Wish I could bang my head against the desk without risking self injury.-.- Fuck. Mom and dad are fighting again. I'm not sure if Bird can handle doing all those notes, even though I could have done them on my own, so the quiz better not be tomorrow. Top that all off with other crud, and you have a cranky Stephy.-.- Taking a sleeping pill tonight. Fuck the tv and studying for Spanish. I need to sleep this off.>.<
I'm as straight as a rainbow!
Ohmygawd. First GSA meeting today. So fucking awesome. X3 Mostly everyone there is bi, gay, or lesbian. And only three people are straight. Some guy, Stacy, and this other girl. Fun, fun. :3 In computers again. Fuuuuh. <-- As Bird likes to say. Online, anyway. Bell rang, time for class to start. I'll finish this at home. If I have time. I have tons of homework. @.@
...Okay. Finished my work. I'll have time to do this now.
First block: Honors English
First block. Ohmygawd. Talked about Antigone and the work and such and it was so hilarious. Even though he's strict, he is really amusing. Have an essay due tomorrow. And a paragraph. So I'll be online. But typing the essay. All I did yesterday was type in the title. XD Helplessness. Thankfully, all I have to do is check grammer and punctuation. X3 Looking at the packet he gave us. The one with all the rules and such. Here is our "units of study:"
Ancient Greece and Rome- Antigone or Oedipus, group presentation, expository essay.
The Englightenment and the French Revolution- A Tale of Two Cities; research paper with bibliography, the debate.
The Romanitc Period- Poetry, individual presentation, Wuthering Heights, literary analysis essay.
WWI and WWII- Julius Caesaranalysis essay and individual presentations.
Along with other stuff. So, yeah. Have work to do once I get home.
Block two: Spanish 1
Eh, I think I might end up staying there. Don't know. I got a text book, just in case I did. Even though we're going to have many presentations. Oh well. I have Stacy to help me. Somewhat. Have a presentation next Friday. I'll start working on it tomorrow. When I have time. It's a group project, so I can't leave 'em alone. Sadly.
Lunch:
Basically the GSA meeting. X3
Block three:
Went over homework. Watched a movie on Japan. Quiz tomorrow. Journal entries due on Monday. That was about it.@.@
Block four:
Boring, really. Finished work early and came online. XD Basically it. Test tomorrow, I think. Along with history and Spanish tests too.@.@ Ay...
Well, bell is about to ring. Adios, mis queridos. <3
I got a monkey from Stacy! :3
So freakin' cute. Gonna take a picture of it soon. And put it on my page. She got it from Vegas. I carried it around with me all day during school. XD
English! Seems slightly better now. But it's still too early to tell. Mr. Vorwald is kind of funny. Strict, but funny. Ended up having to do an essay in twenty five minutes or less on Siligman's expirement and dropout rates in LAUSD. A comparison, really. I finished it in twenty minutes. ON my last essay, which I only had twenty minutes to write while the class had much longer, I got a 23 out of 25 on it. ^-^ Not bad. Other than that, we have to type our finished essays and turn them in on Friday.
Spanish...oh dear god, I still want to leave. We have a presentation due next Friday and I don't know what to do. Oh, crud. I have homework for that class too. Jesus Christ.-.- I really just want to leave already. I already asked my dad that if I don't get called in to change my classes, that if he could request it.-.-
Lunch time. Youth Action meeting. <3
Social on the 20th at two o'clock. So I'll be gone that day. Most likely. <3 GSA meeting tomorrow. ^.^
Third. Was history. Not much went on. Reviewed and Stacy left early for a soccer game.
Fourth block was a dull. Have homework but I only need two more questions. And it's due on Friday. Need to remember to get a floppy disk. Crud. Ah well. Was online for a while. Bored, though. Couldn't do much on a school comp.
Well, I'm pretty exhausted right now. So I'm off. Adios. <3
In fourth block right now. XD Which is computers, by the way. Supposed to be doing work, but eh. I'm half way done. ^.^ I'll write more once I get home. Time for music. XD
*giggles*I saw the Jungle Book last night. And now I have A Whole New World from Aladdin stuck in my head. XD So, I ended up putting that song on my Myspace page. :3 I don't think they had the Peabo Bryson one, so I had to put the one from the movie. Either way, I still love it. >> <<
Sing it with me, Kisa! X3 *giggles*
...Dude. I think I'm going to have a hear attack. o.o Helen and Fredirico are boyfriend and girlfriend!O.O Dude, the things I missed from not attending WHS anymore.>.< *sighs*Ah well. I'll ask her about that later.>> <<
Anyways, don't feel like making too long of an entry. So, yeah. Today was so-so. Got bothered by a bunch of idiot bastards and the like. Oh well. It happens.XD
Had a book club meeting today. Fun, fun. Yummy donut bites. :3 And tea. Which I didn't have. Because I don't drink tea. I live off of juice and water and the occasional soda. o.o Have four books to read. Wonder how I'll manage that. XD Ah well. Tired now, so I'm off. Adios mis queridos. <3
Good day today. Very good day. :3
Reminders:
-First half of Ch. 16 done by Thursday for AP World History.
-Other half done by Monday.
-Biology project due on Thursday.
-Return geometry textbook tomorrow.
-Biology texbook due on Thursday.
First Block:
Quiz! Again. Dude, I swear. My notes are lacking so much lately, even though I spend so much time on them. I'm missing more than ONE question on each of the quizzes. Jesus Christ. And, I need to start looking for my old assignments for that class, too. Hopefully they're all in my old binder. If not, I lose points. Even though Ms. Ortiz said it wouldn't affect my grade too much, I don't want to risk it. But I think I probably am, either way.-.- Ah well. Other than that, I have notes to work on by Thursday.
Second block:
Gym. Yay. Fun.
*coughs*Ah well. Good thing that came out from this class? It ends on Friday, for good, and today was the last day to change into our gym clothes. Thank god.>> <<
Lunch:
Didn't eat today. Didn't have much money with me and I forgot my ticket. But, eh. I had one of Stacy's french fries and my gatorade. XD
Third Block:
Had a bit of a mood swing. Probably from reading The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold during class. It's very depressing and tragic. Then again, that's just me. And it was the 70's.*blinks and coughs*Anyways
Fourth Block:
Had an emo moment. XD
Yet that doesn't mean I agree with Matt, either.-.-
Book made me moody and I didn't really feel like talking with anyone. I talked, but not much. I just idly asked Isela about Live Freaky, Die Freaky. Saw the trailer. Very...twisted
So! Anna, girl from geometry, sent me a picture of Johnny Depp on Myspace. XD I'd do that hawt piece of man. If I was older. Single. And older.>> << Well, no not really. Autograph is all I need. *blinks*...I have no idea where this is going. So I'll just stop. Need to start on notes. XD Adios, mis queridos! <3
Dear Diary,
Death.
That word constantly haunts me. Or does it? Is it an innocent facination? Or a twisted lust?
Whatever it may be, thoughts of it embrace me each and every night. Not in the urge to do anything rash, something more sublime than that. A curiousity that will never cease to intrigue me.
A lucious fear, mayhap?
Whatever the cause, it's there in my mind. Amongst other things.
While we're home, "safe" to some extent, people are dying. Bringing in life. Destroying our planet. Being raped of innocence. Abused. Humilated. And so many other things. I don't know why I think of things such as that, but I just do. Does it bring depression? Somewhat. But it's more of a serious bit of plotting in my mind. Thinking of ways I want to help. Whenever I can.
This is the killing zone. It's not a war zone. It's more different than that. We're all forsaken. We need salvation. We need a chance. We need love. We need mercy. We need so many things.
Our grief and confusion is nothing but a moan in the wind. The soil of this planet is soaked with blood. Our tears of happiness wash it away. But what do our tears of sorrow bring? Does a smile bring light? If so, what does a scowl bring? A grimace? A smirk? A look of disgust?
Sing for me, darling. My doll. My delicious beauty. Tell me what you feel. Is it all real?
Why do I always look so serious?
It may have to do with my constant thinking. Whether random or not, thoughts are always buzzing in my head. An endless abyss of thoughts. Dreams. Hopes. Fears. Facinations.
I know I'm not one to defend myself when put down. I know I'm stubborn, but I allows things to slip from my grasp. Though I admit, there have been few times where I have tried to keep a hold of it. But, most of the time, I let it go. No matter how much it hurts. Just let it go.
My mind is a revolution.
No matter how childish,
Depressed,
Stubborn,
Idiotic,
and Odd I may seem.
Let's fight the injustice! Poetic expression is my weapon. I'll train myself to make my words cut through steel. Through the hardest of objects. I'll make myself cold to my rivals, enemies, and those who hate me. But the warmth people say I have, will always be here. Even if you've ended up hurting me, I'll always be here.
Focus.
Focus on the pain. Happiness. Fear. Ambitions. Hopes. Dreams. Losses. Gains. Abuse. Affection.
"I'm so sick and tired of love songs. So sad and slow. So sick of all the tears, so why can't I turn off the radio?"
I love that line. It's a nice song. Ah, the ups and downs of love. Young and old, it always occurs. Intertwined with lust, you'll never be able to figure out if it's love or not. But, alas, it happens.
What was the reason for all of this? Well, this is what goes on in my mind. Every night. Every day. All the time. But it isn't even half of it. A lovely preview, no? Yet, this was also the beginning of a story that began to evolve in my mind. But it all ended up as a bit of a "rant" while I was laying on my bed in the middle of the night. Or morning. <3
XD So much fun. I remember nearly all of these.>> <<
Before the MySpace and Xanga frenzy.
Before the Internet and text messaging.
Before Sidekicks, I-Pods, and MP3players.
Before MIKE JONES.
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE COOL.
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Farther back.
When we played Tag for OUR enjoyment.
Cartoon tag was fun.
...Freeze tag.
Catching fireflys.
Get Over Here!!!! Ment something.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up and 7 Up.
Playing Kickball and Dodgeball until your street light came on.
Hopskotch was always on the sidewalks.
You hurt yourself on Slip-n-Slides but continued to go again.
...You have made your own Slip-n-Slide out of plastic and a hose.
You wanted, or made a tree house.
Mother May I?
Red Rover.
Four Square.
Hula Hoops.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps. <3
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Playing Street Hockey with the neighborhood friends.
Falling off your school chair for leaining back on it's hind legs. (almost.)
Running through the sprinklers.
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
Wait.
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats. <3
The original Power Rangers <3
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
CAMP ANAWANA
Are You Afraid of the Dark? <3
The original cast members of All That.
Kenan & Kel.
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
Not finished yet.
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice. <3
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when:
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-mi
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at Magic Elm was like winning the lottery.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties. <3
Nobody was prettier than Mom.
Nobody was cooler or stronger than Dad.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever. XD
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.
When the biggest dare in truth or dare was ding dong ditch
If you can remember most or all of these
then you have lived in the 90's!
"Come and give me what news you have," Ulasim ordered, beckoning."You may settle romantic matters later. The regents have decieded they no longer need a Rittevon male to rule." He shooed the others away from the door and led Nawat across the hall. Nawat closed the door. Aly scowled at it, remembering it should have been locked. "This is the problem with training people to open locks," she complained as she dressed. "They can turn what you taught them against you." As she picked up her darking necklace, Trick and Secret poked out their heads. "Human lovemaking looks silly," Secret told Aly.
"Darking way more sensible," added Trick.
Aly settled them around her neck. "Our way is more fun," she replied absently, her mind on the rebellion.
Page 347, chapter seventeen; Mourning.
Page 337, chapter sixteen; Dunevon's Birthday.
C'mon and show them your love, rip out the wings of a butterfly...
Dude. I love that song. <3 Lesse how long it'll take until I play it over so much that I absolutely HATE it.
Nananana...batman!
Yes, I did forget my Prozac. Shut up.
Mom is apparently almost losing it.
She tried to run my dad over.
I actually yelled at her.
And now she took off.
Heh, and better yet, I'm not crying.
Or anything of the sort.
I just have a headache.
Either I'm trying to be strong...
Or I just don't give a fuck.
One or the other.
Or maybe something else. </3
Already making plans with Stacy.
We are so going to make sure this year pwns. <3
First Block:
Lets see. We took the quiz. First one, anyway. And I got an A. Twenty-nine out of thirty. Having another one tomorrow. Though I don't think I did decent enough notes for that one. Oh well. I'll see what happens. Other than that, nothing interesting happened, really.
Second Block:
Again, nothing much happened. Adriana didn't get enough sleep so she was acting emo. And we just had to play soccer. But before that, we had to jog two laps, so Adriana and I ended up talking about what we want to do in the next few years. And that was basically it.
Lunch:
Youth Action meeting today. Mucho fun. We have new members! Even better. ^.^ We're having a social gathering next Friday. Ice Skating! Whee! Which means me and Stacy, if we go, get to sit down and watch people fall down. Unless we decied to get up and try and talk to people from the two other high schools that are also in the Youth Action club. Well, we'll see. Other than talking about the Resistance Fest(concert) and the documentary they're making, that was about it.
Third Block:
My god forsaken math skills have scorned me once again. Stupid test. Now I might have to take it over again if I want my grade to go back to an A, instead of a B-. >.< Crud. Well, other than that. Class was pretty dull. As usual. >> <<
Fourth Block:
Had a test! And I was the first one done. Dude, it was so freakin' simple.XD Atleast I hope it was.O.O *shakes head*>> << I was the first one done, as stated above. Everyone was looking at me oddly. Fun, fun. Other than the test, Mr. Lowinger told us about the new rules the school is going to enforce starting tomorrow. None of them apply to me, really. I'm not part of a gang. I'm never tardy. I don't pick fights with people. And I don't dress like a whore. ^-^ So it's all good. For me, anyway. <3
So! Other than that, me and Stacy are going to see if I can go to her house this Friday. And if we can go ice skating next Friday. AND we're going to pretend we're lesbians on my birthday. Well, the day we go to Six Flags. We're gonna hold hands and such. XD Can't wait.>> << So other than that, and getting accidently "groped" during gym, nothing much happened. o.o So, adios mis queridos. <3
Life is so lame.
I swear. I think we're all just a bunch of melodramatic nimrods. I honestly think I get over my random mood-swings knowing that other people have it worse than...us.
*blinks*Dude, what the fuck is wrong with me?
...Using the word lame and nimrods? The fuck? Probably Adriana's fault. Dunno. And why did I almost get sucked into a rant when I'm in a good mood? Ah, the wonders of Stephy's demented mind.
Anyways, stayed after school today. Book Club meeting. It was pretty awesome. Met someone there who seems cool. Her name is Paula...and she ADORES Aretemis Fowl. We hit it off well. <3
So! onto Stephy's day, biatches. <3
Matthew's birthday today.
He is offically three years old.XD
...No idea if we're going anywhere today.
And if we do, I have no idea where.
So, yeah.
Happy birthday Matthew! XD <3
Won't be on tomorrow. Staying after school to watch Stacy's soccer game and then going to her house until late at night. <3
First Block:
We got to do our presentation! And once again, I screwed up. Well, my voice did anyways. Squeaky and shaky. And I think I was blushing too. No idea, seeing as I kept glancing at everyone else in my group.XD I think we did decently. Not that great, but not bad. Pretty good, I suppose. Test is tomorrow. Ms. Ortiz changed it, seeing as she knew we were gonna take the whole class period with our presentations. So, yeah. That was basically all of first block. Presentations and a reminder of notes.
Second Block:
No more soccer drills! We actually got to play soccer. Well, everyone else did. I was still sick and in pain. I blocked a goal once, though. Fear me! XD Though I ended up kicking Adriana at the same time. Oh well. Payback's a bitch. >> << <3
Lunch:
Again, nothing interesting. Gatorade machine thingy is still acting like a bitch. Lunch was dull. And me and Stacy talked. Oh yes. The most interesting time of day. XD
Third Block:
Reviewed trig. Have a test tomorrow. And Stacy now has an enemy in class! The same girl that I hate, too. ^.^ Keeping it short, it almost turned into a cat fight. The even worse thing about it, Stacy sits next to that idiot ghetto trash of a human being, too. But I think I cheered her up. The typical, "We know where people like her will be in a few years" talk. We LOVE those. :3
Fourth Block:
No more movies! ;-; More notes, though. And the test is now next Wednesday, instead of Tuesday. But because I got called out of class, I missed some of the notes. Bad enough that I lost my notebook with the other notes, too. Gotta ask the teacher if he can let me copy them all over.-.- *blinks*Well, I got called out of class to go talk to my counselor lady about my classes for next semester. And this is what I got:
AP Geography (second part of AP World History)
Computers (required course)
Spanish for Spanish Speakers Level One. (...Oooh, it goes by levels! n00b. XD)
Honors English.
Yup, my new classes. No idea which blocks I'll get them though. Ah well. Atleast I know what they are. Plus I'm going to summer school this year. To make up the second semester of Algebra, and to take enrichment courses. <3
...And that was my day. Have to work on homework, and then I'm off to rent some videos to take with me tomorrow when I go to Stacy's house. So, adios mis queridos. <3