Okay, I am officially sore as Hell. I was on my feet too much today. Passed Drivers' Education, knew I would. Played the show at Jeremy's, didn't do our best, but the small audience loved us anyway.
Heather, I love you, I'll be on tomorrow morning, 'kay? <3
I already have a poem in one book, a good one, but not my best, by far not my best. Now I'm going to have a slightly better, but still not my best, poem published in a book, spoken aloud on a CD, and on a plaque. Pretty cool, btu no prize mney from it. Seriously, one of 200 in a book, one of 33 on a CD, why the fuck don't they just give a couple hundred dollars! That's what I need, money, not recognition! Lol, who cares, it's not about money, it's about writing. It's not about being known, it's about sharing experiences.
Okay, so today was pretty cool. This morning I woke up at 8:30, and did...somethin
Then I went home and had to mow. After that was dinner. After that was back to Brady's at 6:00...to find out I was early. I guess we were supposed to get there at 6:30, so he brought me to his grandmother's where he ate and we watched TV. Then back to his place to load up all the band's gear; to unload it all at the Red Rooster Coffee House.
Ths show was interesting. The Calliper Brake Incident, a screamo band, absolutely sucked. The Paul Pierson Project had talent, but Paul can't sing, something I've known for a long time. The Ram-Ones had talent, but you just can't remake The Ramones and actually sing and tune your instruments, it just doesn't come together well, so they pretty much sucked.
Fourth in line was Plague, us. We got up there and fucking rocked the Hell out of everybody. With me on vocals, Brady on lead guitar, Justin on rhythm guitar, Ryan on bass guitar, and Gabe on drums. Our heavy metal riffs and loudening vocals, with a tinge of melody lit the mosher on fire. There was moshing, headbanging, you name it, we had it, minus goats. Paul and Carsten even ran up and tore my shirt off of me after I threw my jacket in to the mosh.
So yeah, we were the highlight of the day, by far the most well-received set there. And Gabe, though he tried with all of his might, failed to break any drum sticks, and in the end, his autographed sticks were auctioned off for $22.75.
And just for kicks I'll even tell about how after the show I was marvelled at. Well, kind of drooled over. Like, this one gal in teh audience, after our set was done with, she came up to me at told me that she absolutely loves my nipples, and asked to touch one. So I let her, and it was funny. Everyone was congratulating us on our good work.
Then Dan, that owns the Red Rooster wants us to play shows there if we get the chance and all. That's cool. Jeremy wants to record us... for free! His usual is $10 per hour, but he loves us so much, we'd be an exception. Last, but not least, there is a show on the 2nd, next week Thursday, and supposedly it's like the two biggest metal bands to ever come to Aberdeen, one of them just got off of a huge tour of Europe, and we might have ourselves a spot with them.
I have decided, a couple days ago, to grow out my sideburns..as mutton chops! Not seriously though, just to try it out for the sake of hillarity, and you have to admit, mutton chops are pretty funnY!
Plus I found a new 4th favorite band. Jeremy Burckhard. You can find him on purevolume. http://www.pur
Heather, everything will be all right, you just need to trust that things will get better. Just a new chance to start again. We all make mistakes, I make mistakes too, but I disregard my errs as transitions against my normality. When I make an error I ignore it, realizing that it was not my proper self making the decision.
Heather, I love you, no matter what you've done that you're convinced was so stupid. <3
At the time of writing this: 12:40, I just recently got back from a friend's place. There were about 25 or 30 people that went out there, in the country, to have a bon fire, talk, eat, and just in general have fun as a mob of friends.
It was Matias's graduation party and a total blast. The only bad parts were that we had no marshmallows, and we didn't play glo-stick tag, even though Dave had the glo-sticks in the back of his El Camino. Ohwell, it was a beautiful cloudless night, so it would have been awfully bright, difficult to hide.
Yeah, so I talked a lot with Tiffany, a lot with Little John, and plenty with Paul. Actually, tonight was the only night I have ever felt uncomfortable around Paul, but it's all cool, it's not like I was very uncomfortable, just tickled a little when he sat behind me in my chair and rubbed my nipples and abs.. that was actually kind of freaky.
So yeah, just one huge conversation blast. Even Megan Marske was out there. She lives right avross the street from me. I didn't even know she knew Matias, but I guess she does. Oh, and they had DDR in the basement. I didn't bother to play though, I would have just done horrible and lost interest anyway. And it was a lot more fun to watch Zech do well at it while Tiffany was stumbling about :) LOL
Well, that was my night :P
Today was kind of odd. I woke up at about 5:18 and couldn't get back to sleep, damned birds. So I got up and prepared for school at 5:49, about 40 minutes earlier than normal.
At school then, I had tons of energy, until I was done with my weight training class, that tired me out a bunch. But before that. This morning Kat and I were conversing, in a group of my friends, and we hugged as friends. (No worries, Heather, I would never cheat on you, and she herself has a boyfriend. Kat and I are just really good friends)
Then at lunch, Emi was waiting in line with me (Always wait to get food until the rush is over) and so we talked a little bit. The first time I've spoken with her at all since Novermber 12. Emi's cool, lol, and she's going to prom with some dude, while her boyfriend Dave is going to prom with some other chick. Lol, it's funny!
Heather, I love you <3
Well, I finally have a relatively free weekend. I'll probably go to a movie later today, maybe hang out with friends today and tomorrow, and I'll try to be here, on ElfTown for a couple hours between today and tomorrow.
I'll do my math homework like, tomorrow right after church and I'll finish reading the Crucible between tonight and tomorrow night. Maybe I'll have to resort to reading a bit of it in Stupid Study tomorrow too, I dunno yet, haven't started, lol!
So, yeah, that's it I guess. Had to break away from reality yesterday, so I went down to Treasure I-LAN ( www.treasurei-
Zech's character is in league with demons and devils, and he "talked" us in to going along with the babau and the glabrezu to get some damned scepter from the theives' guild of Atrede.
In the past, that very guild had booted me out of their city for killing an influential member, who had "taken advantage of" my character in pretty much every possible way, while teaching her the life of thievery.
So, back to the story. I wanted nothing to do with Atrede, but I got in with no qualms. Something will likely come up though, once the guild finds out about me being back. The babau had followed Zech's character for a while, he was off doing something, and this gave the rest of us, the innocent ones, a respite. We wanted to go to the temple of Heironeus to gain protection, and so we decided to run for it. Thanks to a hound archon we knew that we were far enough out of the babau's grasp to make it to the temple.
So anyway, we ran for it, got there, and the babau was so pissed that it kind of struck down Zech, since he tried to refuse a command it gave him, to stay where he was. He was at -9 too, he would have been dead in just 6 more seconds! My character pleaded that he be left out there, for she had a disliking of him, claiming he was an evil man with bad intentions. After I was done pleading, at least I convinced them to not let him inside, but the clerics were honorbound to heal him at least.
Right, I wrote that as I remembered it, left out plenty of cool things, but who cares, it's a good unorganized summary of the 5 hour session.
A couple days ago I discovered why I see Emily with Dave a lot. They're dating! Yep :)
And Cole thinks it's absolutley hillarious that Kat had a crush on me! Of course, I do too, but he didn't know that I had already known that, so he just told me that on like, Wednesday. Cole's a funny guy, but I think he's gay, since he acts like it 300% of the time, but hey, whatever.
Mandi, Kat, and I and about 80 other students from Aberdeen went to Waubay on Tuesday for National History Day. None of us won, but we talked a bit. I think Mandi thinks I'm hott, but hey, whatever.
Heather, I love you. I want to love you forever.
Just a random side-note: Paul has a poultergeist in his basement, it's cool to go over there and the basement door starts to shake violently on it's own :D
Wo0tzors! So, I think I got most of my homework done so far. Bah, who cares anyway!? So, we were washing our cars today, washed three of them so far, and I got to drive our 1988 Chevy Nova(Made by Toyota). That way I could learn how to drive a manual transmission. Did a good job at it, but I did spin the tires a little bit on teh way home, and Leslie(Josh, the drummer of The Dead) was at the same corner as me when I did it. He just smiled and waved :)
Had fun though, and now I feel acomplished, since my brother can't drive a manual :p
My people have ten vehicles. I shall list them all:
(1)1946 Dodge Club Coupe -- Umm, yeah, tons of work needed on this one. Lots of body work, new brakes, and interior. Lots of little things that I don't want to list. The block itself is good though, and the Fluid Drive system works. Good old "three on the tree."
(2)1960 Austin-Healey Sprite -- Really sweet ride! Sadly, the brakes don't work right now, all because one little tiny spring popped out.
(3)1976 Dodge Colt -- My brother's! It's getting new interior and paint this summer, as his graduation present.
(4)1977 Ford Ltd. -- Mine! Just got it cleaned up and now it doesn't hesitate or have any misfire.
(5)1977 Kawasaki kz650 -- Just a basic motocycle, one of the crotch-rocket predecessors.
(6)1984 AMC Eagle --This one's going to be painted purple, maybe with flames, and it'll be the new hunting vehicle. It has carburrettor issues though. Used to be our grandmother's.
(7)1988 Chevy Nova -- My dad drives it like it's got a big 8. Last year for the Nova by the way, made by Toyota at the time.
(8)1997 Dodge Ram 1500 -- Not driven since deer season ended.
(9)2000 Subaru Impreza -- Fun little manual :)
(10)2001 Toyota Avalon -- Probably selling it.
Just a brief explanation as per my current situation. On Friday night my dad took over the basement without my knowledge to let our cabinet doors to dry after he painted them. So, to say the least, I couldn't log on.
On Saturday he finished the other coats of paints and I worked on my car for about... 4 hours, cleaning the plugs, changing the oil, cleaning the carburrettor, and picking up a new plug, since one of them was broken. The good news is that now the car runs flawlessly :) This should help the gas mileage and power, since now we have all eight, instead of just seven, cylinders working. It doesn't lag anymore either :)
Today, Sunday, we are putting the cabinet doors on and having some difficulty. I was picked up to help out and my brother is watching TV.
On a side note: My mom quit her job on Friday and probably will have a new job in the next week or two. But, that considered, we'll probably still have to sell our 2001 Toyota Avalon. We have the other nine cars paid off already.
Heather, I'm sorry that I haven't been on, but I literally couldn't reach the computer and was constantly doing work around the house. Still have to get my project put together too, so that'll waste more time tonight and tomorrow :(
I love you soo much though, I'm really feeling bad.
So, I am in love, I know it must be love for the girl is constantly in my mind and in my heart. Heather Mae. I love her so much, and I want her to be happy with me for who I am, so I have presented my own self to her, not trying to hide anything. When I have failed, I have told her of my failure and she has always forgiven me. I have always forgiven her as well. Heather and I just seem like we were meant to be together, we understand one-another, and I never want to lose her. I would love to keep her in my arms forever. I would love her to love me.
This is a love that will last, because I will bend beyond the limitations of human kind to make it last for as long as she wants it to. I want this love to be about her, not about me.
Heather, you are my number one, my only one, and I will be yours whenever you want me. [<3]
I love you Heather.
Doing homework right now, almost done for the entire weekend already. Went to improv night last night. It was fun, as expected, btu not as good as it was last year in the old theater, that was always the best. Can't do much about that though.
Today is my brother's party, he turned 18 on Wednesday. So he's got friends coming over for gaming and anime and I'll hang with them for w bit, but I'll have to get out of the house or they'll just drive me crazy. Luckily it's a Friday, and I think the Rooster has karaoke tonight, so that's what Carsten and I plan on doing.
Heather, I'm sorry I haven't been online a lot lately, I just have too much school work that I have to do for now. I'll have to get work done on my National History Day project sometime this weekend aswell. I really am sorry, I wish i could be online more, but I can't :(
I love you more than the stars in the sky, the earth beneath me, I love you more than anything that has stood the test of time, and I'll continue loving you forever. [<3]
I am just a little guy. At least I realize that. But I can push around a lot more than I'm worth. I may be little, but I'm also solid. It's good for a guy to be solid, because to be solid, is to be strong.
The big guys can push me around because I'm small. I can push them around because I'm powerful. I can win a fight because I know a little, and because I am in good shape, even if I tell myself otherwise for motivation in the gym.
Exercise is what I revolve a lot of my life around. Because of that, I am a machine with few rivals, locally.
So, I am a solid sheet of man(boy). I take pride in what I am. I take pride in what I can do. This is why I am good at what I do, because I put effort in to it.
I had no self-esteem before I began to exercise. Since first picking up a dumbbell in 7th grade I have been much better. Since first really working out in 9th grade I have sculpted myself in to something notable.
I bring this up because of a video my brother had to do for school that I am in. Shirtless of course, I am always shirtless when I get out to LARP. Apparently many of the people in his class commented on how buff I am, or how ripped I was or whatever other comments they made. I like recognition, but I do not go and seek it.
I can see why none of theme ever thought I had much to my person though, since I wear my jacket throughout almost the entire school day.
Bah, just a rant.
Now to a real issue.
Heather, I love you. Never will I do anything to harm you, and never will I leave you. I want to be with you forever.
Going to a Punk show, don't know when it gets over. Then I have to write a bit for school.
I love you Heather, and I'll try to get on when I'm back.
Oh, booya! I was trying to tell Dave all week that my girlfriend was only thirteen. But he's just a big joker, so he thought I was using some alusion from soemthing else to make a joke. On Friday he finally asked me where I had gotten that from. I told him the truth, that it was the truth, my girlfriend (Heather Mae) is only thirteen! He smiled wide and laughed a bit, wodnering who she was. So yeah, we continued, he asked who she was, and then I told him it was long distance and he said it wouldn't work. Gosh, why is everyone such a pessimist about that? Everyone that has advised me against it had been in ONE long distance relationship that had failed. And one of them, Kat, is actually in another long distance now. So yeah, there are some hypocrites and pessimists, but they are still my friends.
As long as I love the girl, and the girl loves me, I see no reason that a long distance relationship couldn't last.
Heather, I love you, and that conversation I had with Dave was actually really funny for me.
Well, sadly, Paul Hieb, a great man and a great friend of my family passed away on Tuesday. His funeral was held today, so I got out of school for that. I had an obligation to go, since he was such a great man and he was so close to our family, always there for people when they needed help, and since his son Lance was my first friend in Aberdeen. Lance and I are still pretty awesome friends. Then the last months of his life we were always there for him. Cancer took him from the world. Cancer took him from us.
Rest in Peace Paul, may the flames of your casket burn brightly and lead you swiftly to the gates of Heaven.
-falls down and weeps openly for Paul and his family-
I have a possible future as a poet or essayist. Also, the possibility exists for any physically demanding carreer, since I am so in love with physical fitness. Yet I remain more in love with my girl Heather than with any other tangible or intangible being. Heather is the other half of me, that part of the soul that isn't there any more, but that belongs. In essence, I believe she and I are one, because our love for one-another is so deep.
I have a great future ahead of me, if I consider the possibilities and accomplish the task of going to meet Heather face to face, as a relationship deserves to be.
I can wait, and I believe she can as well.
Heather, I love you, with all my heart and soul, with all my body and mind.
Just yesterday, I discovered that it is possible to fit an entire second stock engine under the hood of a 1966 Toronado. I also discovered that it is possible to shove a stock engine into the trunk of a 1966 Toronado. So, if I were to combine those two plans which have been carried out it would be possible to have three stock engines in the same 1966 Toronado, one to drive the rear axle and two to drive the front axle. Therefore, my newest goal in life is to execute that, but not with stock engines, but with bored and stroked engines, possibly a shortened two-seater version, possibly a blower or blowers, possibly a turbo charger or chargers, and possibly a super charger or chargers! It would be the kind of car that could tear up the strip, or anywhere else I put it, haha!
On Friday, I was dressed up in Leather and chains at Haunted Forest and I was scaring people and freaking them out with my face paint and lip-stick! It rocked, it looked as though I was wearing another person's face. But, the act sucked on Friday.
Saturday night rocked, the act rocked, my outfit rocked, we had more people, we had a fogger and two strobes. We made Saturday scary as Hell. Almost every group that came through said that ours was the best.
Anyway, Tiffany does a pretty good job with the generic murder-movie make-up, and I look awesome with a leather jacket, big clompy boots, black denim jeans, bloody hands, bleeding pale face, and 18 feet of log-chain hanging from my shoulders. Not only was the outfit good, but I was next to a couple trees that I personally moved onto the path, and I would follow people along into one of the strobes where Erin would jump out at them. They'd look at her, then turn back to continue along the path and get freaked out as I just let my head loll(sp?) to the side and allow my eyes to wander, either a smile, grin, or frown upon my face.
I scared so many giddy high school girls, many that I recognized, especially Amanda Ludwig. haha! since I wasn't wearing my glasses I wouldn't have recognized who she was, but she recognized me. Proclaimed, "Chris, you'd better not scare me!" She shouldn't have let me know it was her! haha! I followed her along, Erin scared her, and I was right in her face, my head tilting to the side in the full force of the strobe as she turned. It must have looked freaky from her perspective. Then she yelled back that she hated me for scaring her. About at the same tiem that Jessi lurched from his motionless position within the light and scared her...yet again!
Anyway, many of my friends knew who I was and many other people did too. But I had a killer time! So many girls screamed! So many of them screamed right in my face, a look of sheer horror upon their faces, I can still remember three of them clearly. Of course, the girls with boyfriends were fun to scare too, because the guys want their girl to get scared! Some dude I scared was looking back over his shoulder talking to some friends and then he ran into me and looked back, the strobe light working to my favor, he jumped back a few feet and screamed like a little piggy! haha!
I forgot to update this when it happened! How could I!? Anyway, on Sunday, I was LARPing again at Melgard Park. But, who cares, ladi-da, I sucked ass this weekend, only pulled off about a 2-1 kill/death ratio. The real story is that some assholes were idleing past in their car honking their horn obnoxiously. I saunter over nearer to the car and hail them "wanna go?" They respond, smirking, "go where?" I realize that they are just beign asses, so I keep walking and ask "what are you guys up to, huh?" At this time they must have gotten frightened since I was still about 10 feet away and they floored it in reverse to get away. I just shook my head and walked back to the field to LARP.
A few minutes later they are back to blaring their horn, it's gettign obnoxious, Zechariah runs over and tells them to get the fuck out, to fuckign leave. He is standing in front of their car, slightly to one side, they floor it, their front passenger fender hits him, knocking him enough to stagger him, he lunges up and grabs onto the door(they had their window rolled down).
It gets good here; he starts yellign profanities at them from striking him and tellign them to stop the fucking car, as he nearly gets drug under the rear wheels. They continue to accelerate and as they round the left to exist Melgard Park, Zechariah had gotten a footign and launched himself off of the car into the grass, to cusion his fall and get away from the vehicle.
His left arm, left leg, right hand, and both feet were rubbed and torn. The flesh was scratched up a bunch, and it had to hurt him like hell. But, he managed himself really well and larped with us until he had to go to work at 4:00.
Today, Tuesday, he came back to school, limping considerably. He had skipped yesterday because of his grievous wounds. Anyway, he is the coolest dude that I know, and hell, that's the same thing I wound have done if I would have gotten the opportunity. My battle plan was to get over to them, open up their door and haul out either of them, be it the driver or the passenger, and then maybe hit him a little and hand him over to my LARPing frineds, since none of them like him. Whatever, it happened how it did, and I can't change it.
I WANT TO GET INTO A FIGHT THIS YEAR!
p.s. I think Duke wants to fight me, he's an asshole, I could take his 280ish lard-ass anyday.