I feel like I'm breaking down again, but its one of those were you just melt inside, not really crying just getting mad. I'm waiting in a corner waiting for someone to walk by and pick me up, once again. I know he won't be picking me up this time. I just feel like I'm not needed at all and when he needs me he takes me. All I wanted was a a few hours with him more then anything, but he always out now and well I guess,I will just stay here till I find a true reason to move on. I losing my love for him slowly but losing myself at the same time. Close my eyes and wish this was already over. Please help me.. I keep wanting to start a fight at every moment I can but I want to test what will happen because I don't know what will be happening to me or to what is going on I just want it to end but it having trouble letting go, I guess it will just die off.