In fourth block again. I don't even want to go home today. Which is why I'm walking home. If I am on, I'll be working on homework. Tons of it, if I'm not too tired. School was pretty good. Which is why I don't want to go home to more crud like yesterday.-.- Most of which I didn't do anything. But that is nor here or there...And I'm starting to sound like Ms. Ortiz with that. XD

Well, onto my day! :3

Block one:
Ohmygawd. Today it was so damn hilarious. XD We were going over setence structures and whatnot, and we ended up working on a game using what we had learned the day before. The first sentense is the beginning of a "story." Which is what we originally started with. The first and last sentences are our own. Everything in between is written by the people on our role. And here's what came from mine:

Simple: She had a strange dream.
Compound: She had a strange dream, and it was about a crazy, rolling dinosaur.
Complex: Although she was asleep, she thought the crazy dinosaur was going to eat her.
Compound/Complex: Although she ran from the dinosaur, he still caught up to her and he held her in his hand.
Simple: The dinosaur loved her.
Compound: The dinosaur loved her, but the girl was in love with a stripper.
Complex: She told this to the dinosaur, and then realized she was having a strange dream.

...I swear. Mr. Vorwald is afraid of us now. He finally knows what the hell is going on through our minds. XD But we're too adorable for him to hate or fear us. *bats her eyelashes innocently*...well, maybe not adorable. More like a bunch of...honors/AP students with twisted minds.

Block two:
Spanish...ay. I got a high score on Wednesday's test. More or less, anyway. If it wasn't for me wanting to show that I could pass it, I would have pretended I was stupid.-.- With Spanish, anyway.>> << Had another test today.XD Eh, think I failed it. Or got something lower than a B.-.- Crud. And I'm not allowed to change classes.;-; *sobs*I already got a notice. It was a big, overweight, bold, NO. *ripped up the paper*>> << I wasn't the only one that did that, though. XD

Lunch:
Not much happened. Had to pay for my lunch, which is another reason as to why I'm walking home.^.^;;; But! Stacy showed me this...X3

I will find you. I will take you to bed and have my way with you. You will moan and groan and beg me to stop. I'll exhaust you and leave you weak for days.
          Sincerely,
             The Flu.

I swear, it sounded so wrong until she said the end of it. XD But, yeah, only thing that happened at lunch.>> <<

Block three:
We didn't have a quiz!
And Bird still doesn't want me to stress over the notes. So she's basically going to finish them up. I'll offer to help again today. If I can. But, I do have other things to do for this class; a DBQ and three time traveler journal entries. Plus a quiz on Monday. Other than that, Stacy left early for a soccer game and I read for the rest of the period...and talked with Diane. Basically her telling me about her crazy, Texan, AP Spanish teacher who tends to yell and storm out of the room.XD But, yeah.>> <<

Block four:
Ay, dios mio...help me.;-;
I'm stuck in class with some fucktard trying to hit up on the girl next to him. And the ghetto dimwit is sitting next to me.>.< GAWD! *sulks*Other than that, I finished my work yesterday. And quickly wrote a random paragraph that's due Monday, as well. Which means I can either be here or reading. So I'm doing both. ^-^

Eh, I'm off. Have homework for Spanish, English, and History. I finished homework for computers, so I don't have to worry about that. Hopefully I get everything done this weekend. Most of all the work I have revolves around essays. -.- Oh well. Adios, mis queridos. Grumpy old man. And my non-lesbian lover. <3

Wish I could bang my head against the desk without risking self injury.-.- Fuck. Mom and dad are fighting again. I'm not sure if Bird can handle doing all those notes, even though I could have done them on my own, so the quiz better not be tomorrow. Top that all off with other crud, and you have a cranky Stephy.-.- Taking a sleeping pill tonight. Fuck the tv and studying for Spanish. I need to sleep this off.>.<

I'm as straight as a rainbow!
Ohmygawd. First GSA meeting today. So fucking awesome. X3 Mostly everyone there is bi, gay, or lesbian. And only three people are straight. Some guy, Stacy, and this other girl. Fun, fun. :3 In computers again. Fuuuuh. <-- As Bird likes to say. Online, anyway. Bell rang, time for class to start. I'll finish this at home. If I have time. I have tons of homework. @.@

...Okay. Finished my work. I'll have time to do this now.

First block: Honors English
First block. Ohmygawd. Talked about Antigone and the work and such and it was so hilarious. Even though he's strict, he is really amusing. Have an essay due tomorrow. And a paragraph. So I'll be online. But typing the essay. All I did yesterday was type in the title. XD Helplessness. Thankfully, all I have to do is check grammer and punctuation. X3 Looking at the packet he gave us. The one with all the rules and such. Here is our "units of study:"

Ancient Greece and Rome- Antigone or Oedipus, group presentation, expository essay.
The Englightenment and the French Revolution- A Tale of Two Cities; research paper with bibliography, the debate.
The Romanitc Period- Poetry, individual presentation, Wuthering Heights, literary analysis essay.
WWI and WWII- Julius Caesaranalysis essay and individual presentations.

Along with other stuff. So, yeah. Have work to do once I get home.

Block two: Spanish 1
Eh, I think I might end up staying there. Don't know. I got a text book, just in case I did. Even though we're going to have many presentations. Oh well. I have Stacy to help me. Somewhat. Have a presentation next Friday. I'll start working on it tomorrow. When I have time. It's a group project, so I can't leave 'em alone. Sadly.

Lunch:
Basically the GSA meeting. X3

Block three:
Went over homework. Watched a movie on Japan. Quiz tomorrow. Journal entries due on Monday. That was about it.@.@

Block four:
Boring, really. Finished work early and came online. XD Basically it. Test tomorrow, I think. Along with history and Spanish tests too.@.@ Ay...

Well, bell is about to ring. Adios, mis queridos. <3

I got a monkey from Stacy! :3
So freakin' cute. Gonna take a picture of it soon. And put it on my page. She got it from Vegas. I carried it around with me all day during school. XD


English! Seems slightly better now. But it's still too early to tell. Mr. Vorwald is kind of funny. Strict, but funny. Ended up having to do an essay in twenty five minutes or less on Siligman's expirement and dropout rates in LAUSD. A comparison, really. I finished it in twenty minutes. ON my last essay, which I only had twenty minutes to write while the class had much longer, I got a 23 out of 25 on it. ^-^ Not bad. Other than that, we have to type our finished essays and turn them in on Friday.

Spanish...oh dear god, I still want to leave. We have a presentation due next Friday and I don't know what to do. Oh, crud. I have homework for that class too. Jesus Christ.-.- I really just want to leave already. I already asked my dad that if I don't get called in to change my classes, that if he could request it.-.-

Lunch time. Youth Action meeting. <3
Social on the 20th at two o'clock. So I'll be gone that day. Most likely. <3 GSA meeting tomorrow. ^.^

Third. Was history. Not much went on. Reviewed and Stacy left early for a soccer game.

Fourth block was a dull. Have homework but I only need two more questions. And it's due on Friday. Need to remember to get a floppy disk. Crud. Ah well. Was online for a while. Bored, though. Couldn't do much on a school comp.

Well, I'm pretty exhausted right now. So I'm off. Adios. <3

In fourth block right now. XD Which is computers, by the way. Supposed to be doing work, but eh. I'm half way done. ^.^ I'll write more once I get home. Time for music. XD

*giggles*I saw the Jungle Book last night. And now I have A Whole New World from Aladdin stuck in my head. XD So, I ended up putting that song on my Myspace page. :3 I don't think they had the Peabo Bryson one, so I had to put the one from the movie. Either way, I still love it. >> <<

Sing it with me, Kisa! X3 *giggles*

...Dude. I think I'm going to have a hear attack. o.o Helen and Fredirico are boyfriend and girlfriend!O.O Dude, the things I missed from not attending WHS anymore.>.< *sighs*Ah well. I'll ask her about that later.>> <<

Anyways, don't feel like making too long of an entry. So, yeah. Today was so-so. Got bothered by a bunch of idiot bastards and the like. Oh well. It happens.XD

Had a book club meeting today. Fun, fun. Yummy donut bites. :3 And tea. Which I didn't have. Because I don't drink tea. I live off of juice and water and the occasional soda. o.o Have four books to read. Wonder how I'll manage that. XD Ah well. Tired now, so I'm off. Adios mis queridos. <3

Good day today. Very good day. :3

Reminders:
-First half of Ch. 16 done by Thursday for AP World History.
-Other half done by Monday.
-Biology project due on Thursday.
-Return geometry textbook tomorrow.
-Biology texbook due on Thursday.

First Block:
Quiz! Again. Dude, I swear. My notes are lacking so much lately, even though I spend so much time on them. I'm missing more than ONE question on each of the quizzes. Jesus Christ. And, I need to start looking for my old assignments for that class, too. Hopefully they're all in my old binder. If not, I lose points. Even though Ms. Ortiz said it wouldn't affect my grade too much, I don't want to risk it. But I think I probably am, either way.-.- Ah well. Other than that, I have notes to work on by Thursday.

Second block:
Gym. Yay. Fun.
*coughs*Ah well. Good thing that came out from this class? It ends on Friday, for good, and today was the last day to change into our gym clothes. Thank god.>> <<

Lunch:
Didn't eat today. Didn't have much money with me and I forgot my ticket. But, eh. I had one of Stacy's french fries and my gatorade. XD

Third Block:
Had a bit of a mood swing. Probably from reading The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold during class. It's very depressing and tragic. Then again, that's just me. And it was the 70's.*blinks and coughs*Anyways. I was moody. Near the end of the class, and we have projects to work on this week too. How fun.-.-

Fourth Block:
Had an emo moment. XD
Yet that doesn't mean I agree with Matt, either.-.-
Book made me moody and I didn't really feel like talking with anyone. I talked, but not much. I just idly asked Isela about Live Freaky, Die Freaky. Saw the trailer. Very...twisted. I still want to see it.XD Rawr, Billie Joe and Davey.>> << Hawt love slaves.*coughs and blinks*...I like candy. o.o

So! Anna, girl from geometry, sent me a picture of Johnny Depp on Myspace. XD I'd do that hawt piece of man. If I was older. Single. And older.>> << Well, no not really. Autograph is all I need. *blinks*...I have no idea where this is going. So I'll just stop. Need to start on notes. XD Adios, mis queridos! <3

Dear Diary,

Death.

That word constantly haunts me. Or does it? Is it an innocent facination? Or a twisted lust?

Whatever it may be, thoughts of it embrace me each and every night. Not in the urge to do anything rash, something more sublime than that. A curiousity that will never cease to intrigue me.

A lucious fear, mayhap?

Whatever the cause, it's there in my mind. Amongst other things.

While we're home, "safe" to some extent, people are dying. Bringing in life. Destroying our planet. Being raped of innocence. Abused. Humilated. And so many other things. I don't know why I think of things such as that, but I just do. Does it bring depression? Somewhat. But it's more of a serious bit of plotting in my mind. Thinking of ways I want to help. Whenever I can.

This is the killing zone. It's not a war zone. It's more different than that. We're all forsaken. We need salvation. We need a chance. We need love. We need mercy. We need so many things.

Our grief and confusion is nothing but a moan in the wind. The soil of this planet is soaked with blood. Our tears of happiness wash it away. But what do our tears of sorrow bring? Does a smile bring light? If so, what does a scowl bring? A grimace? A smirk? A look of disgust?

Sing for me, darling. My doll. My delicious beauty. Tell me what you feel. Is it all real?

Why do I always look so serious?

It may have to do with my constant thinking. Whether random or not, thoughts are always buzzing in my head. An endless abyss of thoughts. Dreams. Hopes. Fears. Facinations.

I know I'm not one to defend myself when put down. I know I'm stubborn, but I allows things to slip from my grasp. Though I admit, there have been few times where I have tried to keep a hold of it. But, most of the time, I let it go. No matter how much it hurts. Just let it go.

My mind is a revolution.
No matter how childish,
Depressed,
Stubborn,
Idiotic,
and Odd I may seem.

Let's fight the injustice! Poetic expression is my weapon. I'll train myself to make my words cut through steel. Through the hardest of objects. I'll make myself cold to my rivals, enemies, and those who hate me. But the warmth people say I have, will always be here. Even if you've ended up hurting me, I'll always be here.

Focus.
Focus on the pain. Happiness. Fear. Ambitions. Hopes. Dreams. Losses. Gains. Abuse. Affection.

"I'm so sick and tired of love songs. So sad and slow. So sick of all the tears, so why can't I turn off the radio?"

I love that line. It's a nice song. Ah, the ups and downs of love. Young and old, it always occurs. Intertwined with lust, you'll never be able to figure out if it's love or not. But, alas, it happens.

What was the reason for all of this? Well, this is what goes on in my mind. Every night. Every day. All the time. But it isn't even half of it. A lovely preview, no? Yet, this was also the beginning of a story that began to evolve in my mind. But it all ended up as a bit of a "rant" while I was laying on my bed in the middle of the night. Or morning. <3

XD So much fun. I remember nearly all of these.>> <<

Before the MySpace and Xanga frenzy.


Before the Internet and text messaging.


Before Sidekicks, I-Pods, and MP3players.


Before MIKE JONES.


Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.


Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.


WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE COOL.


When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.


When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.


When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.


When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.


When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.


When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Farther back.

Or what about:

Not finished yet.

Go back to the time when:

"Come and give me what news you have," Ulasim ordered, beckoning."You may settle romantic matters later. The regents have decieded they no longer need a Rittevon male to rule." He shooed the others away from the door and led Nawat across the hall. Nawat closed the door. Aly scowled at it, remembering it should have been locked. "This is the problem with training people to open locks," she complained as she dressed. "They can turn what you taught them against you." As she picked up her darking necklace, Trick and Secret poked out their heads. "Human lovemaking looks silly," Secret told Aly.
        "Darking way more sensible," added Trick.
        Aly settled them around her neck. "Our way is more fun," she replied absently, her mind on the rebellion.

Page 347, chapter seventeen; Mourning.

Page 337, chapter sixteen; Dunevon's Birthday.

C'mon and show them your love, rip out the wings of a butterfly...

Dude. I love that song. <3 Lesse how long it'll take until I play it over so much that I absolutely HATE it.

Nananana...batman!

Yes, I did forget my Prozac. Shut up.

Mom is apparently almost losing it.
She tried to run my dad over.
I actually yelled at her.
And now she took off.
Heh, and better yet, I'm not crying.
Or anything of the sort.
I just have a headache.
Either I'm trying to be strong...
Or I just don't give a fuck.
One or the other.
Or maybe something else. </3

Already making plans with Stacy.

We are so going to make sure this year pwns. <3

First Block:
Lets see. We took the quiz. First one, anyway. And I got an A. Twenty-nine out of thirty. Having another one tomorrow. Though I don't think I did decent enough notes for that one. Oh well. I'll see what happens. Other than that, nothing interesting happened, really.

Second Block:
Again, nothing much happened. Adriana didn't get enough sleep so she was acting emo. And we just had to play soccer. But before that, we had to jog two laps, so Adriana and I ended up talking about what we want to do in the next few years. And that was basically it.

Lunch:
Youth Action meeting today. Mucho fun. We have new members! Even better. ^.^ We're having a social gathering next Friday. Ice Skating! Whee! Which means me and Stacy, if we go, get to sit down and watch people fall down. Unless we decied to get up and try and talk to people from the two other high schools that are also in the Youth Action club. Well, we'll see. Other than talking about the Resistance Fest(concert) and the documentary they're making, that was about it.

Third Block:
My god forsaken math skills have scorned me once again. Stupid test. Now I might have to take it over again if I want my grade to go back to an A, instead of a B-. >.< Crud. Well, other than that. Class was pretty dull. As usual. >> <<

Fourth Block:
Had a test! And I was the first one done. Dude, it was so freakin' simple.XD Atleast I hope it was.O.O *shakes head*>> << I was the first one done, as stated above. Everyone was looking at me oddly. Fun, fun. Other than the test, Mr. Lowinger told us about the new rules the school is going to enforce starting tomorrow. None of them apply to me, really. I'm not part of a gang. I'm never tardy. I don't pick fights with people. And I don't dress like a whore. ^-^ So it's all good. For me, anyway. <3

So! Other than that, me and Stacy are going to see if I can go to her house this Friday. And if we can go ice skating next Friday. AND we're going to pretend we're lesbians on my birthday. Well, the day we go to Six Flags. We're gonna hold hands and such. XD Can't wait.>> << So other than that, and getting accidently "groped" during gym, nothing much happened. o.o So, adios mis queridos. <3

Life is so lame.

I swear. I think we're all just a bunch of melodramatic nimrods. I honestly think I get over my random mood-swings knowing that other people have it worse than...us.

*blinks*Dude, what the fuck is wrong with me?

...Using the word lame and nimrods? The fuck? Probably Adriana's fault. Dunno. And why did I almost get sucked into a rant when I'm in a good mood? Ah, the wonders of Stephy's demented mind.

Anyways, stayed after school today. Book Club meeting. It was pretty awesome. Met someone there who seems cool. Her name is Paula...and she ADORES Aretemis Fowl. We hit it off well. <3

So! onto Stephy's day, biatches. <3

Matthew's birthday today.
He is offically three years old.XD
...No idea if we're going anywhere today.
And if we do, I have no idea where.
So, yeah.
Happy birthday Matthew! XD <3