woke up feeling nauseous. Still feeling horrible. My insides hurt alot. Will drink water till I ascertain what is ailing me. I wish I had help right now.
Of the things that I can do well, one of them is being good at fighting losing battles hell I almost make the victory of my enemies Pyrrhic. And that's no easy task.
Second, I seem to be good at being isolated despite wanting to be out there. Maybe I'm too far out. Hell I don't even know anymore.
Make the pain stop.
Question: why is it that everything can be rationalized as both good and bad once you blur the line enough?
Answer: If we blur then line then there shall be no standards. There shall be no means with which to conduct ourselves. You've blurred then lines and you've had to pay dearly before in the past. One should not go out of one's way to repeat the past in future iterations of the present.
Got tagged. I hate chain mail.
This survey gets REAL personal, can you handle it? Yes, if by "REAL personal" you mean inane and stupid then yes.
Your last ex rapes your best friend. What do you do? Not bloody likely but if that were the case I'd be at a loss to draw a logical explanation. I'd kick both of their asses into next century.
Name one person you wish you could fix things with?
Sierra.
What’s something you’re looking forward to?
The day I get to be in command and be respected for all my hard work and input. Either that or the day I find something or someone that makes me utterly happy.
Have you ever turned to drinking or smoking to solve a problem?
Drinking but I broke myself of the habit.
Have you seen someone recently you used to talk to, but don’t anymore?
Yes. It's very annoying. Pretentious assholes.
Do you think it’s a bunch of shit when people say “I have no regrets?"
Yes. I've been told to live life with no regrets and honestly I must say that everyone has them regardless of whether or not they openly admit it.
Do your parents love you?
Maybe. Can't really tell the difference honestly.
There's a serial killer inside your house. What do you do?
I get my axe and I kill the bastard. No one tries to off me and expects to get away with it.
Would you be the dumb bitch who gets killed first in a movie?
Hell no. I'm either the comedic relief the prick that doesn't respect anybody's bullshit.
Do you get scared during scary movies?
Not exactly. I analyze.
Where do you want to live when you're older?
Someplace where I am accepted and loved by those around me. Someplace where it's never to hot or cold where everything is just right.
Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?
No. Everything has changed. Alliances have shifted and borders have been put up. I lost 2009. I may have had the initiative but people were against me. Traitors. The lot of them. If you can't tell the truth the say nothing.
Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say? How am I supposed to know if it's my ex or not? If so then I suppose being civil would do despite the amount of betrayal has been done.
Have you ever kissed anyone you weren't dating?
Nope. I am always faithful regardless how convenient things are.
Are you on any type of drugs?
No I am sober.
Where did your last hug take place?
I honestly can't remember. I cherish hugs when I actually get them though no one touches me.
Is there someone you're missing right now?
Sure there's someone I'm missing but a lot of good that does me, I got shit to do.
Whats something you need to get done?
I need to law down the law.
Have you ever fallen asleep in an opposite sex's bed?
Sure who hasn't.
What was the most boring thing you did today?
Train a new employee.
Are you taller then 5'5?
Yes though some would say barely.
Do you ever wonder if the person next to you is a virgin?
No, not really. Again with the inane questions?
Did you know anybody that has committed suicide?
I did. I hate funerals.
Are your toe nails painted pink?
No, my toes are almost always bruised since I wear steel toe boots all the time. There is no better shoe than one you can kick the shit out of dumb fucks with when things are nitty gritty.
Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
My crazy art friend. Who is an absolute hoot to talk to.
Do you cry?
I haven't in a while. It's kind of hard to connect with my emotions as of late.
Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed that up?
Sure. Who hasn't?
Have you ever kissed someones who's name started with a R?
Nope. Can't say that I have.
What does your 9th last text in your inbox say?
Hoeyda77
Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
At level that is comfortable to me.
Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo?
No not at the time.
Could things possibly get any better?
They could though I don't think will spiral out that way for a while.
When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
I do because it allows me to concentrate.
Where were you last Saturday night?
At home trying to beat a video game.
Who is the last person you ate with?
My mother.
Would you ever try being a vegetarian?
I have before it takes more discipline than I had at the time. If I were ever motivated to be one then maybe I'd try it out again.
Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?
Plenty of people. There's a list. Pick one from it. They deserve to get slapped.
Do you prefer to call or text?
I prefer to call. I rather hear a voice let's me tell who they are and what they really think. Texting is mostly impersonal and a way to cop out actually have a conversation that is meaningful.
If you could have anything right now what would it be?
For me to get a better job that has less stress and opportunity for advancement.
Did your last kiss mean anything to you?
It did though it let me know my fate was sealed.
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My shoulder needs to quit killin' me.
The past is only a stepping stone to our futures. Don't forget that we shape our tomorrows by what we do today. And when one is vigilant of these facts we'll steer ourselves to an acceptable future.
Feeling like I am dead on my feet feeling like i could fall over but I will remain vigilant, I will remain standing. I will not fail despite the wishes of my nemesi.
Feeling fatigued. Not been sleeping well at all lately. Hoping to get my life back in order. Keeping things at work in order doesn't matter if I can't organize or salvage anything from my personal life.
I absolutely enjoy when assholes make threats against my life over the internet. Enter the law. I hate assholes. I hate them very much. I hate the ones that try to control everything.
By the wayside I have fallen... I'm just debris floating in space.
Discovering that I am not worth anything as of late. Not even sure if I am still considered an entity.
My heart is burning a hole through my chest and I just want to let it out.
I suppose I should be delighted that I am only second best. That my total worth is similar to that of which is considered the other white meat. As if to say the sum of my worth despite all of my endeavors is only worth dross. There's much more to life when you aspire to be high than the gutter or the stars above them. When you want to be successful in spite of nay saying and traitors cowards who much rather abandon you to the wolves than help you when your steps falter. I dare to pick myself up, brush myself off and try again. I dare to want the things that are inalienable to my life, liberty and pursuit of happiness provided the feelings are mutual. What's the point of survival when the definition is not to flourish in the face of adversity? What's the point of pleasantries when you're dealing with ungrateful faggots? I'll tell you the point: It's because when you prove them wrong, when you redefine the moment or how something is done all the people who've tried to stop you will only be forced to eat their words and frolic about in the petty worlds with their delusions of eloquence.
Man I am exhausted. I am going to have to be aggressive the next few weeks. Provided i survive.
I guess I'm just another bad guy.
You're a member of the elite now. The world will be your oyster and the horn of plenty shall be available. While the rest of us our dying you'll be with the high and mighty spared our harsh fate. Though you don't really belong, they'll keep you so long as your useful.
Dear Shit Beard and Bitch Flocket,
I hate you both. You're both shitty people with horrible in tastes in anything cultured. Your life style habits and lack of hygiene are disgusting. Honestly I wish ya'll would just get eaten by zombies or abducted by aliens for an extended and permanent anal-probing. Seriously though if you think being petty with me will work then I suggest you think again. I can raise quite the shit storm when motivated. Especially when I go a crusading.
Thanks for wasting my time- douche bags,
I am fighting a multi-front war. I am exhausted. I need a change in scenery. I am not a slave anymore so don't like I'm amongst the ranks of the indentured.If you want my help then accept the fact even though terms may be negotiable respect for both parties should be constant.
I feel so dead right now.