Ok, life isn't so bad as long as you remember who you are not trying to be something you're not, which includes not being patheticly miserable, not suffering for long gone things, not feel bad about people who think they have strong and true feelings for you, but they are just looking for a shag, not feel bad for missed opportunitys and start looking for new ones and so on

*heavy sigh* I feel better:)


Cheer up people, we live in a beautiful world!
The clouds outside are soooo pretty!!^^

Ask me how it feels
To feel like you're a failure
When everything that's real
Burns the flame in anger
I've heard it all before
I've felt some pain and more
More than you could ever dream
More than it probably seems
I've sat with head in hand
Stressed by my demands
Stomach tied in knots
Alone I've sat and rot
'Cause the pain from all these fears
Has built up all these years
I'll wipe away the tears
WIPE AWAY THE TEARS!!!

Walk the streets dejected
Alone and left rejected
Time does not care
And sometimes life ain't fair
My head begins to pound
Smashing bottles on the ground
I have lived amongst the garbage
With those who rape and carnage
Had many a promise broken
And broken some myself
The promise I have kept alive
Is keep my inner wealth
With my heart aimed at the world
Destiny I watch unfurl
I'll wipe away the tears
WIPE AWAY THE TEARS!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

I'M GOING INSANEEEEE!!!!! AAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!
I... am... just... not... going... to... take... it... any... MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGUKGKAKGUAASDFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGUKSDFO7IWE5807245OVB70 R23P8O573-Q24579 Q345789 23RUWEF9023457570578=095=-8 P9-Y408Y00 !!!!!!

I think I'm turning into a slug...

*reaches for another cup of coke and starts reading the serial manga comic*

Muah I'm actually 175cm

electricity's back home!
Today I slept for about 11 hours, woke up at 1,30 pm and my head is not acheing!^^
So, a few promises for the next three free days:

1. I'll tidy my room
2. I'll find a new 4th string for Emma and tune her. Again.
3. I'll learn "Build the bridge"
4. I'll finish the painting I started
5 I'll make galleries in Elfwood and Devianart

And that's what I'll probably do:

1. Eat
2. Sleep
3. Drink (NOT alcohol)
4. Read a manga
5. Play stupid brainwasteing PC games

Ha ha ha! ^^
Had the best Valentine's day! And the best "Trifon za Rezan" ( which is our celebration of wine and drinking in general ) There was a guy in ET that kissed me, some others wanted to date me someday, I got out with my friends and we drank all over the city! HI hi hi^^


AND they all finaly agreed that Danny is god damn sexY!!
but anyway, I'm drunk now, so see ya later

Tomorrow - DRINK TIME!!!
MUAHAHAHAHA

du du du
la la la
nq nq nq
mua mua muuuuuoooooiiiiaaaaa...

I dunno really know what to write so...


HAVE A HAPPY ST VALENTINE!!!!!!:D:D:D

Do you believe that connection in dreams is possible?

I noticed that after my first day in ET (when I started conversations with 5 or 6 people) I've been using it mostly for my diary
That's stupid and pointless
I must start using it properly...

My 4th string teared again
I saw my ex best friend yesterday and I feel odd
I must write the bands I like in my biography but I'm too lazy
I'm home at 1pm when I'm usually leaving to school and I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do with my life
So I'm just staring at the emptiness for now

Thanks for the attention

WAAAA It's six in the morning! I feel...unnatural:)

Weeeee! My friend Borq is finaly here! We're having SO much fun lately I can write a book about it!
But in a word:

-We drank with my best friends
-we went to the cinema
- We went to the theatre and saw "Rhythum"
- We made some "artistic nude photos"
-We watched a manga animation that was ok
-We talked ALOT


Today is our last day:(:(:(
We're going around the centre to see some clothes and stuff, then movie, again, with my ex best friend and lots of other people...

And I think that's it
Anyway, I will write again

Sometimes life feels so cold and empty
So pointless and gray
That you feel like you're sinking deeper and deeper into it's meaningless mazes
You feel alone in a big hall full of people who call themselves your friends
You're freezing looking at the sun, shining with light that you see but do not feel
And you ask yourself "why?"
And when you can't find anything to hold on to
Anything to dream of
Anything to remember
Anything to expect
When your emotions are lost into the indifferent depths of the never stopping time, broken into seconds, minuets, days and years, and still, never changeable
When you look around you and see no beauty, no truth at all
When you can see a sunrise without feeling it's warmth
When you can hear a song withoug senseing the meaning
When you can hear "I love you" wuthout shivering

When you have lost all ability to feel

You are dead

Today was the last day of exams and hard study - school, see you next week! Ha ha!
Well, we actually have only monday as between terms vacation and from now on we'll have to get up at 6:30 and start classes at 7:15
I dunno how I'll be able to get up so early...
but whatever

Succeeded in tuning Ema today and started to learn "Build the bridge" by Limp Bizkit ( woo I don't believe it too )
but it's a good song, you have to hear it

Note to self: NEVER VEVER try to take a picture of a guy who doesn't really know that he is poseing!!!
ESPECIALLY a guy that you care for!!!


I think that's it for today

Sunday - a very fine day indeed!
Me and my sister played in the snow, then i told her a few fairy tales, we played and watched cartoons all day


When i got home i found out that someone has been messing with my guitar, now it's messed up!
and I must tune it tomorrow, which i still can't do right


anyway, great weekend

"To describe this film as dishonest and demagogic would almost be to promote those terms to the level of respectability. To describe this film as a piece of crap would be to run the risk of a discourse that would never again rise above the excremental. To describe it as an exercise in facile crowd-pleasing would be too obvious. Fahrenheit 9/11 is a sinister exercise in moral frivolity, crudely disguised as an exercise in seriousness. It is also a spectacle of abject political cowardice masking itself as a demonstration of "dissenting" bravery."

Ok, first, you MUST see American History X
SECOND You MUST MUST MUST by all means see Fahrenheit 9/11!!!!

I'm planning on writing something about it, mabe even do a project with illustrations, facts and music, but you must see it !!!

Was Kurt Cobain killed, or suicidal???
What do you think??

Weeeeee! It's been snowing all day!!!
Finally! That's what should've happened in the beginning of november not at the end of january!!!!! >:(
But anyway!
It is so beautifull outside!!!^^

(J. Buckley)

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go :
you gave me more to live for,
more than you'll ever know.

This is our last embrace,
must I dream and always see your face
Why can't we overcome this wall
Baby, maybe it is just because I didn't know you at all.

Kiss me, please,
Kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
You know,
it makes me so angry 'cause I know that in time
I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye.

Did you say no, this can't happen to me,
and did you rush to the phone to call?
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying,
maybe... you didn't know him at all.

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memory
Of her sighs that, it's over... it's over...