My World
A fleeting glace,
A darting stare,
A hint of face,
A peek of hair.
I thought i saw you but of course i was wrong.
You are my life, my world, my soul.
To be reunited one day brings a soft sweet euphoria.
I await the day when we can once again lock our hands, our eyes, our feelings.
Such strong feelings i show for you. They will stand the test of time.
All the power in the world couldn't stop me from loving you.
I wish for more than anything to comfort you in times of darkness and fear. To holdyou close and make the demons go away.
The darkness surrounding you will dissapate as soon as we a reunited no matter what.
My world, my girl, my love,
A poem for you : Lavitia
Ok so i see your all still fighting and um i cant do anything about it.... Oh well then i guess ill have to hang out with people who dont fight. All of you are dumb and i hope you all die a horrible cancerous death. And rot in japan for all eternity. Ohh yes i think fighting is dumb too and also needs to die a horrible cancerous death..... Have a happy friday the thirteenth.
OK apparently Stormy is VERY VERY mad. She ended her relation with me... well all i can say is this... oww.
That was a mean thing to do. Apparently no one wants my help to work out stupid little fights and problem but ill just carry the weight of the world on my shoulders... No big deal. I D C!!!!!!! Ill just waste all of my time playing magic and not try to save the world. I still cant believe nony and i are the only ones who can put petty differences behind ourselves for the greater good. Even if we were mad at each other we would still work together. Not doing that for all of reality is just SELFISH. I know what everyone thinks of vanessa right now but i completely agree with her. You're all being selfish. You just dont understand. Thats what the meeting at the library waas about. It was about working together. It wasnt even about making up your STUPID FIGHT Steve was going to his second meeting but now im just ready to say screw it and just let the apocalyse hit us!!! Sometimes i wish people were't so pigheaded and stubborn!!! Maybe we would hget something done. And i know im pigheaded sometimes as well but i dont care that just means i have to change too. At least i can accept it. Another thing is i can tbelieve this GAY ASS FUCKING FIGHT is still going on i totally disagree wiht it and hope it stops soonm but appaerently we cant stop because we cant admit to being wrong or losing honor! Ohh boo hoo. I hate to say this but buck the hell up and suck it in. YOu have to be adults now you have to mature. You can be akid on weekends but not at meetings. What happens if you work wihtr someone you dont like? Do you quit? Do they? NO. And you shouldnt just stop being civil over a fight. Jesus christ im done fighting. Screw you all and screw the world.
To all who care...
Hello, let me introducfe myself. I am Shane. Just shane. I have a group of friends. Well at least i though we were all friends. Im finding now that a lot of the friendships are falling apart. My point of the discussion is "FRIENDS ARE FOREVER". No ifs, ands, or buts. Friends are forever and you should always feel that way. Im not saying that you shouldn't ever disagree, but a huge all out brawl is something that is unneeded. When two friends fight, it forces other friends into a corner. You have to take sides which is never fun. Right now Vanessa thinks im taking Darby's side and Stormy thinks im taking Eric's. Listen people that is not the case and i want you to know why im saying this. Wether you all like it or not. we are the same. We are a group of friends and we always will be. Now i suggest that sometime before the millenium you all make up so we can get backl to practicing. WE NEED TO GET READY!!!! I can't stress this enough. We must win. Alol of exsistence depends on us. Yes, eric, we're human but only in body. I have the soul and character of an elf. You have the soul of a dragon. Fiona the soul of a cat. All of us are different but the same nonetheless and that is we are the only ones who can do this. I need you all and i hope you see that. Even vanessa the monk incarnate. I need you guys sooo much, you are my support team and i want you to know that. I really love you all and you guys are like family. I would do anything for you guys. I know you would do the same. Now please, stop fighting and become friends again... Please? If not for me then for all of exsistence.
Maybe, since talking about it gets you to notice. Doing it would get you to take action. Even though you know i wont just think about if i did.
I now know what it takes to get people to listen and to notice important things. I have to talk about death. Yes as soon as i said i was thinking about killing myself i had people respond to those problems that have been bugging me lately. HHHMMMMM....
THis week id like to express some personal views and opinions. Too bad if you disagree. FIrst, the fight between Stormy, Darby And Vanessa is going to stop right now or ill stop being friends with all of you. Second, The stormy-eric fight shall cease as well or the same applies. Next, VAnessa you are not "just average". If you keep telling yourself that then everone willl start to believe it. #4, Stormy, i know you like eric but "LET HIM GO" you cant have him. In fact no one can for a long time. Not until he gets his head on straigh with his whole powers thing. 5, I have millions of friends but i value you all the same. 6, Magic is real and my friends and i practice it. This in no way makes us satanic or demonic. We all have our own god or goddess to worship-Bast, Gaea, Thor- all of them unique to opur needs and personality. I wont have any of this there's only one god thing. Next, there will be a war sooner or later. We will be involved, and we need to be prepared. "LOSING IS NOT AN OPTION". All of us need to stay together and practice. (Even you vanessa :P).Im still trying to figure some things out but this is what i have so far.
1) James will die.
2) Geneva was insane, disregard all of her opinions
3) Mara refuses to make her powers better, im working on convincing her to get better.
4)Shane has no powers at all. Period. (Being psycic doesn't count cause anyone can be psycic)
5) Not all christians are evil.
6) No more human/Christia
7) WE ARE NOT SATANIC!!!!
8) We are all important we just fail to realize it.
9) Meditation is the key right now.
10) Not all memories arer real you have to learn to decipher the real from the fake.
11) I love all beings and exsistance and dont want it destroyed so we have to fight as hard as we can ok?
SOME THINGS YOU PROBABLY DIDNT KNOW ABOUT SHANE
1) Shane is bi, get over it.
2)Shane loves you no matter what.
3)Shane may be able to see auras but not very well.
4) When my friends fight i cry myself to sleep trying to figure out how to fix it.
5) Shane likes it when people smile cause it makes him think everything is alright.
6) You are always in shanes dreams. All of you in some way shape or form. Even if you're from the internet and i dont know what you look like.
7) Shane has been thinking of suicide lately... yes shane has. This is because my friends are falling apart and its not fair. Why should i try to make every thing better when no one else other than alesia does?
If you actually read all of this then you do care about what i have to say and i thank you for listening. I reeally wish we didnt have to fight but we will eventually and our little problems mean nothing when you look at the war.... I know how that sounds but its true. No more hiding out no more pretending this is a game. We're getting to tha age where we know it matters.... I love you all good night.
Hey everyone... Sry to all of the Carrick fans out there... i just havent recovered anymore memories of this life. I mean... damn... it slipped... Ok anyways even if you dotn beleive this happened i havent done any meditation to recover more momories... so just hold tigh maybe this week some time...
This is the funniest list:
Subject: In Honor of Stupid People
In Honor of Stupid People
In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed through
stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods.
On a Sears hairdryer -- Do not use while sleeping. (Damn, and that's the
only time I have to work on my hair).
On a bag of Fritos -- You could be a winner! No purchase necessary.
Details inside.
(the shoplifter special?)
On a bar of Dial soap -- "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that
would be how???....)
On some Swanson frozen dinners -- "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but it's
"just" a suggestion).
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom) -- "Do not turn upside
down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh!)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding -- "Product will be hot after heating."
(...and you thought????..)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron -- "Do not iron clothes on body." (but
wouldn't this save me more time)?
On Boot's Children's Cough Medicine -- "Do not drive a car or operate
machinery after taking this medication." (We could do a lot to reduce the
rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with
head-colds off those forklifts.)
On Nytol Sleep Aid -- "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and...I'm taking
this because???....)
On most brands of Christmas lights -- "For indoor or outdoor use only."
(as
opposed to...what)?
On a Japanese food processor -- "Not to be used for the other use." (now,
somebody out there, help me on this. I'm a bit curious.)
On Sainsbury's peanuts -- "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news
flash)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts -- "Instructions: Open packet, eat
nuts." (Step 3: maybe, uh...fly Delta?)
On a child's Superman costume -- "Wearing of this garment does not enable
you to fly."
(I don't blame the company. I blame the parents for this one.)
On a Swedish chainsaw -- "Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or
genitals." (Oh my God...was there a lot of this happening somewhere?
I know I know i couldn't resist though...LOL
Here are some questions i ask myself daily...
1)Why Us?
2)Why can't I suffer instead of them?
3)Why can't we know the truth?
4)Will we fail?
5)How can we try if we're destined to failure?
6)Is it worth a few extra years for self sacrifice?
7)Why can't i know who I am?
8)Why does it hurt so bad?
9)Why can't they come home?
10)Will I ever discover my purpose?
Mleh life is comlicated but we try... And that seems to be all im good at... Im not even good at succeding just at trying... I hope we win...
Darby, Listen to me... do not cut yourself any more... WE ALL LOVE you and you have to know we understand how you feel. But please think of all the people who love you the next time you try to cut. I doubt you'll be able to do it. And think of the wonderful smile that you hide from the world when you make yourself hurt and cry. Darby we cant stand to see you like this you need to pull yourself out of it. your mom has blocked us off but still if i could be there comforting you i would. I dont care what any one else says. You may be thirteen but you have more will and power and uniqness than most people dream of. I dont care what your mom said or what the police man said. Darby I dont tink i could live w/ out all of my friends. I know thats a lot to say but you all are my role models and i wouldnt have any other friends for all eternity just for five more minute witrh you guys... Even if we lose and the whole world is destroyed it would have been worth it to fight along side one of the greatest warriors in all of time.
Darby we all love you!
Carrick... AKA Shane
Wheeeeeee for Valentines Day...except i cant see my valentine...(sob)Ohh well mabey next time... But happy Valentines day to all of my fans! And Friends!
Listen vanessa I know Darby's om was scared for her daughter but did she ever once think about how her daughter needed her to understand. I know this is very closed minded of me but when Darby said to her mom I dont want to be christian she didnt have to freak out. She could have asked Darby to sit down and they both would have talked about it. I know calling her mom was a bit much I really think she desevered it but I could have done other things also. Instead of making darby go with us i could have stayed with her at the svhool. As for mistake # 2 yes we could have called her mom. But if we had called her mom then she would have show up at the library yelling and screaming. Abd yes i know what i did wrong and i now know how to handle it differently. We learn from our mistakes and i think thats all we've done so far is make mistakes. But now we can start the learning process and hopefully make it all better. And im sry if i offended you in some way over trying to help my friend and standing up to her mom. But really someone had to and i think darby did a great job and she knows now that she is strong enough to fight her own battles. So i guess you can talk to me if you want, and Im sorry if this broke our friendship cause its really a dumb reason to stop talking to me. If i see you in school ill wait for you to initiate the converstion and you might not. That's quite a talent you have for looking at both sides of a situation and i admire that but i had to fight for what i think is right. Even if others dont. So fare well and maybe Ill see you around.
~Carrick
Why? Why me...how come we have to do it... well never win. theres no reason to fight.... we havent advanced at all we canr even manfest simple energy . We've already been told we cant win but still we try and for what? The other day my friend finally stood up to her dirty evil mom... we were there counciling her and her mom glares at us and says shut up! we stood our ground and she called the police on us... we stood up for what we believe in but still didnt win... the police didnt do anything but make her go home.... there musnt be a reason for living then if what you believe in doesnt happen....
Howdy Yall,
Im not sure if any one reads this stuff so Im posting the story on the main page now. Eventually itl be really long and then only the most recent parts will be shown. Kk Carrick loves you all... Toodles
Sry everyone here is the checked version of chapter one. Stupid typos.
Into The Darkened Souls (Prologue)
Standing atop the hill, the suns rays hitting my body for the first time in months, my eyes fill with tears as I look at the devastation left by the horrid "Chaos War". It had been two long years; two years of destruction, devastation and remorse. The war between the ultimate army of darkness- The Legions of Chaos- and the rest of earth had ended today by the blood on my hand and the power of my spells.
Looking into the valley where the final battle took place I saw millions of casualties. Deaths for every race: Human, Elf, Dragon. The blood flowed like dark red rivers. Tears flowed even thicker than the Blood. My head hurt, my vision was blurring, the darkness was engulfing me and I was slipping into unconsciousnes
Chapter 1
The Beginning
Two years earlier.
I awoke that fateful morning to the sound of my beautiful wife playing her violin. It was a beautiful melody from our childhood called "Savior".I rose from my bed and walked out onto the balcony that looked over our garden. I spied her sitting on the fountain: Her deep green eyes, so peaceful and full, her beautiful auburn hair hanging at shoulder length. Her sensitive pointed ears poked though so you could just see the tips. Her wonderful smile that melted the hearts of many and the most beautiful Purple gown you had ever seen. She had grown the cotton herself and wove the entire thing. The violin was her grandfather's.
She saw me and called, "Carrick, dear come down and we'll have breakfast."
I nodded my reply and swiftly went back into the room to change into the outfit she had made for me. It was a pair of dark blue pants that was soft as silk but stronger than iron and light as air. A soft blue shirt of the same material and a darker blue flowing cloak. I stopped to look at myself in the mirror before departing. Standing at 5' 8' I was pretty tall for an elf. My hair was a natural silver and my eyes a deep brown. My ears were also very protruding, which was a common characteristic among us sea elves. My darling Lavitia was a forest elf.
Upon reaching the courtyard I found lavitia still perched on the fountain. The sight brings me back to the night I asked her to be my queen right here in front of this very fountain. The full moon and the stars were a perfect background as she smiled and accepted my proposal. Our wedding rings were very special indeed. Lavitia has a magical connection with earth and fire. Mixing the together she produced a magical golden plant that she shaped to be rings for us. It is always moving and growing so it is never the same ring twice. Today hers has a little flower growing on the top which encased a deep red ruby. Mine was similar with a dark sapphire.
When I got close I noticed there was breakfast on a silver tray next to a notice of some kind. Lavitia stopped playing and gave me a kiss and we sat down to eat. It was almost a feast, filled with pastries and nuts and berries. After eating our fill I reached over to the notice. I unwrapped the ribbon and slowly unrolled it as Lavitia rolled her eyes.
"What?"
"Nothing... It's just you always take those notices so seriously. I mean you haven't even opened it yet and you already have a solemn expression on your face."
"I don't always take them so seriously... but your right maybe it's just another: All's Well."
" Well aren't you going to read it?"
"Yes, I was just absorbing the moment. I love it when you worry that I worry too much."
My eyes moved across the page and I read the big, bold print. My eyes filled with tears and my jaw dropped. My heart skipped a beat and Lavitia noticing something was wrong, looked at me with hope in her eyes, hope that the news wasn't too bad.
"My parents... they were murdered."
Hello, every one. This is Carrick i dohjnt know if any one iss actually reading this but if you do sign my guest book. Last time i said i would start a story so this is the begining of chapter one. Or the prologue.
Into The Darkened Soul
(Prologue)
Standing atop the hill, the suns rays hitting my body for the first time in months, my eyes fill with tears as I look at the devastation left by the horrid "Chaos War". It had been two long years; two years of destruction, devastation and remorse. The war between the ultimate army of darkness- The Legions of Chaos- and the rest of earth had ended today by the blood on my hand and the power of my spells.
Looking into the valley where the final battle took place I saw millions of casualties. Deaths for every race: Human, Elf, Dragon. The blood flowed like dark red rivers. Tears flowed even thicker than the Blood. My head hurt, my vision was blurring, the darkness was engulfing me and I was slipping into unconsionsness
Chapter 1
The Begining
Two years earlier.
I awoke that fateful morning to the sound of my beatiful wife playing her violin. It was a beatiful melody from our childhood called "Savior".I rose from my bed and walked out onto the balcony that looked over our garden. I spied her sitting on the fountain: Her deep green eyes, so peacefull and full, her beautiful auburn hair hanging at shoulder length. Her sensitive pointed ears poked though so you could just see the tips. Her wonderful smile that melted the hearts of many and the most beautiful Purple gown you had ever seen. She had grown the cotton herself and weaved the entire thing. The violin was her grandfather's.
She saw me and called, "Carrick, dear come down and we'll have breakfast."
I nodded my reply and swiftly went back into ther room to change into the oputfit she had made for me. It was a pair of dark blue pants that was soft as silk but stroonger than iron and light as air. A soft blue shirt of the same material and a darker blue flowing cloak. I stopped to look at myself in the mirror before departing. Standing at 5' 8' I was pretty tall for an elf. My hair was a natural silver and my eyes a deep brown. My ears were also very protruding, which was a common characteristic among us sea elves. My darling Lavitia was a forest elf.
Apon reaching the courtyard I found lavitia still perched on the fountain. The sight brings me back to the night I asked her to be m,y queen right here in front of this very fountain. The full moon and the stars were a perfect backround as she smiled and accepted my proposal. Our wedding rings were very special indeed. Lavitia has a magical connetion with earth and fire. Mixing the together she produced a magical golden plant that she shaped to be rings for us. It is always moving and growing so it is never the same ring twice. Today hers has a liitle flower growing on the top which encased a deep red ruby. Mine was similar with a dark sapphire.
When I got close I noticed there was breakfast on a silveer tray next to a notice of some kind. Lavitia stopped playing and gave me a kiss and we sat down to eat. It was almost a feast, filled with pastries and nuts and berries. After eating our fill I reached over to the notice. I unwrapped the ribbon and slowly unrolled it as Lavitia rooled her eyes.
"What?"
"Nothing... It's just you always take those notices so seriously. I mean you haven't even opened it yet and you already have a solem expression on your face."
"I don't always take them so seriously... but your right maybe it's just another: All's Well."
" Well aren't you going to read it?"
"Yes, I was just absorbing the moment. I love it when you worry that I worry too much."
My eyes moved across the page and I read the big, bold print. My eyes filled with tears and my jaw dropped. My heart skipped a beat and Lavitia noticing something was wrong, looked at me with hope in her eyes, hope that the news wasn't too bad.
"My parents... they were murdered."
Today was good. It is my second day on Elftown and I will soon have pics. I wrote a poem and would like to share it but itll be o nthe mainpage. YESTERDAYWASAS
With Love Carrick.
Ill start a story on here too