I've recovered, but I'm still woozy and confused. The time still hasn't come because I don't know what happened to Gilo. Today I went to the clan council and asked about Gilo. They said it was confidential, but I put on my "soulful sick little fairy" look and said in a quavering voice, "Please, council, I want to know what happened to my brother. He said before he went on the journey that he'd take me s-snowball hopping and I want to know where he is." I pretended to cry, which I am very good at. I simply take some frost from my hair and hold it in my hand. Then I bury my face in my hands ("crying"), and blow on the frost. It melts and I dribble it on my face. So there I was "crying" and the head councilfairy took me on his knee and comforted me. "There there, Frostina," he said, using my detested real name. "I'm sure your brother is doing alright where he is." That could mean anything. Then he told me that if I wanted to see Gilo I could go to the confinement bank tomorrow at 4:00 p.m. I'll be there!
*Frostie* (NOT Frostina!)
Grandma Frost came and talked to me today. For the past week I've been really sick. I'm still ill, but I did a little flying today so that means I'm doing much better. Grandma Frost said that she couldn't tell me anything about Gilo - not even if he's dead or not. My new theory is that he may not be dead, because there's been no procession or announcement or anything. But I've been doing a lot of sleeping lately (because I'm sick) so I haven't really been tuned into the Clan's problems. I stopped pestering Grandma Frost when she told me that when the time comes, I'll know what really happened to Gilo.
*Frostie*
Laily is here right now supporting me. I still don't know if Gilo has been buried. Usually there is a ceremony because he is the future clan leader- so I can't figure out if he's actually dead or not. Laily is really helping me out. She's been really nice and good to me in my "time of need". I'm just so confused!!!!!!
*Frostie*
I feel really sick. I'm coming down with the Ice-Flu for sure. When Grandma Frost got home with Mama and Papa last night she knew something was wrong. My face was blueish- a common sign of *Ice Fairy* illness. She also told me that Gilo was gone. There were many tears last night. She wouldn't give me any specifications
*Frostie*
No one has told me this- but I know its true. I saw Gilo today being prepared to be buried. I knew something this horrible would happen. Why? I'm not ready for this. Gilo meant so much to me and now he's dead! I can't believe no one told me. Mother and Father and Grandma Frost are all out of the snowbank visiting him. I bet they're at the clan grave right now! I can't bring myself to the reality of all this! Why did this have to happen to me?
*Frostie*
Something is very wrong. Nobody will tell me what is wrong with Gilo. A couple of hours ago I heard faint screams coming from his confinement bank, but their are other people in there. The voice sounded like Gilo's voice, though. Laily thinks that I should be excited about getting married. I told her that I would switch lives with her anytime. I think Gilo may no longer be with us. The medicfairys have long faces. I feel like something is missing. I am frightened.
*Frostie*
Gilo. He's still alive, but barely. He's in confinement- in this special snowbank guarded and everything. I'm not even allowed to go visit him. They say it's too dangerous. I want to see my brother before he dies!
My parents and Grandma Frost had a meeting with Uncle Neeg today about my marriage with him. They say it'll be a good hundred years before I'm to get married- but still! The thought of marrying him is so hard to bear.
My friend Laily asked if I wanted to go snowball hopping today but I was too sad. It's so hard for me with Gilo dying and all. Laily tried to comfort me- but nothing can heal the hurt that I feel knowing that I may lose my loved one- and worse. Kill my loved one.
Sadly,
*Frostie*
We just found out what happened to the journeyfairy squad. They suffocated in the freezer and the store owner saw them. He thought they were dolls and gave them to his children. This is very dangerous because if humans touch frostfairys they become very sick and pale. A squad is going out tomorrow to take the fairys away. They also found Gilo. He is alive but barely. He lost a leg and a wing. He broke all of his ribs. He is in a coma. I don't want to marry Uncle Neeg! Gilo is not going to live. By custom his young wife has to die if he dies. Once he dies (I have to face the fact) the clan leaders - ME AND UNCLE NEEG! - will put her outside and she will melt. I'm so young, I can't do this! Can't Grandma Frost be the clan woman? I don't want to kill people. I don't want to be a woman. I want to stay young and go snowball hopping! Everything is happening so fast and I don't know what to think.
*Frostie*
A disaster happened today. It was very warm today: 40 degrees fairyheit. A journyfairy squad went to a store to get ice. When it is warm we have to line the snowdrift with ice or else it will melt and we will all die. We also have to make ice-suits. I help make ice-suits. I first make a mold out of snow. Then I pour water into it. I put it outside and it freezes. Once it is frozen I hollow out the inside. If frostfairys go outside in weather that is 40 degrees fairyheit or more, they melt. Therefore they need ice-suits. So a journyfairy squad went out in ice-suits to get more ice. Then the disaster occured. A rat stopped them and took one in his mouth. That one was my brother, Gilo. He was 201 years old. He's missing, and we think he's dead. The others got into the store. They got into the freezer but got locked in. They are missing too. There is not a lot of oxygen in the freezer. Hopefully the freezer will be unlocked in the morning, but still, there is a small chance they will live. We are all in mourning, especially me, for my brother. He was to be the new clan leader since the old one is dead. Now Uncle Neeg will have to be the clan leader, and when I get older I will have to marry him unless they find a young male fairy. I need to think.
*Frostie*
It's very late. I'm not supposed to be writing. Grandma Frost told me I wasn't to stay up for too long. I love Grandma Frost. She lives downstairs from us in the clan snowdrift. She brought me frozen hot chocolate. When she was younger- she used to be a journyfairy. I told you about them in my previous entry. She tells me stories about being a journyfairy. It's a noble job. Chocolate is very sacred in my clan.
Grandma is 5078 years old at least. She's one of the older people in the clan, but she still has very long to live. A few years ago, our clan leader died. He was the oldest frost farie in the world- 10034 years old. My grandma says he was the best clan leader in the whole entire world. Maybe that's true. He used to give us talks every week- and he taught us in Frost School sometimes. He was very influential to other Frost Fairy clans around Central Park- and even further. I wonder what things would be like if he was still alive today...
*Frostie*
I just got back from snowball hopping. It was exhilerating. Opal, my tiny ice dragon, is asleep by the fire in my clan's snowbank. Mother, who is the clanwoman, is busy making snow-cream for tonight's blizzard feast. She mixes snow and cream together and adds ice vine. She whips it up and for the fairys under 1000 years she adds chocolate. Chocolate is hard to come by, we have to enter a store which is much to warm and take some. It's very heavy - it takes ten full grown fairys to lift it. Auntie once told me a frightening story: There were ten frost fairys getting food for their clan (not my clan, but a closley related one.). They entered the freezer which is nice and cold and took a bar of chocolate. Then the unimaginable happened: as they were preparing to exit the freezer a human took the bar with them attatched and put them in a pie. It was delectable, and they were pleased, but then they were put in a piping hot oven and were roasted. I never want to be a journyfairy.
*frostie*