[Just another heartache on my lips.]'s diary
Written about Friday 2006-01-13
Written: (6888 days ago)
At Stacy's house! XD ...It's almost eleven.
Friday the 13th! ...And I actually had a good day. XD Freakin' hilarious. And annoying. Well, to Adriana anyway. She was having one hell of a bad day.
First Block:
Lets see, had a Mini AP Test thingy. I got the highest score in the class! ...I think. I don't know. I sit way in the front, so I don't like glancing behind me. That, and I'm lazy. XD But I think I probably did. Matthew did give me that annoyed look. And so did Stacy. XD I got a nine out of thirteen. Damn thing was hard. And I think Ms. Ortiz did the thirteen thing on purpose. But, anyways. We also got our PSAT scores back. I did horribly with the math part. But that's typical. But oh well. It was the first try, anyway. I still have two more years! I hope, anyway. I don't want to stay here longer. Damn ghetto trash. >> <<
Second Block:
Still playing soccer. Eh, the class is. Me and Adriana just...walk. Well, I walk. She complains and looks for guys. And almost kills me, too. Sharp, sudden turns when she spots an Emo guy and wants me to see him is DANGEROUS. Really dangerous. But she also made me play tic-tac-toe with her. On the sand thing for the track around the football field. XD We had to set up the tic-tac-toe board thingy with our shoes and stuff. I think we looked liked 'tards. But, that's just me.
Third Block:
...Keeping it short. Reviewed homework. Notes. Test. The end.
Fourth Block:
Guest speaker. Some paeleontologis
...And later that day! XD At Stacy's right now, as stated above. We're gonna take the ACT. Or, that's the dream. We almost died trying to register. And we're still not done. It's hard. Well, not really. It's just long and boring. We still have to take the practice test thing in the packet we got at the College Office. Oh, we were gonna try and take the SAT, but they're only giving wavers to the juniors. And we don't want to pay.>> << So, yeah. ACT waver for us. Until 11th grade. Plus, I think I'm going to take more than one enrichment course in the summer. DON'T HURT ME KISA! ;-;
XD Other than that, we quit the ACT thing at eight and went to watch Phantom of the Opera. I had forgotten how sad it is. ;-; Sniff. >> << Now we're watching Inuyasha. Well, Stacy's sister is. Stacy is reading over my shoulder. Well, not really. She's sitting right next to me. X3 IT'S ELEVEN! And Kisa called about two hours ago. That was so freakin' fun. And I was hyper. And I think Kisa thought I was on crack. Maybe I am. I probably inhaled something at school without knowing it. Atleast, we both did. But what happened is a secret. Other than Stacy and Kisa are now going to wage war against each other. XD
...So, we're going to go take ranom quizzes and look at Phantom of the Opera stuff. And if we have time, we're gonna watch Cry Baby. Unless my dad calls again. Then buh-bye Stephy.-.- So, yeah. Adios! <3
Won't be on tomorrow. Staying after school to watch Stacy's soccer game and then going to her house until late at night. <3
First Block:
We got to do our presentation! And once again, I screwed up. Well, my voice did anyways. Squeaky and shaky. And I think I was blushing too. No idea, seeing as I kept glancing at everyone else in my group.XD I think we did decently. Not that great, but not bad. Pretty good, I suppose. Test is tomorrow. Ms. Ortiz changed it, seeing as she knew we were gonna take the whole class period with our presentations. So, yeah. That was basically all of first block. Presentations and a reminder of notes.
Second Block:
No more soccer drills! We actually got to play soccer. Well, everyone else did. I was still sick and in pain. I blocked a goal once, though. Fear me! XD Though I ended up kicking Adriana at the same time. Oh well. Payback's a bitch. >> << <3
Lunch:
Again, nothing interesting. Gatorade machine thingy is still acting like a bitch. Lunch was dull. And me and Stacy talked. Oh yes. The most interesting time of day. XD
Third Block:
Reviewed trig. Have a test tomorrow. And Stacy now has an enemy in class! The same girl that I hate, too. ^.^ Keeping it short, it almost turned into a cat fight. The even worse thing about it, Stacy sits next to that idiot ghetto trash of a human being, too. But I think I cheered her up. The typical, "We know where people like her will be in a few years" talk. We LOVE those. :3
Fourth Block:
No more movies! ;-; More notes, though. And the test is now next Wednesday, instead of Tuesday. But because I got called out of class, I missed some of the notes. Bad enough that I lost my notebook with the other notes, too. Gotta ask the teacher if he can let me copy them all over.-.- *blinks*Well, I got called out of class to go talk to my counselor lady about my classes for next semester. And this is what I got:
AP Geography (second part of AP World History)
Computers (required course)
Spanish for Spanish Speakers Level One. (...Oooh, it goes by levels! n00b. XD)
Honors English.
Yup, my new classes. No idea which blocks I'll get them though. Ah well. Atleast I know what they are. Plus I'm going to summer school this year. To make up the second semester of Algebra, and to take enrichment courses. <3
...And that was my day. Have to work on homework, and then I'm off to rent some videos to take with me tomorrow when I go to Stacy's house. So, adios mis queridos. <3
My day, biznitches. <3
First Block:
Test tomorrow. And we didn't even get to do our presentation. Matthew and Jorge's group took like twenty-five minutes with theirs, and the class spent almost an hour getting everything ready. We only got to two and a half groups. Bird's group has to finish their presentation tomorrow. Along with the rest of us. And we have a test. Which I still have to finish taking notes for. Crud.-.-
And Jannete got in a car accident before school. @.@ Great way to start off the day.
Second Block:
Soccer drills again. Nothing much happened. Other than me getting sick and getting hit with a soccer ball. Twice. Which basically made Adriana almost die of laughter. Me getting hit was her fault.>.<
Person: Block the ball!
Me:...*begins to block it*
Adriana: Watch out for the ball!O.O GET IT!
Me:*blinks and takes a step back**glances at her*...O.o
Adriana: Get the-!
Me:*gets hit in the face with the ball*@.@...STU
Adriana:O.O...
...It happened again, this time from her trying to keep the ball away from her. Except it landed in my arms.XD
Lunch:
Boring, as usual. Gatorade machine thingy didn't take dollars, so once Stacy got their we had to go buy them at the student store. After that, we found an empty table between the ghetto people and the black clothing people. We're such loners. XD
Anyways.>> << She went to go get her lunch and I got bored waiting for her, so I ended up writing a bit more for Kisa's letter. It's all pretty and colorful looking. But it's going to get to her late. Dad keeps forgetting the stamps.-.- Fuck. But, eh. Lunch was dull. Me and Stacy just talked about random things. As usual. XD
Third Block:
Pain got worse and I felt like crap. Managed to take a few notes, but wasn't able to really write much on Kisa's letter. Stacy passed me a note, so I replied back. And Guillermo ended up falling asleep next to me with his MP3 Player on. I wonder if I was the only one that heard him snoring. XD Managed to talk to Stacy a bit more near the end of the class period. Mainly about what we're going to do on Friday. Nothing special, really. I just almost fell asleep. About twice.
Fourth Block:
This time no blood on the walls!XD Or cat fights. Ended up watching another movie. But by then, I was moody and didn't feel like talking to anyone, so I hardly talked to Adriana. Thank you pain.-.- Took about a page of notes, and Mr. Lowinger ended up talking with the class. And making fun of Miguel. Who deserves it. But, yeah. Once again, nothing special happened.
Well, must go back to biology homework and then notes. Adios, mis queridos. <3
Kisa, look at the bottom of this.
Today sure was interesting.
Two fights. And finding out about two people being shot.
It's South Central all over again. :3
First Block:
Presentation tomorrow. Well, group presentation. Have to go a bit early to school tomorrow to get everything set up before class starts. All I have to do right now is look for three pictures and e-mail them to Stacy. We're doing it on Japan. :3 From 600 B.C.E to...I forgot. But, yeah. Whee. Can't wait to get up in front of the class. With Bird sitting in the front. And probably going to end up making me start laughing. >>;;; Which reminds me, Ms. Ortiz moved our seats the first day we got back. Which was yesterday, but anyways. She moved us all. And I don't sit next to bird anymore. I sit next to some guy who didn't even work on his notes during break, so I had to do to our work on my own.-.- *blinks*Have to look for three pictures and e-mail them to Stacy for our presentation. Crud.@.@
Second Block:
Soccer drills today. For us girls, anyway. The guys got to go and just play, but we didn't. No idea why, but Ms. Woods wanted us to drill first. After we jogged a lap. The drills were pretty dull. Oh! And Adriana got attacked by a lady bug on our way back to locker room. XD Don't ask.>> <<
Third Block:
Geometry. I hate geometry. So freakin' dull. The lectures, anyway. Most of the class falls asleep during them. I come pretty close to falling asleep, as well.XD Nothing interesting happened. Other than Adan getting made fun of by Guillermo and Alex for painting his nails black. Oh, I did talk to Luis though. Seeing as I asked him what he was writing, and also hiding, durnig our break near the end of the class period. Dude, he writes THREE notes to his girlfriend EACH day. So sweet. :3 He said he's just trying to be a bit romantic. Very cute. XD
Oh, and my A+ in geometry went down to a normal A. -.- Oh well.>> <<
Fourth Block:
Other than the fights and such, nothing much happened in biology. Just going to have a test next Tuesday and a guest speaker on Friday. A paleontologist
To Kisa:
I'll most likely be at Stacy's this Friday. So just let me know when you might call, and I'll leave my cell phone on. <3 That may also mean that I have to take my cell phone charger with me too.XD Along with my camera.>> << Oh! And I'm making your letter as lesbian as I can. Messed with my mom's lipstick and left kisses on one of the pages. Damn boredom. XD All it needs now is my perfume. w00t! <3
...And that's it.>> << Adios now mis queridos. <3
Written about Sunday 2006-01-08
Written: (6893 days ago)
I'm a 90's kid!
...Lookie. XD
You know you're a 90's kid if...
You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
You've worn skorts and felt stylish
You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club
You use to love playing with your MY Little Pet Shop
You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had fluffed bangs
You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in kindergarten
You remember reading "Goosebumps"
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"
You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.
You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.
You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates
You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide
You wore socks over leggings scrunched down
" Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE"
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stumbed he's toe oe oe and thats the end end end of the elephants show ow ow.
You remember boom boxes vs. cd players
You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"
You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the Robot from "MY Little Wonder"
You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool
You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"
You played and or collected "Pogs"
You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger and you owned a Skip It
You had at least one GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere
You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles
All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebo
You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.
You remember a time before the WB.
You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You thought it would be so cool to be Alex Mack.
You know the Macarena by heart..
" Talk to the hand" ... enough said
You thought Brain woud finally take over the world
Oh yes, fear me.XD
Note to Self:
Call Kisa later today. :3Tamales for me. >> << But I think I ate too much. Ow, stomach. Mucho pain.-.- Anyways! I'll be gone most of the day today, and probably tomorrow too. Have to go buy stuff for school and my siblings are probably going to be using the comp when we get back. And during the night we might go out for a drive, so I'll be back a bit late. Or maybe not. I have no idea.
*blinks*Oh, and Stacy, if you read this...NO LESBIAN BARS! And Kisa, no getting me drunk. Especially in a lesbian bar. I might get molested by some muscular lesbian chick. *sobs*...Anywa
I just fell in love...with a beautiful song. <3
Last Kiss
J Frank Wilson & The Cavaliers
Well, where oh where can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven
So I got to be good
So I can see my baby
When I leave this ol' world
We were out on a date in my Daddy's car
We hadn't driven very far
There in the road, straight ahead
The car was stalled, the engine was dead
I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right
Never forget the sound that night
The cryin' tires, the bustin' glass
The painful scream that I heard last
Well, where oh where can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven
So I got to be good
So I can see my baby
When I leave this ol' world
Well, when I woke up
The rain was pourin' down
There were people standing all around
Something warm a-running in my eyes
But I found my baby somehow that night
I raised her head and when she smiled and said
"Hold me darling for a little while"
I held her close
I kissed her our last kiss
I found the love that I knew I would miss
But now she's gone, even though I hold her tight
I lost my love ... my life, that night
Well, where oh where can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven
So I got to be good
So I can see my baby
When I leave this ol' world
Everyone, well family anyway, keeps treating me like a baby. Since Monday.-.- Ah well. *blinks*I start school next Monday. Which means I have to go shopping this weekend. And I finished my notes! ^.^ Now I just have to finish my biology term paper and my DBQ for History. I might go out with Stacy this weekend too. Either to my Godfather's Cafe or to go see a movie. That is, if we're not busy. Or if it doesn't get too late.
I'm gonna miss getting up at eleven. I woke up about an hour ago. It's noon right now for me.XD And I'm watching Maury. o.o Third person now. First one cheated on his wife. Second one is a bisexual prostitute in order to pay for his wife's medicine because she's really sick. And now the third one is the same as the first.@.@
So! Mom's taking us out to eat once my sister gets out of school. Which is in two hours. I just have to clean, iron my clothes, and take a shower. I'll probably be back later this evening. Maybe. *blinks*Oh, and today's the fourth...I love you Matt. Very much.
I'm so glad I have Kisa and Stacy with me. They made this whole fucking day better. Even though I'm still crying and feel like utter crap. But whatever. Shit happens. I'm still crying. But it'll end. Soon, I hope. Threw everything away. It hurt, but I had too. It would be worse if I kept it all. The journal, the letters, everyting. The tears are the price of a broken heart, I guess. But...I have Kisa and Stacy. And I'm thankful for that. I love them both very much. <3
Ohmygawd! Kisa called me yesterday! O.O And guess what?! We talked for FIVE AND A HALF HOURS on the phone last night! ^.^ And this is most of what happened last night. o.o
-She told her mom we were lesbian lovers. XD
-We were both half dead on the phone
-Something about phone sex. >> <<
-By the looks of it, one of us died.O.o
-One of us might be pregnant with the others child.XD
-It only got serious for like less than an hour. O.o Conversation wise that is.>>;;;
-Kept telling each other to go to bed, but ended up adding another hour to our conversation.
-She made me make my bird noise thing.@.@
-I kept scaring her. XD
-Her phone kept losing our call over five times.>.<
...And that's all that I can remember.>> << Adios mis queridos, I have to go out for a bit. ^.^;;; <3
Really freakin' pissed off right now. No idea why. Everyone's just been annoying me today. Family, anyway. And I don't think I'm going to the concert today, either. Reverend Horton Heat with Horrorpops and Graceland Mafia will be at the House of Blues in Anaheim today. And that's the concert everyone kept saying I could go too. But now I can't. From what I can tell, my uncle couldn't find another ticket. Eh, whatever. There's always another time to go, I guess. Even though I really wanted to see the Horrorpops live. *shrugs*Maybe my cousin Gloria will tell me about it. She, her brother and my uncle Joel are going. Oh well, I have homework to work on anyway.
...because Kisa([Kisa_sama]) said so.>> << Even though you can all just stop reading this now, if you'd like. XD
Part of a survey thingy that me and Kisa did for each other. Why? Boredom. And because we love each other in a non-lesbian way too. <3 Oh, and if you decied to do it...I guess I'll do it for you too.@.@ 'Cept Kisa's first. Because I love her. X3 *blinks*Survey first and then Kisa's answers.>> <<
What would you do if...
The Bad
I got sick:
I started cutting:
I started smoking:
I started drinking:
I got hospitalized:
I commited suicide:
I was victim to a homocide:
Got raped:
The Good
Kissed you:
Hugged you:
Told you I loved you:
Got married:
Asked you to marry me:
Had a child:
Told you I loved someone
What would you do if...
The Bad
I got sick:litterall
I started cutting: Cut too, because A we promised, and B cut because you cut because I was uber sad and scared for you. ><
I started smoking: Snap your death by shit in half.
I started drinking: Stare at you weird, wonder if I should let you get waisted, then make sure you didn't get raped by Matt or Eric. >< And not let you become an alcoholic.
I got hospitalized: Reverts back to number one. Cept flowers and candy involved. >> <<
I commited suicide: Bring your sorry ass back to life so I could kill you for leaving me all alone. ;.; Then probably die too.
I was victim to a homocide: >< Kill that sorry bastard over and over and over and over and over again. ><
Got raped: ..To Matt? I might make Stacy give protection..To anyone else. I'd be there before it started with a shotgun and shovel. and cover up story.
The Good
Kissed you: o.o Non lesbian kissy kisses are fine? >> << *coughs*
Hugged you: Hug back XD And be happy.
Told you I loved you: Say the same and totally win the battle over Matt. o.o 1/10000000 chances but HEy >> << Whatever.
Got married: Be there taking pictures. >> <<
Asked you to marry me: o-o Say yes!!! XD >> <<Bout damn time. X3 Matt's not stopping us now. >> <<
Had a child: ..is it American most wanted? o.o *eyes gleam*
Told you I loved someone: Make sure they were worthy of you or they would be dead and I said they left a note saying: "Went on vacation with parents, be back soon?"
Another Christmas ruined! <3
Not like I didn't see that coming.
Parents are fighting again.*shrugs*
I'll be gone for a while. Be back whenever. Adios. <3
Ohmygawd! It's almost Christmas!
Remenissions by Avenged Sevenfold.
Woo! It's almost Christmas. Just a few more hours. And all of my presents are mailed and stuff. Well, except Stacy's. I'll just drop it off later today if she's home. She better be. I'll probably end up dropping it off later in the evening. I think I'm being dragged off to my grandma's house. I'm probably just gonna get money. I'm probably the hardest person to get a gift for in my family. XD Hilarious, really.
Well, I helped my grandma make tamales this morning. Tons and tons of them. >> << Yum. *blinks*God, I'm tired. I fell asleep at around two in morning. Oh, and Kisa. I will get you. Just you wait. <3 I LOVE YOU! X3 But really, I will get the old messages and find pictures to go with them if I have too. >>;;; *coughs*Anyway
Kitty. o.o
...Itchy feeling and being alone brought this. That, and a bad headache. I should probably go and write Kisa's letter now. o.o *shakes head* <3 Stupid poem. If that's what it even is. >.<;
Sooner or later,
These eyes will close forever
And a gentle calm will thus wash over
And a new love will take me away
The shinning light and the man in black,
Will lead me far away from this world
He's a king at seduction,
Who hosts many lovers behind his cloak.
Sometimes he teases,
And leaves a person breathless and shaken.
Sometimes he makes a catch, and you can't escape.
Can't escape that abyss of dark calm.
This king of Seduction,
Will get you hooked.
He'll make you whisper his name,
Once you're in his cold embrace.
Your eyes will slide shut,
Thus is the spell of the Grim Reaper.
Mwuah. <3
Como La Flor by Selena. <3
I love that song. Really wish I had one of her CD's.
Well, today has been hell. And I have a killer headache right now. But I stopped crying! <-- One of the reasons as to why I have a headache. But the whole being alone thing has given me some inspiritation to write some more poems. I'll probably write them for Kisa, though. Mwuah. Love you. <3 Well, I made my parents both cry. And now we're all a great big bundle of depression. My dad and my siblings have been gone for almost two hours though...I'm kinda worried. Well, I better go. I think I'm about to start crying again. Adios.
Falling
Are you waiting for someone to rescue you, from yourself?
Dont be disappointed when no one comes
Dont blame me, you didnt get it
Dont blame me, you didnt get it
I already told you that
Becomes the problem
If you dont believe you can find a way out
You become the problem
Become the problem
Cant you see, arent you tired of this dysfunctional routine?
Dont blame me, you didnt get it
Dont blame me, you didnt get it
I already told you that
Becomes the problem
If you dont believe you can find a way out
You become the problem
Become the problem
becomes the problem
becomes the problem
If you don't believe, you can find a way out
You become the problem
become the problem
Becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find a way out
Then you've solved the problem
You've solved your problem
For someone I truely hate. For reasons only known between me and one other. God, how I hate you. <3
A million hearts
Sweetly fell into your arms
You took it all
And worked your charms
You charmed her friends,
Some not all
But those you did,
Hate you now.
This knife lays still,
Silently waiting for you.
To end your heart breaking ways,
Which I might have to do.
Away from others,
Is all I want.
To keep your pain far from them.
Especially from the one I hold dear.
I'll keep her away from you,
And others that reflect all you were.
The heavens high above,
Will punish all the crimes you've commited.
The hearts you captured will soon rebel.
All I'll wait with the sweetest smile,
The knife of ending held tightly in my blood stained hand...
While the other holds her close and away from your harm.
...I'm too angry to write anything better. These are all scattered thoughts of hate. I'm sorry. And I'm here for you, hun. Always and forever. Remember, I love you. And you know we'll both hurt that little jerk off. <3 Mwuah.
A poem for the one who wants to marry me. XD Teh Kisa! <3
Roses are red,
That's what she said.
The one who shall marry me.
She's got everything I could ask for.
Lovely as can be,
That girl who said she'd marry me.
We'll travel the world,
And stop at an isle meant for only us
And I do believe she mentioned something,
About fuzzy pink handcuffs.
This girl is wonderful,
Lovely as can be.
My beautiful one and only,
That goes by the name of Shelby. <3
There you go, Kisa. XD