Look what Chris, my star, filled out for me. ;-;


From: Stephy
Date: Mar 28, 2006 9:22 PM

Dear Stephy.

I have always wanted to hug you.

you have a cute smile =)

You make me want to become straight or bi.

You should feel good because of that.

Someday I will take a picture with you? hopefully!!

You + me= Stephris or Chrisphy or Youme

If I saw you now I'd hug you.

I would build a theme park called stephyland just for you.

I would get your name tattooed on my ankle, idky.

If I could sing you any song it would be um... that one song from gravy train.. lol!

We could have a gay parade under the stars.

My love for you is like that of a gay man's love for a bisexual woman. lol idk..

Love,
Christophernopolis aka Chrisphy

(P.S. you make me wanna la la.)

<sup>Still on lockdown at school. But they made us go to three out of four of our classes, which means I'm currently in fourth block (computers). The only classes I went to were first, third, and fourth. Honors English, AP World History, and computers, of course.

I'm not even sure if there was another walkout today. Why even bother? They're currently going to vote and alter the law today, aren't they? What's the use in this whole walkout buisness? And the waving of Latin flags? It's stupid really. If you want your rights here, at least wave the American flag with the flag of your nationality. I can't help by laugh. Yet get frustrated soon afterwards.

I have to finish my four page book report for Spanish today. Just in case we're not on lockdown again tomorrow. I also have to read six chapters for my Honors English class, and review all over again for history. By tomorrow. Fun, fun. I also have alot of things to work on for computers. Thanks to the lockdown, I didn't have time to even work on them on Friday. And I forgot my floppy and the word program won't open, either. So I can't even do anything for this class.

Well, I want to go to Europe next year with Stacy...and other people from the school. Ah well. We doubt we'll have time to do much after highschool, so we need to get it over with.

And Dan is gonna be out of the country for two weeks. I'm gonna miss him.*sobs*

PMSing right now. In a class full of ignorant fucks. I'm gonna go. Adios. <3</sup>

...Need to fix this up. Badly.


The dog wears the face of a man again
He's back to his beastly actions
He's on the prowl for hearts to take
And feed upon emotions
The dog wears the face of affection
Even though he's filled with hate
His heart is an abyss of nothingness
With eyes that not one can relate
The dog wears the face of love
Which is nothing he has ever felt
All he knows is how to handle
The hearts that he has dealth
The dog wears a broken heart
Taken from his latest doll
He broke her heart
Grounded it out
And is on the prowl again.

Still in an emo mood, but whatever.
So, an update of today.

^{Got stuck in first block for SEVEN FUCKING HOURS.
Thanks to another idiot walk out.
The march was so much better.
The walkout was nothing but shit.
Thanks, idiots.
We didn't get lunch until two o'clock...
And school ends at 2:53pm.
What the hell?
It was so fucking frustrating staying in an over crowded, stuffy, room.
...I was stuck in my Honors English class for SEVEN HOURS.
And we had two fucking tests! One of which I fucked up on with my bad memory.
It was horrible.
And then I got sick and even more emo during the second hour.
If there is another fucking walkout tomorrow, I'm bringing lunch.
And a book to read, goddamnit.
One more thing, Dan is uber sweet. <3
And I'm thinking of going to Europe next year.
Bai.}

Moving on from the last diary entry. >>;;;
Dad picked me up from school. Dear god. There was a long line of parents waiting to get their kids out of school. I think Stacy ended up staying in her class. Need to call her in a bit and check up on her.@.@

Dude, they took like almost two hours to bring us food. And I did not want to eat pizza.>.< Or drink milk. MEH! I had some home made caldo de pollo (chicken soup) once I got home. Nummeh.

My god. But the whole think started at around 9:40am. During second block. God. It was amusing for only the first hour. After that, we all got pretty twitchy and stuff. God knows how long they're going to keep everyone else in there.

ANYWAYS! Don't know if I'll be on much today. I do know that I won't be on tomorrow. Going to Disney's California Adventure. XD Getting Shelby a post card. *nods*>> << So, yeah. I'm still pretty sick, so I'm gonna go rest for a bit before starting homework. Adios. <3

One of my favorite songs at the moment.

There was a walkout today at school.
About what? The new Immigration laws that they are trying to pass.
Ohmygawd. Could it have been less chaotic?
Jesus Christ. I noticed that most of the people that walked out,
All look like cholo fucks.
And I know for a fact...
That not many of the people who walked out,
Did it for the actual cause.
Knowing the types of people that were going to walk out,
I didn't do shit.
Not only that. But it needed to be more organized.
Like the march that's going on tomorrow.
Unlike today, most of the people shown on tv,
Looked the wild animals.
MONKIES!
Jesus fucking Christ.
It's all a game of ignorance.
Really wish it hadn't ruined the school day.
I didn't want to be kept for over two hours in Spanish.
Can you still I'm pissed off?
Even though I'm home?
Fucking Christ.
I'm not saying it wasn't for a good cause...
But c'mon!
Do we truely know if they will pass the law?
And if they do, do you know how badly that will effect our economy?
American ain't shit without the "illegal aliens."
Even though the people passing this law,
Are illegal too.
Only the Native Americans are not considered immigrants.
Everyone else is.
Stupid fuck tards.

So, yeah. Dan is my new cuddle buddy/"significant other" as he likes to call it. I hope I don't get too attatched.

Anyways, I have five assignments for Spanish, along with three take home tests. The rest of the chapter to finish for history, by tomorrow, I believe. And I also have to read two chapters for Spanish. And then some possible family trouble. Plus, I don't know if I can stay after school to watch Bernadette. Eh, think I'll just go home.

Anyways, in fourth block right now. Which means I have work to do. And I don't know if I'll be on much today, Friday, or the rest of the weekend. So, bye.

Well, now I don't know if my parents are fighting or not, but whatever.

Finished the CAHSEE today. Thank god. It was getting on my nerves. Being packed with over eight hundred other students in the gym...god.>.< So annoying.

Have to sell chocolate for the Book Club. Already sold five. XD

And I think me and Dan are "involved" now. Not in the whole boyfriend and girlfriend thing...but something of the like. Doubt it'll last, but we'll see.

Anyways, I'm off. Feeling tired and I have homework to finish. <3

Mm, wasn't on this weekend.
Not like much went on, really. Stayed after school on Friday for my CAHSEE class and then went to my godfather's cafe with Stacy. He was there, but didn't notice us until after we paid. XD Ah well. He said to tell Darryl that he'll let us use his cafe for the Resistance Fest. Mucho awesomeness.

Afterwards me and Stacy got some Chinese food and went to my house. She stayed until around ten and we mostly ended up hanging out outside and then in my room. Which was when we called Shelby for a bit. Much fun. <3

The Saturday got uber bad. As usal. Family shit as always. And I thought I was getting over Matt. But I'm not. Now I'm getting depressed again, so I'm off. Ciao. <3

Won't be on much today. I have my CAHSEE class after school, and me and Stacy are planning on heading to my godfather's cafe, Cafe Kashmir, after school for a while. Or, at least somewhere. Then I'm going to work on stuff when I get home. Or, so I think. Anyways, onto saving some webcomics that I want to read...while in fourth block, bored out of my effing mind.

http://www.operafloozy.com/butterfly/main.html

http://www.strangecandy.net/

http://www.crystalrider.com/comics.html

http://www.strangeacademy.com/

http://aka.concealed-attraction.net/

http://nocrap.comicgen.com/

Actually having a good day today. Other than thinking about him and getting depressed, everything was okie. And, sorry Arky, about ranting about everything.*snuggles*<3

Anyways, it's messed up that I'm having a good day, but I'm exhausted. It's like, grrbitchgrr. I almost fell asleep during English. And I almost fell asleep about THREE times during Spanish. Didn't fall asleep during history, because Stacy sat next to me. And we ended up thinking of what we like in a guy. XD Very fun. She also knows that I have an obsesion with Japanese guys. Especially Jrockers. Mmm, sexy. >> <<

Uhm, for English...I found out I did well on the final draft of the essay on Psyche! Which means it may have helped my grade. For next semester, I guess. We have to work on an essay tomorrow, though. I can't remember. But I think we do. We had a small quiz today. Kind of spaced out(almost fell asleep) during it. And we finished reading the first chapter of A Tale Of Two Cities as well. We have to have up to chapter four finished by tomorrow, as far I know.

Spanish. Ugh, have to force myself to finish a whole book before the 29th. And also get done more than ten summaries and a four page essay about the book, too. God, I'm so behind. And we also have a presentation to have done before Spring Break. Even worse than the essay. I don't know ANYONE in that class. So, meh. I'm screwed. Have to read two books today. Which means no time to read the book I bought when I went to Santa Barbara. --> The Vampire Lestat. ;-;

Lunch. Nothing happened. GSA meeting was canceled. The line to return the papers for the AP Exams was too long, so me and Stacy left to Ms. Ortiz's room. And, yeah. Very boring lunch. >> << But that reminds! I got lots of compliments about my hair. :3 People liked it. Many are glad that they can finally see my face.XD Stacy's mom even said I had pretty eyes. o.o

...Anyways! History. Very boring. Thankfully Bird gave me a heads up as to what we had to do today. So me and Stacy ended up whispering too each other for most of the class period. Which leads back to the appearance of guys, but eh. XD Other than that, we didn't really do much. Essay tomorrow for this class, too. Dealing with tonights reading. So, yeah. That's what I'll be doing tonight. Reading and writing.-.-

As for computers, the first half was kind of hilarious. The guy next to me is an uber homophobe. Said how he can't be friends with some guy anymore because he came out. And then he and the two girls on his right got into an arguement about homosexuality. One of them is straight and has nothing against them, and the other one is bi. So, because I knew it wouldn't end any time sooner, I had to say something. Which was basically how straight parents can give birth to gay children. And because society says that a guy must like a girl and vice versa, some people don't always know that they're gay until something happens. So as far as he knows, he could be gay too. And that made him shut up. X3

...Eh, tired of typing. Need to start on my work. Adios. <3

Basics
1. Name: Stephanie.
2. Nicknames: Stephy
3. Birthday: August 21st.
4. Place of Birth: Somewhere.
5. Zodiac Sign: Leo.
6. Gender: Female
7. Age: 15 1/2
8. School: SEHS.
9. Occupation: Student, lesbian lover to Shelby. <3
10. Location: Southern California.
11. Screen Name: For what place?


Appearance
12. Hair Color: Dark brown with blondish highlights.
13. Hair Length: Passed my shoulders.
14. Eye Color: Dark brown.
15. Nail Appearance: Black and blue.
16. Height: 5'5
17. Do you have a crush on someone? Mmhm.
18. Do you like yourself?: Not really.
19. Braces? No.
20. Do you think you're hot? Hell no.
21. Piercing: Nothing.
23. Right or Left-handed: Right

"Firsts"
24. First Kiss: Nobody.
25. First Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: Meh, Matt.
26. First Best Friend(s): Blanca in fourth grade. But Stacy since 7th grade.
27. First Award: Can't remember.
28. First Sport You Joined: None, I think.
29. First Pet: Doggie.
30. First Vacation: Somewhere in Baja California.
31. First Concert: None.
32. First Love: Person in elementry school.
33. First real Love: My ex.

Favorites
33. Movie: Phantom of the Opera, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Cry Baby, The Corpse Bride, Disney flick, etc etc.
34. TV Show: Eh, none.
35. Color: I have no favorite.
36. Bands: Do you honestly want the ever growing list?
37. Song: ...Must I repeat myself, as well?
38. Food: Mexican and Italian.
39. Drink: Pink Lemonade and juice.
40. Candy: Anything fruit flavored.
41. Sport to Play: I don't have a death wish.
42. Sport to Watch: Soccer.
43. Brand of Clothing: I have none.
44. Stores: Whatever.
45. School Subject: AP World History.
46. Animal: Domestic and wild cats, wolves, pandas...
47. Books: I have many. <3
48. Magazines: None.



Currently
49. Eating: Nothing.
50. Drinking: Again, nothing.
52. online?: Yes, sherlock.
53. Listening to: Miyavi. <3
54. Thinking About: Shelby. Kisses! <3
55. Wanting To: Go to bed.
56. Watching: Foamy. :3

Future
58. Want Kids?: Yush.
59. Want to Get Married?: I think so, yeah.
60. Career in Mind: Still haven't decieded. Speech-Language Pathologist, perhaps? Some kind of doctor or nurse, really. Photography and writing being my hobbies of interest.



Preference
67. Cute or Sexy: Cute.
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes.
69. Hugs or Kisses: Both.
70. Short or tall: Tall, I guess.
71. Easygoing or Serious: Uhm, easy going.
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both. <3
73. Fatty or Skinny: Doesn't matter. XD
74. Sensitive or loud: Eh, a little bit of both?
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship.
76. Sweet or Caring: Both. <3
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Both for sure.


Have You Ever
78. Kissed a Stranger: No.
79. Drank Alcohol: Just a sip.
80. Smoked: No.
81. Ran Away From Home: I've thought about it.
82. Broken a Bone: Not yet.
83. Gotten an X-ray: Nope.
84. Broken Someone's Heart: I think so.
85. Broken Up With Someone: Mmhm.
86. Turned Someone Down: Uhm, yup. Hard to believe, no?
87. Cried When Someone Died: *nods*My grandpa....
88. Cried At School: Many times.



Beliefs
89. God: Maybe.
90. Miracles: Sort of.
91. Love At First Sight: Not really.
92. Ghosts: Maybe.
93. Aliens: YUSH!
94. Soul Mates: Again, maybe.
95. Heaven: Hopefully.
96. Hell: Of course.
98. Kissing on The First Date: On the cheek, I suppose.
99. Horoscopes: Depends.

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have?: Yup.

Started crying during third today.
Fucking hell. I'm just tired of everything.
I think I'm starting to hate him.
Him being whatshisfaceexperson.
But I still love him.
And god only knows why.
Then there's the shit between my parents and me,
I felt like cutting yesterday.
Dying.
Just letting go.
But I didn't.
I just cried.
And didn't sleep because of their fighting.
I screamed to her.
Not yelled.
Let out a single, piercing scream filled with sobbing. . .
This was all yesterday.
And I started thinking about whatshisface...
And the family drama.
My grandpa.
Everything.
And I had to bite down on my bottom lip to keep from sobbing,
During third that is.
Meh.
Screw this. I'm gonna read for fourth block instead.

I'm starting to be tempted.
Maybe I should have some sort of "fling" with one of them?
I mean, they say they "love" me oh so dearly...
That I'm tempted to pretend I feel the same and tear their fucking hearts apart, shred them into tiny pieces, and grind the remains into dust. Just so I can smile wickedly and know that I'm the one that caused this pain that I've already had to go through.
I don't know.
I'm probably just bitchy again.
And the whole concept is stupid and hurtful.
Meh, I need a nap.

Once again, in fourth block. And bored of my fucking mind and wondering what to do about my two dear friends who appear to have a thing for me. How amusing. Why would they even give a flying fuck about me? I'm so emo lately it's not even funny.

Likeohmygawdnobodylovesmecutcutsobsobbleedbleedonthecarpetabyssofaheartmournmournformebitchifuckinghatej00whylovemewanttodiefuckj00deathbitches. <3

Meh, sorry. Really tired right now. All I want to do is sleep, sleep, and...sleep. But, anyways! :3 Moving on.

Presentation dates got changed. So me and Stacy have to have our presentations for English tomorrow. I think we're the fourth group. Not exactly sure. Good thing I finished my poster last night. And that I managed to write notes on flash cards, too. Incase I forget anything. Mainly about the trials of Aphrodite towards Psyche. I have a bad memory, and I didn't properly learn about those until...yesterday. >>;;;

But! I got a 96 on the test on Antigone. Maybe that saved my grade. Hopefully. I think the essay on Psyche is the only really bad thing I've done so far. But, I think I might get a second chance on it. Which means I'll be busy not only today, but tomorrow until. And I probably don't even want to get online on Friday, either. So I might call Kisa or one of my beloved hopefuls. In other words, the guys who are madly infatuated with me. *makes gagging noises*Maybe calling them and being all nice is a bad way to go.*twitches*Oh well. I have nothing better to do but to flirt with people and flirt with my inner emoness that wants to break free and DANCE! XD

...*coughs*Spanish! Nothing interesting to say. Other than the fact that I have an A! WOOOOOO! PARTY! XD And I started on Kisa's letter. :3

Lunch! Uhm, Youth Action Meeting. Found out I'm not going to go to the Anti-War Rally on the 18th.*sobs*I wanted to go. But! I might go mini-golfing. X3 Yay! Can't wait. We're going to Gulf 'N' Stuff...ies.>> << Hopefully I can go. They told us it's at five in the afternoon. So maybe I can make it. Unless my parents have other plans on April Fools Day.-.-*sighs*

So, moving on. Third period. AP World History. Nothing much to say, really. Having a test tomorrow, which means that I have notes to do today. And we have to watch a video and take notes on it, so I didn't even have time to continue with the note taking I need to have done by tomorrow.>.<

...Fourth period. I'm here. Still bored and sleepy and...meh. But, I'm staying after school today. For CAHSEE class thing. Great. Less time to finish my notes. CAHSEE test is coming up soon. As is the AP Exam for World History. Grrbitchgrrr. Have to turn in the application to take the exam today after school before heading to my CAHSEE class.*sighs*Oh well. Bell rings in less than ten minutes. I'm out. :3 Lurve. <3