Everyone, well family anyway, keeps treating me like a baby. Since Monday.-.- Ah well. *blinks*I start school next Monday. Which means I have to go shopping this weekend. And I finished my notes! ^.^ Now I just have to finish my biology term paper and my DBQ for History. I might go out with Stacy this weekend too. Either to my Godfather's Cafe or to go see a movie. That is, if we're not busy. Or if it doesn't get too late.

I'm gonna miss getting up at eleven. I woke up about an hour ago. It's noon right now for me.XD And I'm watching Maury. o.o Third person now. First one cheated on his wife. Second one is a bisexual prostitute in order to pay for his wife's medicine because she's really sick. And now the third one is the same as the first.@.@

So! Mom's taking us out to eat once my sister gets out of school. Which is in two hours. I just have to clean, iron my clothes, and take a shower. I'll probably be back later this evening. Maybe. *blinks*Oh, and today's the fourth...I love you Matt. Very much.

I'm so glad I have Kisa and Stacy with me. They made this whole fucking day better. Even though I'm still crying and feel like utter crap. But whatever. Shit happens. I'm still crying. But it'll end. Soon, I hope. Threw everything away. It hurt, but I had too. It would be worse if I kept it all. The journal, the letters, everyting. The tears are the price of a broken heart, I guess. But...I have Kisa and Stacy. And I'm thankful for that. I love them both very much. <3

Ohmygawd! Kisa called me yesterday! O.O And guess what?! We talked for FIVE AND A HALF HOURS on the phone last night! ^.^ And this is most of what happened last night. o.o

-She told her mom we were lesbian lovers. XD
-We were both half dead on the phone
-Something about phone sex. >> <<
-By the looks of it, one of us died.O.o
-One of us might be pregnant with the others child.XD
-It only got serious for like less than an hour. O.o Conversation wise that is.>>;;;
-Kept telling each other to go to bed, but ended up adding another hour to our conversation.
-She made me make my bird noise thing.@.@
-I kept scaring her. XD
-Her phone kept losing our call over five times.>.<


...And that's all that I can remember.>> << Adios mis queridos, I have to go out for a bit. ^.^;;; <3

Really freakin' pissed off right now. No idea why. Everyone's just been annoying me today. Family, anyway. And I don't think I'm going to the concert today, either. Reverend Horton Heat with Horrorpops and Graceland Mafia will be at the House of Blues in Anaheim today. And that's the concert everyone kept saying I could go too. But now I can't. From what I can tell, my uncle couldn't find another ticket. Eh, whatever. There's always another time to go, I guess. Even though I really wanted to see the Horrorpops live. *shrugs*Maybe my cousin Gloria will tell me about it. She, her brother and my uncle Joel are going. Oh well, I have homework to work on anyway.

...because Kisa([Kisa_sama]) said so.>> << Even though you can all just stop reading this now, if you'd like. XD

Part of a survey thingy that me and Kisa did for each other. Why? Boredom. And because we love each other in a non-lesbian way too. <3 Oh, and if you decied to do it...I guess I'll do it for you too.@.@ 'Cept Kisa's first. Because I love her. X3 *blinks*Survey first and then Kisa's answers.>> <<

What would you do if...
The Bad
I got sick:
I started cutting:
I started smoking:
I started drinking:
I got hospitalized:
I commited suicide:
I was victim to a homocide:
Got raped:


The Good
Kissed you:
Hugged you:
Told you I loved you:
Got married:
Asked you to marry me:
Had a child:
Told you I loved someone


What would you do if...

The Bad
I got sick:litterally Go and get you or something like that.
I started cutting: Cut too, because A we promised, and B cut because you cut because I was uber sad and scared for you. ><
I started smoking: Snap your death by shit in half.
I started drinking: Stare at you weird, wonder if I should let you get waisted, then make sure you didn't get raped by Matt or Eric. >< And not let you become an alcoholic.
I got hospitalized: Reverts back to number one. Cept flowers and candy involved. >> <<
I commited suicide: Bring your sorry ass back to life so I could kill you for leaving me all alone. ;.; Then probably die too.
I was victim to a homocide: >< Kill that sorry bastard over and over and over and over and over again. ><
Got raped: ..To Matt? I might make Stacy give protection..To anyone else. I'd be there before it started with a shotgun and shovel. and cover up story.

The Good
Kissed you: o.o Non lesbian kissy kisses are fine? >> << *coughs*
Hugged you: Hug back XD And be happy.
Told you I loved you: Say the same and totally win the battle over Matt. o.o 1/10000000 chances but HEy >> << Whatever.
Got married: Be there taking pictures. >> <<
Asked you to marry me: o-o Say yes!!! XD >> <<Bout damn time. X3 Matt's not stopping us now. >> <<
Had a child: ..is it American most wanted? o.o *eyes gleam*
Told you I loved someone: Make sure they were worthy of you or they would be dead and I said they left a note saying: "Went on vacation with parents, be back soon?"

Another Christmas ruined! <3
Not like I didn't see that coming.
Parents are fighting again.*shrugs*Whatever.
I'll be gone for a while. Be back whenever. Adios. <3

...Itchy feeling and being alone brought this. That, and a bad headache. I should probably go and write Kisa's letter now. o.o *shakes head* <3 Stupid poem. If that's what it even is. >.<;

Sooner or later,
These eyes will close forever
And a gentle calm will thus wash over
And a new love will take me away
The shinning light and the man in black,
Will lead me far away from this world
He's a king at seduction,
Who hosts many lovers behind his cloak.
Sometimes he teases,
And leaves a person breathless and shaken.
Sometimes he makes a catch, and you can't escape.
Can't escape that abyss of dark calm.
This king of Seduction,
Will get you hooked.
He'll make you whisper his name,
Once you're in his cold embrace.
Your eyes will slide shut,
Thus is the spell of the Grim Reaper.

For someone I truely hate. For reasons only known between me and one other. God, how I hate you. <3


A million hearts
Sweetly fell into your arms
You took it all
And worked your charms
You charmed her friends,
Some not all
But those you did,
Hate you now.
This knife lays still,
Silently waiting for you.
To end your heart breaking ways,
Which I might have to do.
Away from others,
Is all I want.
To keep your pain far from them.
Especially from the one I hold dear.
I'll keep her away from you,
And others that reflect all you were.
The heavens high above,
Will punish all the crimes you've commited.
The hearts you captured will soon rebel.
All I'll wait with the sweetest smile,
The knife of ending held tightly in my blood stained hand...
While the other holds her close and away from your harm.

...I'm too angry to write anything better. These are all scattered thoughts of hate. I'm sorry. And I'm here for you, hun. Always and forever. Remember, I love you. And you know we'll both hurt that little jerk off. <3 Mwuah.

A poem for the one who wants to marry me. XD Teh Kisa! <3

Roses are red,
That's what she said.
The one who shall marry me.
She's got everything I could ask for.
Lovely as can be,
That girl who said she'd marry me.
We'll travel the world,
And stop at an isle meant for only us
And I do believe she mentioned something,
About fuzzy pink handcuffs.
This girl is wonderful,
Lovely as can be.
My beautiful one and only,
That goes by the name of Shelby. <3

There you go, Kisa. XD

I love this icon. <3

EMO RANT!

...Even with my tearless rant of emotion, don't forget that...

I'm still listening to Call Me by Blondie. <3

I'm almost done with The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale. Pretty good book. Though I'll probably start on the work for winter break tomorrow. Once I get a new notebook, seeing as I don't have any paper. I have to read a whole chapter for AP World History, take notes and all that, because we're going to have a test the Tuesday of the week we go back to school. We'll spend Monday going over the whole chapter. For biology, have to read the newspaper and write about whatever we find on genetics. Five of them. And we also have a term paper due. Fun.

But I got my Christmas Holiday shopping done. Well, half of it. I'm giving Bird and Adriana their gifts once we go back to school. I only have Stacy's and Matt's gifts all done. <3 All I have to do next is mail Matt his gift, and drop off Stacy's at her house. Probably on Thursday when my mom doesn't have to go to work. <3

Well, guess that's it for now. Too lazy to type more. Adios mis queridos. <3

But I did! I'm a good girl. <3

Cover me with kisses, baby. Cover me with love.

Yay! Blondie. I love her. <3 She's uber awesome.
Anyways, it's always most Christmas. And what a sad Christmas it will be this year. Ah well.
*blinks*Bernadette is my Uber Goober now. She's known as Bird to other people, but Uber Goober to me. w00t! XD *shakes head*I'm exhausted right now, so yeah. It's almost ten and I'm gonna go to bed soon. Probably right after I finish this. Changed my house a bit. As well as my Myspace profile. But other than that, today was pretty dull. For me. I was sick and all. *yawns*Eh, not much else to say, so adios. <3

Interracial lesbian phone sex. As observed by me and Bird. <3

I've been letting myself get pushed around again. I've been getting used alot lately. Typical. Not like I have the strength or courage to even stick up for myself. Life at home as gotten slightly better, but I'm still not happy. I'm still paranoid. Extremely paranoid. And I keep thinking about my grandfather. Heh, now I feel like crying. Well, other than being alot of people's bitch, I'm almost out of school for winter break. Tomorrow's my last day. But I have work to do over my days of, so eh. Anyways, guess that's it. Adios.