dull. For me. I was sick and all. *yawns*Eh, not much else to say, so adios. <3

Interracial lesbian phone sex. As observed by me and Bird. <3

I've been letting myself get pushed around again. I've been getting used alot lately. Typical. Not like I have the strength or courage to even stick up for myself. Life at home as gotten slightly better, but I'm still not happy. I'm still paranoid. Extremely paranoid. And I keep thinking about my grandfather. Heh, now I feel like crying. Well, other than being alot of people's bitch, I'm almost out of school for winter break. Tomorrow's my last day. But I have work to do over my days of, so eh. Anyways, guess that's it. Adios.

Here ya go Kisa, the new poem that I wrote...just for you. XD <3

My love, look at me well,
These eyes shall no longer cry for you,
And my words will no longer bother you.
Shall we play Romeo and Juliet?
Or must I make this sacrifice for love alone?
With thoughts ever so tangled with this harsh reality...
Though answer me this,
Can you see the utter depth of emotions in my eyes?
The luster of sadness?
And the dim light of happiness?
The memories of once upon a time,
Hidden amongst it all?
Even though my love for you was once so strong,
A new attraction has taken hold of me.
The sharp edge has been ever so sweet,
Sweeter than anything you've given me.
I ask again, shall we play Romeo and Juliet?
Or must I make this sacrifice of love...with this blade alone?

Something I found in a bulletin on Myspace.XD For Kisa to fill out. Or anyone else who wants too. o.o;

Am I:
Ugly? :
Kind? :
Loud? :
Shy? :
Weird? :
Selfish? :
Ghetto? :
Crazy?:
Nice? :
Mean?:
Immature? :
Rude?:
Cool? :
Stupid? :
Caring? :
Mature? :
A friend? :
More than a friend?:
Talkative? :
Boring? :
Hott :
Creative? :
Smart? :
A flirt? :
A psycho? :
Athletic? :
Confusing? :
Sweet? :
Annoying? :
Funny? :
Hyper? :
Laid back? :
Perfect? :

If you could:
Give me a new name, what would it be ?:
Hook me up with someone, who would it be ?:
Do one thing with me, it would be ?:
Drop me one piece of advice, it would be ?:

Would You:
Kiss me ?:
Ever go out with me ?:
If you already have, would you do it again ?:
Ever talk bad about me if we were to break up ?:

Questions:
What is my phone number?:
Which song reminds you of me?:
When is my birthday?:
Who is/are my best friend/s?:
Where did we meet?:
Have you ever had a dream about me? Describe it.:
If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
What do you love about me?:
Describe me in 3-5 words:

Mom's birthday today. <3
Along with some stupid Christmas parade near my house. Meh, I hate parade's. They're so dull. And I also hate Christmas this year.*stretches*Not like we're gonna do much, anyway.

Eh, anyways. Homework to work on. Almost done with biology homework so I can go back working on my history notes. Half way done with those. Lets see, what else? I've been leaving scratches along my left arm with a broken antenna(sp). It's not cutting. And I just wanted to see if it would leave any marks. *pokes arm*Nope. They're all fading.>> << And I'll stop it, or else I'll end up cutting myself.-.- I'll turn Emo if I do. ;-; ...Anyways. Homework. Adios. <3

...*bangs head against desk*Made my mom cry. Again.-.- Damnit. I blame it on that Bad Religion song.*shakes head*She just ended up telling me to never say that I wish I wasn't born. And that I was beautiful, smart, and will end up being someone great when I get older.*sighs*Now I feel like a total bitch than usual.-.-

Anyways! Moving away from all that depressing crud. We don't have to do the test for Biology tomorrow! Yay! We get to watch some movie on evolution, instead.XD *blinks*And Adriana thinks my friend Luis is hot and wanted me to get his number for her.-.- God, now I can't look at him the same way anymore. It's just, blegh. I told her that he has a girlfriend, so she went and had an Emo moment. And then tripped during our first lap for our mile run.>> << I think he saw, too.XD So she had another Emo moment. And because our group was the last to run, we have to do the mile all over again tomorrow. Fun.>.<

Oh! And Stacy has another soccer game tomorrow, so I'll probably be on late. Seeing as I'm gonna go and watch her play. And I'm gonna ask my dad to bring me some batteries so I can take my camera to school and take random pictures. If not, I'll take it next week.*blinks*Oh, and if my godfather has any bands playing at his cafe, I might go there too. And he has a Led Zepplin song playing on his website too. Awesome. <3 ...Well, back to homework. Adios mis queridos! <3